this scene really gets to me now

So YOI is just full of ingenious, subtle and entirely graceful dialogue. No scene is wasted and every conversation, however brief can explain so much with just a few lines. I’d like to take a moment to talk about one of the last scenes in episode 10 when Yurio and Victor are on the beach. In all honesty, I thought about this scene a lot and it took me a little while to really, truly understand what was going on here.

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anonymous asked:

I actually liked the episode (and I was very prepared for the worst). But tell me why didn't you, please, I really respect your opinion!

Hi love :) Sorry it took me a bit to answer this…I read it last night, but I was tired and needed to get some sleep.

First off, I’m happy you liked it, I really am. At least some people should get some joy and entertainment out of it, but here’s some points why I just can’t…

  • It’s very sloppy writing. Things that happened earlier are being completely disregarded and explained away with like one line, if at all, e.g. the last scene of TLD (4x02) where Eurus/Euros (how the hell is it spelled? I’m gonna go with Eurus now) is revealed and she’s aiming her gun at John, saying she’ll “put a hole in it”, and it apparently was only a tranquilliser. Why? Why do all that? Have her pretend to be three different people, first flirt with John and apparently text with him, then pose as his therapist and go all dramatic on his ass…and then “Shot me during a session. Only with a tranquilliser.” is a throw away line in the next episode. That reeks of bad storytelling, like they wanted this big cliffhanger just for dramatic effect but then couldn’t be bothered to do anything with it. Same with the explosion at Baker Street - they are jumping out of a freaking exploding building, through the window! And then we get a cut and see them being fine on some boat.
  • Plotholes. John in the well: he was chained by his feet down there, which is why he couldn’t try to climb up himself, but then a rope is thrown down and the chains magically disappear? Sherlock’s ‘recurring’ dreams of water because of the well (those dreams have never been mentioned before btw, there was one line in TST (4x01) “You’ve been having dreams. A recurring dream?”): how can he make a connection to that well when he never knew it even existed? Sure, he suppressed the memory of Victor, but he had no clue what happened to him and that he was thrown down that damn well, so how does “Deep water, Sherlock, all your life, in all your dreams. Deep waters.” make sense?
  • Shit happening out of nowhere. The whole Eurus thing. They can’t expect me to be invested in something that came up during the last few minutes of the previous episode…that’s the first time the whole secret psychotic sister stuff came up. Sure, we got the line about “the other one” in HLV, but that was 3x03, three seasons into the show. And yet they claim it’s “the culmination of everything we’ve been building up to for the past six years”. That’s the final problem? Bear in mind that this might be the last episode of the whole show, and they’re telling me this was a story about Sherlock Holmes and his secret sister who apparently made him the way he is, even though none of that has ever come up prior to HLV. Even ‘Readbeard’ wasn’t mentioned before TSOT (3x02). But sure, “Every choice you ever made, every path you’ve ever taken, the man you are today is your memory of Eurus.” Sorry, not buying it.
  • Same goes for Moriarty. He had a five minute conversation with Eurus, and she apparently brainwashed him because “It took her just five minutes to do all of this to us”. So everything Moriarty did to Sherlock and John was because of her, that’s it. It takes so much away from his story and his infatuation with Sherlock, and it doesn’t even make a whole lot of sense because all of S1 and TGG (1x03) took place BEFORE that “christmas day 5 years ago” when Moriarty and Eurus met. The christmas they met would be the one in S2 during ASIB (2x01)…timeline wise. Maybe I got this all wrong - if I did, someone please explain to me why he even was in that episode and why that five minute unsupervised conversation was put in there - but that’s how I understood it.
  • The episode as a finale for S4. None of the episodes really have a connection apart from Eurus being 294 different people in them. Without TFP explaining why everything prior to it felt so weird and out of context (and it did! even casual viewers picked up on that), the whole season seems messy and disjointed. I’m talking about TST (3x01) and Mary in particular here: her whole redemption arc was done in that one episode, and ofc they only have three per season, but there’s still a way to make that feel more organic. Because the way it was done I’m simply not buying it. She went from wanting to kill Magnussen and shooting (and actually killing) Sherlock and threatening him to shut up about it afterwards to being a lovely and nice wife and mother in the span of a few months? And she fully ‘redeemed’ herself by…sacrificing herself. (And let’s not even talk about how absolutely shitty Mary’s death was done and how it’s impossible for anyone to jump in front of a bullet like that. I’d forgive other shows for that, but not Sherlock, a show that only two episodes earlier explained how being shot actually works and that “it’s not like it is in the movies”.) It just doesn’t sit right with me. Neither does John actually forgiving her for lying to him on that big a scale and for SHOOTING SHERLOCK. I’m sorry, but if my partner shot my best friend, there’s no way in hell I’d just be like ‘okay, shit happens’…and this is John!, the guy who killed a man for Sherlock after one day of meeting him. After watching TST I still thought all of this was a plan, now, after having seen the whole season, I just think it’s bad writing and horrible execution.
  • The episode as a (possible) finale for the whole show. No, just no. Like I mentioned above, TFP and its plot doesn’t wrap up the show in a nice bow for me. It’s barely connected to the rest, and it’s certainly not the big final chapter of the story they have been telling before. I felt nothing. Season 4 as a whole feels ridiculously separate from everything else and not like the show I love, I can barely recognise it, which is probably mostly due to the fact that this used to be a story about John and Sherlock (not talking Johnlock here, though I will get to that), and this season didn’t really have that at its core. The heart of it were always the two of them - “the story of two men and their frankly ridiculous adventures”-, but with these three episodes I can’t even remember them really talking to each other or having any interaction that shows the reality of their friendship/relationship/connection except for a hug and Sherlock saying John is family and, like, not wanting to shoot him.
  • Johnlock. What this show did was queerbaiting, plain and simple. I know there’s people who keep insisting it’s not because Moftiss once said they’re not telling a romantic story about John and Sherlock, but the show, its subtext AND text did, and that’s what I care about when I watch something. It was there, blatantly obvious even to someone like me who never used to pick up on those things prior to watching this show and who didn’t go into it expecting or looking for it. But I saw and noticed it before there were a million metas about it out there…and we didn’t just imagine it or make shit up. There’s a reason so many people believed in Johnlock, the show told us but didn’t follow through, and that’s queerbaiting. It’s a big fuck you to so many lgbt folks who truly believed they’d get actual, beautifully told representation - me included. It’s heartbreaking and so so cruel because they played us. It’s still there, in the show, and to me it will always be what John and Sherlock’s story is about, but it wasn’t made explicit. And that hurts, it really does.

