this should work on any youtube video with the right adjustments

some general tips for people with executive dysfunction

1. invest in a can of dry shampoo!!! they’re not particularly expensive (mine is batiste brand, i got it for $8).  showering a lot can suck for low energy people, esp people who are trying to get their hair to adjust to getting washed less offten (hair gets oily very quickly after long periods of being washed every day) and this can save lot of time while also making you feel clean!! 

2. BANANAS ARE A GODSEND. i get very sick in the morning, and im also perpetually low on energy, which usually makes me opt out of breakfast. but bananas are quick, easy, filling, and (fun fact) make you less nauseous somehow? idk. they’re great. if you never eat breakfast like me, try to start buying bananas more often as its a really good backup 

(this one’s kind of big so ill break it down so its easier to read) 

3. clean stuff as soon as possible rather than waiting for it to build up. it doesn’t have to be huge, time consuming tasks. just small steps to save yourself from some stress in the future. 

  • pick up clothes from the floor the second you take it off and put it in the washing machine. you don’t have to turn it on or do the washing now, but now its off your floor which is great!
  • throw stuff in the trash can the first time around instead of having it pile up. take empty cups/plates into the kitchen right away (you can go around the house, or even just your room and pick up dishes whenever you need to take a break from working or studying)
  • quickly do your bed first thing!! it doesn’t have to be extremely neat, honestly just dust off your covers, fold it at the foot of your bed and fluff your pillows a bit!! it took a minute but now your room looks a lot cleaner!

4. break up everything into small tasks/create routines that are very specific! my example will be showering.

  • when i shower, i break it up into very very specific parts. the first thing, probably the hardest, is getting myself in the shower. focusing on how showering is not a stressful activity, how it feels good and how good you feel after can definitely minimize the amount of time i spend psyching myself to get up, as overtime the idea of showering becomes an intrinsic part of your day rather than a task or chore. 
  • after i get myself in, the hardest part’s done, and i can relax. i do my routine, which at this point, has become a no brainer. my routine is: shampoo, conditioner (but i dont wash it out), body wash/soap, face wash, brushing my teeth (yes i brush my teeth in the shower fuck off two birds with one stone), and then finally i wash the conditioner out! this is weird but if im done extra quickly, i’ll let myself just stand there until the water runs cold bc idk i really like showering?? 

starting a new routine is always difficult but just stick with it. you can start introducing a routine one task at a time, you can remember to just wash your hair and then get out if thats all the energy you have today. and dont be ashamed about music in the shower!!! i played music on my phone in the shower every day for a year maybe? ive stopped now bc my last phone’s headphone port broke bc of water damage but anyway thats not relevant 

5. keeping a calendar and planner is great in feeling good and organized. you dont have to get a super expensive bullet journal, just start small. i got my current calendar as a christmas gift (theres food puns every month i love it) and my school provides planners. dont feel obligated to use it EVERY DAY and constantly have the best handwriting. just keep it on your desk in class and at home for whenever you need it

6. music and podcasts are good for any time. waking up but feeling super anxious and you dont want to get up? music/podcasts drown out your thoughts and can help you start your day in a nice way. studying and feeling really bored and annoyed?? listen to your favorite songs. trying to go to sleep but your annoying brain wont shut up? nice chill podcasts, or even just longish youtube videos help. 

  • music (especially instrumental music) is best for when you need to think and focus on a task. podcasts are good for menial tasks that dont require you to think that much, as podcasts are more engaging and have you focus on something so you feel less bored/procrastinatey!!! 
  • my favorite songs to listen to when studying are actually playlists ive made! (here and here) and my podcast/video recommendations are off topic and grumpcasts/long game grumps videos, but i understand that this isnt for everyone (cw: lots of swearing, dark humor, stupid casual racism/sexism/transphobia/ableism but its just something i put up with bc i really like michael jones)

i can’t really think of anything else right now!! these are just all the things i do that actually do help a lot

i see lots of sentiment in the studyblr community that basically says “your future self wont be pleased with your pathetic excuses right now :)” and stuff like that and just…please remember that executive dysfunction is never “just an excuse”, it is a legitimate reason for not being able to complete tasks. feeling frustrated with yourself is normal, but you should never be made to feel guilty for not being able to do something, no matter how menial or how crucial. you’re great and you can do this <3

The Intern

Originally posted by officialwookkibby


Today was the day. It was your first day interning with BigHit so you could bulk up your college applications. You were so excited that you got in to the prestigious scheme. On the way in, all the other interns and yourself included had been talking about how cool it would be if you were assigned to shadow staff from one of their groups. Of course, BTS was on everybody’s minds since who wouldn’t want to be in the same space as them. You all knew it was highly unlikely, since most of you were 17 and right in their fan range. 

You’d probably freak too. 

“Doesn’t Yoongi look amazing there?” Sin-ho, a girl you had met on the way in looked up dreamily at the poster of Min Yoongi, one of the main rappers. He did look amazing, and you couldn’t help the smile form on your face.

“Right, welcome to BigHit Entertainment. This is our second year hiring interns and we’re pleased to offer the opportunity again to the producers and business executives of tomorrow.” A strict looking lady dressed in a grey suit bellowed as you all gathered in a line.

You counted how many of you there were, 6. Wow, to think that out of– 

“6! There are 6 of you who made it here, out of the 600 applications we received. We’ve chosen you because we think you all seem like the most professional, intelligent, well behaved and opportunistic from all applications we received.” You couldn’t hide a smirk creeping up on your face. They chose 6 interns this year because last year, 15 of the 35 that ended up here left work early to hunt down BTS even though they were on tour. From inside sources, it was a nightmare. 

“Let’s lay some ground rules first. 1. Remain respectful at all times. 2. Don’t stray where you’re not suppose to. There will be consequences. 3. Respect the privacy requests of our artists. This means, no fan requests, no taking pictures and absolutely no inappropriateness. “ 

Damn, you thought. You had hoped you could at least get some autographs signed. You reminded yourself you were here for business, it was laced all over your application which is probably why they chose you. You hadn’t mentioned your adoration for BTS at all. 

“Now, I’m going to assign you to your teams. Y/N, Sin-ho and Eun will be working with makeup team 1 in room 2.34…” You listened carefully to be disappointed. 

Make up? 

Did they chose you because your eyeliner was mostly always on point? You wanted to see some real action, how profits grow, accounts rise and heck even seeing what PR do would be cool. But, make-up seriously? It was difficult to hide the disappointment from your face. What was even weirder was that you glanced to Eun and Sin-ho, who looked like they’d just won the lottery. Their eyes were beaming. 

For a guy who looked super masculine too, you were confused by Eun who looked excited. 

Sin ho shot you a smile that couldn’t contain itself, which was a contrast against your sadness. 

The grey suit lady left after giving the other 3 the PR department which you envied, you had now labelled her the  glass ceiling conformer since she assigned you to something so petty. The others were all guys too, and they got PR!

You tried to tell yourself experience was experience, but cleaning make-up brushes. Yeah, that’ll help me doing accounts in college. Bitch. You thought.

“Why are you so sad?! Don’t you know what this means?” Eun practically screamed as you guys started walking to find the room.

“Talking for hours about shades of concealer? I watch youtube tutorials for that.” You said in defeat. 

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5 Things to Know Before You Learn ASL

So as I’m coming up on my one year mark of beginning to learn ASL and being in my local ITP for a year too. I thought that I’d make a little post to help out those who are maybe considering about wanting to learn ASL or are thinking about becoming an interpreter. 

NOTE: I am hearing, and this whole post is from a hearing interpreting student’s perspective. If you have any disagreements, comments, concerns, things to add, please feel free to inbox/message me and let me know what you think. If you’re a Deaf/HoH person and feel that I shouldn’t be making this post, tell me why and I’ll delete this immediately if you feel that I’m overstepping my boundaries. 

  1.  Why you are learning the language

Before you start any type of program or look up anything related to ASL, you need to know why exactly you are learning or want to learn ASL. Is your child deaf? Do you want to communicate with some Deaf in-laws or family members? Do you work with Deaf people and want to talk to them or make them feel included? Maybe you want to become an interpreter?

Or do you just want to post ASL music videos on YouTube and get popular and gain thousands/millions of subscribers. Or maybe you only wanna learn the curse words so that you can curse at a person without them know what you’re saying. Or you’re thinkng “Oh, having ASL as a second/third language on my resume will bump me up the list when I’m looking for a job.” Or you’re wanting to learn it because “it looks cool”. Let me tell you right now, if you have any intentions of learning ASL and you don’t plan on talking to Deaf people or using your knowledge of the language with Deaf people then you are not doing it for the right reasons. ASL is not there for your convenience to just dilly dally around with. That is someone’s language and part of someone’s culture that you are dealing with. And you need to respect that. 

