this show is one of the most amazing things i've ever seen

dad and i watch captain america: the winter soldier
  • dad: oh god it's starting shut up i've been waiting for this for months
  • (movie starts)
  • dad: i don't know what's happening but the french guy fighting cap looks like french macklemore
  • me: how do you even know who macklemore is?
  • dad: i'm hip. i'm cool
  • me: don't you do it
  • dad: i'm gonna pop some tags, only got 20 baguettes in my pocket
  • (five minutes later)
  • dad: is that the Falcon? that's totally the Falcon
  • me: how do you know?
  • dad: i used to read the comic books trust me on this i'm an expert. his superpower was that he could talk to birds
  • me: birds?
  • dad: i mean in hindsight it probably wasn't the most useful thing ever
  • dad: if this winter soldier is supposedly a ghost in the machine that nobody's ever seen, and nobody will ever catch, you would think showing up in broad daylight and blowing up cars would not be his modus operandi
  • dad: how the heck did he laser through concrete??
  • me: idk dad it's nick fury he can probably do whatever he wants
  • dad: i'm sorry attractive nurse who just so happens to live next door, my heart belongs to a seventy year russian dude with a bionic arm
  • me: what
  • dad:
  • dad: nick fury isn't dead. justice never dies. he probably has a billion clones in some top secret storage facility, just waiting for their organ harvest.
  • me: ew dad gross no
  • dad: i really relate to that apple store employee
  • me: we all do dad
  • dad: oh that's that guy from the first movie! i remember him! he was my favorite, his eyes were so blue, and he loved steve so much. i wanted them to get together
  • me: dad good god
  • dad: he was a little less marilyn manson at that point though
  • dad: not that guyliner isn't a good look for this guy
  • dad: when a deadly russian assassin wears eyeliner, it's 'he's so dreamy' and 'wow what a badass'
  • dad: but when i do it it's 'you're too old' and 'bald guys can't pull off make-up'
  • me: dad it was halloween and it was one time you need to let this go
  • dad: so bucky barnes, aka cute cocky guy who died in the first movie, aka steve roger's best friend/boyfriend, is a top secret super scary brainwashed hydra agent?
  • me: mmm-hm
  • dad: called it
  • dad: do you think single handedly destroying jets is just a common, everyday thing for cap? punch a few tanks, feed a few pigeons, take out a plane, help old ladies cross the street...
  • dad: captain america is like your grandad minus the booze and the cussing
  • dad: in all honesty that was a little anti-climactic
  • dad: i was 100% sure nick fury was gonna descend majestically from the heavens, 'All I do is Win' blaring in the background, and single-handedly save everyone's ass
  • dad: scarjo and chris evans are two of the most beautiful people in the world and they are both in this movie and i don't know how to feel about it i have butterflies in my stomach i'm a schoolboy again
  • me: you know on second thought we should have brought mom
  • dad: where's hawkeye? where's bruce? where's tony? where's thor? WHERE ARE ALL THE OTHER AVENGERS AS THE ENTIRETY OF SHIELD IS COMPROMISED AND NICK FURY DIES
  • me: maybe they figured steve could handle it
  • dad: maybe they're all lazy assholes
Harry's interview on Quotidien
  • I: Can you hear me?
  • H: Yes
  • I: Welcome to Paris!
  • H: Thank you
  • I: How are you? Can you answer in French?
  • H: Good! A little bit. A tiny bit. Très bien et toi ?(very good and you?)
  • I: Very good, thank you. We start our interviews with “can you give us your five favourites words in English or French. Or a French sentence”. Someone told me you knew a French sentence.
  • H: Comment vous faites un café si délicieux? (How do you make such a delicious coffee?)
  • I: OK, that’s good.
  • H: That’s all I have.
  • I: Do you say it very often?
  • H: No... Yes
  • I: What does France mean to you? Is it something, someone etc...?
  • H: Best people I’ve known... I think her, *shows a fan* I guess. Fabien Barthez.
  • I: Yes, Fabien Barthez. Harry, you’re 23 years old and you’re one of the best known pop-star in the world. Everybody has expectations with your new album and single Sign Of The Times. Why did you choose that song? This is not what people were expecting.
  • H: I think I wanted to.. I've always liked music that made me feel something. You know I think writing it I could feet something I wanted to bring it out. I think it's a good indicator for me of what the album is to me. That's why I wanted to go with that first.
  • I: Billboard wrote that the single was "one of the more ambitious opening statements in pop this decade". Not bad, isn't it?
  • H: Thanks!
  • I: Do you have friends working at Billboard?
  • H: I don't know anyone at Billboard.
  • I: When we listen to the song we think of David Bowie, Queen, who else did you think of?
  • H: I mean, I think everyone, anything, any song you've ever listened to growing up or throughout your life or you've enjoyed, inspired you. There are a lot of different things. I wanted to just write and see what came out. I didn't know what I sounded like to make an album. So this process was as interesting for me as I think it will be for people listening to the album for the first time.
  • I: Do you know French singers other than Serge Gainsbourg? That's a tricky question.
  • H: I know Woodkid. He directed my music video.
  • I: Why him?
  • H: I think his videos are amazing, he's a really talented guy and I love French people so I worked with him.
  • I: When you're in Spain, do you say that you love Spanish people?
  • H: No!
  • I: It seems like everything has been easy...
  • H: Great tie.
  • I: You think so? It's French.
  • H: It's not a Spanish tie, isn't it?
  • I: Can I see your loafer? Oh yes! What is the brand? That's not French, isn't it? It's Italian.
  • H: No.
  • I: That's from the European Union!
  • H: Probably yeah.
  • I: It seems like everything has been easy for you, is it true?
  • H: Was what simple?
  • I: Your life, everybody wants a life like yours, with One Direction...
  • H: I mean, I feel very lucky to be able to make music, I feel very lucky to be able to make this, I feel very lucky today being in France and performing my song. I love this song. I can't complain.
  • I: What were the unpleasant things?
  • H: *thinking*
  • I: I don't know, say only one thing.
  • H: I think when you care so much about something, it's hard to get to the point where you feel like it's finished and it feels like you're adding and it never ends and it adds up. So I think the hardest part was getting into that point and be like "ok that's finished."
  • I: You said to the Rolling Stone magazine that most of the album was inspired by a woman. Really?
  • H: No I think, honestly, the album is much more about me than it is about anyone else. I think if I said the album is about a woman it kind of feels like, I don't know, I put a lot of work into this. I don't feel like it revolves around woman. It's a lot about me and things I've never said before. It's more about me.
  • I: How did you start with a boy band and end with a solo career? Is it complicated?
  • H: It's been a lot of fun. You know we were very lucky to get to do some amazing things and at the moment in our lives, we're in a time where everyone is trying their own thing and have a good time. It's been amazing to see everyone doing their own thing as well. If I can do as well as the others, it'd be amazing.
  • I: Do you call them everyday or text them? Do you use What's app?
  • H: I don't have that.
  • I: Why?
  • H: Yes we talk, absolutely. And everyone is bringing stuff out. It's been a lot going on. It's been a good time.
  • I: This is the album cover! Can you describe it? Why did you choose this picture?
  • H: Yeah. So, I don't know. I worked with photographer Harley Weir, I'm a massive fan of her work. And that's amazing and I was lucky enough to work with her. I felt like this was what I wanted.
  • I: Why is it pink? Why the water? Why your back? Why? It's beautiful but why is it pink?
  • H: I don't know, man!
  • I: Really? You don't know?
  • H: I don't know. I don't think I want...
  • I: Apparently pink is Rock'n'roll's colour.
  • H: Apparently so. I don't know. I think it means something to me and if it means anything to anyone else, I wouldn't want to take away from that by explaining it. I think the cool thing about stuff like photos and art is you can just leave it. You don't have to explain it.
  • I: Everybody sees what they want to see.
  • H: Yes exactly.
  • I: Have you seen this?
  • *video of people reacting to Harry's single*
  • I: Your fans record themselves while listening to the song for the first time. You can hear relevant analysis and apparently they all really liked it. Do you read what people say about you on social media? On Youtube, Twitter, Instagram? Do you use Instagram?
  • H: Yes I use it a little bit.
  • *The public disagrees with Harry*
  • H: Yes I use it a little bit. I mean I wish everyone was having as good time as the girl who was like that with her hands. That's what I do when I listen to the song.
  • I: Are you the one using your Instagram? Do you use your own fingers or someone else does it for you?
  • H: Yes, I do mine.
  • I: Do you still vote in Redditch?
  • H: In?
  • I: Redditch!
  • H: That's where I was born?
  • I: Yes.
  • H: I don't live in Redditch.
  • I: So you don't vote there. Where did you vote?
  • H: London, yeah.
  • I: What do you think of the Brexit? Welcome to Europe!
  • H: Thank you very much, thanks. I mean, I don't really comment on politics. To me, anything that brings people together is better than things that pull people apart. That's ... yeah.
  • I: Yet, you are in favour of equality of rights, men, women, gay people, straight people... That's politics.
  • H: I don't know. It doesn't feel like politics. I think stuff like equality feels much more fundamental. I feel like everyone is equal. That doesn't feel like politics to me.
  • I: Your fans are fetishists. They know all of your tattoos, piece of jewellery, they have heart attacks when you cut your hair. Right now you're playing with their feelings. Do you know that?
  • H: Oh ok.
  • I: Yes! What is your favourite tattoo?
  • H: I think... I have a.. probably. I don't know, actually.
  • I: Which one is the latest?
  • H: The latest is this one there. *shows Arlo* And this one. *shows Jackson*
  • I: Jackson? All of them?
  • H: Yes.
  • I: What's the story behind your haircut? How much did you spend on hair products with One Direction?
  • H: Yeah, like a lot. I used a lot, yeah.
  • I: You're in Dunkirk, Christopher Nolan's new movie.
  • H: Yes.
  • I: How did you do?
  • H: I auditioned.
  • I: Look at you there.
  • H: I am, that's me.
  • I: Yes.
  • H: I auditioned and it was great. It's going to be a really cool movie.
  • I: Harry, it feels like we know you since you're a baby. The whole world discovered you in 2010 on X Factor.
  • *video of Harry's X Factor audition*
  • I: You auditioned alone but Simon Cowell had an idea... he put you in a band with Zayn, Louis, Liam and Niall. You became One Direction. You found the name One Direction and you sold millions of albums. One Direction are soon considered as the new Beattles and you filled the biggest stadiums. The whole world was talking about you. When you go out we prayed for your eardrums. You became UK's pride. David Cameron is in one of your music videos, your sang for the Queen. But in 2015... bang! Zayn left the band, fans couldn't get over it. But don't worry, their favourite is now on the cover of the Rolling Stone magazine, he's in Christopher Nolan's new movie, he's Mick Jagger on SNL... What you don't know is that we've met in 2012. You were in France to promote an album and now I have questions. First one! When you're in a car and fans are all around you, do you see that?
  • *video of fans around a car*
  • H: I think I've actually lost my shoe there. When I got in the car... I got in the car and I was like "how many shoes do I have?" Yes I lost my shoe.
  • I: I have another question! Do you still do that before going on stage?
  • *video of Harry and Lou*
  • I: Can we do it?
  • H: No.
  • *does it anyway*
  • I: What is the weirdest question someone asked you?
  • H: I think it was actually a French interview. I got asked if I would pee in a sink... Yeah.
  • I: Ok, that's weird!
  • H: It was the first question, the first question.
  • I: It puts you in the mood.
  • H: Yeah.
  • I: What is the question you never want to be asked ever again? Did I asked you that question?
  • *Harry asks the public*
  • H: Which one? Oh crush.
  • I: What?
  • H: Crush.
  • I: Oh ok. I didn't ask it! Did you know that a French author wrote a novel about you. It's called "Styles", it's about his obsession with you. It's in French. You can translate it.
  • H: Oh! Is that true?
  • I: Yes it's true. He dedicated to you. It's called "Styles" and it's a really good book. Read it!
  • H: Thank you.
  • I: Thank you very much Harry Styles for coming tonight. His first eponymous album comes out on the 12th May. Thank you Harry Styles.
  • H: Thank you.
  • I: Have a safe journey home.

