this scene make me cry every single time

anonymous asked:

the thought of lexa trying to subtly look good for clarke is so cute to me askjadasd, but then i realize after the nightgown scene she probably mentally punched herself the entire night like "lexa your such an idiot why did you think she could ever like you like you like her, you screwed everything up" and it makes me cry

This. This face right here. I tear up every single time I see it. “I was just doing what was right for my people,” Clarke tells her. Look at the way her eyes flutter, at that brief moment when she just stares into nothing, before dropping her gaze. Lexa keeps her heart very guarded, feelings scare her because she got hurt in the past, badly. But here, during this scene, she is so incredibly vulnerable. And it’s not just about her looks: hair down instead of tight braids, face bruised and clean of warpaint, a light gown instead of the Commander’s coat. No, Lexa here is at her most vulnerable because for a second, she allowed herself to hope. Clarke fought for her the whole day, she told her she wouldn’t watch her die. She showed up for the duel to support Lexa anyway. In that very scene she subtly flirts with her. So Lexa allows herself to think “What if maybe…?

How much courage did she have to muster just to say this? Because this, this “thank you” right here, is ridiculously personal and intimate. It’s completely different from the “Thank you for staying” she tells Clarke in 3x03. It’s stripped of any political undertone. She is telling Clarke “I, Lexa, would have died without you.” AND, she is giving Clarke an opening to hopefully acknowledge why she went out of her way to try to help Lexa. 

But Clarke immediately shuts everything down. She paints her own actions as nothing but political choices. There is nothing more there. The concern was for her people, not for Lexa whatsoever. She cares about them, not about Lexa. How could she ever care about Lexa after what she did?

THIS. This is what is going through Lexa’s mind in that first gif. She allowed herself to hope for one second, but that second was enough to make the pain of disappointment so unbearable that she cannot hide it. It’s there, written all over her face. She literally lowers her gaze so that Clarke won’t see the sadness in her eyes. Her heart is definitely hurting right now, not to mention that she probably feels like a fool.

Okay but I cannot stress enough what a big deal this is for Lexa, in the saddest way. Hope ignites in her heart for the tiniest moment, and she latches on to it. She is so starved of love and affection that now that Clarke showed hints that maybe she cares, it is tremendously hard for Lexa to let go of that hope, even after Clarke shut it down with her words.

She is talking about the ambassadors, yes, but she is talking about herself too. She is saying “Please Clarke, please see that I was just trying to be a good leader. Please see that I never wanted to hurt you.” Again, she ~hopes~ that Clarke will understand and will stop hating her.

And Clarke shuts her down once again. She ends the conversation and tells Lexa goodnight, inviting her to leave. Lexa doesn’t argue, she doesn’t try to stay. She even smiles when she says “Goodnight ambassador.” But look at her face when she eventually leaves.

The pain is still all there. Now, we know why Clarke acted like this. She was hurt too and now she is simply trying to guard her heart as well. But Lexa… for once Lexa cannot see what is right in front of her. She just thinks she was a fool to hope that Clarke could ever care about her. She ruins everything she touches, why should Clarke ever love her back?

So clouded by sadness and self-loathing, she doesn’t see that Clarke in fact, can, and does, love her back.

anonymous asked:

What movies make you cry?

stand by me, the elephant man (I cannot compose myself at all) dead poet society, room, forrest gump (there is one scene that gets me every time), what’s eating gilbert grape, short term 12 (my dear marcus), jagten (angry tears), me earl and the dying girl, before sunrise (bc I wanna be there and travel and looove), wings of desire, a single man… well now when I think about it I cry a lot during films 

