this was a really hard decision okay

I know sometimes you don’t want to heal. You don’t want to take deep breaths. You don’t feel like grabbing ice cubes or drawing. You don’t think it’ll help to tell an adult. You don’t feel comfortable with therapy. You think you’ve tried everything and nothing else can possibly work. You want the very thing that keeps hurting you because it’s what you know. You’re afraid of judgment because you have secrets. You’re afraid of not being ‘sick enough’. You’re afraid you’ll never heal. You’re tired of pushing everyone away and being reclusive. You blame yourself because you feel like it’s all your fault, or that it’s the right thing to do. You’re upset because you’re losing control over your own life-and you no longer know what’s exactly right or best for you. Trust me, I know.

But I also know that becoming a bit embarrassed is better than splitting migraines from crying myself to sleep every night. I know that people aren’t always against you. I know that when people really want to help you, they don’t judge. I know what I am and what I’m not-so regardless of judgement, I’ll be okay. I know that talking to someone saved my life. I know that letting go of the past was the best decision of my life. I know that loving yourself is a lifelong journey, and that it doesn’t have to happen overnight, or in a week, or in a month. I know that being patient with myself isn’t easy, but neither is constantly being hard on myself. I know that I am loved, and I know that people care about me. I know that caring about myself is better than having the world at my feet. I know that things will always get better, in time. I know that setting unrealistic expectations for myself results in unrealistic results. I know that pushing myself too far isn’t always the best thing for me. I know that I don’t know everything, and I am able to live peacefully within myself.

washingtonpost.com
With historic tiebreaker from Pence, DeVos confirmed as education secretary
The entire Democratic caucus of 48 senators voted against DeVos, as did two Republicans, Lisa Murkowski of Alaska and Susan Collins of Maine, who said they did not think that DeVos was qualified for the job. The remaining 50 Republicans voted for DeVos, setting up a 50-50 tie that Pence broke with his vote at about 12:30 p.m. It marked the first time that a vice president’s tiebreaking vote was needed to confirm a Cabinet secretary, according to Daniel Holt, an assistant historian in the Senate Historical Office.

Disappointed, but not surprised.

Of all of Trump’s cabinet nominees, DeVos gave the worst performance in her nomination hearings (and that’s saying something). Not only does she come with no professional or governmental experience in education, she demonstrated in numerous answers that she has little knowledge of fundamental education concerns (and didn’t do her homework). While my friends skew liberal, literally everyone I know in education (K-12 or higher ed) vocally opposed her.

That it took the Republicans switching the order of nominees, so Jeff Sessions could still cast a vote for DeVos, in addition to requiring an unprecedented tie-breaking vote from the Vice President shows just how tenuous her nomination was and how much opposition she faced 

But as this article points out, the fight is not over. DeVos may get to be Education Secretary, but the education system is full of highly engaged and extremely tenacious people who aren’t going give in easily to bad policy decisions. And for all the harm she may do, Betsy DeVos is going to have a hard time avoiding public scrutiny and criticism.

“People who care about public education have a real opportunity here to say, ‘Okay, we’ve all been talking about this a lot. Let’s really think about what our public-education system needs to sustain itself robustly for the next century, so people like Betsy DeVos don’t want to keep tearing it down.”

That’s small-consolation, but it’s why we have to keep on this stuff.

Here’s what you can do to help.*

  • Contact your representatives who voted no and thank them, contact your representatives who voted yes and express your concerns about education policy under Betsy DeVos.
  • The Education Secretary probably has an empty mailbox at the moment. Let’s change that. Send her a postcard or letter expressing your concerns about education policy.
  • Keep watching for both proposed laws around education policy and funding, as well as internal policy changes (Title IX is one of the big areas I’m watching there) and speak out.
  • And, final reminder: a lot of education policy is determined at the state/local level. Pay attention and get active there as well.

*In an effort to encourage action rather than inertia, I’m going to try and start adding this when talking about the challenges faced under the new administration.

Things I adore about Monsta X
  • Their genuine friendship and the way they care about each other is so beautiful x x x x x x x x
  • You ask them to take a group picture and they do this x x x
  • Every single one of them are gorgeous, every single one x x x x x
  • I don’t know why Starship keeps allowing them to do self mvs at this point x x x
  • They are literally such dorks it’s hard not to love them x x x x x x x
  • They’re all 100% done with each other x x
  • They will find a way to take everything too far x 
  • Their performances on The Remix were so good x x x
  • LISTEN their cover of Mirotic needs a whole appreciation post of its own they slayed me x
  • So they once played arcade basketball. Shownu got angry. Wonho yelled at himself. Jooheon swore. All this for arcade basketball x
  • Hyungwon didn’t understand a game and they got so frustrated, Minhyuk was on the verge of popping a vein x
  • Apparently to Monsta X, switching their parts in songs means going crazy and Changkyun almost bursting a lung x
  • They make the best facial expressions on rides I swear x x
  • So humble and just great people I mean they do so much for the fans and their relationship with Monbebe is amazing
  • They all take so much bs from each other, regardless of age or whatever and yet they still have a level of respect for each other.
  • Every single time they end a video, either they’re pushing each other or saying random shit I don’t understand x x
  • Safari in Monbebe World. No other explanation needed really. x
  • Once decided that piling on top of a sick and frail Hyungwon was a brilliant idea x
  • They won’t stop climbing Kihyun like he’s a tree :( x
  • The concept they have for The Clan trilogy is incredible they just keep bettering themselves
  • Monsta X when they were babies PLEASE x
  • They’re all talented and contribute so much to the group
  • Claimed to be bad at sports but ended up breaking the ISAC archery record
  • They’ll get impressed if you kill a moth I mean x
  • They get so proud of each other’s accomplishments, months after they still listen to Kihyun’s OST, Hyungwon encouraging Wonho to talk about his song, watching Shownu on Hit The Stage etc x x
  • Such weirdos honestly x x
  • They keep toys and gift given to them by fans in their rooms x
  • They have inside jokes that they still remember and laugh about together x
  • They drew pictures and hand wrote letters for Monbebe to congratulate us on our first year
  • Hoo! Monsta X!
  • They are such hardworking, talented, kind, funny and amazing people. They really work so hard and manage to stay humble and positive; not to be as cheesy as Wonho but honestly stanning them is a great decision, the amount of pure happiness they bring is insane.
the song remains the same

[So. I was taking a break from writing an essay and stumbled across a post from @neonlightwood with Jimon prompts here. My brain then decided I absolutely needed to write the first one. Enjoy?]

Okay, so maybe the day had started off a little weirdly.

Not that Raphael was a big talker, usually preferring to intimidate people by giving them the silent and stony treatment, but the conversation had been a lot quieter than usual. He hadn’t told Simon to shut up more than twice, for one, and he kept staring at him in a way that was starting to make him uncomfortable. It reminded him too much of how they had met, when he was still a mundane, taken captive by Camille. Like prey, his brain helpfully supplied, and thank you so much for that, brain.

