this was really hard im sorry it's terrible

anonymous asked:

I know that you don't do requests but I was wondering if you would be willing to draw Cicero saying something that would cheer me up...... I've been depressed and anxious lately...

Here you go! I’m sorry if it’s not the best, but I really hope you feel better. I suffer from anxiety and depression like crazy too, so I know its hard to pick yourself up from it when it hits hard. Whatever is bringing you down and troubling you, I hope it passes soon. <3

Also, because I was having a hard time trying to think of what to say (from one anxious depressed person to the next, I’m honestly terrible with inspiring words) I thought of something that would make me laugh from It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia… it cheers me up too so here it is :’’’)

(Also I’ll share this because if you’re like me you love hearing his silly voice)

joji-beats  asked:

mauve

aaaa its hard picking just 5 because i have so many more favorites..idc im breaking the rules

@gay-sprinkles @stellardood @nickcollettiofficial @attackonmax @ianmua @joj-i @cripplingdepressioninhumanform @franklyfilthyfantasies @jojis-dumplings @sparklingjoji @jojidayz @joji-beats @fake-frank @filthyhomovlogus @rottenlikebluecheese @abortion6 @safariwife @and-his-name-is-joe-rosenburg (im really sorry if i missed anyone i have a terrible memory but ily all)

hey guys uhhh!!! i need some help!!

so this fall is less than 3 months away, and i start school the 28th of august. Exciting! but one little problem. i have terrible attitude problems and with my disorders its gonna be really hard to act okay and not get in trouble. So could you possibly just warn me about what to expect and things i should know about.

ive been homeschooled my entire life and just this fall is gonna be the first time im going to be i school, so could i get any tips on how to not get in trouble/just things i should know? thanks!!

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And A Malfoy In A Pear Tree
By Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Drarry

Warnings: Fluff/Matured Content.

One Shot, ~7K Words

Summary: Draco works in a coffee shop. Harry drops by every day to get his fix. Of coffee, Ron.

Loves:
Revolving around christmas (though I know Christmas is pretty far away), I really enjoyed the cheekiness of this fic!! It’s so cute how they’re both trying to be “subtle” and “oblivious” when everyone around them already knew what was going to happen. :P Love all the subtle flirtings and jokes the author added in, made me chuckled a lot while reading and it’s a good break from studying too hard :P And Ooooo who doesn’t love a jealous Draco? hehe AND NOT FORGETTING THE BUILD UP WAS SO GOOD.

Dedicated To: winforthelosers

think its been almost a year since i last do a fic rec omg, im terribly sorry but thanks for sticking w me. it’s finals period now but this is a short fic for everyone (my friend recommended it to me)~ hope y'all will enjoy reading xx

anonymous asked:

Heyy i dont know if this is okay.. but i kinda want to rant... today my sister was kinda nagging if i already knew my orientation. Im a lesbian but i dont feel ready to come out yet, so i just kinda avoided answering. And then she made this big deal about why its 'not so hard to just answer' and that its 'not that big of a deal'. She made an entire point by asking literally all of my family what their orientation was etc. it just made me really uncomfortable and now i feel kinda shitty.. 😳😳

ew thats fucking gross that is terrible of her to have done im sorry u had to sit there and listen to that. it is not up to her when/if u decide to come out and its CERTAINLY not ok for her to try and force it out of you thats so gross im so sorry sweetie *hugs*

anonymous asked:

Thank you for the Blackwall post! You mention many of his positives but can you point me his negatives? I go too far one way or the other when I write. (Sorry for my bad englis, I hope you understand my meaning!)

you’re welcome, and your english is fine. i’ll try to keep this simple if i can. disclaimer: i took blackwall with me everywhere. along with dorian and cole, he was a constant companion, so i got to know him quite well. that said, i’m no literary expert and this is just my interpretation/observation. 

  • he’s judgemental. he’s quick to make comments and assumptions about other companions, and isn’t particularly subtle about letting them know either. i found this most evident with his dorian banter, whom he pins immediately as preening, superficial and callous. that said, he is not overly stubborn and his mind can be changed (again demonstrated by later dorian banters in which he acknowledges dorian isn’t like that, apologises for being an ass, and they get along reasonably well).
  • definite martyr complex. this much is evident through his whole “assuming blackwall’s identity and living in self imposed exile”. what happened while he was captain destroyed him, and he is determined to die on a hill for it. this lapses into self pity that borders on self obsession. you can see this in his vivienne banters too, where he is convinced she loathes him and tries to goad her into scorning or mocking him when in reality, she (apparently) just doesn’t care. post revelations, there’s a lot of this with all the companions, a sort of “go on, tell me i’m scum, everyone hates me anyway” thing. it comes across as emotional masochism sometimes.
  • he bares a pretty big grudge against anyone he considers aristocratic or snobbish, despite the fact as a captain of the orlesian army he was certainly rubbing elbows with them for many years. i’m assuming this is because he blames the Game, ser chapuis, duke gaspard, etc for what happened with lord callier’s family (and rainier’s men). pretty understandable but i guess counts as a fault, maybe?
  • overly cautious, lacks curiosity, is generally suspicious. he totally doesn’t trust cole at the beginning (though soon develops a close relationship with him), or dorian. he grouses a little when you take him to strange new places, or when you pick up things like shards. he is very wary of things he doesn’t know or recognise.
  • prone to putting people on pedestals, a combination of his low self esteem and overly romantic inclinations. he thinks gordon blackwall (a man he knew for all of a few days) and the grey wardens (an organisation he knows zero about) to be brave paragons of goodliness, and if the inquisitor has a good relationship with him he considers them to be untouchably wonderful, basically. his romance is 90% “i’m not worthy of you (please step on me)”.

