this video made me cry really hard


So @asktheboywholived did this hilarious video of James, Sirius, and Remus dancing to Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake and I had to do this quick doodle because it made me laugh so hard. Watch it here. And give them a follow while you’re at it.
Whenever I’m in a bad mood I know that it’ll get lifted over on TT’s page. Whether they have me crying from laughing so hard or crying from a heartbreaking thread.
I’m sure you’re probably tired of hearing this from me, TT but you really are a huge inspiration to me. 

anonymous asked:

Mark has officially joined the floor party

I’m watching the video I believe you are referring to right now.

I actually had to stop watching the video because I was laughing too loud at Mark being a dork on the floor with his dog.

Guess I’m updating as I watch now…

The hair. FIX THE HAIR.

I feel like we’re his therapist, and the floor is the couch. Chica is also present for moral support.

Mark, Nate, and Jack should start a band. Jack’s video of setting up the drum kit seriously almost made me cry with happiness, and I needed that happy video desperately.

The siren almost made me fall of my bed. And he never explains it!

Finally yes, Mark is the KING of floor party, and Chica is best floor party mascot. We’re all living on the floor in anticipation of what Mark has in store (that rhymed XD).


Anyway, hope you guys are pumped. I didn’t even really miss videos last week because I’ve been so busy, but I’m still glad Mark is back. I’m super excited for the surprise myself! Buckle up, cutie pies. If this is even bigger that ADWM, we’re all going to explode!




But I honestly worked so hard on that video,it took me all day to finish! They copied my description! They got views!! They got likes! They got more subs?! And they really hurt me!! This was not funny.Im really sad…this person is really rude they like to make money off of stuff they didn’t even make.they get nice comments,they get paid! They don’t even say a word about the artist.thats really depressing.



So for honestly no real reason I decided to rewatch Seán’s video of the game That Dragon, Cancer. Rewatching this video I really liked what he said here at this part at the end of the video and I thought it would be good to make a post out of. :)

Honestly this is one of my favorite videos he’s ever done and it means a lot to me personally not only because experiencing this game for the first time was such an incredible experience that made me feel so many emotions but also because it’s one of the two videos from Seán that’s ever made me emotionally cry. For anyone who doesn’t know, I have a huge issue with crying that really bothers me. Most of the time I can’t cry emotionally I have an extremely hard time with emotionally crying and expressing my negative emotions in general. So I pretty much can’t cry unless I’m extremely overwhelmed, stressed out or in extreme physical pain. But when I watched this video for the first time during the part with the cards in the hospital and then that part really getting to Seán because it was really sad part of that game in general but it was also triggering a personal memory for him too that he gets into in the video. All the emotion from just the weight of seeing all those cards and what they represent and seeing Seán start really tearing up over that as well just hit me extremely hard emotionally and it just made me cry and made me feel so many different emotions at once too. Experiences like this is one of the many reasons why I say that Seán has given me more then any person in my life has ever given me. Which I know is a really big thing to say about a person and could sound like me over exaggerating or me making Seán sound greater then how he actually is which I really hope it doesn’t. But this is still something that means a lot to me and is extremely personal with me that I want to share. These are the kind of experiences that stick with me and stay close to my heart. Which leads me to what I want to say in this post.

Seán if you see this post, I know this video is like over a year old but I still want to say this. Thank you for being here always for us too and for giving us so many memorable experiences with you. You’ve given all of us so many unforgettable memories through these games and through your videos that will always stick with us. 
May there be many more unforgettable memories and experiences through these gaming adventures in the future my friend! :D


anonymous asked:

Any good Shawn blogs?

i’m probably going to forget some, it’s not above me, but here are some that i’ve been appreciating recently:

@illumeshawn: honestly one of my favorite people on here; she’s an amazing writer and friend and we’re a very dangerous combination i’m not sure who allowed us to be friends

@ftsgerald: lu is absolutely incredible when it comes to imagines as well, plus she’s hilarious & full of life. she needs to be protected at all costs

@ihaveabadreputation: my main homie allison who i’m going to get married to because we’re meant for one another. she’s phenomenal and any time you can bother her about TiC, do it ;)

@whitechocolateperfection emk is G R E A T and seriously has when Shawn says “no obviously not” to that one girl at the airport as her text tone. and she always has me laughing and following her 11/10 people recommend

@starrynightshawn: my beautiful love m, she’s so kind and beautiful and just the greatest person to talk to

@shit-to-kinda-okay: george is great and made that stupid fucking honey video that i watch on a daily basis and cry about

@thugshawn: who is a great editor / gif maker and should be appreciated a lot more for her work bc making gifs & edits is hella hard

@wordsformendes: who is absolutely beautiful & kind and i love her writing as well

@babyshawwn: you probably follow her already. if you don’t, what is you doing. she’s amazing. #wifey

@ruinrose: beautiful human being, beautiful blog, loads of love to her !!