there will never be a film that i connect with more than mysterious skin, it is a work of art and beautifully illustrated to show the effects of child abuse and trauma. i have never seen csa more beautifully and accurately portrayed and it makes me cry every single time, without a fault. the way it affected both Neil and Brian at childhood are very real effects, and you can’t help but to wonder how vastly different they would have been without this trauma weighing down on them. the ending is so miserably beautiful, the scene is so heartbreaking and fleshed-out and real. brian sobbing in neil’s lap, inside the very same house that they can’t erase from their minds, with christmas carollers singing outside of the house, unaware of the tragic reunion unfolding inside. unaware of the horrors and nightmares and evil that has happened in that very house, on that very kitchen floor, the painful memories attatched to the sight of the building. Neil’s last words echoing, on how he wished there was some way for them to go back and to fix all the pain and suffering in the world, how he wished he could tell brian that everything was okay. but it wasn’t, and there was nothing either of them could do. and he sits there, stroking Brian’s hair as he shakes and bleeds and sobs, suddenly forced to confront this pain and misery inside of him that he’s never had the responsibility of facing before. forced to realize that the pain and abuse that he convinced himself he loved, the memories of the man who he’d never forget and would never stop loving, has ruined brian’s life and has irreversibly traumatized him. this man, no, to neil he still can’t help but see him as a little boy, is terrified and heartbroken and miserable because of the trauma and cruelty that they were both subjected to. and for a brief moment, neil realizes, he feels the same way. and he wishes he could take it back. the gory movies with coach, the cereal dumped on the floor, the ‘here we go’ echoed in his mind, the five dollar game, the way he told a young Brian it was fun, the incident at Brighton Beach- everything. but there is nothing they can do, and they can’t go back in time to stop it. so they lay there and grieve, they grieve for themselves, they grieve for the other little boys, they grieve for every single child that coach has done this to. every single child that can’t forget.

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I’ve yet to find gifs from this absolutely heartbreaking scene from Life is Strange: Before the Storm, so I thought I’d make them myself. 

This scene is one of my favourites from the game, because it really shows just how broken Chloe is, and it makes me cry like a baby every single time. 

“What am I talkin to you for?  All you gotta do is munch on a carrot and people love you.”

This is probably the best moment in the entire film to me, and it only lasts 25 seconds.  So why didn’t we see more of it?  Aside from numerous reasons you can probably guess if you know what went on behind the scenes, it’s because this ISN’T LOONEY TUNES. This is Pixar levels of depth, drama, and character building that the original shorts never had.  I highly doubt Bugs or Daffy can pull off pathos well but this scene convinced me it’s possible.  You know, just sit and silently ponder the themes of the story with no wild, exaggerated movements for 3 full minutes without it looking very awkward, the kinds of things you only see in live-action movies. Here, Bugs for the first time finally realizes that all the abuse Daffy had gone through for decades in stardom isn’t acting anymore, and could be seriously harming his well-being. For the first time, Bugs is worried about him.  Daffy likewise acts like his sarcastic self but finally gets a chance to voice his frustrations like a mature adult to his foil, and I think that already lifted some weight off his shoulders.

They’re designed for slapstick and vaudeville levels of comedy.  And it saddens me that the only time I really felt like they GOT shades of a good Looney Tunes movie for today’s audiences is when we were given a scene that would NEVER happen in a short, but it’s still BRILLIANT, and I can’t wait for someone to make another movie with these characters with about 40% or even 20% of the movie carrying this kind of emotional weight to it and pulling it off! Yes, many purists will cry “That’s not Looney Tunes!” but every single animated film today have this kind of tone mixed in with the looniness, so I’m confident there’s a way to do it.

~Mon-El Appreciation Week~
day 3
: favorite heartbreaking/angsty moments

1. 2x13 - Kara tells Mon-El she’ll be marrying Mxyzptlk

Originally posted by dailymonelgifs

“You’re right. You’re right, okay? I’m jealous. I wish I could snap my fingers and give you everything you wish for, and it kills me that he can do that stuff for you and I can’t. And I acted badly, okay? Very badly. But please, please do not marry him. I will be better for you.

Oh my poor space puppy. I almost didn’t include this to my favorite heartbreaking moments, as I already had two of them, but I remember watching this episode for the first time, and damn… My heart had broken so badly when I saw the tears in Mon-El’s eyes, and it was literally the first time I had such a strong reaction to a scene. I might’ve even had tears in my eyes as well, and for someone who rarely cries to TV shows or movies THAT says something. Especially when he says “I thought we were gonna do that.”… I wanted to throw my laptop to a wall or something, it was THAT heartbreaking. This maybe isn’t my top favorite heartbreaking Mon-El scene, but since it is the FIRST scene in any TV show or movie that utterly destroyed me, I feel like I should include this to the list. 

