⦁ You’d be the luckiest person in the world lets just get that out of the way now ⦁ He’d treat you with so much love and affection it’s unreal ⦁ Actual relationship goals ⦁ He’d spend as much time with you as possible - he’d just want to be with you all of the time ⦁ He’d probably get so clingy it’d be almost annoying ⦁ And become jealous over the tiniest thing ⦁ Like if you looked at JB for just a few seconds too long he’d do everything in his power to get your attention back onto him and to stay on him ⦁ Becoming super close to his parents because family is everything to Jackson ⦁ His mum showing you all of his cute/embarrassing baby photos ⦁ Him helping you learn a tonne of new languages ⦁ Be prepared to be embarressed every time you go out cause Jackson’s the type to try and make friends with every shop assistant, taxi driver, waiter, barista ect. that you come across ⦁ So much mutual respect that fights would be non-existant ⦁ The closest you’d get to a fight would be a bit of harmless bickering ⦁ He’d be a huge fan of ships names - as soon as fans made up one for you he’d use it all the time ⦁ “Hey (Y/N), I want you to start referring to us as (Y/S/N). Okay?” ⦁ “(Y/S/N) or never!!!” ⦁ Even if you don’t like green tea he’s gonna try and get you to drink his organic green tea ⦁ And probably be very offended if you hated it ⦁ Then start lecturing you on how JYP told him about it and how good it is for you and that you should drink it everyday ⦁ If you miss one of his calls he’ll probably try and reach you on one of the other members phones just to make sure you’re not ignoring him ⦁ No such thing as personal space when it comes to dating Jackson ⦁ Don’t expect to be spoilt cause that boy is stingy af when it comes to money ⦁ But expect to be broke if you offer to buy him something cause he’ll jump at the chance to spend someone elses money, even if it is his partner’s ⦁ And he’d use his dumb aegyo everytime you got your wallet/purse out ⦁ He’d be just as extra as he is with his members when he’s with you ⦁ But you’d also get to see his serious/calm side when he gets home after a long day ⦁ After a full day of schedual he’d probably love to settle down in bed and fall asleep cuddling or holding hands ⦁ He’d always want some form of contact, even when you’re sleeping
“Wolf, are you asking me to be … your alpha female?“ He hesitated. Scarlet couldn’t help it - she burst into laughter. “Oh - I’m sorry. That was mean. I know I shouldn’t tease you about this.” Still grinning, she made to retract her hand, but he was suddenly gripping it, refusing to relinquish the touch. “You just look so scared, like I’m going to disappear any minute. We’re stuck on a spaceship, Wolf. I’m not going anywhere.” His lips twitched, his nervousness beginning to ease away, though his hand stayed tense over hers. “Alpha female,” he murmured. “I sort of like that.” Beaming, Scarlet gave a mild shrug. “It could grow on me.”
Wow. I don’t really know what words I have to say about this concert. There are so many aspects, so many components, and all I can do is sit here, stunned.
This is officially twenty-four hours since the concert ended and I am still in a daze. I have been to four B.A.P concerts, and this one is really probably my favorite. I feel like I have so much to say but at the same time, I’m afraid that I will forget all words and just say oh it was good. But here goes~
Waiting in line was quite an experience. I was fortunate enough to make it to the second row, so I was literally right by the barriers. I have to thank the people around me for being so understanding that in a concert, there is no such thing as personal space and all the touching and bumping and accidental hair pulling is all by accident. Thank you for making the concert such an understanding, stress-free environment. Shout out also to the group of Daehyun stans in this circle. I should have known competition was inevitable :P
Now, the official concert. I have to say, the boys did not disappoint. As the concept this time was to truly party with the fans, the song choices were perfect, and their performances were, as always, A+.
It was so funny because honestly, when the concert started and we all started screaming, the security guys at the guardrails had the most amused expression on their faces. They were like who are these guys and how did they garner such a fan base when I’m sure half of them don’t understand a single word they’re saying? And that look of half bemusement and impressed made me giggle, and makes me proud. I think just talking about the concert itself is so very dry because honestly, we know they are fantastic performers, so I will just go into individual members and moments I remember.
So first off, I knew Daehyun would be closer to the right, so I situated myself to the middle-right and it was so worth it because he was right in front of me so many times and I had a clear gap to see him and he is so beautiful. He is living, breathing perfection. All the members were all so larger than life and on stage, their charisma is infectious and just permeates.
