this song is 14 years old

anonymous asked:

I have actually two questions if you don't mind. First is just simple how are you doing, another is about how you got into making music

I’m doing alright, thanks, a bit stressed lately because of my new job and life in general, but i’m doing my best to remain positive.

Well, it’s a funny story really.
Come sit around the campfire, it’s gonna be a big one.
When i was 13, i discovered Touhou through McRoll’d on YouTube, after that, i met a Brazilian that wanted to make a Touhou fangame.
So he just came up to me and said “you’re a composer right? Wanna compose for my fangame?”
So here’s the funny part: I WASN’T A COMPOSER.
I was just a 14 year old who has never composed a single song.
So naturally, i said “yeah sure!”, and imminently  regretted it because i couldn’t compose yet.
So, i tried it anyways, and it was quite fun, but the songs were absolutely terrible of course.
So he was like “Wait, are you even a composer?”
And i was like “Nope lmao”
We continued the fangame anyways, but it got cancelled quickly after motivation was lost (how about: having an actual programmer next time lol)
After that, i started getting more and more into fanmade Touhou style/inspired music, keep in mind that it was like 2010 or something, so there weren’t as much Touhou style/inspired composers as today, but i was particularly inspired by people like Wanwan (Mystical Power Plant and others), Misora (Mrs. Estacion), and Crystalwings (Marine Benefit).
And i was SUPER jealous of them.
“How can they make something so beautiful and pure with music, how can they touch my emotions so much? It’s like it’s actually Touhou music!”
Outside of Japan, composers like this weren’t heard of at that time, but that all changed when i met a certain person.
I randomly got a YouTube PM from someone, noticing my little terrible attempts at “music”, this person is better known as Mana Kazami.
They have been so nice to me, and they have thought me how to improve my music significantly, they were like a mentor to me.
Eventually, they told me about all the little tricks and experience they had with how to make music that sounds like ZUN music, and one of the “secret ingredients” that is super easy to come by these days, was the Edirol SD-90, a MIDI sound module from Japan.
Little 15 year old me begged to the parents, and eventually, i convinced them to agree to import that thing all the way to the Netherlands.
This was a big deal, because it was like 400 euro, that is a FUCKLOAD for a 15 year old, my parents considered this a “weird and pointless investment”, but to me, this was a true magic device.
When i got my SD-90, it took a lot of time to get used to it, my brain isn’t technical at all, i do things on a whim, following my emotions, so hooking it up and getting to work was a real chore, but i eventually got it right, and i started using it a lot, like A LOT.
I wanted to be like the people i was so jealous of, i wanted to touch people’s heart with the beauty of music, i really did my best.
Okay, switch to 16! 
Finally, it is time to go to ART SCHOOL
Of course, did you think i wanted to be a composer? Nah, i wanted to become a game designer!
When i was in art school however, i started liking music more and more, and started noticing everyone was better than me at art, eventually, art school kicked me out, and i felt emotionally lost.
I didn’t know what to do with my life anymore, i am very goal-oriented person, and i felt like one of my big goals had just been crushed.
But then, i decided to change my goals, i wanted to do something were my heart felt comfortable: music!
Music became more and more important to me, and it was like an escape, every time i made something new and better, i felt like i made progress.
Back then, this was about the best i could do:
Looking back to it now, it is quite shit, there’s a lot of wrong notes and dissonance, but back then, this was really the best i could do, and i was super proud of it.
When i was 17, i started taking my dreams more seriously, i had a new and clear goal for myself:

Become a professional video game composer and use my music and popularity to positively encourage people.

Even to this day, i follow this goal with the most passion i could ever have for anything, it is of absolute importance to me.
When i started taking music more seriously, a lot of things also went wrong in my life, and when it started getting worse and worse, i used music to express myself when i couldn’t do it with simple words, i think that moment was one of the most important moments for me, because that’s when i also realized that music is a form of expression, like a second language you can express infinite possibilities with.
I was around 18, i made this:
I feel like this song is really important to me, it was when i considered myself to be “slightly alright” instead of terrible.
But when i made this song:
I felt like i could make /anything/ if i did my best, i was surprised it came out of me…
I am not a very confident person, it takes a lot for me to look at something i made and be like “this is not bad”, but with this song, i felt a lot of excitement when i finished it, i felt like this was only the beginning, and my passion for music grew ever stronger.
I’m 20 now, and i’m working on a Touhou style music album to celebrate Touhou as a whole, it’s going to be pretty fun! Expect it around April.

