this song just gives me all the feels

anonymous asked:

*cries because I know all that will come from this article is what he said about one direction*

LMAO. dani was just telling me that e! news or someone had already gone and taken his quotes about simon and zayn completely out of context. it’s totally unsurprising but still pretty lame lol. 

i feel quite greedy, but all that article did for me was leave me wanting more. when he first started talking about his backpacking trip in interviews, i didn’t realize he’d brought his journal along with him and started writing it, which makes me so curious about what that was about, originally. like, did he set out wanting just to keep notes and those became songs, and if so, at what point did he realize that he was writing songs that he had to keep for himself because he couldn’t give them to another artist?

and like, i imagine artists in any profession have a lot of thoughts about why they do what they do; i wonder if niall would ever be asked or feel comfortable articulating why writing songs and making music and performing are - and seemingly always have been - the only thing he’s ever really wanted to do. 

on a slightly different note, i wonder if he ever has any concerns about having gone so far before and maybe running out of new territory as an artist, or whether he’ll just be happy to have gotten over that hill of establishing himself as a solo musician. also, something about the way he’s got a whole new team around him now - his stylists and manager and promo team and reps and the band - and the way that makes him (in)directly responsible for them all by himself, and what on earth that must be like in terms of planning for the future and grappling with his own and everybody else’s expectations of his success. 

it’s been so interesting hearing from him again and again, confirming his own quotes, that he didn’t want 1d’s schedule and the sheer amount of attention they got, whether that means being able to leave the hotel while they’re on tour or having the luxury to take public transit. and, of course, being able to dedicate extra time to his album to ensure that it’s as good as he’s able to make it! cuz there’s maybe not as much overhead as there was with 1d (on a financial level and in the sense that 1d always seemed to have to escalate degree of success). and the inevitable question that follows, that is, ‘but what if you do become as successful as 1d was?’ let alone more so? i can’t imagine he’s put too much thought into that one because 1d was monumental, but it strikes me as super interesting to ask, especially in light of him saying that he has to ‘try at least to get somewhere near it.’

i just.. . can’t get over sign of the times. there is so much feeling in it - hope, desperation, strength, vulnerability, pain, love, bravery - and all of it is so palpable, i feel like i can taste it in the air while the song’s playing. he pulls you in at the very first note and tangles you into his soul with every note after that. the energy in his voice just. it washes over you, wave after wave, like an ocean of electricity and emotion. 

I feel like Kiwi is the incorporation of all the stunts. I don’t think it refers to one stunt specifically - although a few seem to be more prominent. From the very beginning, the song starts out describing a ‘pretty girl’ but doesn’t explain anything about her, her story, or her personality. She is just a pretty face, and we have seen how over the years all the stunt girls have been used just for their appearance over their personality. ‘She worked her way through a cheap pack of cigarettes’ - like she made her way into a situation that is not nice.

To me the lyrics give out an helpless feeling. ‘I’m having your baby, it’s none of your business’ like the other person involved doesn’t have a saying. They just have to go through it. ‘It’s getting crazy, I think I am losing it’ again, the narrator can’t do anything. They are the victim of the situation.

‘And now she’s all over me, it’s like I paid for it’ the Lyrics to me are both metaphorical and literal. She is all over him - like the stunts girls were always around but also how we know there have been instances of the stunt girls imposing themselves on the boys. Sometimes it was planned, sometimes it was not.

‘I’m gonna pay for it’ there are going to be consequences. In the case of the boys, specifically Harry and Louis, I can see this being a comparison to fame and its consequences. Almost like ‘I wanted this, I wanted fame, and now I have to do this even though I don’t want to’.

anonymous asked:

You should totally do a blurb about Harry having to wake up really early for all of his radio interviews on Friday morning and having to say goodbye while (y/n) is still half asleep! It would be so cute and fluffy:)

This request was right up my alley. A bit of fluff before we all.. you know, die. x


Endeavor



He’s trying to move as quietly as possible, careful not to leave the bathroom door open more than a crack so the light doesn’t shine on your face as he tiptoes back and forth between it and the room. It’s early outside, the sky skill a dark, brooding shade of blue and the sun is still hibernating until it absolutely needs to be up.

