this will be a fine day i feel

Can we talk about how fish husband goes to his sister’s memorial every night and cries?  And if you talk to him he apologizes for it?  Like he’s embarrassed of his feels? but he misses her so much?! 

Can we talk about how he was just a bab when she died and he had to listen to everyone talk about how wonderful she was and how he must have horrible survivor’s guilt, especially because he doesn’t have any magic powers?  Like maybe he lifts because the only power he can harness is his own rippling muscles?  And he can’t get emotional in public because everyone is counting on him to be brave and strong so he just has to smile and act like everything is fine?

This game is destroying me.  All the npcs have complex lives and routines that they do every day and it just feels so real, like they don’t just stand there at all hours waiting for you, they walk around and do things and have emotions and now I HAVE EMOTIONS

P.S. I am I the only one who sucked so bad at Vah Ruta that Sidon started crying out “Don’t drown!” every time I fell too far away from him to swim to me?

anonymous asked:

Please please please some angst for feysand just really angsty - like unresolved fights etc xxxx please and thank you

A/N: I have to say, writing angst for these two was a challenge, especially with the tone.

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They had return to their rooms after a long day of negotiations for an alliance between the Night and Summer Court. It was an exhausting day of court politics. Rhys would barely look at me and his cold silence was killing me. He stripped, readying himself for bed.

“Rhys, please don’t shut me out.” The words came out somewhere between a plea and a demand.

“Fine, you want to know what I am feeling. I’m feeling ashamed that you are using your body instead of your brain.”

I met his glare, how dare he judge me. “Don’t you dare judge me, you whored yourself out for 49 years to a monster to protect our court. We need this alliance and if it means I have to flirt and stroke a few egos so be it.”

His voice was lethal calm, “I think the difference is, you enjoy it.”

What?! How could he not see this for what it was? A mask. I felt nothing but anger and shame flooding the bond. There was not an ounce of love intermixed like all the other times we had fought. The feelings were slowly breaking my heart and it physically hurt.  It felt like the bond was punishing me. I felt the need to protect myself, protect my heart.  I sealed my end of the bond, and before I could say another word, I walked out.

I didn’t know if I should feel relieved or angry that he did not follow me.

I walked to the beach. The sound of waves breaking were normally a comfort for me, but tonight they fed the anger roiling through me.

I’m not sure how long I sat in the sand before I felt a gentle caress against my mental shields. Fuck him! Who was he to think he could say those words to me. Who was he to think he could judge me. After everything we had been through. I strengthened my shields, adding layers of fire and ice.

I loved him. No matter what mask he donned, I could see beneath it. I could see the man that would sacrifice himself for the things he loved. Once again I had fallen in love with a male, that I loved more than he would ever love me.

It hurt to know that no one would ever fully see me and love me for every broken and imperfect piece. Who couldn’t see though the masks I wore to protect the things I loved.

And I think it’s really going to be okay. Sure, it doesn’t feel like it now, but honestly, does it ever? We always have these ups and downs with the downs lasting longer than the ups most days, but we always make it out alright. Maybe with a few scars, maybe a few bad memories, maybe a few regrets but alright. And this will be another one of those times. You and I, we’re gonna be fine.
—   Maxwell Diawuoh, For the anon that felt “hopeless and lost and quite alone.”

(Submitting this due to the length of it)

I think the thing a lot of people are afraid of here is, rather than being worried of the game gaining popularity and losing its Hipster Status, is that they’re worried that the fanbase is going to be toxic as fuck. Take Undertale for example. Sure, in the beginning days of when that was first released, everything was fine. But as time went on, the Undertale fandom grew more and more gross, with things like major controversy and arguments within the fanbase itself, a shit ton of pedophiliac content, and a whole heap of edgy and cringeworthy content being produced as well (which I personally am fine with myself especially since a lot of it is made by kids (though not all), but many others dont feel the same). And all of those things and more just made both long-time fans and potential fans alike just step away from it altogether. You would not believe the amount of times I’ve read the line “Yeah Undertale looks cool but the community seems toxic as fuck and I don’t want to be anywhere near it”.

