this was harder then i thought it was going to be

Hierarchy of infinite’s selfie taking skills:

1. Myungsoo- a wide variety of angles, facial expressions, and props. Knows exactly how to pop his dimples or part his lips to make the girls and boys go wild. +10 points for every time he’s taken a selfie with his cat.

2. Hoya- great command of his eyebrows. Consistent angle, but not so consistent that every selfie looks the same. A+ smoulder, but sometimes his smile screams “I’m at a family gathering and someone just asked me if I’ve found a girlfriend, but I’ve been single for five years.”

3. Woohyun- very cute, very pouty. Takes the expression “everybody has a good side” too seriously: his angle is 95% the right side of his face, 5% of the left. Will he ever reveal the left of his face?

4. Sunggyu- charming array of selfies, including the 50% of selfies which were taken to mock Sungjong. Has found a 45 degree angle which makes his eyes look bigger, but in turn makes him look about 7 years old.

5. Sungjong- selfies are below him, gets people to take gorgeous photos of himself posing dramatically (Sunggyu’s right- who takes those photos???) when we do get selfies, too many filters. Let’s stick to the modelling shots.

6. Dongwoo- 50% face, 50% hair. Takes selfies more for fun than to look good, which can be adorable but also can result in him looking a little… Strange.

7. Sungyeol- do selfies of Sungyeol exist?

I guess I shouldn’t pretend that I didn’t feel the end coming, some words come easier than the truth. I’ve been saving my thoughts for a rainy day, but it’s everyday. I’ve been saving my feelings for a better day, there’s no better day than today, right? I’ve been saving every dime to buy myself a new smile, I’d go broke just to see it happen. I’ve been saving my heart for someone special, I really should just look into the fucking mirror. and the only thing distance has taught me is how far my feelings can travel, how breaking windows with loose change only makes my pockets deeper. they will tell you that distance is why we love harder - we’re always stretching for words to find the meaning our hands close on alone, trying to find ways to hold on while borrowing breaths we don’t have. After a while, it’ll feel like I never even knew you… but loving you was worth losing you. I guess I really shouldn’t write about you anymore, but I will. I guess I really shouldn’t love you anymore, but I will. I guess I really shouldn’t dwell on the past anymore, but I will. The drugs will sound a little softer the next time my heart decides to sound out your name in a rhythm of hey, i remember you like it was yesterday, the way your smile invited my lips over for a conversation, the way your body language said we’ll be just fine, you and i, the way your heart doesn’t beat like it used to, the way my eyes looks when it’s past 24 hours of no sleep, the way my words seem like a maze, the way that i’ve wronged you, the way that i write about it in every metaphor, the way that we weren’t meant to work, but we did and that’s the worst part, isn’t it? even love turns its back on you.
—  The Ate & The Bunso
The Least I Can Do (Part 2)

Originally posted by humans-are-so-overrated-moved

Summary: The reader tries to go on her date with Jensen but it’s harder than she thought it would be…

Part 1

Pairing: Jensen x reader

Word Count: 2,900ish

Warnings: language

A/N: Oh boy, this one got away from me a bit…

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I woke up today feeling awful and stressed out about everything that’s going on at the moment and yes I cried but in the midst of my tears it was like I had this moment of being in a rainstorm and thinking about the fact that this will make me clean , it will make me a better person. So… I decided to put on the t-shirt Tay hugged me in and to put on a smile. Thank you Taylor for being the thought of reason when I feel defeated. Thank you for still being the one keeping me sane and motivating me to work harder and to never give up!

Just Tonight #6 (Shalaska) - BABE

AN: Back at it with another chapter!! I wrote this shortly after chapter 5 and actually have chapter 7 in the works, I’m so inspired to write this story and it’s all thanks to the lovely readers who keep me going xoxo. I’m actually working on a playlist for this story that will be available to listen to on Spotify shortly, a lot of the songs are some that I’ve mentioned in the story but some are just ones that helped me write and yep. Enjoy!!

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longdongjojo69  asked:

I can't believe you're still getting asks on this, but to anyone else who wants to, all people are saying is that there are content creators out there who genuinely put time and thought into theorizing on the concepts of media, and to imply that MatPat is at all creative and analytic really lowers the bar for what's considered a thought-provoking observation. If you want genuinely intelligent discussion, Nick Nocturne works hard to provide it - harder than MatPat does.

longdongjojo69 speaks the truth stop kissing matpat’s matass and pay attention to people with integrity go watch nightmind please


Fourth installment of the RUN series!