So yeah. Even without taking non canon Johnlock into consideration I had a lot of problems with this ep and think it’s simply not good, the whole vibe of it didn’t feel right. There’s some other things I didn’t particularly like (what they did to Molly, the fact that Mary apparently knows John and Sherlock best, or that they summed it all up with a bullshit line like “Who you really are, it doesn’t matter. It’s all about the legend.” - what kind of message is that?), but this is already super long by my standards, so I’ll leave it at that.
Here’s to hoping all of this makes sense; I started writing it right after waking up and my thoughts were still a bit of a mess and I also had to switch my brain to English. Maybe I’ll do a rewatch of the season and have some more to say about it then, but I don’t think that’s gonna happen anytime soon because I really don’t feel like it. Which already says a lot because I’ve watched every other episode at least 12 times.


What really got me about this scene was the fact that Scott and Stiles were the only ones who got that extra special meaning to this part.

Scott wrote A.A. to represent Allison, his first love. And Stiles saw the D.H. that symbolized Derek, made him smile, revealed that he did indeed miss Derek.

Now, based off of canon, it would have only made sense for Scott to get this meaningful addition to his part in this scene since Allison was canonically his girlfriend and anchor so his actions were only natural. And if not just Scott alone, it should’ve been the entire pack or at least Scott, Lydia and Stiles who got something else in this part.

Yet, only Stiles and Scott were singled out. They were the only ones who felt something that ran deeper than writing their initials as a reminder that they were there in BHHS.

Scott, as stated before, put Allison’s initials which was a clear message that he never forgot about her, that she was still there with him, at least in his mind.

Stiles saw the D.H. and smiled at the thought of Derek, at the remembrance of him.

It really makes me wonder just how important Derek really is to Stiles. Like, does Derek mean as much to him or almost as much to him as Allison means to Scott?

