this was for lauren but its too cute not to post

Reasons to ship Camren…

  • They have matching onesies; Lauren’s one is gray whilst Camila’s is pink.
  • They’re both Cuban.
  • They’re both from Miami, Florida.
  • Both are Latinas.
  • Lauren and Camila got the most solos in The X Factor performances.
  • They are both big fans of One Direction.
  • They both auditioned in Greensboro, North Carolina.
  • They both have a younger sister.
  • They hung out with each other on December 31st, 2012 to January 1st, 2013. They then tweeted a photo of Camila making a funny face and Lauren looking awkward.
  • Spanish was both their first language.
  • They live 15 minutes away from each other.
  • They often switch places with the other girls so they can sit next to each other.
  • They both love to do accents with each other.
  • They often think the same things at the same time.
  • They both have a weakness: Lauren for beanies and Camila for bows.
  • Lauren is the only one who calls Camila Camz.
  • Camila said if Lauren got arrested for something, she would get arrested for being so sweet.
  • They sat right next to each other at a The 1975 concert.
  • They have the same music taste.
  • Lauren said Camila is her “Pink Princess”.
  • Lauren is the “mom”…and Camila is the “father”.
  • Camila thinks Lauren is a “boss of an intelligent opinion”.
  • Camila thinks Lauren “is real”.
  • Camila would switch her mind with Lauren.
  • Lauren would switch her mind with Camila.
  • Camila wanted Lauren to kiss her under the mistletoe.
  • They wear the same “merch” clothes.
  • The way Lauren looks at Camila after she says “Fall, by Ed Sheeran”.
  • Lauren is Camila’s celebrity crush. (Oh … and Camila wants to marry with her celebrity crush ..even if her family doesn’t support the relationship.)
  • Camila would be "Baby Spice” because she is Lauren’s baby.
  • Lauren is the only person who laughs at Camila’s jokes.
  • Camila loves Lern Jerg.
  • Because Lauren helps her when her banana is dead on the floor.
  • Because Lauren helps her when her microphone breaks.
  • Because Lauren ties her shoes.
  • Camila is the sun and Lauren the moon.
  • Because Lauren doesn’t know what else to say but she thinks Camila is pretty fucking Dope!
  • Because Camila has Lauren “written on her”.
  • Because Camila read Lauren’s favorite book.
  • Because Lauren knows that Camila cried reading “Fault in Our Stars”.
  • Because one day Camila and Lauren went to the bathroom together and … that’s the end of the conversation!
  • Because Camila thinks Lauren can sing and is pretty too.
  • Because they have an audience that calls them crazy! (and they call us delusional!)
  • Because both like “so many hot boys”.
  • Because Camila said: “keep the boat floating”.
  • Because Lauren said “It’s Camren, YOOO!.
  • Because Lauren wants someone to love her insecurities…and Camila do!
  • Because Lauren has “the most beautiful emerald eyes in the world”.
  • Because Camila thinks Lauren is “perfect”.
  • Camila tried salmon because Lauren loves sushi.
  • Because Lauren thinks Camila is goofy, not the bad kind goofy, the cute kind goofy.
  • Because Camila loves people from “planet green eyes”.


  • I love you. You’re one of my best friends and I feel like I’ve know you forever. You’re one of the smartest people I know and you’re stuning. I’ve learned a lot from you, just know I’ll always be here for you no matter what!” - Camila on Lauren
  • Happy 16th Birthday little one(: thank you for always being you and being one of the raddest people I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. You’re an incredible person and I’m extremely lucky to have you in my life. Thanks for being there to vent with and even though we haven’t known each other for even a year yet, I feel like you’re the sister God forgot to give me. I love you Camzi(: have a good one babe! 💙😘🎉🎈🎁💙#camren” - Lauren on Camila

  • Happy 17th Birthday to this little nugget right here. I thought this picture was cute so I decided it would suffice. Just wanted to let you know that you’re an amazing beautiful person and I’m glad that you’ve been alive for 17 years and that 2 of them have been spent with the girls and I because idk you’re pretty rad and an amazing friend and fun to have around. I hope you have an amazing day and feel as special today as you deserve to feel everyday. Thanks for always being there for me when I need you and for being your wonderful self(: I LOVE YOU CAMZ” - Lauren on Camila

  • AWHHHHH YAAAY I LOVE YOU UR CUTE 🐏🐟💗🎷” - Camila on Lauren

  • The word I’d use to describe Camila is hmm I’m gonna say cutesy, like also goofy. It’s like both, like the good kind of goofy not the weird kind. Like the cutesy kinda goofy” - Lauren on Camila

  • LERN JERGI. ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY. YOU ARE 18. THIS IS THE MOMENT YOUVE BEEN WAITING FOR. IF YOU STUCK YOUR TONGUE OUT IN THE AIR RIGHT NOW YOU COULD PROBABLY TASTE THE SWEET AND PUNGENT FREEDOM OF DRAGONFLY TATTOOS, NOSE PIERCINGS, AND VOTING RIGHTS. we’ve been through thick and thin in our friendship, and through those thick and thins I’ve gotten blessed enough to experience you as a person. ive gotten to experience your bomb music taste which I am SO HAPPY YOU INTRODUCED ME TO because we have the best time at concerts bonding over bands and there are so many more to come PRAISE JESUS. i can come to you about anything and expect the pure, honest, rare truth and I’ll always be there tell you it’ll be okay when you cry on my shoulder when you feel lonely or hurt. I’ve gotten to see firsthand your incredible sense of justice, when you see that something unfair or wrong has happened, you’ll raise your voice and fight for that person with a bravery that I, and many other people (although they might not admit it) wish they had. i love how passionately you fight for what you think is right and everyone should remind you today and everyday that it’s a strength and not a weakness. i can’t tell you what a comfort it is to know someone like you will stick up for me and have my back, i hope you know i will too. i love you always” - Camila on Lauren

  • Super cute candids taken by a random stranger always make good birthday post pics. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CAMILA CABELLO. YOU’RE LEGAL NOW YAYYY!!!!!! You are such a beautiful person inside and out and I’m so thankful that I get to call you my friend. Thanks for all the laughs, for being my shoulder to cry on whenever I’ve needed a friend, for giving amazing sound advice (even though you’re just now considered an adult by the government you’ve been there mentally for a while which I greatly appreciate) I wish you many more years of amazingness and I hope you had the best day with your family. You deserve all the love and happiness the world has to offer and I wish it all upon you for many many years to come. I LOVE YOU CAMZZZZ❤️❤️❤️” - Lauren on Camila

  • HAPPY 19TH LAUREN!! i remember the day you auditioned for X factor seeing a beautiful green eyed girl belt out an Alicia keys song so perfectly i feared for my life. i remember telling my mom "that girl can sing!! and she’s gorgeous too!!” and then you walked out and i told you i loved your shirt remember? HAHAHA. it’s funny how before we even knew how important we were going to be to each other, something in us knew and something in us will always know. i love how fiercely you defend your opinion, i love your strength, your bold independence, and your desire to live life fully. i love that we crack up at each other’s jokes even when nobody else gets them- and i love those moments where we get caught up in talking about a band or a book and we get lost in the conversation like two normal girls in high school that aren’t about to go do something ridiculous like go to an awards show. i will always be there for you when you need someone to vent to, when you want to talk about the overwhelming underwhelmingness of boys that break our hearts or the overwhelming overwhelmingness of when a kiss leaves your head reeling, when i back you up and you need someone to stick up for you, or when you just need someone to understand- we’ve done that for each other in the last 3 years and we will do that for each other forevermore. i love you so much !!!! happy 19th lern jergi!!!!! camila“ - Camila on Lauren
The story of the 5H fandom. What’s next?

I feel weirdly detached from all the drama right now, as if I’m just watching it all unfold from the outside. The way that the structure of this fandom has been continually reshaped over the most recent part of 5H’s career is fascinating (and disturbing). Having read that post about the Sony boss who discussed how they analyse and manipulate fanbases, I want to try and sum up the 5H story and recent events from that perspective.

For around 3 years there were just five girls who were cute and sung together and the fandom just bonded over loving 5H. Of course there were faves and fandom-bickering and shippers, but nothing out of the ordinary for a modern pop group. Then the seeds were planted for Camila’s solo career and she was given opportunities that separated her from the group. Hence the birth of the Camilizers vs OT4 battle. For over a year it seemed that the people in charge encouraged and reinforced this separation - effectively building two separate fanbases ready for when the split would happen. 

Meanwhile, as time went on, ‘faving’ someone increasingly became about aggressively stanning one girl at the expense of the others. This came to define the 5H fandom. I’m sure other fandoms have similar issues, but this hateful problematic kind of stanning became so woven into the fabric of Fifth Harmony that its hard to even imagine a time when the fandom was normal. 

And while all this was going on, the battle between shippers and non-shippers grew to new heights. A large portion of the fan-base were young LGBT fans who sought solace in ‘camren’, but as time went on and the shipping became more and more of an inconvenience to the girls personally, and to the label’s mainstream marketing strategy, ‘camren’ became elusive. Luckily for the label, a large portion of the LGBT shipping fanbase was maintained as many jumped ship to ‘laucy’ which was becoming ever more publicised each day. Then finally, with the help of ‘Laucy’, Lauren was able to come out without it affecting Camila or the mainstream appeal of the group too much. From a personal and moral perspective Lauren’s coming out was a brave and commendable move (something no-one can take away from her). But from a PR perspective, Lauren became an LGBT icon and her individual public persona was strengthened. The loyal LGBT fanbase who were originally drawn in by camren, were now encouraged to stick with 5H just for the representation they found in Lauren alone. 

The problem is, this was a lot of pressure to put on Lauren’s shoulders. She never asked to be a sex symbol or an LGBT icon. Only a short while after coming out, both of Lauren’s big ships have been killed. This means they are running the risk of losing a large portion of the fanbase that feeds on Lauren’s relationships and personal life. I have already seen multiple big accounts leaving the fanbase or distancing themselves from the situation. Yet again, a few small events and pointed moves have radically restructured the fan base.

So here is where we are now in the story. A state of limbo. If a large portion of the fanbase are sailers without a ship, then a void has been left. This is what worries me. How are they going to fill the void? i honestly don’t think they can afford to lose this huge portion of the 5H fanbase. How are they going to keep this part of the fanbase interested in Lauren and 5H? Are they going to fill it through PR relationships? Stunts? Drama? Or just sexualising Lauren even more? In any case it’s going to be a lot of PR pressure all put onto Lauren. I just feel like they must have something big up their sleeves and they have proven that they are not afraid to feed info about her personal life to the media. I don’t know what’s going to happen next but I just know that they have to feed the fandom something big and juicy if they want to retain the core fanbase, and this is what worries me. All I want is for Lauren and the other 4 girls to be able to live their private lives without having to navigate all the PR strategies that are used to manipulate the fanbase for business purposes. i imagine meeting rooms where business people discuss the different categories of the fanbase (Queer, Straight, Young, old, camren shippers, laucy shippers, camilizers, OT4s, Laurenizers etc.. etc…) and move the pieces around on the metaphorical chess board. Even though I‘m sure some of the events we witness do unfold naturally, I still think most of the time they know exactly what they’re doing, and they always have the next move in mind.