He’s currently standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, trying to tame his wildly growing hair in a decent way. Although he won’t actually be on a television show today, he knows there’s bound to be paparazzi around the studios he’s going to. The tips Lou had given him have managed to fly out of his head. He sighs quietly, tapping his fingers along the counter and glancing at his reflection in the mirror. He takes a deep breath, puffing his cheeks out as he exhales. He’s nervous, exuberantly so. But even more so, he’s buzzing from his toes to the top of his head, the familiar feeling of anticipation and excitement bubbling in him. It’s been a year since he’s felt it, a year since he’s done what he loves to do, and this time around, he’s doing it exactly how he wants.

With one final glance towards the mirror, and a squirt of Tom Ford, he flips the switch gently and walks out into your room. His boots are clacking against the wood floors and he hisses, glancing up at you quickly as he comes to a stop. You’re unperturbed, though, still sound asleep with your head tilting a bit too far off your pillow. The skin around his eyes crinkle and the corners of his mouth lift up in his first smile of the day. The scene before him is one he’s seen many times, granted, usually he’s next to you with a much closer view. Your hair is sticking to your cheek and you’ve got the fluffy blankets you insist on having every night pulled up around you, he assumes to make up for the lack of his warmth. One of them is slipping off the bed and laying halfway on the floor.

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i love you, i hate you rp meme
  • “feeling used, but i’m still missing you”
  • “just wanna feel your kiss against my lips”
  • "i can’t see the end of this”
  • “it hurts me every time i see you”
  • "all this time is passing by, and i still can’t seem to tell you why”
  • “i hate you”
  • “i love you”
  • “i hate that i love you”
  • “i realise how much i need you”
  • "you want her, you need her”
  • “i don’t want to, but i can’t put nobody else above you.”
  • “and i will never be her.”
  • “i miss you when i can’t sleep.”
  • “i still got sands in my sweater from nights we don’t remember.”
  • “fucked around and got attached to you.”
  • “do you miss me like i miss you?”
  • “you wouldn’t like that shit.”
  • "friends can break your heart too.”
  • “i’m always tired, but never of you.”
  • “i got these feelings but you never mind that shit.”
  • “you’re still in love with me, but your friends don’t know.”
  • “i don’t mean no harm.”
  • “you ever wonder what we could’ve been?”
  • “if you wanted me, you would just say so.”
  • “you say you wouldn’t and you fucking did.”
  • “lie to me.”
  • “lie with me.”
  • “if i were you i would never let me go,”
  • “now all my drinks and my feelings are all fucking mixed.”
  • “i know that i control my thoughts”
  • “always missing people that i shouldn’t be missing.”
  • “i guess this is moving on.”
  • “i should stop reminiscing.”
  • “i learned from my dad it’s good to have feelings.”
  • “sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance”
  • “everyone i do right does me wrong”
  • “all alone, i watch you watch her”
  • “you don’t care, you never did”
  • “she’s the only girl you ever see”
  • “how is it you never notice that you are slowly killing me?”
  • “you don’t give a damn about me”

*feel free to change the words to fit your muse!

anonymous asked:

who's gonna cry with me over the fact that both louis and harry's songs have a message of "wipe your tears, keep going, and don't give up" ? i'm not trying to make it about larry at all but the keep on holding on message warms my heart so much because it shows just how much they've grown up in the seven lovely years we've been allowed to have them

that was one of my thoughts too the songs are really quite similar and i don’t know how to feel about that

The Strokes Lyrics That Melt My Heart

“The world is over
but I don’t care ‘cause
I am with you”
- Alone Together

“I wanna be beside her
she wanna be admired”
- What Ever Happened

“So many fish there in the sea
I wanted you, you wanted me”
- Automatic Stop

“The world is shutting out for us”
- 12:51

“I just want to know you’re alright
I’ve got to know you’re alright”
- Under Control

“Old time loves don’t
die so swiftly”
- Juicebox

“Guess I got too excited
When I thought you were around”
- Heart in a Cage

“When I said ‘I can see me in your eyes’,
You said ‘I can see you in my bed’,
That’s not just friendship that’s romance too”
- I’ll Try Anything Once

“Sweetheart, your feelings are more important of course, of course”
- Razorblade

“All that I do is wait for you”
- Vision of Division

“[…] before I let you go, let me look at you”
- Killing Lies

“Break your heart in two halves
Keep one half and give one half to me”
“I love you more than being seventeen” - Evening Sun

“Two could be complete without the rest of the world”

“All the girls could never make me love them the way I love you”

“I saw your face then I heard that song
It was so inviting it hurt my bones”
- Red Light

“Whether you’re drunk or stoned
or we’re sober and old,
if I’m with you I’m a happy man”
- Hawaii Aloha

