this song is the story of my life ok

Masterlist

WiP

Room mates and Double dates

Finished fics

MCU-related one shots

  • A regular day out - Steve Rogers wants a nice day out. His idea of ‘regular’ is a little skewed… (Fluff)
  • Lucky Mascot - silly short one-shot kinda thingy! (Silly fluff)
  • Welcome to the Avengers - Bucky is the only one on your side when you want to be allowed to fight alongside the Avengers. (Slight smut)
  • Kidnapping 101 - inept Hydra trainees and a case of mistaken identity. (Silly fluff)
  • Time for the Truth - the only way to get Steve and Bucky to admit their feelings - truth serum. (Fluff/smut)
  • Falling - just sheer angst really! Love me some misery.
  • Cosplay Confusion - short and pretty silly

One-shots based on Sia songs! (All MCU-ish)

MCU-related series

  • Winter Shadow (10 chapters) - the Winter Soldier’s unknown companion 
  • The Ultimate Weapon (22 chapters) - can you reconstruct a life after losing your humanity to become the ultimate Hydra weapon? (Angst, violence, fluff, smut!)
  • Mission Medic (17 chapters) - a SHIELD Medic and Steve Rogers are trapped in a cabin, both injured. What’s her story? (Angst-ish)

Marvel AU one-shots

  • Coffee with Bucky - basically an excuse for lots of pictures of Sebastian Stan. (Fluff).
  • The Butterfly Effect - barely Marvel except in the characters! Bit of chaos-theory-(barely)-themed fluff! (Fluff)
  • Closer - short based on the song ‘Closer’ by The Tiny (Angst?)
  • Damn Weather - bad weather and a malfunctioning metal arm lead to some fluff.
  • Barnes and Rogers, at your service - silly short about everyone’s (OK, *my*) fantasy home helps!

Marvel AU series

  • Life lessons (masterlist) - Sebastian Stan is the sexiest teacher the world has ever known and you’d quite like him to teach you a thing or two…

Real People

  • Mackie loves Seb - an explanation for why Mackie compliments Seb all the time, in (some of) their own words
  • In Vino Veritas - a game of Musical Beers with Jimmy Fallon leads to an accidental admission. 
  • Curves - #MomentOfWeaknessProject fic - Anthony Mackie

Supernatural

I have NO idea how to categorise this one!

  • TJ, the pansexual robot dragon - no, I wasn’t high when I wrote this. It may read better if you are though.   Not at all MCU or Sebastian Stan, just… yeah. Weird :D
watching hamilton with my mom

alexander hamilton

  • “wow”

aaron burr, sir

  • “who is that”
  • “who are they”
  • “What are they doing”

My Shot

  • “he’s not throwing it away so he’s not giving up?”

the story of tonight

  • “so they’re buddies”

the schuyler sisters

  • “hey i know this song”
  • “what are they saying”
  • “wow”

farmer refuted

  • she is very confused

You’ll Be Back:

  • “oh yeah i like him”
  • “look at his face!!!”
  • cackling 
  • “he’s good eh” 

right hand man: 

  • “that’s george washington?" 
  • "so they’re just basically getting organized now?" 

Helpless 

  • "so is this when alexander meets the youngest one?" 
  • at alexander’s happy dance she screamed 
  • laughing bc herc is the flower girl 

Satisfied 

  • laughs at anthony’s "alright alright!!!" 
  • looking very confused at choreo 
  • "why? SHE’S in love with him???" 
  • "so they’d be together?? but he’s poor?" 
  • (at least i’ll keep his eyes in my life) "ooh" 
  • "wow" 
  • "that’s pretty cool" 

the story of tonight (reprise) 

  • "are they all drunk?" 
  • (oh shit) she is laughing 

wait for it 

  • "i like this song" 

stay alive 

  • "look at them!" 

ten duel commandments 

  • silence 

meet me inside 

  • "isn’t the bald guy in charge?" 

that would be enough 

  • "is that his wife? she’s pregnant" 
  • "oh that’s good eh?" 

guns and ships 

  • she’s just smiling so much 

history has its eyes on you 

  • "oh he’s giving him a battalion that’s good" 

yorktown 

  • "so they’re getting all pumped to fight?" 
  • me: they’re fighting 
  • "ok" 
  • "that’s awesome, eh?" 

