this show was the first show to give me feels

“Bad guys don’t deserve to be redeemed” is a boring plot mindset and it’s cancelled forever.

Show me bad guys that think it’s too late to turn their life around, and then turn it around. Show me bad guys that think they’ll never be loved because of the things they’ve done and then give them love and support that makes them feel like it’s worth it to change. Show me bad guys who are bitter, hold grudges, lash out at people, and then make them realize that this Isn’t Working and want more out of their life. Show me bad guys that ask the good guys for help!!

The “villain gets what’s coming to him and is never seen or heard from again” trope is old and played. I want to hear from them again. I want them to ask the good guys to drive them to their first therapy appointment. I want them to struggle through apologies, not because they’re too proud to say “I’m sorry” bc tbh that trope can die too, but because they can’t find the words to make things better and it makes it feel pointless to try.

Make it hard! Make it hurt! Make them question who they are and if change is possible and make them find out that they can be more than the destructive thoughts and behavior they’ve adapted! Make them learn that having bad thoughts doesn’t make you a bad person, and you can choose which thoughts and desires you entertain and act upon. Let the choice to ignore bad thoughts and focus on positive ones become easier over time. And let them feel proud of themselves for it!

Real people struggle with these issues every day and right now the social message is that if you fuck up, you’re scum and you deserve to suffer and you’ll never be more than scum. Real people need to know that you can’t undo the damage of things you’ve done, but you can be better in the future. Real people need to know that you’re not pigeonholed into being a Bad Guy for the rest of your life because you’re a Bad Guy right now.

Nobody “deserves” to be redeemed, it isn’t about “deserving” redemption, it’s about working your ass off not to keep hurting people because you can.

6

“It doesn’t get any better than this.” And for you, I’m afraid, that’s literally true. You’re a nice kid, and you’re obviously very smart, but you don’t belong here. So, as long as you’re part of my team, this is all you’re ever going to be doing… suction.

in honour of march being #trypod month, here’s everything you need to know about podcasts! (part two here)

what the heck even are podcasts?

podcasts are audio shows that are either in episode or radio format, which you can download and listen to whenever you like, for free!! there are both fiction and non fictional podcasts, so there is something for everyone

why should i listen to these?

podcasts are similar to audiobooks and radio shows in that you can listen to them anywhere, on your phone or computer, and are ideal for commutes and journeys (i personally listen to most of mine on the bus to and from school). most podcasts are made by people as a hobby rather than their job, so you can support them by listening as well 

where can i find podcasts?

pretty much every podcast ever is available on itunes and spotify, and many apps for non apple devices

cool, can you give me some recommendations?

fiction

welcome to night vale [weird and spooky fantasy] is about a small town in america, where a lot of weird crap goes on, but here in night vale this is generally completely normal. this is pretty much how everyone gets into podcasts, and is a really good starting point for listening to fiction podcasts

the bright sessions [sci-fi] is about some folks with superpower in therapy trying to learn about themselves, their powers and how to control them. honest to god this is my most favourite fiction podcast ever, i love it with all of my heart and cannot recommend this enough. 

the orbiting human circus of the air [fantasy?] is about an old-timey radio show that broadcasts from the top of the eiffel tower. this is honestly such a joy to listen to, and has some wonderful stories with really interesting ways of telling them

wolf 359 [sci-fi and comedy] is about a small crew in a space station, orbiting the red dwarf star, wolf 359. it starts off pretty light hearted and gets pretty wild pretty quickly, so buckle in for a bumpy ride. (they did a live show and recorded it and put it on youtube and it is honestly such a gift seeing zach jump back and forth arguing with himself.)

the penumbra podcast [noir/fantasy/western/horror] is really queer. its great. the main stories follow a non-binary pi named juno steel, but there are other stories on the feed too that are well worth a listen (and season 2 premiers really soon!)

eos 10 [sci-fi and comedy] is about some doctors in space. its hilarious (the main plot arc starts with a boner that just will not go away) and the characters are super interesting. its been on break for a really long time, but is on its way back soon, so keep your eyes peeled!

the strange case of starship iris [sci-fi adventure] is new and really cleverly done. im still blown away by how cool the end credits are, everytime i hear them. its also about gays in space which is cool also ;)

the adventure zone [comedy and adventure] is barely a fiction podcast as it is 3 brothers and their dad playing d&d. if you have never played d&d, or think its boring, then dont let that deter you, because this podcast is the funniest one i have listened to. it starts a little slowly, so be prepared for that, but it really picks up a few episodes in, and griffin’s story telling gets SO good, i really recommend this one as well

dead serious [supernatural] is about two teens who discover that the local haunted house is actually Haunted and talk to the ghosts living there about their lives and deaths (this is mine ;))

non-fiction

spirits is 2 women chatting about really cool myths and legends, both old and new, from all of the world, whilst quite tipsy. this was the first podcast i listened to and i fell in love. i personally recommend the “japanese urban legend” episode its super creepy and super cool

dead pilots society is a table reading of tv pilots that are bought by companies but never made. they so far have all been comedies and include well known writers and actors, and are great for long journeys, as well as one time listening if you don’t want to get too emotionally involved in anything

my brother my brother and me  is a really bad advice show and really good comedy podcast run by 3 brothers (the same ones in the adventure zone minus their dad) who answer questions and give terrible advice that is hilarious to listen to. they also made a tv show on seeso recently, which you can also check out the first episode on yt!

international waters is a quiz show between british and american comedians which is interesting and hilarious, with different contestants each week to keep it fresh and interesting

i have a ton more i could talk about, but these are some of my highlights. if you want any recommendations, feel free to message me or drop me an ask!

Langst i thought about late at night im sorry

ok so i don’t have a lot of evidence on this considering i don’t have screenshots and i really need to binge voltron again but im making this off of pure memory so hear me out ok? im porbably looking way too deep into this lmao

I think Lance feeling like he’s a seventh wheel is completely justified. 

Alright so everyone has had that moment where you make a joke and everybody just stay silent like it isnt funny, right? Well if you think about it, Lance has those moments every time he makes a joke or tries to lighten the mood, all of the time. Nobody really laughs at his comments or even pays much attention to them in the first place, only gets glares in return.

Now clearly, Lance usually cracks a joke for comic relief, but apparently no one else finds it funny. For example, he comes out of the pod after healing and everyone is happy to see him.  But as soon as he starts talking, people just groan and act like, “Oh, it’s that Lance, he hasn’t changed one bit,” and act clearly annoyed. Even his idol, Shiro, acts fed up with his shit- which in some cases is justified, but most times, it shouldnt matter, he’s just trying to be funny lmao.  Lance probably feels, unwanted, out of place, like he is the fifth wheel because no one really accepts him, and everyone finds him annoying.

Its not even just with Lance’s sense of humor, too.

People always think his ideas are stupid.

For example, the iconic scene where he keeps Keith from running straight into the danger that could get both of them killed, he suggests his alternate idea. Keith- who usually thinks Lance’s ideas are dumb, automatically jumps to the conclusion that his idea is going to be. Before he can argue, though, he works it out and sees that maybe Lance’s alternate route is a good idea. 