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anonymous asked:

I don't see any improvement from you for such a long time now.. what happened? I mean, I'd been a follower since 3 years ago and I always feel you're the most eager-to-learn artist, but for a whole now, I don't think I see any improvement. I think it started somewhere in the middle of 2015? I'm not trying to mock you or anything, please don't get me wrong. Just wanted to say I realized the slow pace and maybe you'd hard times so I hope you're okay

Yeah I see it too. I got really burnt out in 2015, and I almost didn’t get back up. I’m starting to love art again, little by little, but it’s been a while. I’ve had to make a lot of tough decisions between then and now, and I’ve still got a lot of growing up to do, but I’m really glad I’m still here to see it all happen. I’ll do my best, for both me and everyone who’s stuck around <3

anonymous asked:

i thought when u originally said u were not going to go by the label "vegan" that you were just going to relax on checking ingredients and stuff.. not go back to eating animal products knowingly.. do you feel bad about talking about it bc you built a big part of your brand on here and youtube on being a vegan runner? i think a lot of runners might have similar issues with energy so if u could share how you changed your diet and how it helped i would appreciate it :)

Hi anon. Okay, here it goes, this is what I told a few people off-anon, but here is my honest little detailed account: This decision was purely made for my own health. My running was suffering and when I say suffering, I mean I was legit passing out during my long runs. By myself. I started having these feelings during the XC season. Like…I had to stop at the top of hills during races because I was about to fall…on the ground…from dizziness and blacking out. Like…the fuck? Blacking out? Seeing black spots, dead legs, every day while running. Literally every day. This has never happened to me before, and blood work all came back fine. I decided to add back in things made with eggs and dairy, Greek yogurt, whey protein powder, and I even have been experimenting with grilled chicken breast and some red meat (only like 1X a week, if that). I’ve had to disconnect myself because this was a really, really fucking hard decision. But…my running improved within 3 days. I haven’t seen black spots once…no symptoms that I had beforehand. I’m running times during workouts at the moment that I haven’t hit since before going vegan.

This is an incredibly hard thing to me to say aloud, to a huge audience I have on here, knowing that a lot of that audience is vegan. I am prepared to get some hate. That’s okay. I understand that people will be angry at this decision. Bottom line is…I support the vegan lifestyle because of the ethics that align with it, but I support doing what’s right for your body and HEALTH during the present moment in time more. This is not the first time I’ve heard this happening to young women who run a lot of miles. I had to trust my gut, and I did. I hope if anything, this experience may help someone. Like I said, most of my diet is plant-based, I still shop as ethically as possible in terms of clothing and beauty products, but right now, no, I am not eating a vegan diet.

The body and our lives are dynamic, ever-changing. There is so much more to the body than we truly know. So many complexities. I had to listen to my own body…which I urge everyone to do.

I hope this answer explains it all, and that way I don’t have to keep answering tons of questions about it :)

anonymous asked:

Father Canada headcanond pls?

-When finding out he’d be a dad, Matthew would be so happy. He’d always really wanted kids, so he’d be nothing but excited to be able to be a parent.

-He’d be the sweetest dad ever. He’d have a really hard time saying no to his kid, and as soon as there were old enough to make their own decisions, he’d always respect them, unless it put his child in danger.

-He’d accept whatever interests they develop, but if they’re okay with it, he’d really want to at least teach them how to ice skate, because it’s something he’s really passionate about. 

-Expect him to cry at any ceremony or accomplishment his kid is ever involved in. He’d just be so proud about everything they do he’d always get emotional.

-He’d also be really good at being able to talk with his kid if there’s any issues in their life that they’re struggling with. He’d never get mad or upset with them if they came to him with a problem, he’d just try his best to give them solid advice and offer support.

anonymous asked:

It's so great to find another fan blog of BatB and Le Duo and Luke Evans! :) And I love Le Duo so much! Do you have some headcanons about these two and you would share them with us?

Hello Anon! Well, it’s impossible to not love them! Just look at them! :D

Originally posted by lovingtheshow

I absolutely have some headcanons!


- before the first time they met, both were REALLY nervous!, because they need a good chemistry - because Gaston and LeFou

- and Luke was already in the table read room and Josh walked into it, with Emma, and Luke saw him, but was too nervous to go to him so he watched him from the distance

- and Josh made everyone laugh!? Literally everyone!?

- and they started talking and after 10 minutes they just KNEW it - best friends forever

- they both have a great sense of humor, so during filming (sometimes) they try to make the other one laugh

- and josh has a hard time not to laugh when Luke is in character - because he plays Gaston so very well

- the mirror scene?! yeah, they had to shoot it SO MANY TIMES, because everytime LeFou has to talk to Gaston, Josh has to laugh

- and Luke has a hard time to keep a straight face everytime Josh is on a horse

- to put it in a nutshell: most of the bloppers are about these two laughing

- AND THEY SING ALL THE TIME

- when Josh is arriving at set, early in the morning he’s singing “good morning” to Luke and Luke does the same

- which leads to a conversation, completly sung

- and they sing disney songs and musical numbers - ALL THE TIME

- “is there one song you two DON’T know?!” - they know all the songs

- and they talk for HOURS about disney

- “cinderella is such an amazing movie!” - “yes, but NO WAY is it better than snow white” - “are you crazy?! of course it is! bibidi babedi boo!” - “hei ho song!”

- Luke visited Josh and Ida numerours times (and vice versa) and at one point Josh and Luke had a Disney weekend

- which is basically 48 hours, these two infront of the TV, watching every disney movie…and singing

- Ida was away with the girls, but at some point she returned to check how her husband was and she found him with Luke on the living room floor, singing “Let it go”, together

- and Ida absolutely understands why Josh has a bromance-crush on Luke - because Luke is the nicest and sweetest human being ever!?!

- “i honestly think about making him a godfather or something, because if something happens to us, i want him to take care of our children” - “Ida, i was thinking the SAME THING!” - “…actually I was a bit joking…” - “oh…but can we discuss this?!”

- and Ida knows her husband (who is a cuddler) and so she’s very happy when she finds out, Luke is one too

- her whatsapp with Josh is at least 50% pictures of Josh and Luke cuddling somewhere

- and during night filming, Luke had a break, so he took a much needed nap somewhere

- and Josh saw it and saw, that Luke was freezing and he also needed a nap

- “Josh, you can’t cuddle with Luke when he’s aslee…” - “MY BOY IS FREEZING SO YES I CAN!”

- and a bit later Emma and Dan found them cuddled up, sleeping and Dan was like “Are we sure, they aren’t married?!”

- also: Josh is such a great masseur

- and yes, they shared a hotel room, everytime they traveled together

- and the PR-Disney team had a hard time because “Guys, you can’t share a room! We’ve booked seperate rooms. Would you please…”

- in the end one of them always ended up in the other ones room so at some point the PR team was like “Okay! Have a room together!”

- and if you were looking for one of them, there was a 99,99999999% chance the other one was there too

- besides Disney, the could and would talk about everything - no matter where and when

- and sharing a hotel room was maybe also a bad decision, because they would stay up really long and watch movies together or just talk for hours (because who needs sleep?!)