what comes next 

  • laughing as soon as king george starts walking 
  • just 
  • laughing 

dear theodosia 

  • "he had a kid with the british officer’s wife?" 

laurens interlude 

  • "who is that?" 
  • "who’s dead?" 
  • im crying

non-stop 

  • "oh the war’s over right, the world turned upside down" 
  • "what" 
  • "he’s trying to build the constitution?" 
  • "was he a president?" 
  • "he still has that connection with angelica" 
  • me: yep
  • "so…he’s pretty brilliant" 
  • "he keeps leaving" 
  • "wow" 
  • "its really good" 

 what’d i miss 

  • "oh is that devanay or–" 
  • me: daveed 
  • "yeah" 

 cabinet battle #1 

  • *whispers* "slaves" 

 take a break 

  • "he’s writing a letter to angelica? what about his wife?" 
  • my mom really ships alexander and angelica omfg 
  • "so he loves angelica" 
  • MY MOM SHIPS IT SO HARD 

 say no to this 

  • "she’s a hooker?" 
  • she’s mad at hammy

 the room where it happens 

  • "its so good" 

cabinet battle #2 

  • laughs 
  • "who’s daddy? 
  • “oh, washington." 

washington on your side 

  • "so they’re getting together against him" 
  • "oHHH they’re going to find the affair" 

one last time 

  • "wow” (same)

i know him 

  • “oh god" 
  • she loves him 

the adams administration 

  • what just happened 

we know 

  • “wow” 

hurricane 

  • she looked very confused and offended when i explained the reynolds pamphlet 

the reynolds pamphlet 

  • shaking her head in disbelief (same mom) 
  • my mom loVES KING GEORGE 

burn 

  • "poor girl" 

blow us all away 

  • "oh" 
  • "ooh" 
  • "shot him at seven that’s not fair" 

stay alive (reprise) 

  • im crying 
  • "wow" 

it’s quiet uptown 

  • me: isn’t that upsetting? 
  • "YES." 

your obedient servant 

  • “passive aggressive” 

best of wives and best of women 

  • "they’re back together?”

the world was wide enough 

  • me: she’s the bullet 
  • “oh" 

who lives, who dies, who tells your story 

  • again im crying 
  • "wow" 
  • "wow" 
  • "i was choked up" 
  • "that’s neat”
  • “yeah i really like the king. he’s funny. what did he say? ‘jesus christ that’ll be fun’?”

Ok but real talk, in Making A Home, the harmonies between Mendel, Trina, and WHIZZER make my heart feel so complete??? they’re so pretty????? and A NDREW SCOTT RANNELLS’ VOICE IS ACTUAL PERFECTION, like anyone can FIGHT ME on that. The song makes me feel warm but sad at the same time and that’s what’s so great about it?? Like they’re stories are so different during that song, Mendel and Trina are building a new life and a new home for themselves T O G E T H E R and Whizzer just got kicked out of Marvin’s place, and they’re feelings are so SEPARATE so it makes me feel so many different emotions, like yEs Whizzer’s sad, bUT Trindel. B U T whizzvin is failing. BUUUUT the H ARmOniES :’)))) I swear it’s the most underrated song in the entire musical. NO, the most underrated song of the ENTIRE MARVIN TRILOGY,,, and-

Uber Driver: we’re here. get out.
I have an issue

WHY does everyone who likes The Last Five Years not like The Schmuel Song ??? Like it’s so good???? Yeah it’s long but the message of it is lovely and it’s like the highlight of their relationship imo !!!
It’s just Jamie using the thing that he loves most to encourage the person that he loves most to do the thing that she loves most. And it’s 7 minutes of genuine happiness for both Kathy and Jamie and it’s one of the few times they actually communicate. So yeah stop hating The Schmuel Song

As I drove home with my little one last night I told her stories about the funny things she did when she was a baby. How she could hum a Stevie Wonder song before she could talk, how she would babble “thikathikathika” as we changed her diapers, etc.. As I ran out of goofy stories and her laughter died down, she said “I have a very happy life” and for a moment everything in the world was ok.

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Hi Taylor,

I felt like a misfit and alone throughout a good part of my life, but your songs have always been there for me.  Especially in those sad moments they made me feel strong enough to keep going, even through the hardest time in my life so far.

