Here are some photos of my study abroad experience from this past summer. I’m Maria btw. I’m from NJ and I cannot wait for you to go on tour so I can see you again! I just wanted to let you know that having you in my life is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I’m so proud to be able to say that I look up to you and that you inspire me every single day. It’s been 10+ years where you have been my #1 inspiration for everything I do, and I certainly would not be the young woman I am if you had not been with me every step of the way.
“It’s nice getting older. A lot of people have been saying to me, ‘You are so much more confident and comfortable.’ There was a lot of energy being thrust at me then. I’m not someone who was solely desirous of becoming rich and famous. I can sit here and talk about my movies all day long. It’s what I’m most interested in — as selfish as that sounds. There was just something about the way everything was being ingested by people back then. There were aspects of it I wasn’t even aware of. Now I’ve learned to take it and have it be my own thing.”
At first I wanted to write a very philosophical post on the topic of people’s insecurities, but somehow the power stopped me. I just decided to ask you, what material, what photos would you like to see with me? Do not hesitate, please write, because I answer EVERYBODY! I want to know what you are inspired to write about this post, make a selection of photos, do everything to go to my blog, you feel at home! Because I love you, your Nana!
A Private Dance (Negan x Reader):As a new dancer, you try and familiarize yourself with the regulars, listening to the other women’s advice. However, your eye catches a man in a leather jacket sitting towards the back of the room.
“I Don’t Wanna Live Forever” (Negan x Reader):Negan realizes the truth to the saying, “you never know what you have until you’ve lost it.” When you, one of his wives, decide to leave him, you wonder if you’ve made the right decision and Negan starts to question if he should have let you go in the first place.
I Know Your Secret (Negan x Reader):After a year from being accepted into The Sanctuary, you had become one of Negan’s top Saviors. During a night of fun with the rest of your fellow Saviors, Negan drops in and decides to tease you for hiding such an “important” secret.
It’s Over (Negan x Reader): Negan doesn’t understand that your affair with him is over. You, however, had enough and finally lose control. (Part of @embracetheapocalypsewithme‘s 400 Follower Negan Challenge).
Let Me Make it Up to You (Jason Crouse x Reader):You were waiting for Jason to come home when you heard someone trying to pick the lock. Leaving your bedroom to check on the noise, you see someone dressed in all black and a ski-mask to cover their faces with an opened bag. Managing to scare them away, you are obviously shaken up when Jason decided to walk in. Thinking it was the burglar, you grab a vase and smash it over his head, realizing that it was Jason that you had just hurt.
Let Me Take Care of You (Negan x Reader):After sorting out the supplies from a successful run on a hot, summer’s day, you accidentally cut yourself after opening a box with your knife. Negan takes notice and decides to take care of it himself.
Let’s Make A Deal (Negan x OC):After the deaths of Glenn and Abraham, Rick and the rest of the group have been on edge. Hannah didn’t know what she had gotten herself into when joining this group, but she was just about to find out what had everyone working their asses off. Negan shows up and offers her a deal that she cannot refuse.
Now, What Do We Have Here? (Negan x Reader x Simon):You have been living in the Sanctuary for two months now and neither men showed any interest towards you. Though, it is a good thing that you’ve got a vivid imagination and after a long day at work, you decide to let out some steam.
Playing with Fire (Ike Evans x Reader):Your father stays in one of the suites at the Miramar Playa, and the hotel’s owner, caters to his every need. But, when you finally see what this man looks like, you cannot help but tease him every chance you could get.
Similar Personalities (Max x OC):Max needs some comforting and turns to you to make him feel better. What he didn’t expect was for you to find out his secret, and more than willing to partake in one of his fantasies.
Talk Dirty to Me (Negan x OC):You can’t help but be attracted your leader, to your Savior, Negan. What happens when he brings you back to his office? Will it finally happen?
Straight for the Castle (Negan x OC):King Ezekiel’s daughter, “Princess” Ramona, has a plan to overthrow her father and take over the Kingdom. When her plan finally goes through, Negan shows up at the gates of the Kingdom while her father was on a supply run.
The Newest Family Addition (Jason Crouse x OC):Jason and Jen tell Susie the good news, but as the months progress and Jen’s baby bump begins to show, Susie becomes anxious that her parents will replace her. (Part 2 to Sunday Funday Surprise).
The Physical (Negan x Reader): Going to the doctor’s have always been a big fear of yours and now that you were waiting for your doctor to enter the room, he walks in with a large grin and deep dimples. (Part of noodlescupcakes 1st Writing Challenge.)
