this video made me cry really hard


So @asktheboywholived did this hilarious video of James, Sirius, and Remus dancing to Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake and I had to do this quick doodle because it made me laugh so hard. Watch it here. And give them a follow while you’re at it.
Whenever I’m in a bad mood I know that it’ll get lifted over on TT’s page. Whether they have me crying from laughing so hard or crying from a heartbreaking thread.
I’m sure you’re probably tired of hearing this from me, TT but you really are a huge inspiration to me. 




But I honestly worked so hard on that video,it took me all day to finish! They copied my description! They got views!! They got likes! They got more subs?! And they really hurt me!! This was not funny.Im really sad…this person is really rude they like to make money off of stuff they didn’t even make.they get nice comments,they get paid! They don’t even say a word about the artist.thats really depressing.



So for honestly no real reason I decided to rewatch Seán’s video of the game That Dragon, Cancer. Rewatching this video I really liked what he said here at this part at the end of the video and I thought it would be good to make a post out of. :)

Honestly this is one of my favorite videos he’s ever done and it means a lot to me personally not only because experiencing this game for the first time was such an incredible experience that made me feel so many emotions but also because it’s one of the two videos from Seán that’s ever made me emotionally cry. For anyone who doesn’t know, I have a huge issue with crying that really bothers me. Most of the time I can’t cry emotionally I have an extremely hard time with emotionally crying and expressing my negative emotions in general. So I pretty much can’t cry unless I’m extremely overwhelmed, stressed out or in extreme physical pain. But when I watched this video for the first time during the part with the cards in the hospital and then that part really getting to Seán because it was really sad part of that game in general but it was also triggering a personal memory for him too that he gets into in the video. All the emotion from just the weight of seeing all those cards and what they represent and seeing Seán start really tearing up over that as well just hit me extremely hard emotionally and it just made me cry and made me feel so many different emotions at once too. Experiences like this is one of the many reasons why I say that Seán has given me more then any person in my life has ever given me. Which I know is a really big thing to say about a person and could sound like me over exaggerating or me making Seán sound greater then how he actually is which I really hope it doesn’t. But this is still something that means a lot to me and is extremely personal with me that I want to share. These are the kind of experiences that stick with me and stay close to my heart. Which leads me to what I want to say in this post.

Seán if you see this post, I know this video is like over a year old but I still want to say this. Thank you for being here always for us too and for giving us so many memorable experiences with you. You’ve given all of us so many unforgettable memories through these games and through your videos that will always stick with us. 
May there be many more unforgettable memories and experiences through these gaming adventures in the future my friend! :D


anonymous asked:

Any good Shawn blogs?

i’m probably going to forget some, it’s not above me, but here are some that i’ve been appreciating recently:

@illumeshawn: honestly one of my favorite people on here; she’s an amazing writer and friend and we’re a very dangerous combination i’m not sure who allowed us to be friends

@ftsgerald: lu is absolutely incredible when it comes to imagines as well, plus she’s hilarious & full of life. she needs to be protected at all costs

@ihaveabadreputation: my main homie allison who i’m going to get married to because we’re meant for one another. she’s phenomenal and any time you can bother her about TiC, do it ;)

@whitechocolateperfection emk is G R E A T and seriously has when Shawn says “no obviously not” to that one girl at the airport as her text tone. and she always has me laughing and following her 11/10 people recommend

@starrynightshawn: my beautiful love m, she’s so kind and beautiful and just the greatest person to talk to

@shit-to-kinda-okay: george is great and made that stupid fucking honey video that i watch on a daily basis and cry about

@thugshawn: who is a great editor / gif maker and should be appreciated a lot more for her work bc making gifs & edits is hella hard

@wordsformendes: who is absolutely beautiful & kind and i love her writing as well

@babyshawwn: you probably follow her already. if you don’t, what is you doing. she’s amazing. #wifey

@ruinrose: beautiful human being, beautiful blog, loads of love to her !!

@ruinriff: the real mvp, copped me tnhmb when i was unable to get it & sent it to me, she’s really sweet and will do anything for you which is fantastic

@latteshawn: she’s great and funny and just a ball of sunshine that loves Shawn and so many other people. give her love.


@thesmutofthemendes: i keep mentioning m in these and she’s probably sick and tired of me but she’s sweet & will get you all up in your feels

@permanentguitar: has been killing me with her bullet lists recently like damn ma slow down. 

but anyway, i love these people and there’s probably more that i’m forgetting but everyone i follow you can see on my mobile layout or on my blogroll :) 


This is really, really long but it would mean the world to me if you took some time to watch this video! Or maybe even read the post. Thank you so much guys.

Hey guys!  I’m Lucy. I’m fifteen from Canberra, Australia. Cheesecake is my life even though my body doesn’t agree with it. I love Taylor Swift, sunsets, nature walks, the smell of wood, fresh stationery and binge watching things on the internet.

Most of all , I freaking love music. I love performing, I love songwriting. So much that I’ve decided to pursue a career in it. People call me crazy and naive but hey, it’s what my heart and mind are set on and nothing can stop me trying. 

