I like to imagine a future where shao understands he is worthy of love, a future where he doesn’t have to hide his feelings, doesn’t have to be defensive about everything, doesn’t feel like he has to fight against the whole world. I like to imagine shao finding a boy who loves and supports and cares about him, a boy who shows shao he can be soft, can be loving, can be protective without being agressive, a boy who makes shao want to scream to the sky that he loves him, who makes shao feel like there is nothing wrong with being who he is and loving who he loves. I like to imagine a future where shao talks to zeke and the boys everyday, they still love hanging out and making music together. a future where he’s made peace with mylene and they’re always mocking zeke. a future where he and his boy love to go to clubs with dizzee and thor and they always end the night writing on the walls because old habits die hard. a future where shao still has fears, he still has nightmares about les inferno and fat annie, but he’s learnt to put all the emotions on his music and his art, so they can become something beautiful. a future where shao is as happy as he deserves to be.