Hits you right in the feels. Listen to this dudes songs, he deserves way more attention than he’s getting right now.
Go ahead and call me a coward and say I’m not strong Because I’m not like you Go ahead and call me crazy cause I live in a maze Tell me how about you? I think I live in my head, sometimes I think that I’m dead I hide behind my youth No, I been losing my mind and I’m a little behind Step inside my shoes Cause I’ve never been happy with myself And I don’t need no one feeling bad for me Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me Behind closed doors Just close the door, let me be by myself Just me and myself I’m tired of living, I cry, I hear it’s easy to die I wanna see for myself And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else But I’m depressed as fuck Stressed as fuck Ain’t no medicine that could cure what’s the test as drugs I mean, I need extra love And that ain’t even enough ‘Said that ain’t even enough And where the fuck is God? (God, god) Damn, maybe I ain’t believing enough And today we gonna see if he’s real And if he is, I guess I’m probably going to hell Look, I ain’t wanna die like this I ain’t picture my life like this They don’t know what it’s like like this Pretending I’m happy so I can smile like this And laugh like you Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like woo Or would you feel lost without me? Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me And my mind’s spinning, this is the line finish Truth is, I don’t care how they feel about my feelings I made up my mind, I’m going out like Robin Williams I guess I’m not the Ordinary People of John Legend And I’ve been suicidal since the day I was nine, shit Okay, the day I was nine I’ve been tired of being bullied, cuz, stay out the fire Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time And damn it, look at me now, fuck Fuck, pens runnin’ out Shit, fu- *sigh* *scrapping paper* Look, just know it’s a new day But if you reading this Then it’s probably too late! *gunshot*
[Hook] Just make sure you tell my family It’s okay, I’m sorry But it’s too late, I’m sorry So much weighing on me I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry But I can’t stay, I’m sorry So much weighing on me Just make sure you tell my family It’s okay, I’m sorry But it’s too late, I’m sorry So much weighing on me I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry But I can’t stay, I’m sorry So much weighing on me [Verse 2] I hope you got what you wanted I hope you finally happy It’s too late for you Been going out of my mind You don’t know how many times that I done prayed for you I hope you hear me, goddamn it Cause I got so much shit that I wanna say to you I used to shine, now I’m all in the dark I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart But goddamn it, look at you now, it’s all of your fault How could you? Maybe it’s my fault I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doing Maybe I should have been more of an influence I can’t believe that you’re dead, I fu- I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it But I’ll forever be attached to you, damn Part of me feels bad for you A part of me feels like you weak and I’m mad at you And I don’t mean to be insensitive But I don’t understand how we couldn’t prevent this shit You took the easy way out Goddamn it, you dead I mean, look what you did I’m so fucking upset, how could you be so selfish? Nigga, how could you be so selfish? Now you’re gone, you done left me so helpless I wonder what God thinks I hope you in God’s place behaving yourself Yo, what the fuck you gotta say for yourself? (say for yourself) Look, I really feel lost without you I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you And my mind’s spinning, this is the line finish Truth is, I don’t care how you feel about my feelings And I’d be lying to you if I told you I’m fine, listen I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out I’m sorry this isn’t something that we both could figure out I wish I could hear you now Is your soul missing? I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different? Tell me what death is like Was it meant for you, brodie? Did the heaven support it? Are you fucking happy now? Did you get what you wanted? Isn’t this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling And you’ve been suicidal back day you were nine? Yeah, even back then, you was nine We was living on the edge, couldn’t stay out the fire Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time And damn it, look at you now Shit, but it’s a new day And if you can’t hear me, it’s probably too late FUCK
[Hook x2] Just make sure you tell my family It’s okay, I’m sorry But it’s too late, I’m sorry So much weighing on me I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry But I can’t stay, I’m sorry So much weighing on me Just make sure you tell my family It’s okay, I’m sorry But it’s too late, I’m sorry So much weighing on me I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry But I can’t stay, I’m sorry So much weighing on me
|based on the request: Hey, can I have and imagine with Nate where we’re at their house or in NYC for the Digitour and the boys are having water-gun fight, I’m talking to Nate’s fans and Nate will sneak behind me and spray the water on me and it will be all cute? Oh, and could you do it with the name Maggie, please? thanks!|
|•I only do Y/N, sorry!, 1.5k words, it’s boring af tbh lol it’s 2am and I need to upload something for yall so, it’s cheesy as and I’m sorry it’s so bad hahahahaha pls don’t hurt me, it’s not edited lol, masterlist is in my description homies•|
“Hey, Y/N!” A girl calls from behind me, making me whip around instantly and probably attack Emily or Andrea with my hair. “Can I get a picture with you?”
The guys are in New York for Digi NYC, so being the good and supportive girlfriend I am, I came along with them to cheer Nate on the loudest from side stage.