“I’m just trying to find
A nice place for you and I”
- Machu Piccu

“I look for you
And you look for me”
- Call Me Back

“I don’t wanna be in bed without your loving either”
- One Way Trigger

“Can I stand in your light just for a while?”
- Call It Fate, Call It Karma

“My baby doll
You ignored your life
We’ll do it together
I’ll be there whenever”
- Threat of Joy

It’s been a week since the first time I watched “Take Back the Falls”, and there are still some things I’m just not over. For example:

-The way Mabel throws out her arms like a little kid who wants to be picked up when she sees Stan. (This is the moment I started to tear up. That’s right. I didn’t even make it twenty seconds in to this episode.):

-The look on Dipper’s face when he tells Stan about Ford’s capture.

-Ford’s split second of open panic when he realizes he’s in chains. (Seriously, the sound of Ford’s chains rattling over Bill’s song was just chilling.)

-Watching Stan pout all the way through the first half of the episode, but just feeling sorry for him because of where it’s coming from.

-Ford being tortured—actually on-screen, screaming, we see him fried to a crisp tortured, and not only does he not give in, he strikes this little “fight me” boxer pose.

-On top of that, the way Ford is willing to endure days if not weeks of torture at the hands of the being who manipulated and betrayed him, but the second Bill threatens the kids he breaks (and I flash back to that scene in AToTS when he looks so excited to learn he has a niece and nephew. Turns out he’s hiding a great big bleeding heart under that sweater and he loves those kids with every square inch of it and OH CRAP THIS WILL NOT END WELL).

-Stan taking the worst possible moment to throw a childish tantrum because Ford won’t thank him.

-Ford taking an even worse moment to make an equally childish and wholly pedantic remark on Stan’s grammar, thus underlining just how petty the grudge between them has become.

-This moment, because it seems to be the moment they both realize how stupid they’ve been:

-Bill locking Stan and Ford in a cage and it turning out to be his undoing, because once Stan and Ford actually talk to one another they begin to see each other for who they actually are, and they make up as though nothing ever happened.

-Stan.

-Ford deciding to throw himself, the world, and everything he’s spent thirty years working towards away just for his dumb family. 


-Stan deciding to take the burden from Ford’s shoulders and throwing himself away for the sake of the world and his family, even though he knows it’s something he won’t walk away from. 

-Ford’s face when he points the memory gun at Stan. (That…that hurt.)

-Did I mention Stan? Not any specific scene, just Stan in this episode in general, but right here in particular: 

-Mabel being told that Stan is gone and reacting just like every kid who’s lost someone for the first time and who doesn’t quite understand how that can happen. 

- “He saved me. You’re our hero, Stanley.” (No, that’s okay, Hirsch. It’s not like I was using my heart anyway.)

-Actually, every dang moment of this episode between the point when Dipper and Mabel try to distract Bill in order to give their uncles time to get away and the scene with Mabel’s scrapbook was just mesmerizing. It’s incredible. I love every single frame. That was the best sequence of the whole show, bar none.

-The eucatastrophe:

-The fact this this show had a eucatastrophe.

-This and everything it implies:

-And last, but not least, THIS:

DID YOU KNOW?

that “N.O” stands for both the word “no” and is the acronym for “No Offense.”

and the mv looks like its from some kind of dystopian world where anything and everything they do gets controlled like

Who is the one who made us into studying machines?
They classify us to either
Being number one or dropping out
They trap us in borders, the adults
There’s no choice but to consent
Even if we think simply,
It’s the survival of the fittest
Who do you think is the one who makes us step
On even our close friends to climb up? What?

suga’s lines make me think about south korea’s culture of educational masochism, and how its normal there for even young children to work from early morning until late at night, and often at weekends too, to get into the best university they can and eventually secure a well-paying job. the pressure is intense, and the routine relentless - for years on end. in seoul, legions of students who fail to get into top universities spend the entire year after high school attending hagwons, which are after-hours tutoring academies, to improve their scores on university admissions exams. and these hagwons are no joke, they can last until early mornings for students as early as elementary school kids :0

which brings me to my next point. i think its very clever that rapmon starts the song with 

A good house,
A good car,
Will these things bring happiness?
In Seoul
To the SKY,
Will parents really be happy?

ppl may not know while SKY can mean the sky up above us, its also said to be the acronym for the three most prestigious universities there– seoul university, korea university and yonsei university. they’re very hard to get admitted, and the competition is insane, just

and its no wonder why even with south korea being the world’s 12th largest economy at least according to forbes, a place where you can surf the internet on the underground, dance the night away in a salsa club, and buy a decent americano on your way to work. and yet, as i quote, “people here seem less happy than during the years of hardship after the korean war.” their high suicide rate seems to reflects this. 

and like how rapmon further laments, how can they?