      2.   ASL is not signed/mimed English

I can not tell you how many times I’ve had to explain this to people at this point. American Sign Language is it’s own language with it’s own grammar and syntax. ASL is not word-for-word signed English. There is not a sign for every English word and vice versa. There are vernaculars of ASL that are more similar to English (SEE and PSE), but they’re not often used in the Deaf community. There is no universal sign language, not all Deaf people sign the same language. Miming/pantomiming is not ASL, in fact miming has absolutely no correlation to sign language whatsoever. ASL is a beautiful visual language and it deserves better than just being minimized to a label of “signed/mimed English”. 

      3.   With ASL comes Deaf culture

As with learning any language, you also learn about the culture that ties into it. For example, Deaf people sort of condemn the term “hearing impaired” because it sounds like they’re broken, when they’re not. I didn’t know that most Deaf people preferred the term “Deaf” or “Hard of Hearing” until my ASL I teacher told me that my second week into school. So that way, when you are in a setting where you’re with a lot of Deaf people, you don’t stick out too much by acting like a hearie or offend anyone. Also, don’t be disrespectful when learning more about the Deaf community. Don’t laugh or jeer or make fun of anything that you might learn, that’s rude. You might actually be surprised with what you learn. 

      4.   Be adventurous 

If you do enroll in an interpreting program, your professors/teachers will likely require you to go to some Deaf events. And if you are just starting out, the thought of going to places full of deaf people and signing after you’ve only been learning for a couple of months is terrifying. I know. Just know, that when you do go to Deaf events, whether they be coffee chats, silent lunches/dinners, don’t be afraid to talk to people. You’re not gonna get very much practice or learn anything if you’re sitting over in a corner just watching everyone else sign. You learn better by being in a practical environment. Also, don’t be scared of talking to Deaf people. 95% of the time they are very glad you’re making an effort to learn ASL and they are very willing and patient with you if you’re just starting out (although you do get the occasional bad apple). If it helps any, go with a group of friends. It’ll ease your nerves knowing that there’s a few people at your level around you. Just takes some chances, it’ll help you in the best way possible. 

      5.   IT WILL BE HARD WORK

Just like any goal that you want to achieve, the road there will require hard work. If you are serious enough about learning the language, then you should know that it will take some time to learn well enough. If you’re willing to work and study hard to learn, then you’ll be just fine. I’ve had a lot of cramped hands, late nights, and tears over the past year, but I love ASL and the Deaf community that I’m near and that motivates me to learn more and practice more because I absolutely love signing. Now, I’m nowhere near fluent because like I said, I’ve only been learning ASL for close to a year. My fingerspelling is still a little slow, my receptive fingerspelling is even slower, and my sentence structure need some work. But I’m gonna keep working at it because I love this language. You know what they say, “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” Well, the same goes for language fluency. It can’t be achieved in a day, or a week, or even a month. It takes time, everyone learns at a different pace. It’s just adjusting that pace to your speed. 


Okay, so those are 5 things that I think that everyone should know before they consider learning ASL. Like I said before I started, if you have any comments, questions, concerns, complaints, etc. please inbox or message me and I’ll be happy to respond to your inquiries. 

DDR Battle // A Phan One-Shot

Genre: family fluff, domestic fluff, parent!phan

Words: 1.7k

Relationship status: married

Warnings: none

Summary: Dan and his and Phil’s daughter Emily play DDR together.

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you’re too hard on yourself-joji (nsfw)

This is a little bit of a special/bonus fic. It’s not really a request, more of a thing I wanted to write after the boiler room performance and my buddy ‘savage ass’ encouraged it.Thank you all for waiting so damn long for this, I just work a ton in the summer so updates aren’t quite so regular, but rest assured I do write whenever I can!

You were actually pretty surprised that the crowd on the screen seemed so…disinterested. Usually, a quiet crowd put you at ease, but right now, it wasn’t. You could see your boyfriend setting up and adjusting his equipment from the little platform he was on, and while he tended to be kind of an anxious guy at times, he looked pale and his hands were shaking nervously. You were really hoping the crowd would perk up when his name was called, when he started his set, because at least then he’d feel a bit more at ease.

But then the announcement came, and no one seemed very interested at all. You could see him sweating as he adjusted his sunglasses, his barrier against the world. You wished you were there with him. After watching him make several frustrated phone calls to the venue, you had told him that it was okay, you could just watch at home. He didn’t like that idea very much, but he wasn’t going to be able to get you into the show, and no amount of calls was going to change that. He was the type of guy that really tended to do better with some type of support system around him.

But now here he was, standing on stage as the tech crew was trying to figure out how to get the instrumental backing on his first track up. “Can you hear me?” He calls out, looking desperately over at the tech crew. He’s wearing sunglasses but you can almost see his slightly panicked expression hidden underneath. He’d preformed often as his cast of characters, he’d even preformed live as Pink Guy, but this was just him. No act to hide behind. Just him.

As he began singing the first few lines of “I Don’t Wanna Waste My Time”, you smiled at the screen. He was doing so damn well, and even though he was trying to hold his hand to his ear so he could hear himself sing, he sounded great. You could tell he was getting nervous again though when he started shouting out. He felt more comfortable when making jokes and playing a character, so you weren’t surprised. You were surprised that the crowd didn’t seem to react at all, even when he tried yelling out an “unblock me bitch”, an inside joke that only a few really understood. As the show progressed, the audio issues continued to get worse, and watching your boyfriend nearly plead with the tech crew was really bothering you. He was slowly beginning to get goofier and goofier, which seemed to be more of a reaction to all the mess ups and hiccups in the show than anything else. You hoped you were wrong though, maybe he was excited rowdy and not nervous rowdy.

Joji ending the show with Wonderwall was a surprise, but a pleasant one. He was a total geek for that song, even though it fit far outside his usual tastes. You suspected it had been an ironic taste at first, but developed into something genuine. You settled down to finish the livestream and wait for Joji to come back to the hotel, like you’d arranged. He was going to stay at the venue to watch everyone else preform, and of course shoot the dollar bill gun at Brian, but after that he was going to come back to pick you up so you could come along to the after party. As you were already dressed and ready to go, you decided to call Joji to see how the show went, but it went to voicemail. It didn’t surprise you, the venue was loud and you could see him on screen in the background talking to his friend Tanner. He seemed to be having a lot of fun with his money gun during Brian’s set, and it was funny to watch him struggle with the plastic lever while still doing that goofy dance he did when he didn’t know what else to do. George was a great break-dancer. Any other dancing? Not so much.

               You waited excitedly for Joji to come back to the hotel. You were ready to hear all about the little details of his show, how it felt to perform as himself, and what the plan was for the rest of the night. As soon as you heard the click of the keycard in the door, you sprung up excitedly. George slipped through the door, holding a bag with his performance gear in it. He was still in the black robe he’d worn when he left, the bottoms of his pants poking out from under the hem, but his sunglasses were pushed up on the top of his head to push the sweaty hair out of his eyes. You pulled him into a tight hug as he sat down the equipment, but he felt rather limp in your arms.

“The sound was so fucked, and the crowd didn’t give a shit,” he said, voice low and guarded. You pulled back to look at him and you could tell very quickly that his false bravado and slipped away on the way back to the hotel. As much as he liked to deny it, he was very uncomfortable with a lack of approval, as evidenced by the large number of videos he’d deleted off of his first YouTube channel featuring himself as a character. “Maybe I should just focus on the Pink Guy stuff, people seem to enjoy that a lot more.”

“George,” you say softly, taking his hand and leading him to the bed so you could sit down next to him, “Your music is great. You’re just as cool as Pink Guy or Frank or any of them, hell, I’d say even cooler”

“As much as I want to, I can’t really believe you on this, y/n. You obviously see me through rose colored glasses. It keeps you from really setting apart me as musician from me as a person.” He’s slouching, making himself look much smaller than usual. It’s rare that he’s like this, but when he is, it’s hard to watch. You run a hand through his hair and kiss his head softly.

“You’re too damn hard on yourself George,” you say, leaning in close to his ear as you speak. You pause to kiss his earlobe softly. “There are many things you are good at, and making music is just one of them.” He looks up a little, his brown eyes exposed for you to see, unlike the audience, who had only been able to see their own reflections in his sunglasses. “You’re very funny, you can edit and breakdance and film.”

“Anyone could do that,” he starts, but you lean over to press your lips softly to his before he can finish that thought. His self-deprecating remarks are lost in-between the brush of skin, and when you pull away, he stays quiet.