People disagree with the way he wants to complete something, in season 2, Lance comes up with the idea to form Voltron in a situation and everyone vouches against it, however 30 seconds later, they end up forming Voltron, like he said, anyway. 

Another reason, people also think little of him, they underestimate him, and that all starts with the Garisson. He was told that the only reason he ever got at his fighter pilot class was because his rival was kicked out of school, and without that he shouldnt have even been there. Again, he feels out of place, and like he doesnt belong. Then, his idol, his hero, Shiro, shows up, and when he finally feels like he has a purpose, like he could accomplish something amazing, but then Keith shows up. Even then, he doesnt give up, he is like “um excUSE ME BITCH I CALLED SAVING SHIRO FIRST” And once again, he doesnt want his rival that always beat him to do that once again. 

And again in season two, there’s clearly favoritism happening between Keith and Shiro, and Lance is jealous of course. Like, he finally gets to meet and work with his idol, and when he wants to go with Shiro on a mission, SHiro chooses Keith over him. Man, I wonder why he’s so overdramatic about it. Its not like he was treated the same damn way at the gaRISSON OR ANYTHING NAHH

No, but clearly, he has an inferiority complex, especially when it comes to keith, because he knows hes better than him in every way.

People in the show also deny that he has any good skills, and even he himself starts to believe it, when sorta venting to the yupper. (i die a little inside whenever i see it)

I loved it when shiro gave him praise for once because it was specifically for him and not directed at the whole time. It was good job LANCE

And honestly the pride on his face was so heartwarming like omg thank you shiro for ackowledging him

im probably going way off track but anyway 

daily dose of what its like in my mind 24/7 lmao

I hope in season 3 they kinda bring his insecurities up again as a sort of conflict i mean- with Keith possibly becoming Black Paladin, Lance is probably gonna be hella jealous and im sure thats gonna instigate a fight between them, and now theres not really a mediator. So. Fantastic…..

Guys i feel like a lot fo stuff goes right back to shiro, how lance probably aspires to be like him, or be good in his eyes and therefore be good for the rest of the team but hes having this inferiority complex because he feels unappreciated. Like hes just that annoying guy they dont really need and they could replace him if they wanted to, and keeping all of those thoughts hidden or masked by this confident facade is like

lance youre gonna break at some point 

I hope lance gets the recognition and the acknowledgement he deserves in season 3 i swear he better not be tossed under the rug.

BTS react to your sexy performance

Request: A BTS reaction to you in a girl group and performing a sexy dance on stage please!?

A/N: yayy, more sexy requests!! time to let my inner hard stan shine ;)
I did not screenshot this request because they have requested to be anonymous! Feel free to send me requests and/or critiques~


Jungkook

Originally posted by jeonbase

Because he was in public, Jungkook would do what he could to pretend not to care about it that much. But even the members were able to see how turned on he was by the lust look in his eyes and the way he licked his lips while he watched your body up on stage. When you both came home he wouldn’t mention the performance, instead opting to just get straight to the point and pull you into a hungry kiss.


Taehyung

Originally posted by taedamn

Taehyung would just smile at himself, he knew you were a tease and he had expected nothing more when you gave him a seductive glance during your performance, his eyes would not leave your body once during the whole of the performance. When you both came home though, he would spare you no mercy as he teased you right back until you were practically begging.

Were you or were you not teasing me up on that stage baby girl?


Jimin

Originally posted by ultranicolet

In public and in front of the cameras, Jimin would simply give small smiles and it would almost seem as if he was unfazed the slightest. When he met you backstage, he would immediately attack your neck leaving dark purple marks before pulling away and staring at you with lusted eyes and a prominent bulge in his pants.

That’s a warning Jagi, if you keep teasing me like that you won’t last tonight” his voice was husky and deeper than usual, he would then turn and walk away as if nothing had ever happened.


Namjoon

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

Namjoon would be flustered to say the least, he would avoid watching you too much during the performance in fear of the public seeing his growing erection. When the performance ended though, he would immediately excuse himself as he dragged you to one of the bathrooms before locking the door and pinning you against it.

You need to help me baby, you did this to me” he would say pressing his body against yours so that you could feel his hard member against your thigh. 


Hoseok

Originally posted by junghoshikie

Hoseok would literally not be able to take his eyes off of you and your body, at first he would try to hide it by diverting his attention but would ultimately give up and just enjoy the show. It would scare the members how quiet he was while he stared at you with such an intent and serious look on his face. After the show when you approached him backstage in a more secluded area, he would immediately pin you against the wall and threateningly lean closer to you, almost but not yet touching you.

You’re a real tease, you know that?” he would growl.


Yoongi

Originally posted by minsecretsoul

Yoongi would kind of just laugh to himself at first when he saw you, it was both out of amusement and the fact that he knew all the guys in the audience were drooling over you knowing that you were his girl. He would totally have this really content smirk on his face as he leaned back and continued to watch you, when you finished your performance you would both come home and he would look the bedroom door and sit on the bed staring at you silently.

I wan’t my own private performance, dance for me


Seokjin


Originally posted by bangtaninspired

During the performance, Seokjin would be a laughing and flustered mess. He would be blushing like crazy but also loudly cheer you on in his usual cheery nature. When the both of you were alone he would give you a small smile with more lust than actual happiness before he would trace his hand around all the curves of your body.

Look at you on the stage like that… can you move your body like that again?


                                                  -bangtan angels-

okay but it’s so important to do little things for yourself that help you feel comfortable in therapy. like for some people thats bringing stuffed animals or blankets or their journal, but for me it’s spending the first five minutes showing my psychologist cool rocks ive found/bought since i last saw her. it helps me relax and gives my hands something to do throughout the session. theres no such thing as a “stupid comfort item/habit.” sometimes you gotta start your therapy talkin about what happened on your favorite tv show. sometimes u gotta show your therapist pictures of your pet or ask for a pic of theirs. it’s okay.

being comfortable in therapy is the first step towards significant progress.

10

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Reasons why Jon calls Sansa “my sister” this season

This was actually going to be a reply to this post but I ended up writing a book because I have a lot of Jonsa feelings so here we are lol hopefully this is clear, I tend to ramble

I actually think that the writing has gone this way for a variety of reasons

Jon is calling Sansa his sister to feel closer to her. 

During last season, we see a lot of Sansa confirming that Jon is a Stark despite his bastard status.  In fact, since their reunion, Sansa’s every action towards Jon has been angled toward nothing but inclusion and acceptance. We see it in the magnificent work of art reunion hug, with Sansa showing vulnerability in her face before she goes in and closeness in the way she nuzzles closer to Jon’s face.