The grown-ups confess
That we have it so easy
They say that we are happier than our portion
Then how do you explain my unhappiness?
There’s no conversation topics beside studying
Outside, there are so many kids like me,
Living the life of a puppet
Who will take responsibility?

cos thats how they’ve rolled for centuries..

which is why i applaud bangtan and its whole production for highlighting this issue and in a way letting ppl know of its atrocity, and that gives a lot of consolation for ppl like me, for students like us, and i like how their message isnt really about being rebellious and going against the authority, they’re not even questioning the importance of education, cos it is. 

just take the title for what it is, no offense– but

ok so i see these all the time so I wanna do one now… so this is my break down of divide


Eraser: I forgot he could rap and I’m shook, “I wish that love was a currency and the whole was wealthy” ICONIC “welcome to the new show” aka buckle up friends 

Castle on the Hill: makes me forget that I do not actually like my small town but reminds me of how much I love my friends, “they raised me and I can’t wait to go home” I’m crying

Dive: I am so here for this!!!!! Honestly I’m speechless, i just love this and the line “Don’t call me baby unless you mean it” YES

Shape of you: I will never get tired of this song, what a bop. Anytime, anywhere, I will go hard to this. I sing it in the shower regularly ngl  

Perfect: The most beautiful. Makes me wanna get married right this second.

Galway Girl: WHAT A FUCKING TUNE I GO SO HARD 10/10 but also does he say he finishes doritos and another bottle of wine??

Happier: going from galway girl to this is emotional rollercoaster. So beautiful and mature

New Man: this lowkey gives me a boyband vibe but in a good way, I love all the dragging and pettiness like I wanna sit down and chat with him about the true story behind this because it seems spicy 

Hearts Don’t Get broke Around Here: makes me feel like I’m in love even though I’m not, also makes me feel like sitting in a field of flowers. So so so so so beautiful. 

What Do I Know: I don’t see enough love for this song. literal definition of good vibes only. “Just remember life is more than fitting in your jeans, its love, undestanding, and positivity” THIS IS SO IMPORTANT

How Would You Feel (Paean): I said this had a John Mayer vibe before I even knew he played the guitar solo bc its so John Mayer-y (which is a good thing, I’m a slut for John Mayer)

Supermarket Flowers: i def thought this was gonna be a love song just based off the title, oh boy was I wrong and oh boy did I tear up

Barcelona: back on the emotional rollercoaster, but this time its going up, this is so much fun! Makes me forget that I’ve never actually been to Barcelona 

Bibia Be Ye Ye: catch me jamming to this but also trying to remember the stuff I learned from high school spanish

Nancy Mulligan: another irish bop what???? i like how he says religion in this song. very theatrical,  like a story time break

Save Myself: another beaut. so so so so powerful. 

Conclusion: I’m either crying or jamming or both. 

Dating Peter Quill would involve...

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Dance offs. All the time

Sass wars

Karaoke battles whenever it’s the two of you in the ship

There’s just a lot of conflict in your relationship, but in a good way

You take the piss out of his “hero name” all the time

“Good morning, Star Prince.” “Seriously?”

Rocket starts throwing stuff at you two if you get anywhere near being affectionate in front of him

Peter burying his face in your neck whenever you cuddle

You mess with his hair all the time, because he puts a lot of effort into it and it’s adorable when he tries to be annoyed

If you’re feeling down, Peter puts a slow song on and slow dances with you, your head resting on his shoulder as he moves the two of you around

You work together whenever you’re in a fight, watching each other’s backs and swapping weapons with each other mid-fight just because you can

Playing pranks on each other all the time because you’re both five-year-olds trapped in adult bodies

You steal his jacket all the time because it’s cool and really comfy

He tries to be annoyed but he thinks it’s really cute and hot as hell

A/N: Please give me feedback or request something in my ask!

Somebody I Can Kiss

Sherlock burst into the lab, charging over to where Molly was working. She glanced up briefly, but then returned her safety glasses shielded gaze back to the biopsy she was working with. 

“Oh, hi. Is there something-”

“I think you should realize that in all reality I am not as impressive I sometimes act,” he fired off a bit breathlessly.

