next thing to discuss, alison lauren dilaurentis. in lamest terms, the woman who bounces back from everything, the strongest woman emily catherine fields knows. this scene, was so secretly beautiful. immediately we’re tossed into random banter between the two women and alison is so genuinely happy in this moment it’s child-like and you can physically see how happy, giddy, emotional this was to her. you can hear it with the flirtatious sound of “I thought he was a.d.” we are literally shown the moment alison decides, with pure relief and within herself, that she not only loves emily but that it was time to let her know.
what I love is how this time it wasn’t so heavily emotional, like we saw with her mini confession to paige. alison’s moment of telling the woman she loves how she felt, was so positive and, free nothing less. alison dilaurentis had the strength to do one of the hardest things, to let her guard down and just let herself feel something good again. alison has lost so much, the most she’s ever felt is angst, pain, grief, guilt. with emily, she gets to experience happiness and genuine love. this relationship is so beautiful. in the way they protect, compromise, and push.
sasha’s acting was so beautifully done. the small smile when she sees she caught emily off guard with her “I love you.” you can see her change into a little appropriate cockiness when she gives a small knowing smirk and sets the teddy aside, her “you told me not to do this until I was ready ”, the breath of pure relief when she gets to look at her love, finally being able to say those words aloud, likely felt like freedom. her gentle yet unspoken “oh, darling” that she only says with her subtlesmile before she verbally says “this” and gets to kiss her. that freedom, of just loving and being, is so unbelievably beautiful.
and alison lauren dilaurentis radiates beauty, when she finally lets herself be free.
A small recommendation list of “Books I’ve Read That No One Else On The Planet Has Heard Of But They Should Because They Broke My Heart and I Don’t Want To Suffer Alone Anymore”:
Tell The Wolves I’m Home (Carol Rifka Brunt): The story of a gay man and his niece (told from his niece’s perspective) who dies from aids. A story about loss, grief, and more loss. Set during the 80′s, heartbreaking and beautiful and the writing is sublime, I’ve re-read this about four times and it never gets old.
If the premise doesn’t sound that appealing, trust me: this book is about so much and so little, it’s one of the most awe-inspiring, heart-wrenching books I’ve ever read.
Last Night I Sang To The Monster (Benjamin Alire Saenz): Heavy, and moving, the premise of this is a mentally ill boy in rehab. We don’t know why - and neither does he. A book this is as much about letting go as it is about regrowth and accepting who we are for who we are. There’s a maintained tone of sadness and anger, and it’s really really not for those who can’t cope with discussions around suicide, drug & alcohol abuse, death, etc. (it’s set in a rehab centre after all).
Tinder (Sally Green): A retelling of the ‘Tinderbox.’ I have a review of it here, but in short it’s got all the elements of a fairytale blended with a deeply PTSD affected character. It’s about how nightmares and reality can be one and the same, how you have to keep fighting above all odds, and most of all, that there aren’t any real happy endings. 11/10, there’s so much meaning to it, it’s gorgeously illustrated, and it will make you cry for days.
Teeth (Hannah Moskowitz): I’ve recommended this before, but this book makes you ache all over. This is probably the lightest book on this list (which isn’t saying much) but it’s about a magic island, and the boy that lives on it. And the magic boy, that the first boy meets. It’s a romance that’s very much about isolation and the limitations we place on ourselves and others. Of course, the real magic lies in the author’s writing, which is phenomenal, and this is just as highly recommended as the others on this list.
and that’s about it! hmu if you read any of this because of this, want any more information or any more recs, but honestly i’m constantly surprised that no one’s heard of these because they are on a whole other tier of writing & story-telling from what i usually find.
Requested: yup! I reblogged || this prompt list || created by the lovely @paintingcrimsons so go check them out as well! Req: [74, 63, 44, 15 and 8? Something in the line with Rafe taking you and Sam having to look for you. You end up being shot when Sam finds you, who later patches you up again]
“This is going to hurt, I’m so sorry.” & “Breathe, can you do that for me?” & “Touch her again, and I’ll kill you.” “Will you? Because last time I checked, petty threats don’t do shit, ____. They just piss me off more.” & “What happened to me?” & “Hand over the girl.” “That’s not gonna happen in your lifetime.”