- and during production breaks they would talk with each other nearly every day

- and when Josh’s birthday came up, Luke got all excited

- and he planned that BIG suprise birthday party and orded the cake and made sure everyone is there and OF COURSE he would bring the cake inside the room and would start singing

- “hey guys, we thought you two should go together on the press tour. is that a problem?!” - “WE GO TOGETHER ON THE PRESS TOUR!”

- Josh is also an awesome wingman

- because there is this cute assisstent guy and Luke thinks he looks nice and he told Josh (Josh already saw Luke’s glances)

- and “You should talk to him.” - “Why should I?” - “Because you think, he’s cute.” - “I’m…not…” - “Oh come on! Talk to him!” - “I don’t even know if he’s gay.” - “He is.” - “How do you know?!” - “I just know! Talk to him!”

- but Luke is too shy so Josh makes sure he always needs something so the assisstent guy has to help him and “Hey, have you met my friend Luke?”

- unfortunately the guy already has a boyfriend, but he was flirting with Luke and went on one or two dates with him, so when Luke finds out he’s a bit heart-broken

- that’s the night he sends Josh so many text messages, because he really needs his best friend right now and when Josh sees all the messages, he rushes to Luke and “He doesn’t deserve you. He’s an asshole.”

- and at one Valentin’s Day, Josh sends Luke the biggest bouquet of roses he could find (because he’s such a cutie) with a very sweet message: “You’re the Lady to my Tramp, the Ariel to my Sebastian, the Peter to my Wendy, the Tigger to my Winnie Pooh, … . But most of all, you’re the Gaston to my LeFou, and I love you!”

- and Luke had to laugh so much and that’s one of the sweetest things ever

- these two also got drunk, at least once

- and the night ended with these two telling each other how much they love each other

- “Luke, I just love you.” - “No man. I love you more.” - “That’s not possible, because I love you the most.” - “No, no, no. I love you to the moon and back.” - “Maybe, but I love you to the sun and…”

- and the sentecne “You two are like an old married couple.” is one of the sentences they here the most and “yes, we are.”

- and “Luke, why the hell are you perfect?!” - “I’m not?!?” - “Yes, you are!” - because Josh is seriously amazed by the fact that everything about Luke Evans is perfect - EVERYTHING

- and he just can do anything?! LITERALLY ANYTHING?!?

Weights & Measures Pt 5

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader, Min Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Angst. Pure Angst.

Word Count: 4.6k+

Triggers: swearing, sex

A/N: THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING WITH ME ON THIS JOURNEY. This story means a lot to me. I hope I did it justice. I may or may not write and epilogue. I hope you enjoyed this emotional roller coaster with me

Originally posted by ew-jiminnie

“I was prepared to love you and never expect anything of you
And there’s no patron saint of silent restraint
Baby there ain’t no sword in our lake
Just a funeral wake”

-Dry the River

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Epilogue

Three Weeks Later

“You need to figure your shit out, Y/N” Tiffany spat. “Because what you’re doing to Jungkook is really unfair”

You couldn’t look her in the eye, “I know. I just don’t want to lose him”

“Y/N, you’re going to lose someone, regardless of who you choose. And Yoongi is going through with the wedding. He already chose someone else” you know she was trying to talk some sense into you, but her obvious bias was making things hard.

“I know okay! Fuck. You’re making me out to be like some cold-hearted bitch” you spat.

“I’m just being honest with you. Since you’re obviously not being honest with yourself” you were starting to hate these weekly lunches. You had made the mistake of telling Tiffany how you felt about Yoongi and she has been pressuring you to make a decision ever since.

But it was complicated. You loved Jungkook. You really truly did. You could feel it in your bones. It was a sure thing. But Yoongi. Yoongi slipped through the cracks. Filling in the spaces of your thoughts. Always thinking about what could have been. What could have happened if you had just chased after him. But now, he was engaged to someone else. Someone who would probably make him happier than you.

You hadn’t stopped dreaming about him. Almost every single night the two of you showed up on the beach. Each time you got to hold onto him for a little bit longer. But in the end, he always disappeared. Each time you would wake up next to Jungkook feeling guilty. Feeling like your subconscious had betrayed you.

The snapping of fingers in front of your face brought you back to reality. Tiffany wasn’t amused. “Did you hear anything I just said to you?”

You shook your head, “I’m sorry, I spaced out. What were you saying?”

She rolled her eyes, “I was letting you know that your final fitting for your bridesmaid dress is Wednesday afternoon. I need you to be at the tailor’s at noon”

“Okay” you said.

Tiffany sighed, “I know I’ve been riding your ass lately, but I’m just worried about you. I don’t want anyone else getting hurt”

You took a deep breath, “I know”

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Stage kisses || Dan Howell

A/N: I both hate and love myself for what I did with this request tbh. I’m sorry @nerdyukuleletryhard

Word Count: +2K

POV: Reader

MASTERLIST

Originally posted by bingephan

I could feel that all eyes were on us. There was no empty seat left in the audience since the plays of our high school were famous in our little town. Because of the bright light of the spotlights it got quite warm on stage, but I’d do anything for theatre even kiss a guy I hardly knew.

I was wearing a white dress, my eyes were pressed shut and I pretended to be unconscious. Dan Howell had gotten the second lead role. We were a weird pairing. I was a geeky, smart and sometimes shy girl with a passion for Drama and English class and he was a quite handsome, popular guy with an interest in sports and girls. I didn’t even know he’s into drama, but he wasn’t bad at all. I could feel him move around me and then he sat down next to where I was lying.

“Here’s to my love! Thy drugs are quick. Thus with a kiss I die.” 

I could hear Dan solemnly exclaim shortly before his warm lips met mine. We hadn’t rehearsed the kiss before because our drama teacher wanted this important scene to be genuine and not a routine. I was honestly completely taken aback. Never before had a guy kissed me that intensively. I forgot that there was an audience watching us. My heart race sped up and I nearly kissed back before I remember that Juliet is unconscious in this scene. Sooner as I wanted him to Dan pulled away and acted out his death.

I had rosy cheeks for the rest of the play and when the curtains closed there was thunderous applause, people rose from their seats, and Dan’s friends loudly cheered.

“You were awesome, Y/N!” Dan complimented me as soon as we had rushed backstage, still filled with adrenaline.

“You totally killed it, Howell!” I shouted and seconds later he pulled me into a bone crushing hug.

We quickly broke apart when Mr. Scot, our drama teacher, headed towards us with a large grin of approval on his face.

“Bravo! I have never seen so much chemistry between two people on stage. And Mr. Howell that was one hell of a kiss.”

“Thank you, Sir.” Dan said as a blush crept onto his face.

“I’m really proud of you two. Can’t wait to do another play.” Mr Scot told us happily before he walked away again.

“It really was one hell of a kiss.” I couldn’t stop myself from admitting before it was too late and the words had already slipped out.

Suddenly there was a huge smirk on Dan’s face.

“Well, well Juliet I guess you have found your Romeo.” He cockily remarked, making my cheeks heat up to over a thousand degrees.

“Shut up.” I whined and rolled my eyes.

“O Romeo, O Romeo” Dan mocked me in a high- pitched voice, causing me to shake my head in embarrassment.

“Stop it, Howell.” I shouted at him and hit his chest playfully.

