I just want to say your Hanzo is the most beautiful of all, I swear.
hey!!!! thank you so much this means a whole lot to me?? im still not sure about how i draw him sometimes so this always is so so nice to hear :’)) please have!! this hanzo i drew to get back into art i hope you like it!!!
I spent Friday attending
professional panels for the comics industry, which probably deserves a
post of its own, but I don’t think anyone is interested in me talking
shop. But Saturday was devoted to Agents of SHIELD stuff with
Iain and Liz. I had an amazing time and so many awesome things happened. Truly it was the best con experience I’ve ever had and, as @bigfunnywords (HEY Tumblr finally let me tag you!) said, I lived my best life. I’ll try to do the tl;dr version but this will probably get long.
Putting the rest behind a cut for your scrolling convenience.
let’s talk about how while, out of universe, the writers constantly try to push for the status quo of ‘harry kim is the poor dumb naïve little ensign’ up to the final season of voyager, you can definitely see a subtle interpretation of the in-universe condescension of the voyager crew on harry kim across the seasons and it’s clearest in the episodes harry is in command, and in timeless
future’s end has harry kim in command and it’s a fine debut for harry’s command career. he’s pretty cautious and a little hands-on, but hey, it’s his first time, and his caution is all for good in the end. the one time you kind of see a hole in his technique is when harry debates on whether they should go down into lower orbit to beam their crewmembers out. at first he’s very much ‘what would janeway do’, and then b’elanna points out he’s the acting captain. and immediately harry’s resolve goes away and he decides to go into the atmosphere. i mean, yeah, he definitely wanted to get his people out but also: it’s pretty clear some of that decision was because his command was questioned
fast forward to warhead and he’s insufferable in command. those little quirks in future’s end get ugly. he wants constant updates every other twenty minutes. he wakes up chakotay in the middle of the night for his opinion on what to do. and when janeway once again reminds him he’s acting captain, he caves to the doctor’s pleading of beaming the fucking bomb aboard because it’s meant to be his choice and if clearly what he wanted before was wrong and everyone is questioning his command, then maybe he should change what he’s doing.
it’s like that thing where you ask a hypothetical question to cement your already-taken choice and then someone goes, “well, what do you think?” as if you hadn’t ALREADY THOUGHT ABOUT IT. and then you panic.
what happened between future’s end and warhead? simple. harry’s been gaining experience and growing up and done amazing things and every relationship he has with the main cast (with the thankful exception of chakotay and every so often neelix) involves him being patronized to, by season 5.
janeway is still protective of him to the point of being unreasonable in “the disease”. tom sometimes puts himself on his level but often he’s too comfortable putting himself a slot or two above harry, laughing about harry’s romantic woes like he’s a silly, young kid, very clearly boxing him into being the buster keaton, the kid sidekick. and b’elanna has a cute older sister relationship, which really isn’t that bad, except…
we have tuvok, the doctor, and seven treating harry like crap, and the reasons why they do so are based on the same attitudes janeway, tom, and b’elanna base their relationship with him around: that he’s the kid. i mean, yeah, tuvok doesn’t hesitate to point out if anyone is illogical, but it clearly feeds into harry’s issues when compounded with the doctor and seven’s attitudes.
oh, man, the doctor. the doctor oozes the “poor, dumb harry” condescending attitude. the emergency command hologram wouldn’t dare get into a petty argument with chakotay or tuvok on whether he, a hologram with a bunch of past command decisions in his database as opposed to hard-won experience, outranks an officer of command who’s been on this job for years. but he’s sure fine with doing that with harry, who’s an ensign in-name-only and pretty much deserves the lieutenant rank even more than tom paris. (and harry caves into arguing because the doctor’s targeting his insecurities).
seven is an extra special case of “fuck you” because seven does everything harry does but gets more plot relevance because of her magical dea ex machina borg implants. and even worse, gets the respect harry doesn’t because, well, in a meta sense, she’s brannon braga’s favorite, but really. harry and seven are on every project together but these merits are only seen as such on seven. worse is how seven putting anyone else down is seen as kind of dickish, but seven-being-seven, while seven putting down harry is seen as hilarious, and everyone else on board sees that as hilarious. like, imagine being laughed at by everyone else every time someone who’s literally your equal but is seen as better than you puts you down.
neelix is an interesting case because neelix treats harry pretty much in the same way he treats the rest of the crew with middling level of command, which is equal friendship. but i just thinking about that one time in nightingale where he just underlines harry’s insecurities even more just because he couldn’t pick a meal. it’s sweet, his intention, but…still patronizing. i’d have to watch more episodes where the two interact, but it’s no secret i try to ignore any and all neelix interactions with anyone who isn’t naomi wildman.
the one real exception, as i have discussed before, is chakotay. and i really appreciate that at least one guy out there doesn’t demean him, actively or passively. note that even though harry woke up chakotay up because he had a doubt, he doesn’t go “oh, shouldn’t you know already?” he just says that it was fine, and not only allows harry agency in the away team, he offers himself as support without judging. (in tumblr lingo, he’s supporting him as valid.) most importantly, the way they act outside the bridge is entirely as equals, because chakotay has a habit of personally befriending his crew left from the maquis days, and that balances it out on most accounts. i mean yeah, not that that’s a good or healthy habit outside voyager’s special situation, but really. chakotay balances out being his commanding officer with being his friend and gives him dignity on both accounts. so it’s not impossible, and the rest of the crew should know that.
harry gets no respect even though he deserves it. but judging by the way people treat him, he eventually wonders whether he does deserve it.