Originally posted by daughterofwinterfell

 She apologizes profusely until he finally accepts and drinks from his cup afterwards. She gave him the Ned-replicated cloak (which was huuuge btw! I can’t even get into how huge that is, Sansa gave him Ned-level respect like!). Even with all this shit, Jon’s engrained belief that he’s not a Stark is still there. Then Sansa hits him with "You are a Stark to me.“ at the end of Season 6. I believe that this is where the shift in Jon takes place, and him calling her sister is Jon finally embracing his place with the Starks. Sansa made him believe he belonged every chance she had (which is a beautiful parallel to Cat who made Jon feel outcast whenever she had a chance ). Can we just get into that for a sec like Jon’s ‘I’m not a Stark’ view,  the thing that drove Jon away from Winterfell, the thing that made him hurt and isolated growing up, Sansa completely washed away. Thanks to her, Jon physically and emotionally has a place where he belongs, in Winterfell and by her side as a Stark, something he’s always wanted. And that’s beautiful as fuck. Excuse me as I get in my feelings over this full-circle type shit. 

 That being said, him saying sister could also be Jon’s excuse too. 

This is probably the more obvious Jonsa reasons tbh. His feelings for Sansa have been veeeeery volatile since their reunion (aka look at all the inappropriate chemistry )

Originally posted by daughterofwinterfell

Originally posted by maesterlemoncake

 and those feelings are only getting stronger by the episode especially from the end of Season 6 to now. Jon has been more and more aggressive towards the men that Sansa is connected to, so I feel like its easier for him to hide behind the “brother” title as a reason for his passion. Its very easy to explain away the hostile reactions with Jon acting as the “overprotective brother” than as anything else. It’s a facade that won’t fool people and Jon himself for long but I do think this is something Jon hides behind to keep his growing, non-sibling like feelings in check.

 Jon calling Sansa “my sister” is a way that he can claim or show his possessiveness of her.

 Jon referring to Sansa as “my sister” establishes his close connection to her and to others on the show. At first I was really sad back at 7x01 because it seemed to reinforce their sibling status but in actuality it gives Jon more leverage where Sansa is concerned. He uses it to enforce his closeness with her when they are talking  “You are my sister, but I am king now” basically meaning “You are very close to me/You are special to me/You are extremely important to me, but I have a higher status now”.

Originally posted by grahamewill

And Jon also uses is to enforce his closeness with her to others. “Touch MY sister, and I’ll kill you myself”

Originally posted by wolfmaiden25

I definitely don’t think it’s a coincidence that he’s using all this possessive speech and saying she’s “MINEEEE” when he got all these men to threaten ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just saying. 

And Jon can’t exactly say “my Sansa” yet so calling her his sister is the best thing right now. 


Another reason for the sister calling is to establish a Jon vs. other men narrative. I think it is really interesting that all last season when Jon referred to Sansa as her name , we see inappropriate chemistry, Ned/Cat 2.0 vibes, power couple, etc. But now in season 7, the only time we hear Sansa’s name is when her past love interests bring her up TO JON while emphasizing his reactions to hearing her name.

Originally posted by lyannas-loves

Originally posted by grahamewill

It draws an interesting parallel. Sansa’s name is being so romantically charged this season for a reason and the reason is Jonsa. TBH, it feels like Sansa’s name is what established Jon as a suitor last season and now the “my sister” calling is highlighting Jon’s fight against the other men for Sansa’s love. 


Though many of these reasons light the fire for Jonsa, there is a reason to dim the fire so to speak. The writers are so painfully obvious in their push for J0nerys this season so the sister calling can be seen as a way to put the attention off of Jonsa. To make them feel less threatening than the ship they are desperately trying and failing to make happen. “Jon and Sansa are siblings people, look at Jon and D@ny’s fiery chem chem!!!!”.  I understand why the writers would need to seemingly tone down Jonsa in the midst of the J0nerys set up because the actual JD scenes aren’t doing a good job selling the lustmance no matter how much they just “stand there and just feel the attraction” while our ship does more show than tell with our fire-lit scenes…..


Originally posted by lyannas-loves

Originally posted by jonandsansagifs


but that’s none of my business

¯\_(ツ)_/¯


Well, that’s my long ass response post. Feel free to add more reasons you can think of to this!!!

RFA+SV - MC gets a...pic from...some...guy...ok, I don’t know how to title this one.

Ok, to start off:  I am ALWAYS taking funny prompts.  I’m actually a fluff writer, but there’s a lot of crossover between funny and cute.  And it’s therapeutic for me.  I can do the angst thing, but writing happy stuff makes me happy!

Secondly:  so, like is this safe for work?  Not safe for work?  I don’t know!  D8

Keep reading

you owe me a dinner

requested: please can you do imagine where y/n is on tour with shawn and he proposed to her and then before the Q&A it’s cute and fluffy and shawn goes to Q&A and fans ask about y/n so she goes to shawn and fans see ring and ask about it and shawn is talking about it and y/n says something like “you told it first. you owe me a dinner cute ass” bc they made a deal about who spills the tea about proposal 😊 also sorry for my English bc I’m from Poland 😊

AHH THIS IS SUPA CUTE I LOVE LOVE LOVE

also teen mendes helped me out again 😂😂😂 what would i do without her

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“y/n!” shawn burst through the doors of the tour bus. you were laying across the small couch, not really having much to do while shawn was at sound check before his q&a. “come with me m'lady.”

he stretched his hand out to help you off the couch as you giggled at his cheesiness.

“where are you taking me?” you asked, following him out of the now empty tour bus. he led you away from the venue he was due to perform at in 2 hours, and into a small park area.

“let’s take a walk or something, i feel bad i have to perform on your birthday.” he apologized, again. you knew deciding to join him on tour would mean he would be performing on your birthday, and you were okay with it.

“shawn, its fine honestly. as long as i get to see you, i’m fine with it.”

he shook is head, “well i’m not fine with it. it’s your birthday y/n, it only comes around once a year! we’re gonna take a walk.”

you just nodded, interlocking your hands and letting shawn pull you along. thankfully it was a nice day here in new york, the sun was shining as you walked along the deserted pathway.

you loved that even with his busy schedule, shawn always tried to take some time in the day to spend with you. no matter what he was doing.

“i love you,” you sighed, thinking out loud.

he chuckled, “that was random but i love you too,” he kissed your temple.

you admired the scenery around you, the trees were decorated with little fairy lights for when it got dark and there were many gardens full of flowers as you walked along the path. you decided that this place must be busier at night.

in the distance, there was a lady walking her dog coming your way. even from afar, you could tell the dog wasn’t on a leash. shawn noticed too, hoping the dog wouldn’t run to him or else his allergies would act up.

“shawn! that dog is adorable!” you exclaimed, “i so hope it comes here.”

as if on cue, the dog runs towards you barking happily.

“hi!” you crouched down, meeting the small dog. it jumped on you multiple times, excited to see someone new. “aren’t you a cutie?”

the owner of the dog soon caught up to her runway dog, “i’m so sorry, she likes to escape sometimes. there’s usually nobody here at this time so i bring her without the leash.”

you were too busy playing with the puppy to answer, but shawn was quick to answer the elderly woman.

“oh no worries, as you can tell my girlfriend loves dogs. we don’t mind.” he said, smiling down at you and the dog.

“oh it’s very clear, she’s adorable. so what brings you to this path at this time of day? it’s normally empty.” the lady tried making small talk with shawn while you were pre occupied. he told the lady why he brought you here, speaking in a low voice so you wouldn’t hear him.