Let me tell you a story. Your album Taylor Swift showed me that it was ok if I had not found my place in the world yet. Fearless made me believe that love is real and we must never lose hope in finding it. Speak Now made me realize we must always say what we feel and we should never keep it inside, it will just turn to regret in the future. It also showed me that even if it’s magical, love can bring us pain and unhappiness. Love can be the best thing that’ll ever happen to us, it can bring us shiny sparkles, but it can also be an obscure and subtle game.

Red: I have a really deep relationship with this album. It was released at the exact moment as I was passing through my worst moment. I felt like I couldn’t express what I felt and put in words the pain until I heard that album. I listened to your lyrics and that helped me know that I was not alone. It made me feel like I could let the pain go and search for happiness without letting the bad times define me.

And it was at this exact moment I started to see you as a friend. A friend who lives far away and doesn’t know me, but seems to know me and seems to be right beside me right when I need her.

I was almost fully recovered when you released 1989. This album is very important to me. It got me thinking we should find ourselves and even love ourselves before we belong to someone else. It cleared my mind and helped me realize my mistakes don’t define who I am and that YES, it is possible to look for happiness inside myself.

The next year I finally found myself. I am now completely happy.  You were a part of this process and you’ll always be a part of it. You have become a friend that walks with me, with your songs, quotes, and speeches in my best and worst moments. I am very thankful for that.

I love you and I hope someday to thank you in person for all you’ve done for me. THANK.YOU.THANK.YOU.THANK.YOU <3

You have a special place in my heart, Taylor.

With love,
Thales

Running Mix: 145 BPM (10:30 Mile)

Each song on this running playlist clocks in at 145 beats per minute, helping you stay on track for a 10:30 minute mile. This particular mix is made up of a balance between rock, alternative and pop songs:

  •  "(I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction" by The Rolling Stones
  • “Use It” by The New Pornographers
  • “That’s Not My Name” by The Ting Tings
  • “Rehab” by Amy Winehouse
  • “Fantasy” by MS MR
  • “Ooh La La” by Goldtrapp
  • “My Life Would Suck Without You” by Kelly Clarkson
  • “Secret Country” by Minus the Bear
  • “Tell Me Something I Don’t Know” by Selena Gomez
  • “Here it Goes Again” by OK Go
  • “Gumboots” by Paul Simon
  • “The Big Money” by Rush
  • “My Best Days” by Polar Bear Club
  • “A Story to Tell Your Friends” by Every Avenue
  • “Times Like This” by Jet
  • “This Ladder is Ours” by The Joy Formidable
  • “Jet Lag” by Simple Plan
  • “Star Baby” by The Guess Who
  • “I Don’t Wanna Dance” by Alex Gaudino

Total time = 1 hr 15 min

Click here to visit 8tracks and hear the mix. 

HUNCHBACK CAST ALBUM: HOLY COW GET IT NOW

Why you may ask?

  1. ALAN MENKEN’S BEST WORK EVER. The music literally hits you. A wall of sound that will give you 24 chills per minute
  2. The overtures are the songs of the show are SUNG A CAPELLA IN LATIN. HUNCHBACK MEDLEYS IN LATIN
  3. Michael Arden has the most angelic voice I have ever heard and I could listen to him holding out a single note for the rest of my life and be a-ok with it (Out There, Heaven’s Light, and Made of Stone are everything to me)
  4. Quasimodo is partially deaf and throughout the show uses sign language. This is the only disabled Disney main character (unless you count Crutchie, but he’s more of a supporting role. Quasi is the story)
  5. Elements from Victor Hugo’s original story cut from the movie were brought back, like the Frollo bros, Claude Frollo is not a judge but an archbishop, the death of a certain character (no spoilers), and no goofy gargoyles
  6. No goofy gargoyles
  7. A bit of empathy for Frollo? It’s conflicting but omg man
  8. Esmeralda is played by WOC Ciara Renée (actually though)
  9. I cried..

UMFB Playlist

Okay, so this is almost the first post I’ve made on tumblr, so forgive me if i’m doing anything wrong.

This is a list of songs that i think fits @kazliin ’s fic Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches, so I wanted to share it. I’m going to give the names and artists of the songs, and then a few lyrics and a short explanation on why i think it fits the story. but most of them are about yuuri and viktor’s relationship, so …. *shrugs*


1. Bedroom Warfare - One Ok Rock


Bedroom warfare in the middle of the night // Out of nowhere you come back into my life // And I know in the morning we’ll be // Nothing more than each other’s enemies


So i think this is pretty self-explanatory, hate sex, being enemies in the day but fucking at night and all that.


