this was in my drafts like forever

Some Stuff ™ that stuck out to me in DEH (11/21)

Not everything here is time specific but anyways here it is

  • Firstly Noah Galvin….is Really good. He’s good at stuttering and rubbing his hands over things. He doesn’t hunch or lose his volume control as much as Ben but I Loved his performance and his voice is stunning
  • Heidi is so cute when she flexes
  • Zoe does the Leg Bounce all throughout breakfast (especially while talking abt Connor) and always talks while looking at the floor
  • Larry never looks up from his phone (newspaper?) during breakfast
  • In fact none of them rlly look at eachother at breakfast except Cynthia
  • Evan and Heidi have a lot of symbolism in looking towards and away from eachother in the entirety of the show- I won’t go through every time but it was fantastic
  • in the computer lab when Connors talking to Evan you can really tell Connors trying to be nice, like he doesn’t want to be mean all the time but doesn’t know how to stop (mike faist is so good)
  • We all know this but Jared’s hilarious and he always pops up when it gets too sad. also how his rude comments to Evan are almost entirely instigated by his own insecurity
  • It just always kills me in for forever when you can see Evan convince himself Connor’s “come to get [him]” after he “fell” and that’s when Evan starts to believe his own lies to cope
  • Evan has different color schemes when he’s with different people- orange with Connor, purple with Zoe, and blue by himself and with his mom. In waving through a window and in the part where he’s alone at the end of words fail three spotlights of these colors go into him projecting his shadow on these colors surrounding him. Very interesting parallel of the different versions Evan shows of himself to the different versions of Connor ppl remember. I just rlly lov this motif of different versions of ourselves in deh
  • Speaking of colors the lighting in the back of if I could tell her melted from purple into the Bi flag ….in this house we love canon bi Zoe and Evan
  • Also in iicth Zoe played with the edge of the bed and did the leg bounce again. The girl has anxiety/possible ptsd. Probably also doesn’t want to tell her parents since they handled Connors mental health so badly
  • Laura really cries at the end of requiem…like she gets super choked up I could see it from one of the back rows and you can hear her gasping
  • In dissapear Evan falls down and Connor picks him up and throws him into the convo abt the Connor project….Evan just really wanted someone to notice he “fell” please help him oh my god
  • Also when they say no one deserves to dissapear the orange lights spread out to the whole crowd
  • When Evan falls down during his speech in ywbf he spends so long on the ground and it’s completely silent. he tries to get up but he can’t and he shakes so much it hurt to watch
  • When everyone runs around the stage looking at Evans speech projected Heidi runs noticeably faster than the others and is so confused and scared
  • God I forgot when this was but at one point everyone’s looking at projections of Connor and Larry falls to the ground and it actually looks like he’s dying. Please give Michael park credit the mans a good actor
  • Before tbiag Larry says “heh, women am I right? “ and Evan just “…. ʰᵃ… ʸᵉᵃ”
  • Good for you is a really good parallel of waving through a window- so much similar choreography but this time everyone’s spending to much attention to Evan instead of too little
  • Also Heidi Alana and Jared are lit with green lighting- I’m not entirely sure what to make of this but maybe bc green is complementary to red/orange (Connor’s colors) pointing out that Evan is selfish and this is not abt Connor
  • Also I know Heidi’s distraught but she looks like a rock star I love her
  • In Evan and Connors convo where Evan faces the fact that he tried to kill himself the BG is just a huge projection of one of the letters (black with white text) with no props on set. This made it so apparent that Connor was a dark piece of Evans imagination, compared to the other times he’s imagined Connor to cope- now it has more of an evil(?) vibe
  • I’m so big so small when Heidi cradles Evan and sings “so big” they look at eachother then laugh bc he’s hanging almost entirely off the couch I love them so so much
  • Last orchard scene also lo key has the bi flag in the BG
  • Evans last speech to the crowd is A Lot I rlly lost it
  • Also RBJ kept putting her arm around Noah during the curtain call and Noah cried a bit

                                 what’s this ?? a bias list ????

so i said i’d do this at 100. i said i’d do this at 200. and now, here i am, finally doing it at 260+ and climbing. like……. me? wow, i’m actually really flattered. when i first picked up rodimus as a muse, i didn’t know what i was getting into. i knew the fun-loving, happy-go-lucky side of rodimus and that’s what i delved into; it was how i portrayed roddy as. now here i am, with a fully developed understanding of roddy, with all these connections he has, all these crack ships i keep seeming to find myself in…

now i’m notoriously bad for rambling on about people so i tend to shove things under a read more. but before i do, lemme just take the moment to say thank you. each and every one of you, for following me and enjoying my interpretation of rodimus. now, without further ado, onto the sappiest part of my bias list!