“okay girl, its time to go.” the woman called to the dog. “this cute couple needs some alone time.” she picked the dog up from your hands as it whimpered, not wanting to leave. you didn’t want it to leave either.

“bye! thanks for letting me play with your adorable dog.” you said as the lady continued in the opposite direction of the two of you.

as you walked along the path, shawn shoved his free hand in his pack pocked. sighing in relief seconds after.

“everything okay?” you asked, raising an eyebrow.

“oh what? yeah,” he said. “i was just checking to make sure i had my phone.”

you nodded, knowing fully well his phone was on the bus still, but you said nothing of it. it was probably nothing.

shawn released his grip on your hand, suddenly stopping a few feet behind you. you hadn’t noticed at first, you were to engrossed in the scenery around you.

“y/n,” he called, you barely heard him his voice was so soft. you turned around, greeted with shawn on one knew in front of you. you covered your mouth with your right hand, tears already welling up in your eyes. he grabbed your free hand quickly before beginning to talk.

“i was gonna do this tonight on stage but i couldn’t wait another minute. y/n when i first saw you at geoff’s birthday party i was left speechless because you were beyond gorgeous. i asked you out that night and lucky for me you said yes and i will never forget that. you gave me a chance and showed me beautiful things i never would’ve seen without you, when i fell in love with you it felt like magic and i want to make you feel the same now will you give me another chance but to let me show you unimaginable things this time and marry me?”

you simply nodded, not being able to form proper words or sentences right now. you held your left hand out for him to slip the beautiful ring on, as he did. both your smiles were probably the widest they have ever been.

“i love you,” you finally managed to get out, smashing your lips onto his. once you pulled away, he pulled you into him, kissing the top of your head multiple times. you stayed in his embrace for what seemed like hours until your phone started ringing.

sighing, you pulled away from shawn to check the caller ID. it was andrew, most likely looking for shawn. you put it on speaker before it connected.

“hello?”

“y/n where is shawn?” andrew asked, “he needs to be at the q and a in 30 minutes!”

shawn’s eyes widened, completely forgetting about the q&a.

“sorry andrew, we’ll be there. we just took a walk for a bit.”

andrew sighed, saying goodbye and hanging up the phone. you stuffed your phone into your back pocket and reconnected your hand with shawn’s.

as you walked, you admired the ring that now had a permanent place on your left hand. it was stunning, it was exactly what you wanted.

“do you like it?” shawn asked, noticing you admiring it. “if you don’t we can change it.”

“no,” you smiled, shaking your head. “it’s perfect. i love it, it’s exactly how i pictured it to be. i’m glad you didn’t wait until later to do this.”

“me too,” he smiled. “but are we gonna announce it right away?”

“well everyone on the team is going to see it, but maybe we could have a little fun with announcing it.” you smirked.

“oh yeah? like what?”

“well,” you grinned, a plan was already forming. “whoever spills about the engagement first before announcing it, owes the other person a dinner.”

“oh you’re on!” shawn exclaimed.

you arrived at the venue quicker than expected, the two of you entering through the back and finding your way to shawn’s dressing room.

“sorry i’m late!” shawn said as the two of you burst through the doors. “we got a little distracted.”

you blushed, smiling at the ground.

“i’ll say,” geoff interrupted. “y/n is that new?” he motioned to the ring shawn had placed on your finger only minutes ago.

shawn nodded, “i couldn’t wait until later, she was playing with this dog and i just had to do it.

“congrats man!”

the crew in the dressing room congratulated the two of you multiple times. you told them you weren’t announcing it right away when they tried to take videos of you for instagram and snapchat.

“i hate to break this up,” andrew interrupted. “but shawn you have to go to the q&a.”

he nodded, quickly kissing you before exiting the room with the rest of his team leaving you alone in the dressing room.

not even 10 minutes later, geoff appeared at the door, letting you know shawn wanted you to come out there. apparently the fans had asked about you.

you followed him to the small room where the q&a was being held, the room erupted in screams once you walked in.

you shyly waved, unfortunately you already forgot about the ring and you waved with your left hand.

“hey, a few of them wanted to say happy birthday.” shawn said, wrapping his arm around you as you stood next to the table where he sat.

“thank you.” you blushed, not enjoying having this much attention plus almost 100 cameras on you.

shawn picked a girl near the front to ask a question.

“this one is actually for y/n,” she said. “is that an engagement ring on your finger?”

you looked at shawn, hoping he would answer. mostly because you didn’t like to talk in front of so many people, but you also wanted a free dinner.

“it actually is,” he beamed as the crowed erupted in cheers yet again. you listened as he told them the details of what happened, so much for keeping it a secret.

“also shawn,” you butted in once he finished the story. “you told first.”

his eyes widened, “oh shit, so much for that.”

“tough luck,” you patted his chest. “you owe me a dinner babe.”

Uchiha Family Analysis Episode 22

I wanted to not post anything until the next episode and then I was going to post an analysis of Gaiden but everybody has been so sweet with the messages and comments, I wanted to just leave a short analysis for episode 22. Thank you so much for all the love ❤️❤️ Let’s start off with Mamakura in this scene…

My interpretation of this scene was that Sakura is coming to her own realization and understanding of her daughter’s emotional trauma in regards to Sasuke. She always knew Sarada was struggling with the fact that she knew little about her dad and the trauma she must have experience with activating her Sharingan at a young age, but she always believed that Sarada would come to realize with time the depth of her dad’s love because they are “connected” by love. In the flashback, she adorably imitates Sasuke’s voice and phrasing by poking Sarada’s forehead telling her “I’ll tell you next time.” When Shin mentions that the bond between a child and parent is merely just a genetic transmission to promote evolution, Sakura vehemently denies it because she believes that “feelings of love” creates a connection not blood just as the rest of Team 7, Sasuke and Naruto, have learned. However, she is realizing that by keeping things secretive regarding Sasuke in order to protect her, Sarada could have misunderstand her bond with Sasuke just as Shin is.  Despite being told how much her dad cares about her, it is hard for a child to understand “feelings of love.” It would be understandable for Sarada to feel an empty “blood connection” rather than the “feelings of love” connection Sakura herself feels towards Sasuke.  Sakura now realizes that she needs to show this “feelings of love” connection to Sarada and show her first-hand how connected her and Sasuke really are. (The battle scene better be EPIC!)

Side Note: I am just gushing over how adorable our little Uchiha princess looks in this scene and Sakura rightly deserves the most beautiful kunochi title IMO.