And that’s personally my fear of what may come if OneShot does gain more popularity from Mark playing it. I mean there’s definitely nothing set in stone yet, of course. Mark played OFF too, but people barely touched that game after he finished his playthrough. I think people just need to chill for now, wait see what comes next. If it starts to seem like something might be going wrong with OneShot’s fanbase, perhaps that’s the time people should start worrying a pinch. But everything’s absolutely fine as it is at the moment.

I’ve been in small fandoms for over a decade. fandoms can be “toxic as fuck” regardless of size, and big fandoms are full of people but most of them are nice so the ratio of good vs “toxic” is about the same

dont try me with that undertale stuff the ut fandom has been toriel porn since the demo days there’s actually way less porn (by proportion) in the tag by the time it got popular

And sadly… OneShot fandom already has some unsavory content as far as I know, I know I kinda already addressed this back in december but come on, multiple people calling a 6 year old girl “waifu”? isn’t “toxic” enough or something? :p and why is that, despite this, the only complaint ive seen on character sexualization is “i hope this fully-legal grown-up male character doesn’t become the fan favorite?”

come on, dude… it doesn’t add up…

anonymous asked:

Really, Zelda is such a wonderful series, I have never seen an entire franchise that ages so well, because it is so story and world driven. The games are amazing, and I love them.

Right? Like, Mario has Mastered it’s own formula, and keeping an air of retro style. This might be because it damn well near defined what ‘retro’ means these days, but in a sense, it has kept with it’s roots, and those roots are quite old. Which is usually running from left to right with no greater meaning. Which is fine. It is what it is, it is done well, but it will always feel old.

Zelda has always been about the idea adventure first and foremost and has grown to meet that. Zelda 1 was what they could do with what they had and every game since then has felt similar. It was about making the greatest adventure with the tech at the time. Because of this, the vibe of a Zelda game can change and age with it’s audience and the technology. 

What’s more, it’s appeal is to that of both hardcore and casual gamers. It’s like a novel or famous book series. Even a casual reader will pick it up, despite it’s length, and enjoy what little they read. Zelda games feel that way. It’s about that adventure and as long as Nintendo continue to make that adventure the best they can, it’ll remain timeless.

anonymous asked:

helo I need help? My friend made me go to this pub and her friends (men ofc) were all "what ur name bby girl" and I was like ye im fatima and they went all "shit u arab" "ye" and the terrorist jokes started,,, "you're fine af but you should still go back to your country" "I've never fucked a terrorist before" and my 'friend' laughed at literally every joke and after one hour of racism I went home and started crying bc it was scary and I want to die so much wtf is wrong with ppl I want to kms

This is so disgusting you deserve friends who love you and make you feel warm and safe honestly drop her if you can because she should have defended you I’m so sorry that happened ilysm and I hope today is a better day I can’t imagine how horrible and scary that must have been honestly fuck all of them I’m so mad ily

sanjuubyou  asked:

"You told me that I'd crawl back to you in less than two days but you couldn't keep yourself composed for less than /two/ hours! I guess I'm not the one that needs you, huh?" -bleachandblood

“…Excuse me? I have no idea what you’re talking about. I haven’t done anythi– Ugh, fine.”

“I just miss you a lot okay! I’m so used to being with you and it feels weird when i’m away… We have pointless fights all the time but we make up the first few minutes so this was new. Can you blame me for wanting to be with you?”

“……..I don’t like you though, we’re just … Bros! Haha yes. Friends with er benefits? Yeah. Totally.”

{I made some progress today. It’s getting better. Slowly, but surely. I’ve just lost all motivation as of late. On the outside, it looks like a normal day- I look fine and all that. But deep down, I’m feeling… Well, empty. Like I’m just existing. No real purpose. It’s shitty. But, there’s a glimmer of hope yet. I can’t wait until I can get back to normal. I haven’t done replies on either account, and I feel terrible. But, I’m doing the best I can, and it is getting better.

itsprobably-magic  asked:

Hi <3 I met my new therapist the other day, and it's only just occurred to me that she didn't seem to take any sort of notes. Is this unusual? Most other people I've seen have had refill pads/notebooks. Thanks!

depends on the therapist. some like to take lots of notes, particularly in the first few sessions, and some feel fine without them. I really only take notes when I want to remember something very specific (like an address) or if I won’t get to write my progress note until later, to make sure I remember the key details.  

ive worn lipstick a few days bc i wanted to see what it felt like & my review is: 1. i like unnatural alterations to my body bc they give me a sense of control; 2. i kinda dissociate sometimes bc i dont look like me bc im looking at someone who looks like a woman & there’s a gap between womanhood and me; 3. people’s response to is largely encouraging which is fine bc no one Means anything by it but like… it’s odd to feel propelled toward femininity for the #validation; 4. dark colors look good on me bc i’m so goddamn pale, which i already knew but still

bodies are weird vessels. i don’t know what to do with mine

Getting there?