“I’m not this ‘Howell’ you are speaking of. I’m Romeo Montague and Juliet is the sun.”  

I just groaned instead of answering and proceeded to walk away.

“Y/N- I mean Juliet, wait! I know we are different and our parents may not agree, mine really don’t care actually so don’t worry, but I’d really love to give this story a happy ending and take you out.”  

That’s how me and Dan got together. We had our first kiss on stage and went on a couple of dates after that. He asked me to be his girlfriend with another Romeo and Juliet reference and I just couldn’t say no. At first it was bit weird for both of us because we were so different and had such a different group of friends, but we all got used to it.

Exactly a year after the famous performance that brought us together Mr. Scot asked us to play the lead roles for his next project. Theatre and our love for drama class were basically the only things that me and Dan had in common so we obviously agreed to our teacher’s offer.

“What are we gonna put on stage Mr. Scot?” Dan asked as soon as we walked into the room where we had our first rehearsal.

“Well, Mr. Howell let’s just hope you can sing.”

“A musical?!” Dan exclaimed in surprise and shock.

“Not just any musical, Daniel.”

It took a bit of convincing from my side to make Dan sing, but he eventually agreed to it for me.

[After rehearsal]

“I still can’t believe you got me to do this.” Dan laughed, shaking his head.

“You sounded awesome, baby.” I smiled at him and took his hand in mine.

When we reached the parking lot it was already dark outside and the streetlamps were on.

“Do you still have time to come over today?” I asked Dan, wanting to spend some more time with him.

“Sorry, I can’t.”

The last time we got to hang out together was more than two weeks ago. I missed our alone time but Dan was always busy. He made it onto our high school’s soccer (football) team this year so he had after school practices and he still needed to do school work and spend time with his friends and teammates. I mean, I could understand that he had a lot to do, but I also felt a bit neglected.    

When I arrived at school the next day I walked straight up to Dan’s locker like I did every morning. Normally he’d be waiting for me there so we could go to class together but today he was surrounded by some of his jock friends. Just as I had decided to walk past them Dan called me.

“Hey, babe. C’mon over.” I swallowed hard as I did what he told me.

“Dude, is that your girl?” One of his friends asked, eyeing me up and down.

Dan nodded proudly and smirked as he wrapped his arm around my waist.”

“She is hot.” The same guy commented, ignoring the fact that I was right in front of him.

“Mr. Scot actually asked me to be in one of stupid plays today. I’d rather vomit all of my guts out and die.” Another one of Dan’s teammates told us and started laughing. Everybody joined in except for me. I just watched Dan laugh at the only thing that we both loved and didn’t know the guy who stood next to me anymore.

 I gotta say what’s on my mind

Something about us

Doesn’t seem right these days

Life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan

Is always rearranged

I’ve go to move on and be who I am

I just don’t belong here, I hope you understand

“CUT! Okay Y/N that was perfect, but sadly we are out of time for today. We’ll do the rest of the break up scene tomorrow.”  

“You never told me that you have such a lovely voice, baby.” Dan complimented me with a sweet smile on the way out.

After we had reached the parking lot once again the words I had to sing were still stuck in my head. I realized that I had already made my decision.

“Dan, before you head home, I need to talk to you. I have never identified with a role that much, you know? Lately, you haven’t been yourself anymore and that’s okay. I understand that people change, but I think we both can relate to what I just had to sing. We are not working anymore.” I had to try really hard not to cry and break down in front of him. I stopped talking before my voice got too shaky.

“Y/N, you can’t be serious! I-I -babe, I love you! Dan stuttered heartbroken, looking at me with wide eyes.

“Dan, it’s not that I don’t love you anymore. I just think it’s easier for us this way.”

“What fucking way is this supposed to be?” he shouted as he ran his hand through his hair in frustration.

“This here is easier than slowly getting my heart ripped out by you! I felt like you didn’t care for me at all the last couple weeks. You just hang out with your friends and make stupid jokes. I don’t even know you anymore, okay. Actually, you haven’t told me you love me in months, only now that it’s too late!”

“But you always knew that I loved you, right?” Dan asked me softly, his voice breaking mid-sentence.

I couldn’t stop myself from bursting into tears anymore. I just shook my head at his words since my voice had let me down.

[…]

 After Dan and I’s emotional break up things went back to how they were before we started dating. I only hung out with my geek friends and he joined the jocks and popular kids. We only saw each other during the rehearsal for our play and we didn’t talk more than we needed to there. From what I could tell, I could say that we were both not doing that great without each other. I remembered how happy I was during the heydays of our relationship and felt dull inside. The ugly truth though was that I was already miserable before we broke up. Still, I couldn’t help myself from looking forward to every single rehearsal we had, just because I was able to see Dan there. I knew that it was wrong but I guess I still had feelings for him. So, on the day of our grand debut I was extremely excited but also sad because I wouldn’t get to see Dan anymore.

When I got on stage I quickly scanned the audience and spotted not only my parents but also Dan’s jock friends. They sat in the last row and stared at us impressed. They gave Dan the thumbs up to cheer him on. We started acting, we had to portray a happy couple just like the one we were once. Half way through our performance it was time for our break up scene.

I’ve got to move on and be who I am

I just don’t belong here, I hope you understand

We might find a place in this world someday

But at least for now, I gotta go my own way

I sang, trying to ignore how nervous I was and how emotional I got. Having to look Dan straight into his beautiful brown eyes broke my heart all over again. I was glad when Dan had to take over because I knew that my voice would let me down soon.

What about us?

What about everything we’ve been through?

What about trust?

You know I never wanted to crush you-

As Dan sang there were tears glistening in his eyes and I knew for a fact that he wasn’t acting.

“I can’t do this.” Dan admitted with watery eyes right before he rushed backstage. The audience gasped loudly. I quickly followed him just to find him full on crying in his dressing room. Tears blurred his vision as silent sobs left his mouth.

“I’m so sorry.” He wept bitterly, avoiding to look at me. “I just couldn’t sing this song and look at you anymore, knowing that I was stupid enough to let you go.”

I sat down on the floor next to him and took his shaking hands in mine.

“Dan, I’m the one who is sorry.” I whispered, staring at my feet.

“What are you sorry for?” he asked me unbelievingly in between snivels.

“I’m sorry for putting you through this and breaking up with you.” I admitted.

“No, you were totally right, Y/N. I was acting like a dick and I took you for granted. Right after you broke up with me I told all of my friends that I’m doing this play and they are even here today. I just wanted to fit in and that was a stupid idea. You are more worth then being on the soccer team, or being popular. Y/N you are worth more than anything I can think of.”  

“Breaking up with you was a stupid idea.” I admitted and laughed a little as I watched Dan’s eyes widen.

“What- Are you playing with me because I think I might be having a heart attack right now?” Dan looked like he couldn’t believe his ears.

“You know that in the play our roles get back together, right?” I grinned before I finally kissed him again.

I HAVE THINGS TO SAY

LAST NIGHTS EPISODE OF NEIGHBOURS WAS PRETTY MUCH THE BEST EPISODE EVER LIKE HOLY HECK HAPPY EASTER  TO EVERYONE.

Ok so! ahg. I dunno where to start.