2. 2x16 - Kara breaks up with Mon-El

Originally posted by superkaramels

“I just wanted to, um, say a few things Before I lose you forever. ‘Cause I owe you a lot, but most of all, I owe you the truth. My name is Mon-El. I’m the former Prince of Daxam. And I was a spoiled, useless person, but I didn’t know. Until I met you. And I love being a hero because it means I get to spend every single day by your side. And I love the way that you’re honest to a fault. And the way that you fight for those you care for. And I love you. With everything that I have, I love you.”

I remember the first time I watched this scene. Occasionally I watch Supergirl in school as early as I possibly can, but for 2x16 I knew angsty stuff was coming so I opted to watch it at home, alone, where I could scream as much as I wanted. And boy I was right. The whole episode was like getting my heart ripped out of my chest, but this scene especially… I’m gonna admit, I was crying so hard by the time Mon-El got to the “I love you” part, so much so that even the happiness of him dropping the “L bomb” couldn’t help me. Just seeing him laying everything out there for Kara to see, being completely honest, completely himself, and then getting rejected by the woman he loves… I just wanted to wrap my poor puppy into several layers of blankets, hug him, and tell him it would be okay, especially when I saw him on the verge of crying… Ughhh, it just breaks me every single damn time. 

Also I have to mention, the parallel between this scene and the scene in 2x13, where Kara opens the door for Mon-El so that he can leave, and he walks away without objection despite the obvious heartbreak… I don’t know how it’s possible, but it still physically hurts me whenever I think about it. So yeah. Thanks Supergirl for making me cry a second time in the span of a few episodes.

3. 2x22 - Kara and Mon-El’s goodbye

Originally posted by fyeahkaramel

“There’s something I need to say. Wherever I go I’m gonna be better because of you. You’ll be in my heart. I promise I’m going to be the man that you thought I could be. I promise.”

As expected as this was for me, considering all the spoilers we got for the finale, this scene just caught me so off guard. It was 4 a.m. when I was watching this, and I was in a hotel room with my friends trying not to wake them up, but DAMN it was so hard to stay silent when all I wanted was to scream and cry and punch something and throw my computer to the wall at the same time. This was literally one of the saddest goodbyes I’ve watched in my life. The raw emotions in Kara and Mon-El’s eyes, the shakiness in their voice, how they desperately try to hold onto each other, the “I love you”s, Kara giving Mon-El her necklace… It was just…ugh. Heartbreakingly perfect. Painfully good. I don’t know how else to explain it. But I know that my heart definitely won’t be healed from this, and I’ll be left scarred forever, even though they’ll be reunited next season. 

Also, I just want to say, kudos to Chris Wood and Melissa Benoist, seriously. The first and foremost reason Karamel affects me this much is that their acting is just so on point in every scene that I feel their emotions as if I’m experiencing them. They’re just incredible, making me feel so grateful to be a part of this fandom. 

anonymous asked:

Okay. How about this? List all of these and why. Favorite WA kiss? Favorite WA angst? Favorite WA love declaration? Favorite funny WA scene? Favorite Barry moment? Favorite Iris moment? Favorite WA moment in general?

1) Favorite WA kiss: Other than the hot make-out in episode 4, I would have to say my favorite kiss between them happens in episode 9 of season 3, because Barry just gifted Iris with their amazing loft and he was so excited to show her. After that, Barry tells her that moving in together isn’t a big step for him (because really, it’s not – Barry has waxed poetic to Iris multiple times, and done things like get her a replica of her mother’s ring). He was ready to move forward with her, to take the next step in their future together. The moment was just so sweet, also because he basically proposed to her when he told her that she was the last thing he wanted to see when he went to bed, and the first thing he wanted to see when he woke up (before Iris cut him off with a kiss lol). I know they had two kisses in the scene, but I’m mainly talking about after Iris said she loved him (and SHE USED FULL NAME WHICH KILLED ME) and Barry told her he loved her too. That moment was so sweet and genuine, and that scene alone showcases how much they love each other. Both kisses had me shook, though!

