this will never not break my heart


“Life is more a matter of choosing than knowing. He could never know the eventual destination of his path, but he could always choose in which direction to take each step.” 

― Matthew Woodring Stover, “Traitor”

do we ever think about the hearts we break? i still feel bits of you in my hands, i still feel warmth of you in my veins. my apologizes are wrapped into bottles of alcohol you drink in hopes to forget. maybe one day time will work in our favor. i left one last piece of my love into your arms and took one last piece of your dreams into my heart. do we know real absence until we lose the one we love? we still write promises into every step we take. we still kiss stars into every lullaby we whisper. do we ever think of each other? maybe at the same time, maybe into different fractions, maybe never, maybe too fast, maybe too late. these maybes are getting me crazy. maybe i miss you maybe i don’t. maybe you love me maybe you never did. i can’t think straight. the light is gone, the truth has run wild, the words are useless. the lies hurt less when we spin them around us pretending not to see, the truth hurts more when our heart is blind. when do we think when it’s too early or too late? will there ever be a right time for us?
—  k.m
Can we please drop the gatekeeper complex in the TCC

I feel like I’m hearing more and more cases of callout posts along the lines of “you’re not a real TC'er because he’s less than 30!!!” or “you’re not even allowed because he’s never actually been your teacher” like… can we please just shut up and let people have fun in this community. My TC is 46 and has been my teacher for 2.5 years, so I don’t get these comments, but it breaks my heart to see my girls and boys in this community get shut down for not having a “real” TC. Bitch, please, quit the elitist shit and just scroll past posts you don’t like instead of hating on people that are trying to feel comfortable with some very real feelings. Thank u for coming to my TED talk

the entire siege arrow scene is so fuckign funny in retrospect knowing that percy and vex knew they had feelings for each other by that point because they’re both hilariously unsubtle about it but neither of them think it’s requited

percy: shattering stone, shattering doors, breaking things that should not be broken.
vex: breaking hearts left and right?
percy: if… that is what you’re after.
percy: never forget you’re my favorite and i’m so sorry.

anonymous asked:

what if draco had died in the battle of hogwarts? what if his mother found his body after lucius had been hauled off, after she'd been searching and shaking for hours? what would happen when she finally sees her son, his white hair plastered to his even paler face with blood, and she just breaks? narcissa malfoy, just woman who seemed to hold such a poker face, shatters. her face crumples. her son, the only thing that matters, died fighting for a cause she never wanted him to be involved with.


I need to write about Jess and Rory. Don’t know if Literati shippers will even see this but I just need to get this out. They are breaking my heart. The fact that we will never know if they got together in the end.

Yes, I admit I ship them partly because Jess is the sexiest boy I’ve ever seen. But they so obviously belong together.

When I first saw Jess I liked him. Because part of me is Jess. I am an angry child, hating the world because my mommy never loved me. Boo-freaking-hoo right? Yeah, that’s how I feel about it too. And that’s my inner Jess talking. We act like we don’t care about anything, want to tell everyone to fuck off and have this wish that we won’t ever need anybody so we have a tendency to push people away. That’s why I love him. Because he brings out a part of me that I usually try to ignore. Because I don’t want to be angry, I don’t want to shut everybody out. But when I see him I get to embrace that feeling and for a minute just let it out. And it feels good.

When I first saw Rory, she annoyed me. She was just so perfect. Never really got angry and always pleased everybody. Never really seemed to have a problem with anything. I always could relate more to Lorelai in the first season.

But in the second season. Wow. I suddenly get Rory. Because together, she and Jess tell two parts of the same story. They both come from broken families and in some way had to raise themselves. Rory does have Lorelai but she behaves with incredible self discipline and has made rules for herself that seem to come from her and not her mother. I recognise this because I have been the same. My behaviour came from not feeling like I could rely on a parent to steer me in the direction I wanted. 

Jess and Rory are two people who have learned to depend on themselves and they both have this way of coping with things in order to make things easier. Jess runs away, literally. Rory doesn’t let stuff get to her. She has this way of thinking she can choose what she wants to feel.

Even though they turned out a bit different they share the same point of view of the world and that connects them. More so than the books.

But also the books.

It’s just painful that two people who get each other like this aren’t together.

This felt way personal but I just had to get it out. Ships have that effect on me.

it breaks my heart that I never visited the Calderón and never will, that I can’t be a member of the club or have a reserved ticket but it also feels me with joy to be a fan on the other side of the world, answering why the hell would I choose Atleti and spreading the ~spirit. Sometimes it’s nice to be the only one who understands the feeling.


Part 1

You decide none the less to confess to Jungkook. (This hurt my heart to write)

You look at both the boys standing before you, no matter how hard you tried though you couldn’t picture yourself with Yoongi, you cared about him but not in the way he felt about you, upon realizing the awkward silence in the room you cleared your throat and forced yourself to do the hardest thing, break Yoongi’s heart. “Yoongi, I am so sorry. I never realized but I don’t think I can stand here and say I feel the same.” You said as tears threatened to spill.

He looked up at you, his heart audibly cracking in two as he saw the tears on your cheeks, he wish he could take it all back just so he could still be your best friend but he couldn’t find the right words. He just nodded “I know.” He muttered vaguely and saw Jungkook’s shocked face in the corner of his eye. 

“Yoongi I am so sorry.” You nearly sobbed as he left the room not wanting to be around anyone at that moment. 

Jungkook came to his senses and strode over to you and engulfed you in a hug “Don’t worry, he’ll be fine. He cares about you too much to hate you.” He comforted as you cried into his chest.