Ok can we all just appreciate Paul since the boys came into his life. Like he is being a bloody good genuine person, like I can’t even believe him last tonight. Totally became the hero of the show with the things he said to David.

The writers addressed lots of issues in society in this episode, and handled them all beautifully.

David confessed that his idea of a father was someone stern with high expectations, who wanted their son to tick all the right boxes. House, Job, Kids, WIFE. Paul actually looked heart broken that David spent all his life thinking he had to do those things. Like, no one was even there to tell him that that was the norm, David just thought that was the norm all on his own. Which is almost sadder.

Then after the Good Friday ceremony, Paul, admits that once upon a time he probably would have expected his kids to grow up to be like him, nothing else. And David thinks that’s the norm. So Paul corrects him and says well no it’s foolish. He talks about how wonderful his kids are because they aren’t like him. 

Then, Paul. AGH WHAT A HERO HE IS. He gives David the speech of the year!

“David….dont think you have to tick any boxes for me. Or anyone for that matter. Married, single, kids, no kids, doctor, cleaner, I dont care. As long as you choose the life that makes YOU happy. Do you hear what im saying?

*David nods*

“Good. I so wish I could have told you that all your life”.

HERO COME THROUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

David REALLY needed to hear that. To know that how he feels is okay. Especially from the allusive father figure that was always holding him back. Paul you bloody legend. Like, seriously that made me so happy.

Ok but also that last scene with David and Leo. BEAUTIFUL.

I think it’s so important for David to admit that he’s gay. You can think things, you can act upon how you feel, but to verbally acknowledge who you are. It’s committing yourself to your decision, it’s having witnesses to your decision. It’s really really hard to do, especially with tough subjects. So it speaks even more of his growth, that he can do this. Also the fact that he’s telling his brother, the person who he sees as his most important person, and by some degree his only family. That validation is extremely important.

BUT OUR OTHER HERO LEO. WHAT A FANTASTIC BROTHER. He never interrupted David once David said this talk was about him, he let David gather his thoughts and talk at his own pace. He turned himself around to properly face David once David started talking about Leo being the most important, and that he had to hear this first.

BUT THE BEST PART. THE. BEST. PART. Was when David said “I’m Gay”, in that sort of worried, quiet voice, Leo before anything else, told him to say it again. Say it again!. Then you watch David’s face change from hesitance, to relief, to some sort of relief/excitement/confidence. It. Was. Beautiful. Then afterwards Leo says “it’s about time Bro”. Then they adorable bro hug. THE END.

I couldn’t even imagine a better way of Leo handling that situation. I think if he had said said something like “I know”, or even said “About time bro” during that first confession, it could have rattled David back a bit. He let David take full control of this chat, and made sure David confirmed his feelings several times. I think that method was a clever way of showing that Leo was totally okay with it. “It’s fine with me, tell yourself it’s okay, tell yourself again”.

David’s mindset that he has to tick all the boxes seems like it means he thinks he needs everyones approval. But really it’s him needing his own approval. Aside from Hiiobaa-chan not approving, everyone has in some way told him to just be himself. David kept convincing himself that it was not okay. So having Paul tell him, as a father, that he doesn’t have to impress him, and having his beloved brother tell him to confirm to himself again, that he’s gay. Ahhhh. IT’S. BEAUTIFUL.

aSIDE FROM THAT, dAVID AND aARON WERE ALSO VERY CUTE THIS EPISODE. Aaron is kinda being a little more forward in how he speaks to David, it’s cute. David was was being vague about his lunch with Paul and Aaron pointed that out - “Dont go holding out on me here” and David’s all “I’m no-” and Aaron buts in saying “No. You are”. Awww lol and that invisible safezone Aaron made and he shuts the doors and David giggles and starts chirping away about finally having a dad. “Leo’s not here, neither is Amy. It’s just you and I, and Im not gonna judge you. Look *slides invisible doors* schhhhwoop This is our safezone” Agh its so cute.

I can’t even begin to imagine what the next #Daaron interaction will look like. Is David gonna tell Aaron hes gay? Will David try and flirt randomly LOL. Will he be a chuffed giddy adorable young guy and Aaron will keep trying to find out why he’s so happy? Agh. Its too cute to think about.

Ok this got a bit long Im sorry xD I needed to vent out my happiness HAHAHA.

It´s Not You, It´s Me (Requested)

Request: can i have a oneshot where stiles likes you but you don´t want to be in a relationship because you´re afraid to hurt him and he keeps asking and does cute things until you say yes? Thank you

Warnings: None 


“So basically I´ve liked you ever since we met and I really want to go out with you.”, Stiles finished his ramble with a nervous click of his tongue. I bit my lip and frowned, avoiding his glance. It was not like I wouldn´t want to go out with him, it was just the fact that no one in Beacon Hills was safe, and a relationship seemed like the wrong thing in times like this. 

“Stiles…I´m sorry, I don´t think it´s a good idea.”

“Oh my god, I understand, I knew you wouldn´t want to go out with a guy like me, I´m so sorry for bothering you I will just-”, he never finished but turned around and walked away with a hurt expression on his features.

“Stiles wait!”, I called. I wanted him to know why. He shouldn´t walk around with the thought of not being good enough for anyone.

“I- Listen, I really like you, I do. But… I couldn´t bear losing you when we… What I´m trying to say is, it´s not you it´s me.”, I explained. Oh my God that sounded horrible. 

“Y/N we´ve been friends for 3 years now. You can´t tell me that if anything should happen to the pack you´d be okay.”, he remarked with raised eyebrows. I opened my mouth and closed it again. He had a point, but I made my decision a long time ago. I muttered an excuse and walked into my next class. I didn´t think it would be so hard to reject Stiles… I mean I really just wanted to make out with him…Like all day.

“Miss Y/L/N, with grades like yours, I´d rather pay attention than daydreaming in this class.”, Mr. Harris interrupted my thoughts. I blushed as everyone´s attention was directed at me and hastily wrote down the chemistry notes I´d need for today´s homework.

-the next day-

“And you said no?!”, Lydia nearly yelled through the hallway. 

“Yes… Could you please shut up? I know I´m gonna regret it, I already do okay? You don´t understand.”

“Oh honey, I know you too well. And don´t think Stiles’ sudden death would bother you any less just because you didn´t go on a date with him.”

“Whatever,”, I groaned and rolled my eyes, even though a part of me knew it was true. I froze once I opened my locker. It was full of a beautiful bouqet of flowers. I took the little card below and opened it.

Just know that you´ll always mean the world to me

-Stiles

“You guys are so gonna have sex soon.”, Lydia smirked as she read the text over my shoulder. I hadn´t realised that a huge smile crept on my face, and to be honest I didn´t care. How could I think Stiles would easily give up? We were talking about Stiles Stilinski after all. And yet my mood sank when I realised how hard it would be to resist the mole-faced boy. 

-

“Hey Y/N how was biology?”, Scott asked as I plopped into a chair next to Stiles, who had saved a seat for me. 