2) Favorite WA angst: Hands down, and I think my favorite scene of all time in season one, was the scene from Grodd Lives 1x21, where Joe was kidnapped by Grodd and Iris questioned why the team couldn’t figure out how to save him. The angst aspect was when she walked out, and Barry followed her. I loved their argument in that scene in the hallway, mainly because Iris got to express how she felt about Barry lying, which we all needed to hear since she were kept in the dark for pretty much the whole season. It’s also my favorite because Iris was tearing up, because she was truly hurt that her dad and mainly Barry would lie to her, because “you were supposed to be my best friend, Barry!” That line.. shook! “I am your best friend!” I literally know the entire dialogue in that scene, lol. It was just heart breaking because Iris was truly hurt, because she gave Barry that much capacity to hurt her, because she loved him. Also, I will never not laugh (and roll my eyes) at Barry equating keeping the secret from Iris to her hidden feelings for him. Not only that, but the acting from both of the actors, specifically from Candice was A1. Definitely my favorite scene from season 1. 

3)  Favorite WA love declaration: This is so hard to choose! I feel like moments that can’t be considered love declarations, are in my opinion. I’ll keep this one short, but I guess I will go with Barry’s first confession in 1x09. I think it was so sweet and raw from Barry, and it’s been the most open he’s been to everyone. He wore his heart on his sleeve, and he felt like how owed it to Iris to tel her then – although it was ill-timing. The part that made me choose this declaration was because of Barry’s “I loved you before I even knew what the word love meant.” That line did it for me because Barry defines love int he way he loves Iris. When you’re young, you don’t really know what love is. You know it’s characterized my some feeling, but Barry as a child knew whatever he felt for her, must be love. He essentially said, “that, that right there, whatever I feel for her, it has to be love.” And that makes me cry. Of course Iris’s silent tears added tot he scene, because you could tell she were mad and sad, because it’s like “Why now?” in her mind, everything has completely changed for them. She’s always seen Barry as her best friend, and probably couldn’t differentiate her romantic feelings for him vs her platonic ones, so she buried them – and characterized them as one. Now, that Barry told her he loved her this entire time, you have to imagine in her head she’s thinking about and questioning every single moment they have shared, because for her it’s always been one thing. Now that Barry told her this, she knows that in every moment they have shared, he’s been in love with her. I lied, that wasn’t short at all lol! 

4) Favorite Funny Scene: Have WA had many funny scenes? Lol. I don’t know if this scene be classified as funny, but the first scene that popped into my head was in episode 3x09, when Barry just showed Iris their soon-to-be lovely home together, and Iris said “I got you a wallet.” LOL. That line made me alight and cry, because Iris was so genuine and sweet and she’s in shock that he gave her that, while she gave him a wallet. And Barry’s “I’m sure I love it” made me CRY (but also laugh while crying) because HE WAS DEAD ASS SERIOUS. Barry is going to cherish that wallet for everything it’s worth, simply because Iris got it for him lol. I’m sure he tells everyone t work that Iris gave him that wallet, just to show it off. This scene also solidified that Barry is the better gift giver :) 

5) Favorite Barry moment: If this is speaking about them individually, this is tough, because there are so many Barry scenes to choose from, lol. I don’t know if this classifies as “favorite Barry moment” because it’s his tears and his conversation with Nora in Welcome to Earth 2 on the phone that made me cry. It was the first time Barry heard Nora’s voice since he were a child. Technically it’s not his mother, but Earth 2 Barry’s but it was still all the same for Barry. The moment he heard her voice on the phone, and had to play off as E2 Barry and started to cry (which makes it even more sad? Because E2 Barry still has his mother). It was just a heart breaking scene, and well-acted one all around. Kudos to Grant.