I just want the girls to be happy, and I hope they find ways to not get too caught up in all this bullshit.

going on a date hcs;

Hamilsquad fluff with their s/o please? Maybe dates they would go on with each other or just going on an outing in general? - @cookiepixel

boss’ memo : not to be confused with dating hcs

  • alex has got this odd thing where he wants to go to a fancy restaurant and at the same time he is terrified of being in one (the very moment that he steps one foot through the door, he enters Panic Mode–though it may be difficult to tell with how well he hides it, he’ll be sure to let out a breath the moment you leave as well as mumble something along the lines of “thank you i’m done here”)
    • it’s not that he feels underdressed or self-conscious–hercules would never let him out of the house otherwise. he manages to fit and stand out all at once,, it’s a good look for him
      • your presence (as does the presence of the other boys) does comfort him to the extent that he won’t turn and hightail it out of there immediately, but you can still see in the way his eyes will dart from table to table, and how he holds the tension in his shoulders
    • yet, if you ask him how he felt about the whole ordeal, he’d overall summarize it with, “lots of fun but never again”
      • (though he’d expand that into a paragraph of rambling)
      • (which is fine)
    • alex is skilled when it comes to sneaking kisses and touches in public, so you may experience That,,
      • (especially if you’re on a date, ‘cause he likes to see you get playfully angry,,, he won’t go overboard, just enough so he can savor your expression)
  • on dates in general, lafayette tends to be big on complimenting all of you while resting his head on one of his hands. he wants to see you guys all flustered by him! leaving you all blushy and covering your faces and giggling makes him feel powerful in the very best way possible! (he might make an, “i’m too strong” joke, even)
    • laf would honestly rather stay at home, wrapped up in a blanket with you and watching movies and maybe smiling to himself ‘cause he’s kind of watching your cute reactions rather than the movie. he might fumble over his words a bit if you ask him what he thinks so far may end up admitting the truth or giving a compliment to the movie that he actually intended for you,,
      • “laf, what do you think of it so far?”
        “wonderful. i love yo–the movie. i love the movie. the movie is wonderful.”
    • though, if you do go out, he’s the type to excitedly pull you (and, by extension, the others) over to the window of a store if he spots something that reminds him of one of you that he’d like to buy as a gift,, he’s always looking for gifts, and a frequent question from him is, “i saw you looking at [item], do you like it?”
  • hercules loves going on dates !!! he wants to go on every date!! spending time with you always makes him happy, and he usually defaults to taking you to their (the rev set’s) favorite bar.
    • though, if that’s not your style, and you’re the type to stay up all night / willing to do this for him–he really likes going on late night walks. he tends to stick to areas where the shops and restaurants are still open, and you can hear the excited murmuring of others around you.
      • he’s a big fan of the way the streetlights look,, he goes on these walks weekly and would be honored if you tagged along !! (he’s never alone on his outings, as one of you always wants to go with him, sometimes all of you just go on an impromptu date just like that)
      • he doesn’t really buy anything, he just likes enjoying the moment, but if you seem interested in anything, he’s fine with going over and getting something for you if you’d like him to!
    • generally he’s pretty easy-going, so if you’re the type for fancy dates, he won’t actually mind tagging along! (provided its nowhere too noisy !)
      • he really likes holding hands while you’re all walking, though he usually only holds one person’s hand at a time so he can have a free one,, either way, it’s pretty cute how he plays with your hand and rubs his thumb gently over your knuckles, or traces the lines on your palm,,
  • john’s such a nerd,, he moves quietly and enjoys startling alex by popping up behind him while you guys are out. often he gets separated from the group, but he’s always quick to return (usually with some cool thing he saw,, it’s often a small trinket or another notebook to add to his ever growing collection). there’s also a high chance that he’ll bring you back something nice, too!
    • he usually prefers to go on dates that involve more than two of you, as he finds it easier to keep up conversation with more people, and just listening amuses him in general!! he especially loves when everyone gets into playful debates,, (arguing over the superior pasta, discussing the best powerpuff girl, etc)
      • (it’s especially fun when alex pulls out his phone to cite his sources because of course he does)
      • (he finds it difficult to keep up conversation alone, and while he’s fine with comfortable silence, he’s unsure if this makes you uncomfortable or not–if it doesn’t, then dates with him only are perfectly fine)
    • he’s the one who would stargaze on the roof with you, and he’d maybe bring a few snacks,, he’ll mostly be quiet, as he looks up–but if you’d like to point out constellations or talk in general, he’s all fine with that, too!! he’s just basking in the heavens and in your presence (which is also heavenly)
      • (he might nap? oops. it simply means he’s feeling relaxed around you!)
  • majority of your dates are with all of them, and while they take long to organize, they’re always fun!
    • since they’re easiest to organize, sitting in the living room under a blanket and marathoning your shows / movies of choice is the most frequent kind of date that you all go on ! 
jooheon coffee date

jooheon drabble

a/n: i like to write my friends positive feeling drabbles to help give them something to read if they need that extra bit of support, and its even better if it comes from their bias and so i decided to post them. i wrote this smol drabble for this smol friend @wispywonwoo ly bby

Originally posted by lostinmonstax

the beat coming from the high quality headphones and jooheon’s deep, raspy voice rapping and cursing sounded so out of place in the scenery of a day time cafe whilst you were sat opposite your dimply boyfriend and his optimistic look of hope. you could picture jooheon’s face as he rapped each line of the song, his eyes scrunching up and his lips twitching into a half smirk.

the song finished and you pulled the headphones off, looking up to jooheon’s happy face.

“well? what do you think?” you could tell that behind his cute, positive smile was uncertainty and the faint sign of nervousness.

“jooheon,” you cupped his cute, freshly flushed cheeks, “it’s awesome!!”

he laughed at your reaction, his cheeks glowing at your excited compliment.

“i’m glad you like it, you’re the first person i showed.”

your heart warmed at his sincerity. he grabbed his cup of coffee with cream and took a sip, the cream leaving a white moustache along his upper lip.

“jooheon,” you giggled, “you got a little something-”

“where is it? i don’t know what you mean lauren,” he smirked at you.

“on your top lip,” you murmured.

he feigned innocence, playing with you a little, “i don’t know what you’re talking about, you’re gonna have to come show me.”

you rolled your eyes, shuffling closer in your cafe booth, and used your thumb to wipe of the remaining cream, then licking it off your own thumb like a child too.

“mmm did you have chocolate sprinkles?”

he chuckled and threw his arm around your shoulder, pulling your tiny frame into his inviting one.

on the table you sat behind, was a flower pot with a plant flowering lots of little buds, all a light, soft pink colour.

jooheon reached forward and picked one off gently for you.

“for you.”

“jooheon! you can’t just go around picking flowers that don’t belong to you!”

“oh shh it’s a nice gesture, it’s fine.”

he tilts your chin to face him and tucks your hair behind your ear before placing the delicate blossom  in the tuck safely.

“there. adorable.”

he looked back at you like you were his finished piece of artwork.

Pancakes & Poetry

Smol! John Laurens x Tol! Reader; ft. Awkward Alex

Modern AU

Author: Lil Lambie

Words: 1980

Warnings: None :)

Request:Situation  27, dialogue 20 with John Laurens, pleease?
Height Difference AU
“Stop calling me cute!” “Stop doing cute things!”

A/N: First off, I am so sorry. I know that historically, John Laurens was tall and like six foot, but I was writing for Lin’s interpretation of Laurens. Which to me, is short Anthony Ramos. So, I apologize for being historically inaccurate. Also, I wanted to break the norm of the reader being short and the character tall. I seriously LOVED writing this one. Lol I made Laddie suffer while I finished it, because apparently she loved it too. Also, this is longer than most imagines we post. I would be more than happy to continue to write for this situation. If you have an complaints or criticisms please drop them in the ask box. Hope you enjoy!

You let your fingers dance along the leather spines. You felt over the pages, and the embossed titles. There were too many books in the world to read, it depressed you and excited you simultaneously.

You already had a modest amount of books in your hands.

“Ehh…ehh…almost there!” a strained voice said.

You looked up from the shelf to see a small man with curly dark hair, desperately trying to reach for a book on the top shelf. He was balanced on two stools, the book still out of his reach. His fingers graced the spine.

You sighed and set down your books on the small bookshelf and walked over to him. He hadn’t noticed you. He was too enthralled with his frustration. You sighed a little louder, trying to announce your presence.

“Dammit!” he shouted, as the tower of stools tipped from under him and he fell of sideways. You caught him with ease. It took him a moment to untense and open his eyes. He smiled at you, surprised. “Oh.” he blushed. “Hi.”

You set him back down and grabbed the book he was reaching for. You handed it to him and smiled awkwardly. “Hi, glad I could be of help.”

You started to walk away, back to your books.

“Hey! Wait!” he shouted.

You stopped and turned around. “What?”

“I…um…I want more books.” he laughed. “And I can’t really reach them. Would you…mind?” he smiled widely. “Please. I would appreciate it so much!”

You shrugged and sat your books back down. “Sure.” you laughed. “What books?”

He didn’t just want a few books, he wanted about twenty books. Loaded up on classics, romances, and poetry. Particularly love poetry.

“Pablo Neruda, Shakespeare, Dickinson, Frost…hmm.” you laughed as you watched the clerk ring him up. It took the two of you to carry all the books to the front.

“Yeah,” he laughed, pulling a credit card from his wallet. “I like classic literature. Also, I’ve got a friend who is really into poetry too.”

“Oooh, who is she?” you teased.

He blushed and shook his head. “No, he is just a friend. His name is Alexander.” he watched the clerk for a moment then turned to you and held out his hand. “I never actually introduced myself, I’m John Laurens. You can call me whatever you like.” he smiled.

You shook his hand awkwardly. “(Y/N) (L/N), you can just call me (Y/N).” you laughed.

“Alright, (Y/N), thank you!” he shook your hand then put his credit card back in his wallet.

“Do you want a bag…or a box maybe?” the clerk laughed.

“My hands are just fine.” John smiled.

“Whatever dude.” the clerk rolled his eyes and wandered from the counter.

“ ‘My hand are just fine?’ “ you laughed, “Wow. What a response.”

“Trying to save the environment.” John smirked, scooping a few books into his arms and then stacking them precisely.

“If you’re trying to save the environment, you should probably stop buying books.” you held up his copy of Gone With the Wind, “This is probably a tree on its own.” you laughed. “You are a tree killer.”

“Guilty is charged,” he grinned, “that’s what I get for being an avid reader.”

You laughed. “Hey, John, how do you expect to carry these to your car?”

“I don’t.” he grinned. “Because I didn’t drive here.”

“Are. You. Serious.” you laughed.

“Unfortunately, yes. You’re not going to leave me to walk home with all these books, are you?” John guilt tripped you.

“Can’t you just get a box?”

“Well, I’m trying to save the environment from now on. So, no more cardboard, paper, or plastic.” he adjusted the books and started towards the door. “Ya coming?” he shouted, holding the door open with his foot.

You laughed and shook your head. “I had some books of my own too.”

“Don’t worry about it, I saw that you got the same books as me. We are trying to save the environment, so I figured I’d just buy them as a payback for you helping me.”

“I can’t do that.” you laughed. “They are yours.”

“Well, I guess you could come over and borrow them sometime.”

“John,” you laughed, “are you asking me on a date?”

“Maybe, or I’m extending an invitation to my super private and exclusive book club.”

“Wow, I’ve always dreamed of getting into such an exclusive club! I don’t think I can handle such an amazing opportunity.”

“Fine.” John laughed. “Just let me buy you a cup of coffee and we can call it good.”

“I never said no,” you grinned, “Is the offer still up for grabs?”

“Of course. Unlike most book clubs with bowls of fruit and plates of cookies, we make pancakes.”

“Sounds like a deal.”


You walked with John to his apartment. The book club invitation did not wait. John led you to his study, which was already piled high with unread books. There was a partner desk across from his. A man was bent over it. His hair was long and silky. He looked up, adjusting his glasses.

“Oh. Sorry. I didn’t see you here. Who’d you bring home, Laurens?” the man laughed.

“You must be Alexander, the fellow poet.”

Alexander blushed and reached for your hand and kissed it. “I guess I am. What brings you to the humble abode of Laurens and Hamilton?”

“Pancakes and books.” you smiled.

“Aw, yes. Well, if excuse me…I need to get back to my…poetry.” he laughed.


You and John were back in the kitchen, making pancake batter. He had given you a red apron, while was now covered in flour.

“How do you turn this on?” you laughed.

“Like this.” John explicitly grabbed your hand, and moved it to the red button on the hand mixer. It became spinning and beating methodically against the bowl.

“Ahh!” you jumped back and John laughed. The mixer went rogue and exploded the bowl on you.

You fell back onto the kitchen floor, with pancake mix all over you.

John dropped down to you, concern on his face. “(Y/N), are you okay?”

“Fine.” you laughed.

John smiled, now that he could breathe easy. “Uhh…you’ve got something on your-” John chuckled. He reached his hand down to you and pulled you back up to your feet.

“What?” you touched your face, searching for the pancake splatter. “Where is it?”

“Let me get it.” John leaned forward, towards you You took a step towards him tentatively.

You continued to pat around your face, searching for the batter. John blushed and giggled. “Um, I can’t reach you.” he laughed.

You bent your knees, lowering yourself. John smiled and stood on his toes. His soft hands touched your nose. He brushed his finger over the bridge of your nose and brought his finger to his lips and licked it. “Hmm…that’s good.” he laughed. He planted his feet back on the floor.

“Really?” you laughed. You dipped your finger in the batter and splashed some on John’s nose. However, you didn’t think about your size compared to John, so the spray of batter covered his nose and flicked into his right eye, and dripped down to his lips.

He flinched when it hit his face, then he burst out laughing. You reached down and wiped it off his face with your finger, mimicking his action. You didn’t do it in one swift action. You wiped it off his nose, then his eye with a different finger, then you stared at his lips. You tentatively brought it to your lips and nodded, smiling.

“It is good.”