Genre: Angst (Mentions of attempted suicide)

Emergence  Desolation  Libertine(M)  Purgatory  Paradise  Butterfly

Falling, I am falling further and further, a dead leaf on the wind. I don’t know when I will settle below. Ever since he left us, I’ve never settled. Every day I lose the strength to go on. I know I should feel a beating within my chest but there is nothing. I am hollowing. I no longer fight this pain, I cannot. Falling further and further, away from you, away from them. Maybe I should fight, fight harder to live but this feeling, is perpetual. I , Hoseok, am destined to fall, the only question is when and how I’ll land?

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Yuuri tells Victor his thoughts during their first dance.

I want to thank @thehobbem so, so much for co-writing the dialogue! She spent hours going through metas and crafting this line-by-line with me. Yuuri was much harder to write for than Victor and I couldn’t have done it without her tireless work. ;u; I also want to thank @teasidesketches for doing final revisions despite not being in the fandom. You two are the best. <3

I also want to dedicate this to @solfegefaerie for being the first one to give me the idea of writing Yuuri’s vows. They’re not vows this time, but I thought this was suiting. :) 

If you can, you should read this while listening to “Yuri on Ice.” I matched the flow of the comic to that of the song, hence the tribute to the representation of Yuuri as the lone piano until Victor comes into his life as the violin (in case you were wondering about the sudden Music AU thrown in the middle there). 

Pair comic to Victor’s Vows.


Gentlemen Vixx → N Version 

N brags about it to me sometimes. He told me, “Our members are gentlemen.”” — Kim Shin Young 

19 things i learned at the age of 19:

1. if he broke you, he won’t be the one to fix you

2. people are here one day and gone the next, appreciate them to the fullest

3. make sure he know how you feel about him

4. make sure he knows when he’s hurt you

5. gather the courage to walk away from things and people that hurt you

6. but only if the hurt surpasses the love and happiness

7. you are not your mistakes, don’t let anyone ever tell you otherwise
 8. if you mess up, get up and fight even harder because nothing worth attaining is easy

9. put on your favorite pair of jeans, your cutest sneakers, your warmest sweater and go out into the rain

10. be kind to everyone, yes everyone, until they give you a reason not to be, then be as cruel as you’d like

11. what people say when they’re angry may seem as though it is the most painful thing you’ve felt, but i promise you, it hurts them more than it does you once it has come out of their mouths

12. even when it feels like the whole world is against you and there is nothing left to fight for, fight for yourself

13. you may think that you’ve gotten your whole life figured out, but i promise you, you will change your mind so many times and that’s okay, life is about taking different paths until you get to your destination 

14. even if you have no idea what you want to do with your life, get up in the morning and do something anyway because the more places you go and the more of life you see, the more you’ll love life

15. wake up with a smile on your face, even if it’s forced; one day, i promise you, it won’t be

16. just because you cry, it doesn’t make you weak, it makes you human; so let the tears fall and pick yourself up and don’t cry for the same reason again

17. tell your little sister you love her, she sees the pain you’re in and she hurts just as much as you; let her know she’s appreciated 
 18. your mom has been through so much, and sometimes it gets to be too much for her and all she can do is let it out; sometimes she’ll release it on you, that doesn’t mean she loves you any less

19. and lastly, when you find comfort in a boy with the softest brown eyes, remember that he is dreamy and he is exactly what you need at that moment, but you cannot make him your home because he isn’t vacant
Dear depression,