2. FOOLS - Troye Sivan


Only fools fall for you // Only fools do what I do // Only fools fall for you


Basically Yuuri when he finds out he likes (and sorta loves) Viktor.


3. War Of Hearts - Ruelle


I can’t help but love you // Even though I try not to // I can’t help but want you


Same as number 2, sorta.


4. Sinners - Lauren Aquilina


So let’s be sinners to be saints // And let’s be winners by mistake // The world may disapprove // But my world is only you // And if we’re sinners then it feels like heaven to me


Yuuri realizing his entire world basically revolves around Viktor.


5. Take Me To Church/Crazy In Love - Nightcore (Switching Vocals)


Got me looking so crazy right now // Your love’s got me looking so crazy right now // Take me to church I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies // I can tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife


Yuuri’s heartache when he realizes that he doesn’t see Viktor as a rival anymore.


6. Hurts Like Hell - Fleurie


I loved and I loved and I lost you // And it hurts like hell


do i even need to explain


7. King - Lauren Aquilina


You’ve got it all // You’ve lost your mind in the sound // There’s so much more // You can reclaim your crown // You’re in control // Rid of the monsters inside your head // Put all your thoughts to bed // You can be king again


Yuuri gets injured before skating.


8. Dynasty - MIIA


I thought we built a dynasty that could never break // I thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made


After Viktor finds Yuuri taking his pills for anxiety.


9. Hall Of Fame - The Script


Yeah, you can be the greatest // You can be the best // You can be the king kong banging on your chest // You can beat the world // You can beat the war // You can talk to God, go banging on his door


Yuuri when he becomes more recognized and starts to believe in himself.


10. Follow You - Bring Me The Horizon


So you can drag me through hell // If it meant I could hold your hand // I will follow you // Cause I’m under your spell // And you can throw me to the flames // I will follow you // I will follow you


After Yuuri stays with Viktor in Russia.


11. Love Me Like You Do - Ellie Goulding


You’re the light // You’re the night // You’re the caller of my blood // You’re the fear // You’re the pain // You’re the only thing I wanna touch


After they have hate sex for like the second time.


12. On My Own - Ashes Remain


Bring me out // Come and find me in the dark now // Everyday by myself I’m breaking down // I don’t wanna fight alone anymore // Bring me out // Come and save me from my own pride // My God I need a hope I can’t deny // In the end I’m realizing // I was never meant to fight on my own


the ending.


i finished lol. btw tell me if the links aren’t working or there are any typos because im not a very proofread kinda person.


bye!

Ok, I’m a babby-n00b fan (it’s been what, two weeks, three?), but I really frickin’ love the band The Dear Hunter and I want to gush about their music and I enjoy ranking things so…yeah, here’s me talking about my favorite songs from the Acts. (no major story spoilers)

Please feel free to completely ignore if you aren’t interested in my semi-coherent and less-than-sophisticated ramblings. X’D

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tired™ ▻ a personal playlist

i got tagged by the lovely @lsaks and the adorable @kayascodelorio - tysm!! ♡

rules: make a playlist using songs that describe your aesthetic. each artist can only be used once. link to the playlist in the post.

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@missselinakitty thank you!  Hope this helps make your week a little better :)

Ok this totally got away with me at over 1k words but once the idea hit it had to be written.  Also tagging @crowley-you-sinnamon-roll​ and @dont-hate-relate-pls​ because I thought you might appreciate this one.


It was hard dating God.  Chuck was temperamental.  He was used to getting his own way, and that stubbornness you’d seen in all the archangels was a learned trait if there ever was one.  

It was also amazing.  Chuck could be so thoughtful, creating entire locations for the two of you to escape to from scratch.  You never wanted for anything, not that you asked for much.  He could spend hours worshipping you, making you feel as if you were the Supreme Being in the relationship.  

These days, however, he was growing restless.  It was nothing new.  As someone who’d been around literally forever, you assumed the man would get a little bored from time to time.  Often he took up new hobbies.  

This time, he’d started performing.  Singing, to be exact, and playing guitar at random hole in the wall venues.  It impressed you that he even bothered to make a go of it like a regular person.  All he had to do was snap his fingers and he could be the biggest musician in North America.  

You imagined that would take all the fun out of it, however.  