John smiled tentative and took a step towards you. You bent your knees slightly, watching over John’s shoulder to his feet, his toes raising to the floor. You moved slowly, the moment isolated in time. John focused his eyes, softly on you. You moved your hand under his neck, up to his chin. His hand moved up to your back, as far as he could reach, slightly leaning on the bar for a gain in height.

“Hey! I got all the copies from the library-” The two of you split apart. John fell off balance and fell to the floor. Instinctively, you jumped down and caught him, a foot from the floor.

Alex stood, with his glasses on the tip of his nose, three books dangling from his hands. One fell to the floor. “Uh…Hey, (Y/N), you should join our book club! It’s every Saturday night.”

“Oh.” you laughed nervously. “Great.” you glanced down at John, him in a dancing dip position. He smiled up and you and laughed.

“Yeah, sounds great Alex.” John laughed and smiled, gritting his teeth. “Hey, how about we start next week? That way you get back to your book or essays or uh poetry?”

“Yeah.” Alex nodded slowly, bending over to pick up the book and started backing out of the room. “Sounds great. Uh, see you next week, (Y/N)!”

“You too!” you shouted. “Bye, Alex!”

Alex gave a quick wave and smile to both of you and darted out of the room. Dropping and sliding onto the wooden floor, into the safety of his study.

“Well. Uh. Where were we?” John laughed.

“Salsa dancing?” you laughed.

John smiled. His hand slowly moving to your hand. “Maybe we should make that for next week. Mix it up a little bit. Maybe salsa pancakes?” he laughed.

“Maybe.” you giggled.

The silence and tension returned. The isolation resumed. John was slipping from your hands and the batter dripped over his lip. John closed his eyes, bracing for the kiss.

You kissed his cheek and pulled away, a smug smirk on your face. “There we go.” you grinned, wiping the rest of the batter off his face with your finger. You licked it satisfyingly.

“T-T-That’s all?” he laughed.

You shrugged and pulled John back up to his feet. “I guess you’ll have to wait till next week, at the next book club meeting.”

You grabbed your belongings, slipping your jacket on, maintaining your grin. John laughed and rubbed his arms. “Oh, yeah. Sure.” he laughed, glancing down at the floor.

You walked past him, out of the kitchen towards the door. He followed you, continuing awkward small talk, his cheeks growing a bright crimson. “Yeah. So, I guess salsa pancakes next week? Maybe a little salsa dancing?”

“Hey, um, what book are we reading next time?” you said, slipping on your shoes.

John shrugged exaggeratedly and laughing, leaning against the open doorway. “Beats me! I don’t know.”

“Okay, sounds great.” you laughed.

You stood in the middle of the doorway, John leaned in the middle. His arms hanging awkwardly at his sides.

You ran up the first step and pulled his towards you swiftly. You grabbed him by the shoulder, your grip softening. You kissed him once and quick, getting a reminiscence of the sweet pancake batter, realizing you hadn’t actually made the pancakes yet.

You pulled away, letting your hand linger for a moment in his. He stood there. Eyes wide and jaw dropped open. His cheeks glowed like rubies. You kissed him once more on the cheek and separated yourself from him. “Well, I’ll see you next week! Bye!”

You skipped off the steps, down the apartment steps.

John was stood there, in an amorous daze. He waved weakly back to you. “B-B-Byyee…!” he laughed, his shoulders loosening up for a moment. “Bye, (Y/N)!” he finally got the words out. He shouted after you. You glanced back, on the street, smiling up at him. He waved at you. His words softened until he spoke to himself and the empty space.

“I…I love you.”

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Jeremy counting out his change on the Starbucks counter because god damn it he may be struggling to pay rent but he’s going to buy his god damn frappe so he can stare at Ryan’s face while he makes it because Ryan is the only pure thing in his life right now. (And then later when Ryan’s been revealed as the vagabond: “oh no oh shit I thought Ryan was cute but oh damn him in the leather being all skilled in combat and whatnot is actually super sexy oh god help”)

fuuu this is so cute, lauren you’re killing me i love it

Freckles (Laurens x Reader)


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Warnings- Angst

A/N- (Thisone kinda skips around a lot and it ends kinda weirdly but ey I actually posted for once wow)

Request- “What about one where the Hamiltons are on a vacation and Est. Reader x John are babysitting and she lowkey starts wanting a family watching John play with him but then they and turns out she can’t get pregnant! Maybe end with adoption maybe angst.”

Words- 5,279

Eliza was talking a mile a minute, and you were doing your best to keep up.

“…and he’s teething so he’ll probably cry a lot but just…”

You looked over to John. Your husband’s arms held tightly onto a giggling 8-month-old. He and Alexander were both watching you with amused eyes. 

“Are you listening, Y/N? He might try to bite onto his fingers and toes and eat them. He does that.” Eliza said seriously. “I know it doesn’t actually hurt him, but it kind of scares me when he does and-”

“Relax.” Alexander soothed, stepping behind her and rubbing his hands up his wife’s arms. “They’re more than capable of taking care of Philip.” He put his chin on her shoulder and looked at you. “I swear she needs this vacation more than I do.” he said quietly. You giggled, but Eliza didn’t find it funny. She pouted and turned to give him a stern look.

“Are you sure we should be leaving? He’s just a baby Alexander.” 

Alex puts his hands on Eliza’s shoulders firmly. “And he’ll be a baby when we get back. It’s only an extended weekend. Now c’mon, let’s go.” Eliza sighed and nodded, turning to John. She put her hands gently on Philip’s head and started to kiss him all over. 

“Good bye my precious baby boy. Mommy’s gonna miss you so much!” Philip just giggled, having no idea what was happening. Alex gently pulled Eliza away before she suffocated the poor kid. 

He bent down and kissed his son on the head. “Bye bye bud.” Alex smiled softly and put his hand lightly over Philip’s head before stepping away. There were few times Alexander Hamilton was gentle, but around his family, he was always so caring. 

Alex put his arm around Eliza. “Got everything?” John looked around at the many bags they had been left with. He looked back up at his best friend and nodded. “Okay let’s go then.” Alex said. He started to walk Eliza to the front door. Philip giggled again and reached out to his parents. Alex sighed and waved a little goodbye to him. Philip smiled and curled into John. Alex looked at Eliza as if to say See? I told you he’d be fine. 

“Bye! Have fun!” Alex called to you and your husband. Eliza smiled sweetly and waved at you before they both walked out of the small house. 

You turned to John with wide eyes and let out a slow breath. He grinned and let Philip grab onto his finger. 

“I’m gonna go teach him a ton of swear words.” John started to walk down the hallway towards your shared bedroom. Your eyes widened.

“Johnathan no!”

You woke to the sound of a high-pitched scream. You were immensely confused at first before you remembered you were babysitting. John’s side of the bed was warm but empty. You stretched your arms and untangled yourself from the sheets. The bones in your feet cracked in protest as you put weight on them, but you continued out into the hall anyway. Light poured into the short hallway from what you and John called your living room. It was really just a large couch and a TV, but it served its purpose. A small hiccuping sound could be heard. 

“John?” you called softly. No response. You continued quietly and stood in the doorway. 

“It’s okay little guy.” John’s voice was quiet and fell over the room like a blanket. You smiled and leaned against the frame, watching his back carefully. Philip’s eyes were wide as he stared up at John, but he wasn’t crying out loudly like he had been a minute ago. “You’ve got nothing to be scared of.” 

Philip started to let out small sobs and John instantly starting bouncing him and shushing him again. He turned around fully, and a smile spread across his face when he saw you watching him with soft eyes. 

“Hey.” he whispered. 

“You’re really good with him.” you said, stepping closer and smiling down at Philip. He had little freckles that reminded you of John’s. 

“Yeah I guess.” John nodded. “He’s so cute.” he cooed more to Philip than you. You smiled and kissed John on the cheek. Philip’s eyes were starting to slip slowly closed. John rocked him slowly for a few moments more before stilling completely. Philip stayed resting soundly in his arms. John gave you satisfied look and placed Philip back into the temporary crib with extreme care. John walked slowly back to your side, slipping a strong arm around your waist. You both stayed in the room for a bit, but when you were sure Philip was asleep, you pulled John into the hallway. 

As soon as the door closed, you wrapped your arms around his neck and reached up to kiss him. You felt his lips stretch into a smile against yours before he pushed back lightly, kissing you in a sweet, slow fashion that still made your body feel like jelly even after years with him. He pulled away breathlessly and gazed down at you. 

“What was that for?” His low voice had a certain rasp to it. 

You shrugged. “I just wanted to.” 

He laughed quietly and grabbed your hand, pulling you down the hallway. “C’mon silly, let’s put you to bed too.” 

You covered your giggle with your hand and followed him to your room, falling gladly on the bed and into his arms. You listened to his breathing as it slowed gradually and his grip on you loosened slightly, but sleep didn’t come easy for you despite Philip’s good demeanor the rest of the night. One thought kept playing again and again in your mind. 

Freckles like John’s look so cute on a baby. 

The rest of your time with Philip was like a whirlwind of new experiences and laughter. Monday came around faster than you thought it would, and the Hamilton’s arrived back at your home late that night. You and John had tried to get Philip to sleep, even just a little bit, but it was like he knew, if he just stayed up an hour or two longer, he’d get to see his parents again. 

Eliza rushed into the home when John answered the door, barely acknowledging his existence. Alexander followed soon after, a large grin on his face. Philip squealed with giggles as Eliza took him carefully but quickly from your arms into hers, kissing him all over in the process. As she cooed and fawned over her son, you looked to Alexander who was watching them both happily. 

“How was it?” you asked him. He smiled in your direction briefly before looking back to his wife and son. 

“It was great, but I think we’re both glad to be home.” You nodded in understanding and watched Alex take Philip from Eliza and lift him up, causing him to shriek with more laughter. You’d never get tired of that sound. You looked away and saw John watching you with a smirk on his face and his arms crossed casually over his chest. 

Eliza and Alexander were tired so they left quickly with the promise that they’d tell you all about their trip soon. You shut the door and nearly ran into John when you turned around. He smiled widely and pulled you onto the couch. 

“So…?” he prompted. 

“So?” You furrowed your brow, unsure of what he was getting at. 

“I can practically read your mind, Y/N.” he reminded you. “And even if I couldn’t it’s pretty obvious.” 

You looked away. “What’s obvious?” 

“You totally want a little Philip! Or a little…something.” 

Your heart skipped at his words. You’d always wanted kids since you were one yourself, but you and John hadn’t really talked about it since before you’d gotten married. You had both agreed that you should wait awhile. You bit your lip and stared down at his hand on your knee. 

“For the record,” His fingers were on your chin lifting your head to meet his eyes. “I do too.” 

“You…you do?” You pulled back slightly. “Really?” 

“Yeah of course!” He took both of your hands in his. “I mean, we’re in a good spot financially right now. We’re stable. We just got this house; we should fill it.” 

A small lump was forming in your throat at the adoring love evident in his voice. “You’re really ready to have a baby?” you whispered. 

John pressed his lips lightly to yours. “I’m ready if you’re ready.” he said quietly, his eyes still closed. 

You nodded. “I’m ready.” 

You’d never seen John smile so wide. He pulled you against him and started to kiss all over your face while you giggled loudly. 

You stared down at the white plastic stick in anger, debating if you should throw it against the wall or just break it in half. 

“Hey, it’s okay.” John said. He was kneeling in front of the chair you were sitting in. 

“No it’s not okay John!” The negative test hit the floor with a crack. Your chest felt incredible tight, and it was getting harder for you to breathe.“We’ve been trying for ten months! Ten!” John’s figure started to blurr so you wiped at your eyes. “Why isn’t this working? What’s wrong with me?” Your voice cracked. 

“No no. Listen.” He reached up and cupped your cheek, forcing you to look at his face. “It’s not your fault, alright? We’ll go in and get tested. Both of us. There’s gotta be something we can do.” His other hand slid up your legs, and his fingers laced through yours tightly. You nodded, still trying to hold back tears. “We’re gonna have a family, Y/N. I promise.” 

“They only have you come in after tests if it’s bad news.” you mumbled. John squeezed your hand, using the other one to drive the car. 

“It’ll be alright, Y/N.” 

You rolled your eyes. “You keep saying that, but you don’t know.” 

His eyes snapped to you before turning back to the road. “I do know. Everything is gonna turn out okay.” 

“John, what if we can’t have kids.” you said, frustration evident in your tone.

Your husband let go of your hand and quickly pulled into a parking spot outside the clinic. He turned to you with a serious face. “It doesn’t matter if we can’t have kids.” You opened your mouth to speak, but he cut you off. “Y/N as long as I have you, it’s gonna be okay.” He took both of your hands loosely in his.  “We’ll figure it out, together.” 

Your chest contricted slightly. “Okay.” you whispered. “Together.” 