An overdue list of my favourite pieces and fic writers! The following is a collection of Jungkook x reader fics. A big thank you to all the fic writers included for inspiring me and above all sharing such amazing stories!

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Reasons why I love every SVT member

I have laughed AN D CRIED a lot because of this fine group. I’m sure many others can relate to that.
I would like to take some time to appreciate and note the members individually because they all deserve the world, thanks.
(Prepare yourselves, I wrote lots???? Like…. lots.


Some might say that Seungcheol isn’t fit to be in charge of the group. Well let me tell ya baby boyz why he most certainly is. S. Coups naturally has that fatherly type of image. Like “dad of the year” award type of fatherly. There is something about him that influences others to feel protected. He genuinely cares for all of the members and keeps everyone’s emotions in line. It takes a special kind of person to do that. One incident that spoke volumes to me was how he handled “Seventeen Project.” He knew when things were starting to take a negative turn and he wasn’t afraid to voice his opinions. (In a calm and rational way). BOI I CRIED. Despite the put-together (and sometimes tough) image he projects, he’s a rather sensitive person. The reason why he’s so supportive is because he longs for support himself. I think being in Seventeen has made him feel a sense of belonging. The mans has done a wonderful job and he deserves respect. I don’t think there is anyone else meant to be leader.  

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lovelifelyrics2  asked:

Hey I've read both of your Jughead leaving when Betty was pregnant fics and I don't know if you were planning on writing more but I would love it if you did. I think they're awesome and would love to read more!!

Sure! ThNks so much!

Betty stared at her reflection in the mirror, tugging on the soft white, strapless dress and playing with her silky blonde curls. Pregnancy had been good to Betty, her skin was smoother than ever and her hair was down to her back. She thanked god for the fact that she was able to lose the baby weight so fast, she was lucky, she knew that and she had her amazing son to thank for it. Another one of the amazing things he brought into her life.

“You look amazing. Stop messing with your hair. he’s gonna regret the day he walked out of that door.” Veronica came to stand behind Betty, placing her hands on her shoulders and resting her chin close to her face. Relaxing into her best friends embrace she sighed, her fingers smoothing down the dress.

“I feel like I’m back in highschool all over again, like I’m going to meet him for our Friday night dates at Pops.” Betty sighed miserably. “I don’t even know why I’m putting any effort into this, he left once, he’s just gonna leave again.”

Veronica shook her head
“Not this time B, I swear to god if he leaves you and Hunter I will personally have daddy track down the son of a ….” she trailed off at the sound of little feet scampering into the bedroom and crawling onto the bed. Hunter crossed his legs and sat comfortably, holding his stuffed white sheepdog and looking in awe at his mother.

“Look pretty mama.” He reached a chubby little hand out, still clutching the dog. Betty walked towards him and kissed his open palm before kissing the dingy white toy.

“What does hotdog think? Am I the cats meow?” Betty wiggled her eyebrows and spun around, putting on a show for her little man.

Hunter clapped his hands and barked, giggling and grinning.

“I’ll take that as a yes.” Nerves forgotten for the time being as she took comfort in her favorite boys laughter.

“I hate to break up the fashion show, but it’s quarter to six. You might wanna get going.” Veronica shrugged carelessly “or you can skip it, forget he ever came here and order takeout.” She grinned wickedly.

Alice Cooper walked through the door at that exact moment and instantly began cooing at the two year old clutched in Betty’s arms

“Go on Elizabeth, destiny waits.” She plucked Hunter from Betty and headed for the kitchen.

Rolling her eyes, Betty grabbed her purse and walked through the front door, waving at Verona and driving off in her mini van (it was much cooler than a mom van and she used it to deliver flowers, Thankyou very much)

She arrived at Pops in no time at all, instantly heading for the door, if she stopped to think she would turn right back around.

It was almost too much to handle, there he was tucked in his regular booth, sleeves of his denim jacket rolled up and a familiar slump to his posture, his eyes lit up when she walked in and she remembered a familiar sight three years ago on prom night.

Shaking her shoulders she slid into the booth across from him
“Hello.” She tried to come off as uninterested but the way he was staring at her made her breathing slow and her heart race.

“Hey bets.” His voice was cautious and shaky as he slid the vanilla milkshake towards her.

Betty looked down at the drink and sighed, here goes nothing.

Finally getting to look at her fully, She looked like the most beautiful thing he had ever seen, her bright green eyes were something he had never forgotten, but to see them again in person was almost surreal, his eyes lingered on her honey blonde hair, it was longer now and he physically had to grip the table to keep from running his fingers through it. Finally his eyes dipped lower, taking in all of her new curves, he remembered a time where he knew her body like the back of his hand but now.. now there were new dips and lines and deliciously soft skin, the familiar scent of vanilla and peaches invaded his senses and his eyes nearly rolled back. She was everything he remembered and so much more.

“You wanted to talk?” The sugar sweet voice broke him out of his thoughts and he drew his eyes back up to hers.

He nodded, taking a shallow breath before he began

“We had plans, you and I, we were going to go New York, become a journalistic duo, move in together, be a family.” He glanced up, his eyes catching the watery ones of Betty’s

“You don’t have to remind me Jughead, I know exactly what our plans were.” Her voice was small and she cursed herself for letting him get to her.

“Just listen, please. We had these plans and they were everything I could have wanted, hell you could have told me you wanted to join a cult in Utah and I would have gone along, because you would have been there. All I wanted was you.” He cleared his throat, willing the emotion to stay back until after he was done.

“But you left me. I was all you wanted and you left me.” There was a bitterness to her voice now and Jughead shook his head

“I didn’t want to leave, I did everything I could but it was too late. He found out, he found out about our plans, about us. and he made me go.i never would have left you and then.. you were pregnant.. you were all alone and I was gone..” he mumbled the last part.. the guilt was pushing down on his chest and he found it hard to breathe, his teeth ground into themselves and his knuckles turned white when suddenly he felt a warm hand cover his own.

“Who made you leave? Who found out?” Betty’s soft voice tore him from his internal fight and he finally caught her eyes

“Your dad Betty. Hal found out.”

Betty ripped her hand from his, putting it to her own heart
“My dad? What.. what do you mean?”

Jughead reached for her again, before dropping in on the table and continuing

“He found out that we were leaving together, he threatened my fathers job, he threatened to frame me for robbery, he was going to get me locked up, but still I didn’t care, I was going to fight it but then.. he told he would send you away, send you to the place they sent Polly, I didn’t know what he meant, I didn’t know what he was talking about but now I do.. he must have found out you were pregnant, he was going to send you to the sisters.. even though I didn’t know, I believed him, I thought if I left it would be better for everyone. I left the night he came to talk to me and I didn’t look back, god I wanted too, but if I looked back… I would have come running right back to you.”

Tears were streaming down both of their faces now and Betty gasped slightly, taking a shuddery breath and whispering

“You could have come to me, we could have fought this together, you know I would have been by your side. I would never leave you, no matter what. I know you think you were doing what was best for me but I was alone. I had no one. Until Hunter, he’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me and.. I feel bad for you… I feel bad that you missed him growing up, you would have been a great father.” She looked away, her arms coming to protect herself as she hid inside herself

“I’m here now. I know it’s not the same and I know it’s nowhere near enough but I’m here.” Jughead begged desperately, tears falling in heavy drops onto the metal diner table “I can be his father, I can be there for him, I can be there for you. Betty… I love you, I never stopped and I never will.” He gripped her hands, pulling her eyes towards his.

Feeling her resolve weakening she whimpered

“I meant what I said about us not needing you.” She said lamely

Jughead nodded
“I know that, but.. I need you. I need you and I need my son. Please Betty.. let me be here.”

Looking deep into the stormy blue eyes she had grown so familiar with throughout her childhood, she opened her mouth to speak.

Archie, Veronica and Kevin arrived at their booth at that exact moment, and the bubble they had been in popped, Betty pulling her hands free as Kevin slid in beside her.

Jughead was still staring intently at her, waiting an answer. Giving him a quick glance she let him know, this wasn’t over.

It would never be over.

ckihyun  asked:

36 + Hoshi <3 please please I've been craving some hoshi !!!

words: 1,014

pairing: hoshi x reader.

genre: fluff with a twist, implied smut

summary: “I wish I could hate you”

↪ a/n: this is what happens when you binge watch Grey’s Anatomy and remember how great the show used to be.

Originally posted by visual-17

Your apartment was wrecked, your favorite house plant overturned from when your back was pushed up against the wall the night before. The smell of sex and Chinese food filled your senses when you came to, the beer bottles scattered around and your kitchen island covered with various clothing.

“Hosh,” you nipped his neck in order to wake him, his naked body covering yours as if you were preparing to duck in cover, his arm tightly wrapped around your waist as if you were to disappear from his sight.

“Baby please,” he whispered back as he gripped and played with one of your breast, causing you to squeal and causing his eyes to widen with excitement; no matter how many times he touched you he was still amazed at the affect he continued to have on you.

You pulled out of his embrace and grabbed the closest clothing near you, a bath robe, and made your way to find the rest of your clothes.  

“Do I really have to leave?” he responded as he watched you pull up your baby blue thong and a loose pair of sweats, your face covered in a white tank top while he admired your body glistening in the sunlight, he couldn’t help but run his fingers through his midnight black hair ruffled with memories of the night before,he loved where he was, your apartment floor would hurt his back but right now, watching you make your way around fascinated him, he never saw someone as ethereal as you were in this moment.

You chuckled as he whined to convince you to come back to him, his pleas for morning sex was like a little kid begging for a candy bar at the candy store, you couldn’t help but admire your work, his neck attacked with blooming roses, a souvenir from the escapades of love making, a token of your memory latched to his gorgeous tan skin. You didn’t look any better; your thighs sore from the talent of his tongue and tender areas around your chest to your neck filled with nips and tucks, if you thought you had done a great job sucking a hickey on him, he made a masterpiece.

“I told you I had a very important internship to start, believe me I don’t want to leave our sex infested bubble but we need to work Hosh,” you explained as you made your way back to the shirtless man; you smiled when he gripped your hips and pulled you close giving you one last kiss before he saw his way out.

“I’ll see you later!”

You just didn’t realize how soon you would see the man you were so sure that you knew.

You nearly dropped your coffee cup when you saw him talking to your boss, why was he here? You wanted to scream, this wasn’t at all what you meant when you shuffled him out of your apartment with a peck and watching his ass as he walked away and out the complex.

Dr. Kwon Soonyoung was officially trying to get you fired from your internship, he was an award winning brain surgeon in his field but when it came to life outside the operating room his brain doesn’t seem to function properly.

It really wasn’t your fault though, really.

It wasn’t like he intentionally walked into the same bar you were drowning your stress in and talked to you or led you back to the bar rest room and fucked you in the stall, he never told you what his job was and you never asked; all you knew is that he came back to escape some family drama and you were starting an internship at a local hospital.

That meeting at the bar turned into a full on friendship, dates were turned into study sessions and study sessions turned into anatomy lessons in many different places, moans and whines and whimpers becoming background noise to every single thing the two of you did.

You didn’t expect him to be your superior, you also didn’t expect him to be married, to the pediatric doctor you aspired to be, most of all? You were surprised how much you still loved him, despite the living hell you were currently in.

“Hoshi’s married?!” your best friend and fellow intern, Hansol exclaimed a look of disgust now covered his face, his eyebrows raised as if he were plotting his superiors demise.

“His wife is also working here, she’s hideous and from New York and when I say hideous I mean she’s the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my life” you mumbled as you slipped on your scrubs, the 48 hour internship still ongoing and you were preparing yourself for the night shift.

“Can I speak with you?” you felt goosebumps graze your skin when his lips made contact with your ear, you were doing your very best to avoid him at all costs, Dr. Kim was furious when he discovered his employees were bringing outside life into his hospital and you wanted to keep your job, you loved this job, this was all you knew.