“Just attack my eye then, Y/N, yep, that’s cool with me, I’m fine being blind in one eye.” Andrea mutters, wiping her eye in pain yet still managing to roll her eyes with her intolerable level of sass.
“I’m sorry!” I can’t help but laugh at her misfortune, it wasn’t meant to happen, but what can I do, I have long hair. “I apologise on behalf of my hair.”
“You better watch your damn back-” She gets cut off by the shouting fans repeatedly calling my name. “Go ahead, Princess.” I flash her an innocent smile before carefully, avoiding hitting anyone, flipping my hair back over my shoulder.
“Hi! Of course!” I excuse myself from my conversation and skip over to the small group of fans. “How are you guys today?”
“We’re all really excited!” One girl answers, clutching her phone to her chest with a big grin.
“Who are you anticipating the most?” I ask, resting my arms on the metal barrier and looking at each of the girls.
I think Skates fans like me, but I’m not entirely sure. It’s always going to be mixed opinions because not everyone is going to like you and I accept that, but for the most part, I think I’m well liked.
I’m a huge fangirl myself (Nate hates it but he’s learning to love it) so I can relate to all of the fans on a more personal level.
“I’m excited for Sammy and Skate and the Jacks, but I’m more excited to see Demi!” Another girl answers, flashing me her Demi Lovato shirt and bracelet.
“You don’t have to say you like Nate in front of me because I’m his girlfriend, you know that.” I grin, raising one eyebrow with a laugh. “I mean, I don’t like him all too much, he’s really annoying,” I sarcastically drag, rolling my eyes in a jokey way. “But yeah, I’m always the one who cries backstage so.”
“I saw Emily’s Snapchat of you crying during sound check.” The girl who called me over comments and I instantly flush red.
Nate put his heart and soul into sound check just a few hours ago and I couldn’t help but shed a few tears. I’m very dedicated to him and his music and he has so much talent and he’s so under appreciated!
The others really liked taking the piss out of me and publicly humiliating me by taking photos and videos and posting them on Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat and Vine.
“Yeah, he honestly put so much effort into making those songs and he deserves so much more attention! I’m so proud of him, I just couldn’t help it.”
“I thought it was really adorable!”
“Yeah, Nate is really lucky to have such a supportive girlfriend who is there for him and his dreams and not his fame and fortune!”
“That honestly makes my heart swell, you guys are so sweet!” They’re the first of any of the boys’ fans to say anything like that to me! I don’t really know how I’m supposed to respond to it, but it makes me feel so good, honestly.
The group of girls introduce themselves as Sarah, Kelly, Morgan, Alisha and Sapphire and I take selfies with each of them individually and a group selfie. I get to talking with them about different things about the boys and what it’s like to travel around with a mass number of boys and only having one girl constantly by my side.
It’s a struggle, definitely.
“Where’s Nate now?” Morgan asks after we take another photo, locking her phone and holding it in her hand.
“Uh, I’m not actually sure.” I scratch the back of my head awkwardly. “He’s off with the boys somewhere around here, they’re probably messing about, annoying some staff and causing trouble.” Yep, sounds about right.
All 5 of the girls laugh to themselves and make small jokes about what I had said. I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if they were hidden in the food tent, stuffing their faces before the event has even started.
Sapphire clears her throat and quiets down her group of friends, “What’s your favourite Nate song, Y/N?”
“That’s a hard question…” I rest a finger on my chin in a ponder, even though I already know the answer. “Ride Wit Me feat Jack J, also known as Outro.”
“Why that song?”
“Because him and Johnson rap so well together and I know that he put a lot of effort into it.”
Also because Johnson is featured on the track.
The girls then tell me their favourite Nate song and why it’s their favourite, and they do delve into such great detail! One of them even told me their favourite line in the entire song.
“Have you met any of the guys before?” I ask the girls, resting my chin in my hand. None of them bother to answer, they just look at me awkwardly. “Is there something wrong?”
They don’t answer my question, just watch me. Did I say something wrong? I don’t think I did, I’ve been really nice to them and even offered to get them Nate follows, but I’m being swerved…
That’s when I feel a huge spray of water all over my back, a big pressure hitting the centre of my spine causing me to arch my back in shock and whack my hips against the metal barriers.
“What the fuck?!”
It wasn’t even that much water but I can feel my shirt sticking against my back and going transparent against my skin, and little drops of water trickling down the back of my jeans and into my pants.
I don’t even have to turn around to know who it was, it’s pretty damn obvious that it’s my extremely mature boyfriend with a cheesy, guilty grin plastered on his lips.
“Nathan Montgomery Maloley, I am going to kill you!”
I whip around, without attacking anyone with my hair, and face my boyfriend with a pissed off look. I rest my hands on my hip and raise an eyebrow at him. He does nothing but shrug his shoulders and smile.