In September of last year, I got to play at the Canberra TEDx Conference at the Canberra Theatre. IT WAS INSANE AND ONE OF THE HIGHLIGHTS OF MY LIFE. You can listen to it in the video above! It was an amazing day, and all the speakers and other performers inspired me so much. I got to play 3 songs I’d written that I was really proud of and talk about them in front of a sold out crowd of 600 (ok, it’s no 76,000 but it was THE BEST FEELING). Afterwards, people told me that the songs made them feel something. They said they laughed, cried and felt inspired. That is the goal for me, I want my songs to make people feel something. I was so honoured that people took to the songs I’d written and the whole day was such an incredible blur.

Walking off the stage after I sung was one of those ‘holy crap, that was a thing I just did’ moment. I got real deep inside my mind and realised it would’ve never happened without Taylor.

Let me explain. 

In late 2008, I heard Love Story from my friend’s MP3 player. My mind was blown. I then went onto discover the entire Fearless album. My mind was blown even more. This girl called Taylor Swift was writing and making music as well as performing for a living. Seeing a young girl do that made me realise I could maybe do that too. The reason I started this whole music thing was because of how inspired I was by Taylor. The she holds herself on stage, in person, in interviews and as a songwriter is so inspiring. Taylor is true to herself, her art and just writes how she’s feeling and writes the truth. That’s the greatest thing to me and something I hope to emulate one day.

I started out by going busking in the city as a 9 year old who could play 4 chords on the guitar. Now, I’ve done so many things I never thought I’d do and. I played at a TEDx Conference. I released an EP. I sold out my EP launch. I became an Australian National Busking Champion. I I grew as a person. I finally found a group of awesome people to hang out with. And most of all, I found my passion. I went from someone who wouldn’t talk and was too scared to go into shops to buy things to someone who was confident in themselves and proud of who they are. 

For these past 8 years, Taylor has been by my side. Her hardwork, growth, humour, talent, honesty, intelligence, selflessness, confidence and most importantly kindness inspires me every single day. Taylor’s journey has inspired me to work hard at my dreams and to never ever give up. And I’ve seen so many other girls my age doing music and slaying life after being inspired by her. Taylor’s lyrics and beautiful songs have made me laugh, cry, lie down on the floor to reflect on life and dance. I’m so incredibly proud that Taylor Swift is my role model. 

So yeah, the video on this post is my TEDx performance. I’m really proud of it! The first song is about my dreams, the second about my life and the third about the world. I’m so grateful for the opportunity and I can’t believe my life is turning out in such an awesome way. 

Thank you for taking time out of your day to read all of this! It really means a lot to me. I’m like 110% there for meeting new people on tumblr so feel free to send me a message to talk about life. I love life chats.

Love from,


PS. Taylor, if by some magical chance you’re reading this: thank you for everything. Thank you for giving me the chance to feel that rush you get when you finish a song you’re proud of and when you’re playing your songs in front of people. Thank you for being so wonderful to all of us and for standing strong when they build you up to knock you down. I love you so much.

anonymous asked:

Heath's new video made me cry so hard. He didn't deserve that. He. Fucking. Cried. Do you know how much Heath deserves to cry? Not at all. I'm so sjdkdlal. But, I've fallen so much more in love with Zane (which, tbh isn't really possible) but just the way that he educated himself about the issue and is actively working towards helping. He's the best type of friend to have ever. He's literally so sexy and smart and so cute and so caring. Heath and Zane are both so lucky to have each other.

heath DOES NOT DESERVE this. I feel so bad. why would anyone do that to him?? but im so glad heath has zane, and that zane (and matt) were there to help deal with the situation. and yeah like how is it even possible to love zane even more??? heath give him a huge hug for me plz

princessfluffybuttt  asked:

Have you seen marks new video? It really made me cry. I have such a hard time finding motivation to live and do many bad things happen to me but hearing that we as community could do so much good for the world together fills my heart with joy. I might not be anything on my own but together we are so much more. I just wanted to tell someone that. Thanks for listening

I’m so happy so many people find comfort and value from him just as I have. I know exactly how you feel and I’m so happy he made such a positive impact on you from the video :) this community has and will do great things. thanks for sharing!

Long Distance

Request: Revenge Frank?

My pulse quickened as the upbeat Skype notification rang out. I looked over at the mirror, double checking to make sure my hair and make-up remained intact. Taking a deep breath, I clicked accept. The screen faded from the blank hub page to the call, letting me see my boyfriend for the first time in a month. I felt my heart burst when I saw him, it was really him. He looked tired, but still him. “Frankie” I chocked, my hand instinctively went to the screen, the closest I could get to touching his face.

“Hi baby” He smiled brightly, giving me a small wave. “How are you?”

“I’m good, school’s going well. How’s the tour?” My Chemical Romance left for tour a month ago and it hasn’t been easy. I was so used to seeing Frank everyday and going to every single one of his shows that I don’t know what to do without him. I wanted to tell him how much I miss him, that I need him here with me, that he should come home but, I couldn’t do that to him. This band meant so much to Frank, so did performing. It was his dream and I had to be supportive. 

“It’s pretty awesome, the crowds are fucking wild here. Like last night, this guy brought a fucking road flare and set it off in the middle of the concert” 

“Are you kidding me?” I laughed, imagining all of the boys reactions to that.

“I wish I was. Gerard’s face was priceless. Security ended up kicking him out”

“Awww you should have let him stay, he could’ve been saving better stuff for the finale”

“One of the stage crew told me he had some smoke balls in his backpack. It was a little scary but, a nice compliment at the same time. Out of all the bands performing he decided to use his only flare on us”

“Do you guys get a lot of bras thrown at you?”