“Not just anyone. No one can do any of those things quite like you can,” you add, barely getting the words out before he is reaching out for you, searching for another kiss. His hands find their way into your hair, pulling slightly as he tries to shift himself closer to you. “No one can kiss me quite like you can,” you say softly when he trails his lips down to the hollow of your throat. He gets up to face you where you sit on the edge of the bed, and his mouth once again finds yours as he lowers you down onto your back so he can cover your body with his own careful not to crush you with his body, but adamant to keep is lips crushed to any part of your body he’s able to find.

It’s not exactly rare that he gets like this, desperate for and craving your touch, but it is uncommon that he seems so vulnerable about it. Like he’s falling apart at the seams, just a little, and he needs you to stitch him back together again. You can feel his cock pressing insistently against your thigh, even through both your dress and his silly black robe. You’re going to ask him about the after party, if he still wanted to go, but he’s sliding his hand under your dress to tease you through your panties and you take that to mean either a “no” or a “later”. His hands are shaking just a little, like he’s nervous, and you can’t understand why. “Am I good at this? Am I doing okay?” He asks, pausing complete except for his hips, which still absently twitch against your thigh.

“George, I don’t know what brought this on. You’re more than good, you’re great,” you say, your fingers nimbly undoing the tie of his robe so you can touch more of his chest. His breath hitches as the hand you’re running down his chest slips down to where just the smallest peek of public hair is visible above the waistline of his pants. You lean forward to kiss him again, and you begin to feel him relax as you whisper words of encouragement against his skin.

He begins to touch you more confidently, reveling in the praise you reward him with when he brushes against one of your sweet spots. He doesn’t even bother to take your panties off until they are already ruined for the night. You hear the fabric hit the floor somewhere, but you’re more focused on getting Joji’s fly open. He’s trying to help with one hand, but he can’t help shuddering every single time you tell him how good he is being, helping you with his button, and how great he is at touching you. It’s like each and every compliment you give him is chipping away at his self-control.

You finally get the button to pop open on his pants, and shove his boxers down with your right hand, wrapping it tightly around his warm cock. “Good boy, getting hard for me like that,” you whisper, and he bucks forward into your hand like he can’t help it. He probably can’t. You only release him once he’s hovering over your entrance, and though you enjoy the feeling of his cock in your hand, it doesn’t even come close to the feeling of him being inside you. You rock with him slowly, wrapping one arm around his torso to pull yourself closer while the other traces patterns across the smooth skin on his back. “Just like that, you’re so damn good at this. You know exactly how to please me,” you say, and he falters for just a moment. The look on his face says it all. He’s getting off on your praise. You begin to spout off more and more words of praise, and you don’t think you’ve even spoken so much during sex in your life, but it’s working wonders. Calm and cool Joji can’t keep a steady rhythm going, and his practice finger even slips off of your clit momentarily when you once again remind him of how good he is doing, how good he’s making you feel.

He’s already teetering on the edge as you reach your orgasm, but when you choke out a quiet “Yeah, just like that,” he tips over into his own orgasm, coming in several thick ropes before his body loosens up and he rolls over to pull you on top of him. You lay there in silence for a few moments, just enjoying the feeling of being held in his arms as you come down together.

“Do you really think I’m that great,” he asks softly. You press a kiss against his temple and smile.

“Of course, I do,” you say softly. You are exceptionally late for the after party, but Joji is in an exceptionally better mood, so it’s for the best anyway.

anonymous asked:

How do you make the GIFs? If I may ask. I've been wanting to do some on my own but don't know how 😅

Hi! Since I’ve been asked this question several times already, I figured that I might as well make a detailed tutorial on how I make my gifs! I’ve never really made a tutorial nor am I an expert, so please bear with me. If I’m unclear on a step, feel free to message me and I’ll clarify it for you :-)

Please like/reblog because this tutorial took hours to make!

This is the gif I will be teaching you how to make: 

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anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm wondering how basic grammar in Sumerian works. I don't really know anything about it other than that it's an ergative-absolutive kind of deal? I think? But what sorts of cases are there, and maybe if you have any suggestions about where I might start learning more about the language, I'd love to investigate further myself!

Thanks so much! I know Sumerian resources out there come in two basic types, incredibly dense & confusing or incredibly brief & potentially inaccurate. A great place to start is my youtube videos! I’m hoping that by the time a few more are out they’ll provide a pretty solid primer on Sumerian structure & grammar.

But as a start, the main four things which English (and other European-language) speakers tend to find unusual right away are probably:

  • SOV structure. English (and most European languages) start a sentence with the subject, then the verb, then the object, then various trailing pieces of information — our sentences start strong and often finish weak. Sumerian is, to say the least, not like this. You start with the subject, then cram everything else in (object, obliques, subordinate clauses, etc.) and finally end with the main verb. Yes, every sentence in Sumerian ends with a verb (except for a few one-word sentences like ana? “what?” or inu! “oh no!”) This means that often you have to hang on to the very end of a sentence to get what exactly is going on.
  • Cases rather than prepositions. Sumerian uses almost no prepositions, and instead uses a set of case endings, kind of like an extreme™ version of Latin or ancient Greek. The most important cases to learn are probably (and this is a very simplified version) -a(k) “of”, -a “in/at”, -r(a) “for”, -da “with”, -ta “from”, and -sh(e) “to/towards”. Hopefully videos on these cases will be out soon!
  • Person-nonperson. We’re used to “gender” distinctions in European languages, but they mostly divide between masculine and feminine (think French or Spanish) or sometimes between these two and neuter (think “he, she, it”). Sumerian divides the world instead into two groups, people (including deities, sentient beings, and occasionally representations of people) and everything else. It’s a pretty simple distinction, but one you may have to adjust to.
  • Ergative-absolutive alignment. This is probably the most confusing thing that you encounter upon first learning Sumerian. I’ve got a post explaining the basics of Sumerian alignment here, but in general I recommend not worrying about it too much until you’ve got a better feel for the language. It just means that you should focus on intransitive sentences and ones using the verb to be as your early example sentences.

But before you go, I just want to say — don’t be scared! Most of Sumerian isn’t that difficult, once you adjust to these few things. ^_^

Lights Camera Jealousy

Pairing: danisnotonfire x reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Warnings: Swearing, Break-ups, Aggression

Word Count: 3106

Prompt: I love your angst fic its so awesome!! Could you write another angsty one centred around jealous dan? 

Prompt: Please do one about jealous Dan!!!!
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(N.B. Contains fictional character ‘Ollie’, feel free to imagine him any way you wish.)

“What are you doing?!” exclaims Ollie, propping his foot against the door of the YouTube space that had been hired for the day. You were dragging the huge light box from the corner of the room and didn’t notice the tangle of wire following behind. Ollie was basically your mentor, you’d finally passed your exams and had got yourself a job at Google as a lighting and camera technician, but as you’d only been working there officially for a few months, you were very much still under his wing.

Ollie was 22, and there was no denying he was good looking. All your friends were jealous of you because of the amount of hours you spent together in those little recording rooms, squashed behind cameras as you helped youtubers film their videos. He was also a massive flirt and you enjoyed his attention. Especially since you split with your boyfriend, and fairly famous youtuber Dan Howell, only two weeks ago. Your 8 month relationship had suddenly crumbled. You had met him when you did a weeks work experience at the YouTube building, and it didn’t take either of you long to fall for eachother. But soon it seemed he couldn’t cope with the stress of your very public love life, (outed accidentally by Louise) and he had decided to end it. Not really giving you a real reason. Ollie was the one you ran to when you felt like your world was ending.

“I’m trying to set up! I wanted to sort it out on my own.” You reply, pouting at him and pushing the light away from you. He walks through the door and grins at you, setting down his water bottle on a box full of props.

“Aren’t you cute.” He answers, walking over to you and lightly squashing your cheeks in his palms.

“Shut up”, you say laughing and pushing his hands away, “Who the hell are we setting all this up for anyway?” The room was filled with extremely high tech cameras and lighting equipment.

“Its for Ben Cook’s 'Becoming YouTube’ series.” Ollie says, turning from you and lifting the heavy light rather effortlessly to where you were trying to drag it. The boy had muscles. He kicks the mess of wires away from around your feet. “You’re sorting that out babe, I’m definitely not.” He grins, pointing at it. You ignore him.

“I love Ben’s videos. Is he interviewing someone?” You ask, looking at the two black directors chairs facing the main camera lens.

“Yeah… they’ll be here any second.” He answers, not looking at you. “Can you turn all the cameras on?” he says, squeezing past you to grab his bottle. As he passes, his hand glides over your back.

“Sure.” You take hold of the camera bar and tilt it towards the chairs, and then press the buttons to bring it to life.