@ruinriff: the real mvp, copped me tnhmb when i was unable to get it & sent it to me, she’s really sweet and will do anything for you which is fantastic

@latteshawn: she’s great and funny and just a ball of sunshine that loves Shawn and so many other people. give her love.


@thesmutofthemendes: i keep mentioning m in these and she’s probably sick and tired of me but she’s sweet & will get you all up in your feels

@permanentguitar: has been killing me with her bullet lists recently like damn ma slow down. 

but anyway, i love these people and there’s probably more that i’m forgetting but everyone i follow you can see on my mobile layout or on my blogroll :) 

anonymous asked:

i hope i'm not being weird messaging you about this but like my father is dying. he has end stage ms and can't walk anymore and his brain will never be at the level it once was (he now has dementia) its been One Of Those Nights and i was on his facebook and watching old videos. they made me cry really hard but then i remembered it was from the time he emotionally abused my family. why am i missing times that weren't even that great? why am i still so bitter with this when my own father is dying

family ties by their very nature are extremely complicated and our emotions toward them aren’t always rational. the thing that makes family abuse so hard to wrestle with is that most of the time you do have a lot of good memories of them alongside memories of abuse. and you feel guilty either way when trying to understand how you feel about them. it’s ok to have complicated feelings about your dad, and even to care about him in some sense without denying the fact that he was abusive. most of all, don’t blame yourself. let yourself heal or experience emotion in whatever way makes sense to you. it’s not your fault for feeling how you do.

I have one more thing I’d like to say about this whole mess, and that is that all we are is a group of friends who all happen to be arohas and love astro

And to those of you judging us, and sending hate messages, please stop. It does nothing but hurt us. You don’t know what our friendship is like, how close we all are with each other. I’ve told them stuff I don’t tell even to my irl friends. We can talk about really serious stuff, we’re all comfortable talking about personal stuff, because we know the others will be there to comfort and offer advise (for me anyways) and most of the time we’re all joking around and having fun. They’ve made me laugh so hard I cry, and just now we were all cracking up over a really memey video riles made and sent to us.

That’s all I’m going to say on this matter. At the end of the day we’re all arohas !! We’re all one fandom, we all love astro, which is why I adore this fandom so much.

I’m crying so hard. Y'all BIGBANG are really so close. YB telling Seunghyun every day on how we love, support and miss him. I hope he feels better when he hears that. I also hope he feels more confident when he decides to use his personal account again. But it really made me happy when he liked that dorky video of him on a TOP fan acc! ;; I love my boys.

Long Distance

Request: Revenge Frank?

My pulse quickened as the upbeat Skype notification rang out. I looked over at the mirror, double checking to make sure my hair and make-up remained intact. Taking a deep breath, I clicked accept. The screen faded from the blank hub page to the call, letting me see my boyfriend for the first time in a month. I felt my heart burst when I saw him, it was really him. He looked tired, but still him. “Frankie” I chocked, my hand instinctively went to the screen, the closest I could get to touching his face.

“Hi baby” He smiled brightly, giving me a small wave. “How are you?”

“I’m good, school’s going well. How’s the tour?” My Chemical Romance left for tour a month ago and it hasn’t been easy. I was so used to seeing Frank everyday and going to every single one of his shows that I don’t know what to do without him. I wanted to tell him how much I miss him, that I need him here with me, that he should come home but, I couldn’t do that to him. This band meant so much to Frank, so did performing. It was his dream and I had to be supportive. 

“It’s pretty awesome, the crowds are fucking wild here. Like last night, this guy brought a fucking road flare and set it off in the middle of the concert” 

“Are you kidding me?” I laughed, imagining all of the boys reactions to that.