6) Favorite Iris Moment: This is difficult as well, but not as difficult because Iris has had so many wonderful scenes that made me cheer for her. I loved the scene where she’s talking to Joe in Grodd Lives in CCPN, because she was again, expressing her POV which was lacked in season 1 due to her being in the dark about Barry’s secret. My favorite moment so far though, is in 3x11 where she has the conversation with Wally in CCPD. She had so much agency in that episode, but in that scene alone because she wanted to mattered. She got to express her fear of dying, but also getting to do something about it because she got to be. She knew about her potential fate, so she took matters into her own hands and didn’t let her consume her (at that moment). She wanted to be more than just a daughter, or sister, or a girl friend. The dialogue in that scene was A1, and really shows what kind of person Iris is. She loves being all of those things, but it doesn’t always define her. Her compassion, her need for justice and truth is what’s also important, her job as a reporter! I cried and cheered for her so much in that scene and the entire episode (like I always do). 

7) All of my favorite WA moments are here, although they aren’t that updated. I want to add the scene from 3x10, where Barry tells Iris about her potential fate int he time vault. 1) the acting was so good? Grant and Candice play really well off of each other, but I felt like this particular scene had a much bigger impact because of the context and the emotions. 2) Poor Iris! Her whole life has been turned upside down, and she was so selfless to the point where her first thought was to tell Barry to stop letting criminals go to save her, and to protect Joe after. I loved Barry’s anger in that scene as well because he felt like Iris gave up a bit when she asked when it would happen. For him, it’s like Savitar already won. The entire scene just had me in shambles. 

Hope this sufficed! Gifs by @westallengifs and @valeriemperez

Saiyuki Reload Blast Ep. 6 Review

So not as flushed out as I thought it was going to be ( I was expecting one more episode) but still a pretty solid way to wrap up this mini Gaiden arc that they had going. If someone had never watched the Saiyuki Gaiden OVA or just needed a refresher, this episode does the job. They hit most of the major moments that one would need to know about the Gaiden story (how and why the 4 become “traitors of Heaven”, The Promise that they make to each other, the deaths of Kenren, Tenpou, and Konzen, as well as Konzen’s promise to reach out his hand first next time he finds Goku) despite it being a slightly rushed ending. And while there are many things I can talk about in depth, I want to focus on one character for a moment: Kanzeon Bosatsu.

I love how we get to see how much of a badass Kanzeon Bosatsu is! Like she can take down Seiten Taisei without breaking a sweat! She commanding and wise, but also understanding. It makes perfect sense why she hold a high rank in the Heavens.

The scene with Kanzeon Bosatsu and Goku gets to me every! single! time!  The raw emotion that Kanzeon Bosatsu displays as she’s trying to motive Goku after Konzen’s death, it just moves me. She very empathetic to his pain and grief… And just cradles this broken child in her arms while she comforts him. I mean look at her..

She is so deserving of her title as Bodhisattva, and I really want more of Kanzeon Bosatsu in the future.

Overall, did this episode still have me crying in the end? Despite knowing exactly how it will end… You bet your ass it did!

Soo looking forward to next week!

I honestly love how Cassian and Jyn’s relationship developed throughout the movie. At first it was like they both didnt know each other and Cassian saw Jyn as nothing but a problem to him but yet he came back to her. Every single time. I love how Jyn is just strong, powerful in her tiny body but she’s so lonely. So lonely she couldnt believe that Cassian would stand for her. Would die for her tbh. AND WHEN THEY ARGUED I CAN SEE THAT IT HURTS THEM BOTH AND IT MAKES ME WANNA CRY AND ANOTHER THING, THEY BOTH REALIZED THAT THEY NEED EACH OTHER WAS DURING THE ELEVATOR SCENE DAMN THAT SCENE IS BURNINGG ME SLOWLY YOU CAN TELL BY THE LOOK ON THEIR EYES

You’re our hero, Stanley

i wanted to draw a scene a little after Stan gets his memories back. he still doesn’t remember everything, so they’re taking a walk and showing him around to help jog some memories

also i’ve seen this scene like 8 times and every single time it makes me cry. pretty much every part of the last 15 minutes makes me cry tbh