This scene was able to broadcast a lot about the developed relationship between Stiles and Derek, but maybe there’s a possibility that there was a hint or deeper meaning that wasn’t noticed.


Endless List of Favourites + Actors ||  Diego Luna

  “ When I was really young I used to lie a lot. Now I get paid to do it. I find sides I don’t get to explore in real life. Like, I had to do a sex scene before I had sex. I was 13, 14, and it was my first love experience with 25 people in front of me. Acting is therapy. It keeps you in contact with your feelings.”

Now I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking that this is an NSFW line from 50 shades of gray or some shit.

What if I told you that it was from a Mortal Instruments book? Hmm? Okay, now you’re thinking, “Errr… Some Clace or Sizzy scene I probably skimmed over to get to the Malec I guess…”

You want me to tell you who said it??? Do you??? Do you really????

Oh I’ll tell you.


Who to?


Don’t believe me?? Of course you don’t.

City of Ashes, bottom of page 171.

Saphael is real.

Periods Aren’t That Bad. They’re Actually A Whole Lot Worse: A Lesson For Non-Period-Havers

Disclaimer 1: This will probably get a little NSFW.

Disclaimer 2: Symptoms of periods vary from period-haver to period-haver. It pretty much sucks for everyone, though.

Disclaimer 3: I have a high pain tolerance. Really high. If I say something is really painful, it is really fucking painful.

And now for the reasons why having periods suck and it’s worse for us to have it than for you to hear about it:

  1. There is blood coming from our vaginas. This is a very unpleasant feeling. We cannot “hold it.” Some people get a light trickling. Some, like me, get a Goddamn crime scene.
  2. The ways to keep from bleeding all over everything include a pad, which basically feels like a diaper, and a tampon, which is basically shoving a cotton pipe up there, is not as much fun as it sounds, and can be very uncomfortable if done wrong. And doing it right is fairly hard. Thanks to good old Catholic sex ed, it took me about five years to figure out.
  3. Cramps. I am lucky in that my cramps tend not to be THAT bad (thank you, high pain tolerance), but some get cramps so bad that the pain is comparable to appendicitis.
  4. Headaches. What I lack in cramps, I often make up for in headaches. And not just any headaches. Agonizing headaches. They can start up to a week before the bleeding starts, they last a few days into it, and they don’t go away. No matter how much aspirin you take. Seriously, when I get menstrual headaches, I could down an entire fucking bottle of Advil and I’d probably die but my ghost would still have the headache.
  5. Acne. I’m talking looking like Deadpool under the mask.
  6. Indigestion. It isn’t fun.
  7. Bloating.
  8. Sometimes my actual vaginal region hurts. A lot. Enough to have me doubled over on the floor.
  9. For some reason my anxiety gets worse sometimes around my period. Which is extra fun. There’s nothing like nearly calling the morgue because your dad was late from a basketball game, only to find out he was at Applebee’s.
  10. Fatigue. Because I’m doing everything I normally do while my body is staging a mutiny.
  11. Backache.
  12. Just generally feeling disgusting.
  13. This goes on for a week.
  14. This happens every Goddamn month.
  15. This generally starts around age twelve or so and lasts until maybe age 45.

         I suppose I owe you a ‘thank you’ for getting me out of the lab every now and then.
                                       Well now, we have husbands and kids.
                  But that doesn’t make our relationship any less important.

1812: Do not you feel a great inclination, Miss Bennet, to seize such an opportunity of dancing a reel?


Supergirl 2x16: My Thoughts

I didn’t catch all of the episode, and I may rewatch but probably not so here we go.

We start off with Kara being happy. Okay Kara. I want you to be happy too, but you said yourself “Kara Danvers is who I am” just last week. Now I’m supposed to believe binge watching Game of Thrones with Mon-el while you’re not saving the world as Supergirl makes you truly happy? Okay.. Sure..

Mon-el “sacrificing” himself wasn’t him sacrificing himself. It was him confronting his parents alone to keep Kara from finding out he’s Mon-el “Prince of Daxam.” Let’s log this as Evidence A on how he’s still a lying, manipulative asshole.

We get the flashback scene of what really happened on Daxam.. which included Mon-el leaving some girl who begged, “don’t leave me here.” He was actually such an intergalactic fuckboy that the writers wrote in a scene where he left behind the girl he just fucked, to die. He literally fucked her and left.