“Uh… boring as always. What about you?”, I asked but I didn´t even hear what he answered. Under the table, Stiles’ hand slipped into mine when I took a sip of my water. I choked on it, my face slowly turning red, and Stiles soothingly rubbing my back didn´t make the situation any better. Once I stopped coughing, he smiled down at me and I felt myself melting. This was gonnna be even harder than expected.

-a few days later-

“And, how´s avoiding your feelings?”, Lydia asked when I joined her at her locker. 

“Horrible. I really just want to jump him…”, I sighed. In the last few days Stiles had been spending a lot of time with me, and it was hard ignoring that an incredible cute and kind guy wanted to date you. It made me feel like garbage.

“You won´t be able to keep this up any longer.”, she announced as I opened my locker. To my surprise, there was nothing but my school books inside. In the last days, I found a new little present inside whenever I opened it, but it was empty now. I had to admit that I was a little disappointed.

“Maybe he gave up?”

I nodded but didn´t say anything. I know I should be relieved, that maybe we could go back to normal, but the little signs of affection meant more to me than I wanted to admit. 

“Y/N! Y/N Wait!”, a breathless voice shouted after me when I followed Lydia to our classroom. A breathless Stiles stood in front of me, a fancy chocolate box in his hands. 

“I was late today, the jeep broke down again, these are for-”

He couldn´t finish because I already crashed my lips into his. I couldn´t think clear anymore, I only knew one thing: I was very lucky to have someone like Stiles and I sure wouldn´t let him go. He pulled me closer by my waist and I let one hand disappear in his hair while the other rested on his shoulder.

“What…”

“Stiles I´m sorry for rejecting you, if there is anyone I want to go out with, it´s you.”, I smiled and now it was his turn to be speechless. After a few seconds he simply grabbed me and pushed me against a wall before his lips found mine again. He bit my lower lip and I moaned loudly at the sensation. We were interrupted when the bell rang, we would be late for class.

“Stiles…”, I giggled when he refused to stop leaving hickeys on my neck. “We can continue later.”

He let out an annoyed groan but followed me when I pulled him after me in the Economy classroom.

  • intrusive thought: slice your own throat
  • me: I don't think that's a wise decision
  • intrusive thought: okay but, just put a knife, to your throat, and push it really hard, okay?
  • me: why do you consider this a good decision?
  • intrusive thought: just stab your throat it will be nice.
  • me: ... you will continue suggesting this for a while, wont you?
  • intrusive thought: that is correct
  • me: heavens give me strength...
  • intrusive thought: stabbity stab!

anonymous asked:

Why did the passengers on that flight??? Do NOTHING??? Lemme tell you if I had been on that flight that airline woulda heard it from me.

A lot were recording I think, but I guess in a tense situation like that with limited space there’s not much they could’ve done unless they wanted the same treatment.

You could hear a woman and several others crying out at the situation.

It’s hard to say. I’d like to think someone stood up and did something, but at the same time what can be done?

I really hope the man is okay and sues the fuck outta United. This whole bullshit of overselling flights is ridiculous and the fact that the CEO thinks this was the right decision made is absolutely DISGUSTING. I bet he wouldn’t say that to the mans face.

He was an older man, doctor, father, who wanted to keep his seat next to his wife I believe? So he could get to certain patient which is what many news reports are saying. This shouldn’t have happened.

They “randomly” picked on this poor old man and somehow thought forcible violence was the right way to go? Bullshit. Smh.

We’re Falling Apart and Tearing At The Seams

Pairing: Barry/Iris

Rated T

Words: 4788

Summary: 2x18 AU. What if Zoom took Iris instead of Wally? Angst with a happy ending.

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As he and Joe walk up to the house he gets this feeling that something isn’t right. He just can’t quite figure out what it is, but it puts him on edge. Maybe he’s just tired. After all it’s been a long day and he’s still beating himself up for letting Zoom get away. Still he can’t shake whatever it as Joe unlocks the door, but he doesn’t say anything not wanting to worry Joe until he can figure out if there even is something to be worried about.

The hair on the back of his neck prickles as they walk inside. It’s too dark inside and he really, really doesn’t like it not when Iris is supposed to be here. She had gone home hours ago while he had stayed at the lab longer. But now he wishes she had stayed or he had gone home with her.

They step inside the house and the feeling intensifies and he wonders if Joe can feel it to. Regardless of that he turns to Joe. “Something’s wr-”

Then he sees it. Sees it on the living room wall and stops dead in his tracks and so does Joe. He swears that he stops breathing for a moment, that the world stops spinning.

Your speed for Iris.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

“Fuck!” he screams and his fists clench at his sides and he really wants to hit something, or to run, or do something but he’s frozen in place. The words on the wall taunting him. And he knows this is his fault. He let Zoom get away. He should have stopped the other speedster. He had him. It’s his fault that Iris has been taken and he knows he needs to fix it. He knows what he needs to do.

He curses more out loud not bothering to try and hide it from Joe who hasn’t moved or said a thing and is just staring at the words on the wall, his face ashen.

“Joe,” he says slowly and carefully, trying to regain control of his emotions for the moment. “I’m going to get her back. I promise.”

There’s no way in hell he’s going to let that son of a bitch harm her in any way. And if he had any say it in it he wouldn’t even let the bastard touch her. But he doesn’t and the universe just wants to fuck with him and make him suffer.

Joe looks at him. “Barry, you can’t,” he starts but it’s only half hearted.

“Yes, I can,” he says. “I have to. This is Iris. It isn’t even a question. She’s worth more to both of us than my speed is,” he tells his father figure firmly.

Joe nods in agreement. “Okay.” But his voice is quiet and resigned like he’s a million miles away.

He places a hand on Joe’s shoulder. Trying to be as calm as possible even though on the inside he’s a mess. Even though it feels like someone has reached into his chest and ripped his heart out. Zoom has Iris and he has no idea what he could be doing to her. In the back of his mind he knows Zoom is doing this just to torment him and that he probably won’t kill her, just wants to cause him some pain. He just hopes that it’s true.

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KBTBB: Scars

“Anonymous said: Eisuke, Soryu, Mamoru, and ota reaction when they discover their girlfriend scars from her abusive ex?”

Requested: Yes

For: Anon

Smut: No

Eisuke Ichinomiya
Your boyfriend had a business meeting later in the evening and he wanted to bring you with him. He had troubles with picking a dress for you and asked the bidders opinion although he regretted it at the end. 

“I think Pretty Lady should wear something backless. She has really nice curves and could totally pull it off.” Baba suggested. Somehow he got everyone on board with his suggestion. “The kid does have the body for it.” 

After your shift you went straight to the penthouse and Eisuke was waiting for you. He held the dress out and told you to change. “I think you’ll look great on this.” You looked at the dress and frowned immediately. “Eisuke… The dress is gorgeous but I don’t think I can pull it off. I told you before that I don’t do backless dresses.” 

“I do recall you saying that but you never told me the reason for it.” He crossed his arms. You unzipped your uniform and turned your back to show Eisuke the reason. “Because of this. I have ugly scars on my back due to my past relationship with this guy. Some of them are healed already and some are still getting there. That’s one of the reason why I don’t want to wear backless dresses. I don’t want to humiliate you.” 