The Proposal (Negan x OC):@a-girl-interupted requested: “I had an idea of a character with negan where she eventually becomes his/a wife and somehow he realizes how important it would be to her to have an actual proposal and wedding. We dont want to Negan too soft and the details are up to you but I would cry to see this”
You Belong to Me (Negan x Reader):You didn’t realize what you were getting into after stealing the supplies. However, what you also didn’t expect was to be attracted by the man who ultimately had your fate in his hands.
You’re Safe With Me (Max x Reader):Max didn’t expect for you, the new tenant, to be newly divorced with two young children. However, the more time he spent with you, the more he realized that you had taken him out of the walls and shown him a world that he always knew he could live.
“Life is not a movie. But I do not make that point in a sad or regretful way. I can only wonder, if my life had been a movie, would a director have cast Gene Tierney to play the part? The bitter with the sweet makes for a better part.”
I Just had to throw colors at this. When I saw this on twitter…
What’d you think. Hope i did it justice. I was trying something different… mostly inspired by my favourite colorist… Marte Garcia… I just love how he colours and brings this amazing feel and look to everything he works on… So i tried my best to recreate and add a sort of mood to the drawing by Tom Derenick… not that it needed. The mood was present in the line art.
Spent quite a few days on this one. More time than I thought i would… XD
Four things I have to deal with daily as a woman in STEM:
For those of you who don’t know me, I’m halfway through my junior year of double majoring in meteorology and astrophysics, two predominantly male fields. Over the past few weeks I’ve attended the Conference for Undergraduate Women in Physics (CuWiP) and the Women’s march on Washington. These events have not only opened my eyes to realize what I’m really going through as a woman in STEM, they’ve inspired me to start speaking out about my experiences. So, here’s a few things I deal with every day in my fields:
1. Imposter syndrome: a concept describing high-achieving individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a “fraud”.
Everything that happens to go right is by chance. Aced that exam? I got lucky. Answered a question correctly in class? Probably will never happen again. Whenever someone thinks I know what is going on in a class or how to solve a problem I think, “Surely they must be misunderstood. There is no way I know more than them, therefore if I answer their question it will be wrong and hinder them.” So I don’t even try to answer. I just say, “I don’t know” and move on. Every time someone asks to see my homework solutions I hand them over saying, “They’re probably wrong.” I genuinely don’t understand how I’ve gotten this far in my double major, and every time I look back I see a history of pure luck, not hard work. Every time I write an application, all I can think is “They will see through your facade. Your resume is fake. You’re making false claims in your essay. Even if they do accept you, once you start the program they will see right through you and be disappointed. If they accept you, they’ve made a mistake.” These thoughts are constantly swirling through my head, to the point where I’ve lost motivation to pay attention in class, since I shouldn’t be there anyway. I shouldn’t even try on my homework because I’ll always fail in the end. Which brings me to my next hardship:
2. Stereotype threat: “a situational predicament in which people are or feel themselves to be at risk of conforming to stereotypes about their social group. If negative stereotypes are present regarding a specific group, group members are likely to become anxious about their performance, which may hinder their ability to perform at their maximum level.”
This is a new concept to me that really hit home when I heard about it at CuWiP. On countless occasions I’ve avoided joining predominantly male study sessions/homework sessions (even with my closest friends) because I was afraid I would appear stupid and not know anything, which of course must be true because I am a woman. This has most definitely affected my test scores and overall course grades over the past few years. Going back to focusing in class and working on homework; there are days when I literally can’t hear the professor speaking because my brain repeats on-end “you are a failure”. Whenever I sit down in front of my homework it’s “you don’t know this, you will never know this. Give up now”. Every day my motivation dwindles down a bit further. If so few women have made it this far then it’s only a matter of time before I’m discovered as a fraud and drop out too.
3) Subconsciously sexist friends and classmates.
Most of my friends are male. That’s just how it works when 70-90% of the people in your classes are male. Most of my friends are also sexist. I know they don’t mean it and they certainly don’t notice it, but they treat me drastically different from the rest of the crew. I am left out of personal projects because it’s assumed I wouldn’t be interested in helping out. I’m excluded from group study invitations. I’m ignored in academic conversations and receive surprised expressions when I actually chime in. When I point out concerns for being a woman in STEM all I get in return is silence. Occasionally I’ll even have my questions blatantly ignored. It’s assumed I don’t notice when they only make fun of female tv meteorologists, claiming they don’t know any meteorology and are only hired for their attractive looks and hot bodies when I’ve never heard them make fun of a male tv meteorologist.