“I wish I was. Gerard’s face was priceless. Security ended up kicking him out”

“Awww you should have let him stay, he could’ve been saving better stuff for the finale”

“One of the stage crew told me he had some smoke balls in his backpack. It was a little scary but, a nice compliment at the same time. Out of all the bands performing he decided to use his only flare on us”

“Do you guys get a lot of bras thrown at you?”

“N-No” Frank stammered nervously, toying with his lip ring.

“Come on Frank, i’m sure you get tons of groupies” I teased, all bands had crazy fan girls but, I knew Frank would never do anything.

“Okay, we get bras a lot but, there actually isn’t groupies”


“No lies, there really isn’t. I guess were not hot enough” He laughed, his face bright red. “Maybe we should all go shirtless”

“Good luck getting Mikey to go shirtless”

“Trust me, I can convi-” He jumped at a loud knock on the door. “Uh, hold on” He moved out of frame. He returned with his head down and gave me an apologetic look.

“What’s wrong?”

“It’s time” He said quietly. My heart sank and my eyes already began to blur. It was time for them to get back on the bus, where there would be no wifi to video chat. “I’m really sorry. I’ll call you as soon as we gt to Detroit” I made small choking noise and looked up at him. He looked worse than I did. Tears flowing freely down his face and eyes bloodshot red.

“O-Okay” I sniveled, forcing a smile.

“Baby please don’t cry. Fuck I…I miss you so much. This is so hard without you here”

“I miss you too Frank, I don’t know what to do without you” The words slipped from my mouth before I could stop them, I didn’t want him to second guess this tour.

“I’ll be home soon y/n, I promise, I promise”

“I love you Frankie”

“I love you too, I’ll call you tomorrow. Okay?”

“Okay. Bye” I smiled and waved.

“Bye love” Just as quick as he appeared, he was gone. The screen was black for a second, then jumped back to the Skype main menu. I let out a broken sob, covering my face with shaking hands. It was great to see Frank but, I didn’t think it would be that hard to say goodbye. My phone dinged, signalling I had a new text message. My heart skipped a beat when I looked at the 8 bit letters:

From: Frankie <3

Only two more months baby, I love you <3

I’ve had a huge documentary spree over the past couple of days and I thought I would do up a list of recommendations!

  • Blackfish - this is what made me suddenly interested in documentaries. I’ve seen this twice now and have found it crazily moving and incredibly well done. It’s about the killer whales kept at Sea World in the US, and focuses on this one whale Tilikum which has actually killed three people yet they still use him for shows. My heart broke watching this film, these whales are so intelligent and I learned a lot about them. 
  • This Film Is Not Yet Rated - This was about the movie rating system in the US. I did find it interesting but I feel as though I already knew the main points through gifs on tumblr. I didn’t really like the witch hunt for the people on the rating board though, I thought that was a little boring. But I learned there is clergymen on the board too, which is crazy! 
  • The Great Happiness Space - set in Japan, the documentary followed male hosts who worked in bars and their female clients. This one was really amazing, I was completely drawn in. The aim was to get the girls to pay huge amounts of money on drinks - a lot of them can easily drop $5,000 in one night. A lot of the customers themselves are sex workers - they need big salaries to afford to keep going to the clubs. A lot of them said they were in love with their hosts and the men totally strung them along; the point was to give them the ‘boyfriend’ experience. My favourite part was to see the relationships between the hosts and the clients - there was a lot of hatred and resentment bubbling beneath the surface on both ends.
  • The Imposter - This documentary was probably the most captivating one I have seen. It told the story of a man who posed as a 15 year old boy who had gone missing some 4 years prior and how he tricked the boy’s family into thinking their son had come home. It was filmed incredibly beautifully and even though there were little reenactments, they were never cheesy like a lot of crime shows tend to do. The man was interviewed throughout, as well as the family. It is crazily chilling and felt a lot like a suspense film.
  • The Invisible War - this was very heart-wrenching and hard to watch in some places. It focused on the sexual assault in the US military. Those crimes are often not dealt with at all and someone even described rape as an “occupational hazard” for women in the military, which is insane. It was painful to hear these people’s stories but I learned a lot from it.  
  • Jiro Dreams Of Sushi - about the most famous sushi chef in Japan, Jiro. He is 85 and looks like a little turtle. It focuses on his life and the craft of sushi. I love sushi so this was amazing to watch, it is very mesmerising and well filmed, so visually beautiful. 
  • Life in a Day - this was done via youtube, where people uploaded videos of their day spent on the 25th of July, 2010. All of their different footage is spliced together and it is really cool to see how people all over the world lead their lives. You got little in depth snippets throughout - a man telling his grandma he is gay made me cry. And they all answer the following questions: who do you love? what do you fear? what is in your pockets?