“Besides, we don’t even know if that’s the case yet.” 

You nodded. “Let’s go in.” 

You and John didn’t speak anymore as you walked into the big white building and checked in, but you held onto his arm tightly like it was some kind of anchor. Your leg bounced up and down while you looked around the room frantically. There were some couples who looked happy with their hands against their baby bumps, and some who looked just as nervous as you. What really broke your heart was seeing a very young, very pregnant, woman sitting in a chair all by herself. 

“Y/N?” John said. You looked towards him quickly. “They called us.” A smiling nurse with a short haircut was looking at you over his shoulder. You and John followed her down a hallway that never seemed to end. Finally, you reached a small room, and she informed you that the doctor would be in shortly. 

You stared at the cartoon decals on the green wall. Your mind was totally blank except for one reoccurring theme. This could be it. The doctor could come in here and say that you’d never have children. You’d never get a little baby with freckles just like John’s. 

The door creaked loudly, cracking through the silence of the room like a bullet. The doctor’s face was neutral, but you already knew. Why would they bring you in unless something was wrong? 

“How are you two doing today?” she asked cheerily. 

“Fine.” you said quietly. She nodded and sat in the chair by the computer, pulling her thick black hair back into a ponytail. 

“Good, that’s good.” She typed a few things in the computer the turned to you. John put his hand on your knee the moment he saw her face. “I’m afraid I have some bad news today, Y/N.” she sighed. You nodded and swallowed hard, putting your hand on top of John’s. 

“It’s the shape of your uterus.” she continued, using her olive toned hands to gesticulate. “It’s not optimal for an egg to attach to the lining. That’s why it’s been so hard for you to get pregnant.” You nodded in understanding, not allowing the news to set in yet. “What’s really unfortunate is that there’s not much we can do about this situation. There are certain supplements you can take to try and make your uterus more accepting, but even if the egg does attach, a pregnancy could be difficult and dangerous.” She was silent for awhile, probably letting the full weight of her words sink in. Surprisingly, you didn’t cry. You weren’t pissed. You had expected this, and yes it hurt, but you weren’t blinded at least. You looked from your feet up at John. He gave you a sad smile and squeezed your leg reassuringly.

“I don’t want to overstep my bounds, but I can see how much you two want a child.” You looked back over to her and nodded. “Have you given any thought to adoption yet?” she asked carefully. 

“A-adoption?” You looked to John, but he was watching the doctor. 

“No…we haven’t really talked about that.” he explained. 

The doctor pulled a few different pamphlets out of a file folder and laid them on her desk in front of both of you. “I really encourage you to consider it. There are so many children who need good parents like you two.” She slid a few papers forward. “There’s international programs. Those can be stressful, but it’s very gratifying. There’s also different U.S. programs that are just as rewarding.” She gathered all the papers. John took them from her because your hands were shaking. “I just don’t want either of you to think you’re out of options because of this.” 

You gave her a small smile. “Thank you.” 

She patted your leg and smiled back. “Of course.” She got up from the chair and headed to the door. “Keep me updated. I’d love to help and answer any questions you have. You’re welcome to stay in here as long as you want.” She nodded to John and left the room. 

You reached for the pamphlets, but John pulled them away. “Y/N, we don’t have to decide this right now.” 

You reached for them again. “I just wanna see.” 

“Don’t you think you should let yourself, I don’t know, mourn? Be upset?” 

You dropped your hand. “Are you upset?” you asked quietly. 

“I…well, it isn’t the greatest news, but like she said, we have options.” 

You nodded. “I’m…okay.” 

“Are you?” John raised an eyebrow. 

You looked down at your hands. “I…I think so. Maybe I’ll be upset later, I don’t know.” you rambled. John put his arm around you and kissed the side of your head. 

“We’ll take work off tomorrow. We can just spend the day together and watch those weird indie movies you like.” 

You smiled and looked up at him with squinted eyes. “You like them too, and you know it.” you said firmly. He laughed and kissed your head again. 

The two of you walked out of the room hand in hand. You saw the girl from before walking towards another room. Your eyes met hers. You gave her an encouraging smile, and she returned it, but her’s was so obviously weak and tired. You frowned and looked up at John. 

“It’s kind of stupid.” you stated. 

“What is?” he pushed the door of the clinic open. You both stepped into the heat. 

“That girl was so young, and she clearly doesn’t want to be pregnant. Here I am, and I can’t get pregnant at all.” 

John nodded and pulled his keys out his pocket, opening the car door for you. When he got in as well you started speaking again. 

“I mean, I’m not trying to sound bitter or bitchy.” 

He smiled at you and started the car. “I know.” 

“It’s just, I don’t know, it’s weird. In a sad way. Neither of us gets what we want.” 

John tore his eyes off the road and gave you a sympathetic smile. “I know. It sucks.” He put his hand on your thigh. “But we’re figuring it out together, remember?” 

You nodded. “Together.” 

It hit you that night when you were both getting ready for bed. You opened the closet to get a new tube of toothpaste, and a box for pregnancy test fell onto the floor. You could do nothing but stare a it. When John reached down to throw it away, you cried. You insisted that you needed to keep because there was still a chance. The doctor was wrong. 

John pulled you into the bedroom and onto the bed. He held you all night and tried his hardest to convince that it wasn’t your fault and that stuff like this happened all the time. You cried the entire night on and off. Neither of you got a wink of sleep. 

It took a long time to stop blaming yourself, but a week later you noticed the abandoned adoption information sitting on your kitchen counter. Once you read one, you couldn’t stop.

John walked into the house and kissed you on the cheek the moment he saw you. “Whatcha reading, babe?” He was still slightly breathless from his run. You shrugged, your eyes still glued to the screen. He grabbed a water out of the fridge and sat next to you. 

“Did you know 100,000 children are waiting to be adopted? And that’s just in the U.S.” you said, still not looking away from the computer. John’s eyes widened, and he swallowed the water quickly. 

“That’s a lot.” he agreed. 

“I know!  400,000 in foster care, how crazy is that?” You turned to him. He had a smile on his face. 

“That is crazy.” he said slyly. 

You narrowed your eyes. “What?” 

“You really want this, huh?” You shrugged in response and looked back at the screen. “Oh please,” he continued. “You’ve been researching for two days straight, and we’ve accumulated at least twice the amount of pamphlets the doctor originally gave us.” 

You smiled down at your hands. “Yeah, I’m just excited, I guess.” You looked up at him with eager eyes. “There’s just so much to do! What country should it be from? Do we want a boy or a girl? Do we even get to pick that? I don’t know. But how old do we want him or her to be? Will they have contact with their birth parents?” 

John laughed and kissed your knuckle. “You’re right.” He pulled your laptop closer to him. “We’ve got a lot of research to do”

You and John had just sat down to have dinner when he got a phone call. You gave him a slightly annoyed look, but he held his screen up to you. 

“It’s the clinic.” he stated. A jolt of nervousness ran through you. You bit your lips. There was no reason they should be calling. John furrowed his brow and answered it. 

“Hello?….Yes of course, how are you?….Yes, she’s here….Okay.” John took the phone away from his ear and tapped a button, holding it between you two. The familiar voice of your doctor came through muffled. 


“Yeah, I’m here.” You looked up to John. He shrugged, just as confused as you were. 

“I have some news for both of you. Another patient of mine has decided it’s in their baby’s best interest to give it up, but she doesn’t want it to go into foster care. She wants parents she can trust. I thought of you too right away.” 

Your eyes lit up and you smiled at John. 

“Take some time to think about it, but if you’re at all interes-” 

“Yes! We want the baby.” you said quickly. John’s head snapped up to you. You shrugged. “I’m ready.” you mouthed. His face softened, and he nodded. 

“Me too.” he said quietly. 

“Are you both sure? It’s a big decision.” she warned. 

You nodded at your husband. “Yes. We are definitely sure.” John said. You felt your heart swell and couldn’t keep the smile off your face. 

“Okay then!” the doctor said cheerily. “I’ll let her know. Would you like to meet her before the birth? The patient doesn’t mind either way.” 

John looked to you. You bit your lip and mulled it over. “I think it might be good to know our baby’s background.” you said. John laughed quietly. “What?” 

“Our baby.” he repeated with a grin. Happiness spread through your whole body. John brought his mouth closer to the phone. “Yeah. If we could, it would be nice to get to know her.” 

“That can definitely be arranged.” You heard the sound of a keyboard clicking ring through the phone. “Is it alright to text this number with more details?” she asked. John gave her a positive answer. “Alright, well then I hope to see you two soon. I’m absolutely thrilled for everyone involved, especially that lucky kid.” 

“Thank you so much.” you said. John hung up and held his arms up. You practically jumped onto him. He whispered in your ear about how thrilled he was and how great of a mother you would be. His arms were wrapped tightly around you. Nothing could wipe the smile of your face in that moment. You were finally getting your own family with the perfect person for you. 

“I wonder what she’ll be like.” John said as you walked up to the familiar clinic. He was practically bouncing with excitement. 

You thought back to what the doctor had said on the phone. “I think I know who it is.” John’s brow creased, but he didn’t question you. 

Your suspicions were confirmed as you were led by a nurse into a small lounge like room. The young girl from a few weeks before was sitting there. Her face lit up when she saw you. You held out your hand to introduce yourself formally, but she ignored it and hugged both you and John before sitting back down. John grinned at you, and you both sat on the couch across from her. Your mutual doctor sat in an office chair between the two. 

“I’m Maria!” she said sweetly. “You’re John and Y/N.” There was almost a tone of relief in her voice. “Thank you so much for meeting me. Tell me about yourselves!”  

You smiled up at John. “Well, we met in college through our friends Eliza and Alex. We’ve been married for three years. John’s an environmental lawyer, and I work as a teaching assistant and administrator.” 

You and John answered every question Maria asked you with a smile. There was so much joy in that small room. 

Maria looked from you to the doctor. “They’re perfect.” she marveled. John winked at you. 

“I told you.” the doctor said. Maria turned back to you. 

“She’s been a huge help during all of this so when she suggested a couple, I knew they’d be good.” 

“Yeah…” You looked over to the doctor carefully. “I don’t want to be rude, but you seem awfully young.” 

Marai nodded and patted her stomach. “I’m 18.” John sucked in a quick breath, and your eyes went wide. “I know.” she said to your reactions. “My…boyfriend, James, he…well he wasn’t great. I wouldn’t say he raped me or anything, but he was abusive in…other ways. When he left, I thought I was finally free and then I find out I’m pregnant with his child.” 

You reached across the table between you two and patted Maria’s leg soothingly. It was clear how hard it was for her to talk about this. 

“I thought about it for a long time. I’m too young to have a kid. I can’t afford it right now. I had college plans. And most importantly, if James comes back, I want this little one to be safe.” She smiled down at her stomach. 

“I can’t even begin to tell you how much this means to us, Maria.” John said. She looked up at both of you, and smiled again. Her smile now was so much brighter than it had been. 

“So, how does all the legality of this work out?” you asked your doctor. 

“Well, that’s part of the reason for this meeting. If you all can agree on some terms together, I know a few people who can draw up some contracts for you, and all you’ll have to do is sign them at birth.” 

John raised his eyebrows. “Terms?” 

The doctor nodded. “How much of a part Maria wants in the child’s life, the rights of the birth father if he shows up, stuff like that.” 

You nodded and looked to her. “Do you want a part in the baby’s life?” 

Maria bit her lip and looked down. “I don’t know. It would be hard giving it up completely, but I don’t want to confuse the kid or cause any drama later on in our lives. Plus, like I said, if James finds out, it could be dangerous.” 

“We’d get protection for you and the baby If James comes back.” John said quickly. 

“Many birth mothers have arrangments where they visit their child for a certain amount of hours per year.” the doctor explained. 

“It’s your baby that you’re giving to us, Maria. We want you to be happy too.” you added. 

Maria nodded. “I guess…I guess I’d like to see them sometimes. And I’ll want to see you guys too. My parents didn’t take the news of my pregnancy very well.” She looked down again. “I kind of have nobody right now.” 

“You have us.” you told Maria. Her eyes met yours. Both were filled with tears.

You continued to work out specifics. The doctor would give advice, and write it down every time the three of you agreed on something. Maria and you agreed to meet often, even to talk about things besides the baby. Maria needed a friend and you were willing to be that for her.

It was four in the afternoon two months later when you got a phone call from John. The hospital had called him to say that Maria was going into labor. He was leaving work an hour early and you had just gotten off. 

You met him at the hospital, and the two of you walked quickly to the reception desk, asking where Maria was. When you reached the room, Maria smiled with relief. 

“How are you?” You rushed quickly to her side. Maria shrugged.