“There’s nothing to talk about Soonyoung,” he winced at his name being used when he was being given the cold, deserving shoulder for he was used to you nearly in tears of ecstasy and moaning out in an airy voice when he continued to fuck you. You were addressing him like he was one of your charges, your tone scolding the grown man for his infidelity, your voice telling him to leave you the fuck alone, your voice completely showing him your defeat.  

“You happen to be married and you never mentioned anything about that and I feel like a fool and I really wish I could hate you”

You grabbed the medicine you were told to receive and made your way out of the supply room, leaving behind a man with so much baggage, one you didn’t think you couldn’t not love.

If only you stayed just a little bit longer to hear him mumble how he was separated from her and that he discovered her fucking his best friend, another surgeon, Seokmin, someone he considered family.

anonymous asked:

Hey, I love your writing and every time I see one more I go running to read, even if english is not my first language. It's always so, so ... wow. Even when it is an au you can maintain the essence of the characters. Your Killugon are awesome. I do not know if she appeared in the manga, I've never seen anime either, but I wanted to ask, if you're not too busy, how Mito-san reacted to Killua being a killer.

This message made me so, so, soooooo happy, thank you so much for saying all those nice things about my writing ;;__;; the fact that you like to read my fics even though they’re not in your first language is so amazing to me ^////^

I really liked this prompt! I don’t remember how Mito found out about Killua’s past, or if she ever did, but this is how I think it would go! I hope you like it~

Canon universe, set during Gon and Killua’s visit to Whale Island

“So, Killua,” Mito said as she dropped the heavy load of laundry onto the grass. “Tell me, how did your family let you participate in the Hunter Exam? You’re so young!”

Killua gave her a questioning look, brows furrowed. “Why are you asking? Didn’t you let Gon take the Hunter Exam, too? He’s only two months older than I am.”

Mito couldn’t help the smile that tugged at her lips. It was true; she had left Gon to his own devices, like she always had. Because while Gon was obedient and always respectful towards her wishes, he was still Ging’s son. Ging had done whatever he wanted, and she knew if Gon was determined enough, he would too.

“Gon wanted to take the Exam,” she said. “He would have gone off whether I wanted him to or not. So it was better to let him go with my blessing.”

“Hmph.” Killua grabbed a shirt from the laundry and shook it once before hanging it up on the line. “I guess you have a point there.”

“Did you leave with your family’s blessings, Killua?” Mito asked in a teasing tone.

Her movements faltered though at the dark expression that suddenly appeared on Killua’s face.

“Nah,” he said. “I’m…well, my family didn’t want me to take the Hunter Exam, or leave home at all, really. They’re really annoying like that. So I had to fight my mother and brother before I could get away. My mother’s face was covered in bandages the last time I saw her from where I stabbed her.”

Mito blinked. She stared at the twelve year old currently hanging up Gon’s green shorts, unsure if he was joking or not. He didn’t say anything else though and the unnatural silence made Mito’s heart twist.

Killua was rarely so quiet. From the short time Mito knew him, she had learned that he was an extremely bright, mischievous and usually cheerful boy. He had as much stamina as Gon, sometimes even more, which truly astounded her. He spent every day with her son without ever showing a sign of boredom and the way they grinned at each other filled Mito with warmth.

She was happy for Gon and that he had finally found a friend who could keep up with him at every turn. And she knew that not every family was as beautiful as theirs. So, no matter what Killua said, she would listen.

“Was it a long fight?” she asked and Killua’s head snapped up.

“…no,” he said after a pause. He spoke slowly, as if unsure of how much to tell her. “I’ve always been better than Milluki, and my mother wasn’t expecting it. If anything she was probably proud of me for attacking her.”

He shook his head and muttered, “She’s so controlling. She never let me go on my own missions until after I returned from Heavens Arena! And even then she had Illumi tracking me, the bastard.”

“What kind of missions would she send you on?” Mito asked, genuinely curious, as she picked up one of Killua’s shirts from the pile.

“Assassination missions,” Killua explained offhandedly and Mito’s blood turned to ice. 

“Assassination?!” she squeaked.

Killua’s face fell.

“Oh…I guess….Gon didn’t tell you? I’m not surprised.” Killua looked off into the horizon. The look in his blue eyes was unreadable. “I’m a Zoldcyk. We’re a family of trained assassins. I’m a professional killer.”

Mito’s arms dropped her her side, Killua’s indigo tang top brushing the tips of the grass. She didn’t know what to say to that. Who would know what to say to that?! It wasn’t normal to suddenly learn that your son’s best friend was an assassin!

But Gon, Mito knew, wasn’t normal either. Not in the usual sense of the word. He was too strong, too powerful for someone his age. Again, like Ging. 

And like Ging, he attracted the most unusual company.

“I left them,” Killua said and his voice cut through her inner monologue.

She glanced at him. Killua’s expression was hard, but not angry. It was almost like he had been expecting her immediate shock and horror.

 Killua continued, “I won’t lie and say I haven’t killed people before, because I have, but I never wanted any of that. My family didn’t give me a choice. I didn’t want to be like them, so I left.”

Mito swallowed thickly. Killua was only twelve, but he had probably seen more blood in his life than Mito ever would. Killua was born into death, but had walked away from it. Killua was her son’s best and only friend, and Gon had taught her on numerous occasions the meaning of looking past appearances to see the things that mattered most.

She took a deep breath. 

“It sounds like you had a horrible family, Killua,” she said softly and Killua’s eyes widened. 

He looked down, grip tightening on Gon’s jacket in his hands.

“They were the worst,” he muttered and there was a deeper meaning in those words. A hint of frustration and misery that caused a swell of pity in Mito’s chest.

He was only twelve years old and he had experienced such horror. Being here must be a kind of paradise to him.

“Well, you’re welcome to stay here as long as you like,” she told him.

Killua’s mouth fell open. “R-Really?”

She smiled fondly at him. “Of course. Are you getting hungry, by the way? Its almost lunchtime and Gon should be getting back from town soon with the ingredients I asked him to get. I can make more of that salmon, if you like.”

Killua’s responding smile was small but hopeful. “That would be awesome. Your a really great cook, you know.”

She laughed at that and the sound was whipped away by the breeze.

When they finally made their way back to the house, Gon was jumping up and down in the doorway as if bursting with excitement, waving his hands and yelling Killua’s name.

Killua’s eyes lit up and Mito knew then that she had made the right choice.

So, Prison Break will be back in a matter of hours.

And to a lot of you, that may mean nothing. 

But it means a hell of a lot to me.

Prison Break first aired when I was fourteen. I don’t remember much about the night itself, but what I do remember is kicking up a real fuss when my brothers outvoted me on the choice of programming, the two of them commandeering the TV remote and forcing me to watch the pilot of this new prison show instead of the episode of House that I had apparently very much wanted to watch at the time. After that night, though, House certainly never took precedence in my schedule ever again, because I had fallen hard for Prison Break in a way that I never had with a show before (or since), my soul already eagerly sold to it before the credits were even rolling on the first episode. 

For the next four years of my life, it was my obsession, my joy, my greatest love, the one thing I could talk endlessly about (particularly any part related to MiSa, my OTP of all OTPs), and the mere thought of which would always make me happy. It led me to my first fan forum, to amazing friends (who I am still in touch with to this day), and also brought me into the world of fanfiction, which in itself became (and remains) a hugely important part of my life. 

As it went on, the show not only taught me life lessons like sacrifice and making difficult decisions and taking responsibility for your actions; it also taught me about myself, and what I wanted and valued and believed. And, as with any show that truly pulls you in, the characters were always far more than just actors spouting lines– they were like family to me, and I celebrated and struggled and grieved with them through four incredible and traumatising seasons. I genuinely cried more tears for them and their pain than I ever did over anything else in my own (obviously very fortunate and privileged) life. 

The same year that Prison Break ended, I graduated high school and was accepted into medical school, a career that I had chosen for several very good reasons, not the least of which was because my still-forming teenage self had looked at Dr Sara Tancredi and had seen exactly the kind of woman I wanted to grow up to be. About five years after that, I was freshly graduated as a doctor, and finally got the chance to meet Went, Dom, and Sarah at my first Comic Con, and was able to thank them in person for the beautiful thing that they had helped create, and which– in Sarah’s case in particular, of course– had helped to create me. 

Today, I’m exactly a month shy of my twenty-sixth birthday, and have been a doctor for almost two and a half years, having even worked briefly in the prison system during that time, among many other things. I may not have the posters hanging on my wall anymore, and the cardboard box full of memorabilia and carefully folded cranes might be tucked away in a closet out of sight, but even still, this show has never left me. It’s in the “Be the change you want to see in the world” ring that I’ve worn every day for the last nine years. It’s in the tiny origami flower that has been tattooed on the back of my left ear since I was nineteen. It’s in the crane that was tattooed on my left wrist two years ago in Chicago, with those same old forum friends beside me, all coming together for the first time in our ten-year friendship to visit the city and the prison that had been the setting for the story that had brought us into each other’s lives. But even more than the marks on my skin, its mark is still inside me, a permanent building block in the foundation of who I am. 

In the last eight years, there’s only one thing about this show that I’ve always regretted, one thing that I have literally wished (on shooting stars, four-leaf clovers, birthday cakes, 11:11, dandelions– you name it, I’ve wished on it) that I could change. Of course, I know that happy endings don’t always exist; that reality is hard and cruel and whatever, so supposedly TV should be too. But that never stopped me from wishing that there could have been just one more happy ending out there to give to this story.

Then, about two years ago, something happened. Stars– both astronomical and celebrity– aligned. Whispers like ‘reboot’ and ‘season 5′ floated around, and then suddenly, startlingly, my dream had started looking like a possibility. A possibility that eventually turned into a miraculous definite, the confirmation followed by months of filming and promoting that I promptly did my very best to ignore or hide from, because I was convinced that if I thought about it too much– let myself hope too much– it would somehow all disappear again; would revert to being merely an elaborate fantasy that I’d concocted in my head, a silly fangirl’s headcanon to rectify her OTP’s heartbreak as well as her own.

But tonight, it’s all becoming real. Tonight, for the first time in eight years, I will turn on my TV and see my character-family again; will experience that old feeling afresh. And though there’s certainly always the chance that the new season will somehow be a disappointment, or will only add more pain, it’s a chance I’m so very willing to take.  

A chance that I’m so, so grateful even exists.

So, if you can, tune in tonight (9/8c on Fox). Even if you’ve never watched before, even if you think that frankly I’m probably just overhyping it and it’s actually nowhere near as great as I claim. Do it anyway, and show the network and showrunners that what they have done means something to the viewers out there– to the people like me, who got far more from this show than just a fascinating story, who might have been a very different person today if they’d managed to wrestle the TV remote off of their brothers on that one night a dozen years ago. And who knows; a success for Prison Break now, like with The X-Files and Gilmore Girls before it, could mean reboots– and therefore justice– for even more beloved shows down the line, and even more opportunities for other fans to re-experience the things that helped to shape them into who they are.