Wow, when i started typing this out, i didn’t expect it to be so long.
Well, i guess i’m glad i managed to type all of this out, it’s funny for me to remember that one of my biggest joys in life came from a confused Brazilian who thought i was a composer.

Love Songs

1. Isaiah - It’s Gotta Be You
2. 3 Doors Down - Here Without You
3. London Grammar - Big Picture
4. Adele - One And Only
5. Ellie Goulding - How Long Will I Love You
6. Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
7. Mr. Probz - Nothing Really Matters
8. Tom Odell - Grow Old with Me
9. John Legend - Love Me Now
10. Christina Perri - A Thousand Years
11. Coldplay - Fix You
12. Ruelle - I Get To Love You
13. Kodaline - The One
14. Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You
15. Leona Lewis - Run
16. Johnny Stimson - Holding On
17. James Blunt - You’re Beautiful
18. Coldplay - The Scientist
19. Robbie Williams - Angels
20. Jasmine Thompson - Like I’m Gonna Lose You

  • Adult Steven: I wanted to tell you one story, uh, this is the story of the best meal I’ve ever had in my life, ok? It happened when I was 14 years old in Beach City where I grew up. I went to a place called Fish Stew Pizza with my gay rock mom Pearl. We walk in to the diner one day and they had a jukebox there, ok? And the jukebox was three plays for a dollar. So we put in seven dollars and selected twenty one plays of 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)'. And then we ordered and waited. Here’s the thing about when 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' plays over and over and over and over and over again; the second time it plays, your immediate thought is not “Hey someone’s playing 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' again.” It’s “Hey, 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' is a lot longer than I first thought.” The third time it plays you’re thinking “Maybe someone’s playing 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' again.” The fourth time it plays, you’re either thinking “Whoa, someone just played 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' four times.” Or at least “Someone played it twice and it’s a really long song.” So the fifth time is the kicker, alright? Now Pearl and I, we’re watching the entire diner at this point alright? Most people have gotten wind as to what’s going on and we’re staring at this one guy and he’s sitting in a booth with is stupid kids jumping around and he’s like, staring at his coffee cup like this *stares intensely and his hand starts shaking* - and he’s been onto us since the beginning - and he’s sitting there, and his hand is shaking and he had this look on his face like, oh like he had just gotten his thirty day chip from anger management and he’s staring like this *resumes intense staring* and the fourth song fades out, it’s dead quiet, then - I don’t know if you know this but the song begins very quietly; *singing* “I CAN'T HELP IT IF I MAKE A SCENE” And he goes “GODDAMMIT!!” and he pounds on the table, silverware flies everywhere, and it was fantastic. But a word about my gay rock mom Pearl and what a genius she is, because when we first walked into the diner, ok? And we first got there, and I’m punching in the 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)'s alright? I’d punched in like, seven at this point and Pearl says to me “Hey hey hey, before you punch in another 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)' let’s drop in one 'Everything Stays'” Oh yes, that is when the afternoon went from good to great. After seven 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)'s in a ro- it played seven times. Suddenly; *singing* “Lets go to the ga-” and the sigh of relief swept through the diner. People were so happy. It was like the liberation of The Crystal Gems. Y’know for years, scientists have wondered; can you make grown men and women weep tears of joy by playing 'Everything Stays'? and the answer is: Yes. You can. Provided that it is preceded by seven 'Haven't You Noticed (I'm a Star)'s. It’s true. And on the other hand, when we went back, holy shit. ‘Everything Stays’ fades out, it’s dead quiet… *singing* “I CAN'T HELP IT IF I MAKE A SCENE?” It went insane, people went outta their minds, no-one could handle it, no-one could handle it. And they were surrounded by this seemingly indifferent staff that was just like *starts sweeping* “Yep, same crap as always.” They unplugged the jukebox after eleven plays and that was the best meal I’ve ever had.