Now to the next scene. SP this scene was not needed because we get Sasuke and there are so many more valuable CANON parts to animate, but if you are going to give me lemons I will try to make lemonade out of it. @hope2findthelight 😉 😉 😉

I’m going to interpret this scene positively and say that SP included it in order to further highlight how an aspect of her father’s personality that Sarada needs to learn is that Sasuke’s words sometimes don’t match his actions. In the first photo, you could obviously see the distress on his face, which Naruto understands well being well-versed with his method of communication, but Sarada knows little about her father’s personality. Sasuke is not a man of words, but rather a man of action and silent communication. He doesn’t need to react and openly display or express his worry. This ties into this feelings towards Sakura and how they are connected by feelings of love and how one simple look is worth thousands of words in expressing their longing, love, and understanding. Additionally, some part of Sasuke might believe that he is teaching Sarada a valuable lesson regarding the Shinobi way and to not get too caught in your feelings and an even bigger part of him wants Sarada to not be anxious in regards to her mother like how he was hiding his mission to avoid causing her anxiety. He even refuses to take her along until Naruto reminds him that she is safer with them. With no traces of Sakura known, it is more efficient to focus on getting Sakura back as soon as possible with a rational and level head rather than emotionally reacting uselessly. Obviously, his words don’t fully match his actions because he tends to be a bit “careless” in his Shinobi way due to his emotional feelings or as Naruto put it best…

I find it HILARIOUS how desperate and hurried Sasuke is about finding Sakura, but at the same time he is confident about her abilities to take down any enemy she is confronted with. The guy is so desperate that he doesn’t notice anything else happening around him, like when Sarada ran off with Naruto only to return with a dirty look for him (Naruto gave him one too). I swear if Sarada and Naruto didn’t get on his Susanoo, I am confident he would have left without them. However, I have to say that I am so salty about SP not including the line where he mentions that Sakura would have “tidied up the place” by the time they got to her, but I am appreciative that we at least got “my wife is not weak.” I mean nothing in the line came as a surprise to us because we always knew that Sasuke believed in Sakura’s abilities even before she was aware of them herself such as back in their Genin days and his knowing smirk after she displayed her full power in Shippuden. However, I just loved how he threw it in Orochimaru’s smug face…it was so satisfying. Sasuke was being so abrupt and brusque with his questioning that even the great Orochimaru seemed so insulted by his lack of manners. What he fails to realize is that there is no room for manners when Sasuke’s WIFE is missing. My wife my wife Sasuke was just perfect in this episode.  😂 😂

Just see how reacts in this scene…

You can see Sasuke straining to keep calm and be rational, but he struggles because he is overcome by anger towards the person who endangered his child and wife. He is downright threatening Orochimaru and cannot contain his anger. The last screenshot is interesting to me because it connects with a parallel theme throughout the manga and anime in which whenever Sasuke is in danger of expressing his true emotions, his facial expressions are concealed. We are not allowed to see his emotions as viewers because Sasuke the character will not show it to us. It is my absolute favorite parallel.

See here…

And even in the last episode when he was discussing Sarada. He tells Naruto that he won’t regret keeping Sarada in the dark if it means that her future will be bright. However, his facial expression is hidden from us immediately after because he knows he will regret it but doesn’t have a choice in order to protect her.

Or in this scene when Sakura walks passed him. His face his hidden from us again because he is concealing the regret he feels in not being able to comfort his daughter and be honest with her. (Sakura is concealing some emotions of her own in this scene…she must have unfortunately picked up the Uchiha way 😂 )

Side Note: This image CRACKS. ME.UP. Just imagine if Cho Cho was there when Sasuke was under the curse. She would just been shoving chips in his face as he is laughing maniacally and planning to destroy the world. Cho Cho needed to be in Shippuden.  😂

Lastly, the DNA test scene. Sarada just broke my heart and her VA is doing an AMAZING job in expressing the conflicting feelings towards her parents Sarada is experiencing. However, what I enjoy most about this scene is how Naruto and Sarada share a common connection here regarding their feelings of loss and loneliness.

Naruto sees himself in Sarada. In the last episode, he tells Sasuke…

Undoubtedly, he must be referring to himself and how Jiraiya protected him from the shadows. He knows personally the pain and loneliness Sarada will feel because Sasuke is essentially doing the same thing.

And it is in this scene where Naruto imparts the most important message he learned and imparted to those around him throughout the whole show especially to Sasuke and now to his one and only daughter. This message IMO defines the Sasusaku connection, Team 7, and essentially embodies Naruto’s character…

This is what makes Gaiden so beautiful to me. Even among all the unnecessary drama, it’s true message is about Sakura, Sasuke and Naruto all trying to teach Sarada that feelings of love are the only connection you really need. They all learned about this connection from being part of Team 7 and they want to impart this lesson to Sarada who represents one aspect of each member of Team 7: Sasuke and Sakura’s love and Naruto’s dream.

Sakura, by being the amazing mom she is, has been teaching her all along that feelings of love is what creates a connection. That’s why Sarada realizes that she cannot leave her mother and needs to save her because feelings of love connect them even if blood doesn’t (she is obviously misunderstanding the blood connection). In the next episode, Sarada will learn this lesson about how people are connected by feelings of love despite distances whether it be a physical distance like with Sasuke or a biological distance as she believes currently with Sakura. Sarada will learn about her connection to her dad through the connection she has formed all along with her mom.

say it with me now–

bakugou

values 

kirishima’s 

feelings 

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Despecable me 3 has been released these last days so I guess I can put some stuff I did. I have no idea if this sequence is still in the movie, I guess not but I had a lot of fun to do it! omg it seems so old and crap, I fortunately improved a lot since I m at Pixar despite I feel I m so far away to my artistic goal.. neverending  same old shit.. but it s cool to show you also some bad stuff, this is reality..

I worked only 2 months on this show last summer, but it was my first real feature film job and the storyteam is extremely badass and kind so it s was a super great experience.  The more story  artists are great worker, the more sarcastics, satly, funny and great decent human being they are apparently. :P yes this movie is 90% (random number) frenchy :D. Thank you Pierre Coffin for giving me this great opportunity! and thanks to the guy who bravely put my name in the credits despite I was just a tiny shadow in this big production). Big up to the Illumination story fish ball <3 <3 <3


as you can see my biggest weakness in storyboard is to be on model, I m a on modelisshhh story artist, this is my curse I m fighting against, it cost me a lot of trouble.. I really want to be better at this.  but I prefer that than being non expressive in my drawing, so it takes time to improve .. it s too important to not loose yourself. I m still learning everydays!

Shawn's Tampa Q&A Breakdown
  • Shawn said he has a little bit of makeup on
  • Shawn said album 3 is coming next year!
  • SASSY SHAWN MADE A RETURN TODAY AT THE Q&A
  • A fan asked "if you could have dinner with anybody dead or alive who would it be?" and Shawn answered bob marley
  • Shawn likes pancakes more than waffles
  • Shawn answering the best & worst thing about tour! Best: traveling worst: being away from loved ones
  • Someone was calling a fan who was at the Q&A today and Shawn was like "Hello?" WHY IS HE LIKE THIS
  • "If a genie gave you 3 wishes, what would they be?" "I literally get asked that every Q&A"
  • Shawn's favorite theme park is Canada's Wonderland
  • Shawn's favorite Harry Potter is the 3rd one! ( Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban )
  • Shawn's mom and cousin are in Tampa with him
  • Shawn talking about the biggest impact on his music! (He wants his heartbroken one day) I hate him
  • Shawn was so clueless about the Harry Potter ride at Universal
  • Shawn said he wants to have made 7 albums and wants to do a tour just playing old songs
  • "when are you gonna collab with john mayer?'
  • "i have no idea, hopefully one day"
  • The most important thing to Shawn in his career is the shows!
  • "what cologne are you wearing?"
  • "i'm wearing a Gucci cologne, made to measure"
  • "I just watched the titanic for the first time the other day"
  • “the media always tries to tear celebrities down and how do you feel about that?
  • “I don’t give the media anything to tear me down about”
  • Fan : “what is your weirdest pet peeve”
  • Shawn : “i kind of don’t really know what my pet peeves are until someones doing it”
  • “what pre-show rituals do you have?”
  • “i try to pee like 10x and play an old Jimi Hendrix song through my speakers as we're walking to stage"
  • "When you posted your first vine did you ever imagine this would happen?
  • -I had no idea, I was just bored and it was summertime"
  • "Describe yourself in 1 word?
  • -Creative, I hope"
Show Me The Ropes...er...Webs. (Peter Parker/Spider-Man Imagine)