And, well, this moment may have been eight long years in the making– but whatever happens, it was worth it.

the signs as i’ve experienced them

aries: the definition of a fuckboy but they actually have a soul. literally don’t give two shits about the haters and are some of the most loyal friends i’ve ever encountered. have very sudden growth periods. super dedicated to anything they put their mind to. ALSO OH MY GOD SO GOOD WITH THE TONGUE 

taurus: very eccentric, don’t really know how to deal with emotions. get flustered easily but it’s kinda cute. dreamy demeanor. will ignore the hell out of u if u fuck them over. are lowkey terrified of everything but will probs never admit that as they have some weird element of ego tied into that. 

gemini: really chill people when u get to know them but will scare the shit out of u for like six years if u don’t approach them. do not fucking piss them off as they will butcher yo ass with their tongue and hang u up for the rest of the world to see. probably has daddy issues. writers. really physically attractive and everybody is intimidated as fuck by it. dumb as hell in terms of love and will flirt with you incessantly. REALLY FUCKIN GOOD WITH THEIR HANDS LIKE DAMN. 

cancer: big hearts. fuckin adorable little water signs that are likely drowning in a puddle of their own tears. do not know how to fucking flirt to save their lives. their laughs are kooky as hell and i love it. probably smoke weed. u either love ‘em or want to kill them or are in some poorly balanced inbetween.

leo: okay y’all needa settle down a bit. fragile fuckin egos if i’ve ever seen ‘em and react hardcore if u piss them off. pretty over the top with everything. but damn, are some of the most hopelessly romantic motherfuckers i’ve met. will treat you like a fucking god(dess) if u let them. not super good at social cues tbh. good friends to have if u need to be validated. need quality time. 

virgo: y’all are lowkey hoes and give no fucks about it and it’s fucking great omfg. despite that, they maintain an endearing innocence and can be childish af when things don’t go their way but will love u until the end of time. great taste in music. super fucking smart but don’t show it off too often. 

libra: jesus christ okay i love u guys. super understanding and will always try to see all sides of a situation. probably have been through a lot. aren’t afraid to call u on ur shit and are lowkey emotional shawtys that are still trying to find themselves. make really wonderful parents. get crazy excited over little shit and it’s fucking adorable. 

scorpio: don’t fuck with these hoes unless u know urself first. will expose the parts of urself that u didn’t want to see. super gnarly in fights and will love u until the end of time. pretty standoffish and need time alone when emotionally unstable. keep themselves in amazing shape. are the loneliest fucks i know; be kind to them always. are probably in great shape (physically.)

sagittarius: craziest mofos out there. abandon all emotions before going into a situation and can be super impulsive. funny as fuck and always seem to be on another level. push themselves to the limit and usually forget to give themselves a break. ambitious and can get shit done when they need to. 

capricorn: talk about a ride or die. y’all are loyal to the grave and are incredible friends. until u get fucked over. will probably make ur enemies’ life a living hell, sometimes over-the-top about it. can be v athletic. good writers/artists. really interested in spirituality and the ethereal realms. u guys know what to do in bed and flirt hard af. also so fucking funny oh my god. 

aquarius: amazing friends. probably hate u. easily excitable. space cadets 4 life. rly good with animals and love food but probably restrict their eating habits in one way or another. a paradox in that they are fucking driven as hell to get shit done but give zero fucks at the same time. lowkey kinky af. want to kiss everyone. 

pisces: emotional shawtys through and through. physically attractive as hell. not good at romantic relationships. won’t forget about u for a million years. keep their friends close but will push u the fuck away if they get scared. insecure and just want u to stick around. 

Things I think are under appreciated in YOI
  • ~Maccachin sleeping with Yuri when Yuri slept in late.
  • ~Minami's Free skate program
  • ~Victor whistling when Yuri preformed On Love: Eros in Japan
  • ~The old man at the hot springs who says what we're all thinking ("Thank you God" is what he says) when Victor and Yuri are talking about Yuri's last coach.
  • ~Victor's non use of piggy/pig/piglet as a name for Yuri after he sees him preform On Love: Eros (Who could think of the sinnamon roll as a pig after that)
  • ~ Yuri's comment that watching Victor preform On Love: Eros could "even make me, a man, pregnant"
  • ~No stigma when Yuri asks Minako to teach him to be more feminine. Also no stigma when Victor says his costumes from when he had long hair suggested both female and male genders.
  • ~Dramatic Victor after Yuri pokes his head, and Yuri pleading for his forgiveness.
  • ~Yurio's hair when he skates
  • ~Georgi's deep voice
  • ~Celestino's nickname "Ciao, Ciao"
  • ~What's going to happen when Victor finds Yuri's posters of him and sees Yuri's dog Victor's shrine
  • ~Yuri leaning forward after seeing the scores for the short program at the China Cup as if he's disappointed he didn't get a world record.
  • ~Christophe literally groping Yuri's ass
  • ~Yurio shouting Victor's name while looking for him in Hasetsu like Victor's going to answer him (Especially when he's on the bridge and he shouts out to sea. Like???)
  • ~Victor's "Wow" "Hi" "Amazing" "Vkusno" etc
  • ~Lutz, Axel, and Loop (Yuuko's kids) being named after jumps
  • ~Yuri straddling Victor when he woke him up to listen to "Yuri On Ice" (pretty sure Victor sleeps naked)
  • ~Maccachin running beside Yuri when Victor was on the bike and Yurio was running as well
  • ~Maccachin in general (Maccachin totally ships Victuri btw)
  • ~Yuri's tears
  • ~ Yuri's confidence when Yurio shows up ("He's totally underestimating me" is what Yuri says)
  • ~Victor eating literally anything and saying it's the best
  • ~Leo's Short Program at the China Cup
  • ~Yurio just chilling with one leg just up in the air as he reads the text saying Yuri will be picking his free skate music.
  • ~Yuri and Yurio both placed second in their first competitions of the Grand Prix
  • That's all I can really remember that I haven't really seen anyone talking about. I'm so in love with this show. Honestly, it's one of the best anime I've seen, and not just because it's got a Canon gay relationship, but just everything about it is incredible. Everything. It's perfect.
The signs from a Cancer Point of view (use 🌞 + 🌜):
  • (My posts are backwards on purpose)
  • Pisces: Oh my lord, you can be so silly. I love how infectious your giggle is. You can think of things in ways I would have never even thought; you're almost too creative for your own good. I know sometimes you're not so good at art, like most posts predict, but the way you speak is beautiful, like your words were perfectly arranged to form a mosaic of variegated interpretations. You let everyone's experiences influence you to the point where you take them on as your own, and that's ok. I know that just helps you stay close to the ones you love, as if living in their memories with them strengthens your connection with them.
  • Aquarius: You can be distant, but care with every pulse of your heart. Sometimes that's what confuses me. There's a reason for everything to you. You want to know cause and effect, but I'm worried for the day when you realise that not everything has an explanation; at least not one easily confined by mere words. You're not devoid of emotion. You're just much better at deciding when and how to deal with them. How do you do that? How do you know how to reach out for help without burdening everyone?
  • Capricorn: We are opposites. You work so hard to be happy, that sometimes I think you hardly stop to enjoy even the small things that have a magical air to them; like the plush towels against your skin, or the pattern of the sky that will only freeze for a few seconds more. To you, it's all about pushing forward and getting things done, and I love your motivation, but don't you realise how stressed out you get yourself? You can be cold, but that's only because sometimes you don't want to stop to know what will happen if you do.
  • Sagittarius: I am amazed at how much patience I have with you. You're so carefree, and I don't believe I have ever seen you stressed. Sometimes I get frustrated with how you treat others, but I know you don't mean to hurt people on purpose. I love how you want to be a free thinker, you don't let others cloud your thoughts or decisions, unless you really love them, then in that case you trust their opinions. Not everyone can or could ever earn your trust. You have clarity when most others are stressed because you've detached yourself from them so successfully. I'm glad that you of all people could take the weight that you do, though I'm not pleased that you have to in the first place. You handle beatings with grace, and you hold your ground firmly.
  • Scorpio: You're the most passionate person I know. When you talk about what you love or hate, I can see the propellers churn in your eyes. You love to love and hate to hate. I know it's hard to let people in, but I'm thankful you chose me of all people. I'm sorry I can't always be there when you sob in your bed late at night, but you always hold off when you're ready. That's ok too. I know you don't like to be pushed. Sometimes you let others passions overtake your own and you get so confused and tired that it's hard to face anyone. You want to love so badly, but you're always doubting yourself. Your thoughts can be overwhelming and it seems lonely in crowds, even around your own family, but even you need to trust more than one person.
  • Libra: You of all people know what to do and say all the time. I enjoy just sitting back and watching you talk and interact with people; you get that everyone is different, and you treat them according to how they are. If only people had that same respect towards you. I love how you can diffuse conflict as if you're stroking the nuzzle of a wild horse. You listen and think before you speak. You thrive on the subject of philosophy because you think, and it does, makes you a better person. You love everyone and you value friendships and relationships. You don't know who the right partner is, but I know when you find them, they will make you feel like the only person in the world, just like you do with everybody else.
  • Virgo: There's a lot to worry about. You are the one that I wish I was the most like. You live in the moment, without leaving the past or planning for the future. You're aware of the things larger than life, and you respect them, but you understand how all the little things contribute to the infinite tapestry. I wish I could notice and appreciate as you do. I know you focus too much on the tangible, and I understand that it's easy to get lost in the world of perfection and imperfections, to ignore the thoughts and feelings of others. Most people think you are cold, but I think there's more to it than that. Maybe you just know what to do with your feelings, and they're under your control, and yours alone. You're calm and always seem to be at ease. In no way should that be a crime, after all, many could learn a thing or two from you.
  • Leo: I find a lot of admiration towards how confident you are. Your presence alone is awe-inspiring. Everything you do--the way you walk, how you speak, your gestures, everything--looks so effortless but well thought out. Watching you is like enjoying a movie where every movement is perfect. I love the way you make me feel like we've know each other for years. I am at ease and comfortable by your very presence. One might expect your voice to be loud and authoritative, but it's soothing and suggestive more than anything. You want to make everyone feel like your friend, and I know it has no malevolent purposes, but it's for your own conscious because you can't bear a single person disliking you.
  • Cancer: I could tell you how seething your own mind is, but I'm sure you already know that. You can be so optimistic that you become blind to the worse in human nature. You have fallen victim to many schemes of manipulation, and each time you've beaten yourself up for it. It's ok to yell and scream and cuss. In fact, it's normal to let yourself explode. Nothing could ever right the wrongs that you can never seem to forget. I'm sure that even though they haven't made it up to, or apologised, that they still love you. Not everyone is like you where they can hold onto their emotions and keep it from lapping over the edge. People say things they don't mean, and they make mistakes. It's ok to not be able to forget, you just have to find a way to love again despite their wrong doings.
  • Gemini: When I am with you, I am never bored. There's always something to talk about, and you're willing to look at every side of a story because you love to be fascinated. You are so animated when you speak, as if you're trying to replay and exert the experience to everyone so that they can experience it as you once did. I love your acceptance of art in all its forms but most of all, I appreciate your desire for knowledge. You may not be the smartest, but you are the one to show me how to think.
  • Taurus: I see a lot of posts categorising you as being a glutton for food. Truth is, you love to enjoy things you like, and by no means is that bad. Some people talk about what they like and you feel their radiance through their words, but with you, you don't have to say anything. I feel your content seeping into my veins and I too become enveloped in this world of yours where the finer things of life are adored. I value your opinion because you learn to know and feel every inch of something before you can decide to love or hate it. You have to know for sure because once you make a decision, by God you stick to it. I love how you're supporting and refreshing for anyone who needs it. You've made some good calls, and also so bad ones, but you've learned from both and you can separate truth and fiction like nothing I've seen before.
  • Aries: You are the epitome of fire. I know it's easy to think of everything at once, and it gets extremely overwhelming. I think you tend to overlook other people's feelings for the small minute things that really don't matter. Your opinions and desires matter, just understand that you can't make anyone agree with you. You have a silver tongue, and it's hard to resist your logic, because despite how wrong you may be, you take record time in thinking up of an argument and at the same time shred your adversary to pieces. Some say it's water that wears you down slow and painfully, but I have witnessed the hot flash of your flames burn and dissipate. You get caught up in the moment. It's no biggie. I respect that you have confidence, I love that. You are into fast paced things, and I don't think I've ever seen you relax without falling asleep. You really amaze me at how adept you are at working under so much pressure. You've been through a lot, heaven knows, but we both know you've become a better person because of it. Your optimism is what pushed me through my own experiences, and I am most grateful for you especially.
Dear Jackson

Originally posted by got7official

Warnings: None

Characters: Jackson 

Word Count: 2.1k

Dear Jackson,

I understand that this is a cowardly way to do this. I just knew that if I did this face to face, I wouldn’t be able to say it. I’m truly, truly sorry that things have ended up this way. Just know that when I say I am undoubtedly in love with you, I mean it. You are my sunshine, you’ve always kept me happy in life. I am not doing this because I no longer love you or that I am unhappy with you. I’m doing this because I just cannot take it anymore. The secrets, the hiding, everything. I understand you have to think about your career, but I have to think about myself. I am only doing what is best for the both of us. I know that you’ll do fine when I’m gone, and look on the bright side. You won’t have to be with a woman that is too much of a coward to break up with you to your face. I love you, and I’m sorry.