“N-No” Frank stammered nervously, toying with his lip ring.

“Come on Frank, i’m sure you get tons of groupies” I teased, all bands had crazy fan girls but, I knew Frank would never do anything.

“Okay, we get bras a lot but, there actually isn’t groupies”


“No lies, there really isn’t. I guess were not hot enough” He laughed, his face bright red. “Maybe we should all go shirtless”

“Good luck getting Mikey to go shirtless”

“Trust me, I can convi-” He jumped at a loud knock on the door. “Uh, hold on” He moved out of frame. He returned with his head down and gave me an apologetic look.

“What’s wrong?”

“It’s time” He said quietly. My heart sank and my eyes already began to blur. It was time for them to get back on the bus, where there would be no wifi to video chat. “I’m really sorry. I’ll call you as soon as we gt to Detroit” I made small choking noise and looked up at him. He looked worse than I did. Tears flowing freely down his face and eyes bloodshot red.

“O-Okay” I sniveled, forcing a smile.

“Baby please don’t cry. Fuck I…I miss you so much. This is so hard without you here”

“I miss you too Frank, I don’t know what to do without you” The words slipped from my mouth before I could stop them, I didn’t want him to second guess this tour.

“I’ll be home soon y/n, I promise, I promise”

“I love you Frankie”

“I love you too, I’ll call you tomorrow. Okay?”

“Okay. Bye” I smiled and waved.

“Bye love” Just as quick as he appeared, he was gone. The screen was black for a second, then jumped back to the Skype main menu. I let out a broken sob, covering my face with shaking hands. It was great to see Frank but, I didn’t think it would be that hard to say goodbye. My phone dinged, signalling I had a new text message. My heart skipped a beat when I looked at the 8 bit letters:

From: Frankie <3

Only two more months baby, I love you <3

anonymous asked:

Hey I was wondering how it took you to learn all of Seventeen names. Because personally I'm trying to get into them and finding it very difficult except for Vernon, Woozi and Jeonghan

*I am so sorry it took me this long to answer OTL* 

Helllllo and welcome to the carat life! Luckily (or rather unluckily) I got it into Seventeen when I went on winter break so I had a whole month to get to know them with zero distractions. (Also my friend kinda got me into them but that’s a completely different story). So for me, the best way to get to know people is usually through watching shows and luckily, seventeen has seventeen project! if you haven’t watched it yet, go here for all the episodes with subs! I would also recommend watching weekly idol if you don’t have the time to watch the entirety of seventeen project.

Ok so I’m just gonna give a small run down of each of the members and how i recognized them.

S Coups aka Seungcheol is pretty easily recognizable because of his droopy puppy dog eyes  ©

But don’t be mistaken because he is also the thickest out of all them and holy fuck he is hot af, especially when he is sweaty :))))))   ©

(don’t worry that’s not all sweat :)))))) its mostly water)

Moving on to seventeen’s self proclaimed angel Jeonghan. If you don’t know, Jeonghan was born on 10.04.95 and in Korean, 1004 (cheonsa) means angel. Since you can already recognize him I’ll just leave this here and move on :D 

Next up we have Joshua aka Hong Jisoo aka dangerous church oppa. This kid is very easily recognizable because of dat aegyosal (the gigantic bags under his eyes) and kitten lips. He also has a very soft looking nose :3  ©

Isn’t he just the cutest???? and his side profile is fucking amazing like holy shit look at this perfection  ©

Also reasons why he is dangerous (at least one of my number reasons) is when he wears earrings. OMFG he used to wear earrings all the time predebut and those just get me but he has worn earrings (I’m not counting his cartilage which he wears all the time btw) twice so far since predebut and that was during DK’s graduation and their Andromeda/V app broadcast. I will now proceed to spam you with Joshua wearing earrings and killing us all because of it.

Lol so if you are still alive after seeing all that, next up is Jun, who is one of the two Chinese members. A lot of times, people say that Jun looks similar to Super Junior’s Heechul which I can kinda see but you can judge for yourself.

But besides that, I’d say Jun has sharper features. (tbh he kinda reminds me of a mouse…idk why) He is very handsome © :))))))) 

So when I first watched weekly idol the first (and only person) that really stuck to me was Hoshi because of his “what time is it?” “10:10!” introduction LOL

look at how cute he is!!! this was the moment that dragged me into seventeen OTL. but yeah Hoshi is really easy because of his eyes. if you see someone with 10:10 eyes, that’s Hoshi (btw if you didn’t know, 10:10 because his eyes are like the angle of 10:10 on an analog clock) but do not be fooled, when this kid performs, holy shit he is hot as hell

Next up we have Wonwoo who is a gorgeous being and was the second person who caught my eye within Seventeen. He kinda looks like a fox and his eyes are kinda small but at the same time not and he is just walking perfection.  ©

The worst part is, you think he looks cute here, but the minute he puts on eyeliner, say good bye to everything you hold dear because holy jesus christ he looks hella fine with smokey eyeliner.  ©

This was the day where Jeon Wonwoo made everyone and their grandmas swerve lanes

Hopefully you haven’t died yet because trust doesn’t get better :))))

After that hot mess comes Woozi, Seventeen’s self proclaimed producer. Isn’t he so smol and cute??