Molly straightened up and frowned. “Pardon?”

“Look, Molly…” He took a deep breath and blew it out slowly. “I explained this to John many years ago and I’ll explain it to you as well…I am no hero. I’m not superhuman or invincible, despite the way I may behave at times. But you, you are…remarkable.”

Molly slowly removed her glasses, eyes staying riveted to his.

“You are brave and selfless to a fault. You care about others and their feelings and wellbeing so very deeply, and would go to amazing lengths to help them. The way you live your life and treat others…” He paused, slowly shaking his head in quiet awe. “It makes you deserving of a very special sort of life…with…someone.”

She swallowed thickly while pulling her gloves off.

“A-and despite how I may…feel,” he said, appearing to taste the new words in his mouth with nervous curiosity. “I am afraid that perhaps I may not be- that is, for you I may not be enough of-”

“Sherlock,” Molly jumped in quickly. “I think I’ll stop you right there.”

He paused, raising a brow in question.

She smiled, quickly putting away what she had been working on. “I’ve got to get a report to a doctor upstairs, so maybe you can give me a few minutes and wait here?”

The corners of his delicious lips turned downward and he looked rather adorably injured at what must have seemed to him like disinterest, or perhaps even agreement with his concerns. Molly reached in her lab coat pocket though, before leaving, and handed him her phone and earbuds. 

“Here,” she said while tapping the screen a few times. “Put these in and press play. And when I come back maybe you’ll have a clearer idea of where I stand on this issue.”

Sherlock took the device hesitantly but nodded in agreement, putting the earbuds in place. He hit play and she smiled at him before walking out the door.


Molly came back into the lab about five minutes later to see Sherlock greet her with a soft smile. She crossed the room to him slowly and accepted his return of her phone and earbuds.

“So…what did you think of the song?” 

Sherlock gazed affectionately into her eyes, answering her in a low whisper. “Do you mean it?”

Molly nodded, smiled, and draped her arms around his neck. “I don’t want a hero or a fairytale or anything that’s out of the ordinary. This is enough- you are enough. You always have been. I don’t care how much you believe you fall short, because it doesn’t change how I feel about you. And what’s more, I know exactly what I want.”

“Something just like this?” Sherlock asked with a little smirk as he slid his hands around her waist.

Molly grinned. “Nice listening comprehension, detective. So, if you’re so smart, according to the song,” she went on softly, tugging him down a bit. “What else do I want?”

Sherlock feigned a thoughtful expression as he eyes her lips and bent further forward. “It seems…the very same thing that I do,” he whispered.

As their lips met and they became blissfully wrapped up in each other, they both finally felt like things were as they should be. Which didn’t mean it was a fairytale, no. It was far more simply and ordinary than all that. But they did each have something they wanted- someone they wanted. 

They had each other. 

Only If

REQUEST : Write something where y/n had done something bad to harry and thats why H suddenly became cold to her and he makes it hard to earn his trust back but then y/n got into an accident? - Anon

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So for the longest time I’ve wanted to know why Calum sang Invisible by himself.

Like what was going on when they were recording the song?? Did they all agree that the song would sound better if Ashton or Calum sang it because they have some pretty soft sounding voices??? Or did Calum decide hey I wanna sing this song by myself??

If he did why?? Is he telling us something? Is that his way of telling us he feels invisible?? Cause if so that’s really sad and it breaks my heart. But it also got me thinking. Does he feel that way cause there are people in this fandom and outside of the fandom that make him feel like that or is it because he doesn’t get the recognition and credit that he deserves?? If that is so, then I wanna take this time to give him some credit.

Calum, you deserve all the credit in the world and I just wanna thank you for being the one to sing Invisible because the song already means a lot to me but the fact that you sing it makes it that much more special to me.

Your bass playing is amazing and while sometimes it can’t be heard in the song it’s still phenomenal. The other night I was listening to Disconnected Removed Vocals and I heard the bass clearly then and I’m truly amazed. You never seem to fail me and always exceed my expectations.

I wanna thank you for still being so quite and shy in interviews. It’s very refreshing because I’m so quite and shy I don’t talk unless I feel like I should say something. So thank you for not changing that about you.