“It isn’t terrible yet, but I’m told it will be, so that’s exciting.” she laughed. You smiled and grabbed onto her hand. 

“You need anything, and we’ll get it for you, alright?” 

She nodded. “Thank you for being her.” Her voice was so sincere that your heart broke for her for what must’ve been the millionth time. 

About four hours into the labor, lawyers showed up with contracts. They wanted to get them signed before it was too late. It was hard for Maria to sign with clammy hands, but they said it still counted, and that was all that really mattered. The moment that baby was born, the terms of the contract applied. 

At 1:36 A.M, after about 11 hours of labor, Maria gripped both your hand and John’s tightly, and your baby was born. It was a girl. They handed her to Maria to hold for a moment, but she shook her head and motioned to you. You looked between Maria and the nurse, but Maria simply nodded. You took your little girl from the doctor, and felt tears fill your eyes instantly. John walked around the bed, and looked down at her with you. 

“She’s so beautiful, Maria. Just like you.” you said. 

Maria laughed breathlessly. “I’m glad.” 

The nurses took your baby away to clean her off. While she was gone, you, John, and Maria discussed names together. 

“It’s whatever you guys want.” Maria said. “She’s officially your baby.” A smile spread across her face.

An idea sprang into your head. You looked to John. “What about ‘Maria’? That way she’ll always have a piece of her biological mom with her.” 

Maria looked up at you from her bed. “That’s so sweet, Y/N. You really don’t have to, though.” 

“No, I think it’s a great name.” John interjected. You nodded and looked to Maria for approval. 

She laughed quietly. “It sounds great.”

Roughly five minutes later, they brought little Maria back in. She was all wrapped up in a white blanket and had a pink cap on her head. 

“Totally healthy.” one of the nurses confirmed. Maria smiled as she looked down at her. She held onto her for a bit, before passing the baby off to John, saying she was tired. 

You and John stood in the corner of the room while Maria slept. You tried to soak up every part of this moment with them, because you finally had your family. 

“Maria!” you called, walking from your lawn chair over to where she was sitting in the grass. “Let’s go inside. It’s going to rain soon.” You held your hand down to her. 

“Okay mommy!” the two-year-old said, acting agreeable for once. You squinted and knelt down to her level, staring at her face. She gazed back at you with wide eyes. 

“Maria!” you gasped happily. Your throat constricted slightly at the sight.  “When did you get so many freckles sweetheart?” Maria giggled and wrapped her arms around your neck. 

“I ‘ove you mommy.” she said. 

You put your hands against her small back. “I love you too, Maria.” You picked her up and started walking towards the house. “Let’s go find dad. Maybe he’ll play airplanes with you.” Maria squealed with delight. 

Tiny Receipt

Okay so I’ve been sitting on this receipt for a while now. I wasn’t even going to post it because I didn’t want to deal with like a thousand anti’s swarming my inbox calling me a liar. I have told this to a few people who I talk to regularly. Believe me or don’t I’m only posting it because people’s spirits are low because of the baby stuff. ANYWHO…

So a few months ago I went up to NYC to stay with my moms friend. I’m gonna put it out there, she’s rich. Like very very rich, penthouse rich. They live on the upper west side. Basically they have money. Anyways while I was there I was walking around the city with my mother and her friend who we were staying with. My mom is like high key tourist, she’s not a city person to say the least so she asked her friend, “do you ever see any celebrities walking around?” Her friend said that she wouldn’t know them even if she saw them, she doesn’t know who like any celebs are but that they did see jake gyllenhaal at a doctors office once with her daughter. Then she proceeded to say, “but ask (her daughter) because she knows them all”.

I Skyped with her daughter a couple weeks later for help with a resume thing and while we were chatting I brought it up, just curious to see who she had seen because her mom made it seem like it was a few people. She said a few names, one of them being one direction. She then said a few more but of course my ears only heard one thing. I calmly tried to ask questions without being too obvious. She’s a fan, not an intense fan like she doesn’t have a tumblr or anything but she knows who they are. She said one day about a year ago she was running and at the end of her run she was headed back towards her parents apartment when she saw two members of one direction. She’s like “Lauren unless you knew them you would never in a million years guess it was them. The only reason I knew was because I was a fan.” She said at first she spotted Harry because “he’s tall and he didn’t have a hat on but he did have sunglasses, so I could see his hair that’s how I recognized him”. She couldn’t tell at first who he was with. Only that it was someone small, as they were walking on the other side, farthest from the street, and Harry was almost blocking them.

Eventually she noticed that it was indeed Louis. And that they were both very dressed down. She basically said that they were walking down the street very close together, Louis was holding a cup in his hand, she said he looked very tiny and vey cute. They were in a conversation and that she could hear them laughing. At one point Harry took the cup out of louis’ hand and drank from it. She said they looked very sweet and very cozy, like they were in their own little world. I asked her why she didn’t go up to them and she basically said 1) she was gross from running and 2) she didn’t want to bother them because nobody had recognized them and they looked like they were just enjoying their time together uninterrupted. So yeah nothing major but a cute little receipt. Like I say believe me or don’t. I personally trust her, she has zero reason to lie she knows who they are but could care less about their lives. Up until then she thought Harry was legit out of the closet. I had to let her in on a few things. 🙂🙃🙂.

lams fic recs

im so amazed at how many?? good lams fic there are out there?? omg. so i figured i wanted to make a rec list bcs HOLY SHIT theres just too many. seriously to everyone who wrote these u r a sweet summer child lemme give u a kiss

(these r in no order)

1. ‘we fell into love, we fell into wonder ’ by reultan (they have a tumblr too, @jeffer-sin ;)))

this fic so cute!!! shit john has pastel hair?? and alex has cute ass hoop earings?? and lafayette wears eyeliner?? AAAA this one updated pretty recently too. theres a tiny bit of angst but mostly its just rly cute and I LIVE for th aesthetic. READ IT

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2. i will stay upon your shoreland by AozoraNoShita (i dont know if they have a tumblr…)

SELKIES. do i have to say anything else? this one actually made me cry it so good hooly. alex is a selkie and john steals his coat.

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3. On a Stranger’s Doorstep by Puzzlequeer (they have a tumblr too, @oncetherelivedaboy

THIS ONE WAS A ROLLER COASTER RIDE. its rly cute and also angsty at the same time?? how?? omg??

and there is trans alex, single dad john and frances !! i love that frances is a big part of this fic. i also rly like how the author writes alex and john as characters like..the dilaougue between them is just?? so natural?? idk how they do it

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4. Surprises by Puzzlequeer

this is the sequel to On a Stranger’s Doorstep. though beware, there is mpreg (but like, in a sensible way. alex is a pregnant trans man). this one is still updating actively and its also RLY GOOD. omg. lafayette is so good in this fic and frances is still a big part of the story !! (im a sucker for anything that invloves frances can u tell)

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5. frankly, it’s a tad exhilirating by colonellaurens
(idk if they have a tumblr)

this one seems to be a fan favorite, it’s pretty popular. AND FOR A GOOD REASON. its one of those fake dating tropes and i lov cliche tropes. also henry laurens is a dick. and im all about that.

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6. Something They Can Never Take Away by a_mind_at_work ( they have a tumble !! @undiscoveredstory and omg, theyre so nice?? holy shit??)

this one is also popular and its so nicely written?? they write anxiety and angst rly well?? wow im. honestly i read this one so fast bcs it was SO GOOD. its an adoption au and daddy washington is my fave washington

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7. build a city that dreams for two by lcafayctte

ITS A BALLERINA AU. holy smokes (im trying not to say shit anymore) um..its so GOOD. i know i say this for every single one of these but they ALL ARE. can u rly blame me? anyway i lov how persistant alex is and john. in ballerina tights. omg. READ IT

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8. cornerstone by rosenbergs

(as far as im concerned, they co-own a network blog for hamilton writers with @yrshamilton - ( its @linmnuel )and their personal is @lcfayatte)

okay im not gonna lie i cried. twice. when i read this and it contains just the right amount of angst but the way it ends is SO SATISFYING. (angelica would b satisfied honestly) brace urselves for pain folks but its all worth it. i, but a weak man who has witnessed this pain first-hand, promise u. its worth it. also lafayette is rly good in this. omg

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alright thats all bcs i dont wanna make a post that too long . but ill probs make a part 2 at some point bcs there is so much more honestly. i might make one with my fave authors?? maybe. or ill make one with just one shots. OH i have an idea. i know im a new blog but if u want me to make a specific rec list then pls come tell me !! i have too much free time

Adventures At The Zoo

Hamilsquad x reader

Author(s): Laddie

Words: 939

Warnings: fluff, mentions of animal cruelty

A/N: Sorry, that this past week we haven’t had many imagines up. It’s been the end of term at our school and that means big test is almost every class. Hopefully we’ll be able to get back to posting everyday though! 

“We should see the lions first!” John exclaimed, running through the gate.

“No, let’s see the bears!” Hercules chased after him.

“I want to see the giraffes, though.” Lafayette whined.

“Nah, I say let’s go see zebras first.” Alex shrugged.





“How about we see the elephants first?” You interrupted their arguing.

“Elephants? Really?” Alex looked at you with disbelief.

“You have a problem with elephants?” You asked, taking a defensive stance.

“But….giraffes!” Laf pouted, pointing in the direction they were placed.

“We’ll get to the giraffes eventually, Laf. The elephants are actually on the way to the giraffes.” You smiled.

“To the elephants!” Laf declared, beginning to walk away from the group.

“You heard, Laf.” You smirked at the others, hearing them groan behind you.

“But, (Y/N), the lions are cool and roar. Elephants just have big ears and stomp around.” John complained, walking besides you.

“Elephants are actually self aware and one of the smartest animals on the earth today.” You said.

You reached the elephant exhibit and the smile from your face slowly faded. The zoo you were at didn’t have a lot of funds. This was made obvious to you, when you saw the habitat these animals were forced to live in. You became sad, staring at one of your favorite animals being locked in a place that was obviously not made for it.

“You good, (Y/N)?” Hercules looked at you with worry.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” You attempted to give him a smile.

“You know, this is kind of a small place for such a big animal to live.” Alexander grimaced at the small enclosed space.

“Yeah,” You looked down. “we should start heading over to the next animal.” You turned around, walking away from the sad animal.

“But we just got to elephants!” Laf grabbed your wrist, pulling you back.

“We have lots of other animals to see though. Let’s start heading to the giraffes.” You pulled yourself out of Laf’s grip, walking away from the boys.

“I thought she wanted to see the elephants.” John said.

“It probably made her sad. This zoo doesn’t have much money to spend on its habitat.” Alex glared at the exhibit.

“Then let’s free the elephants!” John cheered.

“John, you are not freeing the elephants. That’s stupid.” Hercules rolled his eyes.

“We should catch up with, (Y/N).” Laf urged the boys to start walking with him.

“You guys meet up with, (Y/N). I’m going to go do something really quick.” Alex said, walking the opposite direction of the others.

“What do you think he’s going to do?” Hercules glanced over his shoulder at Alex’s fading figure.

“Hopefully, nothing too stupid.” John sighed, picking up his pace to get to (Y/N) faster.

The boys ran up to you, as you stood next to the giraffe exhibit. Laf pulled you closer to the cage, staring in awe at the long necked animals. You giggled, watching Laf pull the other boys to stare at them too. It wasn’t too long until you noticed Alex was missing.

“Where’s Alex?” You asked.

“Not sure, but hopefully he’ll be back soon.” John shrugged, not taking his eyes off of the giraffes.

“You’re not sure? Oh god…” You sighed, putting your hands over your face.

“He said he needed to do something really quick. He probably is just using the restroom or something.” Hercules reassured you, putting his arm around your shoulders.

“Let’s just enjoy the animals until he get’s back.” Laf smiled at you, pulling you away from the giraffes.

The four of you continued to go from exhibit to exhibit. It was one of the most fun trips you have ever had to the zoo. By the end you were impressed by how the boys had caused barely any trouble. Except when John tried to climb in the cage with the lion, but you decided to overlook that small fact. You were just glad that he didn’t successfully get in the cage.

You and the boys walked towards the entrance, the zoo was now closing. Alex had never met up with you and he had never responded to your texts. The boys had told you he was probably fine. They thought that Washington had called him in last minute with a work problem. But Alex would almost always tell you when things like that happened.

“(Y/N)!” You heard someone pant behind you.

You turned around and Alex was standing there, trying to catch his breath. “Where have you been?”

“Sorry, I thought it would go faster. I was working on the elephant fund.” A smile lit up Alex’s face.

“Elephant fund?” You tilted your head in confusion.

“Yeah, the fund that goes towards the elephants. I showed them that their space for the elephants were inhuman and that they could get sued for that. After that, I was able to get a few people to donate to the fund for the expansion of the habitat!” Alex held out his arms for a hug and you raced to do so.