But do not let his looks deceive you because he can and will fuck you up if needed. He is really the devil’s incarnate tbh.  ©

Lol just kidding he’s still cute when he is angry ahahaha…or am I??? I guess you will find out once you get deeper into the fandom :DDDD

Next up we have DK or Dokyum who is a literal ball of sunshine. He lights up my world like nobody else!~ LOL but actually though have you seen this kid smile? There is no other smile that is this bright so it’ll be super easy for you to remember him.  ©

Do you see how bright he is? Let’s watch it in gif format now!!

But be warned, this kid can go from sunshine to sexyshine in .01 seconds. Just look at him here, you would never believe he is the bright sunshine shown above.  ©

omfg Seokmin plzzzzzz. but yeah i hope you can recognize him at least by smile if not anything :)))))

Next up we have Kim fucking Mingyu who’s looks and personalities do not match at fucking all. While he seems to look like a tall hot model…

He’s actually just a gigantic wolf puppy (please observe his teeth, they are kinda pointy like a wolf hehehe)

Tbqh, I actually had the hardest time trying to remember his face out of everyone. In fact I only started remembering him after I learned everyone else and his face was the only one I couldn’t if you have issues trying to remember, it’s okay! You aren’t the only one haha~ Here, have some slightly sweaty Mingyu, maybe it’ll help you remember more :))))))  ©

Okay moving on to china line part 2~ The8 or Minghao looks like an actual puppy because his eyes are so big and for the most part he is a quiet kid. But be warned, he knows martial arts and is savage af. I’m not sure what the best way to describe him is though…I guess he has large almond eyes and cute round nose.  ©

he is so precious omfg  ©

Okay final three! First of the maknae line is Seventeen’s resident diva from Jeju, Boo Seungkwan! He is very easy to remember because he has a rounder kind of face (but he’s not fat, it’s just the shape of his face) Just look at this cutie ©

he is so beautiful, just look at him! (those moles omfg)  ©

diva boo judging you~  ©

Since you already know what Vernon looks like, I’ll just let you know a few things you should know about him.. As you might already know, Vernon is a halfie. His mom is white and his dad is Korean. He was born in NYC, but he moved to Korea when he was 5 so he’s actually very Korean if that makes sense. Most people expect him to be more American because he does appear more Caucasian and are very surprised when they see how cultured in Korean he is. Well that’s cause he pretty much grew up in Korea so despite his appearance, he’s about as Korean as the rest of the Korean members who were born and raised there. So yeahhhh, I’ll just leave some very nice pictures of him for you to appreciate :D  ©  ©

Okay last but not least is our precious maknae Dino~~~ (Be warned I have lots of feels for him that I shouldn’t be having considering our age gap but I can’t help it because he is so fucking talented and not enough people appreciate him and I should probably stop ranting now)

Dino has a very strong facial structure and if you see him during mansae era, he’s the one with the terrible fringe hair cut OTL But now that his hair has grown back, he looks much better (cuter and hotter gg me)  ©

just look at how strong his jawline is (i’d say its kinda squarish)

even tho Hoshi is the performance unit leader, I would have to say that Dino is the best dancer because boi he can dance so well and his facials are amazing like holy shit. this video is what made me realize how talented he is and made him my bias wrecker OTL

omfg he just wrecks my list so hard i’m crying. here have some more dancing dino

just to make you feel better, have some cutie chan~

Okay well I really I hope this helps anon! (Again I’m sorry this took so long, finding the right pictures was a longer process than I had expected OTL) If you are looking to find videos to watch, I am going to subtly link my playlist which I have added a bunch of my favorite videos of them :D

Also, Seventeen does have an ongoing reality show, so go here to watch it subbed! (Only four episodes are out right now and only three are subbed)

Please let me know if you have any more questions and thanks again for asking!!

Alright, here cometh Joe’s video! Check out the analysis of Caspar’s video here!

Can we just talk about the fact that Joe was again sat on a pillow so he would be of the same height as Caspar

Oddly enough, Caspar was highly interested mainly in pictures that featured Joe naked

Why, we wonder


Does Caspar ever look at Joe without giving him heart eyes?

I think not

Caspar: Were you naked?


Caspar: Yours fit very well

Good boy, Caspar, always paying attention to the important details

Caspar: Joe, your phone is just filled with naked boys!


Caspar laughing at Joe’s joke <3333333

Where ur leg at, Joe?

And more importantly, where was it before?

Someone kill me plz



Caspar: What is happening here? You are in your favourite hat, the Chicago Bulls


Also, by this point Joe might as well be sitting on Caspar’s lap, he is basically in front of Caspar anyway

Am I the only one who notices that Caspar always struggles in videos with where to put his arm and tries really hard not to put it around it Joe?


I think Joe being a thatcher is Caspar’s favourite thing to talk about

Joe took this photo to show it to Caspar, I’m crying :’(

Also, how cute was it when Joe forgot to mention that they also made a video on Caspar’s channel and he was so sorry :’((((

I’ve had a huge documentary spree over the past couple of days and I thought I would do up a list of recommendations!