Mon-el’s mama doesn’t ship it lol

Don’t even tell me they tried to parallel Winn/Lyra with Kara and Mon-el’s storylines for this episode. Lyra lied to get her brother back. Mon-el lied to save his own ass.

Evidence B on how Mon-el is still a lying, manipulative asshole: He actually said, “This is usually the part in the movie where the girl forgives the guy for whatever dumb stuff he’s done.“

That wasn’t even an apology! That was, “you’ve forgiven me every other time, so now lets kiss and make up.”

Evidence C on how Mon-el is still a lying, manipulative asshole: that last scene where Kara asks if he was ever going to tell her the truth after saying he “tried to tell her a million times” then proceeded to say “I don’t know.”

If they get back together, then I am officially done with this show. If the writers are so set on giving us Supergirl in love, then they are doing a piss poor job of showing an actual loving relationship. This trope is not only toxic to women, but I’m actually appalled that so many people are behind this storyline because men don’t have to be written this way! As a supposed feminist show, it is a travesty to our movement that we have to see a man painted as a fuckboy being "better” with a strong independent woman. It shouldn’t be this way. A man can have as much conviction to be a decent fucking human being on his own without having a woman tell him how to do it! You want a redemption arc for Mon-el? Then why not have him tell his parents, “I’ll go back with you, but Daxam is going to be different than it was before. We will rebuild it to be a planet for its people, not for its royalty. Otherwise, I’m staying here.”

This was longer than I anticipated and I’m sorry, but I’m so irked that in the year 2017, we’re still struggling with these ridiculous gender conforming, heteronormative, bullshit tropes.
“Has the Scooby-Doo writing been getting weirder lately, or have I just not noticed it until now?”

Ted the Animator: “Uh… give me an example.”

Carl the Animator: “Well, take this scene, for example. The purple vampire one–”

Ted the Animator: “Sibella.”

Carl the Animator: “–makes a really terrible, clunky vampire pun with ‘bite,’ or something….”

Ted the Animator: “Eh, that seems pretty normal Scooby-Doo to me.”

Carl the Animator: “Yeah, but then the camera zooms in, and holds on a shot of her fang, sparkling there. Y’know, just for the off chance that someone in the audience somehow didn’t manage to pick up the gratuitously-obvious vampire pun about vampire fangs.

Ted the Animator: “Fair ‘nuff.”

Carl the Animator: “And here, too. The purple vampire one–”

Ted the Animator: “Sibella.”

Carl the Animator: “–is talking to the blue ghosty one–”

Ted the Animator: “Phantasma.”

Carl the Animator: “–and she, a second time, makes the exact same joke with ‘fang-tastic’ she made earlier in the episode.”

Ted the Animator: “Scooby-Doo has always had bad puns, though.”

Carl the Animator: “Yeah, but not the exact same joke, twice, in under 3 minutes! C’mon, people, we’re not even 15 minutes in yet, are we already out of material?”

Ted the Animator: “Entirely possible.”

Carl the Animator: “Reading the script, it’s… hey, wait, they do the exact same thing here! The werewolf one–”

Ted the Animator: “Winnie.”

Carl the Animator: “–is talking to the mummy one–”

Ted the Animator: “…ok, I don’t remember her name either.”

Carl the Animator: “–and makes the same howling joke again! Is the audience expected to have forgotten that we already heard it mere minutes before?

Ted the Animator: *shrugs*

Carl the Animator: “I mean, think about it. A viewer could hear the joke, leave the room to make toast, and come back to hear it made a second time. Sad, really.”

Ted the Animator: “Wow. That’s a really effective way to put it, Carl.”

Carl the Animator: “I know, right? Toast-making is the best metric of time.”

Thought I should make an update since my content has been about as deep as a puddle lately. The reason why I don’t really have anything to post about is as I’ve previously stated that there isn’t anything going on in my life right now. So I thought that I maybe should explain that a bit more and while I’m at it why it’s pretty much impossible to get a hold of me.

