It’s Been Awhile - “Rage had coiled inside him, striking out like a viper when he’d thought she had a date, when he’d been convinced she’d dressed up for another man, that another man would smudge that red lipstick…that another would wear that red on his skin….Thoughts had bombarded him, petulant as he wanted to claim his right to have that red staining every inch of him…”
Oooooh…It’s Been A While….and one of my favorite scenes.
So writing that entire thing…picture me, sitting down and writing it all in one breath (and sobbing) because I just couldn’t not. I was running and the song came up on my playlist and i started listening to the lyrics and realized it’s Sherlock, and it’s Sherlock thinking about Molly.
That particular scene, where he remembers his first apology…I had the song lyrics copy pasted into the doc and went line by line, thought by thought and tried to connect it to Sherlock’s life with Molly. The apology was easy enough to conjure, the first apology that we see from Sherlock, where he grows up as Moffat says, it flowed naturally to think it was the first one he remembers delivering with sincerity. But the more I’ve thought about the Christmas scene, the VEHEMENCE towards Molly when he sees her come through, the way he comments on her lipstick particularly….He could’ve picked anything else to tease her, why focus on the red of her lips?
I think Sherlock with Molly is extremely possessive. And there’s something with red lipstick for him, maybe because it’s the color of blood, maybe because on Molly, it represents passion. But it’s Sherlock and he’s an idiot and i think he lashed out because he’s convinced she was going on another date after their little shindig at Baker Street.
I also think that he wants Molly to be possessive of him too, long before he realized he loves her. He’s a dude that likes touching things, he’s tactile and he’s also a visual person so “marking” Molly as his and vice versa, something more intimate than wedding rings, is what he craves.
Digging deeper into Sherlock’s head in that moment (deeper than the waffley answer i’m giving) i realized he went ape-shit because he literally couldn’t stand the idea that she would mark someone else as hers, someone who wasn’t Sherlock. She hurt him without knowing it so he lashed out. I mean think about the way he constantly brings up “Jim”, beyond the fact that “Jim from IT” turned out to be his archenemy…why call him an “old boyfriend”? Why dig that knife in her if he wasn’t out of his mind jealous?
I’m convinced he’s a big fan of hickeys, that when he and Molly are fooling around, he lets her bite him hard and bruise his skin and wears it like a badge of honor, even starts wearing more open collar shirts and gives up his scarves so people can see the way she’d marked the skin on his chest.
Thanks for the ask Mel! I think a bit of BDB might’ve gotten into me too, and you probably picked up on it!