things that (mostly foreign kpop fans) need to stop: [particularly about male kpop groups or idols (particularly particularly talking to ARMY’s]

  • Being crass, disgusting, perverse, overly sexual, rude and all around unnecessary towards idols on a platform where they are allowed to see your comments. I can’t believe this needs to be explained but EXP: you look so good oppa i want to rape you // Fuck me oppa // you’re so sexy i hate you for making me feel this way. // *idols posts picture of them doing a peace sign and smiling* comment: GOD i want to fuck you so bad right now…  this needs to stop especially because some of yall are like 14 years old. Also, this is just tasteless and it’s actually called sexual harassment tbh.
  • Infantising or judging idols for saying things, dancing to things, that are adult or sexual when they are grown ass adults. Like, for example, Jimin & Jeongguk dancing to a song with mature lyrics about having sex basically, and so many comments like; do they even know what this song is omg this song is so sexual, i can’t believe they’re doing this….1; it’s just a song, lyrics don’t even matter, it’s not a big deal. 2; these idols are old enough to dance to whatever they want to without someone telling them they’re too young or assuming that it’s crude or weird or they don’t know. 
    • please note: this does not mean just because they are grown ass adults that you can then proceed to sexually harass them or only comment overly sexual and disgusting things.
  • Commenting the second idols post things on twitter with some unnecessary random ass english bullshit. First off all, even if they could understand over half of it, which Kim Namjoon may just be able to (or other fluent in english kpop idols) they probably don’t want to read so many unnecessary comments. NOTE: this does not mean don’t say: i love you! this means don’t say some shit like: jhope posts a picture: where is taehyung. jimin posts a video doing something random: first 8 comments are shit like: I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY, why do you always do this, kiss jungkook, where’s taehyung? how is taehyung doing oppa? yall need to learn some manners honestly…
  • PS. please understand that messaging things like: I HATE YOU FOR THIS, for a foreign idol, does not look good and is not advised. Your favs probably do understand the word hate in english, and they do not know it as a good thing. Your weird tumblr or otherwise socially obtained sarcasm does not read through text. it sounds like you’re just yelling that you hate them. Use some common sense and if you’re going to yell at them don’t use sarcasm in a separate language from their mother tongue and a sarcastic, culturally separate from their own at that.
  • stop flooding the VAPP lives with 100000 english comments of a similar nature as well tbh. If you have nothing nice, relevant and simple to say just don’t. or just send a heart emoji. sometimes the level of obnoxious that the foreign fans reach is actually out of this world.
  • show support for whole groups not just your favs. if another member if out on VAPP for instance, please don’t constantly in english ask where your favorite member is, pay respect to the member currently there. This goes for twitter and everything as well…
  • literally stop going onto everything all of the time and talking shit about how it isn’t bts. just stop. like, i feel like i could go to a beyonce video tomorrow and find 4 comments about bts and at least 2 would be like; BTS IS BETTER, and the other 2 would be like ARMY here supporting beyonce let’s stick together, some of all are wild, calm down we already have a bad reputation tbh….i’m not saying don’t be proud to be ARMY or love bts (because i’m sure that’s what people will try to get out of this post and they’d be wrong) i’m saying don’t act like crazy people???
  • have some respect for BTS and all idols, and remember that they are PEOPLE. and if you’re a foreign fan, remember that they do not share the same culture as you. You may not understand their culture entirely, just as they don’t understand yours. Don’t fetishise their culture or their people, don’t fetishise their language. Don’t act like you understand their culture if you don’t. Especially if you’re new to kpop and BTS brought you in, it’s okay that you don’t understand but …at the same time, understand that their culture is nothing like ours. It really, really, really isn’t. Don’t mistake that it is. Learn the culture that you’ve been thrust into and don’t try to bastardize it. 
  • If you see them in your foreign country or town (on vacation especially…) don’t crowd them, chase them, yell at them, try to touch them.
Send me a number maybe?