So, first things first. I’m still waiting for the hospital and my hormones.
I’ve been depressed for a very long time, which shouldn’t really come as a surprise as it’s usually goes hand in hand with gender dysphoria. Which in my case means that I don’t really have the energy to do shit.
I believe that the only way for me to feel better would be to do something about my dysphoria since that’s the root of my depression and ultimately why I can’t seem to get my life together.
The problem here is simply that I have no idea when I’ll actually get my hormones since not even the hospital knows when they will be ready to see me yet.

This has made my depression worse, simply because of the stress of not knowing when I may finally get help turning my life around. I’m unable to focus on anything else since I believe this is the only thing that may actually help me getting better.

This is pretty much the long version of “nothing going on“. I spend most of my time trying to find work, but I have problems with my sleep, eating and generally have a hard time focusing on anything. So more often than not I just end up doing nothing.
I was seeing a speech-therapist, but since I was unable to focus on actually practicing I decided to wait and do it while I’m actually on hormones so that I wouldn’t end up just wasting their and other patients time.
This may sound strange since this may seem like an activity that would help with my dysphoria, but I don’t really care all that much about my voice as of now and it doesn’t actually cause me any discomfort.

All I know is that I will most likely get my hormones sometime next year, but since the hospitals schedule for next year wasn’t done yet they don’t know more than that. So, I’m pretty much hoping that it’s sometime early 2017, but it’s to early to actually tell.

That’s about all I have to say about that, so I’ll go on to the next topic. Why it’s so hard to get a hold of me.
This one is pretty simple actually. I used to answer every message and more importantly try to help those who needed it. But as it stands the vast majority of the messages I get is of sexual nature. Something that I time and time again explain that I have no interest in.
What this means is that I don’t go through my messages as frequently anymore and when I do it’s easy to miss people who actually ask for advice and such because of all the shit.
I do try to go through it once in a while to see if there’s actually anything of interest, but it gets dull going through so much shit.
I do apologize that it’s so hard to get a hold of me, but I’m not sure what I can do about it yet. I guess I could make a script to just remove some of the messages by keywords, but I’m not certain yet.


get to know me meme: [2/20] relationships ♥ tris and four (the divergent series)
I used to think that when people fell in love, they just landed where they landed, and they had no choice in the matter afterward. And maybe that’s true of beginnings, but it’s not true of this, now. I fell in love with him. But I don’t just stay with him by default as if there’s no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to, every day that I wake up, every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again, and he chooses me.

About the scene in ASiP where Sherlock deduces John’s phone (i.e. his heart )..

I can never get over the fact that right after Sherlock finishes deducing John’s phone, he lets out this TINY breath.. And purses his lips..

He was holding his breath the whole time..

This makes me sad. Because this is about the usual reactions Sherlock gets.. People say “Piss off!” . Here he is really trying to impress John, but knows the reactions people give.. And goes like ‘Here, I have deduced you, and I really wanna keep you . And this was the best I could give for now. And now go ahead.. Break my Heart like everybody does ‘. And then he pursed his lips and prepared for the rejection to come..

And when John replies “That was.. amazing !”

Sherlock looks seriously baffled.. Not just because somebody appreciated his deduction. But also because John, whom he is trying to impress from their first meeting, is now impressed by him.. Sherlock Holmes, the consulting detective is captivated by John Watson, the army doctor, from that moment…

And the happiest man on earth…


Listen, Noora Amalie Sætre. You’re a smart girl. You have to understand that every time you reject me I only want you more and more. So if you really want to get rid of me, just go on a date with me. Stop playing hard to get. Are you done now? No, one more thing… Fucking hell, you’re beautiful. 