You pushed him away and prepared yourself for the same heartbreak Yoongi was suffering in that moment “I don’t like Yoongi because….because I like you.” You spoke quietly.

Jungkook’s face fell back into the shocked expression it was sitting in only moments ago “Y-you like me?” He asked you to make sure he heard you correctly.

You nodded and stared at his shirt, the one you had bought him a few months prior for his birthday and you almost smiled at the fond memory. Jungkook had to think for a moment as he remembered all the times you had done things that at the time had seen awkward or unusual that now made sense to him. It gave him a warm feeling however to hear you say that you liked him “Jungkook please say something.” You mumbled interrupting his thoughts.

He pulled you back into a hug and pressed a kiss into your forehead “The first time I met you, I had the worlds biggest crush on you. Over time I lost it because you became more than just some crush, you became my best friend. I think I’ve liked you ever since our first kiss but I pushed it away, I didn’t want to loose you but now I realize I am not loosing anything but  in fact I am gaining a relationship with you.” He spoke, surprising himself at his ability to form sentences after being so shocked.

As his words hit your ears they brought more tears to your eyes but this time they were happy tears, you still felt terrible about Yoongi and you only hoped he could forgive you “I don’t want to ruin your friendship with Yoongi though.” You said.

He pulled you away ever so slightly to look at your face, holding your chin between his fingers delicately as if you might crack under any more pressure “Yoongi Hyung is hurting right now but he will be fine and I think he will be able to support us, just don’t worry about that. I can talk to him and make sure everything will be fine.” He assured.

You nodded and pressed yourself into him once more and just clung to him as if it was the last time you were going to hold him. 

I think the hardest part of losing you was knowing you were okay. That while I was wiping away my tears, you had your hands on her waist. And when I was going through the texts, you had already deleted my number. I don’t think it hurts because you didn’t come back. I think it hurts because I know that no part of you wanted to. You were okay. You didn’t look back, but I couldn’t look ahead. And I hate that. I hate that you could break my heart without even trying, without even realizing it. That for you, walking away was the easiest thing in the world. I want you to hurt, I want you to know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out. Because trust me, it’s hurts like hell.
—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write #9

ridanoyurei  asked:

Hi! For the songs: 5, 11, 23 ,27 (can I even ask more than one?) Thank you! I really like your blog!

thank you!!! and ofc u can ask more than one (pls send me even more…..)

  • 5: A song that needs to be played LOUD

This is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco

  • 11: A song that you never get tired of

Winter Song by The Head and the Heart? very short but very cute

  • 23: A song that you think everybody should listen to

The Promise by Tracy Chapman… it’s so so so beautiful

  • 27: A song that breaks your heart

well Supermarket flowers broke my heart but let’s choose another one bc i recommended Ed Sheeran nth times on this blog lol. idkkk The Last Goodbye by Billy Boyd?

So. I need a moment to talk about this because I just saw a gifset from Strong Woman Do Bong Soon with the caption “why is he always so shook” in reference to Min Huk (x)

It’s funny, but also it breaks my heart because this boy has never had someone care for him. His mother died when he was young, he grew up abused by his father and brothers. Nobody ever treated him with care, so his entire life he learned never to expect to be treated with love and kindness. He excudes confidence and charisma, remains lighthearted and a jokester on the outside, but it’s because he’s put up walls and built a persona to protect himself and his vulnerabilities. You’ll notice he always removes himself from the world when he’s lonely and hurting. It’s his way of surviving. 

That’s why he is constantly surprised and “shook” because he can’t understand why anyone would take the time to care about his feelings. There’s not only shock, but probably fear too because why would anyone care? This boy risked death to save Bong Soon without the expectation of her loving him back. Without the expectation of anything, fully accepting he could DIE. All he wanted in return was a few days of feeling somebody actually care about his well-being for once and that was after he woke up alive

This drama is hella problematic in so many ways but Min Hyuk won’t let me rest. I can’t keep away from his character. “Min Shook” is hilarious but rips my heart out at the same time . Here ends the reason why I can’t stop watching this drama despite it’s problematic elements. 

a really short sanvers scene cause I needed to.

Alex never felt actually in love before Maggie. Before the NCPD girl showed up at her crime scene, the girl that loved guns, tiramsu, barenaked ladies and bonsai trees.
So one day, when she wakes up with her girlfriend by her side, she decides to make breakfast for her, and starts singing.
“ Darling lately, I’ve been walking blind in the dark never see the sun
You could save me
Give a little heat to the heart that was born to run
It was love in a minute, god I admit it
Let’s make a break for the door
Be my baby
Keep me crazy
Woah, oh oh, uhh!”
Maggie wakes up to her girlfrind’s beautiful voice singing, and her heart is full of love.
She walks into the kitchen to a dancing and smiling Danvers.
“Morning, Danvers”
“hey babe.”
“So I heard you singing like 20 seconds ago…”
Alex blushes.
“yeah… You have a beautiful voice love”
And suddenly Alex is singing close to her, as they slow dance in the kitchen.
Cause that’s the kinda thing she never knew she needed.

 ella  is  so  pure  ??  she  gave  the  scraps  she  got  for  dinner  to  the  mice  instead  of  eating  and  she  probably  never  ate  again  for  the  remainder  of  the  evening  ??    she  cares,  but  she  knows  well  to  hide  her  emotions  and  put  up  a  kind  facade  /  always  making  sure  that  even  if  she’s  not  pleased,  everyone  else  is  ??  and  i  love  her ??    what  the  fukc ?? 

Maybe its time for me to reboot my system?

Try again under another name… Restart my entire life and pretend like this all never happened…


Too many memories… Too many emotions…
It would break my heart…

The question is… Would it break my heart more if I stay?…