Eisuke stood there with his jaw clenched. He didn’t know about your past relationship. He didn’t know that your ex treated you like that. “Y/N… You’re beautiful no matter what. I’m sorry to hear about what happened to you. I’ll alway treat you like a Queen.”

He went to get you a new dress and dialed Mamoru’s number. “I need you to find someone for me.” He hung up. How dare that guy hurt someone precious like you. He’ll never forgive him. 


Ota Kisaki
“Koro!! I’m home!!” Ota yelled as he set his things down by the living room. He wondered where you are because you didn’t respond to him. He walked around to check every room but you weren’t there. The only place left was the bathroom. 

Before he could even knock, you already opened it. “Ota!” Your eyes widened upon seeing him stand in front of you. “Welcome home. I’ll get your food ready.” You dashed to the bedroom only to be caught into Ota’s sweet embrace. 

“Koro… Are you teasing your master?” His lips was very close to your ear. “How about I paint you right now? You’re giving me some inspiration right now.” 

You started to panic. “No! I told you before right? You’re not allowed to use me as your muse after I shower!” 

“Why not?” Ota pouted. “Because…” You weren’t sure whether to tell him or not but since he’s not going to stop asking you caved in. You pulled him towards the bedroom and showed him the scars on your body. He didn’t quite understand how you got those scars because this is the first time he’s ever seen them. Even when the two make love to each other, these scars were never present. “I… I put make up over my scars. My ex was very abusive and I loathed myself. I told myself that I wasn’t good enough for him that’s why he was hurting me and that I deserve to get hurt. But I wanted to forget my past, that’s why you never saw my scars. That’s also the main reason why I don’t want to be your muse after I’ve taken a shower because that’s when I see the real damage.” 

Ota was loss for words. He didn’t know that you were abused in your past relationship. You’ve been through a lot and he recognized. He pulled you into his chest. “I’m sorry that someone could ever hurt a beautiful woman like you. He’s the one that caused all the suffering you’ve gone through and even with those scars, you’re still beautiful to me. But if I ever see that bastard I will knock him out and teach him a lesson.” 


Mamoru Kishi
He swayed from side to side when he entered your shared apartment. He kept making sounds which made you wake up and go towards the sound. You weren’t sure who it might be therefore you grabbed the bat for your own protection. Oh how you wished it wasn’t a robber that broke in.

The living room was now at your sight, you heard footsteps coming close and you gripped the bat tighter ready to swing. At the last step you manage to swing the bat but when you saw Mamoru, your body stopped. “What the hell Mamo! I could’ve killed you if I wasn’t able to stop my movement. You’re quite lucky you know.” You rubbed your templed and set the bat down.

It was very dark in the apartment. When you found the switch you switched on and turned around to see Mamoru with a few bruises and a busted lip. “Damnit Mamo, I know you’re a detective but please be careful.”

Then something something unexpected happened. Mamoru cried in front of you and embraced you. You weren’t sure what was going on but you hugged him back. “Sweetheart this is nothing compared to what happened to ya in the past. I… I bumped into your ex and he confessed that he used to beat you while the two of ya were in a relationship. And those scars that you said that you got along time ago made sense to me. I thought it was due to your clumsiness that you earned those scars but today.. I found out that it was because of him. That bastard made my blood boil and I beat the hell outta him.” His embrace tighten around your waist. “Sweetheart you’re precious to me and I’d never let anyone hurt you ever again.”

“Hearing you say those words makes me feel happy and glad that I have you. All that matters now is you and me okay? Don’t worry about my past, worry about us and whatever the future has for us.” 

After treating his wound the two of you headed towards the bedroom. “I love ya sweetheart. Remember that.” He gave you a sweet kiss before falling asleep in his arms.

Soryu Oh
It has been a while since you saw Soryu around. He was busy with the upcoming trades and he wanted to make sure everything was going smoothly.

He’s been coming home around two in the morning and you could see his eye bags. Tonight you wanted to wait until he came home and help him relieve stress.

At exactly two in the morning Soryu came home. “Y/N? Why are you still awake?”

“Um… I wanted to wait for you.” You motioned him to sit down on the chair. “I know how hard you’ve been working for the last few weeks and I thought I’d give you a massage.”

Soryu didn’t have the energy to decline the offer and allowed you to massage him. He was glad he accepted it because he was finally able to let loose and relax.

“Mmm. That felt really nice Y/N. Now it’s your turn.” Your eyes widened at his suggestion. “Do you really think I’m the only one that’s working hard? Eisuke told me that you’ve been doing well and working hard throughout the past few days. I also noticed how stiff you are.” He came closer to you but you took a step back. “S-Soryu it’s fine really. I’m okay.” You smiled.

Soryu only frowned at this but respected your decision. When he pushed strands of hair away from your face he saw something he should’ve never seen. Just below the back of your neck there was a scar. He doesnt know how big or small the scar is since your clothes were covering since this is the first time he’s seeing it. Is that why you always had your hair down to hide your scar? Once you noticed it you covered it with your hand.

“Y/N…What’s -”

“Nothing to worry about Soryu.” You cut him off. “No Y/N, this is serious who did this to you?” He was now angry.

You wanted to lie to him so bad but you just couldn’t do it or at least find away around it somehow but you knew that wasn’t going to work. You didn’t want that to ruin your relationship with him. “Um… Well… Before I got a job at Tres Spades, I was dating this guy. We had a good relationship at first until he started abusing me. He’d whip me with his belt whenever I left the house even though I’d tell him I needed to go to work. And when I got sick of him, I left him and moved far away. So here I am… I understand if you don’t want to be with me cause these scars are permanent and ugly.”

Soryu was speechless, he couldn’t believe that someone would hurt an angel like you. He hugged you, “Y/N I’d never leave you. Hearing your story makes me want to protect you more. You didn’t deserve to be with a guy like him. But to hurt a beautiful body like yours I’d never forgive him.”

“Soryu… Just forget about him okay? He’s not worth it. Past is past, I have you now and that’s all it matters to me.”

This is one of the plenty reasons why Soryu loves you. You’re brave, strong, loving, caring, and an independent woman. He promised himself that he will protect you at all costs. 

Body Mod

For the nice person who requested this smut, I reaaallly hope you like it. You’re my first requester :)

Smut
Jungkook x Reader
Word count: I have no idea, a lot?

(I saw this pic after I wrote this but damn it was perfect…)


“KOOKIE!!” you called out into the empty open air of his bedroom where you lay upon the neatly made covers of the bed, staring at photos of tattoos and piercings on the bright screen of your phone.

“YEAH?!” His call echoed softly to you through the walls of the house. He was undoubtedly on the other side, practicing hard for their upcoming comeback, as usual.

“COME HERE PLEASE, I NEED YOUR HEEELP!” you yelled. For the past month you had been craving a new tattoo or piercing. Sometime the urge made your skin itch, that’s how strong it was. As they say, you don’t get just one. The only problem was, you couldn’t decide on what to get next. Your ears were already pretty full of metal so maybe a body piercing? But, you really wanted that lotus tattoo on the very bottom of your neck, between your shoulders, too. AISH! the decision was so hard! You needed Jungkook’s help. With heavy steps, Jungkook bounded into the room, his face was flushed and his body held a thin layer of perspiration on it, and his large white t-shirt clung to the muscles in his chest and arms. He looked incredibly sexy with his damp black hair falling into his eyes just a little bit.