“Alex! Thank you! You have no idea how happy this makes me.” You hugged him tightly.

“Glad to be of service.” Alex grinned proudly at the other boys.

“And I got you an elephant plushie!” John exclaimed, throwing a small elephant at you.

“It’s so cute!” You squealed. “Hugs?”

The boys pulled you in for a tight group hug, before heading back to the car. They promised you that you would all come back when the elephant habitat was finished. You smiled leaning against Laf’s shoulder in the backseat as you drove home.

why daveed diggs deserves 500 more grammys to take shots out of
  • 10/10 would recommend friendship
  • his smile makes you v happy
  • wears glasses sometimes & looks good
  • went to brown what a smart dude to go to an ivy
  • originally recruited to brown for track
  • created a trend where the cast takes a shot out of his grammy while everyone yells SHOTS OUT THE GRAMMYYYYY
  • in a hip hop group called clipping. and looking to release solo stuff later this year
  • likes to eat cheeseburgers shirtless on rooftops via oak 
  • just doesn’t wear shirts too much in general

Originally posted by kinggroff3

  • wrote & performed a rap for zootopia
  • thought hamilton was a bad idea at first but wanted to see it anyway
  • “what shampoo do you use? whatever my girlfriend buys at the store.”


Aaron Burr, Sir

  • came from afar just to say good evening, tell the king to screw off, and claim to be the best its actually me
  • can’t pronounce anarchy but i’d take onarchy too
  • introduces us to a sassy french man

Originally posted by diggstrash

Story of Tonight

  • french accents complete the harmonies 10/10

Farmer Refuted

  • literally pushing ham to fight seabury

Story of Tonight (Reprise)

  • al-exan-derhh
  • “you are ze werhst buhr”

Guns and Ships

  • raps faster than my temper
  • can rap up to 22 words in 3 seconds
  • starts out the show with lack of english experience and is now the best at english
  • actual rap god


  • immigrants… we get the job done
  • *high fives ham and everyone goes crazy*


What’d I Miss?

  • kickin it as the ambassador to france
  • helped himself draft a declaration 
  • blows a kiss to ‘virginia’ MY HEART
  • been meeting ladies in paris, also missing literally everything
  • uh france

Originally posted by fiftysevenacademics

Cabinet Battle 1

  • don’t act surprised you guys cause i wrote em
  • you don’t have the votes *sarcastic laughing*
  • did you forget lafayette? *puts hair back into ponytail*
  • calls george washington daddy

Washington On Your Side

  • has amazing harmonies with leslie

The Adam’s Administration

  • no more mr nice president
  • aids in ruining ham’s rep and marriage

We Know

  • virtue is not a word i would apply to this situation
  • all of we know basically because its an a+ song
  • and daveed literall sounds so good in it
  • so does everyone else but this is about daveed
  • dives in for the whaaaaat

The Reynolds’ Pamphlet

  • hAVE YOU READ THIS??!?!?!
  • shows phillip the headlines
  • especially ‘in his own house’
  • ‘with knowing consent
  • never gon be president now
  • one less thing to worry about

The Election of 1800

  • tells everyone bout john adams’ awkward bowel movements
  • obsessed with france; also knows where it is
  • when you see ham thank him for the endorsement

Who Lives Who Dies

  • tried to undo ham’s financial plan 
  • but cannot bc ham is a legacy holder

this def isnt as good as my anthony post or my jas post but i love daveed and i  can’t listen to the soundtrack all the way through or look at staging posts to see daveed but he is wonderful the end just watch the linked videos aLSO CHECKOUT THIS ARTICLE BC ITS CUTE AND HAS EVERY WHAT HE SAYS IN THE SHOW LOL

(my jas post) (my anthony post) (my renee post) (my pippa post)

Helpless and Satisfied Staging

**Get ready for a super long post, like uber long oh my goodness. Satisfied was my most requested staging but I figured I’d do Helpless too cause it makes Satisfied cooler. **

END OF WINTERS BALL INTO HELPLESS: So during ‘A Winters Ball’, Ham and the gang are being fuck boys and when Burr starts talking about Martha Washington’s feral tom cat Angelica enters upstage and sees Hamilton for the first time and on “1780” she crosses diagonally to meet him, she has Lafayette by her side but Hamilton pushes him away and kisses her hand and then counters around her and goes back down to Burr on “which one” and Angelica is watching him with wide eyes and as the guys do the “Hey hey hey” part, they walk off stage left, the turn table begins to rotate and Angelica watches them as they go and she looks totally love sick. 
As ‘Helpless’ starts Eliza and the ensemble girls and their partners kind of spiral around the turn table ending with Eliza in the center where Angelica and Hamilton met and there are couples of ensemble members dancing beautifully around her. (In this song the ensemble girls have put on these white skirts that twirl and look really pretty when they move, especially on lifts, and the men have put on soldier coats similar to the ones the squad wears except with red instead of cream accents) So while Eliza is singing her first verse, Angelica grabs Peggy’s hands and they have a cute little moment and it almost looks like Angelica’s like “Lets go mess with Eliza” because they turn and charge down towards Eliza and form a triangle in the center of the stage and start dancing together. On the “down for the count and I’m drowning in em” Angelica is in the center and Eliza and Peggy grab her hands and they do kind of a double twirl thing, I don’t know how to explain it but they kind of intertwine with each other and then spin out. When Eliza starts in about the “Revel with rebels” she crosses downstage and Angelica starts dancing with Washington and Hercules sweeps Peggy away. (Also at some point, I don’t remember when, but Laurens steals Peggy away so over the course of this song she is partnered up with all three of the revolutionary guys!) 
When Ham walks in, Washington goes to shake his hand and Angelica turns to look at him and everything else freezes and there is a strip of white light starting at the upper stage left hand corner going down to downstage right where Eliza’s standing, and on boom it pulses. Also on boom Angelica snaps her head from Alexander to Eliza and Eliza grabs Angelica and pulls her downstage as Ham walks past them. the whole time Eliza keeps checking on Ham and its super cute. Then Angelica crosses to Hamilton who’s perched on the steps and Angelica points out Eliza and she’s like “Look at my cute little sister” and they talk a little and whisper to each other while Eliza sings. Then Angelica links arms with Ham and they cross over to Eliza. Ham kisses Eliza’s hand when he talks about “fighting a war”. 
When she starts talking about him writing her letters the ensemble leaves the stage and Peggy comes on and gives Eliza a letter and they go to show Angelica who promptly snatches the letters away on “If you really loved me you would share him” but Eliza snatches them right back on “ha”. Peggy looks at the audience with a shocked expression at that part.
TWO WEEKS LATER, Papa Schuyler is sitting in a chair on the turntable talking to Hamilton and the sisters are all sitting on a bench expectantly on the other side of the stage and they’re all rotating together and Angelica is leaning on her knees with her arms crossed staring down Ham. Peggy is sitting straight back very proper while Eliza sings to the audience. And when Alexander “turns back to her and smiles” Eliza runs to him and they do a little swirl together in the center and Peggy and Angelica have a little excited moment on the bench before getting up and dancing too. And Angelica grabs Hamilton and hugs him and it makes me happy and then he hugs Peggy and Eliza is sweeping around the room and Angelica and Eliza embrace all excited like and Hamilton is doing this like pelvic thrust dance thing and shaking his knees and its kind of sexual and its his little celebration dance but then Papa Schuyler comes on and sees it and is shocked and the sisters are giggling uncontrollably cause Hamilton feels awkward. And then Ham and Papa have a drink and the sisters come downstage and theyre jamming AND THEN MY FAVORITE PART EVER, on :“down for the count”, Eliza’s in the center, they HIGH FIVE AND IT IS THE CUTEST THING YOU WILL EVER SEE OH MY GOD IT’S ACTUALLY AMAZING. 
Then Ham starts talking about how he has nothing but a top notch brain and they’re doing this in the center of the stage and the whole time Eliza is just looking at him with the goofiest grin cause she’s so in love. When Alex reveals Angelica “Tried to take a bite of him” Eliza whips her head around like “dis bitch where you at” but Hammy grabs her and is like “nah chill fam.” and spins her around the stage. Okay and then this part is also adorable, the ensemble girls come on and they’re all holding paper and Alex goes up to each one and signs it and then the girl hands it to Eliza like they’re his letters and I love that. Then Laurens grabs Ham and pulls him downstage cause they’re getting ready for the wedding and they meet Washington who kind of gives him a lil pep talk I guess and Eliza meets Peggy and Angelica on the opposite side of the turn table and puts her letters in a box that Peggy has and puts on the wedding veil and the table starts spinning and the ensemble comes back in with their pretty dresses all twirly like and its so pretty and then the ensemble forms the audience of the wedding and the processional comes down center stage. Angelica and Laurens are first, then Lafayette and Peggy, then Hercules comes down and tosses some flower petals and we all laugh, and finally Eliza and Papa Schuyler come down arm in arm and he kisses her cheek and gives her off to Hamilton who gives her the ring and then they kiss on the button of the song and we all die cause its so happy and wonderful. 

SATISFIED: the lights change and a soldier ensemble member brings in a tray with glasses that get passed around and Lauren’s kind of sweeps around the room, as the ensemble gets into a semi circle, introducing Angelica as the ensemble makes a semi circle along the back of the stage. Peggy and Lauren’s stand beside Angelica. Alexander and Eliza have moved to down stage left when Angelica starts her speech. When she says “from your sister” she grabs Peggy on the top of her head and kind of pulls her into a side hug. Then the frickin rewind part is probably the coolest fucking thing in the show and I’ll try to explain it but I don’t think anything I say will capture how amazing it is. Okay so the lights start doing this kind of flashy strobe thing, but it’s not strobe lights. The best way I can describe it is like when you rewind a VHS and it gets kind of staticky but you can still see the picture it’s just going backwards, that’s exactly what this is like. Everyone moves backwards and it looks like it’s going in reverse, one of the ensemble guys does this circular like slide across the floor thing around Angelica but he does it and it looks like when you put the backwards filter on a snapchat video. And Eliza and Hamilton walk backwards back into the center and do their kiss again and then they turn out of it, it’s literally the choreo of part of helpless in reverse. And the ensemble guys lift up the girls like the did in helpless but they lift them backwards and it’s just so so so cool and the lights are doing their thing and then it all freezes on the “I remember that night I just might rewind” thing. Renee is in the center of the stage and the ensemble is reenacting A Winters Ball and when she says the stuff about him saying hi and forgetting her name he’s frozen downstage right like he’s about to come greet her, as he does right before Helpless in A Winters Ball, and when things set aflame he unfreezes and comes up to her and pushes Lafayette away so that he can greet her. And then we’re back at that moment when they first meet except now we hear what they’re saying and he’s talking about never being satisfied. He kisses her hand when she introduces herself and then when he says his name he gets really close to her, close enough for them to kiss, it’s very intense, they’re literally nose to nose. And on “a million things I haven’t done” he counters around her and goes to talk to Burr. When she starts singing again the ensemble has entered as if it’s the start of Helpless again and Eliza and Peggy do the double twirl intertwine thing with Angelica as she sings. When she talks about posture, Washington comes in and begins dancing with her. And on “I wanna take him far away from this place” they hit that position when Eliza first sees Hamilton with Washington frozen going to shake hands with Hamilton and Angelica snaps her head to look at him and then at Eliza like on the “boom” part of Helpless. Eliza grabs Angelica and pulls her downstage to confide with her and keeps checking on Hamilton while Angelica sings. When she realizes three fundamental truths Angelica crosses over to the stairs where she meets Hamilton and starts bringing him down to meet Eliza. When she talks about her only job Hamilton and Eliza turn upstage as she sings and the ensembles doing their thing. Then they do the whole “my sister” thing and when Angelica starts in about number two, Hamilton stands still in a spotlight as she talks about him. Then the ensemble men form a line with Hamilton and when Angelica says “I introduce him to Eliza” the ensemble men pose around Ham and turn him towards Eliza. Then on the “I know my sister like I know my own mind” Ham exits and Eliza crosses the stage to Peggy and then they meet Angelica in the center and redo the part with the letters where Angelica snatches them away and the ensemble girls do the thing where they hold up the letters for him to sign, but he doesn’t sign them this time.
And when Angelica talks about her fantasies at night Ham is downstage in a spotlight (I think) and Eliza is in the opposite upstage corner in a spotlight, whole ensemble has left the stage. When she gets to “at least my dear Eliza’s his wife” Eliza has come downstage to meet Peggy and put the letters in the box. Then when they repeat the whole “to the bride to the groom” lyrics Washington and Ham are doing their pep talk on the turntable and that ensemble guy is doing his swirl on the floor in forward motion around Angelica and Eliza comes by and kisses her cheek and turns out of that and meets Hamilton in the center and they kiss on “union” and on “the hope that you provide” Eliza and Ham move to the spot they started Satisfied in and the ensemble moves around Angelica into their semi circle toast positions. And when the chorus repeats “always”, after her, they all raise their glasses like we’re back at the beginning of the song. Eliza comes to Angelica on “and I know she’ll be happy as his bride” and they have a sister moment. And on her “and I know” riff, Alexander walks past, following Eliza, but he pauses in front of Angelica and looks at her for a moment before continuing offstage with Eliza, leaving Angelica onstage by herself, glass still raised in the center of the stage, all of our hearts broken. Fade to black.