at least that’s what I think I should call you. You’re my invisible feeling sitting inside of this chest. Is it loneliness that causes your heart to feel stress? I feel your thoughts struggling to make sense of everything. I’d like to think that you’ve made my hands a little stronger because on the days that letting go sounds easy, I cling on a little harder like I’m afraid of falling into something I can’t stand up from. I haven’t had a bruised knee since first grade, I’d trade your sadness for a scrape or two. Wouldn’t you? I know that I talk to myself sometimes. Does that mean I’m crazy? They say that highly intelligent people talk to themselves, are they crazy too? I don’t know when, I don’t know where you came from. I just know that you’re here. Inside a hollow tree I’ve heard your cries for help. Poured into an empty glass that remains clear. There’s no liquor quite as strong as your worries. I worry a lot now. I guess I got that from my ex. She said I didn’t worry enough, so she left some inside of my back pocket. I read those little notes from time to time, it reminds us to be who we are when the time comes. Sometimes you’re not so invisible, sometimes I can see your smile on my lips. Sometimes you’re very physical, I still taste your tears closing in on my lips. Sometimes you’re in my head and I can’t get you out, does it worry you at all? Because if I’m not here, you wouldn’t exist. Maybe happy people all have a way to deal with their sadness, maybe the sadness makes us want happiness. That must it. I know you’re here when I’d much rather turn my favorite songs off. I know you’re close by when my words don’t sound right. I know you’re lonely because you’d rather hold someone that doesn’t love you than hold no one at all. I guess we’re all a bit deprived of who we are in that sense. I still try to listen to my favorite songs, just in case you’ll decide to change your mind later during the 8 hour shift. I still try to write where I may be experiencing a scrambling of memories. I still draw a smile on my face, just in case you might believe me. I don’t want to be crazy, I want to feel normal. What is normal though? Is it waking up with a smile on your face? Something genuine as a goodbye letter? I think normal means dealing with what’s in front of your face, you’re in my reflection, you’re on my mind, you’re in my chest, you’re my current feelings of gloom and if I somehow never get a chance to bloom, would I still call you my depression? I guess I’d call you something better. Something with a ring. Something we all want, but know we’ll never get. I’ll romanticize you for a bit even if for a second, maybe I’ll feel okay just for this moment. I think I’ll call you–
—  My second chance.
ANIMAGI by J.K. Rowling

from  Short Stories from Hogwarts of Heroism, Hardship and Dangerous Hobbies

An Animagus is a witch or wizard who can transform at will into an animal. While in their animal form, they retain most of their ability to think as a human, their own sense of identity and their memories. They will also retain normal human life expectancy, even if they take their animal form for long periods of time. However, feelings and emotions are simplified and they will have many animal desires, feeding off whatever their animal body craves, rather than demanding human food.

It is immensely difficult to change oneself into an Animagus and the process, which is complex and time-consuming, can go dramatically wrong. As a result, it is believed that fewer than one in a thousand witches or wizards are Animagi.

An Animagus has a great potential advantage in the spheres of espionage and crime. For this reason, an Animagus Registry exists on which all Animagi are expected to log their personal details and the precise appearance of their transformed self. It is usually the case that distinctive markings or disabilities belonging to the human body will transfer to the animal self. Failure to enter oneself onto the Registry may result in a stretch in Azkaban.

When the process of becoming an Animagus goes wrong, it often goes seriously wrong. Impatience with the long and complicated process is generally at the root of such disasters, which usually take the form of horrible half-human, half-animal mutations. There is no known cure for such mistakes and those who make them are often forced to live out their days in their pitiable condition, being unable to become fully animal or fully human.

Talent in both Transfiguration and Potions is necessary to become an Animagus. No responsibility can be taken for any physical or mental problems resulting from following these instructions.

  1. For the space of one entire month (from full moon to full moon), a single leaf from a Mandrake must be carried constantly in the mouth. The leaf must not be swallowed or taken out of the mouth at any point. If the leaf is removed from the mouth, the process must be started again.
  2. Remove the leaf at the full moon and place it, steeped in your saliva, in a small crystal phial that receives the pure rays of the moon (if the night is cloudy, you will have to find a new Mandrake leaf and begin the whole process again). To the moon-struck crystal phial, add one of your own hairs, a silver teaspoon of dew collected from a place that neither sunlight nor human feet have touched for a full seven days, and the chrysalis of a Death’s-head Hawk Moth. Put this mixture in a quiet, dark place and do not look at it or otherwise disturb it until the next electrical storm.
  3. While waiting for the storm, the following procedure should be followed at sunrise and sundown. The tip of the wand should be placed over the heart and the following incantation spoken: ‘Amato Animo Animato Animagus.’
  4. The wait for a storm may take weeks, months or even years. During this time, the crystal phial should remain completely undisturbed and untouched by sunlight. Contamination by sunlight gives rise to the worst mutations. Resist the temptation to look at your potion until lightning occurs. If you continue to repeat your incantation at sunrise and sunset there will come a time when, with the touch of the wand-tip to the chest, a second heartbeat may be sensed, sometimes more powerful than the first, sometimes less so. Nothing should be changed. The incantation should be uttered without fail at the correct times, never omitting a single occasion.
  5. Immediately upon the appearance of lightning in the sky, proceed directly to the place where your crystal phial is hidden. If you have followed all the preceding steps correctly, you will discover a mouthful of blood-red potion inside it.
  6. It is essential to move, at once, to a large, secure place where your transformation cannot cause alarm or place you in physical danger. Place your wand-tip against your heart, speak the incantation ‘Amato Animo Animato Animagus,’ and then drink the potion.
  7. If all has gone correctly, you will feel a fiery pain and an intense double heartbeat. Into your mind will come the shape of the creature into which you are shortly to transform. You must show no fear. It is too late, now, to escape the change you have willed.
  8. The first transformation is usually uncomfortable and frightening. Clothing and items such as glasses or jewellery meld to the skin and become one with fur, scales or spikes. Do not resist and do not panic or the animal mind may gain the ascendancy and you could do something foolish, such as try to escape through a window or charge a wall.
  9. When your transformation is complete you should find yourself physically comfortable. You are strongly advised to pick up your wand at once, and hide it in a place of safekeeping, where you will be able to find it when you regain a human form.
  10. To return to a human form, visualise your human self as clearly as you can. This should be sufficient, but do not panic if the transformation does not occur immediately. With practice, you will be able to slip in and out of your animal form at will, simply by visualising the creature. Advanced Animagi can transform without wands.