Season 4 of The 100
  • Clarke: I'm dead in the City of Light with my soulmate Lexa.
  • Lexa: Once every episode you get a 5 minute fluff scene of Clarke and I being happy and safe and treated well, like we deserve.
  • Anya: I'm back and magically somehow in the CoL too with Lexa and I give her really great advice, and Clarke and I have an amusing love/hate dynamic.
  • Lincoln: I hang out with them sometimes. Also people appreciate me now.
  • Raven: I'm the main character now and immune to physical pain. Also I'm immortal, bitches.
  • Octavia: I realized I'm madly in love with Raven and most of this season is me trying to win her over which is not hard because I already have her whipped. And I'm the new commander and often travel to Arkadia to see Raven. I'm immortal too so the writers can't fuck up Octaven.
  • Pike: I'm dead.
  • Kane: I'm chancellor.
  • Abby: I'm just a doctor now, but I'm also a great mother figure to Raven.
  • Jasper: I'm still mental health representation but Improved. I don't blame women or Monty for my problems, and I'm nice to the CoL version of Clarke.
  • Monty: I'm a happy and peaceful little bean and I'm getting married to Jasper.
  • Harper: I'm allowed to acknowledge and work through my problems in a healthy way and experience the psychological damage that being tortured has brought me.
  • Bellamy: I went back to being awesome and reliable season 2 Bellamy, but I took responsibility for everything I did and I didn't get off easy and I paid a price for my crimes like everyone else. And I apologized to Clarke for being horrible to her. Also Miller and I are sarcastic assholes together and it's great.
  • Jaha: Jaha who?
  • Murphy: I'm free from Ontari and allowed to recognize my history of sexual abuse for what it actually was and I don't have to brush it off as if it's ok and I deserved better and realized this and now I'm back with Emori and Emori treats me very well and is very consent conscious and together we're like the Bonnie and Clyde of The 100.
  • Emori: I'm still cool.
  • Ontari: Octavia killed me and I am not in the CoL with the cinnamon rolls, I just don't exist. But Rhiannon Fish is still hot af.
  • Roan: I'm the unproblematic Azgeda king.
  • Niylah: I'm safe and happy and have a great gf
  • Echo: I'm in a very healthy and mutually respectful romantic relationship with Bellamy. #Echamy #Becho #happiness
  • Sinclair: I suddenly exist again and I am a great friend to Raven Reyes BECAUSE SHE DESERVES IT.
  • ALIE: I was destroyed. rip
  • Wells: I'm also somehow magically in the CoL and Clarke and I are best friends and I'm super supportive of her and Lexa and I'm the same great guy, perfect precious cinnamon roll, that I've always been.
  • Costia: I have a head.
So I was watching The Force Awakens with my mom...

And we get the the scene where Kylo Ren confronts Finn and Rey as they are trying to escape Star Killer base.

So Kylo Ren starts talking to Rey and says “it’s just us now,” and right after he said that, my mom turns and asks me, “ Does that guy with the hair (Kylo Ren) like Rey?”


Nothing hurts my heart more then when I see someone say they can’t watch Shadowhunters because they “won’t be able to see Magnus as anyone but Mike Chang”, If you don’t know who that is, that was Harrys character in Glee. I am in the Glee fandom, I started there, that’s how I know of Harry, that’s how I know of Shadowhunters. I can say that Harry had a whole at most 15 minutes of actual lines and or scenes in the entire 6 seasons as Mike Chang. Glee sidelined the fuck out of Mike Chang so this really confuses me because you’re not giving Harry the chance to show you what he can really really do, When he plays Magnus, he gets lost in it!! There is nothing like it. Please stop seeing him as a sideline character or actor. He is a MAIN character on a popular TV show now, this is HIS role. When you see Magnus you won’t even see Harry because that is how incredible he is in this role. There’s so so many people like this and it makes me so fucking sad. If you are one of these people, I challenge you to watch it and give it a chance and let Magnus amaze you. Harry is an incredibly diverse actor and you would not know that only having seen him in Glee, give him a chance to show you something more.

It’s painful to watch season 6 and see Blair go back to her season 1 self, childish, superficial, only thinking about success and Chuck. I don’t say that only because I’m bitter about Dair, but honestly, I can’t make myself believe that’s what the writers really wanted to do. From season 3 to 5 she had beautiful and great character development, her relationship with Dan made her grow, alongside all the things that she passed through; she rediscovered herself and her strength… Which I doubt was going back to being selfish, wearing headbands and wanting to be a fashion designer, something she NEVER wanted before. In season 6 she’s a whole different person, it’s like a parallel world in the Gossip Girl timeline. This whole season seems like a joke to be honest, but what happened to Blair is really by far the worst thing about it. Even Chuck’s character development is visible, and he seems much more mature than her now. In summary, they destroyed her character to make Chair endgame. And the worst thing is that, even though I hate Chair, I don’t think the writers needed to do that to bring them together again. Anyway. If that’s what we get in canon, Gossip Girl ended in season 5 for me.