1: What’s your name?

2: How old are you?

3: Where are you from?

4: What’s your sign?

5: What’s your height/weight?

6: Last song you listened to?

7: Pets? If yes, names?

8: Do you have a crush?

9: Play any instruments?

10: Ever thought a teacher was cute?

11: Last text you sent?

12: Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

13: Describe yourself in 3 words?

14: If you could be an animal, which one would you be?

15: A song that changed your life?

16: Are you a good student?

17: Ever gotten in a fight?

18: Dream guy/girl?

19: Most embarrassing thing that happened to you?

20: Any paranormal experiences?

21: Do you want kids? If yes, how many/what would you name them?

22: Extrovert or introvert?

23: Any other blogs?

24: If you had one day to live, what would you do before you died?

25: Describe your music taste in one word?

26: One thing that always makes you happy no matter what?

27: Biggest fear/fears?

28: What motto do you live your life by?

29: If you had 3 wishes, what would you wish for?

30: What’s your favorite time of the year?

Pt. 2

Omg I just got unreasonably nostalgic about In the End by Linkin Park. like the generation of deep 14 year old boys posting lyrics to that song as their status is over.


Class Appreciation Week, Day 4: Favourite Theme

“For the road is full of the unreturned as through the night they roam.”

April’s song does not only set the tone for the episode it lends its name too, the haunting tune beautifully ties together the themes which drives Class’ first series. Charlie, Quill, Ram, Tanya, April, Charlie, Quill… They’re already set apart by their status as outsiders, by their otherness. That of an aliens, so very far from everything they knew. Or that of a 14-year-old struggling to be considered an equal by class mates three years older than her.

Now they’ve fallen out of their worlds completely. Stumbled into a territory where there is no longer a path. While those around them appear to be able to overlook death and destruction, they cannot help but see. Their grief is striking in its power, it tears them apart at the seams. Their sense of morality is challeged, over and over again, until the unspeakable is the only option left: genocide. But even if war is your very nature, it can leave you stranded - Quill has achieved her revenge on those who killed her people and has saved her greatest enemy from death, but what is there left for her now?

They can never return to what was. They cannot unsee what they have witessed, what has changed them forever. They cannot undo what they have done. Rhodia and Quill will remain gone, in the shadows of history. Ram’s father and Tanya’s mother are dead. In these (until now) final moments with Class’ characters, they are more lost than ever. But there is hope, nonetheless. The hope they’ve always had.

”For the lost may greet lost souls they meet, and each may find their home.”

anonymous asked:

yeah hi can we NOT make a song sung by an underage boy into the new fetish meme? like, you just got on the notion of traps being bad, but this gets a free pass for????? no reason?

you do… realize that the song was written not by an underage boy but a 29 year old woman 

and that pointing out that said 29 year old’s love for Extremely Large Women clearly influences how they write is not the same as actively fetishizing a fictional 14 year old trans kid.

Elagabalus: The Transgender Roman Emperor

Reign: 8 June 218 – 11 March 222

Caesar Marcus Aurelius Antoninus Augustus was 14 years old when he became Roman Emperor. He is known to history as Elagabalus because he was from birth the high priest of the androgynous sun deity Elagabal. Elagabalus is recorded as having been one of the most infamous and degenerate figures in Roman history.

Elagabalus married and divorced five women but his most stable relationship seems to have been his chariot driver, a blond slave from Caria name Hierocles, whom he referred to as his husband. He married a man name Zoticus, an athlete from Smyrna, in a pubic ceremony at Rome.

When he was married to Hierocles, Elagabalus would dress like a woman and allow himself to be caught in the act of adultery by his husband, who would then beat him as husbands were then allowed to beat their wives.

Elagabalus would paint his eyes, epilate his hair and wear wigs before prostituting himself in taverns, brothels, and even in the imperial palace: 

“Finally, he set aside a room in the palace and there committed his indecencies, always standing nude at the door of the room, as the harlots do, and shaking the curtain which hung from gold rings, while in a soft and melting voice he solicited the passers-by. There were, of course, men who had been specially instructed to play their part. For, as in other matters, so in this business, too, he had numerous agents who sought out those who could best please him by the size of their penis. He would collect money from his patrons and give himself airs over his gains; he would also dispute with his associates in this shameful occupation, claiming that he had more lovers than they and took in more money.”