I hope you guys find something you like here! They are all fairly new, so I don’t think any would be hard to find. 


This is really, really long but it would mean the world to me if you took some time to watch this video! Or maybe even read the post. Thank you so much guys.

Hey guys!  I’m Lucy. I’m fifteen from Canberra, Australia. Cheesecake is my life even though my body doesn’t agree with it. I love Taylor Swift, sunsets, nature walks, the smell of wood, fresh stationery and binge watching things on the internet.

Most of all , I freaking love music. I love performing, I love songwriting. So much that I’ve decided to pursue a career in it. People call me crazy and naive but hey, it’s what my heart and mind are set on and nothing can stop me trying. 

In September of last year, I got to play at the Canberra TEDx Conference at the Canberra Theatre. IT WAS INSANE AND ONE OF THE HIGHLIGHTS OF MY LIFE. You can listen to it in the video above! It was an amazing day, and all the speakers and other performers inspired me so much. I got to play 3 songs I’d written that I was really proud of and talk about them in front of a sold out crowd of 600 (ok, it’s no 76,000 but it was THE BEST FEELING). Afterwards, people told me that the songs made them feel something. They said they laughed, cried and felt inspired. That is the goal for me, I want my songs to make people feel something. I was so honoured that people took to the songs I’d written and the whole day was such an incredible blur.

Walking off the stage after I sung was one of those ‘holy crap, that was a thing I just did’ moment. I got real deep inside my mind and realised it would’ve never happened without Taylor.

Let me explain. 

In late 2008, I heard Love Story from my friend’s MP3 player. My mind was blown. I then went onto discover the entire Fearless album. My mind was blown even more. This girl called Taylor Swift was writing and making music as well as performing for a living. Seeing a young girl do that made me realise I could maybe do that too. The reason I started this whole music thing was because of how inspired I was by Taylor. The she holds herself on stage, in person, in interviews and as a songwriter is so inspiring. Taylor is true to herself, her art and just writes how she’s feeling and writes the truth. That’s the greatest thing to me and something I hope to emulate one day.

I started out by going busking in the city as a 9 year old who could play 4 chords on the guitar. Now, I’ve done so many things I never thought I’d do and. I played at a TEDx Conference. I released an EP. I sold out my EP launch. I became an Australian National Busking Champion. I I grew as a person. I finally found a group of awesome people to hang out with. And most of all, I found my passion. I went from someone who wouldn’t talk and was too scared to go into shops to buy things to someone who was confident in themselves and proud of who they are. 

For these past 8 years, Taylor has been by my side. Her hardwork, growth, humour, talent, honesty, intelligence, selflessness, confidence and most importantly kindness inspires me every single day. Taylor’s journey has inspired me to work hard at my dreams and to never ever give up. And I’ve seen so many other girls my age doing music and slaying life after being inspired by her. Taylor’s lyrics and beautiful songs have made me laugh, cry, lie down on the floor to reflect on life and dance. I’m so incredibly proud that Taylor Swift is my role model. 

So yeah, the video on this post is my TEDx performance. I’m really proud of it! The first song is about my dreams, the second about my life and the third about the world. I’m so grateful for the opportunity and I can’t believe my life is turning out in such an awesome way. 

Thank you for taking time out of your day to read all of this! It really means a lot to me. I’m like 110% there for meeting new people on tumblr so feel free to send me a message to talk about life. I love life chats.

Love from,


PS. Taylor, if by some magical chance you’re reading this: thank you for everything. Thank you for giving me the chance to feel that rush you get when you finish a song you’re proud of and when you’re playing your songs in front of people. Thank you for being so wonderful to all of us and for standing strong when they build you up to knock you down. I love you so much.