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My friend Billy died last night. This man was the first farmer in our county to go organic. Hell, he started organically in 1980 before it was really a thing, and has grown the best garlic you can find since forever. He introduced black garlic to the foodies in our community - fabricating an elaborate open air dehydrating system that turned whole bulbs of juicy garlic into fermented black flesh that tasted like heaven. He hipped us all to his fire tonic that he made outside the blessing grip of the health department - a mash of his own cayenne, garlic, and horseradish with organic Hawaiian ginger. An excellent addition to soup, eggs, and seriously the best Bloody Mary enhancer in the world. Our first time truly bonding was on an ice cold early spring morning outdoor market where he was sampling the tonic with tomato juice and he and Ami were sneaking nips from a bottle of Absolut into their own wee cups. They were drinking the sauce with fat Lovage stem straws that made it taste like celery. How do I know this? Because I caught them and when he freaked out thinking he was going to get in trouble, I said the only way you’re in trouble is if you don’t make me one, my brother. Some of you have received jars of that tonic for Christmas. 

He taught hundreds of people how to farm sustainably and he did it for free. He created a composting system that he could have sold, but he just showed people how to do it instead. He supplied multiple farmers markets and a steady four-season CSA membership with gorgeous produce. 

His heart gave out and I’m bereft. 

I didn’t go visit him these recent weeks that he wasn’t at the market because he wasn’t feeling well. I will regret that forever. Ami and I got the news towards the end of the day at work and we both lost our shit for a bit and then sat down and drafted a notice for the market page. The outpouring of love for this man is beautiful and I sure hope he can feel the loving energy flowing his way. 

I’ll find a way to live with feeling like a shitty friend. I’ll make room for this shadow next to my shitty wife and shitty mother shadows on the shelf of my life. They sit next to lots of good things, too. One of those good things is the camaraderie Billy and I enjoyed over a bunch of years, a bunch of burritos, and a bunch of beers. 

See you on the other side one day, my friend. Love you to the moon and back again. 

like i have my problems with harry potter and jk rowling but it will never stop meaning something to me that rowling was a depressed 30-year single mother living on welfare when she thought of this story, that she was – in her own words– at rock bottom and she managed to put herself out there, to create this brilliant amazing series that has impacted so many people’s lives. there’s something to be said for hope.

hello there! i love instrumental music so i thought i’d make a compilation of some piano playlists! have some snazzy fun ♥︎

classical period

baroque period

romantic period

20th century


here it is! hope ya’ll like it! if you have any suggestions/ feedback do send them my way!! happy studying!


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As much as I love the whole “Andrew only needs Neil and chooses Neil over everyone else and is only happy when he’s with Neil” shebang,,, pls also consider:

  • Nicky delivering a sick fucking burn to some reporter and Andrew just holding up a hand as his cousin walks by and Nicky is kinda ??? And then realizes it’s a high five and he slaps Andrew’s hand like “fuck yeah” and Andrew nods
  • Neil and Kevin are at late night practice and Andrew stayed back at fox tower because he couldn’t be bothered with it, and Aaron finds him passed out on the couch. He hesitates for a minute and then goes and gets a blanket to throw over his brother. Andrew wakes up as soon as he feels the weight on him and he looks around and a bit and then locks eyes with Aaron and Aaron is a deer in headlights like I’m sorry you just looked cold pls don’t stab me and Andrew kinda pulls the blanket up some and mumbles “thanks” and falls back asleep. Aaron smiles.
  • Andrew talks to Nicky. Fucking listen to me, he talks to his cousin, because no matter how loud and touchy Nicky may be, he’s family and Andrew trusts him with sensitive information. Sometimes Nicky is awake in the kitchen in the middle of the night when Andrew has nightmares and the younger boy comes out of the bedroom and grabs a seat and they’re both quiet for a while and Nicky makes him some hot chocolate and then finally he’s like “was it bad tonight?” and Andrew just shrugs but there are dark circles under his eyes because this week has been horrible for sleep. Nicky doesn’t press him, but at some point Andrew just starts rambling quietly, his words slurring together because he’s so tired; Of course, Nicky never breathes a word of any of this to anyone, never brings it up to Andrew in the mornings. Their late night chats happen and then they’re over. Andrew goes back to bed when he’s too exhausted to stay awake, and Nicky stays up wishing that he could take on even just a little bit of the pain that haunts his cousin.
  • the year after aftg, andrew stands behind Dan and stares down any freshman who might try to cause trouble on the team. She and Matt keep his freezer stocked with ice cream sandwiches
  • Renee always knows when to call Bee on Andrew’s bad days.
  • Kevin knows when not to call Bee for him.
  • they don’t talk much even after Neil’s first year, but Andrew gets the best birthday gifts from Allison. Things he actually wants, things he appreciates. He wonders how she knew he wanted a motorcycle.
  • Bee.🐝
  • Wymack tells Andrew how proud he is of him when the boy graduates and Andrew replies with something like “I bet you’re glad to be rid of me” and coach stares him dead in the eye and shakes his head and says “you better stay in touch.” Andrew doesn’t say anything to this, but Abby swears she saw the boy smile.
  • anyway idk where this was going but Andrew has a family who loves him, who he loves, and he doesn’t just need Neil

i got an ask for Kara with potstickers so here you go


Happy 4th anniversary, Ladies’ Code! Girls, I’m so proud of you. We all are. Please never stop smiling, singing, and healing. I hope you never forget that your Lavelys all over the world are here for you, cheering you on. We love you and we treasure you. And no matter what happens, no matter how much time passes, know that we will always wait for you. #4YearsWithLadiesCode ♡