I would like to thank all people for notes! It means for me a lot.
Every painting took me about 3 hours to done, which makes it in total over 45 hours of work. Through this time my style started to change so some of characters needed to be done from the begining. Also I had a little breakdown and I just didn’t wanted to look at my tablet again, BUT here they are I’ve done it and I’m proud of myself that erryday I’ve spent this time just to show the world my art c:
These took a bit longer than I thought they would, but I hope you enjoy the Matsu you desired :)
Also, these are a bit big, I got the HQ Amazon versions which look great, if anyone wants smaller sizes I would be more than happy to resize them, otherwise depending on where you plan to use them they might resize themselves smaller anyway!
This is going to be hard to type, but I want to do it now while it’s fresh in my mind. I don’t know how much I’ll say but I’m going to do my best to explain to you what just happened to me.
One of my very first posts on this account was about an SD who took me shopping and spent $400 on me. He was the second person I’d ever met on SA, and to this day I’ve still only met 3 people. He offered to take me shopping, I didn’t ask for anything. Not an allowance, a gift, a sum of cash. I was friendly to him from beginning to end. He would talk for HOURS upon HOURS, telling me the same stories over and over, and I would sit there nodding passively while dreaming of ripping my ears off. I was hoping it would go somewhere, eventually, once he trusted me. I waited for him to make all the moves on everything. I wish I could take it all back.
Our first date was sushi and shopping, the second was a trip to Niagara Falls. He had promised me beforehand that there would be shopping. You’d better believe I went home with jack shit except for hotel shampoo bottles. I spent 24+ hours with this man who wasted my damn time. He finessed the fuck out of me. But I let him, in hopes that he would trust me and eventually bring up an allowance.
The following week after Niagara he cancelled plans on me twice in a row. I was annoyed, and frantic because I had bills to pay, but I stuck it out and was kind to him. I needed to get my hair done and he offered to pay for it. He wired me $600 and I got a new weave (and hunty I look good as hell). I saw him today and learned real fast what it means to be afraid for your life.
He talked for 2 hours, telling me the same stories as usual, and I nodded and pretended to give a shit. We cuddled and kissed and he caressed my body. That’s when I brought up the prospect of an allowance, and this guy lost his mind.
“I paid for your hair, you should have sex with me!”
“You don’t trust me! You don’t appreciate me!”
“I spent almost $1,600 on you, you owe me!”
I don’t want to write any more of what he said because thinking about it hurts. I had got dressed up and drove over an hour to see this man and he was screaming at me about how I owe it to him to give away my body. He wasn’t going to give me anything, he never was. I tried to explain that I loved everything he had done for me, but that I’d asked for nothing and gone out of my way to be around him, but he wouldn’t hear anything. I’m a passive girl. I do not like confrontation and I sure as fuck don’t argue with the ones I love, let alone a strange man who wants money because he covered the cost of my hair dye.
I sat on his sofa and cried. He gave me dirty looks, scoffed at me, made fun of me for crying. He left me alone in his house. I was away from home, none of my IRL friends or family knew where I was, and I had nothing physical to protect me or any cash to get home.
If it weren’t for my SB girlfriends online, I don’t think I could’ve got through it. They made me laugh, gave me advice, told me they loved me. Some even offered to pay for my Uber home. I’ve never felt so cared for in my life.
And in case you’re wondering, yes, I did spit on his toothbrush.
Here are the red flags I SHOULD’VE caught from the beginning:
- He wanted a GIRLFRIEND
- We never discussed money
- He constantly talked shit about his ex-girlfriends
- He said he was tight on money because of his divorce
- Constantly talked about how people use him because he’s such a nice person
- He had no respect for anything I said, EVER
If you have a similar story, leave me a note or an Ask… and be careful out there… always meet in public and ask for a gift beforehand so you can weed out the salts. Love you all. Tonight I’m grateful to be alive.
Ayo, it’s that time of year fam!! 2016 is winding down (baruch hashem, finally), so I wanted to take the time to thank the people who’ve consistently made me and my dash happy throughout the year(s). Thank you so much, and happy new year!!