the songs in Hamilton as I see them
  • alexander hamilton: kickass intro
  • aaron burr, sir: I'm john laurens in the place to be
  • my shot: uhm ham ur actually gonna throw away ur shot so :/// also holy shit
  • the story of tonight: just bros being bros
  • the schuyler sisters: I can't believe their younger sister is named "and peggy"?????
  • farmer refuted: hamilton you need to CHILL
  • you'll be back: bitter ex is bitter
  • right hand man: aaron burr doesn't like this song
  • a winter's ball: LAAAADIEESS
  • helpless: AWWW Eliza ur so cute
  • satisfied: but Angelica???? I have too many conflicting emotions rn
  • the story of tonight reprise: just drunk bros being bros
  • wait for it: I LOVE THIS SONG. aaron burr is very relatable also THE BIRDS IN THE BACKGROUND OMG
  • stay alive: washington is literally ham's dad
  • ten duel commandments: FORSHADOWINGGG
  • meet me inside: Washington is soooooooooo Hamilton's dad
  • that would be enough: listen to your wife goddamnit Alexander
  • guns and ships: I still can't rap Lafayette's part in this song
  • history has its eyes on you: beautiful harp, poor Washington
  • yorktown: it's exciting then sad and many other things
  • what comes next: bitter ex comes back to bitch about things
  • dear theodosia: awwwwww the cutest song in the musical
  • non-stop: like yorktown, lots of things going on also HOW DO YOU SING ALONG AT THE END THERES LIKE TWENTY THINGS GOING ON
  • what'd I miss: you missed the whole revolution Jefferson
  • cabinet battle #1: oooooh Jefferson chill
  • take a break: Hamilton you need some time off
  • say no to this: BUT NOT LIKE THIS
  • the room where it happens: I could write a ten page essay about this song, but for now THE TRUMPETS OH MY LORD
  • schuyler defeated: goddamnit aaron
  • cabinet battle #2: alex hamilton can roast people like no other
  • Washington on your side: daddy's calling ;)
  • one last time: washington you noble son of a bitch
  • I know him: bitter ex won't fucking leave
  • the Adams administration: SIT DOWN JOHN YOU FAT MOTHER FUCKSTICK. its mother FUCKSTICK
  • we know: we know but we won't tell
  • hurricane: I WROTE MY WAY OUT also alex noooooo
  • the reynolds pamphlet: everyone collectively hates hamilton also sick beats and DAAAAYUM
  • burn: my sweet Eliza doesn't deserve this
  • blow us all away: PHILIP NO
  • stay alive reprise: *sobs*
  • its quiet uptown: *louder sobs*
  • the election of 1800: Hamilton supports jefferson as a final middle finger to burr
  • your obedient servant: the SASS omg
  • best of wives and best of women: this musical is almost over???? also this song is too short
  • the world was wide enough: that's right also fuck You aaron burr
  • who lives who dies who tells your story: *ugly cryiNG* ELIZA YOuRE TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD

anonymous asked:

Ooooh any Hamilton fic recs??

i do have a couple!! i’m not very good at descriptions but i will try my best. also these are all lams bc i am lams trash 

domestic life was never quite my style  by hypeulesnochilligan is so so SO good!! It’s a modern au where laurens is a doctor and a single father. he meets alexander while working at the hospital and asdfg it’s really amazing. its basically the revolutionary squad raising laurens kid and it’s soso sweet.

 (hamilton has his) eyes on you by mihaly is a college au where laurens and hamilton are roommates and oohh my god i love it. they r so in love its disgustingly cute. also hamilton and burr go up against each other for the student senate and let me tell u. burr is a dirty politician. this one gets pretty nsfw, just a heads up. 

#cutebaristadoodles by electricjuicebox is so cute ohh my god. it’s a coffee shop au!! alexander has a big crush on the barista that doodles cute things on his cup of coffee every time he goes in. alex then posts the doodles on instagram. if you like pining, you’ll love this fic. it’s so cute 

sons of libertea by fihli i love this fic. i. love. this. fic. this is another coffee shop au. the whole squad works at this place called sons of libertea. washington is their boss, lee works there too but everyone hates him omg. this fic is super well written and how the characters interact seriously is my life. i love john’s characterization. it’s one of the best i have read. read this one please please please. it’s a slow build which i love a lotta 

these are my fave ones currently!! if u want more i can tell u more, but most of the other ones i have read are oneshots, or sequels to these ones. 


sundays hotactics. soo…

YALL WERE NOT LYING ABOUT TINDER. I made a profile the other day and set my profile to the oldest it would allow and gots to swiping. My bio was really really simple. I put ‘I like shoes”. this guy super liked me and his first message was “shoe shopping?” I’m like… are you offering? is this a question? i responded and we exchanged numbers. i posted our convo yesterday and we went to lunch today.

I matched with a lot of guys and could tell there were some that just thought i was cute, and couldn’t tell was trying to weed out the rich. probably just thought i would hook up with them and go out with them, vanilla like. TBH i didn’t wanna try to convert.. I didn’t have the energy andI’m not THAT slick of a talker. I would have good small flirty- talk w a few but didn’t want to give my number out.. I didn’t really have the hopes if that makes any sense.. (its the one thing i like about SA is that everyone knows everyones intent..) but this guy noticed the shoe comment in my bio, and definitely used it to his advantage, which made it very clear to me he was seeking a sb of some sort.. idk.  

I chose the restaurant IN Nordstrom so we would have no excuse but to look around on our way out. Not that it would have been an issue its just He was so chill about the shopping when I brought it up texting, i figured he would have some scheme, or would try to avoid it. He was 20 minutes late which was kind of annoying but it gave me the upper hand in a way, time to use the bathroom/ check make-up, and I got us a table. he showed up in a Ralph Lauren tee and flip flops (orange country style lemme tell ya)… lol. So we ordered an appetizer and two salads, and shared. We both had 2 cocktails, i didn’t plan on it but he offered so i was like fuck it. the convo was cool.. so anyways we finish eating and he says should we walk around, and I’m like lets look around Nordstrom. i kept thinking he was gonna try to get me some steve maddens or like jeffery campbell because I was psyching myself out (talk about trust issues, they are real).. then he walked up to the Louboutin table.. my first thought was that he’s definitely done this before. I’m like what do you know about red bottoms Mr.Flip Flops?! they aren’t really my style though, (no offense to those whose it is. they are beautiful shoes) he picked up some boots that were like $1000, so i got a little more comfortable lmao.  I asked for Saint laurent heels and valentino flats didn’t have my size. the sales guy ended brining me a pair of jimmy choo’s from the back that were the last pair and they couldn’t display because they’re too big of a size.. lmao the shade. i wear a 41/10.5 lol. it worked out and the pot said i could get them. we purchased them, and I made sure to grab the receipt just in case.  we walk around the mall (I had my big sunglasses on.. I need to get some bigger ones so I’m totally unrecognizable), and then he walked me to my car. we kissed twice and he grabbed my boobs lol I said “what are you doing” when he did that not that i even really cared.. but to enforce decorum.. playing hard to get i guess you can call it. I got there at 2:30, got to my car at 5. not bad

he was talking about traveling w me and what not but we will see. but the shoes were a nice investment so I’m interested to see what his next move is.. as of now I’m looking at the website to see if there are any other shoes I like more that I’d want exchange for. 

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why pippa soo is an actual cinnamon roll

Originally posted by philip-dies

  • left ham for amelie
  • can count to 10 in french, will help her in her next role
  • the cutest freckles
  • SMOL
  • loves emojis
  • weirded out by facebook live
  • basically raised to be a star
  • cheekbones r goals
  • gardens
  • rides bike in nyc
  • ???? so eco friendly
  • groff is officiating her wedding 
  • won a grammy 
  • eyeliner always looks a+
  • has pretty hair


The Schuyler Sisters

  • walks onstage dragging peggy
  • cringe bc peggy 

Originally posted by theaterswift

  • excited for the revolution
  • supports tf out of angelica
  • rushing around the stage and being cute
  • doesn’t like burr
  • starts act 1 as a happy cinnamon roll


  • i thought she was singing what do i do instead of i do in the recording until i saw lins annotations on genius
  • not dancing with anyone bbut angelica
  • basically stays on the right side of the stage
  • actually hates angelica for wanting a harem
  • does a cute dance with her skirt and high fives her girls
  • looks like a lil nervous kid witha crush when ham makes his little speech
  • puts hams letters in a box so she can burn the later lol
  • actually looks adorable in her eliza veil

Originally posted by yourstory


  • starts out with her toast and they’re like stuffed in the corner ok
  • her rewinding part is so cool
  • pip’s part is really cool like not as renees but yo
  • the way she goes into kissing him in the toast is cool
  • rhis song is just really great idk

That Would Be Enough

  • sad song prepare yaself
  • pregnancy dress yo its cool
  • excite eliza
  • unapologetically excited to be a mom but also her husband is annoying
  • literally imagine pippa as a mom she’d be so great
  • shes so cute she sounds great in this
  • “let me be a part of the narrative” oh sis
  • ok on another note i hate hearing the notes from its quiet uptown bc foreshadowing

i’m not gonna talk about what she does in the laurens interlude but it makes me wanna die because my heart crumples thx pippa and anthony YALL R THE WORST

Act Two


  • literally just wants her husband to chill and settle down

Take a Break

  • honestly i feel offended when she counts with anthony
  • she looks so mad i love her
  • also mad at her husband
  • i wish my mom could beatbox like pippa
  • ok but if thomas jefferson can chill in france for like 80 years why csn’t alexander spend like 2 seconds with his fam
  • her scream when she sees angelica and hugs her aw
  • acting like she loves alex but irl wants to choke him me 2

Originally posted by satisfiedwithhamilton

Schuyler Defeated

  • i like how pippa looks concerned and anthony literally looks like he could kill someone
  • also looks concerned because her husband is reckless and could kill someone


  • literally not even a break up anthem its a divorce anthen
  • sorry i hate myself for that
  • looks so broken
  • sounds like she might cry but would probably kill a man before crying
  • i honestly love this song so much because pip is so amazing 10/10
  • literally pippa’s face in this song makes me tear up this song makes me tear up
  • now she isn’t a part of the narrative ok ow
  • one time i burned a tag from some shirt and didn’t think of how to put it out and i didn’t want to get up and i blew on it life was scary and my room smelled like burnt paper
  • this song is so powerful i will never be the same after hearing this like it shook me

Stay Alive

  • hearing the opening notes makes me tear up
  • also screw you for changing the melody
  • now is not the time to count ma
  • her scream is so gut wrenching
  • would make a frat boy cry if burn didn’t already

It’s Quiet Uptown

  • she looks so dead honestly her face is stone cold
  • ouch
  • i hate everything about act 2 oh my god


Best of Wives and Best of Women

  • this song mkaes my heart hurt a lot
  • i like how sleepy she sounds
  • “i have an early meeting out of town” everything is legal in new jersey
  • “why do you write like you’re running out of town” leave a note for your next of kin
  • its cute but ow
  • “i’ll be back before you know i’m gone” 
  • “this meetings at dawn” duel b4 the sun is in the sky
  • her little smile when he kisses her hand breaks my heart

burr couldn’t let ham make his daughter an orphan but he made his wife a widow and his kids fatherless

Who Lives Who Dies

  • eliza
  • the fact that she made something of herself after he died and went on to do amazing things omg
  • i’m not crying you’re crying
  • she did so much i can’t handle myself
  • she told the stories of soldiers
  • she made sense of his damn writing
  • she got help from angelica aw
  • she stands so strong and chris just backs away when she mentions slavery i’m sobbing now
  • the orphanage
  • the way pippa acts during this song is so powerful like her mannerisms ow
  • lmm will tell your story
  • i spoke too soon i forgot the gasp boy am i crying 

Originally posted by theaterswift

this has been fun guys 

literally pippa is the cutest cinnamon roll (see the deleted john adams rap) and like she looks great 500% of the time and shes always rlly happy (unless she’s leaving the show bc this was sad)

(my anthony post) (my jasmine post) (my daveed post) (my renee post)

You're lucky I love you

Fic summary: FS:Camz’s always losing Lo in public. Like she will just wander off at a carnival or on a nature hike, getting lost in the awe of nature or something. Camz starts to get frustrated and so buys her a shirt that says “if found please return to camila” and a matching one for herself saying “I’m camila”. Lo is outraged at first because it’s so NOT badass. But then she caves because Camz’s so irresistible!”