“Cheers gorgeous.” Which was something he called you regularly. “I’ll be back in a sec I’m gonna go grab the spare mic from the other room.” He gives you a smile and slips out of the door, and you are alone in the room for all of around 20 seconds before the door swings open again.

“Wow that was quick!” You laugh, not bothering to turn you head. “Can’t bare to be away from me huh?” you joke, knowing he’ll respond with his own cheeky comment.

“Um… I’m sorry?” You hear. And you freeze. It wasn’t Ollie’s voice, it was Dan’s.

You look up to see him stood about two meters away from you, dressed in your favourite shirt and leather jacket. It was the first time you’d seen each other since your relationship ended, he looked so handsome, and you felt a mixture of pain and fluttering sheer through your heart.

“Oh.. I thought you were-”

“Ollie?” he finishes, quite sternly.

“Yes.” You drag your stare away from his beautiful rich brown eyes and back to the camera, just as the door swings open again.

“ALRIGHT YOU LANKY SHITS LETS DO THIS!” Yells Ben. Phil follows behind him and flicks his fringe to the side.

“YEAH!” he says raising his fists and scrunching his nose. However they both freeze when they see you and Dan in front of them. You staring at the camera, and Dan staring at you.

“Phew!” Ben makes the whistling noise that makes everything a little more awkward. “This will be interesting. Alright Y/N?” he asks, not exactly treading gently. You look up at them and see Phil pull a gentle sympathetic face at you, probably knowing exactly how you felt right now.

“Fine Ben. You ready to go? We’ve got the room until three.” You say.

“Yeah, take a seat boys.” He gestures to Dan and Phil. Phil sits but Dan’s eyes are still on you. Then Ollie comes bursting back through the doors, whistling to himself before smiling at the three youtubers in front of you. Dan’s face turns into a slight scowl as he turns to watch Ollie.

“Afternoon boys,” he says confidently, “You ready to go?” He moves himself in front of Dan as he steps over a wire. They were almost the same height, Dan was only just taller. Ollie turns to face Dan, and smirks at him, pushing out his chest slightly.

“Hold this for me gorgeous.” Ollie says, clearly talking to you but keeping his eyes locked on Dan. He passes you the spare mic and you watch them both closely. It was like a dominance display, and you knew Dan had always felt intimidated by the attractive camera tech, but this time Dan edges forward slightly, grinding his jaw and glaring back at Ollie.

“Okay you pair of peacocks. Put the feathers down. We haven’t got long.” Says Ben impatiently. You feel yourself blush, and you scratch the back of your hand harshly. Things were getting tense.

It was safe to say Ollie wasn’t Dan’s biggest fan. When your relationship with Dan had ended, Ollie was the one that saw how it really affected you, and he resented Dan for it. He always told you how Dan should have fought for the relationship, and what a mistake he had made. Ollie’s flirty boyish behaviour was probably his way of showing your painfully beautiful ex-boyfriend exactly what he’d left behind.

Ollie shrugs, “Alright. Let’s film.” He smiles at Dan one last time, and turns to walk towards the cameras, and towards you. Dan sits down next to Phil and grips the sides of the seat, staring a spot on the floor.

“Um… Everyone ready?” You ask, only allowing yourself to look between Phil and Ben as you feel Ollie up against your side. You know he’s standing this close on purpose, but you don’t want to push him away. As cruel as it may be, you were hoping it was making Dan a little jealous…

Phil nods at you, smiling gently, before turning his attention to Dan, which naturally made you look too. He was clenching his jaw, as his eyes blazed. He then lifts his head to the side, moves his fringe slightly with his fingers and bites the inside of his lip, before finally looking up at Ben. Not you.

“Yeah.” He says plainly. Your stomach flutters and you return your stare to the cameras, gripping the bar and adjusting the height ever so slightly.

There was a weird atmosphere in the room. Aside from the obvious tension between Ollie and Dan, there was a huge change in attitude towards you from Dan. Angry? Possessive? Sexual? All 3??? He had been the one to end the relationship, and aside from a (very painful) phone conversation to organise when he could come and collect his things from your flat, you hadn’t spoken to or seen each other at all. Phil had been the one in the end to collect his things, and from what you could get out of him, Dan hurt just as much as you, so you couldn’t work out exactly why he had ended it… From the way he was looking at you now, it seemed like he didn’t know why either…

“No gorgeous, like this, we want to get about ten centimeters in frame on Phil’s left. C'mere.” says Ollie, moving to stand behind you. There was little room between him and the wall, so he pressed into your back and wove his arms around you to hold the camera with you. He lowered his upper body slightly to be level with you. You felt your heart flip. Not because of Ollie, but because of Dan, you were watching him through the camera. He was glaring at Ollie again, really clamping his jaw together and you could see his chest inflate as he took a breath.

“You see?” Ollie continues, running his hands over yours to move the camera to the left a little. His head was close to yours and he made no effort to hide his flirting in front of anyone in the room. “That’s better. Good job babe.” As he says it, one of his hands finds your waist, and he squeezes you gently, automatically making you giggle. You couldn’t help it, it was a natural reaction, but at that moment, Dan stood.

“That’s enough Ollie.” He says sternly. His eyes firey with anger and his fists clenched.

“Sorry mate?” Ollie replies, keeping his hand on your waist but standing up to his full height. You blush and frantically look to Phil, who is watching Dan closely, a slightly worried look on his face. You both knew Dan wasn’t the type to get angry, let alone challenge someone like Ollie. Sure, Dan was taller, but only just. And Ollie had the muscles.

“You’ve got to me joking me.” Sighed Ben. “I’m going to find Jack. Someone text me when they’ve sorted this shit out.” He looks at you and raises his eyebrows as he walks over to the door, probably all the sympathy he’s capable of seeing as this was his film that was being interrupted because of you.

“I’m sorry Ben.” You mumble, as he leaves. You look up through your lashes at Phil, who is now by Dan’s side, holding onto his shoulder.

“Take your hand off of her.” Dan says through gritted teeth. His eyes flash to your waist where Ollie is holding you.

“I don’t believe you have the right to tell me that anymore mate.” Ollie moves to stand slightly in front of you, almost protectively, but his fingers move from your waist to your hand where he holds it gently. You see Phil tighten his grip on Dan’s shoulder, and you realise just how angry Dan must be. You force yourself to look at Dan, and see his eyes burning as he looks down at your fingers in Ollie’s. You want to move then, but you’re just frozen. You had never been fought over before, and this wasn’t some playground fight. You felt too nervous to move, or to say a thing.

“Are you jealous? Even though YOU gave her up?” pokes Ollie.

“Don’t.” Whispers Dan.

“You gave up all the boyfriend rights too bro. Y/N’s single now. You saw to that.” Ollie smirks.

“Shut your mouth Ollie.” Dan growls, taking a step forward despite Phil’s efforts to hold him still.

“Or what?!” Ollie replies, letting go of your hand and closing the gap between him and Dan. They both have their fists clenched and you can see Dan’s eyes flitting between Ollie’s. You fall back against the wall, a little overwhelmed with emotion. Did this mean Dan wanted you back? Or did he just not want anyone else to have you? You weren’t even that interested in Ollie. He was your friend, but you enjoyed the flirting. It made you feel important, something you didn’t feel much of towards the end of your relationship with Dan. But you couldn’t handle the idea that Dan didn’t want you to feel happy with anyone else. If he feels this way, why didn’t he fight for your relationship? Why is he fighting for you now?!


“You lost her man.” Ollie laughs at Dan, but nothing was funny. Dan’s eyes narrow and he grinds his jaw again. Ollie leans in close to Dan’s face and bares his teeth a little. “You fucked up.”


Suddenly, Dan grabbed Ollie’s t-shirt in his fists and scrunched the material up, he pulls it so hard Ollie lifts up slightly on his toes and Dan doesn’t once break their eye contact.

“I told you, to shut your mouth.”

You’d had enough. Adrenaline kicks in and you run over to force yourself between the two boys, pushing your palms on either of their chests.

“STOP!” You yell. Dan rips his hands away from Ollie’s t-shirt and lets his arms fall to his side. You can feel how fast his heart is beating through his shirt, and the butterflies begin to stir as you feel him breathe heavily against you. Ollie however seemed calm, probably thinking if things had gone any further he could have won, you however, and evidently Phil who was now holding Dan’s shoulder with both hands, both realised that Dan was way too angry to back down on his own. You needed to calm him down
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“Phil, please take Ollie out of here.” You gently push Ollie backwards and glance up at him, nervously assessing his face. He looked calm enough, but slightly pissed off at your instruction.

“You want me to leave?”

“I think you should.” You say gently. You realise that Ollie was only doing any of this because he knows Dan hurt you. He was technically sticking up for you, supporting you, in his own messed up way. You had allowed him to flirt. This was down to you. Dan was furious because of you.

