i hate you, you know that? i hate what you did to me. i hate that it’s 3:04am and i’m thinking about you. i hate that every song makes me think of you. i hate that i like to watch videos of you kissing me. i hate how much i miss you when i feel lonely. i hate that you still love me. i hate the fact that i can’t speak to you and the fact that i can. i hate that you left me with no option. i hate that thinking of you is making my face covered in tears. i hate that i cant picture myself loving anyone the way i loved you. i hate how much i want to text you right now. i hate how weak you made me. i hate that i think i can move on. i hate that i have to be with somebody else. i hate that i still see myself with you. and most of all, i hate how easy it would be to take you back. but i must wipe away the tears, i must love myself more than i love you, and i must stay away from people that are no good for me. so thank you for the experiences, thank you for the memories, thank you for the moments, and thank you for the temporary happiness you gave me. but it’s 3:16 now and i must sleep, so that i can heal and so i can forget. good night.
my friend asked me this today, and i thought i'd ask what you thought too! "what's the best thing about the stevetony fandom/being in the stevetony fandom?" sorry if you've already been asked this, just wondering what your response would be :)