god damn it, the clown hit harry right in the nuts. i. hate. that. fucking. clown.
harry’s insecurities, fueled by everyone’s dismissal and condescension, come out in two ways: the one we’ve seen most - which is harry compulsively doubting himself whenever his ability to command comes into question - and then another we saw with catastrophic consequence: harry being unusually stubborn and defending choices which may be questionable, but delegating would be taking once again the role of the inexperienced, and relegate himself to being the baby again, when he knows he’s anything but.
this later display of doubt is best exemplified in the episode timeless, which i have referred to before as the episode which points out how harry’s one of the most valuable members of voyager. it was a really bad choice for harry to just go ahead and mcgyver corrections on the fly, but this was his project, his and seven’s and he wasn’t going to have the instability of the slipstream drive pinned on him. no. everyone doubts him too much already. and thus he goes on with the decision to duct-tape his little experiment, and everyone dies. harry being prone to letting his emotions get away with him whenever his competence is called in question is truly a danger when he’s a defining member of voyager.
but while he does need to work on being objective in his command decisions regardless of others’ opinions of him, he doesn’t deserved to be demeaned for so long and so constantly and voyager’s attitude with him sucks.
if you grow and adapt and change and learn through the years and everyone still treats you like a kid, you either wonder whether something is wrong with them, or something’s wrong with you. clearly, by season 4 harry’s pretty fed up with tuvok’s put-downs, but this is harry kim. he’s not going to hate everyone forever for not treating him with dignity. so eventually, he’s going to wonder if something’s wrong with him. and that’s exactly why his insecurities concerning his maturity are such a sore point for him and only get worse as the series progresses. especially in command, which is a role where wisdom and experience are absolutely vital, harry’s insecurities eat at his productivity, and it’s not entirely his damn fault.
and sometimes i wonder if this is all on purpose? but of course it fucking isn’t because this would have been said aloud, actually addressed, and the one to change wouldn’t be harry. it would be the others. goddamn. but the narrative only bends over backwards for the doctor whenever voyager needs to change their collective attitude.
tl;dr: i have made Gold out of Shit and b&b can’t stop me because they gave me the shit to work on when they should have provided gold in the first place
DEAR FRAN HOW DO YOU DRAW HANDS AND ANATOMY IN GENERAL I NEED HELP
A while ago I made some sort of step by step for how I go about hands, but if it’s about anatomy as a whole I ??? honestly don’t know how to answer?? The most I can tell you is that generally when I sketch a living being I divide the body in main zones and simple shapes first, if it’s a person mostly keeping in mind these ?? and as far as keeping the positions realistic goes I try to visualize the skeleton under it all - it’s pretty easy to notice if something’s too flat or bent at the wrong angle when you keep in mind the bones’ solid shapes imho
But with such a broad question like that when I myself have never really studied anatomy to begin with I can’t give you a better answer than this! I’m really, really sorry o<-<
I just took my phone after I charged it throughout the entire night (100% battery) and scrolled through your entire art tag. I’m done and at 27%. Also I love your art, you’re super super talented! <3 <3
Thank you for liking my stuff that much!!!! But omfg take care of your poor phone’s battery anon haha
THERE IS NOTHING RIDICULOUS ABOUT IT I LOVE IT. I absolutely see them doing the things you draw/drew about. That’s the magic of bokuroo lol. I’m so happy that you participated this week T_T <3
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH thank you so so so so much!!!! I’m so happy you liked the strips!!! <3<3<3 they’re still ridiculous tho anon that’s the whole point of the ship for me let’s let them be silly haha
you and your "group" finally did it for me. finally killed my desire to rp. because why fucking bother. why fucking put yourself out there. why fucking attempt to play with someone who claims to be so open. and they just don't fucking care. hypocrite.
My dude. My friend. Buddy. Pal. Homeskillet.
I have 700 followers. That post about Bastion? I still get roughly 100 notes on it a day, and the Floating Torbjorn one is right behind it. I work 8 hours a day and I have a 2 hour commute, which leaves me with about 4 hours of free time every night. I can barely keep up with the shenanigans going on inside the group. I have a post from Shhhmada from like a month ago that I haven’t gotten to because it needs more time and effort than I have been capable of giving it.
I have no clue who you are. I have no idea how you have tried to engage me or any of my friends. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that, I don’t have the time, the energy, or the ability to keep track of everything going on. I can barely keep track of my own group.
I am sorry I overlooked you. I really, truly am. I worry every day about all the people I might have overlooked, people who think that I don’t care, or that I’m showing favoritism, or like.
Jesus christ, bro. I have 700 followers. At this point, this blog nearly consumes my entire goddamn free time. I took one night off to draw, and I spent the whole time on edge because I worried people were gonna think I was snubbing them. I worry that I got snappy when people started asking about RPing with me.
Actually, I started to think I might have to change my open door policy just because I don’t have time to give everyone the attention they deserve, and I don’t want to snub people.
I understand that it hurts to be left out. Like holy shit, I know that feel. I spent my entire life feeling left out, which is why I want to keep this blog as open as I can. But. I have limitations. As it turns out, I have a lot more limitations than I thought I did when I started this. Like, at best, I was looking for myself and two or three other people to RP with.
It is, quite literally, out of my control. So.
I am sorry you are feeling hurt and left out. I am sorry I overlooked you. I know it doesn’t help, but it wasn’t intentional.
And now, I am going to bed, because really, I should have done that three hours ago.
oh! i finished all my studies and schoolwork for today! only took me like the entire night and early morning of procrastination :D. now i have to not fall asleep or die in the next 4 hours of school time