Generally wizards prefer to have their clothes Transfigure with them, to escape the embarrassment of reappearing naked. However, it is possible to leave clothes behind if one wishes to give the impression of having gone for a bath or something similar. The longer a witch or wizard has been an Animagus, the better they will become at choosing the precise form of their transformations.

The animal into which one turns, if an Animagus, seems always to be that which becomes the Patronus. There is no known instance of the Animagus form changing to match the Patronus if the latter changes, but the Animagus who can also produce a Patronus is highly unusual and no study has ever been done on sufficient numbers to draw firm conclusions.

“I grew up, like, savage. My stepfather abused me starting at the age of four. My mother threw me out when I was fourteen. I became addicted to drugs. I fell in love with a drug dealer and we had a daughter. He hit me but I had nowhere else to go. I tried to get away from everything when I turned nineteen. I thought: ‘I’m leaving Puerto Rico and I’m going to change.’ But on the plane to New York, the guy next to me was a heroin user. And he convinced me to try it. And things got worse in New York. It was even harder because I was alone. I ended up in the street. I was jumping from house to house. I was doing what I had to do to survive, you know. The government took my children away. I was lost for so many years but I’m a new person now. I’m sober and I’m working and I’m going to church. But I struggle a lot. I have all these emotions and I don’t know where they come from. It’s like I can’t control them. And when I’m with other people, I feel less. My past always comes back to me. I say to myself: ‘Who do you think you are? You’ve done so many bad things. And you don’t even know how to talk right.’ I can never get away from the things that I’ve done. But Jesus forgives me, you know? He knows that I’m a sinner person and he still loves me. My past does not matter to him. He is changing my thinking. He is helping me start new. Without him, I would have nothing to hang onto.”

I haven’t written about you in months and my heart does not want to give you love anymore and for once I am happier than I thought I could be and fuck you really broke my heart and I think that I will be able to love harder now and I know what I am worth and I’m glad that I walked away and I am glad that we don’t speak to each other now and I still remember on nights where I couldn’t fucking breath because I thought about how you didn’t love me but I survived and I will never put myself in that situation again and I hope you never break someones heart like you did mine and I hope she was worth the one night stand and I hope you are enjoying your damn kayaking and I hope you know that someone is going to love you again and I hope for her sake you don’t fuck with her heart and her mind and just know that she’s a lucky girl and when you sleep with her at night I hope you tell her you love her and you kiss her neck and whisper sweet things in her ear and I hope you give her the love that you tried to give me but make sure it’s better and please don’t hurt her. 