THIS WAS UNFAIR BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY FUCKING EMOTIONS RN AND I LOVE EMMA SWAN SO FUCKING MUCH 

HER LITTLE BOX OF MEMORIES MAKES ME CRY EVERY TIME I SEE IT

AND LOOK AT HER FACE AS SHE LOOKS AT THAT PICTURE OF HER AND HENRY AND IT JUST HITS ME EVERY SINGLE TIME JUST HOW FAR SHE’S COME AND HOW MUCH FAMILY SHE’S FOUND AND I CRY SO FUCKING MUCH

AND HENRY SUPPORTS HER SO MUCH AND I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS SCENE AND HOW WONDERFUL IT IS AND SHE’S TRYING TO REMIND HERSELF OF ALL THE THINGS SHE HAS TO FIGHT FOR UGHHHHH

*CRYING TEARS OF BLOOD* REMEMBER WHEN THEY WERE BABIES

AND NOW LOOK AT THEM. ABOUT TO GET MARRIED AND BEST MAN AT HIS MUM’S WEDDING

I LOVE THEM I CANNOT EVEN DEAL WITH HOW MUCH

GOSH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO FUCKING MUCH

Now that we’re on the subject anyway though, shoutout to the Gemini of the Meteor creative team for the most annoyingly pointless game of carrot-dangling I have ever witnessed. Sorry Misaki, we had nothing better for you to do but to be humiliatingly thwarted for 12 episodes, and no intention of giving your storyline any payoff whatsoever. Aren’t you lucky we brought you back at all?!

And also for the most outrageous case of “oops, was that character development? that won’t do, let’s turn it into a HARBRINGER OF THE FUCKING APOCALYPSE instead!”. Sorry Yin, we had to punish you for being Hei’s favorite girl somehow, I guess. Gotta keep him good and tortured? Or something?

And the most egregious “let’s bring back this cool character! …for no other reason than to Gainax bounce all over the place and then DIE USELESSLY in the very first episode!”. Sorry April, turns out nobody back here actually cares about anything but your tits.

Plus the dirtiest a piece of fiction has made me feel since I made the mistake of watching the Léon: The Professional director’s cut. Sorry Suou. No, seriously, I am so, so sorry you had to exist for no other reason than to be a source of skeevy loli fanservice, fall in Stockholm Syndrome with the drunk jackass who kept slapping you around, and have everything you managed to achieve in the end erased so a completely different girl who’s lived a completely different life practically from birth could take your place.

By the way, thanks for making sure that the literal pedophile who wouldn’t stop making “jokes” about his rape-y hard-on for what he thought was a preteen boy dies without doing any on-screen damage, I guess? But I really hope you realize that that guy’s presence only made the loli fanservice MORE disturbing. Nor did his death make it not the epitome of distasteful to have the lesbian who murders him be forced to make out with dudes all the time. And the fact that the love interest she was avenging couldn’t get through a single scene without gratuitous focus on her short skirt, low-cut top, exaggerated T&A, and hapless o:-face before ultimately being tortured to death will never not make me roll my eyes. And no, that other woman with the ridiculous T&A was nothing to write home about either.

I mean for crying out loud, the first season had Brita getting her streaker on almost every scene she was in, but I thought you managed to keep THAT tasteful and respectful. What the fuck were you even DOING the second time around?

And of course that’s not even going into the most rage-inducing non-ending to a show I have EVER SEEEEEEEN. “Oh, you wanted ANSWERS to this mystery we’ve been building up all season?? You wanted there to be a POINT to any of these storylines??? LOLNO YOU LOSER, go watch My Little Pony for that plebeian tripe.”

AAAAAAAAAAAARGH.

*explodes in a cloud of ultra-diluted concentrated. CONCENTRATED. frustration*

Originally posted by fuzzyghost

(okay, I think I’m done for today)

Reinforcements

There is a very specific type of scene in Disney movies that makes my eyes water and tear up every time. 

Originally posted by saralou23

It’s not the romantic songs. 

Originally posted by jolieing

It’s not even the death scenes with Mufasa or Bambi’s mom. 