“Please go with Phil, Ollie. Find Ben and tell him he’ll have to book a room for tomorrow. Or see if anyone else has equipment set up. I need to stay here.” You turn to nod at Phil and he lets go of Dan’s shoulders, glancing between you both. Dan is staring at a spot on the wall above your head, still breathing heavily with  pounding heart. Phil then points at the door and Ollie smirks at them both, before walking backwards, watching Dan, to the door Phil was holding open.

“You best sort it the fuck out mate.” He says, before stretching out his top and walking out the door with Phil.

As the door clicks shut, you allow your hand to fall from Dan’s chest, and his eyes flick up to meet yours. God you’d missed those eyes. They were somehow darker than you remember, and were still glowing with emotion.
  
“I’m sorry.” He says.

“You need to say sorry to Ben I think.” You reply, trying to sound assertive but wobbling on a few of your words. You were close enough to smell him, and he smelt like your own piece of heaven. Your favourite smell in the world.

“No…no Y/N. I’m not sorry for that… I’m sorry for everything.” He runs his fingers through his fringe causing it to stick up a little, just like he used to when he was stressed, or embarrassed. You maintain your eye contact with him, but your eyelids flutter a little, knowing you’re about the have the conversation you’ve been dreading. He continues, “I don’t know how to… explain… it got too much. I couldn’t handle it.”

“So you decide to cut and run?” You say, your voice wobbling again.

“Ollie is right I fucked up. My head was all over the place you know I’m a private person. I’ve been getting shit about Phil and me for years so I never thought the internet would react so badly when my real relationship came out.. I thought everyone would just accept it… ”

“So you’re blaming all of this on the fact that you had a girlfriend? You’re blaming this on me?”

“No!” He suddenly grabs your arms and pulls you closer to him. “No, I’m blaming this on me, and the fact that I am such a fucking idiot! I know I shouldn’t care what anyone thinks, and I don’t now. I care what I think, more importantly I care what you think and I care that Ollie had his hands all over you when it should still be me…”

He runs his hands down your arms until he reaches your fingers, holding still awaiting your reaction.

You don’t really know what to do. Or think. Your head had been all over the place these last few weeks and now Dan had just said all that… but without realising, you had opened your palms, inviting his hands to hold yours.

“I don’t like seeing you with Ollie. I hate the thought of him touching you.”

“We’re just friends Dan.” You whisper, holding his hands tighter, craving his contact.

“The way you were letting him touch you…”

“To make you jealous. I didn’t know it would work so well.”

He laughs gently, and your stomach knots at the sound. You can’t help but smile too. You’re still gazing into his eyes but his have wandered to your lips.

“We’ve got a lot we need to talk about Daniel.” You say, edging closer to him. “I mean it.”

“I know Y/N, but first you need to tell me you forgive me.” You see a shine to his eyes you didn’t see before. Tears? “Please forgive me everything.”

You didn’t need to think about your answer. “I forgive you. I forgave you as soon as it happened. I can’t hate you at all. But you have to change the way you are Dan. I won’t let you give us up whenever you feel a bit stressed out.” As you say the last few words, Dan shakes his head sadly, but in agreement.

“I know, I won’t. I will never put you through this again. I fucking love you.” His eyes join your again. You lean up to rest your forehead on his.

"I love you. Who knew we needed Ollie to make this happen…”

“I guess he’d not completely useless.” He whispers, before pressing his lips to yours. He kisses you the way he did the very first time. Just after he had walked you home, stood outside your door. Tender but powerful. Meaningful and promising.

His hands raise to your cheeks and you grip his middle. This time, there was no way you were going to let him go.
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The Notion of Us

Summary: Five Times Phil wanted to propose, and the one time he actually succeeded

Warnings: None. It’s completely fluffy! 

Word Count: 2,742

Authors Note: Hello everyone! I normally post fics on Archive of Our Own so this is the first official fic that I’m posting on Tumblr. I hope you all enjoy it! If you’re unfamiliar with my work, I range normally from tame fluff like this to NSFW so I’ll post a wide variety. Please do not hesitate to send me a message, I always look forward to talking to people! 

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anonymous asked:

would you ever do a gif tutorial?

of course!!! the main things you need are:

  • photoshop
  • patience
  • access to youtube and a video converter website OR other way you like to download videos 

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A Study In Cosmetics

because we like to steal your fanfics, @grumpy-swoop

here’s the prompt

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“Harry, Clara’s here!”

“I’ll be down in a bit!”

John exhaled and stepped back from the door. “You should probably just come in, I suppose,” he said in a low voice. “When she says a bit, she really means another half an hour.”

Clara laughed and slipped into the living room, taking a seat on the couch. “It’s fine. I’ve gotten used to it.”

John smiled at his sister’s date. Harry had changed so much since she met Clara– she’d gotten happier. His eyes flicked over the girl’s face before they slid back to the floor.

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♡ Hands (nsfw) ♡ Leafy/Reader

A/N: I’m screaming because I wrote this. Also, sorry for mistakes, wanted to post quickly before I went to class. Hope ye enjoy. (:


Most of the time you can control yourself when it comes to sex, but for some reason, today had been unbearable. Throughout your classes, throughout work, all day long you just couldn’t stop thinking about him… Calvin. The love of your goddamn life. Turning the car off in the driveway, you take a deep breath, hoping it will calm you down and relieve some of the tension from the too long day. It didn’t. But despite the day’s events, you’re home now, and you know Calvin is waiting for you. With those thoughts in mind you grab your things and head inside.

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Board Stuff

Hello! This will likely be my first and last blog post, but I’ve had many people ask for board prep advice, and I figured this was the most efficient way to get it out to everyone at once! I had a ton of advice along the way, so am happy to give back in any way that I can.

I will start out by telling you guys that my MCAT was well below average. I spent so much time looking up correlations between MCAT and board scores, and was convinced that I couldn’t do well on boards. This caused me a ton of anxiety, and despite what my NBME assessments, class grades, and Qbank averages told me, I doubted myself until the day I received my scores back.

My scores
USMLE: 257
COMLEX: 826

What I did

My goal going in to med school was to give 110% every single day, so that no matter what happened, I could not regret anything because I knew I had done everything I could. I maintained this mentality the entire way through, and it landed me where I am right now.

This being said, I never had a “goal score” for my boards. My goal was to max out my potential.

For the entirety of my first and second year, I put in on average 11-12 hours of work on weekdays, and 14-16 hours each day of the weekend. Obviously there were days I did less, but this was the exception and not the norm.

The absolute best advice I can give in regards to boards is to focus on class work and build a solid foundation. This is UNDERRATED. I knew many people who spread themselves thin with “board” resources, and wasted their time studying those rather than focusing on their class work. This is a huge mistake. The class work IS the “board material”. There is no point in venturing outside of your class work until you have that down solid.

1st year – 100% focused on classes. No board materials used.

Summer between first and second: DO NOTHING…except….Sketchy Micro. I watched this one time through during the summer, and the advantage it gave me is indescribable. During the fall, I would watch the videos again as we talked about them in class. Overall I went through the entire thing about 3 times. Not only was my micro class an absolute breeze, but after the fall semester, I hardly ever looked at micro again. These videos were so solid, that come board time I still remembered every detail, so there was no need to continue to study micro. I maxed out the micro score on both COMLEX and USMLE, and it was due primarily to this program. (We did also have an excellent micro class at school, so I don’t want to undercut that either).

2nd year

Fall semester:
This semester I was still about 95% focused on classes and 5% focused on boards. I started Kaplan Q bank, as well as USMLErx. I ONLY did these along with class work (ex: if we were learning cardio path, I only did cardio path questions). This not only helped me get used to board style questions, but also hammered in the class material.  

I also did dabble around in COMBANK a little bit. I think I finished a little over half of it.

Spring Semester
My primary focus was still class work. I bought Uworld in February or so, but still only did questions that corresponded with my class work. However, if we were learning GI path, instead of JUST doing GI path questions, I did ALL GI questions. This re-exposed me to anatomy, Biochem, histo, and other topics from first year.

I also began to diligently watch Pathoma. If we were learning GI path, I would learn the class material well, and then watch the Pathoma videos to hammer in the info. This was crucial.

I had all of Pathoma and Uworld done x1 before I got to my dedicated time.

Towards the END of my spring semester, I started messing around with First Aid. I had not really opened it before this time. If we were learning about cardio, I would make time to review cardiac anatomy and phys (we are not systems based). Again, this not only helped for boards, but also for classes.