4) Being the only woman in the room
I realize this doesn’t seem like it should be a big issue, and it certainly isn’t for some of my fellow women in STEM, but I notice it every damn time. A piece of me falls every damn time. I do not feel safe in a room surrounded by men. Not because I’m afraid of being assaulted or harassed, but because these moments are when the imposter syndrome and stereotype threat run strongest in my already belittled mind. And it happens all. the. time. I’ve stopped hanging out in certain areas, such as the astro lounge, because I know if I go there I will most likely be the only woman. I also know that being in any closed area with a large percentage of men holds a higher chance of hearing a derogatory comment (about women in general), being ignored, and hearing inappropriate conversations about things such as sexual assault (you know, “locker room talk”).
All of this is only just breaking the surface, but what I’ve learned over the last few weeks is that silence will fix nothing. For the longest time I thought all of these feelings were either normal or just a “me” thing. Attending CuWiP made me realize that no, this is not just me. This is all women, and these are issues that needs to be voiced and fixed. While I’m still afraid of speaking up in person, I’m going to try my best to call people out on their bullshit whenever I can and feel safe to.
“Dear Watcher, I’ve returned home safely, and have
resumed my daily hunts for the clan, although none of them have or will
ever quite live up to the adventure we shared. You should come visit if
you ever get bored of that grand castle of yours. I’m sure Kallu would
be happy to catch a break from the constant stream of questions from my
Youngest; Malaak won’t stop asking about the "Shadow Flame Woman”, his
words not mine, but you have to admit that does sound awe-inspiring! Thank you again for everything, Sagani"
Lot’s of fun with this one, I can’t wait for PoE: Deadfire, so I painted one of my favorite characters: Sagani.
I AM SO COMPLETELY HEARTBROKEN ABOUT PITCH. I can’t even form complete thoughts right now. I’m devastated. FOX is on my shit list. Pitch was the best new show on tv, and they didn’t even give it a chance. It had everything a viewer could ask for–
diversity: two POC leads. healthy relationship between two black people (how RARE is that on tv?). Latino in a place of power, Asian man who stands up to his white boss and asks to be taken more seriously, etc.
women at the helm: black woman lead, learning how to navigate her way through the man’s world of baseball, inspiring millions along the way. Boss ass female agent who takes no shit from anyone and protects her client at all costs. “Baseball wife” who strives to be more than a baseball wife.
accurate representation of mental health: Ginny suffers from depression and anxiety and it properly explained to its audience the toll it can take on a person. A whole episode was dedicated to her getting the help she needs, and it could’ve delved into that more if given more time.
male/female friendships: Ginny’s teammates have come to love and respect her. her friendships with Blip and Livan are prominently showcased.
possible interracial relationship: BAWSON!!!!!!!!!
possible LGBT characters: We all know Livan is bi or pan, fam.
@foxtv made a monumental mistake letting this phenomenal show go. My only hope is that another network, maybe a streaming site, will see the incredible foundation and potential this show has and swoop in to give it another chance.
(***I’m a closet witch so I have to type this all on mobile, sorry if any formatting is weird! Also this is my first spell I’ve ever written, and I’m very !!!!! about it.)
So I was HELLA inspired by Wonder Woman, I absolutely loved it, and–you, you reading this? YOU SHOULD GO SEE IT. Minor disclaimer, I have never read a single Wonder Woman comic in my life, so everything that I know about her is based on her movie and DC Comics Wiki Page. Anywho, let’s get started!
LUDENDORFF: What are you?
DIANA: I am Diana of Themyscira, daughter of Hippolyta, Queen of the Amazons.
Wonder Woman’s cuff-bracelets are called the Bracelets of Submission, and are worn by all Amazons. They serve as a reminder of the oppression the Amazons felt under Hercules, and also as protection to their wearer. For this spell, we’re going to keep both of these things in mind.
Preferably, a set of bracelets you wear almost every day. Alternatively, you could use earrings, rings, hair rubber bands, anklets, socks. Basically, two separate articles, with one worn on your right and your left.
I’m not super huge into timing, so you can do this whenever you want. I like Wednesday because of alliteration.
Time to channel your inner badass Amazon. Do some self care! Take a witchy bath, smother yourself in lotion, do a face mask, etc. Do whatever you need to do to feel epic and unstoppable. And put on some clothes that make you feel confident! Also, grab your phone or laptop, and get Wonder Woman’s theme queued up. (I believe her theme is titled “Wonder Woman’s Wrath. Listen to it before/during/after the spell to pump you up.)