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Woo, alright. This is gonna be a looong post. I wanted this to be out during Lapidot week but I was busy soo.. yeah. ANYWAY, this is just a huge post pointing out at all the possible Lapidot moments/hints for reference maybe? And this is also just inferences as well. If anyone asks, “Why do you ship Lapidot?” This.

I wanted to include pictures with each thing, but I wouldn’t wanna be ‘stealing art’, when I get to drawings by the Crewniverse, I’m sure everyone saw them anyway, and it’d be a lot for one post. So, here goes..!!

At first, Peridot records herself imagining how well the conversation her and Lapis is going to go when she actually talks to her. She mentions “We can watch the sun come up and figure out what we’re going to do with all this time, eh, Lazuli?” and then says (as Lapis) how she would be impressed by her “new compact look and capacity for friendship. I’m so glad we’re going to be living together!”

Later, Peridot really wants Lapis to see that she isn’t who she thinks she was before. She continously tries to get Lapis to like her and does not give up easily. She doesn’t get frustrated with Lapis, since usually she would call someone a “Clod”, instead, she insults her self and her ideas (“What a CLODDY idea! Of COURSE she wouldn’t like that!”) at trying to get her to like her. Peridot’s last try is her giving Lapis her most valued item, her tape recorder. When Lapis destroys her tape recorder, Peridot doesn’t snap, but she does tell her how she understands how Lapis is feeling, that she gets it. She tells her she knows what it is like to be in a place that doesn’t feel like home yet, and both of them are the same, except, Lapis doesn’t have to be alone, if she just accepted her. Finally Peridot asks whatever Lapis wants, she would do it. Lapis tells her to leave and she does so without protest, respecting her decision.

Towards the end, when the Ruby ship comes to look for Peridot, Lapis protects her, finally seeing why Steven defends Peridot. Peridot walks away, trying not to be seen by Lapis, since she thinks she’s probably still mad at her, but Lapis calls out to her and asks if she is okay. To this, Peridot gets a big smile on her face, along with a nerdy laugh and makes Lapis go “Umm…” and blush.

> “Look! The ribbon is even blue! I got'cho number!” *winks*
> “H2Oh my gosh! It’s a smaller than average lake! …It’s a gift for you!” *weirdly seductive laid back pose on the inflatable ring*
> Steven drew Peridot and Lapis holding hands!!
> The sky magically cleared up after Lapis finally accepted Peridot…and making her blush….
> They live alone together now!

> Peridot indirectly calls Lapis “cute” when an ad appears on her tablet, saying “find cute roommates in your area!” She continously presses “no”, saying “I’m all set, thanks.”

((These are on the official Peridot Twitter, run by Lauren Zuke, which could basically mean these are canon.))

> Peridot took a picture on the roof, Lapis can be seen as well. They were both probably stargazing. 


> …. OH. THAT SOMEONE’S NOT HERE. (She sounds a bit dissapointed doesn’t she?)
> After Peridot shows the world she can move a spoon with her mind, she says:
LAZULI WOULD GET A KICK OUT OF THIS I BET. (She’s trying to impress her with her new powers.)
> Soon after, she also calls Lapis a “Star” when she says:
(This is after the events of ALONE AT SEA, which could mean Lapis came back after encountering Jasper and Peridot got off Twitter to go and comfort Lapis.)

You can really see how close Lapis’ and Peridot’s relationship has become. They both love watching Camp Pining Hearts together, even sharing the same opinions based on their comments about the show. They both decorated the barn, and even made a collaborative “meep morp” as Lapis named them or “morps” as Peridot likes to call them.
Peridot moves on to show Steven and Amethyst her “One Gem Metal Band” but hasn’t practiced enough to actually make it work. This makes Lapis snort, and then tells her she should try “one thing at a time.” Peridot tells her that they have guests “who must be impressed”. Lapis smiles, picking up the tamborine and telling her “Let’s try it together.” They both dance together, and have fun, before Amethyst gets annoyed that “JASPER is out there!” Peridot gets nervous and tells Amethyst she tries not to use the “J” word so loosely at the barn. Meaning she is careful around Lapis, not wanting to trigger her with the word “Jasper”.

Later, when Peridot is about to leave to the Beta Kindergarden, she stops and tells the others she wants to make sure Lapis is ok. Peridot asks Lapis if she’s okay, and Lapis says “Yeah”. She asks “Are you sure?” for reassurance, and again, “Yeah”. Peridot tells her she will be leaving, but she will back, so she won’t worry. Then she asks her if she needs anything and what season of Camp Pining Hearts she was watching. Almost like a married couple.. Also, When Peridot quickly takes off her bowtie and says “You know what to do with this!” and throws it at Lapis for her to catch, they probably have had more moments together off-screen so that Lapis would know what she needed to do to the bowtie.

> Both seem to smile at each other a lot in this episode.
> Lapis puts a hand on Peridot’s shoulder when she tells her she should “take one thing at a time.”


Lapis isn’t really impressed by Amethyst shapeshifting into Jasper. When the Crystal Gems are going to the Ruby ship, Amethyst asks Peridot and Lapis if they want to be prisoners too. Lapis gives her “that” look and says “Not really.” And Peridot quickly holds on to Lapis’ arm, being protective of her and not wanting Amethyst (as Jasper) to make Lapis feel uncomfortable with the disguise in front of her, and the use of the word “prisoner”.


When Peridot finally bubbles her first corrupted gem, her bubble appears “home” which is at the barn. Living with Lapis, on Earth, really shows how she does see the barn as her home, even with her roommate.

> The bubble appears above Lapis, and she doesn’t seem shocked by it either. Both of them are probably used to their weird stuff now. …Like a couple.

Subtle hints (?) / Some are from the wikia :

> In CRY FOR HELP, Peridot refers to Lapis as her ‘informant’ rather than her prisoner.
> In CATCH AND RELEASE, Peridot says she knows Steven healed Lapis’ gem, but in THE MESSAGE, Lapis told Steven she never told anyone, meaning she probably lied about it.
> In LOG DATE 7 15 2  Peridot watched ‘Camp Pining Hearts’ where Paulette (wearing a blue diamond, and stylish blue raindrop scarf) and Percy (wearing a yellow diamond, and an outline of Peridot’s hair on his hat), try to kiss; which Peridot questions “Are they trying to fuse?” Then, in SAME OLD WORLD, Lapis takes a liking to leaves and is seen holding one throughout the ending. This also might be foreshadowing as Paulette was holding a Canadian-like flag. (Which had a leaf symbol.) There is many promo art/drawings from storyboard artist Lauren Zuke where Peridot is dressed up as Percy. And also that ship chart Peridot made. Supposedly, the colors matched up to pair Lapis and Peridot.
> In Barn Mates and in Beta, when Peridot and Lapis are seen on the screen alone together, both times they were by the portrait of Steven’s grandparents. Peridot on the husband side, Lapis on the wife. Symbolizing marriage maybe?
> Peridot calls Lapis “Lazuli” a lot, in SAME OLD WORLD, BARN MATES and in some zines. Nickname~

> In RESPONSIBLE EARTH CITIZENS, by Lauren Zuke and Mira M., Peridot acts like the stereotypical husband, coming home from work to Lapis the stereotypical house wife, making dinner.

In FLIES OF LIFE, by Lauren Zuke and Mira M., Peridot learns about fireflies and then asks Lapis if she would like to learn about Earthly things with her, Lapis’ response looking like a typical anime trope, the one when a character “falls on to their knees” when another character does something cute.

> Shelby Rabara, the voice of Peridot, ships Lapidot, along with Pearlmethyst.
> Shelby was also recorded a phrase for a fan, saying. “Lapis, fuse with me.”
> Even Lauren Zuke made an AU based on the song Genghis Kahn, which shows, towards the end a gay couple living together. Maybe she ships them ?


>There is a lot of fanart/promo art of Lapis and Peridot together.

> There is also a listing for shorts and one of them is “Video Chat with Lapis and Peridot”. 

> Also, I heard Peridots are used to heal, which symbolizes how Peridot is able to help Lapis heal.

Yup, that’s it! I tried not to pick things that seemed like too much of a stretch, like how Lapis glanced at Peridot in “The Return” or how Peridot likes water (Lapis’ powers are water) since the events of “When it Rains”. But I’m mentioning them now so I guess they’re just here, in case anyone wanted that too.

I just liked analyzing this since.. both of them have come a long way! I will try to keep this post updated if there are any more hints towards the ship. I just think this ship has so much potential! Lapis and Peridot learning about the earth together reminds me so much of Ruby and Sapphire learning about the earth. It’s like Garnet’s story, only it’s happening now. Lapis healing with Peridot’s help is the best thing ever. Even if they never fuse, or confirm as a couple, their relationship should be pretty much clear for everyone. 

It’s a healthy relationship.

anonymous asked:

Hi. I'm not really sure if you dabble into zerrie stuff. But um do you think that there's a possibility that yes it started out as publicity and then blossomed into something more? I'm always torn between its real and its fake. All confusing tbh but um yeah

I think it’s been fake from the start, partly because it seems to follow other 1D girlfriend/hook up patterns.  The couch interview where Louis and Harry pretended (or not?) to kiss was one of the first times Perrie was brought up at all.  If you watch it, it seems quite forced, like Zayn knew he had to single out Perrie from Little Mix! and say he liked her.  In fact, he had such a hard time doing it, the others ended up doing most of it for him.

Considering that not only did Little Mix sign with Modest, but they were part of the X Factor which 1D are the biggest alums of, it’s not strange that they wanted to use 1D to promote Little Mix.  1D has been used to promote X Factor contestants multiple times through dating rumors.  Has it mostly been Niall?  I think it’s mostly been Niall, but there was: Sophia Wardman, Lola Saunders, Amelia Lily, Tamera Foster, and Lauren Platt, plus a few others who were more tangentially related like Samantha Jade, Jessie J, and Alexandra Burke.

If there was any chance of it being real, it was at the beginning, but as I just said, I don’t think it was real then either.  We’ve seen far too much by now to know Zayn isn’t into the idea of dating her at all, so there was no blossoming of romance later on.  

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norrihiddleskittycap  asked:

Imagine Bucky meeting Wanda Maximoff for the first time.

Buyer’s remorse was one of the more baffling things Wanda found herself having to get used to since she’d come to America. In Sokovia, the only time regret met consumerism was when she or Pietro got caught stealing food from street markets.

Ambivalently, those days were long gone. Now, Wanda lives in a place where she could spend $12 on a bottle of nail polish. In the past, drugstore polishes were more than enough. They were so cheap, she wouldn’t even feel badly if an extra bottle of black just happened to find its way into her pocket.

But here she was now, standing in the exorbitant, if Spartan, Avengers base common room, clutching a chic little black bag filled with makeup. Even the bag was excessive, sleek and simple but more than large enough to carry the felt-tipped eyeliner pen, two lipstick tubes, and three bottles of lacquer.

The common room was empty and peaceful in midafternoon light, so Wanda settled herself on the couch to go over her purchase, and maybe guilt herself a little more. She emptied the bag out on the coffee table, lining the cute bottles and tubes up neatly in a line on the table’s edge.

Honestly, there were days where she forgot to even bathe. All things considered, Wanda was coping well enough with the loss of her brother but there were a lot of things she just didn’t care to bother with anymore. Sometimes it was washing her face in the morning. Other times, it was getting out of bed at all.

Natasha seemed so effortlessly glamorous that Wanda had gotten caught up when she’d dragged her into Sephora. It had been a battle to stick to dark colors, plumb and garnet and matte black, what with all the bright colors and smooth-looking pastels. But if she couldn’t even remember to wash her hair or brush her teeth, why did she need lipsticks that would’ve paid for a week of groceries in Sokovia? She already had black polish, why did she go and buy this ridiculous bottle just because it looked edgy?

Wanda ruffled a hand through her hair and sighed.

“You’re allowed to do nice things for yourself.”

Wanda nearly jumped out of her skin. She whipped around to face the armchair and the mountain of blankets covering it.

“Sorry, kid,” the blankets laughed. They shifted a bit, and Bucky’s head poked out. He was sleep-mussed, hair in complete disarray. “Didn’t mean to freak you out.”

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