Spring break
Biochem was my weakest subject- I think I had literally forgotten all of it. Over spring break, I watched the entire Kaplan Biochem series (schedule below). I made very detailed, yet simple notes, and from then on only worked from those. The number of pathways I had to learn after watching was daunting, to say the least. I came up with the idea of “pathway time” (dumb, but it worked well for me). For 15 minutes a day, I would stop what I was doing and draw out a biochem pathway. I would re-draw that same pathway for several days until I knew it cold, then would move to the next. I had all of the pathways down in about 4-5 weeks, and had turned my worst subject into one of my best. By working on this during the school year, I was completely done with Biochem before dedicated even started.  Breaking Biochem down in to short quick segments made it less stressful for me, and made it easy to attack.

Dedicated
Here is my dedicated schedule. I will stress the importance of regularly scheduled assessments. From what I’ve read, a lot of people are scared of taking assessments, so they just continue to study blindly, take an assessment a month or two later, do poorly, and then feel like they wasted those one or two months with ineffective studying. For this reason, I chose to space my assessment exams about 1 week apart. This way I could track my progress, and quickly make adjustments to my study methods if needed. This also allowed me to identify any weak points and quickly address them.

Uworld Stuff
During dedicated I finished Uworld for a second time. Many people advise saving Uworld until dedicated. I went back and forth trying to decide when to start it, and ultimately chose to begin early (thanks to the help of a super smart radiology resident I know ;) ). This was hands down one of the best decisions I made in regards to my board prep. Yes, Uworld is unequivocally the best resource there is for Step 1; so why the heck wait until dedicated to start?! Doing this qbank twice allowed me to get the most out of it. There were SO MANY things I picked up on the second time around that I would have otherwise missed. Start this in your spring semester, and do it in tutor mode, along with class work. Your second pass during dedicated should be random timed. Uworld for me was NOT about tracking scores; it was about learning from the questions and explanations.

I also kept a Uworld Journal (I read about this on someone else’s blog, so thank you for the idea!).  A Uworld journal is a word document that I used to keep track of questions I got wrong. I would read the explanation, and then pick the ONE FACT that I needed to know to answer the question right. I would type up the one fact in question form, and then answer it below. (Ex: What type of collagen is found in bone – Type 1).  I’m a wordy person (as you can probably tell), so this ‘one fact’ thing was awesome for me because it kept things short. The goal was to review this journal frequently, which I actually did not do very well, but the night before my USMLE I read through the entire thing and can say for sure I got several questions on my test that came from this journal. Uworld is huge, and keeping this journal was the only way for me to remember everything I had missed.

Between Uworld, USMLErx, Kaplan, COMBANK, and my assessments, I did somewhere between 12-13k questions. This was the most important thing I did. They can only ask questions so many ways. By exposing myself to this number of questions, there was not much that I hadn’t seen. A huge chunk of my questions were done during second year, but as stated above, I always did them in a way that would correspond with what we were learning in class at that time. I think I good goal to set is at least 10k questions.

Pathoma
I finished Pathoma for a second time during dedicated. I had a strong path background, so 2x was enough for me. If you are still hazy on any of the path, I would highly recommend watching Pathoma as many time as you need to until you have it down cold.

First Aid
Went through first aid twice. Not much else to say about this!

Between my USMLE and COMLEX
I took the USMLE 5 days before COMLEX. The idea was to study for the USMLE alone, and then in the 5 days between read the green book and do COMBANK OMT questions. This did not happen haha. I was brain dead after my USMLE. I think I read about half of the green book and worked maybe 200-300 COMBANK questions or so. I am not some OMT wizard or anything, so its safe to say the OMT on my COMLEX was easy (fortunately). Know your VSR’s and Chapman points cold. VSR’s were probably 80% of my OMT questions. I used a youtube video to learn them (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-r_QriTMSc


Assessments I Took 

- NBME assessments - forms 15, 17, 13, 18

- UWSA - 1, 2 

- Free 120 

- COMSAE form E 

- COMBANK assments 1 and 2

- Kaplan full length 

Thoughts on these - take as many as you can, especially the NBME assessments. My overall score on the USMLE was the exact average of my NBME assessments. They do a good job of letting you know where you stand and what you need to brush up on. Take one at the very start of your dedicated time period to get a baseline score. This will let you know where you stand and show you how much work you need to do to reach your goal. I think getting a baseline is super important. 

All of the COMLEX assessments (except COMSAE) were taken during the spring semester of school. These were all required by the school. 


Overall, the material I used in dedicated was no different than what everyone else uses. The work I did in my first two years is what laid the foundation for me to score well.

My MCAT is evidence that anyone can do this. Just takes a lot of work! Happy to answer any questions that I can!


Board Schedule












I was NOT able to stick to these time blocks. However, I DID finish everything I was supposed to finish each day by the end of that day. The time blocks were just not realistic for me. I had several days after my UWSA2 to just hit weak areas. In retrospect, I took WAY too long to study. 4 weeks would have been ideal. 


My Biochem Schedule (spring break)


Seiko Kimura Wig Tutorial

Many people have been requesting a tutorial for this wig ever since I suggested making one after posting my photos online. I’m very happy and thankful for all the positive feedback on my wig and cosplay. This is my very first tutorial for anything, I hope it is clear and helpful. I’m also in the process of creating a YouTube video version of this tutorial. So with that, let’s get started on the tutorial! (under the cut) 

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i’m wonderstruck | shawn mendes imagine

MY MASTERLIST

requested by anonymous

word count: 1,130

author’s note: title from “enchanted” by taylor swift.

Your name: submit What is this?

First there was the issue of getting him to sit still on the couch for more than two minutes, which proved to be a far more daunting task than you had previously anticipated. Shawn was incessantly bouncing his leg up and down which distracted from the center of the shot, but when you tried to explain this to him, he didn’t quite understand.

“Can’t you just edit that out?” he asked.

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A Dying Art

summary; a prompt from phanfic 

phil has been a technician at radio 1 for a few years after graduating uni (he doesnt do yt) and dan is an up and coming vlogger who’s just got his own radio show. They meet at work and sometimes phil has to wander to the desk (in front of cameras) during a show and he and dan always joke around/flirt during songs so people start to ship them and things snowball from there

words: ~3k

warnings: none its all flufffffff (which im not the best at writing so SORRY)

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I’m Here Now

Summary: Everyone always talks about Dan being scared of the dark. But sometimes, Phil gets scared too. And in those moments, Phil’s mind starts racing, and he needs a little help from his (too) perfect boyfriend to feel better again.
Word count: 2941
Genre: Oneshot / Fluff / Angst
Warnings: Swearing, a bit of self hate (nothing graphic or body related really)
Disclaimer: This is all fiction and unfortunately i do not own dan or phil.
A/N: This was only meant to be a superfluffy little drabble, but somewhere along the way it turned into a angsty yet fluffy oneshot. We all need a bit more of scared phil and comfort!dan in our lives. Okay bye hope you enjoy :)

You can also read it here on ao3 if you prefer and want to comment or something :)



Everyone always said that Dan was the one in the relationship who was afraid of the dark. That was a true fact. Dan was very afraid of the dark. Phil had always found it quite endearing and just plain out adorable how the younger would almost sprint across their dark apartment every time he had to turn the lights off. Which was something Dan often had to do as he was an incurable night owl. Not even his fear of the dark mysterious corners could stop him from scrolling through tumblr on their couch at 3am.

Phil on the other hand, he was alright with the dark. Of course he didn’t enjoy it. What kind of sadist would enjoy it? Phil was just content with it. It was there every night and there were most likely no killers or monsters hiding in the shadows. But there was one thing that scared Phil about the darkness. Noises.

This fear had been worse when Phil lived up north in his big family house. Dan was right, it was like something from a horror movie. The entire house had creaked by the smallest gust of wind, and the attic always seemed to make unexplainable noises. That house could make anyone paranoid.

Living in London had made Phil somewhat used to noises. Whether it was sirens, loud cars in general, or someone shouting in the street outside, there was some noise going on most of the time. There was always a reason for it. If it sounded like a psychopath, it was probably just a normal drunk guy walking past their house. There was absolutely no reason to worry or to be scared.

But tonight, Phil felt a bit uneasy as he laid in bed. Dan was in the lounge, scrolling through tumblr as usual. Or maybe he was watching youtube videos. Phil had heard him laugh a few times. Usually, Phil would’ve smiled while he fell asleep to the sound of his boyfriend’s laughs and keyboard clicking in the other room. But not tonight.

He tried. He really did. He closed his eyes and tried to think happy thoughts. Kittens. Rainbows. Unicorns. Kittens having a tea party with unicorns in a rainbow castle. No, that didn’t work. It was too colurful.
How about thinking of Dan. Dan’s curly hair after he’d had a shower. Dan’s long legs in skinny jeans. Dan’s deep dimple. Dan’s kind eyes. Dan’s broad shoulders. Dan’s cute tummy that Phil had placed loving kisses on more times than he could count when the younger felt self concious.