Am back home this weekend, for Mothers’ Day on Sunday (it’s this weekend in England, before you lot start panicking). Am currently in the process of redrafting my essay on ‘The Material Text 1700-1830′: I’m writing about eighteenth-century circulating libraries and George Colman’s Polly Honeycombe. I’m enjoying this essay a lot more than the previous one, although feel as though I am - once again - cutting it fine: the deadline is on Tuesday, and I basically started the essay from scratch on Tuesday. 

I decided a heavier redraft was needed because I felt like I hadn’t nailed the point of my essay: there wasn’t really a coherent argument, and I had to sit down and really think about what I was actually trying to say. I think I’m getting there: am over 4000 words into a 7000 word essay, neatly cited. Will hopefully be able to get most of it done tomorrow, so that I can have a good time with my mum (and dad) on Sunday. 

It was worth overhauling the essay, although I can’t help but feel slightly resentful for the large amount of work I have now created for myself.

231116 - it’s 3 days to my next paper and less than a week to the end of finals!! Feeling so blessed this semester that I got to do modules that remind me of why I chose to major in theatre in the first place! From learning about Sanskrit theatre, to reading Butler and Derrida in Performance Studies class, I’ve been fortunate enough to encounter ideas and theories that have given me new perspectives eeek!! Hope you’re all doing fine and all the best who have tests (ू•ᴗ•ू❁)

Love potions but like nothing happens

♡Don’t imagine Keith or Lance accidentally drinking a love portion
♡They don’t know it’s a love potion just a tasty drink
♡Shiro rushes over to tell them but is stopped by the fact that neither of them are really reacting? ??
♡they look to be fine? Pidge what the heck u said they both just took a super strong love potion that would have them heads-over-heals for each other????
♡they. .. did ??? They should be smitten as kittens right now? ??
♡they decide to step back and just watch the two for side effect
♡they wouldn’t let their teammates suffer under the lack of control of a love potion but… if it was a dud or something???
♡then no need to worry them right?
♡so the days go on and. ..
♡nothing
♡the Red and Blue paladins argue, bicker, make fun, and spar with eachother as they do everyday
♡pidge and Hunk keep a close eye on them tho
♡"so like??? Did the potion not work???“
♡"or maybe they already???”
♡"omg"
♡"they already like eachoth–!“ Pidge has to practically climb Hunk to throw a hand over his mouth so Lance and Keith don’t hear him
♡this was in fact not needed as it seemed the Red and Blue paladins where completely 100% focused
♡on eachother
♡the day comes to an end along with the timer pidge set for how long the potion would last and…
♡nothing changed
♡and nothing happened

“My mom and I have always been close. But we had to learn how to communicate again after my dad died. It took therapy. We’d stopped being honest with each other. My dad’s illness had been so stressful that we didn’t want to create any additional worries. So we tried to protect each other. Neither of us would admit if we were having a bad day. Or if we were feeling depressed. The answer to everything was always: ‘I’m fine.’ But we weren’t fine. And it was obvious. So we worried about each other all the time. It caused a lot of stress and arguments. We had to relearn how to admit when we were having a bad day. Because you can never truly know if someone’s ‘fine’ unless you trust them to tell you when something’s wrong.“

One Year Since Tattoo Roulette:

Aka Niall’s National Nightmare & Harry Is A Cocky Bastard

Originally posted by amftzayn

Originally posted by insomnia-eyes

Originally posted by prettielou

“I’m actually fine!” YOU COCKY BASTARD! THAT DIMPLE THE SIZE OF THE MOON WHILE YOU LAUGH OFF POTENTIALLY GETTING A TATTOO ON NATIONAL TELEVISION!

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