  • Blackfish - this is what made me suddenly interested in documentaries. I’ve seen this twice now and have found it crazily moving and incredibly well done. It’s about the killer whales kept at Sea World in the US, and focuses on this one whale Tilikum which has actually killed three people yet they still use him for shows. My heart broke watching this film, these whales are so intelligent and I learned a lot about them. 
  • This Film Is Not Yet Rated - This was about the movie rating system in the US. I did find it interesting but I feel as though I already knew the main points through gifs on tumblr. I didn’t really like the witch hunt for the people on the rating board though, I thought that was a little boring. But I learned there is clergymen on the board too, which is crazy! 
  • The Great Happiness Space - set in Japan, the documentary followed male hosts who worked in bars and their female clients. This one was really amazing, I was completely drawn in. The aim was to get the girls to pay huge amounts of money on drinks - a lot of them can easily drop $5,000 in one night. A lot of the customers themselves are sex workers - they need big salaries to afford to keep going to the clubs. A lot of them said they were in love with their hosts and the men totally strung them along; the point was to give them the ‘boyfriend’ experience. My favourite part was to see the relationships between the hosts and the clients - there was a lot of hatred and resentment bubbling beneath the surface on both ends.
  • The Imposter - This documentary was probably the most captivating one I have seen. It told the story of a man who posed as a 15 year old boy who had gone missing some 4 years prior and how he tricked the boy’s family into thinking their son had come home. It was filmed incredibly beautifully and even though there were little reenactments, they were never cheesy like a lot of crime shows tend to do. The man was interviewed throughout, as well as the family. It is crazily chilling and felt a lot like a suspense film.
  • The Invisible War - this was very heart-wrenching and hard to watch in some places. It focused on the sexual assault in the US military. Those crimes are often not dealt with at all and someone even described rape as an “occupational hazard” for women in the military, which is insane. It was painful to hear these people’s stories but I learned a lot from it.  
  • Jiro Dreams Of Sushi - about the most famous sushi chef in Japan, Jiro. He is 85 and looks like a little turtle. It focuses on his life and the craft of sushi. I love sushi so this was amazing to watch, it is very mesmerising and well filmed, so visually beautiful. 
  • Life in a Day - this was done via youtube, where people uploaded videos of their day spent on the 25th of July, 2010. All of their different footage is spliced together and it is really cool to see how people all over the world lead their lives. You got little in depth snippets throughout - a man telling his grandma he is gay made me cry. And they all answer the following questions: who do you love? what do you fear? what is in your pockets?

I hope you guys find something you like here! They are all fairly new, so I don’t think any would be hard to find. 

@angelziegler replied to your post: @angelziegler replied to your post: …

dude yes!!!! i didnt even know she was bi tbh i feel like such a fake fan lmao,,, but im so glad you made this post because its been too long since i last listened to her

she recently released a few new songs and a whole new album!! she wrote this really heart breaking song about the syrian crisis and it made me cry lol… it was rly hard to hear and watch the video. she just released a new one called torchlight, aND the new album thats out is soooo good. one of my faves is on it (nye) plus another song (shark fin blues) has a music video with two gay men and its so good… i love her

When you (gf/fan) tell them their music helped you get through PTSD and depression ...

Alrightooo, part zwei/two!~ Here it comes!


*When he reads the fanpost and your story he’s really touched and close to tears*

‘’I did that? I really helped her through this?’’ *Lost for words*


*You send SM a video message, which was directed towards Chanyeol. After seeing it he answers you with a song, especially being thankful that he’s such an inspiration for you.*


*Like Chanyeol he sends you a video message.*

‘’I’m lost for words. Knowing that my music can do such a thing is really amazing. I hope that I can keep on making you happy with my music. Fighting!’’


*Squishysoo is really happy after he read your fanmail and telling him your story.*

‘’To know that I did that…I will definately work harder.’’ *Smiles happily*


*As an interviwer tells him your story he can’t stop smiling, that you’re feeling better now and that his music can actually do this.*


*Lost for words and having an internal fight not to cry.* //Emtional overload

’I did that? I really did that? Don’t cry Yi Fan, crying is not your style.’’

*A tear rolls down his face.* ‘’Dang it.’’


*He’s going to cry for a long time, being really touched that he could help you get through this.*


*Reading your post on Twitter, brightens up his day and he replies to it, telling you that he’s thankful and how happy it is that you fought through this.*

‘’You’re a really awesome and strong person Y/N! Keep Fighting!’’


*The evil maknae is really touched after he sees your video message.*

’I would’ve never guessed that my music can bring people that much happiness. From now on I will work harder for sure.’


*Like Lay he is really touched and can’t contain his feelings, he’s so happy that after all these years he’s trained, his music reached other peoples’ hearts.*

‘’I’m so happy that you’re feeling better and knowing that my music did that is ju- jus- ..’’ *Cue ugly sobbing and heart wrenching sobs*


‘’I would’ve never thought that my music would help someone through such a tough situation. Y/N I will work really hard and do my best for as long as I can!’’


*Posts a video on his twitter dedicated to you.*

‘’Today I got a really special message and I just want to say thank you so much. That’s why I make music, to reach peoples’ hearts. I hope that everyone out there knows that there’s a chance so please keep fighting!’’