Ugh no, that certainly did not work. All this thinking of Dan just made Phil miss him even more. Why couldn’t he come to bed already? Phil stretched his arm out to reach his phone. He blinked rapidly to adjust his eyes to the bright light from his screen. It wasn’t even 1am yet. He rolled over and groaned quietly into his pillow. Dan wouldn’t come to bed for atleast another two hours, if not more. There were no perks of having a nocturnal boyfriend.
Phil was a little surprised that the man in question had dared to stay up by himself however. The viscous storm sweeping over London, the reason for Phil’s sleeping problems in the first place, should be enough to scare Dan. It was one of Dan’s biggest nightmares to have to navigate through their apartment in complete darkness. But tonight, he didn’t seem bothered about it at all. He’d had an emotionless expression on his face when Phil had announced that he was going to bed almost an hour ago.
Phil was honestly a bit annoyed at him. How could he be completely fine just sitting out there by himself, while it sounded like the house was falling apart brick by brick? Phil sure as hell wasn’t fine. The rain was angrily attacking his window. The tree outside, which was actually stood quite far from their building, was bendy tonight and the twigs were occasionally slapping on the wall next to Phil’s bed. Everything was creaking. The walls. The floor. The roof. Everything. The longer he laid there, the more it felt like he was in a horror movie. The moonlight made creepy silhouettes on the white walls. Yeah, Phil was definitely not getting any sleep tonight.

Phil knew he was being silly. He was a 28 yearold grown man. It was silly to be afraid of a stupid storm. He’d lived through many storms in his life. But tonight, everything and everyone seemed to be against Phil.
The storm was making him anxious. Dan was ignoring him. Phil had dropped an entire bowl of cereal on his jeans earlier that night. He had stripped down to his boxers in the middle of the lounge and Dan had barely even looked at him. It was honestly bothering Phil a bit. Sure, they had been together for six years. That’s long enough to not drool all over yourself when your partner is standing in only his boxers infront of you. But Phil thought that they were different to other couples. That they had done a good job at keeping their love life young and fresh over the years. Phil was still just as in love with Dan as he had been the first time they met. Lots of other things in their lives had changed around them, but not their relationship. But maybe Phil was wrong. Maybe Phil had been too dragged in to the whole “heart eyes howell” thing like the fans were. “Heart eyes howell” was a real thing. Phil was blessed enough to look into those brown orbs every single day. He could see it up close, face to face. The adoration the younger had towards Phil. It wasn’t just lucky screenshots by the fans. It was a real thing. Right?

Maybe it wasn’t. Maybe that was just Dan’s eyes. Maybe Phil was just as fooled as their viewers. How would he even know? Brown eyes always look kind. Maybe Phil was delusional. Dan might be sick of him by now.
What if Phil’s age bothered him? Dan was only 24. He had barely left his teen years behind, while Phil was so close to 30 that he could almost touch it with his fingertips. Did it bother Dan? Phil had always thought Dan enjoyed the age gap, but maybe he had been wrong all along.

Phil’s racing mind was abrubtly disturbed by the sound of thunder. He instinctively pulled his duvet up even more. So much that it almost covered his entire face. Phil then squeezed his eyes shut and focused on not crying. He could feel that the tears were threatening to spill out the moment he opened his eyes again.

It took less than a minute before Phil could hear the bedroom door open. Dan had probably forgotten his charger in the room or something. Phil waited for Dan to leave and tried his best to look like he was sleeping. As much as he wanted to hold the younger man right now, Phil didn’t have the heart to bother him with his silly sadness.

That’s why Phil was surprised when he felt the right side of their bed move. The large familiar figure slipped down under the duvet. But Phil was stubborn and kept his eyes shut the entire time. A few seconds went by before the figure chuckled only inches from Phil’s face.
“Phil, I know that you’re awake.” Phil had to subtly bite his bottom lip to stop himself from letting out a groan of annoyance.
“No I’m not.” he mumbled. Dan chuckled again. “You’re a terrible liar Philly.”
“Or maybe you just know me too well. Six years and all.” Phil replied. Dan hummed softly in reply as he reached his hand over and ran his fingers over the others cheek.
“No point acting anymore. Open your eyes for me please?” Phil hesitated but did as he was told. His gaze immediately landed on familiar brown eyes. As he had expected, a teardrop or two spilled onto his colourful pillow as he did so. Dan looked at the tears with a surprised expression that soon turned into a frown. His fingers carefully ran over the wet cheek before he broke the short silence. “What’s wrong?”
Phil was in no mood to even begin to try explaining his silly midnight worries. So he didn’t say anything. He just rolled over so that he was facing the wall instead of Dan. He spoke again after he’d pulled the covers tightly around himself. “Goodnight Dan.”

But Dan wasn’t having any of that tonight. He wanted answers. He swiftly moved closer to his older boyfriend again so that he was almost spooning him. Dan started tracing his fingers softly on Phil’s back. He knew that the action often calmed the other down when he was upset.
“Please talk to me. Did I do something wrong? Please tell me if I’ve hurt you in any way. I promise I won’t do it again no matter what it is.”
Phil sighed deeply. There was no point in fighting it when Dan was in his stubborn mood. He turned his body to face Dan again, albeit keeping a bit of a distance between their bodies.
“Of course you didn’t do anything wrong Dan. You can never do anything wrong.” Phil sighed again before continuing in a more sad tone. “You’re too perfect.”
Dan frowned again, still clueless.
“What do you mean I’m too perfect? I’m not perfect. Did you hit your head on something? Are you actually physically okay right now? Because you’re talking absolute nonsense.” Dan said with a sad smile. Phil appreciated his boyfriend’s attempt to lighten the mood. But tonight, it didn’t make him feel any better at all. Phil shook his head.
“No Dan, you are. You are the most perfect person I’ve ever met. You are flawless inside and out. I don’t understand how you are even a thing. It’s like someone actually handcrafted you” Phil rolled over so that he was staring at their ceiling instead of Dan’s face. His perfect face was just annoying him right now. “You’re so perfect that it almost makes me religious.”

Dan let out a loud snort at the others speech. Phil looked over and frowned. “It’s not funny. I’m serious.”
“I’m sorry Phil, but I can’t take your very serious declaration of love seriously when you look like you’re about to burst into tears, while it sounds like the wall is gonna fall down.” He smiled sadly.
“I just don’t understand. Is my so called ‘perfection’ bothering you or what are you trying to tell me?” He closed the space between them and let his head rest against Phil’s shoulder. Phil wanted to push him away at first to show that he was irritated. But he could never say no to Dan’s cuddles. Even though they were sort of having a fight.
“It’s just…is heart eyes howell real?” He looked down on his younger boyfriend’s face as he waited for his response.
“What do you mean?” he asked curiously. Phil took a deep breath and looked up at the ceiling again before he began explaining.

“It’s just that…you know, is it real? Or am I delusional? Maybe I let our viewers influence me too much. Maybe that’s just what your eyes look like. Eyes can’t look in love. That’s not scientifically possible. Eyes always look the same. So maybe you don’t love me as much as I thought you did. Perhaps you’re getting tired of me. And…and I think my age bothers you. You’re so young Dan and I’m almost 30. I know we joke about the whole ‘daddy’ thing sometimes, even in bed, but that’s all it is. Jokes. I’m a joke.” Phil almost didn’t dare to glance over at Dan again. When he did, Dan was staring at him, mouth slightly open without saying a word. 

A few seconds went by before Dan suddenly launched himself onto his boyfriend. Phil yelped in surprise.
“What the hell are you doing Dan?!”
Dan was hovering over, or more like laying on top of, Phil’s entire body. He was attacking the other man’s body and face with little kisses. It tickled, but Phil tried to keep a straight face.
“You’re fucking perfect Phil Lester. Don’t you dare to ever think anything else.” He placed a gentle kiss on Phil’s collarbone.
“First of all…” quick kiss on his chest. “You know just as much as I do and our fandom does that 'heart eyes howell’ is a real thing. Science can’t explain everything. And that’s a big statement coming from me, mr 'I don’t believe in anything that science can’t prove’” Phil could feel a smile tug at the corners of his mouth. Dan continued in a more serious tone. 
“I don’t look at anyone else in the entire world the same way that I look at you. You know that, don’t you?” Phil nodded.

“Second of all…” featherlight kiss to the side of Phil’s neck. “You’re right. I don’t love you as much as you think. I love you a billion times more than you think I do. Or wait, a trillion times. No wait, a zillion times and whatever’s bigger than that.” Dan placed a more nibbling kiss closer to his jawline. Phil could feel a blush coming on and he prayed that Dan wouldn’t be able to tell.