Prompt: In a desperate attempt to save you, Sam daringly boards Captain Henry Avery’s Ship prepared for a gun fight to face off Rafe who has you, hostage.
A/N: okayy so I have a smut to do as well and I haven’t started it yet lmaoo na I’m at uni today so I don’t want to write smut in the middle of class 👀👀👀 lmaoooo Someone looked over at my screen when writing this I NEVER CLICKED OUT OF TUMBLR SO FUKEN QUICK KILL ME
You were in pain, intense fiery pain and it hadn’t helped that a firm hand gripped your ponytail. With jarring movements, forcing you to walk forward. You cursed, letting tears slip down your cheeks. Cuts and bruises showered your skin from head to toe. Exhaustion was settling in making your joints ache.
“Keep moving!” Rafe’s angry voice hissed, pushing you forward. You stumbled on your feet, they dragged across the four-hundred-year-old ship. Treasure littered around the room and weighed the ship down. You were surprised that the ship had managed to stay afloat.
You prayed that Sam or Nate or someone was coming to get you. The ship rocked violently after a deafening explosion somewhere in on the boat. Rafe’s grip loosened on you as the both of you jerked forward from the sudden explosion. Taking the chance to run as he hadn’t quite tightened his grip just yet, you ripped yourself from him and started to sprint away from him.
Panting and frantic, you pushed your muscles to move quickly. Every now and again your head would turn back hoping that you had lost Rafe, but in fact, it was the opposite. He was just out of arms reach, trailing hot on your heels. You cursed loudly as if it was going to deter the psychotic maniac behind you. With your bones and muscles aching wanting you to stop, they began to seize up slowing you down.
Rounding a corner and into a room, presumably the Captain’s quarters of the ship, your eyes immediately fall on Sam who was sweaty and in a mad panic clearly trying to find you. “Sam!” The scream ripped from your throat as you reached out to grab him, only Rafe grabbed a tight hold of your arm, wrenching you back toward him, “Oh no you don’t.” His clasp was sure to leave an impressive bruise on you tomorrow… if you made it out alive.
Bill/Laura, because I love pain: Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me, oh and I rush to the start.
Evil! The last line isn’t mine but any fan of these two will recognize it. Set against my self denial in the canon that is during and beyond Daybreak.
He prays to Gods he doesn’t believe in for just five more minutes. Enough to tell her what these months (and years) have meant. Enough to apologize for letting his grief overshadow precious moments she deserved. Enough to let her sit in their future living room.
In the end, he gets just under two. So much life, she says.
He knows it means what lies outside the raptor and she whispers it with such relief. So much life and all he can think of is the one he wanted to share with her. All they could have had, all the life she possessed.
He buries her and barely gets out the words she’d wanted him to recite. She probably thought he’d blown of all her suggestions in his attempts to forget but he couldn’t. (Especially when he found an outline of her plan, one of the few wishes she ever made.)
Tears cloud his vision and his voice quivers with the threat of the sobs that mean to overtake him but he manages to do it exactly how she wanted.
As he lays on the last stone, he pauses to take in the view. He knows she would have loved it and instead of the thought bringing comfort, it just hurts more. It makes him wish for time they never had. He curses a world in which someone like Gauis Baltar lives and she dies. He wants to think he’ll move past the ache. He knows she wants that but it’s inconceivable at the moment.
He sits eventually, describes the view. He forgets for a moment she’s not here. She’s been so quiet these days, it’s not much different. The soft breeze reminds him of her sighs and he can faintly hear her hums. It almost works.
I should have seen this coming, and when the teasers for the latest installment came out for the Epic Winter, I had very strong… I mean very strong suspicions that this is how it would turn out. Before then? Nope, not at all, ever… I mean I should have, and I’m kind of kicking myself, because I really, really should have. I know my fairy tales… at least I thought I knew my Fairy Tales from reading them to watching them so I really should have put two and two together. Though for those of us who didn’t see it coming, no one could blame you, I mean Rosabella Beauty hasn’t exactly been… on the forefront all that much save for a few small clips here and there.