“Are you okay, (Y/N)?” he asked, his voice full of concern, as he made his way over to you. You ignored his question and grabbed his hands instead, pulling his tired body onto the bed next to yours.

“Jungkookie-ah, I need your help!” you pleaded.

“I can’t decide whether to get a tattoo or another piercing next. I’ve been thinking about it for a month now and I’m stuck. I don’t know what to do. What do you think?”

He looked at you, slightly amused and a tiny bit annoyed.

“You pulled me away from practice for this?” you looked at him innocently as he laid there, eyes closed, exhausted.

“Ah, Kookie, you’ve been practicing all morning and half the day. Look, the sun is already getting low. You needed a break anyway.”

“You’re right, okay then show me what you want.” He said. He was sprawled out on his back, hands motioning for you to hand him your phone. You drew your body closer to his, your upper body covering his slightly, resting there, and showed him the lotus design on the screen. Your breasts were pressed against him and you could see that he had noticed from the way he blushed and tried to focus on your phone. His reactions to your body always made you feel mischievous and you loved to tease him.

“If I get this, I was thinking about putting it on my lower neck…” you said as you swept aside your hair to show him your bare skin.

“…or maybe I could put it on my lower back instead… “ Your hands moved down and lifted the edge of your shirt up just enough to tantalize Jungkook. You glanced back at him through your eyelashes, to see him breathing was slightly faster than before and his eyes were glued to you.

“Mhmm, that.. would be good.” He breathed. He pulled his eyes upwards and looked at you finally. His excitement made you smile as you rose to your knees and turned to straddle his hips.

“On second thought, maybe I’ll just get another piercing… maybe a body piercing?” his eyes flashed and he gripped your hips as you settled your weight onto him.

“Jagi, you know how much I like piercings.” He moaned.

“Where do you want me to get it, Kookie?” you asked, your voice breathy and seductive. His eyes flashed again and he immediately went form cute and flustered to sexy and lustful. He sat up and slowly pulled off your shirt as he trailed soft kisses up your belly.

“How about here?” he kissed right on your belly button and flicked his tongue over it, making you shiver. Your hands rose up to his neck and you ran your fingers through his soft hair, gripping slightly and he pressed more suctioned kisses onto your torso. His hands drummed up your sides, leaving trails of fire, and he poked his fingers underneath your bra, pinching and rolling your nipple as he did.

“Or maybe here?…”

“AH! Jungkook!” you gasped. His fingers worked on you and you could feel yourself soak through your underwear. He swiftly unhooked your bra and you dropped it somewhere in the room, not caring where it landed. His large hands caught your breasts, one in each hand, as he massaged them before placing his mouth over your right nipple. You closed your eyes and threw your head back, moaning, as you automatically ground your sex into his growing erection. Jungkook growled, his hands gripping your hips tightly, and softly bit on your sensitive nipple, rolling it between his teeth. The pain turned into a different kind of pleasure and you felt a new wave of wetness rush forward.

“Ahh, yes, that feels so good.” You whispered. Jungkook released your nipple and stared you in the eyes, biting his lip, as his hand reached into your jeans and smoothed over your swollen clit.

“I think I’d like a piercing here, too…” You’re body collapsed on itself from his sweet touch, shuddering, only held up by his hand and chest. a strangled sound escaped from you as he continued his torture. In an instant, he had you on your back and bottom-less, fully naked underneath him. The muscles in his arms rolled as he ripped his t-shirt over his head, shaking his messy hair from his eyes. you sat up just enough to untie the string at his waist and sucked at the skin above each of his hip bones. Jungkook drew in a rattling breath and pushed you back down, breaking the contact from him.

“I wont be able to last if you get me this excited, jagi..” His cock jumped inside of his boxers in agreement. Jungkook watched your face as he reapplied pressure to your clit, swirling his index finger around in a continuous pattern that made your toes tingle with a cold, icy sensation. Your muscles tensed and relaxed with each wave of euphoria that washed over you and soon the bed was marked with a small wet patch. Each breath became faster and higher as you neared your release.

“I’m..im gonna-” before you could finish, the feeling subsided as he took his fingers off of you and replaced them with his pointed tongue. Jungkook avoided your hypersensitive bundle of nerves as he licked at your opening, dipping his tongue in slightly every so often. He would flick your clit occasionally, each time causing your body to twitch with electricity. You couldn’t take his teasing anymore.

“Just FUCK ME already, Jungkook!” you demanded.

“I thought you’d never ask. I almost drowned, you’re so wet…”

“Just shut up alrea- AHH YES!” he didn’t let you finish your sentence as he sharply thrust into you easily, aided by your natural lubricant. He stilled his hips and rested inside of you for a second, trying to calm his excitement.

“God, you’re so tight…” he panted. You impatiently rolled your hips upwards, trying to gain friction. in his moment of weakness, you decided to switch positions and trapped him underneath you, immediately moving on him at a steady, slow pace as you adjusted to his substantial girth. A string of curses left his lips and his fingers dug into your skin, leaving crescent moon nail marks on your hips and waist. each thrust became deeper, harder, and faster as his hips bucked into you every time you sank onto him. You steadied yourself with your hands on his chest and hovered slightly above him while he drove into at a blinding pace, his cock assaulting your g-spot relentlessly. His thumb came to your clit and sloppily rubbed it until you were nearly screaming. Your body became numb and bubbly with your nearing orgasm and Jungkook flipped you onto your back once more. He grabbed your leg and brought it up above you, using it for leverage and also opening you up to reach even deeper as he pounded into you.

“I cant hold back much longer (Y/N), you need to cum soon.” he warned. His new position hit you at the perfect spot and his frantic hand on your clit drove you to your climax. You came on his cock with a loud cry as your walls pulsed and contracted around him. His paced became erratic and turbulent and he groaned,

“Shit, I’m gonna cum..”

With a strained “(Y/N)!” he came into you, mixing with your essence and slowly rode out both of your orgasms. His body shuddering, he pulled out and collapsed next to you, completely exhausted from both the training and the sex.

“well that was…”

“Intense.” he finished. You still felt floaty and warm as you swept his hair off of his sweaty face and kissed his lips deeply, poking your tongue against his lightly. His arm wrapped around your waist and pressed you against him, your warm bodies flush against each other.

“You should definitely get a piercing. I kinda like the idea of nipple rings..” he admitted, smirking.

“I was thinking the same thing.” you blushed, suddenly embarrassed.

Suddenly there was a loud knock at the door that made you jump in fright. Taehyung whipped open the door, one hand covering his eyes and he said,
 “JEEZUS! You guys were LOUD! Hurry and come back Jungkook, we need to practice ‘Run’ again.” Teahyung left the room then, running down the hall with a crazy cackle. Jungkook sighed heavily into the air,

 “Not again…”



okay so I’m not sure if this is good, Kookie is hard for me to write about sorry but Tae at the end, omg I love him I think he would actually do this too maybe.. lol got me like