What a cheesy ass bastard.
Ugh, he’s so adorable.
“You don’t really want to kill me, your amazing, loving boyfriend, do you?” He asks, ‘hiding’ the massive water gun behind his back and taking a step towards me.
I scoff a laugh, “Oh, believe me, I will.”
“No baby, you won’t.”
I completely deadpan into a resting bitch face and blankly stare at my cheesy boyfriend. Of course I wouldn’t literally kill him, not in public anyway.
I look down at his body and notice that he’s completely wet through, his black jeans are a shade darker, they’re going to be a bitch to get off, and I can see his entire torso through his shirt. These girls behind me must be having a field day right now.
“Can I have a hug?” He asks, taking another step forward and raising his arms out. “I want a hug.”
“Not when you’re that wet you can’t.” I take a step away but he follows me, only taking one step at a time.
Nate grins at me with a playful glint in his eye, he slowly pulls the water gun out from behind his back and aims it at my stomach, silently threatening to pull the trigger and completely soak my front like he did to my back.
“Don’t what?” He asks, stepping closer and pushing his finger down on the trigger harder than before. “Am I not allowed to show my baby affection?”
I roll my eyes and mentally start to freak out as my back hits the metal railing. “Soaking me with a water gun isn’t affectionate, Nate.”
“But babe, it’s so fun!” He grins, pushing the trigger down again and lightly squirting some water at me. “See! It’s just a bitta fun!”
“I haven’t got any spare clothes with me and this is already spreading to the front.” I whine.
“You can wear my flannel.” He says quickly and wraps his arms around my body, pulling me tight into his chest to make sure that I’m completely soaked, just like he is.
“Oh for Gods sake, Nate!” He rocks me side to side and quietly laughs in my ear. “Why do you do this shit to me?”
“Because I love you,” He cheeses, kissing the side of my head and pulling me against him tighter, I’m near to suffocation, I swear. “And because it’s fun to annoy you.”
“You’re an ass, babe.”
He pulls back a little bit and wipes his sweaty forehead with the back of his hand. “An ass that you love.”
“Unlucky for me.”
I look down at my top and cringe, it’s completely transparent and anyone can see my bright pink bra. Why didn’t I colour coordinate my outfit completely?
Oh, yes, right, I didn’t know that I would get attacked by a damn water gun so I didn’t dress for the occasion.
“Just shut up and enjoy my hug, love bug.”
I tilt my head and raise my eyebrows again, “'Love bug’, really, Nate? You’re starting up on the cheesy nicknames again?”
“Of course I am, pumpkin.”
I can’t help myself.
“This is why I love you and why I wanted to attack you with my water.”
7 Is there anything you used to like but can’t stand now?
Um this fandom? Most of y'all are demons. And lams again.
11 Is there an unpopular character you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why?
Um Madison? He deserves all the songs and so much more attention but the fandom only mentions him like once in a fic? And then he’s just Jefferson’s boyfriend or whatever. Like, i love jeffmads but can y'all actually give them both good characterization
20 What is the purest ship in the fandom?
philgeorges is good and soft and sweet thank u
21 What are your thoughts on crack ships?
I am a fan! Most of my ships actually make no sense, so there’s a lot of crack ships I can get behind
👏👏💯😭♥SINCE I KNEW THAT EACH MEMBER WOULD HAVE HIS SOLO SONG, I HAVE NOT THOUGHT ABOUT ANYTHING BUT LISTEN TO THE HOSEOK AND SEOKJIN SONG!!!♥♥👏👏😭💯
Both deserve this and more, deserve the full attention of the world. I love all members equally, but no one can refute me they are the most neglected members in the band, ignored by some fans and also the media. That’s why I am so happy and grateful, I love them both and their songs will be just as amazing like them, my boys, my angels. They are very talented, they still have a lot to show to the public.♥
♥♥LOVE HOSEOK AND SEOKJIN, AND PLEASE LOOK FORWARD FOR THEIR SONGS!!♥♥
One Direction Fans Launch #ProjectHome To Release New Single
If you cast your minds back to last year, you may remember that those amazingly dedicated One Direction fans launched Project No Control, where they aimed to get an album track written by Louis Tomlinson to number one in the charts.
The project went ridiculously well with Louis himself tweeting his love for the fans as the single climbed the charts and got played on major radio stations across the world.
Eventually, the song was even added to One Direction’s ‘On The Road Again Tour’ tracklist.
Now, four months after the four boys embarked on their eighteen-month break, the fans are at it again, this time getting busy with #ProjectHome - a bid to fan-release a One Direction single that didn’t even make it onto their Made In The AM album.