Yongguk. I think this concert has once again cemented him in my heart as number two. He is the bias I respect and love and revere as someone who inspires. (I also managed to write two individual letters to Yongguk and Daehyun and I hope I got my messages across to Yongguk just how important he is to this fandom, to B.A.P, to this world.) Throughout the concert, he definitely had his moments of quiet when it was the talking part, and it hurt me a little because I want him to know that he can be allowed to be tired. But right after, when the music started again, he was bouncing and smiling, and wow. Yongguk’s smile is breathtaking. I was also lucky enough to have him stand in front of me quite often. And when he smiles… it is like the whole world slowly lights up from the inside. The entire glow that radiates from him is soft, and his presence is both intense and comforting, and the whole time I can only think, our leader is back. I think Yongguk’s presence actually was what made this concert so much more meaningful. Last year was important because B.A.P was back. But that time seemed rushed, seemed a little too desperate to resume to normalcy, but this time, to see Yongguk smile like everything was okay made me feel like everything was right in my world as well. Thank you, Yongguk. It also made me so so happy that when they were talking, when they got to Yongguk’s part, people could not and would not stop cheering. Yongguk was just standing there, laughing shyly, and I hope he felt that he is loved, and appreciated and indispensable. (I may have also said all of those to him in my letter too.)
My first impression of Himchan in the concert was seeing him walk out from behind the stage and laughing. I think his mic or something wasn’t working and someone from the stage was talking to him, so I just noticed him looking back and laughing and wow. Himchan. Kim Himchan is another embodiment of beauty. (They all are, but I feel the need to point it out every. single. time.) And he disappeared a little in the beginning to fix whatever problem it was, but it was that easy-going, genuine smile at the backstage that made me realize, and see with my two eyes, how kind Himchan is. And I’m not going to lie but he went up in my esteem. He also got to choose the fan, and Himchan is adorable. He took freaking forever to choose and it was because he cared so much, and the girl he eventually chose was a cutie patootie too, and the fan interaction was so sweet. She was so nervous, she spilled a little of her coke and Junhong immediately bent down to wipe with his towel. And it’s just ♥
Youngjae. Man, Youngjae is such a fluffball. His solo was quite unexpected. It showcased his bass voice very well, and I’m happy he’s finally singing a song within his range. He is such an energy bunny on the stage. But it is with a heavy heart that I have to admit I’m a terribly biased little shit and I sort of allowed myself to be distracted utterly by the other half of Daejae, to my regret because I didn’t really get to see Youngjae. “Fermata”, however, was beautiful because that was a showcase of his voice, and honestly, he is just such a great presence to have on the stage because he is so happy, and when he was reading the English off the teleprompter, he was so not subtle, but so adorable about it.
I don’t even know how to begin with Jongup. He is so perfect. He is so adorable, and he is just ugh ♥ Jongup Jongup Jongup. He deserves all the stars and hugs and kisses in the world because he is a precious angel. He started off where I was and I was able to watch him dance. And dance he did. During his solo, I swear I saw the veins on his neck and his arms and I had to take a moment to remind myself that this perfection was indeed my age, and it made me wonder what I was doing with my life haha. But honestly, wow. Jongup. He improved so much and his solo was so mind-blowing. That dance that went with it… ha haha hahahaha, no thank you. My dongsaeng also happened to scream his “Moon Jongup” when it was quiet and have him turn and wave at her. I wasn’t with her but when I heard that I had a moment, please tell me it’s not her. And it was. Shout out to the brave soul~
Junhong, Junhong. That boy needed to be contained. He was truly in his element and his English was so fantastic, and he engaged so well with the audience and I am so proud to have watched this little bean sprout grow up into this giant maknae. When he started his solo, he cutely said “
You all know me as a rapper so I have an extra special gift for you. This is my first vocal solo.” And I was so proud that he sang in English and was brave enough to tackle on a foreign language. He was so lively and always made sure to put in an extra effort to dance a little more, to speak a little more, and I am very proud of our Golden Maknae, because that he is.
Now for the one I always leave for last. Jung Daehyun. How do I even begin to describe him? There were so many moments. I will tell you this, B.A.P is amazing live, and Daehyun is phenomenal live. His voice, that power, and you just know that you’re hooked. He brings in energy, he brings in talent and he is just such a wonderful sunshine. Daehyun’s adlibs and his high notes, and every line that he sings is so beautiful. There was a moment when a high note didn’t particularly come out right, and he looked annoyed and it pained me because I know he was blaming himself, but I also want him to know that that little hiccup is not a mistake, but just something human. There were so many high notes and new adlibs (”No Mercy”, “Fermata”, “Body and Soul”, “Do What I Feel”, etc.) where I am just left speechless because the amount of talent that is in this man is just unspeakable. Gosh, I have so much to say about Daehyun but when it comes down to it, it can only be summed up as he is my ultimate bias for a reason. I am very bitter that he did not perform his solo. Last time, he didn’t get to do his solo in New York either and that made me sad. I was really looking forward to watching it because I love his self-composed songs so much and hope one day TS will allow them to release studio versions because that will be so necessary. Daehyun was just so cute and so into it and bless.