  • <p> <b></b> "How did you two meet?"<p/><b>Cas:</b> “Dean stabbed me.”<p/><b></b> "What has been your worst fight?"<p/><b>Dean:</b> “Probably when Cas became God and killed a whole bunch of folk…and then I tried to have Death gank him…Not our finest hour.”<p/><b></b> "When did you realize you were in love with each other?"<p/><b>Dean:</b> “I guess it started when Cas betrayed Heaven for me. I began to realize something was off with the way I grieved after the whole Leviathan thing, but I think I accepted it in Purgatory. I was going to tell him once we made it home, but…”<p/><b>Cas:</b> “I have always loved Dean, I just didn’t know how to recognize the emotion for what it was. Once I became human, though, it was harder to ignore.”<p/><b></b> "Who initiated the first kiss?"<p/><b>Dean:</b> “I-well, he-“<p/><b>Cas:</b> “We were on a hunt, Dean had been knocked out. I thought he required resuscitation, but in the last moment he opened his eyes and we stared at each other… I don’t know who moved first.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> “It was mutual, I think.”<p/><b></b> "Who was the first to say ‘I love you’?"<p/><b>Dean:</b> “Oh, we haven’t, uh-“<p/><b>Cas:</b> “The depth of our feelings for each other cannot be adequately expressed through such a simple phrase.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> “Right. Actions speak louder.”<p/><b></b> "Who is the little spoon?"<p/><b>Cas:</b> “We are not cutlery of any size.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> “No, as in- never mind. I am, okay? But just because Castiel’s wings can wrap around the both of us.”<p/><b>Cas:</b> “Oh, you are referring to our intimate hugs. I enjoy those.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> “Shut up, Cas.”<p/><b></b> "Who proposed?"<p/><b>Cas:</b> “Dean did. He was very romantic.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> “Dude, I’ve got a reputation to uphold.”<p/><b>Cas:</b> “Of course. Dean did not take me on a walk through a beautiful flower garden filled with bees, nor did he serenade me with his guitar at a fountain. He did not make a picnic lunch with naturally sourced ingredients. He certainly did not give a very beautiful speech when he went down on one knee, and he did not choose perfect matching rings.”<p/><b>Dean:</b> *links their hands together so both rings are showing* “You’re still not very good at this whole lying thing.”<p/><b>Cas:</b> “That’s okay. I already have what I want."

“The world doesn’t respond to me like it used to. Throughout my life I had learned to anticipate a certain pattern of focus and friendliness. And I never realized how much of that was based on my youth and physical appearance. I thought it was because of my energy and personality. But I’ve had to accept that a woman becomes less and less visible as she ages. It begins to fade in your 40’s, and drops off in your 50’s. You have a harder time holding people’s attention. The conversations become less about you, and more about the transaction. It used to really bother me. I would feel abandoned or ignored. But I’ve grown out of it. There’s a certain grace to letting go of the need for attention. I was an actor for most of my life. I was all about getting attention. But now I’m working as a sign language interpreter, which I love. Because it isn’t about me at all.”

I decided to try yoga

Because I am chronically stressed out and tense. I’ve been doing it for a week now, and here’s what I’ve learned:

  • YouTube is a treasure trove and I’ve been missing out.
  • Yoga is way harder than it looks. Apparently the first 2 days I was doing some advanced level stuff. I’m back to beginner stuff now.
  • My shoulders prefer to be tight and up near my ears, okay?
  • I am a sweaty beast. How can breathing and stretching make me drip with sweat? 
  • I need to vacuum.
  • I am much more flexible than I thought.
  • I have absolutely no core muscle strength. 
  • I’m so glad I’m not trying this in public.

  • The YouTube yoga lady is a bit too crunchy for me, but I assume that pretty much all yoga teachers are going to be pretty crunchy.
  • Yoga is not for bedtime. 
  • Apparently me + floor sitting = attack mode for my cat. My arms are covered in scratches and bites. 
  • Srsly, so much sweat. 
  • I already feel more stretchy and relaxed. 
  • I have no idea if I’m doing things correctly, but I’m appropriately sore afterwards.
  • My balance is…unbalanced. 
“Let’s end this”

So here are my thoughts:

Yuuri just had a panic-attack on the ice. He knows how he he ended the last season. He’s getting caught up in the pressure and seeing the other competitors and watching JJ fall apart has brought home to him that as much as he would like to win, he can’t almost destroy himself again to do so.

When he says “let’s end this”, it isn’t about him and Viktor. It’s about him pushing himself to go further and harder for the gold. Yes, he’s always said he wants to get the gold, but he’s also said that he wanted to remember what he loved about skating.

And this is why I think the quote from their engagement is significant:

When he skated Eros, he wasn’t skating the way he liked best. He was skating the way he knew Viktor would like to see him skate - aka doing the quad flip. He did it and he fluffed it and it almost sent him spiralling. It was a wake-up about how it could go if he keeps on laying the pressure on himself, and for the first time, he’s actively making steps to prevent that happening. 

If he could, he would love to take the gold, but for the first time, he’s deciding that his health - his sanity - must come first. Yuuri wants to skate for him and Viktor alone. He wants to show Viktor the skating he liked best and he doesn’t care about the medals or the points or any of that anymore. He wants to retain the joy of what they have created and I think that may be the thing that’ll actually let him win or at least place high in the end: once he takes away the massive, massive pressure, he can do it and have fun and it’ll be spectacular.

“Let’s end this” is about the constant competition and driving himself to breaking point. He wants to go there and perform Yuri on Ice for himself and for Viktor, the routine he loves best in all the world. The gold medal doesn’t matter. He already got the gold he wanted.