And this one is definitely the most important to me. Thank you for writing my number one favourite song.
Disconnected. Thank you. That song has gotten me through a lot of shit since its release. When I’m mad, sad, upset, happy, lonely, Invisible, unwanted, unloved, when I’m feeling anything that is the song I put on. That is my go to song. And when I hear that song I get the biggest smile on my face and it feels like a weight has been lifted of my chest. So Calum, thank you. Thank you for being you. Thank you for writing songs. Thank you for playing the bass. Thank you for your smile. Thank you for Disconnected. Thank you for everything. Thank you.

15 Kdrama watching habits
  1. Watching a drama only because your Kpop bias is in it
  2. “Just one more episode and then I’ll go to sleep.”
  3. Saying “Aigoo”, “Aish”, “YAH” or other Korean words and phrases
  4. Craving Korean food
  5. Bowing when greeting people, apologizing or thanking someone, even though it’s not your custom
  6. Downloading the OST
  7. Reading/writing fanfiction
  8. Shipping the bromance over the romance
  9. Singing (”insert song”) at norebang because (”insert character”) in (”insert drama”) did
  10. Attempting to watching your favorite actor’s entire filmography
  11. Pausing an episode in order to process all the feels (this might just be me)
  12. Giving up half-way through a series, reading recaps of the next several episodes and then watching the finale (may also just be me)
  13. PFWS (Post Finale Withdrawal Syndrome)
  14. Being behind in your never ending list of dramas-to-watch
  15. [ENG SUB] and chill 
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it won’t be us, nah
it won’t be us…

baetitan  asked:

What would vets and 104th do if they want to propose to their lovers?

Mikasa: Excuse you? She’s not the one proposing here
Reiner: Piss “Will you marry me” into the snow
Bertholdt: Arrange a candle light dinner in his Significant other’s favorite restaurant, only the two of them, having a good time and then when he feels the moment is right get down on one knee and propose all old fashioned with a beautiful diamond ring he saved money for for months
Annie: Wouldn’t really propose, but if she’d just give her significant other a ring and call it a day
Eren: Writes “Marry me [name of SO]” into the air with a plane, simply as an excuse to fly a plane
Jean: Would invite his SO to their favorite place, wait for sunset and propose totally romantic to ‘their song’ after telling them what he really likes about them
Marco: Invites everyone he and his SO know for a ‘random’ party, everyone knows what will happen, when the party is going on he proposes to his SO in front of everyone to prove his unconditional love
Sasha: “don’t you think we should kinda marry? You know for tax purposes?”
Connie: Orders Pizza and orders them to write “Marry me” into the box
Historia: Expects to be proposed to, because Ymir already fucked up enough
Armin: As soon as he realizes he wants to marry his SO he’d start writing a notebook full or stuff that makes him love them and makes him wanna marry them and when it’s full he hands it over to them, on the last page is a ring and the sentence “Will you marry me?”
Ymir: “When this is over, marry me”
Levi: this man has so little faith in the concept of marriage he’d probably die laughing if he tried to propose
Hanji: Would do it like in those awful commercials where they send pictures of letters to their SO to spell out ‘marry me?’
Erwin: Gives a heartwarming and kinda intimidating speech about his SO and then proposes on one knee
Nanaba: Would take his SO to the place they first met and ask them very calmly and romantic
Mike: Would get all the scouts to wear T-Shirts with the letters for “Marry me!” and put them in front of his SO’s house
Moblit: Invite some people over to play hangman with him and his SO, the solution for the hangman is “Will you marry me [Name of SO]”

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So, this is All I Ask by Adele that Holster is singing. So I looked up the lyrics, and can I just say that this is such a sad!Holster song with We’re Graduating Soon!Holsom feelings!

Seriously, look at this:
“I will leave my heart at the door
I won’t say a word
They’ve all been said before you know
So why don’t we just play pretend
Like we’re not scared of what’s coming next
Or scared of having nothing left

Look, don’t get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I’m more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
‘Cause what if I never love again?

I don’t need your honesty
It’s already in your eyes
And I’m sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you’re the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?”

😳😭

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Quotes and excerpts from Dylan’s journal:

“I was delusional and thought she waved at me the last day of school. Oh well … my emotions are gone. So much past pain at once, my senses are numbed. The beauty of being numb.”

“I’d rather have nothing than be nothing." 

"I want to be free." 

"Farther and farther distant… that’s what’s happening… me & everything that zombies consider dear… just images, not life. Soon I will be at peace I hope…”

“I’ve always had a thing for the past - how it reacts to the present & the future - or rather vice versa. I wonder how/when i got so fucked up…”

“Sadness seems infinite, & the shell of happiness shines around. Yet the true despair overcomes it this lifetime.”