This one was happier~ The last one made me cry ;A; but then again it’s a touchy subject. I really hope you liked both parts ^_^! Thanks so much for your request ~

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it’s 11:11 and I’m wishing you’d come back to me. I know things got hard and we weren’t really use to that. I mean you can’t deny we had a pretty perfect run. I guess it was too hard for you and I wasn’t great enough to hold on to. I love you and I think about you. I haven’t cried since I wanted to kill myself so I guess I made progress. I’m crying now though but I want to be alive. I watch our videos and see that dopey smile on your face that lit my whole fucking world and I don’t understand how I managed to make it fade. I still love you and care for you. I normally think I don’t but it’s time like this where I realize I do. at least I hope it’s an illusion. I miss everything. I miss you always calling me annoying after I scared the shit out of you. I miss crying to each other on Sunday afternoons because we both didn’t want to part. I miss making out after football games. I miss holding your hand. I miss making fun of your stubby toes and chubby ass fingers that I grew to love. I miss you coming over and bonding with my family and I. I miss talking about how happy I was with you to my mother. I miss listening to 2000 RnB on pandora and singing our hearts out and you chest bumping with one hand on the wheel. I miss your happiness. you were so happy man. I made you so happy. we would talk while holding hands. talk while kissing. talk with you in my lap with my hands in the opening of your shorts without it even being sexual. we just constantly needed that closeness. we were so damn addicted to each other. I was so addicted to you and with the way you looked at me I knew it was just the same. you were so damn beautiful. I could literally pinpoint every mother fucking detail about you well actually I can. like your hair and how it only parted a certain way and if even a strand was misplaced you looked different. how your eyelashes always had to be perfectly parted or you’d go nuts and do your mascara all over again. how your hairs on your eyebrow would mess up so I’d have to grab them and a line them. how your top lip was ¼ the size of your bottom. how your cheekbones were always high especially when I was making you smile so wide and laugh so hard. how your nose had that whole Cindy Lou Whoo look to it and I fucking adored it. how your almond shaped eyes were so blue when you cried and I only noticed when you actually let me see. fuck man you were so damn beautiful and I’ll never get the image of you singing or laughing or smiling at me out of my god damn head. everytime you laughed you had this habit of shutting your eyes and putting your hand to your mouth but all I wanted to do was kiss you. I remember the first time I kissed you like it happened an hour ago. I remember exactly how I felt and how I didn’t want to stop because kissing you wasn’t like kissing any other girl. you weren’t just any other girl. I fell for you so fast but the best part was it was mutual our love was so mutual and so pure. I hate that it’s over, I do. it kills me I swear it does i’m just not allowing it to. but it’s times like this where I’m replaying all these moments and how we first met and how there wasn’t a single negative vibe I felt when I got into your car and you thought you looked like shit because you just got back from a water park. if I could redo this over and over and still go through the month of pain over and over, I would. my mom warned me she said it would hurt and it does but damn your love was worth it and I told you that in the beginning. that I thought love was scary but I knew having my heart broken by you was worth it. at least I hope it is.
—  j.n.

Screenshots from EMOTIONALLY DRAINED | That Dragon, Cancer. :’)

Guys I am seriously at a loss for words right now this game has completely emotionally drained me and has left me with so many thoughts. This game was incredibly powerful and beautiful though. I promise I’ll try to think of what to say about this game and video as best I can because I do want to talk about these thoughts I’m having right now. 

First off I want to say if anyone out there is going through any Cancer related struggles whether a family member, a friend, a pet or if you yourself is going through it my heart goes out for you all. I’ve never really gone through those kind of struggles myself even though some people in my family have died from Cancer or have Cancer right now but I’m not very close to them so I can’t even imagine struggling with it or trying to live with it in some shape or form. It’s a horrible disease that no one should have to go through. :/ 

This game has such a way of making you feel very emotionally heavy with sadness but then makes you smile in the next minute it literally makes your emotions go up and down throughout the whole thing and I kind of love that about this game. :) This game kind of put some things into a different perspective for me because right now I’m at a time in my life where I’m struggling with a lot of things with myself and the negative environment I’m in and there are some days where that negativity no matter how positive and strong I try my hardest to be everyday. That negativity can be extremely overwhelming for me after a while. :/ But my struggles I know come no where close to what these people in this game had to go through and what even more people in real life struggling with this disease have to go through everyday. Yet the mother in this game remained so hopeful and certain about things despite all her doubts and fears she had about the possibility of her son’s death. It strikes a huge nerve in me and it makes me feel like if that woman can do that I can do that too with my own struggles I’m going through right now. This game also made me get tears in my eyes at the part where you see all the cards throughout the hospital. Just because it was so many different cards everywhere that all had different stories mostly of people honoring someone who died from Cancer and then Jack got emotional because it reminded him of something in his own life and just all of that emotion at once hit me really hard and started making me tear up a little bit and honestly that says a lot for how powerful this game is. If anyone doesn’t know and this is going hard for me to type… I can’t really cry emotionally. Literally I only cry if I’m extremely overwhelmed and stressed out or if I’m in extreme physical pain. I feel a lot more emotion then I can express and I store a lot of my negative emotions inside instead of really expressing it which is incredibly unhealthy I know. I guess years ago I just kind of closed myself off from letting out my emotions and crying emotionally because of bullying when I was 12 and probably from my negative environment too. Honestly though I don’t really know why I can’t cry like a lot of others can and I don’t even know I should even count me getting teary eyed at that part as emotionally crying. :( Back in June I watched an older video from Jack and it was literally the first thing to get me to really emotionally cry in years and that part in this video really hit close to that too and it just made me remember that… That’s a very good thing for me because I want to learn to express emotion in a healthier way but it also makes me feel so many emotions at once because it hits me hard emotionally and makes me feel incredibly scared and vulnerable. But at the same time it means so much to much to me that I could never in my life describe how much it does. :’) Thanks Jack if you’re reading this you and this game almost made me fucking cry again! xD Or did make me cry again I have no idea if should count that as crying emotionally or not. 