Here’s where it gets clever however, because their story could be seen as a kind of parallel to the original, different setting and all that yes, but same outcome, and same general type of ending. I mean I’d like to think the storytellers and the directors of the show pulled a fast one on us ever since last season with the Dragon Games and all that, but good grief it makes so much sense. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the Beauty and the Beast story line or for those of you who have a bit of a foggy memory allow me to draw on the parallels… because I can.
So in the original story, the prince was visited by a visitor who requested some aid in a task. Of course the prince full of pride and of himself denied that visitor and became cursed to become well… a beast. In the movie it’s much the same, except in a different manner, the Ice King comes along for a visit, requests Daring to do a task, he of course refuses… and starts to become cursed, before turning into a full grown beast, it’s not like he hadn’t been given a chance or 3.
Now of course the journey the two take is very different of course, between the original and this version. Regardless they both embark on a different type of journey to learn humility, care, and selflessness. Daring takes his through the course of this current season of the show or what have you, and much like Belle in the original story, Rosabella helps Daring find himself and who he was meant to be, and in the term of Cognitive Functions, she helped him see past the surface of Se and Ti and to look further into himself to find the person he was meant to be.
Much like in the original where it was the selfless act and the realization of himself and learning humility that allowed the beast to become his human self again (duh). The same thing happens in a different way here with Daring as he offers for the sake of everyone to take upon himself the servitude of 200-400 years that Faybelle Thorn had so foolishly just about thrown herself into… thus breaking that contract, and helping not only Faybelle but everyone else, and naturally it is through this act that he once again becomes human.
I honestly think we should have suspected that Charming wasn’t part of Apple Whites story due to the kind of character he has or in this case had… however… however, I don’t think the developers and writers of the show had realized it as early on, and just allowed the story to grow to where it took this path. I would have loved to have been in the writing room when all of this went down, because how early did the realize they were going to take this path? Was it Way to Wonderland? or was it Dragon Games? Maybe somewhere in between? Or did they plan this all from the beginning? It just makes so much sense, and brings about so much speculation where I’d have ample material to do videos talking about it… whether I do them or not is a different story, but still… smooth move creators, smooth move.
I know that Robb Stark gets shafted a lot in meta. He’s rarely- so far as I can tell- the focus of a positive meta. He’ll be mentioned (often as it relates to his family, normally either Sansa or Catelyn,) but I haven’t seen many posts on the books about Robb himself as a good person.
There’s a reason he had the unquestionable admiration from Jon, Arya, Sansa, and Bran. There’s a reason he was undefeated in battle. There’s a reason why I love him.
Honestly, Robb suffers in some people’s eyes for the same actions Jon takes in ADWD after becoming Lord Commander. We know both of them at least try to embody Ned’s teachings- we know both of them were taught something of ruling by Ned and that they look up to him.
Whenever her father had condemned a man to death, he did the deed himself with Ice, his greatsword. “If you would take a man’s life, you owe it to him to look him in the face and hear his last words,” she’d heard him tell Robb and Jon once. Arya, ACoK
A good lord must know his men, his father had once told him and Robb, back at Winterfell. Jon, ADWD
We know Jon starts to distance himself from his friends in order to be the leader he thinks he has to given the advice that Ned Stark gave him on ruling and leadership.
(on being invited to eat with Grenn and his other friends) Jon wanted nothing more. No, he had to tell himself, those days are gone. The realization twisted in his belly like a knife. They had chosen him to rule. The Wall was his, and their lives were his as well. A lord may love the men that he commands, he could hear his lord father saying, but he cannot be a friend to them. One day he may need to sit in judgment on them, or send them forth to die. Jon, ADWD
We see in Sam’s POV how much this hurts his friends. They don’t understand his mindset and why he is detaching himself from them. Jon, taking Ned’s words to heart, believes that a ruler cannot be a friend to those who follow his rule. In fact, he even says “lord commanders have no friends” at one point.