“The pain multiplies infinitely. never stops. Yet im here, STILL alone, still in pain.”

“The framework of society stands above & below me. The hardest thing to destroy, yet the weakest thing that exists. I know that i am different, yet i am afraid to tell the society. The possible abandonment, persecution is not something I want to face, yet it is so primitive to me. I guess being yourself means letting people know about inner thoughts too, not just opinions & fashions. (Heheh) I will be free one day, in the land of purity & my happiness, I will have a love, someone who is me in a way. Someday… Possibly thru this life, maybe another, but it will happen… ”

“Love is more valuable than anything I know. To love is to enter a completion of one’s self. I hate those who choose to destroy a love, who take it for granted. love is greater than life even. As i look for love, i feel i can’t find it. ever. but something tells me i will. Someday. Somewhere. As my love will find me. She feels as i do right now, i can feel it. we will be inseperable. Her & i. Whether it is [edited] or not, i think ill find it. (my love). we will be free, to explore the vast wonders of the stars. To cascade down everlong waterfalls, & thru the warmest seas of pure happiness… no limits… no limits. Nothing will stop us.”

“Nobody will help me.”

“I wonder if ill ever have a love.”

“Being made human
Without the possibility of BEING human
The cruelest of all punishments.”

“These moments will be lost in the depressions & caverns of the human books forever like, tears in rain, but the thoughts will be eternal. To explain the happiness is impossible even for fate. It’s just a pure halcyon set to last more existences than a conceivable number.”

“Existence is a great hall, life is one of the rooms, death is passing thru the doors, & the ever existent compulsion of everything is the curiosity to keep moving down the hall, thru the doors, exploring rooms, down this never-ending hall.”

“Existence is pure hell & pure heaven at the same time. I will never stop wondering. The lost highway will never end.”

“Time to die, time to be free, time to love.”

“The zombies will never cause us pain anymore.”

“Fact: People are so unaware. … well, Ignorance is bliss I guess…. that would explain my depression.”

“I was Mr. Cutter tonight - I have 11 depressioners on my right hand now.”

“oooh god i want to die sooo bad… such a sad, desolate, lonely, unsalvageable i feel i am….. not fair, NOT FAIR!!!! I wanted happiness!! I never got it…”

“I think a lot. Think … think … that’s all my life is, just shitloads of thinking … all the time … my mind never stops… music runs 24/7 (except for sleep), just songs I hear, not necessarily good or bad, & thinking…" 

”My existence is shit to me – how I feel that I am in eternal suffering, in infinite directions in infinite realities. Yet these realities are fake – artificial, induced [?] by thought, how everything connects, yet its all so far apart…. & I sit & think…"

“I don’t fit in I’ve been thinking of suicide gives no hope, that I’ll be in my place wherever I go after this life … that I’ll finally not be at war with myself, the world, the universe – my mind, body, everywhere, everything at PEACE in me – my soul (existence)." 

”Goodbye, sorry to everyone… I just can’t take it … all the thoughts … too many … make my head twist… I must have happiness, love, peace. Goodbye"

“some zombies are smarter than others, some manipulate… like my parents.”

“It’s interesting, when I’m in my human form, knowing I’m going to die. Everything has a touch of triviality to it. Like how none of this calculus shit matters. The way it shouldn’t. the truth. In 26.4 hours, I’ll be dead, & in happiness. The little zombie human fags will know their errors, & be forever suffering and mournful”

Harry Styles - Harry Styles - A lil review

Meet Me in the Hallway: 2, 3, 4… Love the soft, strumming guitar and Harry’s longing and haunting vocals. Just the way his voice breaks on the word “hallway”… So helpless-sounding and heartfelt. Ugh. Love that as the song nears its end, the instruments are stripped away one by one, and in the end there’s just one guitar and Harry’s voice, and then there’s just Harry’s voice holding that last note. Damn good, and a very clever choice. This song could last an hour long and I still would have to press “replay” over and over again.

Stand-out lyrics: “We don’t talk about it, it’s something we don’t do. ‘Cause once you do without it, nothing else will do.”

“Hoping you’ll come around, just let me know, I’ll be on the floor.”

Sign of the Times: Full-on-flush. I’ve talked about my love for this song many a time since it came out, so I’m moving on. (But I think it’s absolutely gorgeous and one of my faves.) 