1) Do your normal pre-spell set up. Ground and cleanse, cast a circle, call on your deities, scream at the void, etc.
2) Cleanse the objects you’re going to enchant.
3) Meditate on the badassery of the Amazons and Wonder Woman. Remember your favorite scene(s) from the movie. Picture yourself as an Amazon, fighting next to Wonder Woman. Feel the power and strength course through you with every breath. You’re fucking AWESOME. Revel in it.
4) Take the item to be worn on your dominant side, and hold it in your dominant hand. Internally or aloud, say
“I have endured oppression and wish to see it eliminated. I am kept safe from oppression, and fight to free others. I am strong and protected. Protect me so I may protect others. My oppression has made me s t r o n g e r.”
Don the item.
5) Take the item to be worn on your non-dominant side, and hold it in your non-dominant hand. Internally or aloud, say
“I have endured oppression and wish to see it eliminated. Change is the way of the world, even though there are those who fight against progress. I fight to bring progress. Protect me and guide me in my quest to aid others. My oppression has made me w i s e r.”
Don the item.
6) Strike a power pose. My personal favorite is feet slightly wider than shoulder-width apart, hands on hips, shoulders rolled back and down. Internally or aloud, say
“I am Power. I am Progress. I am protected through the power of these [items]. What once weakened me now strengthens me.”
7) Hold your arms out in a W shape. Close your eyes and feel your power. Visualize it, and make it your own. It can be lightning, water, energy, cats, etc. When you feel ready, cross your wrists in front of you. This is the fun part: you get to come up with an identifying phrase like Diana, following her format.
“I am [name] of [place], [identifying adjective] of [insert forces here]. I am Wonder [Person].”
Go crazy with it. Do you want to be the guardian of bees? Sweet. Do you want to be the destroyer of the gender binary? Awesomesauce. Do you want to be the patron of under appreciated vegetables? Hell yeah. The forces can be any elements you like, schools of witchcraft you follow, deities you worship, or whatever you like. Make it personal. Make it you! And make it AWESOME!
8) Now, wear these items whenever you need strength and/or protection against anything. Wear them to school to ward against bullshit. Wear them to work to protect you from stress. Whenever you wear put these items on, stand in front of your mirror in your favorite power pose. Cross your wrists and say “I am Wonder [Person].”
And that’s it! This is my first spell, so any constructive criticism would be nice! If you decide to do this spell, let me know how it went for you!
I have no words for how much this ray of sunshine in my life inspires, empowers and encourages me to be a better woman and citizen of planet earth. Everything she stands for and fights to be heard is inspirational and her journey to where she is now is incredible. Seeing her living her life so purely, cleanly and humanly has shown me what it means to truly be a woman. It’s to love yourself for all that you are. It’s to cherish what you have in your life and see the beauty in all around you. It’s to respect not only others, but yourself and show yourself that you care enough to take care of your body, mentally and physically. It’s to live every day to the max and not to let any opportunity pass you by. Being a woman is empowering yourself, other women and men, and the generation to come. Women are beautiful when they’re empowering each other and Gal has taught me the true meaning of that, thank you, you angel 💕
This has consumed me for months. I can’t wait to hand it over and rest.
At first I was going to write a book about self love, but I’ve just started that journey and have along way to go, so I’ll save that for my second book.
For my first book, I’m going to write about myself, my life and my truth. I’ll be describing all of the traumas I’ve experienced in life, as a means to inspire people who are currently going though the same shit; I’m talking Immigration, Abusive family members, my relationship with my mother, single parent upbringing, father issues, social media and estranged siblings, suicide, deaths, murder, debt, depression, isolation, Cancer, Betrayal, Abusive relationships, God and spiritually, good friendships, entrepreneurship as a black woman and ending it with self love, reconciliation and falling in love. Im still in my 20s.
As much as those topics sound dark and depressing, that’s everything I’ve experienced in my life, either first hand or second hand and I’ve always managed to walk away from it all and reflect positively. I want to share what I’ve learned and why I chose to be optimistic and vibrate higher.
I remember earlier this year when I told the publishers the concept of the book and they were surprised that someone my age has such a vast range of life experiences, as they can only relate to one or two traumas - I had to explain the differences between our generations. Unfortunately, even though we are witnessing a huge shift in technology, we’re carrying way too many bags of suffering that wasn’t intended for us to hold.
I think my truth will become a self help book in itself, and I stand by that. My truth will become public domain because everything I’ve gone through, someone else can relate to it. I’m not ashamed of anything and neither should you be!