I got to not only see @markiplier @lordminion and @crankgameplays tonight (I wish I got more pictures and videos but I was told no pictures or videos during the show so I didnt get anything really) but I had this very tiny interaction on Twitter. It might not be much but it still makes me happy. Tbh I was gonna jokingly ask why wade was in Pittsburgh tonight but he did answer my question at the end and it was a pretty satisfying answer for as serious as it was. Ethan almost made me cry at the end as well bc shit got real and as much as I hear them talk about those things on video, its so much more real to hear it straight from their mouths in person. It hit pretty hard and made me think about the bad things ive gone through this year and yet survived it all. So all in all tonight was amazing and I’m ready for bed. 💜💜💜💜 thanks for everything guys, I owe you a lot.

Alright, here cometh Joe’s video! Check out the analysis of Caspar’s video here!

Can we just talk about the fact that Joe was again sat on a pillow so he would be of the same height as Caspar

Oddly enough, Caspar was highly interested mainly in pictures that featured Joe naked

Why, we wonder


Does Caspar ever look at Joe without giving him heart eyes?

I think not

Caspar: Were you naked?


Caspar: Yours fit very well

Good boy, Caspar, always paying attention to the important details

Caspar: Joe, your phone is just filled with naked boys!


Caspar laughing at Joe’s joke <3333333

Where ur leg at, Joe?

And more importantly, where was it before?

Someone kill me plz



Caspar: What is happening here? You are in your favourite hat, the Chicago Bulls


Also, by this point Joe might as well be sitting on Caspar’s lap, he is basically in front of Caspar anyway

Am I the only one who notices that Caspar always struggles in videos with where to put his arm and tries really hard not to put it around it Joe?


I think Joe being a thatcher is Caspar’s favourite thing to talk about

Joe took this photo to show it to Caspar, I’m crying :’(

Also, how cute was it when Joe forgot to mention that they also made a video on Caspar’s channel and he was so sorry :’((((

anonymous asked:

Hey I was wondering how it took you to learn all of Seventeen names. Because personally I'm trying to get into them and finding it very difficult except for Vernon, Woozi and Jeonghan

*I am so sorry it took me this long to answer OTL* 

Helllllo and welcome to the carat life! Luckily (or rather unluckily) I got it into Seventeen when I went on winter break so I had a whole month to get to know them with zero distractions. (Also my friend kinda got me into them but that’s a completely different story). So for me, the best way to get to know people is usually through watching shows and luckily, seventeen has seventeen project! if you haven’t watched it yet, go here for all the episodes with subs! I would also recommend watching weekly idol if you don’t have the time to watch the entirety of seventeen project.

Ok so I’m just gonna give a small run down of each of the members and how i recognized them.

S Coups aka Seungcheol is pretty easily recognizable because of his droopy puppy dog eyes  ©

But don’t be mistaken because he is also the thickest out of all them and holy fuck he is hot af, especially when he is sweaty :))))))   ©

(don’t worry that’s not all sweat :)))))) its mostly water)

Moving on to seventeen’s self proclaimed angel Jeonghan. If you don’t know, Jeonghan was born on 10.04.95 and in Korean, 1004 (cheonsa) means angel. Since you can already recognize him I’ll just leave this here and move on :D 

Next up we have Joshua aka Hong Jisoo aka dangerous church oppa. This kid is very easily recognizable because of dat aegyosal (the gigantic bags under his eyes) and kitten lips. He also has a very soft looking nose :3  ©

Isn’t he just the cutest???? and his side profile is fucking amazing like holy shit look at this perfection  ©

Also reasons why he is dangerous (at least one of my number reasons) is when he wears earrings. OMFG he used to wear earrings all the time predebut and those just get me but he has worn earrings (I’m not counting his cartilage which he wears all the time btw) twice so far since predebut and that was during DK’s graduation and their Andromeda/V app broadcast. I will now proceed to spam you with Joshua wearing earrings and killing us all because of it.

Lol so if you are still alive after seeing all that, next up is Jun, who is one of the two Chinese members. A lot of times, people say that Jun looks similar to Super Junior’s Heechul which I can kinda see but you can judge for yourself.