“Third of all…” a longer kiss on his cheek. “Your age does not bother me at all. You’re a big kid at heart. I honestly never ever think about our age gap. Well, except in bed of course. But that’s only because it turns me on so much. You know it does.“ Yupp, Phil was definitely blushing now. The fact that Dan’s voice had turned lower, deeper, and more seductive was not helping one bit.
“Don’t even try to deny it Philip. I know you love it too. Me acting like your needy twink. Calling you 'daddy’. You fucking love it. I will never get tired of that.”
Dan stopped tracing Phil’s face like he had done subconciously whilst talking, and instead he cupped the elders cheeks in his hands. Dan crashed their lips together in a needy kiss.
They weren’t really making out. It was more intimate and emotional than that. A few teardrops fell from Phil’s eyes, where they’d been threatening to spill out throughout Dan’s speech. Dan’s warm hands catched them before they got the chance to wet his pillow. Dan broke their kiss and leaned back again, still not breaking eye contact. 

“And finally…” soft kiss to Phil’s nose, which finally made Phil grin. Actually, he was already grinning. He hadn’t even noticed that he was. Must’ve happened whilst kissing.
“Finally…” Dan repeated. “You are not a joke. Never call yourself that again. If I catch you doing it again, I…I will force you to sleep on the couch for the rest of your life.”
Phil snorted. “You do know that we own two beds right? You can’t guard two beds at the same time.” Dan looked thoughtful for a moment.
“Well, I guess I’ll just have to lock the door then. Simple.”
“Our doors don’t have locks.”
“I will buy locks.”
“Our landlord would kill you.”
Dan sighed in defeat. “Fine. I guess I’ll have to refuse to give you kisses and cuddles then.”
Phil pouted. “But I need your cuddles. They’re like food. You’d die without food. I’d die without my daily dose of Dan cuddles.”
Dan smiled big in triumph and in adoration of his adorable boyfriend. Phil was smiling too, and the space between them closed again.

After a minute or two of lazy kisses and giggles, they broke apart and Dan resumed his previous position with his head resting on Phil’s shoulder. Though this time, Dan’s body was clinging onto Phil’s like a sloth and their legs were an entangled mess.
“Are you feeling better now?” Dan asked. Phil nodded. “Yeah. Much better. Thank you Dan, you always know how to make me feel better. I don’t know what i’d do without you. And sorry for crying. I don’t usually cry that easily”
Dan hummed in content and sleepiness. “The feeling is mutual. And it’s fine love, everybody needs a cry someimes”

Phil let his head drop down so it was resting against Dan’s messy curls. He smelled like vanilla. He must’ve stolen Phil’s impulse bought shampoo that he’d forgotten he owned. It wasn’t a rare thing for them to steal eachothers hygene products. But it still made Phil smile.
Another thing that was forgotten was the storm. It had died down by now, but rain was still pouring down outside. Phil suddenly remembered something.

“Dan, why are you in bed at 1am? Shouldn’t you be out there browsing right now?” Phil asked curiously. Dan shook his head.
“Of course not. There’s a storm. You hate storms. I’m not gonna leave you alone when you’re scared. “His grip tightened around Phil. 

“Remember what I told you a long time ago? When you were home alone up north and you were scared? I told you that I wanted to be there so you wouldn’t have to be brave. Well, I’m here now. Every day for the rest of our lives if you want me to. You never have to be brave on your own again.”
Phil smiled and planted a kiss to his sleepy boyfriend’s forehead as a way to say thank you. Dan got the message and smiled, already half asleep. Phil could feel himself drifting off aswell. 

It was amazing, how even their fears fitted together perfectly. And Dan had nothing to worry about. Phil would happily spend the rest of his life with Dan by his side every single day.

anonymous asked:

Any recommendations for people who want to learn Korean?

Oh man okay THIS IS VE RY LONG lol putting together an answer is a little challenging haha the website where I first started learning korean actually closed down hfaisuehif I learned like in 2013 so jfoisajf yeah.

I’ll start with hangul which is what you should learn first!
tbh i suggest starting with seemiles youtube playlist because it’s really helpful when you’re first going in and you’re not sure what to do to supplement it i suggest watching other hangul videos as well and not just that. and what’s going on. For a VERY in depth understanding of korean I suggest hyungseok song’s playlist, his videos are very long and very thorough. but like i said you can watch other videos as well theres tons on youtube

You don’t have to stick with one thing you can use multiple ways to learn, it’s important to figure out which way you like learning best.

I REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY suggest writing out the alphabet literally over and over whichever way you want because that’s the best form of memorization, i recommend a journal or notebook to use while learning korean, i use an A5 journal it looks like this ~~ tbh writing everything out as you learn will help. also just sayin but writing in blue ink is supposed to help your memory lol

Hangul apps:

Korean Writing Plus - this is made by HyongA and this was an app that helped me learn hangul a lot, even if it’s meant for children. The first vocabulary I memorized came from there too. It’s 99 cents on the play store but 2.99 on the app store (no idea why) Play store / Apple store
Korean 123 Read Write Practice: This one is nice it’s another kids app (listen, don’t judge me) besides hangul it also introduces numbers and it pronounces the number in both of korea’s number systems (they use 2) Play store / Apple store
SNU LEI: I really recommend this one! This was made by HyongA but it’s free and it’s for older users unlike korean handwriting plus. Play store / Apple store

The alphabet is fairly easy to memorize it’s not very hard to write either, even if you just know the alphabet you’re already doing very good because honestly, when you first start learning, romanization is fine it gives you SOME kind of understanding on how to say the words but as you learn more, do not rely on romanization. Later on, romanization will not help you and it’ll just slow your learning process. you will not sound fluent,, or understandable,, if you just rely on romanization.

also when you’re learning hangul i suggest trying to read anything and everything, you can even use kpop to study. try to read lyrics in hangul, that’s how i got the hang of reading hangul. you can look up the song name and then 가사 for lyrics.

For vocabulary, your regular vocabulary apps are fine. the way I learned was with korean-flashcards lol but I found out they switched websites but their website is still super helpful. It works according to what you currently know and you can make adjustments as you see fit. And it sends daily korean exercises to your email. You can find that website right here ~~ not only that but if you see a word like in a song or a drama and you wanna know what it means, use naver dictionary! i suggest installing the naver dictionary app bc even i use it to this day when im unfamiliar with vocabulary. but you can def also go into the app store and look up korean vocabulary and find something you like

For grammar I suggest Learnkoreanlp, I’m using that myself rn to go over stuff I’ve learned and to learn new stuff bc I’m not fluent or anything. You can find that right here ~~

Talktomeinkorean also covers a lot of different things from what I’ve been told but i havent used it myself you can check that out right here ~~

There’s also a grammar app called grammar haja worth checking out. The korean alphabet is easy but the grammar is hard so it’s gonna take a while to learn, don’t rush it or if you can’t understand something don’t give up, search for other grammar sites or ask a native speaker. even if i dont understand it i write it down anyway, just to have it in my brain lol

Howtostudykorean covers a lot of stuff like Talktomeinkorean, you can check them out here also try looking at their learning how to read section for hangul.

This masterlist has some other stuff you can check out, just remember what I said about romanization later on. 

When you get the hang of hangul and you’re trying to learn vocabulary and grammar and stuff I suggest getting into language exchange bc it really helps talking to a native speaker. There’s apps like hellotalk, you can search language exchange in your app store just be careful of crazies. Also if you have questions it always best to ask a native speaker. for anything you might be confused about but u dont have a native speaker to ask i really suggest hinative app!

later on when you move on to grammar, or if you feel like you can’t learn on your own, maybe look into an online tutor (or real life tutor if possible)? i’m considering that myself

so to wrap it up, get a notebook, a blue pen, write everything out, repeat. even im constantly relearning grammar tbh.

Sorry if there any typos I hope this is understandable and somewhat helpful jfaosiejfaosje

‘The Force’

Summary: (based on this post) He’s got to find out what’s the password, even if it meant being enslaved for a week by someone as pure as a Hufflepuff.

Genre: flufffffff

Warning: swearing

Words: 1, 591 words

A/N: OKAY I KNOW I PROMISED ANGSTY SHIT BUT I JUST NEED TO WRITE THIS. (s/o to my sweet meme cherryblossom-phil for beta-ing this <33 ) im also sry for not updating that much;; I’ve been feeling like shit and I can’t get to write, I was also having stomach pains yesterday, and just like I said, I was also distracted by a donut game. But that’s that, lmao.

Of course, Phil Lester is a student who still can’t forget their life before Hogwarts.

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