Request: uhhh maybe where the reader is spider girl? and they meet when fighting crime? Pete gets hurt and she saves him? I’m bad at coming up with ideas, gods. and ummm just ditch the whole sister thing though. thanks

I’m so sorry that this took me forever to fulfill. 

Requests are Open (just bear with me)

I hope you enjoy!

Originally posted by dceus

Originally posted by castlewyvern

It was creepy. Peter will admit that him staring at the new girl at Midtown High was a tad bit creepy. But he couldn’t help it. You just intrigued him even if all you were doing was looking straight at the board. 

And although he thought he was being discreet about it, you knew exactly what he was doing. He intrigued you too. But you weren’t about to admit to that, so you simply played with your web-shooter and your web as you attempted to pay attention to the teacher. 

All day it was like this. Peter and you never got each other’s names.You never spoke to each other. But you both knew there was something about each other that seemed just so desirable.

After school, you suited up to patrol the city. Of course, you knew that Spider-Man was around and your assistance was probably unnecessary, but you also noticed something has changed with your fellow web-slinger. He would only be taking on petty crimes or helping old women. He would never run into the dangers of fighting against the illegal weapons users/dealers or those worse. It was almost as if he was on a leash. And if the city’s hero won’t go head to head with those villains, then someone has to.

You thanked the heavens that your former nanny that was hired by your father was a seamstress and you were taught  from a young age and it eventually became a hobby. If it weren’t for all those years of pricking yourself with needles, then you wouldn’t have been able to create your own suit. Wanting to make it different from Spider-Man’s, your suit was white, pink, and black. Your good deeds somehow goes unnoticed, but you knew you were making a difference, you were semi-okay with it. 

You swung from building to building, never really getting tired of the feeling. It was freeing. It was relieving. It was simply spectacular. 

Then you heard the ruckus and maneuvered your way closer to it. You saw Spider-Man having trouble as two gunmen shot at him. You figured it was because of lack of practice and that’s why Spider-Man was having a rough time. You got ready to take down the gunmen, but your eyes focused in more towards the action and saw a bullet hurling through the air. You gasped  and as if it were instinct, attempted to stop it, jumping out from your secret location. 

But you were too late. The bullet shot Spider-Man, in what you assumed was your arm. He began to plummet to the ground. And you shot your web towards him and shot it up at tower crane. You prayed that the impact wouldn’t snap his neck or break his back. That would instantly kill him. Your prayers were answered seeing as he was able to regain himself and climb up your web.

“Hello there, Miss Webby.” He said as you swung the both of you to the top of a sky scrapper. You only nodded. “Uh… Thanks. But I got it from here. Don’t want a girl like you to get hurt…”

“Exactly. So stay here, Spider-Woman.”You scoffed as you jumped off the building, swinging your way towards the gunmen, apprehending them in record time. 

Peter swung his way down with astonishment on his face though you couldn’t see it through the mask. “I didn’t mean you couldn’t handle it.” He clarified. “I just wanted to Mr. Stark I can handle these things on my own. And your Spider-Woman.” 

You adjusted your white hood and rolled your shoulder, kicking the gun away from one of the men. “So that’s why you’ve been M.I.A. on big heists and big threats. You don’t want Stark to be upset with you.” 

Spider-Man nodded. “Exactly. But-”

“The lack of actual training is evident. I’m guessing he wants you to focus on being a kid?” You asked, knowing exactly what the feeling was like. You got ready to leave. “Well. Nice meeting you.” You said before shooting a web and heading straight to a sky scrapper. 

“Wait!” Peter called back and that’s exactly what you did as you climbed on the rooftop. “Train me.” You crossed your arms and jutted out a hip. “Please. I need the help and Mr. Stark won’t give that to me. Show Me The Ropes… er… Webs.” He took off his mask and your stance faltered as you took a step back. “My name is Peter Parker.” It was the same boy from school. No wonder your first instinct was to save him rather than take down the men. You were so intrigued by this teenage boy that turned out to be Spider-Man.

“Fine. Meet me here tomorrow seven sharp.” You said. You were getting ready to leave, but it didn’t feel right. He showed you his identity, it was only fair. You took a deep breath and took off your mask and hood. “(Y/N) Stark.” Was all you said before jumping and swinging away. 

The next day Peter rushed into the Avengers Tower for his “internship.” And who would’ve known he’d bump into. 

“(Y/N)! Er… Sorry.” He apologized. You gave him a soft smile and he felt his heart flutter. 

“My dad’s upstairs with Happy.” You said. Peter recognized the voice behind the mask and smiled. 

“Where are you going?” Peter asked. 

“Well…” You stepped closer towards him and brought your voice down to a whisper. “If Spider-Man’s in here with Iron Man, who’s out there protecting the city? Someone’s gotta get cats out of trees and beat up bad guys right?” 

“Yeah.” Peter nodded a smile on his face. “I’ll join you.” 

“You gotta learn first, Parker.” You joked, lightly punching his shoulder. You started running out the door.before stopping. “We’re still on for seven right?” You called out.

“It’s a date.” Peter responded.


I think this should definitely be a series or something on my blog. I really enjoyed writing this.

The Bold Type


Have you ever seen a commercial for a new show, and told yourself that the show totally isn’t for you? This was my first opinion The Bold Type, a new series on Freeform. A starting seeing commercials for it in the final days of Pretty Little Liars, and while I usually skip past commercials, I stopped and watched The Bold Type ones because I recognized some of the main cast from other roles. Katie Stevens seemed to be taking over the lead as Jane, a new writer in the female magazine industry. With her Aisha Dee and Meghann Fahy would be playing her friends Kat, a social media rep, and Sutton, a receptionist, respectively. My introduction to Katie Stevens was Faking It in her lead role as Karma, and Aisha Dee I knew from Chasing Life in her main role as Beth Kingston. Both of these shows were short lived and while I didn’t care about the premise of the show, I decided to at least watch the pilot because of them.

The show I found was way beyond any expectations I have ever had for a show. I was instantaneously hooked. I don’t care about female magazines, nor Instagram, nor getting the intern job for the fashion department, but within the first hour the show allowed me to engage in topics I never thought would interest me. The Bold Type to date has only aired 6 episodes, just 6, but with the emotional connection I have gotten from the characters I feel like I’ve been watching them for years, already tearing up on a weekly basis.