He was good at it and incredibly sexy, something that didn’t go unnoticed by the other women at these places.  You knew a part of him loved the attention.  Rather, his ego did, but the rest of him was firmly devoted to you and every time he played he made sure there was a spot saved for you at the very front.  

Tonight was a bit of a celebration.  It was his first gig at a really nice spot that drew a lot of locals in the area.  He was nervous, you could tell, and you didn’t know what you spent more time on: fixing his hair because he couldn’t stop running his hand through it or reminding him to relax.  

You knew it was an even bigger deal than you initially thought when you walked in to take your seat and Sam and Dean were also there.  They never made an appearance unless the world was ending or there was something to celebrate.   Considering you’d helped him put together the set list, it was safe to assume it was the latter.

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When Niall had invited you over for dinner, you had assumed it was going to be a group of people. You had only met a few weeks ago, at the birthday party of a mutual friend. Since asking for your number after you kept running into each other, you had begun to banter and flirt a little via text. Last night, at the pub with all of your friends, the flirting continued but he never made a move. He casually mentioned that you should come over to his for dinner as you gave him a quick hug goodbye. When you arrived, you looked around for your friends.

“Where is everyone?” you asked as you entered his home and looked around. His house was immaculately clean and modern. It suited him. He looked completely at ease in a white shirt that was cuffed at the sleeves. On his feet, patterned socks stuck out below his tight jeans.

“Everyone?” he asked, his eyebrows going up in confusion before pulling you into a tight hug and swaying you slightly. God, he smelled good.

“I thought you were having people over for dinner.”

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Kingsman Song Shuffle

Ok so I thought this would be a fun idea! I put my most-used playlist on shuffle, and worked my way down the list of characters. There is also a lyric from the song that I thought was most appropriate for each character! Don’t judge me

Harry Hart - Secrets by OneRepublic

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

Eggsy Unwin - One More Light by Linkin Park

And you’re angry, and you should be, it’s not fair.
Just ‘cause you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

Merlin - Roll With It by Oasis

Don’t ever stand aside
Don’t ever be denied
You wanna be who you’d be
If you’re coming with me

Roxy Morton - My Way by Calvin Harris

Why wait to say, at least I did it my way
Lie awake, two faced
But in my heart I understand

Arthur - Too Good At Goodbyes by Sam Smith

I know you’re thinking I’m heartless
I know you’re thinking I’m cold
I’m just protecting my innocence
I’m just protecting my soul

Charlie Hesketh - Live Forever by Oasis

Want to live I don’t wanna die
Maybe I just wanna breathe
Maybe I just don’t believe

Valentine - Bleeding Out by Imagine Dragons

So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in

Gazelle - Heavy by Linkin Park

I keep dragging around what’s bringing me down
If I just let go, I’d be set free

Agent Whiskey - Apologize by OneRepublic

I’m holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say, but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry, didn’t think I’d turn around

Agent Tequila - Move Your Body by Sia

I wanna be your muse, use my music
And let me be your rhythm tonight

Champ - For What It’s Worth by Liam Gallagher

The first bird to fly gets all the arrows
Let’s leave the past behind with all our sorrows
I’ll build a bridge between us and I’ll swallow my pride

Ginger - Rain by The Script

Woke up this morning, can’t shake the thunder from last night
You left with no warning and took the summer from my life

Poppy - Don’t Look Back In Anger by Oasis

So I’ll start a revolution from my bed
'Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out

Princess Tilde - Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

And I don’t want the world to see me
'Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Get To Know Me/ 1K CELEBRATION

The long awaited 1k/Get to know me/ celebration! Thanks so much for helping me get this far, ily, and go learn some things about me :D

I was tagged by @sweetlittleblueboi AND @bahannah01writes to do the 30 question tags! If you don’t know who they are pretty please go follow then they’re rad and have really great writing on their blogs :’)