But besides that, I’d say Jun has sharper features. (tbh he kinda reminds me of a mouse…idk why) He is very handsome © :))))))) 

So when I first watched weekly idol the first (and only person) that really stuck to me was Hoshi because of his “what time is it?” “10:10!” introduction LOL

look at how cute he is!!! this was the moment that dragged me into seventeen OTL. but yeah Hoshi is really easy because of his eyes. if you see someone with 10:10 eyes, that’s Hoshi (btw if you didn’t know, 10:10 because his eyes are like the angle of 10:10 on an analog clock) but do not be fooled, when this kid performs, holy shit he is hot as hell

Next up we have Wonwoo who is a gorgeous being and was the second person who caught my eye within Seventeen. He kinda looks like a fox and his eyes are kinda small but at the same time not and he is just walking perfection.  ©

The worst part is, you think he looks cute here, but the minute he puts on eyeliner, say good bye to everything you hold dear because holy jesus christ he looks hella fine with smokey eyeliner.  ©

This was the day where Jeon Wonwoo made everyone and their grandmas swerve lanes

Hopefully you haven’t died yet because trust doesn’t get better :))))

After that hot mess comes Woozi, Seventeen’s self proclaimed producer. Isn’t he so smol and cute??

But do not let his looks deceive you because he can and will fuck you up if needed. He is really the devil’s incarnate tbh.  ©

Lol just kidding he’s still cute when he is angry ahahaha…or am I??? I guess you will find out once you get deeper into the fandom :DDDD

Next up we have DK or Dokyum who is a literal ball of sunshine. He lights up my world like nobody else!~ LOL but actually though have you seen this kid smile? There is no other smile that is this bright so it’ll be super easy for you to remember him.  ©

Do you see how bright he is? Let’s watch it in gif format now!!

But be warned, this kid can go from sunshine to sexyshine in .01 seconds. Just look at him here, you would never believe he is the bright sunshine shown above.  ©

omfg Seokmin plzzzzzz. but yeah i hope you can recognize him at least by smile if not anything :)))))

Next up we have Kim fucking Mingyu who’s looks and personalities do not match at fucking all. While he seems to look like a tall hot model…

He’s actually just a gigantic wolf puppy (please observe his teeth, they are kinda pointy like a wolf hehehe)

Tbqh, I actually had the hardest time trying to remember his face out of everyone. In fact I only started remembering him after I learned everyone else and his face was the only one I couldn’t if you have issues trying to remember, it’s okay! You aren’t the only one haha~ Here, have some slightly sweaty Mingyu, maybe it’ll help you remember more :))))))  ©

Okay moving on to china line part 2~ The8 or Minghao looks like an actual puppy because his eyes are so big and for the most part he is a quiet kid. But be warned, he knows martial arts and is savage af. I’m not sure what the best way to describe him is though…I guess he has large almond eyes and cute round nose.  ©

he is so precious omfg  ©

Okay final three! First of the maknae line is Seventeen’s resident diva from Jeju, Boo Seungkwan! He is very easy to remember because he has a rounder kind of face (but he’s not fat, it’s just the shape of his face) Just look at this cutie ©

he is so beautiful, just look at him! (those moles omfg)  ©

diva boo judging you~  ©

Since you already know what Vernon looks like, I’ll just let you know a few things you should know about him.. As you might already know, Vernon is a halfie. His mom is white and his dad is Korean. He was born in NYC, but he moved to Korea when he was 5 so he’s actually very Korean if that makes sense. Most people expect him to be more American because he does appear more Caucasian and are very surprised when they see how cultured in Korean he is. Well that’s cause he pretty much grew up in Korea so despite his appearance, he’s about as Korean as the rest of the Korean members who were born and raised there. So yeahhhh, I’ll just leave some very nice pictures of him for you to appreciate :D  ©  ©

Okay last but not least is our precious maknae Dino~~~ (Be warned I have lots of feels for him that I shouldn’t be having considering our age gap but I can’t help it because he is so fucking talented and not enough people appreciate him and I should probably stop ranting now)

Dino has a very strong facial structure and if you see him during mansae era, he’s the one with the terrible fringe hair cut OTL But now that his hair has grown back, he looks much better (cuter and hotter gg me)  ©

just look at how strong his jawline is (i’d say its kinda squarish)

even tho Hoshi is the performance unit leader, I would have to say that Dino is the best dancer because boi he can dance so well and his facials are amazing like holy shit. this video is what made me realize how talented he is and made him my bias wrecker OTL

omfg he just wrecks my list so hard i’m crying. here have some more dancing dino

just to make you feel better, have some cutie chan~

Okay well I really I hope this helps anon! (Again I’m sorry this took so long, finding the right pictures was a longer process than I had expected OTL) If you are looking to find videos to watch, I am going to subtly link my playlist which I have added a bunch of my favorite videos of them :D