Speaking about the project, organisers explained: “The purpose of this project is to promote the song 'Home’, which was released on the Perfect (EP) and was not part of the album. The song deserves way more attention and recognition than it’s gotten.
"Our goal is to bring more attention to the song. We are fan releasing the song on April 29th after a week of promo leading up to that day. We are continuing promo after the release to get the song to #1.”
And trust us when we say that if anyone can achieve this, it’s One Direction fans.
So, why was 'Home’ the single of choice to be fan-released? Well, the answer is actually pretty simple as the track resonates with many LGBTQ+ people within One Direction’s huge fandom as the song’s use of gender-neutral pronouns allowed more listeners to identify with the lyrics - making this song relatable to every fan regardless of their sexuality or gender identity.
Pretty brilliant stuff, right?
There are a whole load of ways that you can help to support #ProjectHome, including joining the arranged thunderclap, tweeting about the song alongside the hashtag #ProjectHome, and keeping an eye on all social media pages to know the latest special actions to take place during what has been affectionately dubbed #HomeMonth.
the golden palace [x] a playlist of my favourite songs from musicals that i personally think deserve more attention (requested by jessiermuellers)
nine people’s favorite thing ([title of show]) // i’ll be here (ordinary days) // my next story (glory days) // disappear (the burnt part boys) // golden palace (now. here. this.) // she loves me (she loves me) // if i could’ve been (working) // marry me a little (marry me a little) // i love you because (i love you because)
The purpose of this project is to promote the song “Home”, which was released on the Perfect (EP) and was not part of the album. The song deserves way more attention and recognition than it’s gotten. Our goal is to bring more attention to the song. We are fan releasing the song on April 29th after a week of promo leading up to that day. We are continuing promo after the release to get the song to #1.
Q: How can I take part? / What can non-artistic people in the fandom do to help out?
A: You can take part by filling in daily/weekly prompts (you can find them all here along with additional information and rules).
. Doing art work etc. helps raise awareness and gets people involved as well as spreads links for iTunes/Spotify/Thunderclap (both for the release and for the following promotion). Fanworks are one way of promoting, but they are not the only way at all.
Other than that, there are lots of ways to take part when the time comes - requesting the song on radio stations, tweeting with the hashtag #ProjectHome, supporting the Thunderclaps, buying/gifting the song, shazaming it, requesting it on the charts, streaming it on Spotify, reblogging other people’s art and therefore spreading the links and raising awareness. We will let you know specifically how to do all these other actions (along with links, radio stations etc.) in a post before the project kicks off. For the weekly prompts you can share your own experiences and your stories too!
I really hope one of our “feminist
icons” will prove me wrong soon but I feel like most of the females in the
industry use feminism as a way to defend themselves & their actions. They
use it when it’s convenient for them to use it or when they’re trying to make a
good point. If something happens to another female in the industry (and she’s
not their friend), they go completely silent and we don’t hear them at all. By
example last week Kanye released a stupid song in which he says he made Taylor Swift
famous and all of her friends defended her on twitter. Today we heard that
Kesha might not win her trial and no one’s defending her on twitter. None of
our “feminist icons” are saying anything, yet they were all defending
Taylor last week. And let’s be honest, what Kesha is going through deserves
more attention than Kanye’s diss song about Taylor. In conclusion, I feel like
these women are very inclusive in whom they are going to defend, and they don’t
make me feel like they support every woman
out there, which makes me think that they’re not such amazing feminists and
shouldn’t be portrayed as “feminist icons”.
That’s only my opinion and it doesn’t
mean I am 100% right. That’s how I am feeling right now, due to the fact that they’re not supporting/helping Kesha in any way right now, and I really hope I am
wrong and that these women are going to start talking about Kesha and
supporting her, even if they’re not close friends.
So what can non-artistic people in the fandom do to help out? I want to be involved as much as I can, but it seems like a lot of the stuff is fan art.
Hello, love! There’s plenty of stuff you will be able to do. Requesting the song on radio stations, tweeting with the hashtag #ProjectHome, supporting Thunderclap, buying/gifting the song, shazaming the song, requesting the song on the charts, streaming the song on Spotify, reblogging other people’s art and therefore spreading the links and raising awareness of the song.. it will all be named specifically (along with links, radio stations etc.) in a post before the project kicks off. For the weekly prompts you can share your own experiences and your stories too!
Hey! So ProjectHome is to promote the song by doing art work etc? Just wanted to check :)
Project Home is to promote the song, because it deserves way more attention than it’s gotten and is not on the album. Doing art work etc. helps raise awareness and gets people involved as well as spreads links on iTunes/Spotify/Thunderclap as the song is to be “released” on 29th April and the promo of the song will then continue in order to get it to #1. Fanworks are a way of promotion, but they are not the only way at all. Streaming, requesting and trending on Twitter is equally as important. :)