P.S. I’M STILL FUCKING SCREAMING I CAN’T BELIEVE I GOT TO 1000 FOLLOWERS HOLY FUCKING SHIT

Name: Samantha
Nickname: Sam
Gender: Female
Star Sign: Virgo
Height: 5'4
Time: 8:33PM
Birthday: September 18th
Favorite Band: P!ATD
Favorite Solo Artist: Childish Gambino or Kendrick Lamar
Song stuck in my head: First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes 
Last movie I watched: Kingsman: The Secret Service 
Last show I watched: Lip Sync Battle (Zendaya vs Tom Holland lol)
Last thing I googled: “Kingsman: The Secret Service” (lol  swear i watched it legally ok)
Do you have any other blogs?: Bet I have 9 blogs total but I’m only really active on 3 of them
Do you get asks: I do! Lots of ‘em are requests but the few asks that aren’t requests are gr8 I love them
Why did you choose this blog name: Long story 👀 (I miss m/tttme ☹️)
Blogs I’m following: like 1500 lol
Followers: 1000!!!
Favorite colors: Maroon/Burgundy, Black, and Blue :D
Average hours of sleep: 7ish (although now that I’m back in school this is def gonna change lol)(I was right its about 5 now lol)
Lucky number: 33
Instruments: That I play? Saxophone, piano, acoustic guitar, flute, some trumpet, and some clarinet! (I’m only really good on saxophone and piano though lol)
What am I wearing: a gray marvel shirt from Walmart, some dark skinny jeans and gray socks with pink watermelons on them :D
How many blankets do I sleep with: 2 and like 4 pillows lol
Dream job: iOS developer (coding apps and shit for apple prodeucts) 
Dream trip: New York probably 
Favorite food: Tostadas, Spaghetti, and California Burritos from a local shop
Nationality: Mexican-American!
Favorite Song rn: F.U. by Little Mix, Camp by Childish Gambino, Humble and XXX by Kendrick Lamar :D

I tag @sweetnestor @gooseskeletons @bow-chika-wowie @jaylarkson @mild-soapog @ifuckingloveducks @tbh-softdad @sadboyoliverinvisibleboy @jordytheconch @sivansneighbourhood @thnks-fr-th-mngs @ THE LEMON ANON @rhiirhii-moose @siaralovesgaming @nandrii @teamiplier-requests  I WOULD TAG HANNAH BUT SHES THE ONE THAT TAGGED ME SO DINOASEOEIFNOIWO

AND LAST BUT CERRTAINLY NOT LEAST I TAG @megalunawink FOR BEING MY 1000TH FOLLOWER OH MY GOSH THANK YOU I LOVE YOU

Bad Memories aren't getting better but in them they still live

There was a time back in the late ‘80s and early ‘90s when I was in a self inflicted dark place. I initially thought I was just toying with the darker side, the shadowy parts of life you’re supposed to avoid. Then I realized it was much easier to slide down than to climb back out. I reached a point where I wasn’t sure if I’d make it out alive, and mostly didn’t care. Sort of like I’d written myself into a real life shitty story that was maybe what I deserved anyhow.
Music probably saved me. Not because what I heard resonated at some level that told me other people felt the same things. No, it wasn’t that simple. It was more a matter of losing myself in a song, both the power of the music and the world of the lyrics. Also it formed a soundtrack for the crappy personal movie I was playing a part in. Certain music fit bad nights and my confused mind perfectly. Among that music-
“Shine” the EP by Mother Love Bone
“Ultramega OK” and “Louder Than Love” by Soundgarden
“Dirt” and “Facelift” by Alice in Chains
“Bleach” by Nirvana
“Houdini” by Melvin’s
and everything by Skinny Puppy and Sisters of Mercy.

It’s odd. There’s some solidly bad memories attached to that music. Listening to “Louder Than Love” while cruising Southfield, Ferndale and Berkeley looking for a crack dealer who had ripped off $600 from a friend. Listening to “It Ain’t Like That Anymore” right before going into the apartment of a girlfriend on the night she took three shots at me with a Walther PPK.
Hearing “Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns” in my friend’s car after getting bailed out of jail. Strangely though, I’ve still loved and listened to that music. For some stranger reason, as the singers of those songs have died, the dark memories come back instead of all the others. It has nothing to do with youth or wanting to be young again. It really doesn’t. I think rather it’s, as crappy as those memories are, in them the singers are still alive. The potential for more great music exists. No more. Now Chris Cornell. Voices of ghosts. Only in my shitty past do they still live. I don’t like remembering then, but it’s how my head works.

Rest in peace Chris. Loved your voice, loved your music. You helped keep me alive once.