Jackson read the letter left for him by his girlfriend. ‘How could she do this?’ He thought. He frantically looked around for his jacket, grabbing it before running out of the dorms. He ran the few blocks from the dorm to her apartment, hoping that she would still be awake by the time he arrived. He ran up nine flights of stairs to the floor his girlfriend lived on. He banged on her door, not caring if he woke the neighbors up.

“Jackson, go home. You don’t need to be here,” She said from the other side of the door.

“I’m not going home until we talk about this!” He yelled, continuing to bang on the door.

When the door opened, he leaped into her arms. He held onto her as if she would float away like dust in the wind if he let her go. He heard her sigh, managing to shut the door behind him.

“Please don’t leave me,” He cried. Every tear he shed hit her heart like a hammer. She knew that it would come to this, which is why she left a letter instead of breaking up with him face to face. She should have known that he would have this reaction, but she hoped he would silently accept it.

“It’s what is best for both of us,” She coldly replied. She managed to break herself free from his iron grip, distancing herself from him immediately. Jackson would never admit it, but she was his ultimate weakness. He was a fool in love and would do anything for her. However, he was also a selfish man in love. He didn’t want to let her go, fearing the possibility of her meeting someone else. He wanted to be the only one to have her.

“Tell me why you think this is what’s best,” He pleaded. She refused to speak, so he asked again. This time, grabbing her wrist and turning her around to look at him.

“I’m tired of the secrets,” She whispered. “I’m tired of hiding our relationship. It’s not healthy for us to have to act like we are nothing to each other. Having to hide our relationship from everyone except the other members is not good for us. No matter how much this hurts, I know it’s what I have to do… I will be hurt further if I continue being with you,” She finishes, her words lacking all emotion. He heard his heartstrings snap at the sound of her words.

“I can’t live without you… I love you so much,” His tears started flowing more and more as the situation continued. If he couldn’t have her, he would never be the same. She was his muse, his inspiration. He could do and be anything with her beside him. If she were to leave, he would crumble and fade away.

“You are going to have to, baby. This is what’s best, and you know it,” She argued. His sadness turned to bitterness and anger. “I do not know that!” He yelled. “This isn’t what’s best, and you know that! What do you want me to do? Do you want me to just reveal to the world that we are dating? Do you want me to go against JYP and let our relationship be known? What do you want me to do? Tell me what you want me to do and I will do it. I would do anything for you. Just give me my orders!” He was on his knees begging by this point. No matter how weak it made him look, he was nothing but putty in her hands.

“Please, leave,” She said softly. He nodded his head, knowing that arguing was no use. Much like himself, she was a fighter. She wouldn’t back down, no matter what. He was the same, but she was his kryptonite.

In the few weeks following that night, she had forced herself to move on. Jackson tried to contact her many times since that night, but she ignored him every single time. The first few days, she didn’t know what to do with herself. She usually would spend her off days with Jackson, but now she had a free schedule. She knew that sitting and sulking wouldn’t help, it would only make matters worse. She forced herself to get more consumed by her work, deciding that working would be the right cure. 

She was scrolling through her phone on her lunch break when she saw a link to a video. ‘Jackson Wang Opens Up About Mysterious Girlfriend’ it read. She feared the worst but clicked on the video anyway. The video was taken from a variety show that Got7 had recently been on. One of the MC’s asked about any love interest, and Jackson spoke up.

“Being in love when you’re an idol isn’t an easy thing to do. What is harder, though, is being in love with an idol. My love has had to hide our relationship for so long, and I think the pressure finally became too much for her to handle. We haven’t seen one another in weeks, and honestly, it is hurting me so badly. I have tried to throw myself into music to occupy my mind, but she is in everything around me. She is my muse, some of the best things I have created have been inspired by her. She is the love of my life, and now I fear that she will be gone forever,” Mark pulled him into a hug, rubbing his shoulder as he broke down in tears. The MC was at a lost for words, and so was she. She didn’t even finish eating lunch before she bolted out the door.

The roles were reversed this time as she banged on the door to the Got7 dorm. When someone opened the door, she pushed past them and barged into the room where Jackson laid on his bed.

“Have you lost your mind? What kind of stunt was that? Do you know what this could do to your career?!” She yelled.

“What’s the point of having a career when I don’t have my inspiration with me?!” He yelled back.

She felt all of her strength left her body. She fell to her knees on the floor. Jackson got down on his knees and cried with her, the repercussions of his confession lingered in his mind. He knew, though, that whatever the outcome it would be far easier than trying to live without her. They cried in each other’s arms, and he kissed her head and told her everything would be okay.

“What’s done is done. It’s all out in the open. There’s no more hiding. I would rather lose popularity than lose you. I want to become a better Jackson not only for myself but for you, the other members, and iGot7. Keeping a secret like this hasn’t helped me become a better Jackson, it has done the opposite.”

He grabbed his phone from on top of his bed, typing in his passcode and opening Instagram. He went to his page and tapped on his most recent post. It was a picture of them taken on their first date. 

Jacksonwang852g7: I am sure by now most of you have heard my recent confession. This is the woman that I am in love with. We have been together for almost a year and three months now. I took this picture on our first date. Please do not think that I lied to all of you about her. At the time, letting our relationship be known to the public was not something that could be a reality. I placed such a massive burden on her shoulders by making her keep this secret. Despite knowing that we would have to hide our relationship, she always met me with a smile and warmth. I know you are worried about me, but I am wonderful I promise 😊 I let my emotions get ahold of me too much in that interview and I am sorry that I worried you all.

 I hope that my relationship with her doesn’t change my relationship with you. I did not intend on this being how I told all of you. I want us to have as close of a relationship as we can, without secrets. I promise from here there will be no more secrets. I love every single one of you and wish you nothing but happiness and good health. Please take care of us and accept us with love and open arms. With all of iGot7 supporting me, I can become a better Jackson. This is only the first step for me ❤️

“You are such a fool…” She sighed, handing his phone back to him. She knew that most of his fans would support him no matter what, but she also knew that he would receive a bit of hate for being in a relationship. She also knew that his company wouldn’t have nice things to say to him about the situation. He didn’t care about either of those, though. He was ready to take responsibility for his actions.

“You’re right. I’m just a fool. A fool in love with you.”

She wondered why she ever thought that breaking up in the first place would be the best thing for them. They were best for each other, secret or no secret. She found that it was part of her selfishness that first gave her the idea. She wanted to be able to show to the world how amazing her boyfriend is. She wanted to be able to go out in public and kiss, hold hands, and hug out in the open without worries of someone seeing them. Not being able to do that drove her mad. 

Despite that, even if he hadn’t come out about their relationship, they wouldn’t have been able to stay apart for long. His own selfishness would have gotten the best of him and he would make sure that they were together, but she wouldn’t have put up much of a fight after long anyway.

Jackson ran his hands through her hair as she rested her head on his lap. He placed a kiss to her temple, his heart at peace. He was a lot of things, but most importantly he was just a foolish man. A foolish man in love with a woman that is far too good for him. Despite that fact, he knew that he would do his best to love her and protect her as long as he lived. He was never going to let her slip through his fingers again. Even if he had to chain himself to her, he would stay by her side forever.

“I love you, with all of my heart I do.”

“I love you too.”

Dear Jackson,

It may be difficult to love Jackson from Got7, but loving Jackson Wang is as easy as breathing. You may be a fool for loving me, but I am as much a fool as you. I let my own selfishness get the best of me, and that was a mistake. I understand my mistakes now and I will never make those mistakes again. I will push you to be the best that you can be and will stay by your side through even the most difficult of times. I know you will also do the same for me. I love you, you sweet fool.

- Forever and always ❤

anonymous asked:

hi <3 please help me get into hotshot! i've been listening to their songs for a while but i realized i don't know a lot about the members... where do i start? :o

I did something like this before but I didn’t do  a really good job so here we go:-)( sorry this was all I could think of at the time  about each member :s)

Sorry this is really long , but I hope it helpes 

We’ll start with the members first :

  • This ray of sunshine and one of the most precious human beings  is Hoshot’s Leader and Dad Junhyuk(choi Junhyuk) ( and yes he refers to himself as dad
  • He was a former SM trainee 
  • His nickname is Choi Giraffe ( if you see hotshot stand together in pictures , you’ll see why that’s his nickname )
  • He calls  his fans loves and write all his fancafe post by hand ;__; and it’s the cutest thing in the world.
  • He also likes to compose his own songs X , X( he made this song for their 1 year anniversary :’)))))

Next is Hotshot’s mom Timoteo ( kim moonkyu)

  • To get this out of the way he was also an SM trainee and he was one of the original members EXO, but he left because of the stress he got from his parents and didn’t want to  wait anymore.
  • Also he knows a ton of people such as Taemin , Kai, Niel , Sehun , kyuhyun  the list goes on. The other members make  jokes about  when ever they go somewhere to perform Timoteo would already know someone there.
  • He is also Hotshot’s main dancer and sub vocal and rapper
  • he was baptized as Timothy,which is where his stage name comes from
  • he’s also a really good dancer some examples : X,X,X

Next is Hotshot adorable krumper Kid monster

  • He’s Hotshot’s main dancer , lead vocal and since I’m a hotshot ™ a rapper
  • He loves doing his joker impersonation and his throat talent 
  • He was a former YG trainee
  • was a part of a krump dance crew ( i forgot the name of it srry :/)
  • his nickname is Kimon (short for kid monster), which is why you’ll see people tag him as that rather than kid monster

Next is Hotshot’s happy virus Sungwoon

  • If i remember correctly his nickname is Real man , why ,I have no idea
  • He auditioned for JYP ( revently found his auditon video here 
  • Says he can impersonate the Korean version of spongebob and squidward  X 
  • He’s their main vocal and he really does have an amazing voice( X)
  • oh and he also was a feature in Chad No future’s MV (i’m not going to link it , i’m doing you a favor)( i never watched the mv but i already know sungwoon was the only good thing about that MV

Next is Hotshot’s adorable awkward rap San ( yoonsan)

  • Well he is Hotshot’s main rapper and literally spits fire (X) (X) (X)
  • need more proof here’s his soundcloud (X) ( might as well just download his mixtape now )
  • he lived in france for about 7/8 years
  • he can impersonate megatron’s voice
  • honestly if you need to know more about him  just remember that he said one of his supporting moments was when he eats cheese
  • oh and he really like cheese burgers :”) (x)

Last but not least is Hotshot adorable maknae in charge of aegyo and imo hotshot’s 2nd selfie prince Hojung 

  • He’s Hotshot’s Lead vocal
  • Honestly he’s an adorable little dork , i mean come on one of his talents is dancing to my name’s  Just tell me
  • he used to be called K.HO
  • he also lived in Thailand
  • plus also there was that one time he had a rap battle against sungwoon  and got the title king of rap(x)


Finally here are some videos to get to know them a bit better (in case you haven’t seen them already)

Here are  some of their pre-debut stuff here 

Vol.1 / Vol.2 /Vol.3 / Vol.4 / Vol.5 (warning might just steal your soul) 

Then here are some interviews you can watch of them  and their 24 hours video:

Also recently Hotshot debuted in the Chinese market so here was the music battle they did against timez (x)

If you don’t have time to watch the whole thing here are some snippets i’ve linked :

  • Watch Out  Chinese performance (X)
  • Manuel of Youth cover (X)
  • Hotshot Vs Timez relay dance battle (SRSLY WATCH THIS ) (X)
  • Hotshot little apple cover (X)

Then to end it all here are some other videos of them (none of these are subbed , but pls still watch them !!!)

Alright I think this is everything , ENJOY GETTING INTO HOTSHOT :D !!

itsmrsomething  asked:

What do you make of the backlash against SU? Cheezburger's fanbase seem to downvote any posts just because it's SU(and even allowed a post that called it trash) and I've seen MANY, MANY comments on several sites say "I wanted to get into SU, but then I bumped into its fans"

To be fair here, it is only a small faction of the fans that are the problem.  The majority of SU fans are just people that enjoy the show.  Many of the ones I’ve personally interacted with are really cool people, and just as embarrassed by all of this as anyone else.  There are also many incredibly talented people in the fandom, a great deal of whom now have to walk on eggshells with anything they do or say so as not to be attacked by this tiny circle of batshit-insane lunatics.