Also, Seventeen does have an ongoing reality show, so go here to watch it subbed! (Only four episodes are out right now and only three are subbed)

Please let me know if you have any more questions and thanks again for asking!!

it’s 11:11 and I’m wishing you’d come back to me. I know things got hard and we weren’t really use to that. I mean you can’t deny we had a pretty perfect run. I guess it was too hard for you and I wasn’t great enough to hold on to. I love you and I think about you. I haven’t cried since I wanted to kill myself so I guess I made progress. I’m crying now though but I want to be alive. I watch our videos and see that dopey smile on your face that lit my whole fucking world and I don’t understand how I managed to make it fade. I still love you and care for you. I normally think I don’t but it’s time like this where I realize I do. at least I hope it’s an illusion. I miss everything. I miss you always calling me annoying after I scared the shit out of you. I miss crying to each other on Sunday afternoons because we both didn’t want to part. I miss making out after football games. I miss holding your hand. I miss making fun of your stubby toes and chubby ass fingers that I grew to love. I miss you coming over and bonding with my family and I. I miss talking about how happy I was with you to my mother. I miss listening to 2000 RnB on pandora and singing our hearts out and you chest bumping with one hand on the wheel. I miss your happiness. you were so happy man. I made you so happy. we would talk while holding hands. talk while kissing. talk with you in my lap with my hands in the opening of your shorts without it even being sexual. we just constantly needed that closeness. we were so damn addicted to each other. I was so addicted to you and with the way you looked at me I knew it was just the same. you were so damn beautiful. I could literally pinpoint every mother fucking detail about you well actually I can. like your hair and how it only parted a certain way and if even a strand was misplaced you looked different. how your eyelashes always had to be perfectly parted or you’d go nuts and do your mascara all over again. how your hairs on your eyebrow would mess up so I’d have to grab them and a line them. how your top lip was ¼ the size of your bottom. how your cheekbones were always high especially when I was making you smile so wide and laugh so hard. how your nose had that whole Cindy Lou Whoo look to it and I fucking adored it. how your almond shaped eyes were so blue when you cried and I only noticed when you actually let me see. fuck man you were so damn beautiful and I’ll never get the image of you singing or laughing or smiling at me out of my god damn head. everytime you laughed you had this habit of shutting your eyes and putting your hand to your mouth but all I wanted to do was kiss you. I remember the first time I kissed you like it happened an hour ago. I remember exactly how I felt and how I didn’t want to stop because kissing you wasn’t like kissing any other girl. you weren’t just any other girl. I fell for you so fast but the best part was it was mutual our love was so mutual and so pure. I hate that it’s over, I do. it kills me I swear it does i’m just not allowing it to. but it’s times like this where I’m replaying all these moments and how we first met and how there wasn’t a single negative vibe I felt when I got into your car and you thought you looked like shit because you just got back from a water park. if I could redo this over and over and still go through the month of pain over and over, I would. my mom warned me she said it would hurt and it does but damn your love was worth it and I told you that in the beginning. that I thought love was scary but I knew having my heart broken by you was worth it. at least I hope it is.
—  j.n.
When you (gf/fan) tell them their music helped you get through PTSD and depression ...

Alrightooo, part zwei/two!~ Here it comes!


*When he reads the fanpost and your story he’s really touched and close to tears*

‘’I did that? I really helped her through this?’’ *Lost for words*


*You send SM a video message, which was directed towards Chanyeol. After seeing it he answers you with a song, especially being thankful that he’s such an inspiration for you.*


*Like Chanyeol he sends you a video message.*

‘’I’m lost for words. Knowing that my music can do such a thing is really amazing. I hope that I can keep on making you happy with my music. Fighting!’’


*Squishysoo is really happy after he read your fanmail and telling him your story.*

‘’To know that I did that…I will definately work harder.’’ *Smiles happily*


*As an interviwer tells him your story he can’t stop smiling, that you’re feeling better now and that his music can actually do this.*


*Lost for words and having an internal fight not to cry.* //Emtional overload

’I did that? I really did that? Don’t cry Yi Fan, crying is not your style.’’

*A tear rolls down his face.* ‘’Dang it.’’


*He’s going to cry for a long time, being really touched that he could help you get through this.*


*Reading your post on Twitter, brightens up his day and he replies to it, telling you that he’s thankful and how happy it is that you fought through this.*

‘’You’re a really awesome and strong person Y/N! Keep Fighting!’’