I know Taylor has no idea who I am, but I just want her to know how big of a role she’s played in my life???!! Like, I remember dancing around my bedroom and my friends’ bedrooms singing Our Song and Tim McGraw. I remember learning how to play Love Story on the guitar. THE VERY FIRST SONG I EVER LEARNED TO PLAY. I sang Long Live at my high school graduation, I cried and cried listening to All Too Well after breaking up with my boyfriend of 4 years. I remember blasting Shake It Off in the van on the way to cross country practice in college with my whole team and dancing like an idiot. And this year, I’ve been through another heartbreak and the only song I could listen to for a while was Look What You Made Me Do. IT WAS SO EMPOWERING TO ME AND GOT ME THROUGH SOME SHIT. 

@taylorswift if you somehow read this, THANK YOU. I love you. I wish I could hug you and tell you in person that you mean the world to me. I owe you so much. 

Teslen appreciation week - day 5

Songs that remid me of them. Oh boy. This is gonna be a long list xD. In order of importance. Not all will be shippy because well most of the songs have a certain component of girl being well. Not British if you know what I mean so yeah finding songs for them is complicated xD.

One Republic - Secrets. OK so I am putting this because of the scene with Tesla Coils in Sorcerer’s Apprentice, sue me xD

Still, notable lyrics (kinda):

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til’ all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I’ve said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I’ve been on the brink, so

Rammstein - Stirb nicht vor mir. Well this one is more of a Victorian kind of vampire story, but still. It’s on this list because of this:

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don’t know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

Cobra Starship -Good Girls Go Bad ok maybe it doesn’t sound too… you know, for people who are over 150 years? But it’s catchy and let me pass that as a guilty pleasure ok xD.

Notable lyrics:

Yeah daddy’s lil’ girl

Just take a bite

Let me shake up your world

Cause just one night couldn’t be so wrong

I’m gonna make you lose control

Delain - Electricity Maybe because of what happened in Vienna? :P

Notable lyrics:

I guess imagination
it makes it come around
whenever lightning strikes
and thunder sounds

We shared nothing
but storm, but wind
one rainswept moment
stuck within

Savage Garden- To The Moon And Back. This is more of a Helen song, which is why it’s not on a better place in this top, but it’s such a Helen song that I couldn’t skip it :P

Notable lyrics:

She’s taking her time, making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smiles
And the look in their eyes
Everyone’s got a theory about the bitter one

They’re saying
“Mama never loved her much
And Daddy never keeps in touch
That’s why she shies away
From human affection.”

She can’t remember a time
When she felt needed
If love was red then she was color blind
All her friends, they’ve been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined

And you’d better run now cause I’m going into Disney territory xD

Susan Egan - I won’t say I’m in love

Notable lyrics:

If there’s a prize for rotten judgement,
I guess I’ve already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That’s ancient history, been there, done thatWho d'you think you’re kidding
He’s the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden,
Honey we can see right through you
Girl you can’t conceal it
We know how you’re feeling
Who you thinking of

Blackmore’s Night - Diamonds and Rust (and yes I know they didn’t write it but I like their version more sorry :P)

Notable lyrics:

It’s just that the moon is full
And you happened to call
And here I sit
Hand on the telephone
Hearing a voice I’d known
A couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall

As I remember your eyes
Were bluer than robin’s eggs
My poetry was lousy you said

Tarja - Poison (yes, Tarja, shhhh)

Notable lyrics:

Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill

I want to love you but I better not touch (don’t touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You’re poison running through my veins
You’re poison, I don’t want to break these chains

Within Temptation - Whole World is Watching
Sadly Sharon is the type who writes songs that could go better for other ships but I can’t skip her from this list OK? And anyway this maybe isn’t shippy but it does sound like them so yeah

Notable lyrics:

You build your walls then break them away ‘cause that is what it takes.
You saved yourself. You found who you are. That never goes away.
And I know you wish for more, and I know you try.
And now you realize, you know the time is right.

Jace Everett - Bad things

Do I really need to explain this? xD Fine.

Notable lyrics:
I’m the kind to sit up in his room
Heart sick an’ eyes filled up with blue
I don’t know what you’ve done to me
But I know this much is true
I wanna do bad things with you, okay

And I saved the best 2 for last :P Oh man… if there was ever an anthem for Teslen it would be one of these two. Can’t decide which one.

Coldplay- The Scientist  Fuck forever that bullshit of 50 Shades of Grey for daring to take this song and use it, just no.

Notable lyrics: The.Entire.Bloody.Song. Hands down.

The Rasmus - October and April 

Notable lyrics: The.Entire.Bloody.Song. Hands down.