Now, before anyone tries to pull the “how can you rip on anyone else when you defend bronies” card, the thing is…most of the shit you hear about bronies is just that–total bullshit.  Things are cherry-picked and exaggerated just as much as outright lied about.  From someone inside the fandom that is known to be a woman, I have not only NOT encountered all the alleged “racism, sexism, transphobia, misogyny, ‘rape jokes’, and [insert buzzword here]” that certain people would have you believe is somehow “everywhere”, but have discovered the fan base to be remarkably diverse.  It is a fandom just like any other–it has its share of weirdos.  It’s also an EXTREMELY LARGE fandom that encompasses several million people worldwide at this point.  For anyone to suggest that so many people all exhibit the same negative traits is frankly ridiculous–use your brains, people.  The only thing I’ve seen that really sets bronies apart is that they’ve actually done an ASTOUNDING amount of good for other people.  To this day, it still amazes me that a fandom for a show about pastel ponies is so incredibly diverse, and so surprisingly altruistic.

When it comes to the SU fandom, the few people causing the issues are the same circle of people that pull this shit in pretty much every fandom they’re part of.  IT IS NOT A TOXIC FANDOM.  IT JUST UNFORTUNATELY HAS A FEW EXTREMELY TOXIC PEOPLE IN IT THAT ARE TARNISHING ITS REPUTATION.  It literally is the exact same group of people EVERY FUCKING TIME.  These are people that really, REALLY need to get a fucking life, and I think it’s safe to say that this site would improve dramatically if they were permanently removed from it.  From what I’ve seen, they tend to share distinct traits:

  • They are usually pseudo-”feminists” or self-proclaimed “social justice warriors” (i.e., they have no idea that the term was created as an insult, and was intended to distinguish the kind of people who only hurt the causes they claim to stand for, and really only do so to bolster their own self-importance than out of any genuine concern for anyone else.  If you disagree with them, they’ll gladly form an angry mob against you, no matter who you are, what your ethnic background is, what you’ve been through in life, or how you identify).
  • They engage in ridiculous amounts of fandom policing, including trying to determine who is “allowed” to watch the show, who people are “allowed” to cosplay as, and how the characters are “allowed” to be drawn.
  • They act as though they have any authority whatsoever when it comes to what other people are allowed to post to the internet in general.  Feel free to laugh.
  • They go so far out of their way to harass others that they’ve even made hundreds upon hundreds of needless hate posts in the Uncle Grandpa tag.  They were doing it from day one, but after the crossover was announced?  Good luck being a UG fan and trying to find nice things to reblog about a show you enjoy.  Such “edgy” people these are.  Seriously, who the fuck throws a hissy fit over fucking CARTOONS??  I mean, get a load of THIS shit:

They’ve now made “transmisogyny” a suggested tag when you search for

Uncle Grandpa

.  What the fuck is WRONG with these lunatics??

  • They have absolutely NO respect for the show’s staff, and will relentlessly harass anyone working on the show if something in the show’s canon doesn’t match their headcanons.  They chased one writer off of tumblr, and are prone to even insulting the show’s creator.
  • They are incredibly insistent that their headcanons ARE canon, and that anyone pointing out otherwise is akin to a hate crime.  It’s fine if you want to have your own ideas or interpretation of a show.  It’s fine if you want to see things in a way that makes you happy.  However, it’s NOT fine if you think you have any right whatsoever to insist these things are the gospel truth in spite of the creator and writers.  These certain “fans” appear to be under this strange impression that it’s somehow “their” show.  Their entitlement issues are OFF THE FUCKING CHARTS.
  • It’s disturbing how easy it is to make these people completely lose their shit.

I can provide sources for all of this.  In fact, I HAVE provided sources for all of this.

These people are the saddest, cringiest, and most pathetic creatures I’ve ever seen, though I want to point out once again–THESE PEOPLE DO NOT REPRESENT THE ENTIRE SU FANDOM.  THEY ARE ONLY AN EXTREMELY SMALL PERCENTAGE.

The most hilarious part of all of this:  For all the hatred and vitriol against bronies that comes from these people, their behavior is actually worse than anything they claim about anyone else.  They became everything they’ve ever tried to project onto others.  They became their own punchline.  When rabid, frothing-at-the-mouth SJWs and fake “feminists” get into a fandom, it’s only inevitable that they will let their warped ideals control their behavior in that fandom, and essentially turn it into an intolerant, hateful, toxic environment.  These are not normal fans.  This is not how fans of ANYTHING should EVER act.

I could easily find so, SO much more than this, but I frankly don’t feel like going through every post on every thread on multiple sites laughing their asses off at you entitled little shit caskets.

IT’S A FUCKING CARTOON.  YOU ARE EMBARRASSING YOURSELVES.  YOU ARE A LAUGHINGSTOCK.  YOU ARE RUINING ENJOYMENT OF THE SHOW FOR OTHER FANS, AND YOU ARE MAKING THE STAFF OF THE SHOW WANT TO AVOID YOU.  At least one of you has caused one of the storyboard artists to BLOCK you on tumblr.  You are worse than anything any brony has ever done, and you did it all to yourselves out of extreme entitlement issues, an obvious lack of social interaction, laughable amounts of sexism, comically ironic racism (gotta love how simplistic, highly-stylized hairstyles and how lips are drawn automatically determine a cartoon character’s ethnicity, EVEN A FUCKING PASTEL-COLORED, SHAPESHIFTING SPACE ROCK…), and hilarious levels of paranoia that people enjoying and drawing fan art/cosplaying for a show is ever going to “steal” it from anyone else.  Did you somehow not pass basic kindergarten??  Either way, congrats!  Everyone hates you, especially the majority of the fandom.


zeether  asked:

Helga x Arnold


When I call these two my One True Pairing, I really mean they are my One True Pairing. I’ve shipped a lot of shit in my life, but none have stood the test of time as much as these two. Where other pairings lose my interest after weeks or months, these two have never failed to make me grin, and it’s not just because they look cute together. It’s not because Helga loves Arnold and I love Helga so obviously she HAS TO GET WITH THE GUY SHE LIKES. It’s not because I’m into any of the cliche ship slots they fit into - devil/angel, villain/hero, sweetheart/asshole, etc.. And it’s not because they’re the most popular pairing in the show, or even the most blatantly canon. There are a lot of reasons these two are popular, but the biggest one is simply this: chemistry.

I’ve tried shipping these two with other characters before, but none of the ships I’ve been able to think up or find fics for mesh as well as Arnold and Helga do with each other. One of the reasons HA! slapped me in the face as hard as it did and still holds my attention is because of my love of psychology and well-crafted characterization, and it’s honestly a little scary just how perfectly these two click in every way it’s possible to click. Heck, it’s even a running gag in the show that they’re soulmates - they run into each other (literally) on a regular basis, Arnold can actually hear Helga screaming for him even if it’s halfway across town (Downtown as Fruits, Arnold’s Halloween), and he gets this gnawing sense that something is wrong when Helga isn’t present (Buses, Bikes and Subways). I could literally write novels on all the reasons these two work so well together, but I’m gonna see if I can sum it up as best I can in a few paragraphs. 

As much as everyone always likes to go on about how these two are an Opposites Attract type of pairing, they actually have a lot of things in common, and I’m not just saying that they have similar interests (though this is true, and is one of the reasons they’re so great together). At their core, these two are actually almost the same person. Don’t get me wrong here, I do think it’s important for couples to have different viewpoints and personalities because otherwise they’d get bored with each other pretty quick (especially Arnold and Helga, because both of them have shown signs of NEEDING someone to challenge them–Arnold even once said that he loves a challenge), but it’s also important to have common ground and kinda be on each other’s level. These two are equals in every sense of the word, and it’s honestly one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. 

Like, they both come from kinda crackpot families that drive them both nuts, and as a result have been forced to where they HAD to mature in order to get by. They have to solve their own problems, because they know no one else is going to. They love their families, but they can’t rely on them. Really, they act a lot more like teenagers or adults than nine-year-olds sometimes. They even get similar looks of “oh God I’m surrounded” on their faces whenever something stupid or crazy goes down. Like, to the point I think if they ever had a real, honest conversation with each other about junk, they’d agree on a lot of points. Arnold would obviously try to be nicer about it, but it’s pretty undeniable that he thinks a lot of the stuff Helga says. He laughs just as hard at Helga’s mean jokes as everybody else. I’m not saying he likes that Helga’s cruel, but I do think it’s on some level relieving to him that he’s not the only one who notices these things and gets exasperated by them. On kinda the opposite spectrum of this, though, they’re both bleeding hearts. I mean, Arnold’s obviously a lot more open about it, but we all know how soft Helga is underneath all her spikes. She cares just as much about stuff as Arnold does; she just doesn’t want to because a) it’s too painful for her, b) she just doesn’t think it’s smart, and c) she has a reputation she feels she has to uphold. As well, they’re both intelligent, stubborn, competitive, crazy artistic, leaders, daydreamers, romantics–I could go on and on about all the things these two have in common, but this paragraph’s gotten too long, blegh.

Basically, they are like the same person in a lot of ways and react similarly to things - they’ve just chosen to deal with those things differently. Buuuut it is true, nobody can deny, yes, they are in a lot of ways an Opposites Attract pairing. I think something a lot of people don’t quite get, however, is that some Opposites don’t mesh well at all. They just bounce off each other. It’s not as simple as two people who oppose each other equaling solemats5ever. These two are fine-tuned to be opposite in every way they need to be in order to be amazing together, which is really impressive and one of the things that make them so gosh-darned OTP to people. For example: Arnold is rigid and steady. Helga is childish and impulsive. Arnold is optimistic and moral. Helga is realistic and immoral. Arnold is selfless and kind. Helga is selfish and vicious. Arnold’s peaceful, Helga’s a warmonger. Arnold is quiet, Helga is loud. Arnold’s cool, Helga’s hot. Arnold’s rational, Helga’s paranoid. They really balance each other out, but at their core they’re still the same. They’re a perfect example of ying and yang to point to when you want to show just how well the concept works.

I mean, I’ve been shipping these two for almost six years, and my fascination with them hasn’t dwindled once. If there was a grade higher than an A+ that I could give them, I’d be complaining that there still needs to be a higher grade.

anonymous asked:

i started watching tvd late and i knew that DE were gonna happen, and i LOVED SE like omg, and i heard all the hype about D and i was excited to see when DE were gonna get together and i honestly thought if SE is this good then DE is gonna be amazing. hahah nup the least chemistry i've ever seen. honestly don't know what all the hype about DE is. BUT SE tho, oml their chemistry gives me chills and makes me scream on the inside. what dobsley moments you think had the most chemistry ?

I honestly think that people just like the idea of DE. They like the bad-boy-who-turns-good-for-the-woman-he-loves plot line particularly when the bad boy looks like Ian. The actual practice of their relationship is nothing to scream about.

Choosing moments with the “most” dobsley chemistry out of six seasons is impossible, haha. I’ll just lay out the ones that stand out to me and I’ll try not to use ones I use all the time.

I think this moment in 1x10 is one of the best chemistry moments for Dobsley:

It’s a really simple moment, it’s right before the grand epic “Stefan, I love you” + love scene but it’s when Stefan is saying that he can’t be with her and look how sad they are, they’re not bawling or throwing things, they’re simply looking at each other with devastated eyes, which is what Dobsley can do, they can just look at each other and you feel everything.

The 1x06 sex scene is also one of the best chemistry moments for Dobsley:

I mean, I don’t really need to explain why or how.

The 5x06 scene between Silas and Amara is definitely one of the best too:

I already spoke about this with another anon but you see how much these two people love each other, it’s actually a very passionate scene and it’s subtle because it’s just in the expressions, there’s no wailing and I like the contrast between them, Nina is very expressive while Paul is very still so it feels like Amara is lamenting losing Silas again but she has to to be “free” while Silas is just appreciating that Amara is in his arms at all.