But anyway all and all this game was such a incredibly powerful experience for me and I’m sure for it was for a lot other people as well. I’m very glad I got to experience this amazing game with Jack and just experience these kind of games with him in general because these games always stick with me by the end of them and they leave me with incredible memories. :)


Before the concert my Uncle ( the manger and song producer ) suprised me with a signed EXO album.

I first headed off to the concert and entered the arena. I sat in L1 which is the middle area.


At  6:30 I got a call to go backstage and get toured by 2AM’s manager in an hour. When it was time, we went to the building behind the stage. We met 2AM’ manager and he gave us the passes to be able to be backstage. (this concert was a concert that anyone other then staff or artist can not enter) 

The manager told us to wait in front of the room and he went in to get 2AM ready. While we were waiting we heard a group of boys doing vocal warmups at the staircase next to us, we started to freak out. After hearing alot of footsteps B1A4 was walking past us. Surprisingly I was calm and actually said “annyeonghaseyo” and they replied, smiling, and even pat my little brother’s head. Every member made eye contact with me. I have this on video too (but Im not going to release it because i promised that I wouldnt) I was trying really hard to be the fan that doesnt disturb them with screaming. I was successful. hehe.

So when 2AM got out we took a picture with them.


After taking the picture we couldnt get a signature because they had to go do hair&makeup.

Due to the concert starting and the backstage being hectic we were told by 2AM’s manager that we couldnt visit anyone else. I was pretty bummed out but I was grateful to even be able to be backstage.

So we went back to the arena and watched the performance. My sister texted my uncle and told him about what we did. And after hearing that we only took a picture with 2AM ( not even all the members ) he got mad and told us he would call back. In less than 4 minutes he called saying that Dalshabet’s manager will take us around this time. So during intermission we went back. The first stage after intermission ended was EXO’s. I started hearing “WOLF” play outside and we were walking to go into the backstage building. I was sad because this was finally my chance to see EXO perform in front of my eyes and not on a TV. Dalshabet’s manager saw my face expression and asked if I liked EXO. I said yes and he was like do you want to atleast watch their performance? I said yes so we went into the room with the door to go on stage and watch from the big tv. While we were watching, a few celebrities walked past us including Insooni & Ali.  

Insooni also asked if we were Korean and said that we were pretty. ( LIKE TF )

After EXO’s performance was done Dalshabet’s manager told us to come with him. He was leading us to an elevator and we were waiting for it to open. When it opened we heard some staff telling us to wait and asked if they can use it first. guess who it was.

it was EXO.

I was internally freaking out. They were less then an arms reach from me. AND THEY WERE BEYOND ATTRACTIVE. They were ALL attractive. Like pictures dont do any of them justice.

They were sweating alot ( Xiumin was sweating the most… like alot ) and they barely made it into the elevator because they were trying to catch their breaths.This was when I was starting to get more worried rather than excited. When they went past me we made eye contact and they made an effort to smile at me despite their breathing condition. Xiumin & Chen went in first and Luhan & Kris quickly followed after. Xiumin and Chen were on the right side of the elevator so I couldnt see them again but Kris and Luhan was right in front of me. Kris was bent over with his hands on his knees and luhan infront of him squatting on the floor both trying to catch their breathes. They looked extremely tired. They realized that I was still standing there and tried to smile at me, I smiled back. They kept trying to breathe and Luhan kept looking at me trying to smile, at a point I couldnt take it anymore so I started shaking my head motioning him to stop and properly catch his breathe. He gave me a small smile and nodded. But keep in mind that this was kinda short. The staff in the elevator kept telling the outside people to hurry up. I turned to look at who they were talking to and it was Tao. He couldnt even walk and had to be helped by the other staff. Im thinking that he hurt his waist/back. He passed by me and we made eye contact and they went down the elevator. I was on the verge of crying. If they werent still in front of me I wouldve bawled. Seeing half of the boys I care for and love in front of me hurt because they try to show us a good stage… it really made me realize how hard they work. Even at the moment, since I was a fan I wasnt supposed to see this side of them, they still tried to act as if nothing was wrong when in fact something was clearly wrong. Luhan tried his best to smile I couldnt stand that. I have a video of this but like I said I promised I wouldnt release any videos. 

But anywasy instead of taking the elevator we went the stair route ( which wasnt bad it was like 10 steps. lol ) ( where B1A4 was going down doing their vocal warmups ) and when we were down EXO was walking out of the elevator. We let them go first and they went inside their rooms. We walked to the end of the hallway and Dalshabet’s manager told us to wait and he went into the room. B1A4 walked out and we got a picture.

They were all really nice and ATTRACTIVE VERY ATTRACTIVE. After the picture we greeted them and was lead to Dalshabet’s room and we went in and also took pictures with them.