there are possibly more but since i like him so much, its hard to come up with them objectively. laid out like this he sounds terrible but no, he’s a good man. he’s kind and lonely and funny. i love blackwall.

estherpommedeterre  asked:

Hi, I have a weird (?) question. I was wondering about their names and how you could translate them in occidental names.. I know there's no direct translation, so I guess it's more of getting the idea if it's a name in vogue, or an old name. Anyway, if it's not too weird to do, could you (ok it's just not possible, clearly.) give a "translation" of their names? (really sorry to ask such a stupid question, im just squirming on the inside). Have a rad day!

Good question! A hard one, too. I’ll…I’ll do my best..

I got the following characters from a Chinese source posted on a Korean Nate blog. I can’t vouch that it’s a legitimate source, and compiled the translations based on dictionary definitions. So I’ll put a disclaimer here and ask you not to take the translations too seriously because I may be terribly, terribly wrong.

Surname characters usually have no particular meaning. Kim usually means gold. Jeon apparently means Field. Good to know. The others are ambiguous.

Nam / Joon : 南俊 : Southern / Of many talents and knowledge

Seok / Jin : 碩珍 : Big- or hard-headed(lol) / Cherished

Yoon / Gi : 玧其 : ????????????????

Ho / Seok : 號錫 : To call out; to command / Copper

Ji / Min : 智旻 : Clever and talented / Consoling autumn sky (weirdly poetic)

Tae / Hyung : 泰亨 : Big, #EXTRA(TRU) / Prosperous

Jung / Kook : 柾國 : A sturdy tree with fine grains(?) / Its scale is national 

(T/N: Tae means big or too damn much of something. Kook literally means nation. I wasn’t completely trolling.)

-Admin Ju

title: still sleeping like we’re lovers

summary:

Today, Harry is part rock star, part grease monkey, part Hollywood entrepreneur, living with rum and palm trees in the part of LA that was once seedy. Louis lives in London, because the band has been and gone and he likes grey skies, sometimes. They texted for a while, after that one big fight - visited even - but then the messages got sadder and sadder and stopped, and so did the trips.

Louis decided a long time ago that he wouldn’t (couldn’t) come to LA anymore.

notes: I DONT KNOW okay okay okay okay. this is probably terrible but i really tried super hard to write angst and hurt and stuff well so fingers crossed!! sorry it’s short xxxx

about 3k. read on ao3

Im so sorry Ive sent this before and im sorry its so long but i sent it like a couple weeks ago maybe and I never got a response and Im so sorry to bug you……. But recently I’ve been feeling really stressed and anxious to the point of being suicidal and its terrible and I really just want to die, I’ve written out a suicide note which is saved in my drafts but…. Last night my dad talked to me and asked if I was as suicidal as I let on and I said yeah and he basically told me to watch what I say around people so they dont worry about me, so I guess he just wants me to keep quiet about it. and im trying so hard to keep it inside but i need help and i more reasons to stay alive because they just arent working and nothing is working. Can Karkat please just… tell me im not worthless…… or something i dont know im sorry

YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY NOT WORTHLESS, DON’T YOU EVER LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE

WHAT YOUR HUMAN LUSUS SAID TO YOU WAS UNBELIEVABLY SELFISH. DONT GIVE PEOPLE REASON TO WORRY? THEY HAVE EVERY FUCKING REASON TO WORRY. AND IF YOUR DAD DOESN’T LIKE THAT HE COULD MAYBE, AND I KNOW THIS IS A SHOCKING REVOLUTIONARY IDEA, TRY TO FUCKING HELP YOU?

LET YOU SEE A PSYCHIATRIST IF YOU WANT?

TALK TO YOU ABOUT WHY YOU’RE FEELING THIS WAY AND BE A GODDAMN PARENT?

PROBLEMS LIKE THIS DON’T JUST GO AWAY. HE CAN’T SAY “PLAY PRETEND THAT NOTHING IS WRONG” BECAUSE IT DOESN’T FUCKING WORK LIKE THAT.

YOU DESERVE BETTER.