I really don’t want to give away what occurs in the show because the surprise and going on the journey with the characters I feel is more important than listing the reasons why you should. Mainly because Tumblr can’t handle the infinite reasons yet.  I will tell you that in its short run so far, The Bold Type has tackled issues of female sexuality, breast awareness, empowering women, questioning sexuality, race relations currently in America, strong caring bosses, going for the dream job, taking chances, and understanding the importance of friendship. 6 episodes. Also, every single character is amazing. Prior I stated that I believed Katie Stevens was the lead, but honestly both Aisha Dee and Meghann Fahy equally share the spotlight with Katie, all of their characters getting separate, but unique storylines that highlight the characters’ flaws and help them grow throughout the show. All 3 hit it out of the park with every other member of the cast giving A+ performances. This show destroys so many stereotypes per episode, I believe they will run out of them prior the end of the season.

Now some people will say watch this show because wlw representation. Some people will say do it for the feminine values and the empowerment of women. Some say for the cultural l relevance that the show has in this era of media. Others for the breakdown of stereotypes or the fresh take on magazine business or the performances. I’m not going to tell you to watch this show because of any of these things even though every single one of them is a grand reason. No, I’m going to say that as a person who still has no interest in magazines, this show touched me like most shows can’t these days. Everything about it is honest, some moments raw while others show the realism of the daily life of these women.

I urge all of you to give this show a chance, right now. This show has the power to change many lives, but we need to build this shows fan base and proves to Freeform why it is vital to renew. I don’t care if you like magazines or the New York life. Put in on in the background at first if you must. Pick a favorite at the beginning of each episode, I swear every time some other character will top them. Don’t let this amazing piece of art fall prior to letting it live a full life. I want to say some much about it right now, but most words fail me with the amount of emotion I feel when I think about this show. Make it to episode 6 and if you aren’t convinced maybe this show isn’t for you, there is no perfect fit for everybody. But give it just to 6, please give this beauty a chance to shine.

anonymous asked:

Sasuke did show romantic feelings towards Sakura. What about that time in chapter 138 in Naruto when they were fighting against Gaara and he rescued her and asked Pakkun to "Check Sakura" with a sad/concerned face? Don't try and tell me he did not care.

First of all, I don’t recall ever saying Sasuke didn’t care about Sakura, while they were part of Team 7. However, I do still stand by him never having ROMANTIC feelings for her and not really giving a fuck about her after the first skip. 

The example you’re giving me just reads as Sasuke showing concern for her well-being, nothing inherently romantic. Believe it or not, Sasuke is actually a very caring person and I do think he valued his teammates. He started to feel concern about Sakura and didn’t want her to be hurt or killed but those feelings flew out the window, after the left the village. 

Even by those standards, Naruto wins. Sasuke has showed more concern for Naruto than anyone else, when he wasn’t going on about killing him. Let’s look at a few examples:

The difference is that Sasuke has a weakness for Naruto, that he doesn’t have for Sakura or anyone else. 

I hope that clears things up for you.

Second Love (pt. 03)

Pairing: Yoongi | Reader.
Genre: Angst, SummerLove AU, Fluff & Smut
Word Count: 11.3K

A/N: soooo this is the final chapter. I’m surprised this story got so much support. Thank you guys! I’ll be posting more stories in the near future hehe

Pt. 01  |  Pt.02  |  Pt.03


Your body was with Mingyu, but your mind was with somebody else that night.

You couldn’t take Yoongi out of your head. All you could see as you kissed Mingyu was his gummy smile while he watched you trying to rap to the rhythm of Nas’ songs. His lips and how he swept his tongue across them to wet them as he rapped. His black eyes. His voice. His hums while he cleaned the henhouse. His hums as he ate Mrs. Gong’s food. His lips as he gave you that quick peck.

You felt Mingyu’s hands travelling up and down your body as you straddled his lap. The only light that lit up the room coming from the small lights than hung from the wall, reminding you of the ones that Yoongi had in his room.

For a moment you imagined you were in Yoongi’s bed and not yours. That it was Yoongi who you were kissing and not Mingyu. That it was Yoongi’s hands that were trying to unclasp your bra and not Mingyu’s.

You had been confused since the night before. Why did Yoongi act the way he did? He acted as if the fact that you were probably going to sleep with Migyu bothered him. But it couldn’t bother him… Right?

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Celestial Friend Part 1

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Title: Celestial Friend Part 1

Pairing: Gabriel x Reader (there are also some ass hole kids)

Word Count: 1,797

Warnings: high school (most of us have been there- or are there lol), fluffish

A/N: The new series is here! This first part is quite long, but I’m confident you guys will LOVE it! Feedback is welcomed and appreciated! I’m not sure how long this series will be. I’ll see where it takes me. You’re also welcome to suggest where you’d like to see this story go!

Series Masterlist

Another town, another high school.  You couldn’t remember how many schools you had gone through already this year.  Two, maybe three?  It was hard to keep track when you never had the chance to fully unpack any of the boxes in your room.  Your mother was a real estate agent.  She went where the biggest opportunities were, and those opportunities presented themselves fairly often.  She was good at what she did and the company that she worked for knew she didn’t mind traveling.

You were now attending a new high school in Lebanon, Kansas.  You moved so many times last year that you had to be held back.  You were going to be the oldest person in your senior class.  Most people assumed that you weren’t intelligent enough to graduate, but that was the exact opposite.  You educated yourself most of the time, reading as many books as you could.  Your favorite kind of books were about space and history.

You opened a book as you grabbed the paper bag that carried your lunch.  You were currently reading a book on psychology.  You took a bite out of your sandwich as you read about the frontal lobe and how it controls impulse control, judgements, language, memory, motor function, problem solving, sexual behavior, socialization, and spontaneity.  It was an interesting read.  The psychology of the brain was fascinating to you.

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I’m Not Sorry (Dean x Reader)

Requestedby anon. I don’t know if it’s angst but I tried, based on the song “i’m not sorry” by Dean. Enjoy!

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You thought that being with Hyuk would be great, he wined and dined you, he treated you like the most precious woman. You were in the industry too so you did not trust him, you were an underground rapper and you were around rappers and other artists all the time, so you knew the game. You know the saying “things happen when you are not on guard”? exactly that.

He started ignoring you, missing calls and dates became normal, you started feeling used and it hurt, he was only there when he needed someone to warm his bed. The worst part was when you decided to confront him, asking questions he didn’t want to answer.

“Hyuk i’m not a hooker, I deserve more than this, you told me I deserve everything! where did that go?”

“Look, I don’t have time for this”

He went to get his trousers and pulled a pack of money, he started approaching you with the pack on his hand, you could feel your stomach turning.

“Take this, go buy some nice stuff and have a good night OK princess?”

He instructed you, placing the money on your hand. You looked at him with rage, you might have been sad a second ago but now you were fuming. You acted automatically and slapped him as hard as you could, you threw the money at him and got up to get your stuff. He just stood there looking at you with a devious smile.