They were freakin gorgeous and actually really nice. ( they werent fake ) We talked to them for awhile. When I tried to tell them that they were really pretty they said that we were first ( pfft ) We said bye and went to the main room again. The manager asked me if I really wanted to see EXO but I said no. It broke my heart but I still said no. They look like they were dying in the elevator, and I couldnt bring myself to disturb them. So we went back into the hallway and the manager was stopped by another manger and they were talking while we waited on the side. ( I cant say what they were talking about but it was intresting. ) While were waiting/listening EXO’s manager passed by and I immediately took a picture. (lol) 

 and the MC of the concert ( Jay Park ) knocked on one of the doors and Chnagmin & Jinoon opened and they were talking.

 We then exited backstage and went back to watching the concert. 

The sky turned darker and thats when everyone turned on their lights. It was beautiful. ( besides EXO’s performance, because I missed it ) B1A4”s performance was probably the best. Especially with the colorful ocean. Thats when I actually scream/sang along. They put on a good stage. They were never really my favorite but it was probably the best stage. 

Personally, this was a good and bad experience. I got to see what happens backstage and its not as pretty as it seems. I just cant say everything that I saw or heard.What I said was either the nicest I can say it or I never said what happened. EXO was in a worse situation then I stated. To the point that I couldnt bring myself to disturb them for a picture or a sign. I realized that just because we see them smiling in shows doesnt mean theyre fine anywhere else. They try to put on a better show for us each time. All idols do, we need to give them more credit and respect.

After the concert ended I was waiting in the car because Hollywood Bowl’s parking sucks I saw that there were pictures of them already in LAX. 


It kills me to see pictures of them. Just imagining them going through worse, then what I saw. Dont get me wrong Im sure not all the smiles are fake but there are alot made from effort. It hurts even more to see Luhan now. When he kept trying to make an effort to smile at me, you can see the look in his eyes that he was sorry that he couldnt stand up and say hi or do anything for me. What makes me even more pissed is that after shows like these fans have the nerve to stalk them and hurt them. They work hard, give them their privacy. They shouldnt even need to ask for it.

I came back home to a signed MRMR album.

Today I had dinner with my Uncle ( thats the manager, song producer ) and Inkigayos PD. We went to karaoke after because we’re asian  and he said that he’ll do everything for me if I go to Korea. ( Im korean and Ive never been to Korea like tf ) SO YEA, IM EXCITED.

And tomorrow Im getting my hair done from one of my close family friends. ( shes like my aunt ) and she’s a popular hair & makeup person for Idols. ( she was there at the concert doing hair & makeup too ) 


I’m watching this in-depth analysis of The Last Of Us and I’m trying so hard to hold back my tears.
This man has pinpointed every little moment and every little detail in the game and the story that made me fall in love with it in the first place.
It’s really refreshing to see people appreciate the little things within a video game rather than beat it down for its glitches or mechanics or anything of that nature.
When he claimed that the last of us changed his life and that it ultimately made him want to have a daughter of his own, I lost it (I’m still crying a little bit if we’re going to be honest here) because I can relate to him so much. By the end of the game, I felt so close to Ellie. And as bittersweet as that ending was, I really grew to love their relationship - where you’re willing to cross moral boundaries and go against things you previously believed in for the sake of the one you love, even if it IS in a different world and (incredibly) selfish.
The Last Of Us has changed not only the way i see video games, but how I see the world as a whole. It’s the only game that’s challenged my morals, that’s made me rethink my actions and question the difference between right and wrong (if there really is one). I’ve spent hours and hours analyzing the scenes and the gameplay. I’ve become so familiar with the story and I’ve connected with these characters on an extremely personal level. At one point, they felt like my family to me. And that means more to me than anyone can really understand.
It’s been 7 months since The Last Of Us was released and another few months since I last played it through completely, and I still think about it. The story, the characters I met along the way, the harsh realities and choices I was faced with. It still lingers in the back of my mind. It’s one of those games that never really leaves you. And to be honest, I hope it never does.
This video and this man’s incredible story has managed to bring back all of the tears and all of the feelings that I experienced the first time I beat the game, and it’s extremely comforting knowing that I’m not the only one who felt such a strong connection to it.
Every single thing that he’s talked about in this video I have agreed with. His opinions, his thought process during certain scenes, his interpretation of the ending. It’s all spot-on, and that’s why this video means so much to me.
I suggest everyone who played The Last Of Us and loved it watches this. It’s absolutely incredible and a great reminder of just how much of an impact this game has had on people. :)

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i used to LOOOOVE him back in his amnesia days, and then i kinda got distracted by other stuff.
but just recently, i’ve found myself back to loving him! he’s definitely a meme fuck. actually, his new video with cry made me laugh really hard so.  heres a lil doodle!

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this is really important to me, please reblog this, get it to the top of the markiplier tag. thank you in advance.

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You are amazing, and your body is wonderful. You are so brave to post that video, it made me tear up. Please do put up a GoFundMe if insurance doesn't work out, not because you need the surgery, but because you deserve it, and there are going to be so many people who want to help you. Let's face it, you've worked so hard for your dream body, it's about time you get it.

Dude these messages

I’ve gotten literally 600 messages in the past couple of hours and I haven’t really been able to reply to any because I’m at work but I’m literally almost crying like every 10 minutes because of how kind these all are.