The 2x05 blood-sharing scene:

Because again, it goes back to the way they can just stare at each other. Elena looks in complete awe of the man in front of her and Stefan looks like he’s ready to go upstairs and both expressions work well for the moment because they’re both indicative of how much these two people love each other.

The 3x20 corsage scene is also underrated:

Because Nina and Paul play it so well, there’s an initial awkwardness between the two of them but then he pins the corsage on her dress and when Elena looks at him, there’s this sort of “this feels familiar” look to her face but also “this feels new…” and Paul, the way he flicks his eye upward and that grin is both like, “this is nice” and “yeah I know”, like I remember watching this scene and inwardly freaking out because it’s so simple but a lot is being said in these stares.

I’ve been focusing on stares a lot but there are a lot of movements that really show Dobsley chemistry that I think people take for granted, the way two people move around each other because these are a few moments that show how great their chemistry is:

Because Nina sort of just naturally folds herself into Paul’s arms and Paul instinctively puts his hand on her head to rest it on his chest, it feels natural, non-mechanical.

Here, the way Katherine sort of circles Stefan:

There’s tension there, it’s one of the first few times we see Katherine and Stefan interact in the present and you get everything you need to know about their dynamic in the way Nina circles Paul and Paul’s expression and it’s inexplicably hot, like you see Stefan’s frustration but he’s also sort of smiling, there’s a smugness to this entire scene on both parts (until it goes left) that Paul and Nina don’t exhibit with Stefan and Elena and it’s natural. They move very naturally around each other:

which again is taken for granted until you see how awkward people can be when they have to navigate each other so just moments we don’t really think about show how great their chemistry is because we don’t think about them :)

beingjapanese  asked:

Hello! I wanted to ask you what i have to do to become a character designer like you. It is my dream job! I've been searching college courses for this but nothing would come up. Would you have any advice for getting into that career? Thank you!

Hmm… First of all, thank you for the question- I hope that I can do your query justice! I will answer your question in two parts: highlights in my personal journey to Cali, then a list of advice that may be able help you.

I think I took an atypical route (or maybe not) into animation…


  • I did not go to school for animation. I actually went to school for industrial design with a focus in automotive styling. Yes, automotive styling is a thing, a real thing! See my capstone project! We did pitches for cars, but i’ve never done a pitch for a show or anything like that. I’m constantly amazed at what I’ve seen interns do because I never did that stuff.
  • I went to the University of Cincinnati. You know who else went there who is in animation now? That’s right. NO ONE. Actually, everyone is a little surprised when I tell them that I’m NOT from California, so I don’t know if that tells you something. I will eat my shoe if I ever met someone from in animation who went to the same school as me.
  • I did not initially PLAN to go into animation. I went to UC because it was close, cheap, and convenient; I didn’t start thinking seriously about animation until I started my internships. Animation was never a dream job for me, since growing up, I didn’t know it was an industry. Looking back to my college days, I was lucky. As aimless as I was somtimes, I was fortunate enough to have landed in a major that allowed me to explore my options.
  • I had internships in California. However, none of them were in animation (seems to be a recurring theme!). They were all toy design. But wow, it did help that when I got my job at CN, that I wasn’t completely new to the area (CA). It also helped too because my experiences in toy design allowed me to help out with prop design, not just character design.
  • I posted my work everywhere. And that got me a lot of contacts. Deviantart was my jam!
  • I was hired during college. I had done some freelance for CN for Ben 10 Omniverse during the beginning of my senior year, which was only a month long gig. As it was approaching graduation time, probably about 3-4 months before, I sent everything I had portfolio wise to the line producer of the show. I also reiterated that I was set to graduate in a few months. About a month or two before graduation, I got an offer for a character design position that would begin a month after I graduated.
  • I said goodbye to Ohio. I packed up most of my belongings in my hatchback and drove 2000+ miles to start the next chapter in my life. I found my place on Craigslist, a studio apartment that I currently live in. Doing this is a lot easier if you know that you have a job, especially if the area where you’re moving in far away.
  • Went from CN to Nick in a span of 3 years. Spent almost two years on Ben 10: Omniverse, just celebrated a year at Nick on TMNT. There was a few months between CN and Nick, but I did a few freelance gigs in between. We just got picked up for a fourth season on TMNT, so I estimate that I will be employed until spring or summer of next year. I have only been in-house at two studios, but I’m hoping that with Nick, I can break a two year mark, lol.


There are a multitude of factors that can determine your trajectory into the animation world, but my basic advice is below:

Drawing is not just a visual game, it’s physical and mental. Physically, you practice those hand movements so that over time, it becomes second nature to draw a face correctly, or understand how to pose a character. Mentally, you have to steel yourself for frustrations within yourself and against other people. You’re probably going to have those periods of when you don’t feel too good about your work, but that’s expected, and that’s just part of the process. You have to practice, and sometimes just by practicing, you can really get into a groove! You can begin to create a workflow.

I honestly don’t think that you need to go to college to become proficient artistically. I went because at the time in my life, it was an expected option that turned out to be a fun and fulfilling experience. But just to let you know, any design work that I post on my blog/dA were done outside of my actual major. So what that means is that on top of my regular classes, I took the time outside to work on those designs, etc; I was very committed and dedicated to getting better. But that’s not to say that college didn’t help me, because that’s not true. It did help me, as I met a lot of interesting people, and through that experience, I was able to network relatively well. Again, having two out of three of my internships in California GREATLY helped.

So breaking it all down, here’s what I can offer you, in no particular order. I’m sure there are others, but these were the ones that popped into my head…

  1. Practice your craft.
  2. Advertise your work. You ain’t gettin’ hired if no one sees your work. Tumblr, Blog, dA, online portfolio, webcomic, business cards, conventions, art shows etc…
  3. Network. Being a designer more than likely involves talking to people. REAL people. If someone who potentially can help you get somewhere e-mails you, you e-mail them back within a day.
  4. Prepare to fail. A lot.
  5. Be decent. Don’t be a butthole, guys, don’t do it!
  6. You’re gonna get criticized. It’s inevitable.
  7. Build a thick skin. Your boss and teachers are not going to like everything that you do. And they’re gonna let you know it. LOL It’s how you respond that might make or break a career.
  8. Take opportunities as they come. Let’s say that you’re in school, and suddenly you are offered the dream job. The job starts NOW; what should you do? My advice to you is to just take it. If you’re not gonna take it, there are hundreds of other people who are waiting in line.
  9. Be truthful to yourself and be better. There are always people who comment that they didn’t have time to do something. The truth behind that is that you didn’t make the time. There are extenuating circumstances of course, but at the end of the day, your potential employer is not interested in what you can’t or didn’t do.
  10. Find enjoyment in what you do. I think this is what really helped me. I love DC comics, and I drew a lot of DC stuff in my younger days. Finding something that I loved and that I loved drawing is very important in building up your style.

Whew, lots to tread, but hopefully helpful. Good luck! (and work hard!). The points above are a bit bare boned (and based on my own personal experience), so feel free to add a comment or a photo reply if there is something that you guys would like elaborated on.

anonymous asked:

hey dude! i'm a college student about to graduate. i have a mini-job at a studio. i'm in that place between being good at boarding and being meh at boarding. i was well aware of the big fish little pond effect in college, and trust me, i cried & worried in my room a lot about it at 4 am, scribbling on a tablet. i didn't go to art school. i am by no means like that guy who asked you about being "picky." i've been on the grind. but if i present myself now, and i am mediocre, will i be blacklisted?

Dude, this isn’t a sweet 16. Lots of people have tried out multiple times for shows. You don’t just release your work to the world once and then it’s done, you constantly update it with what you’re doing now. No one cares what your abilities were a long time ago, they want to know what you can do for them right now.

Here is a situation that will never, ever, EVER, happen:

Someone says they’re looking for applicants for a job. You submit your work. They say: “Nah, this doesn’t really fit the aesthetic we’re looking for. I’m never going to hire this person and I’m going to make sure to tell all my friends to not hire them too.”

Cut to three years later.

Someone says they’re looking for applicants for a job. You submit your work. They say: “Hey, remember how I’ve seen an infinite number of artists in the past three years? I remember this one specific artist that I passed on because I didn’t like their work three years ago, even though I haven’t thought about that moment since it happened. I see that they’ve improved their work and that it might actually fit the aesthetic of the show I’m hiring for, but I decided three years ago that I’m blacklisting them, so I’m not going to hire them.”

Rest easy in the fact that this doesn’t happen and it will never happen. If it does somehow happen though, it’s good, because I can tell you that no amount of money they’d pay you would be worth working on a show where that’s their attitude.

Also the term blacklist is a bit of a misnomer in terms of entertainment. It’s not actually a list somewhere that every person in the industry cross references and goes: “Oh, I see someone somewhere put this person on a list, I guess I won’t hire them.” Blacklisting is what happens when someone is just an awful person and their reputation of awfulness gets so infamous that every person on their own sort of decides they don’t want to hire them. They won’t hire them because either no one wants to be associated with their awfulness, or they don’t want to put up with it. Everyone has a personal list in their head of people they would never work for, with, or hire, but IMDb Pro doesn’t turn on a frowny face feature next to blacklisted artists.

On you saying you’re mediocre, here’s the thing: I am mediocre. I am somehow tricking everyone at Cartoon Network and they haven’t figured it out yet. I see things that other people do every day that make me go “Wow, that person is really great, I’m not as good as them.” Long Live the Royals is amazing! Steven Universe is amazing! There are a bunch of CN pilots I’ve seen that are amazing! Everyone makes such amazing stuff! The thing is, they also say that about my stuff. They say “Wow, your stuff is amazing! My stuff is mediocre” and I’m like “Why are you so dumb? Why can’t you see how incredibly talented you are?”

That’s because everyone feels this way about their own work. You’re always judging against some ideal in your head. The reason this happens isn’t some humbling/self-defeatist thing, it’s simply because you have more information about your own work than you have about others’ work. You were there when you were brainstorming an idea from nothing. You saw the initial sketch. You remember all the dumb directions you thought to go before getting to your final product. You remember the countless times you redrew a face because it wasn’t smarmy enough. You remember slaving over the exact phrasing of a sentence and whether the character should say “I won’t be coming home tonight” or “I’m not coming home tonight.” You know absolutely EVERYTHING about your work and you can never know that about someone else’s, so you feel yours is somehow inferior.

So what if you’re mediocre? Everyone is! That’s what mediocre means! Show people what you’ve made. If they like it they’ll get back to you, if they don’t they won’t. Some studios might get back to you even if they pass, but most won’t and they’ll just sort of feel guilty about it for a day and then forget all about it.

Either way, make stuff and show it to people, because that’s the only way you’re going to go further. You can’t move up without moving stuff out of your hands and into people’s faces.

anonymous asked:

Hey there! I've been following your blog for a while and I think we have pretty similar tastes! Do you maybe have any Clexa fic recs? I'm into AU's more than canon, and I've read pretty much all the really popular/completed ones...I'm willing to invest myself in a WIP if it's good though!

Hi! First, thanks for sticking with me! I have read a bunch of Clexa fanfiction at this point, so I’ll try to do my best to give you a few recommendations. I will admit, many of my favorite fanfictions are works in progress, but that’s okay! There’s so many amazing fanfictions, and they’re being updated constantly. Hopefully you’ll find something new to enjoy. 


These are a couple authors that I follow religiously. I enjoy their writing style regardless of what they choose to write about, and recommend any Clexa fictions that they have written. I’ll try to include as many tumblr blogs as possible, otherwise, most, if not all, can be found on Archive of Our Own.


Chrmdpoet or @chrmdpoet

Clarkesquad or @clarkesquad

Coeurdastronaute @coeurdastronaute **

EffortlesslyOpulant or @effortlessly-opulent


LordVoldyFarts or @aliciaclvrk

talentedgemx or @talentedgemx

thrace AO3

transientpermanence or @theahhamoment​ ***

Thebaddestwolf AO3 or @hedaswolf

Wariangle AO3 or @wariangle

Amazing, fluffy one-shots and prompts written in second person. Check it out, even if you’re wary of 2nd POV. They’re all so good.


