What do you do when you recognize contentment in others, like I did on Sunday as soon as Cait posted her video, and you realize you can't seem to have that, no matter how much you try. I'm not jealous, I swear it. I'm so glad she found her true happiness, she deserves it, they both do. I just... *wish* I could experience a moment like that, a moment of peace even during the chaos, a moment of pure bliss, serenity. My heart is always heavy, my mind is always racing... And I'm so tired.
You stop trying.
I’m not being glib. The mistake I see so many people make is that they equate being happy and content with some kind of tangible reward for completing work. “If I just do A, B, and C, then I’ll be happy.” There is no magic formula or instruction manual. It is a state of being in your own mind that YOU create. Contentment for one is not contentment for another. You have to find your contentment on your own.
This Is Water. It’s a commencement speech by David Foster Wallace. Google it. Read it. Read it until the epiphany washes over you. It is the best life advice I’ve ever heard and a great place to start you on your personal journey towards contentment.
Just be aware. Listen. Do nothing. Stop trying.
Oh, and read the Outlander books. There is so much more to them than Jamie and Claire. Best primer out there about being a woman content.