He was described as having been “delighted to be called the mistress, the wife, the queen of Hierocles” and was reported to have offered vast sums of money to any physician who could equip him with female genitalia.

One of his palace orgies was the scene of an inadvertent massacre when so many flower petals were showered upon the banquet guests that dozens of people suffocated to death as they reclined on their couches.

He was known to harness teams of naked women to his chariot and whip them as they pulled him around the palace grounds.

On his head, he wore a crown in the shape of a tiara, glittering with gold and precious stones.

He preferred to spend his days in the company of the palace women, singing, dancing and weaving.

The soldiers were revolted at the sight of him. With his face made up more elaborately than a modest woman, he was effeminately dressed up in golden necklaces and soft clothes, dancing for everyone to see.

At the age of 18, in March 222 AD, Rome’s soldiers finally rebelled against their Emperor. After slaughtering his minions and tearing out their vital organs, they then fell upon Elagabalus as he hid cowering in a latrine. After killing him, they dragged his body through the streets by a hook and attempted to stuff it into a sewer. When it proved too big, they threw him into the River Tiber.

i can’t believe i’ve come so far.

to think that there was a time when i was a 14 year old boy tapping his feet on the floor of the school bus to a song that a friend he met in a youtube comments section showed him

he’d never heard drums go that fast before, he didn’t know that they even could

he’d never heard a nexus preset before

never heard the tight bop of an amen snare

completely mesmerized, overflowing with energy, tapping that fucking foot a million miles per hour, just wishing he could get home so he could ride his skateboard and not worry about how bad he felt in the boy’s locker room that day, or why he sometimes imagined what it would be like if he had boobs

pushing on his earbuds, trying to get as close to that music as possible

downloading ModPlug Tracker, getting discouraged

just wanting to grow up and be a raver girl

not knowing how to feel about that

beating himself up over it, denying it

burying himself in amen snares again

i’ve come so far since then. i’ve become exactly what i always wanted to be and i don’t regret a single thing. I really did it, i reached for that dream and i grabbed it.

But sometimes i do wish i could hear all those sounds for the first time again.

Arya Stark

“The wolf blood.” Arya remembered now. “I’ll be as strong as Robb. I said I would.” She took a deep breath, then lifted the broomstick in both hands and brought it down across her knee. It broke with a loud crack, and she threw the pieces aside. I am a direwolf, and done with wooden teeth.

D.Va vs Hana Song what's real here

I was scrolling through the tags when I saw someone mention how great Grimlin D.Va is all, but have you guys considered that Hana was at war at a young age?

Hana was really young when she was drafted to pilot a Meka to protect her country from a giant Omnic. Reason often people tend to compare her to Shinji, she’s only 19 but can you imagine a few years ago when she was only 14 - 15 years old and sent off to fight a war?

Don’t forget she wasn’t by herself, there were other pilots with her. Probably the same age or close to being her age, they fought against the giant Omnic together and probably not all of them survived.

If I was put in her shoes I’d be devastated since i know a lot of people online that I often play video games with. She know and played with these people for years, probably even had a rivalry here and there (she is a professional gamer). Trying to outdo each other every chance they get then suddenly all of that is gone. She and her friends are sent off to war, the rivalry and friendships she made over the years was there but now some of them are gone. D.Va is the Victor but like I said, it doesn’t matter anymore if she’s all alone.