Very prolific author with an entire arsenal of amazing AUs (of all kinds) and Canon fanfictions. All fanfictions are posted on their tumblr blog and can keep you occupied for hours. If you haven’t seen their blog, I highly recommend that you check it out.


Check out their Miscellaneous collection. Full of Canon/AU drabbles and well over 130K worth of content.


Between the Stacks by C_AND_B (COMPLETE)

“Your story, like all greats stories, begins in the library.

Your crush, like all great crushes, begins with her and her friends shouting (or rather, attempting to shout) penis in the library when you’re just trying to study for your exam.”

Lexa just wants to study but Clarke, well, Clarke can be very distracting.

Really cute College AU one-shot where a studious Lexa meets Clarke by yelling in the library. Honestly, everything written by this author is lighthearted and fun, though this may be my favorite. It is in 2nd POV (like all their other works), but it’s very well done.

Break Your Plans by pizzaoctavia or @debnamridley (WIP)

Clexa college!AU: in which Clarke grows tired of hearing Octavia and Lincoln’s escapades in the next room, so Lincoln offers her his apartment for study. He fails to mention his heavily tattooed hockey player roommate in the process.

A College AU with HockeyPlayer!Lexa and Artist!Clarke. It’s soft and hard, sweet and bitter, and enjoyable all around. Also one of the more popular fanfictions on AO3 (for good reason).

Can’t Bear is Without You by @fuscience (COMPLETE)

Clarke works at the mall and has an unlikely savior in the form of it’s mascot - Happy the Bear.


Lexa doesn’t hate her job, but she certainly doesn’t like it. At least, not until the girl from the food court starts giving her free food and drinks.

Cute and lighthearted one-shot featuring protective BearMascot!Lexa and Worker!Clarke. It’s entertaining and definitely worth a read if you haven’t checked it out before.

Eighty Days by @theahhamoment​ (WIP)

It takes two months, two weeks, and five days. Not that she’s counting, of course.

Coffee Shop AU but with lots of soul. It can get pretty heavy and introspective at times, but that’s its charm. There are currently three chapters (out of a planned total of five), and they’re definitely worth the wait.

Fearless by @aliciaclvrk (WIP)

Clarke needs someone to help with gas money. Lexa needs a ride home. They both need a way to escape. Clearly, a road trip across the country is the only solution.

Roadtrip AU by the talented aliciaclvrk (lordvoldyfarts on AO3). It’s one of my favorites and captures the raw essence of wanderlust perfectly. There’s something surprisingly soothing about taking a mental roadtrip with Lexa and Clarke as they escape their problems, give into their inhibitions, and inevitably fall in love. Highly recommended. (And recently updated!)

I Think I’ve Met You Before by kittymannequin (WIP)

You remember some things, but most of all, you remember her. Sometimes you wish you couldn’t, but the colour of her eyes is burned so much into your brain that if you try to blink it away, it makes you dizzy. So you let the thoughts of her consume you, until there’s nothing but blinding light in your mind and then it’s all over, for a little while. And then you hear a familiar voice.

One of many Elyza Lex AUs, but with a Soulmate AU overlay. It’s a personal favorite, and a guilty pleasure. Written in 2nd POV.

Lover in Low Light by @chrmdpoet (WIP)

Five years after their relationship’s end, college sweethearts Lexa and Clarke find themselves in the same city again. Now, they are different people with different lovers and different lives, but neither ever fully let the other go. Will what they once had still be all they are looking for, or is it finally time to truly let go and move on?

Please don’t let the WIP deter you. This is an amazing piece of fanfiction written by the lovely chrmdpoet. There’s so much raw emotion in this piece that will have you crying and rooting for the golden couple through their highs and lows. Highly recommended.

Love Is Blindness (I Don’t Want to See) by @effortlessly-opulent (WIP)

Powerful business executives by day, cutthroat kingpins by night, Lexa Woods and the Blake siblings have been rivals since they inherited their parents’ respective companies. When Clarke Griffin, fostered by the Blakes, has a chance encounter with Lexa, she’s sent to work for her and spy on her. Lexa Woods is no fool. And Clarke shouldn’t be falling in love with the enemy.

This is a 100K+ Gang AU updated Wednesdays/Sundays. It is one of my favorites, has amazing parallels to the show, and a great dynamic between our two female leads. It also isn’t lacking in our lovable grounders and delinquents. I am addicted to this story, and will happily encourage other people to try it out.

Women More Than Warriors by @steklir (WIP)

The first time Clarke sees her, she’s sitting on a throne, presiding over her dominion with a piercing stare and a crown of braids in her hair. Her warriors are spread at her feet, a multitude of them, all long-haired and wild and clad in identical brown regalia. There’s something of the sacred about her, like the crimson cloak draped across her shoulders and her divinity are one and the same.

An intricate BritishBoardingSchool!AU that incorporates many elements from canon into a practical modern setting. Very interesting read (understatement) and highly recommended. 

Origamis by DJayJay (WIP)

Clarke waits for someone to be able to take care of her boy’s injured wrist when Lexa steps in the hospital, bloody and selfless. Things definitly works out better than expected for a night at the hospital.


Clarke is a single mom and Lexa can make a rocket ship out of a piece of paper.

A College / Single Mom / Hospital Visit AU that will leave your teeth rotting from extreme fluff. It’s lighthearted, sweet, funny, and all kinds of adorable. Features Toddler!Aden, Mom!Clarke, and Biker!Lexa. (There might even be some Ranya). It’s currently at 26K words with three out of the four planned chapters uploaded. Basically, it’s almost done, so feel free to pick it up whenever.

Our Hearts (Have Minds of their Own) by @effortlessly-opulent (WIP)

Clarke is NOT going back to another family reunion without a fake girlfriend to shut everyone up. Lexa, her neighbor and friend, needs powerful clients like the Griffins for her up and coming business.

How inconvenient that they accidentally fall head-over-heels for each other in the process.

Another piece by effortlessly-opulent. This is a Fake Dating AU with a hint of Ranya. There aren’t too many chapters at the moment, but it’s already off to a great start. It’s updated every Wednesday. 

The Three Truths by @theahhamoment​ (COMPLETE)

It was always easy, until it wasn’t.

An emotional 68K+ Fake Dating AU, where Lexa agrees to pose as Clarke’s girlfriend while attending a family reunion / memorial. Like other works by transientpermanence, this deals with a bit of angst, and gets pretty serious at some points. Regardless, it is full of charming characters, and will make you laugh, cry, and grin like an idiot. Definitely one of my favorites.

Snow and Seances by @hedaswolf​ (COMPLETE)

“So,” Clarke says, clasping her hands together. “Guess we’re gonna be here for a while. What do you want to do?”

Lexa shrugs and smiles weakly, hoping the terror she’s feeling doesn’t show on her face. Because what she wants to do is run.

What she wants is to be anywhere other than snowed in at a romantic cabin with her probably straight crush.

Another one by the talented hedaswolf (because I can). I’m weak for anything that even has a pinch of Soulmate AU, and this is all the adorbs (It’s actually a SnowCabin / Snowed-In AU). Highly recommended. In fact, just read all of their stuff. P:

The Only One that Makes You Come (Running) by acid_glue234 (WIP)

Lexa stares at Clarke and Clarke stares right back with this look, and somehow they end up in Raven’s room on top of Raven’s bed.


the clexa AU where Clarke asks for more than she bargained for and Lexa doesn’t disappoint

Friends with Benefits AU. It’s another WIP (I’m plagued by them), but if you’re curious, you should still check it out. Warning: There is some angst, but that’s usually what happens when these two saps can’t fathom the other actually liking them.

When Love Becomes Reason by @clarkesquad (WIP)

The one where it’s not a love story, it’s a story of a girl who needs a plus one for her brother’s wedding (and a girl who needs to be at that wedding).

Spoilers: It’s a love story. It’s always a love story.

Another Fake Dating AU by the lovely clarkesquad. I will be honest, it has been a while since I read this gem, but it is good. Updates are infrequent, though that shouldn’t stop you from checking it out. If it isn’t your cup of tea, I still recommend checking out her other works.

Write Your Name (Across my Heart) by @hedaswolf​ (WIP*)

“Don’t worry, Princess,“ Raven says. “She hasn’t taken her break, yet.”

Clarke works in the cafe of her local bookstore and she’s kinda crushing on one of the girls who works on the floor. The only trouble is she doesn’t know her name.

Originally a two-shot and by popular demand, expanded to a WIP. Adorable Bookshop/Coffeeshop AU that I can’t gush about enough. Both girls are such saps, and you’ll be grinning like an idiot. Highly recommended. 

Canon AU

These are divergent (but still exists) in The 100 universe. I know you prefer AU, but I’ll list them here in case you’re curious.

High as a Kite by @fuscience (COMPLETE)

Lexa gets injured and doesn’t react very well to the medication. Raven stands as witness to it all and Clarke just gets to deal with it.

Lexa is lucky Clarke loves her. Truly.

A HeavilyMedicated!Lexa canon AU, but with substance. It’s told from the POV of Raven, and although the prompt is humorous, it does maintain a semblance of seriousness that is The 100 ‘verse. Lexa isn’t completely dopey, and Raven, with legitimate reason, is short of being fully sympathetic.

I Can Feel You by Tangledinprose (COMPLETE)

She’s shaky and weary and happy. And in pain from how much she feels. From how much she can feel. She closes her eyes again, focuses on the buzz against her ear.

‘Klark. Klark. Klark.’

She chokes, fear and want and impossible pressed against her lips. Tears escapes her eyes and she gasps.


That one-shot where Clarke is chosen to be the new Heda and is inherently connected to Lexa. You’ll feel for them both, and hopefully, obtain some closure. This actually makes Lexa’s death (a little) easier to swallow. 

Lightning Only Strikes Once by fiona_249 (WIP)

Consumed by grief, Clarke climbs Lexa’s tower, not really thinking through what she plans to do. But any plans get taken away when she’s struck by lightning, mysteriously transporting her back to before any of it happens.

Back in her cell on the Ark, Clarke remembers exactly what went wrong - and mysteriously, so does Lexa among her people on the ground. Between the two of them, can they get back to each other? Can they find a way to save both of their people and themselves? Or is the hatred surrounding them too strong?

This is my go-to fix it fic for the 307 debacle. It is a well written, Time Travel AU that respects the characters and the pure relationship between Clarke and Lexa. Also, people are alive! Updates come rather frequently, and though the chapters are relatively short, it is already 50K+ in length. Bonus: The Chapter titles are gold. 

this heart, fossilized and silent (once was tender and once was violent) by @chrmdpoet (COMPLETE)

Clarke is only three days into being a runaway when she realizes that she did not fully think this through. When she walked away from Camp Jaha, she took only herself, a handgun with limited ammunition, and the gnawing guilt inside her. Three days without food, water, fresh clothing, or bedding of any kind, however, and she is painfully aware of how foolish that decision had been.

This is the Canon AU, and what I usually read to push away the awfulness of the current season. No clexa masterpost fic rec is complete without this in its list. Definitely my favorite Season 3 AU period. Also the author of Lover in Low Light.

The Other Shore by precooked (COMPLETE)

Death is not the end.


Lexa dies. Clarke dies, too, and she wakes up.

A closure fix-it fic for the 307 debacle ending in another ‘verse. It left me feeling at peace, and I would recommend others to read this as well. (Think Lost).

The White Queen Running by KL_Morgan (WIP)

Clarke wakes up wearing the tattoos of the Ice Nation.

A canon divergence heavily colored by parallel words, soulmates, and IceQueen!Clarke. Interesting is an understatement. Very well written and personally recommended.

Gosh. This is a long list. It took much longer that I thought it would, but I wanted to be thorough. This is by no means complete, but suffice to say, there are many talented fanfiction authors in this fandom (shoutout to all that I tagged here). P: I hope this helps you out! (I might shamelessly use this for myself as a reference. Who knows, there may be updates.)