“Don’t EVER call me again, you are an asshole”

“Whatever you say princess, close the door on your way out”

“Go to hell”

-

You started issolating yourself, you had true feelings for Hyuk and seeing him treating you like this was a huge pain to your heart but also to your ego. Because of your unstable mind you decided to take a break from everything, from your friends, your studio, social media, the gym,everything. You stayed at home, you knew it would hurt your career but you had to do this, you ad to deal with your heartbreak.

Slowly but surrely you rose back up. You went to the gym, you called a few friends and you heared a few beats for inspiration. Of course your “no show” attitude made your name take a tumble, you just suddenly went ghost mode and people thought you were done for, you had to get started all over again, but you were ready to face the music and show to everyone that you still lived for music. 

“I don’t want to face him again”

“This is the best opportunity to put your name back out there, Show me the money is a huge show and can give you back your credibility. If you do get through the team selection pick another team, you have worked with Jay and he would for sure want you on his team”

Your producer argued back. You and him had managed to develop a good friendship, that is the reason he was on your case for applying to this stupid show, you had to admit he was right about how big the show was,but could you really stand seeing his face again. You knew good and damn well that he would feel a great satisfaction for being able to judge you, cause that’s just how he was, an asshole full of pride and lust for power over anyone.

“I don’t know”

“This is your career (y/n) you are going to throw it away for him? this will give him more pleasure than letting him be a judge. Even if you don’t go, you will have to face him, you can’t hide anymore”

That hit you straight in your heart. He was right, you have been avoiding him for such a long time, you can’t keep doing this, also it will help you one hundred percent move on from this, to finally see him and be comfortable with it, don’t just run out the room or refuse to go to an outing just in the thought he could be there.

“Fine, I will apply”

-

On the first round of auditions you were lucky. Tiger JK was the one that showed up in front of you to hear what you had, so you bowed and waited for him to give you the go 

(These are lyrics from a song I like, nicki minaj ft. eminem Roman’s Revenge)

I am not Jasmine, I am Aladdin
So far ahead, these bums is lagging
See me in that new thing, bums is gagging
I’m starting to feel like a dungeon dragon
Raah, raah, like a dungeon dragon
I’m starting to feel like a dungeon dragon
Look at my show footage, how these girls be spazzin’
So fuck I look like getting back to a has-been
Yeah, I said it, has-been, hang it up, flat screen
Plasma, hey Nicki, hey Nicki, asthma
I got the pumps, it ain’t got medicine
I got bars, sentencing
I’m a bad bitch, I’m a cunt
And I’ll kick that ho, punt
Forced trauma, blunt
You play the back, bitch, I’m in the front
You need a job, this ain’t cutting it
Nicki Minaj is who you ain’t fucking with
You lil’ Fraggle Rock, I beat you with a pad-a-lock
I am a movie, camera block
You outta work, I know it’s tough
But enough is enough

You were happy with your delivery, your voice loud and clear with a heavy amount of confidence. Tiger JK smiled and gave you the necklace.

“Good Job, keep working hard”

You smiled and put the necklace on, as you saw the cameras approach you to see your reaction.

“2017 will be the best year, watch out”

-

Now was the hard part, but you decided to make it even harder so you pulled a few lyrics you had written while heartbroken just to fully let it all out and actually show some emotion other than confidence and the common project of “i’m the best, I get money” that everyone was projecting. So you patiently waited until your name was called and it did, you took a deep breath and walked to the door before the stage with the put of fire.

“Ohh this will be interesting”

Jay said. He was one of the few people you had confessed everything that happened, he sympathised with you and helped you find yourself again, you owed a lot to him.

The door opened and you walked in trying to avoid eye contact with him, inside you were shaking but on the outsdie you just smiled and stood on the spot with the big X.

“Who was the one that passed you?”

“Tiger Jk hyung”

You answered and looked at him. So did the others, waiting to hear the reason behind it.

“She had very strong lyrics, she was very strong and neat with the lyrics so the necklace was very well deserved.”

“Thank you”

“Okay so let’s go”

(These lyrics are from a song “doin’ good by kittib and Verbal jint)

It’s the first for me too
After I met you, I got some sick time off
But things just got dull and soft
My growth did not become better

Even when you changed things however you wanted
I was so busy adjusting to that
I didn’t want to acknowledge this
But my heart is bigger, even if I became the weaker person

I remember back then, you said, “not you”
but I told you that
I got this someday
I hated myself for being next to you
I hated myself but I still believed in myself

I’ve opened my once blind eyes
I’ll put away the question mark that I had on myself
No one can knock me down
I’m turning the light off between us

I’m not a firefighter but now I’m extinguishing
So I won’t find myself in anyone else
Focus, look in the mirror
Believe in what you see, I’ll win it all
I’ll give time to myself instead of guys
I need nothing

You took a deep breath and pretty much got out of the zone that you were on, you didn’t really pay attention to the judges while you were rapping, it was like you were alone in the booth or your house. Although you got an all pass.

“That was a strong amount of emotion”

“I went on a hiatus because of something that happened on my personal life, so I wanted to come back here because I want to show that i’m still worth it but to also give a glimpse of were my mindset was at the time”

You explained looking at Dok2, who was the one that asked. They nodded and you waited for further comments.

“It was beautiful, we don’t really see others coming here and admitting feelings like that”

Gaeko commented and you nodded, it was exactly what you wanted to achieve and you were happy someone got the memo.

“That’s what I wanted, we are all humans”

“We’ll see you on the next round”

Zico chipped in. You bowed and walked away with a happy smile all over your face. You did it, not only you passed, you saw and performed right in front of him, with confidence might I add.

-

What you did not expect was an unexpected phone call during the night hours. You picked up thinking nothing off it but your breath hitched to your throat once you heard that familiar voice.

“That was quite a show you put on today (y/n)”

Dean. You had stopped calling him by his real name a while ago, since the fame had eaten him up and there was no real person behind Dean. You swallowed the lump in your throat and faced the music

“What do you want?”

“I know you want to hear a sorry (y/n), but i’m not sorry. Actually I think I should hear a thank you from you, since the song that gave you a pass was all about me”

“Is this why you called?”

“Come on (y/n). What do you want to hear? that I missed you? No I don’t, why you were hiding I made money. Why did you even performed that? to make me regret what I said? no I don’t”

You could not understand why he called you,he was just bragging, honestly you did not feel hurt or pissed anymore, you were just over it.

“Here’s what’s up Dean. Don’t ever call me again, you are an asshole that does not deserve any of my time, let me succeed on my own and please if I do make it in a team I would appreciate it if you NEVER come and talk to me. I hope you rot with your money in hell”

After that you hunged up. There it was, the pain was slowly creeping on to you, why did it had to be like this? why doeshe want to hurt you so badly? he called just to put you down, to rub his success on your face, he acted like you had hurt him and not the other way around. That’s when the question came

“Should I give the show up?”

What if he is like this all the time? What if he never stops calling you, can you live with him waiting to rip you in pieces? What will happen next?