I love the song list that they chose this time. Everything fit the theme so well, and they played songs that they normally wouldn’t (”DO WHAT I FEEL” ANYONE. I FREAKING LOVE THAT SONG.) The three set of baby making music was ridiculous. I was so thankful that Bangdae was in front of me during the whole body roll, and basically the whole choreography for “Body and Soul” so yeah my soul left my body and my body just basically collapsed. “Wake Me Up” had me so emotional because that song always has had that effect on me. From the first time I heard it until now, I have felt it with a bodily embodiment. “Skydive” with all six of them… it was beautiful. I loved the cute interactive dance part at the end, and I’m just so blessed I was able to be so close and I said this in my absolute awe, “I have never seen them in such HD before.” (I’m pretty sure there are more moments during the concert that I will remember as I scroll through pictures and whatnot but right now, that’s good). OH. The outfits. I loved what they were wearing. Yongguk in that red jacket and sunglasses…. death. Yongguk in that white shirt…. death.
The water gun part. Let me tell you. The first time I got splashed with water was in the beginning of the concert was with Daehyun’s water bottle. Yep. The most precious few drops of water. I was surprised he did that. He just drank and then emptied the few drops on the crowd. And then there was a moment when Himchan was pointing the gun at the girl in front of me. That was when he let loose. My unnie was next to me and we were both wearing glasses and she had her finger out, scolding Himchan and that just made him more eager to spray with glasses. But yeah, that happened. And then Youngjae came by and decided to spray my front bangs with water, so that was definitely a thing.
Now onto the hi touch. I heard so much about the nerves that can happen during a first hi touch and I even witnessed the speechlessness that happens after your first experience. I had all of these quick one liners in my head that I wanted to say and when I got to hi touch, they were rushing us. It was a bit of a weird experience. The boys were literally a mass of dark hoodies huddled together and I almost missed it because Youngjae was half covered by a security guy.
Youngjae, I had wanted to tell him thank you for your energy. But I got there, was flustered and all I said was thank you. He is so flawless. His skin is wow, and it is true. He is so much better looking up close. His face is small and he just looks like he has this smooth skin that you can run your hand over and have it just slide down.
Junhong I had wanted to say I’m proud of you, our Golden Maknae. But instead all he got was a thank you. Because I was feeling rushed. He was so cute because he was bending down a little to probably reach our heights. And he is so pale. Definitely in charge of white chocolate in B.A.P.
Daehyun was third and I nearly missed him. I nearly did not realize. I had all these big plans. I wanted to switch to my left hand so my one hand can be forever marked and I wanted to say, I love you, you’re perfect in Korean. And I even practiced it a little. But instead, in my flustered state, I started to say thank you, I got out tha- then I realized GIRL THIS IS YOUR ULTIMATE BIAS, and I blurted out a I love you, and I was so mortified because I don’t think I actually ever wanted to say that to him. But my friend had warned me that he does eye contact so I made sure I looked him in the eye and those beautiful eyes and that eye smile smiled wider when I said that and it made everything all worth it. Thank you, Daehyun, for that.
I almost missed Jongup. I’m sorry to say that I almost didn’t realize it was him. But he got an I love you too (which I don’t regret) but I wanted to say, hey, we’re friends, because we are! (Even though according to the Lunar calendar, I am technically a late 94-liner, I still am a 95-liner because puppy line!) I just remembered Jongup’s hair and him smiling.
Yongguk was next. Yongguk was staring straight at me and his curly hair and his eyes, and his smile and his chest tattoo peeking out. He is perfection. I was determined to say what I wanted to say to him and I am so proud that I was able to. I told him a very simple, “Love and Respect” and he smiled. He smiled and like I said before, that one smile is like grace and blessing itself. And I’m so glad I was able to say it out loud to him because those two words really describe how I feel towards him, and to see him smile harder made it worth it.
I almost missed Himchan because he was the only one in a gray suit. He looked slightly alarmed that it seemed like I was just going to pass him, thank goodness I didn’t. I said love and respect to him too even though I had wanted to tell him he was beautiful the way he was, but again, I do respect him so much for all that he’s done.
I made sure I high fived each of them soundly, and it was very satisfying. Very fast but ultimately, I think I’m happy. I got my two most important members and I did right, and therefore, I am happy and content.
Overall, the concert was worth everything. I didn’t mind standing in four inch stilettos for two and more hours because I need that height. It was an amazing experience, from standing in line with my friends, to the hi touch, to spending after concert, sharing post-concert details with my friends.
Thank you, B.A.P. I don’t know what else to say. I know staying domestic is important and I hope after this tour, you’ll be able to go home, rest up and go on all the programs you want to, and do all the things you want to, and do what you love. But I still cannot deny that I am grateful you came. Thank you for coming to New York, despite everything. Thank you because this experience has touched me deeply, and I still go to sleep, feeling a slight tingle in my right palm, and my head swimming with visions of gummy smiles, and eye whiskers, and talent and I can only say, I am so proud to be a Baby. So proud of you and all that you have done.