Originally posted by farbenkuss

The scenes that make me blubber and cry every stinkin’ time I watch them is what I like to call… “The Reinforcements Scene.” 

You know the scenes I mean… 

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okay, this would seriously hurt me and make me cry but I just want one scene, just one scene of Alfred just completely breaking down in anger, grief, pain, and trauma

because seriously, this man has been strong for all this time, he’s just kept going despite so much trauma - the child he loves and would die for, killed him and every single day he’s met with the face of that boy knowing that reality and he can’t walk away, he won’t walk away, because Bruce needs him even more than his own mental wellbeing - because the child he loves comes first

just how long can he hold it all in? just how long can a man keep pretending and ignoring it all?

I know Alfred is our source of consistent dependability and strength, but for once, just once, I want to see that facade break, I want people to see that he’s not invulnerable, that this is a man who needs someone to just look after him, to put him first as he does for others - I want people to see that he is human too, that he can’t keep taking all the hits like nothing ever happened and he deserves a break from always having to be the one who holds everyone else up

anonymous asked:

Do you read any good Raphael/Saphael fics that you can share?? I feel like I have nothing to read atm. And what is your Twitter name? Lol

oh boi

okay so because i’m the messiest person ever i don’t keep track of things i read unless i really really really like it, so i’ll just give you my top 5 saphael fics

my twitter name is littlespoonraph (i love having a canon twitter name :) raphael is the little spoon and no one can tell me otherwise)

here we go……….

1. The Bane & Santiago International Series by @westiris

summary: raphael is a businessman, simon is his assistant. raphael has a headache.

tw: depression and suicide attempt

okay. so. this series currently has 3 parts and it’s probably in my top 3 of best fics i’ve ever read, which is funny because i’m usually not really into AU’s or mental illness-related angst, but this one is really good and raphael’s depression isn’t romanticized and is really well written.

every saphael shipper i know has read this fic and we’re all so obsessed with it that whenever the word “headache” is mentioned we all just start screaming “raphael feels as if he’s known this headache his entire life”. you’ll get it after reading the fic ;)

2. Welcome home by shadowspeaker

summary: raphael asks simon to come meet his family. they’re just friends, though… just friends (okay maybe not really) (they’re both madly in love with each other) (it just takes them a while to figure out). really fluffy and cute.

listen, this is probably the cutest fic ever? like, literally everyone can tell they’re in love and they are just so cute i want to cry for eternity. 

the fic has some spanish in it, but there is a fully english version as well (the second chapter) (i didn’t realize when i first read it, i just ignored all the spanish bc i was too lazy to translate and didn’t know the second chapter was the english version and boi i was so close to missing the cutest lines that have ever been written) (so if you don’t speak spanish: only read chapter two!)

3. 3 times simon really wants to kiss raphael + the one time he does by scalira

summary: title says it all. raphael is good with kids. very cute.

cuteness. very very cute. little angsty but mostly cute. this author has a lot of great saphael fics by the way, you should just check out all of their work.

4. real or not real by raphaelsontiago

summary: instead of truth or dare, simon loves to play “real or not real”. questions vary from “you annoy me, real or not real?” to “you love me, real or not real?”. kinda sad, kinda fluffy.

my friend brianna (aka satan) wrote this because she loves angst and pain and hates happiness. you should check her other work out as well, most of her fics are fluff. she kills simon in one of her fics, though (three times simon called raphael), and we still give her shit for it every single day, so don’t read that one unless you want to cry.

5. night hours by carstairsjems

summary: what we think canonically happened after the “stick around”-scene (spoiler alert: make out sesh)

my friend sana wrote this (sana, brianna and i have this theory that saphael kissed after the stick around scene but aRATsha (@kylos) keeps fighting us for it hmm… we’re right, though) and it’s really good. you should also check her saphael poems (x) out if you want to feel things.


this is pretty messy but i hope it helps, enjoy! 

if you want to talk about the fics (and by talk i mean: scream and keysmash), feel free to dm me/send me another anon/tweet me/whatever :)