*The evil maknae is really touched after he sees your video message.*

’I would’ve never guessed that my music can bring people that much happiness. From now on I will work harder for sure.’


*Like Lay he is really touched and can’t contain his feelings, he’s so happy that after all these years he’s trained, his music reached other peoples’ hearts.*

‘’I’m so happy that you’re feeling better and knowing that my music did that is ju- jus- ..’’ *Cue ugly sobbing and heart wrenching sobs*


‘’I would’ve never thought that my music would help someone through such a tough situation. Y/N I will work really hard and do my best for as long as I can!’’


*Posts a video on his twitter dedicated to you.*

‘’Today I got a really special message and I just want to say thank you so much. That’s why I make music, to reach peoples’ hearts. I hope that everyone out there knows that there’s a chance so please keep fighting!’’

This one was happier~ The last one made me cry ;A; but then again it’s a touchy subject. I really hope you liked both parts ^_^! Thanks so much for your request ~

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Screenshots from EMOTIONALLY DRAINED | That Dragon, Cancer. :’)

Guys I am seriously at a loss for words right now this game has completely emotionally drained me and has left me with so many thoughts. This game was incredibly powerful and beautiful though. I promise I’ll try to think of what to say about this game and video as best I can because I do want to talk about these thoughts I’m having right now. 

First off I want to say if anyone out there is going through any Cancer related struggles whether a family member, a friend, a pet or if you yourself is going through it my heart goes out for you all. I’ve never really gone through those kind of struggles myself even though some people in my family have died from Cancer or have Cancer right now but I’m not very close to them so I can’t even imagine struggling with it or trying to live with it in some shape or form. It’s a horrible disease that no one should have to go through. :/ 

This game has such a way of making you feel very emotionally heavy with sadness but then makes you smile in the next minute it literally makes your emotions go up and down throughout the whole thing and I kind of love that about this game. :) This game kind of put some things into a different perspective for me because right now I’m at a time in my life where I’m struggling with a lot of things with myself and the negative environment I’m in and there are some days where that negativity no matter how positive and strong I try my hardest to be everyday. That negativity can be extremely overwhelming for me after a while. :/ But my struggles I know come no where close to what these people in this game had to go through and what even more people in real life struggling with this disease have to go through everyday. Yet the mother in this game remained so hopeful and certain about things despite all her doubts and fears she had about the possibility of her son’s death. It strikes a huge nerve in me and it makes me feel like if that woman can do that I can do that too with my own struggles I’m going through right now. This game also made me get tears in my eyes at the part where you see all the cards throughout the hospital. Just because it was so many different cards everywhere that all had different stories mostly of people honoring someone who died from Cancer and then Jack got emotional because it reminded him of something in his own life and just all of that emotion at once hit me really hard and started making me tear up a little bit and honestly that says a lot for how powerful this game is. If anyone doesn’t know and this is going hard for me to type… I can’t really cry emotionally. Literally I only cry if I’m extremely overwhelmed and stressed out or if I’m in extreme physical pain. I feel a lot more emotion then I can express and I store a lot of my negative emotions inside instead of really expressing it which is incredibly unhealthy I know. I guess years ago I just kind of closed myself off from letting out my emotions and crying emotionally because of bullying when I was 12 and probably from my negative environment too. Honestly though I don’t really know why I can’t cry like a lot of others can and I don’t even know I should even count me getting teary eyed at that part as emotionally crying. :( Back in June I watched an older video from Jack and it was literally the first thing to get me to really emotionally cry in years and that part in this video really hit close to that too and it just made me remember that… That’s a very good thing for me because I want to learn to express emotion in a healthier way but it also makes me feel so many emotions at once because it hits me hard emotionally and makes me feel incredibly scared and vulnerable. But at the same time it means so much to much to me that I could never in my life describe how much it does. :’) Thanks Jack if you’re reading this you and this game almost made me fucking cry again! xD Or did make me cry again I have no idea if should count that as crying emotionally or not. 

But anyway all and all this game was such a incredibly powerful experience for me and I’m sure for it was for a lot other people as well. I’m very glad I got to experience this amazing game with Jack and just experience these kind of games with him in general because these games always stick with me by the end of them and they leave me with incredible memories. :)