Carolina: This song feels so old-school and cool. I was immediately struck by that thick bass throughout this song, LOVE it. Love the falsetto parts. Love the oh-yeah parts. Mayyyybe my least fave song on the album, but it’s still SOLID.

Stand-out lyric: “There’s not a drink that could sink her, how would I tell her that she’s all I think about? Well I guess she just found out”

Two Ghosts: Right away, the melody and harmonies… so lush. The acoustic guitar is so lovely, and I love the tone of the electric guitar on top - it almost sounds like it’s crying. This song gives me CNSY and Ryan Adams vibes, which I love, like it just breathes and moves in a really similar and nice way. Cool lil detail: The way he enunciates the ‘t’ in heartbeat at the end.

Stand-out lyric: “We’re just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty. Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat.”

Sweet Creature: A little Beatles-esque gem of a tune. This is such a soothing and flowy song, and his vocals match the tone perfectly. It’s warm-sounding and simple, and I love that he’s left a little air in this one. It feels organic and just sweeeet. And I love sweet.

Stand-out lyrics: “I always think about you and how we don’t speak enough. “
“Running through the garden, where nothing bothered us.”

Only Angel: Love the calming opening, which drags you into this really eerie and calming musical landscape. You’re ready to set up camp and hang out for a bit, and then Harry’s scream just rips you the fuck out of it. WAY to start a song, haha. Heavy guitar, the screams, the clapping, the background vocals, love it all. Such a colorful song. It’s red and blue at the same time. Tall and short at the same time. It’s pulsing, the beat is sick and his deep timbre gives me shivers..

Stand-out lyrics: “Couldn’t take you home to mother in a skirt that short, but I think that’s what I like about it.” 

“Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door.”

“I must admit I thought about making you mine.”

Kiwi: I’m so here for these drums, and heavy guitars!! GOD. The attitude he has on this song?? It’s like he’s grabbing you by the collar, bringing you close and going “Nope, it’s just you and me”… *fans self* It’s edgy and very 70′s Brit rock, he’s belting out those notes with fierceness.
Love the “ding” after he sings “I’m gonna pay for it”, those little details are so cool and add so much to the complexity imo. And the gritty guitar solo is tasty as hell. You know when the shower is almost too hot to take? That sweet-spot, that’s what this song feels like.

Stand-out lyrics: “And now she’s all over me, it’s like I paid for it, I’m gonna pay for this.”
“I think she said ‘I’m having your baby, it’s none of your business.’”

Ever Since New York: So magical and soft. A big contrast after Kiwi, but fitting as the album cools down again. Love the drumming, there’s so much going on in this song. It’s intricate and subtle. Love that he matches his vocals to the tone and the sentiment of each track. With this song, he never tries too hard. He’s just singing like it’s the most effortless thing for him. And the stacked vocals on the chorus is a beautiful touch. Loved when he changed up the notes on this on SNL, and I wish he’d done that on the recorded version as well, but that’s a small complaint. 

Stand-out lyrics: “Choose your words, ‘cause there’s no antidote.”
“I understand I’m talking to the walls.”

Woman: Love this. His vocals are just stunning, (AGAIN) just the way he drags out the word “know” in that first line -AH! This song is so funky, so dope. It’s simple, but hella catchy. With this song, I feel like everything comes together. Like the lyrical idea feels good and goes perfectly with the sonic recording which goes great with the melody and groove. And the background vocals that start around 3:03 adds a really alluring element to the song.

Stand-out lyric: “I hope you can see the shape that I am in. While he’s touching your skin, he’s right where I should be”.

From the Dining Table: From the second you hear his lips part in this, you’re drawn in. He’s singing in a conversational way, which makes it sound really earnest and vulnerable. And that moment when the strings entered floored me the first time I heard it, it was so unexpected. A beautiful explosion of sounds. To me, this song feels like this scenario: It’s raining. You’re in bed, half asleep, there’s a candle about to smoke out, and it’s making the dozens of shadows in the room dance around..

Stand-out lyrics: “Comfortable silence is so overrated. Why won’t you ever say what you want to say.”
“Maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too,”

That last one just hit you right in the gut, because it feels so damn authentic and sincere, and that’s something that runs through the whole album imo. It feels exactly like what he should be doing. It’s so him. It never feels contrived or fake. There’s so much heart in it and you can tell that there’s a lot of hard work behind it. There’s not one stand-out weak song, I start playing the first song and I just let it run until it’s done, and that’s rare for me. So THANK YOU more than I could ever explain, Harry. I’m obsessed with this record and I needed it. ❤️