Now, we see the same thing- without the sympathetic POV explaining- with Robb after he becomes lord/king. He refuses Bran’s advice, talks of Sansa as a bargaining chip for the Tyrells, dismisses Catelyn’s feelings/opinions at times, ect. Given that we’re not inside his head, it comes off more harshly than Jon’s POV where we know where he’s coming from.
Still, if Jon received this piece of advice from Ned, Robb definitely did as well. And we begin to see that Robb forces himself to grow up quickly and stop being a boy (similar to Jon’s “kill the boy and let the man be born” arc words.)
“Lannister won’t die,” Robb said. “No one so much as speaks to him without my warrant. He has food, water, clean straw, more comfort than he has any right to. But I won’t free him, not even for Arya and Sansa.”
Her son was looking down at her, Catelyn realized. Was it war that made him grow so fast, she wondered, or the crown they had put on his head? “Are you afraid to have Jaime Lannister in the field again, is that the truth of it?”
Grey Wind growled, as if he sensed Robb’s anger, and Edmure Tully put a brotherly hand on Catelyn’s shoulder. “Cat, don’t. The boy has the right of this.”
“Don’t call me the boy,” Robb said, rounding on his uncle, his anger spilling out all at once on poor Edmure, who had only meant to support him. “I’m almost a man grown, and a king-your king, ser.“ Catelyn, ACoK
The way Robb talks over Catelyn when he’s naming Jon his heir parallels the way Jon dismisses Sam when he’s sending him off to become a maester. The two of them are very similar in their actions and the way they bear the burden of young rulership. Sam and co. plotted to get Jon elected Lord Commander and his bannermen declared Robb King of the North, neither boy sought the power they got. However, the both quickly step into the role, and both of them immediately set out to be a ruler like Ned, who is the object of their admiration.
But even so, despite his desire to distance himself from his wants as king, Robb (like Jon) can’t fully separate and has some big moments of illustrating his devotion to his family.
He put Bran into bed, covered him with blankets, and blew out the candle. For a time Robb sat beside him in the dark. Bran wanted to talk to him, but he did not know what to say. “We’ll find a horse for you, I promise,” Robb whispered at last.
“Are they ever coming back?” Bran asked him.
“Yes,” Robb said with such hope in his voice that Bran knew he was hearing his brother and not just Robb the Lord. “Mother will be home soon. Maybe we can ride out to meet her when she comes. Wouldn’t that surprise her, to see you ahorse?” Even in the dark room, Bran could feel his brother’s smile. “And afterward, we’ll ride north to see the Wall. We won’t even tell Jon we’re coming, we’ll just be there one day, you and me. It will be an adventure.”
“An adventure,” Bran repeated wistfully. He heard his brother sob. The room was so dark he could not see the tears on Robb’s face, so he reached out and found his hand. Their fingers twined together. Bran, AGoT
“No man calls my lady of Winterfell a traitor in my hearing, Lord Rickard.” When he turned to Catelyn, his voice softened. “If I could wish the Kingslayer back in chains I would. You freed him without my knowledge or consent… but what you did, I know you did for love. For Arya and Sansa, and out of grief for Bran and Rickon. Love’s not always wise, I’ve learned. It can lead us to great folly, but we follow our hearts… wherever they take us. Don’t we, Mother?” Catelyn, ASoS
"Jon’s more a Stark than some lordlings from the Vale who have never so much as set eyes on Winterfell… Arya’s gone, the same as Bran and Rickon, and they’ll kill Sansa too once the dwarf gets a child from her. Jon is the only brother that remains to me. Should I die without issue, I want him to succeed me as King in the North.”Catelyn, ASoS
And really I think this thought by Arya encompasses both Robb and Jon’s conflict and struggle between their wants as people and their duties as rulers:
But what if Robb won’t pay their price [of Arya’s ransom]? She wasn’t a famous knight, and kings were supposed to put the realm before their sisters. Arya, ASoS
Ok, so I actually really liked this episode and I’m not going to be watching TVD for a while (bc school) so I thought I’d just write out my thoughts on this episode (This is going to be long and rambly sorry).