Think on this and the maybe on all this. was really young sent off to pilot a Meka to fight a giant Omnic.
- She was not alone, there are other gamers
- She could have been friends with many of those gamers for years
- She made rivalry with other gamers
- She could have had a team like Cloud9, Reunited, and etc. All shared victories and defeats
- She watched many/some of her friends die or gravely injured

Head Cannons

- She thinks this is all a game because it helps her cope with the friends/family she lost. Makes it easier on her.
- She wants everyone to see her and her friends struggle to protect their country so they’d never be forgotten (reason for the live stream)
- She puts up a cheerful persona in public, but in private she probably mourns her fallen comrades
- She laughs at the memes about her, probably because she imagines her close friends making fun of her the same way
- She doesn’t have any close friends, since she’s scared that one day if she does die, she doesn’t want to leave the same empty feeling she was left behind when her friends died
- She interacts with her fans and appreciates them wholly
- At the end of the day when signing off D.Va would just curl up in her bed like in the picture and cry realizing it won’t be the same as it was when they were kids.
- In the end she just wants to be Hana Song and not D.Va

D.Va is a really deep character when people think about it. Grimlin D.Va is cool and all, but I think about this kids tragic life more than anything.

Online friends or Irl friends you play video games with are real people, real feelings, real personalities, real lives. Sharing memories of the good times and the bad over the years or even for a short while you’ve known them, it’d leave a hole in anyone’s heart knowing it’s all gone… and I feel like a majority of Tumblr knows how that feels.

anonymous asked:

3, 8, 14?

3. what song(s) do you listen to when you do art?

I usually listen to really calming songs like this/this or happy songs like this/this

8. show us at least 2-3 drawings from 1-2 years ago.


Huh… I guess a lot hasn’t changed LOL

14. what was something that you used to draw a lot that you don’t draw as much anymore?

pixel pixel pixel art Click here to see


Frontier High School Shooting 
Barry Loukaitis 

“This sure beats the hell out of algebra, doesn’t it?”, was what 14 year old Barry Loukaitis said when he kept a class hostage at gunpoint. On February the 2nd 1996, Loukaitis entered Frontier Middle School. in Washington, armed with multiple guns and opened fire, two students and a teacher were killed.

In September 1997, Barry Loukaitis was charged as an adult and sentenced to life in prison.

Barry Loukaitis claimed that he only intended to kill one student and the rest were accidental, but prosecutors believed it was a well planned attack. It’s believed that Barry was influenced by Pearl Jam’s song Jeremy, a music video which displays a troubled teenager shoots up a school. Barry was also inspired by Natural Born Killers, Basketball Diaries and Stephan King’s book Rage, also depicts a school shooter who killed teachers and holds an algebra class hostage

Years before the shooting, Barry Loukaitis’s family became dysfunction. After his parents got divorced his mother would frequently talk about suicide, even saying that Barry would also need to kill himself, but the young man talked his mum out of it. Loukaitis was also suffering from hyperactivity and clinical depression, taking ritalin. 

I can’t ever seem to sleep but these songs make it better. 


01. Soda Pop Fiction - Polyenso // 02. Slow - The Chain Gang of 1974 // 03. The Beach - The Neighbourhood // 04. Who’s With Us - Current Swell // 05. All The Pretty Girls - Kaleo // 06. Caffeine - Foreign Air // 07. Are We Brothers? - Paper Revival // 08. Whatever - All Get Out // 09. Black Creme - Hrvrd // 10. We Don’t Need Our Heads - A Great Big Pile of Leaves // 11. ILYSB - LANY // 12. Boat Rich - Dads // 13. 7 - Catfish and the Bottlemen // 14. Old Souls - Prawn // 15. Like Myself - You Blew It! // 16. Fair - Football, Etc. // 17. Books by Thoreau - By Surprise // 18. When My Time Comes - Dawes // 19. Hail Something - Dikembe // 20. Retrograde - James Blake

69 Questions

1. What is your favourite alcoholic drink?

2. How would you describe your clothing style?

3. Which actor/actress would play you in a movie about your life?

4. Have you ever smoked?

5. If you could visit any country, which would it be and why?

6. Favourite pizza?

7. Are you an introvert or extrovert?

8. Can you sing? What’s the last song you sang?

9. What would your URL be if you could choose any URL?

10. Who are among the best friends you’ve made on Tumblr? Tag 3 of them.

11. What advice would you give your younger self?

12. What is your goal in life?

13. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

14. Would your 10 year old self be proud of who you are now?

15. Are you a top or bottom?

16. If you were famous, what would you be famous for?

17. Are you more into looks or brains?

18. Name 3 songs you’re embarrassed to like.

19. Are you more likely to fight for money or love? Why?

20. What is your ultimate kink?

21. Do you hold grudges or do you forgive easily?

22. If a genie granted you 3 wishes right now, what would you wish for?

23. What is a relationship deal breaker for you?

24. Who is your role model?

25. What are you most grateful for?

26. If you could marry anyone in the world, who would it be and why?

27. What is your worst habit?

28. What song would you have sex to?

29. Where do you go when you need some inspiration?

30. What is the craziest thing that you’ve done with someone?

31. Would you give up a relationship for your career?

32. The Rolling Stones or The Beatles?

33. Books or movies?

34. Tea or coffee?

35. Beach or pool?

36. Are you a saver or spender?

37. If you could bring one dead person back to life, who would it be and why?

38. If you could go on a road trip with 3 people, who would they be?

39. Who was your first celebrity crush? And who is your current celebrity crush?

40. Weirdest crush you’ve ever had?

41. Morning sex or night sex?

42. What song always gets you dancing?

43. What is your favourite song at the moment?

44. Would you rather be a model or movie star?

45. Weirdest fan fic you have ever read?

46. Do you watch porn?

47. What is your wildest sex fantasy?

48. Do you have a phobia?

49. Are you attracted to people your age, younger people or older people?

The following questions are about your favourite band. You can choose only ONE band member.

50. Which band member would you get drunk with?

51. Which band member would you go shopping with?

52. Which band member would be most likely to have sex on the first date?

53. Which band member would you smoke weed with?

54. Which band member would you reject if they tried to kiss you?

55. Which band member would be most likely to have sex in a dark alley during a night out?

56. Which band member would you be most comfortable around?

57. Which band member would you trust most?

58. Which band member would you tell your secrets to?

59. Which band member would you go to for relationship advice?

60. Which band member would you take to a theme park?

61. Which band member would you date for 3 months?

62. Which band member would feel most protective towards you if you were to go out with them?

63. Which band member would you feel most protective towards?

64. Which band member would be like a brother to you?

65. Which band member would you have sex with without the other band members knowing?

66. Which band member would be most likely to dance to Dancing Queen by ABBA?

67. Which band member would constantly try to make you laugh by telling lame jokes?

68. Which band member would you want to have a deep conversation about life with?

69. Which band member would be most likely to cheat on their partner?

The hardest person to come out to, for me, was myself. When I first started to realise that I might be gay, I had to ask myself all of these questions, these really, really terrifying questions. You know, am I ever going to find someone? Am I ever gonna be able to have a family? If there is a God, does that God hate me? If there is a heaven, am I ever gonna make it to heaven? And those were all really, really scary questions for a 14-year-old. And then, throughout the process, I started to kinda build this self-confidence and this self-worth and I realised I am gay. Eventually I got to the point where I was like “okay well, if there is a heaven but I can’t be myself up there, then maybe I don’t want heaven.
—  Troye Sivan
When it turned night in the forest, and your breathing 
And your heartbeat were all my hymn and anthem;
When you raised my hand to comb your stubbly gold hair
And laughed, “bottle brush!”, at your former glory,
And your piecework pride, so I could smile too; when you,
Later, held me, sobbing into your sweater,
For hours, and lilted old Lithuanian songs,
Then was our trust and understanding beyond words. 
I remember this, and other more distant whens:
When amidst the sheared stalks we pledged never to break faith—
And even though we did, your prodigal love is
Indulgent and necessary to me as music. 
I unclasp my hand from the handle of my suitcase.
Your heart’s my home, harbour, fortress, fields of promise.

for @lietpolweek day 7 ‘Comfort’

prodigal: referencing the parable of the son who ungratefully left his family and later returned, or, literally: having or giving something on a lavish scale

(picture of man with tiny brain) putting mindless self indulgence songs on tord playlists unironically
(picture of man with aura and gigantic brain and glowing eyes) putting mindless self indulgence songs on tord playlists to be ironic and meta because tord has the personality of an edgy 14 year old