what if the reason why kaneki cried in chapter 125 is bec. in that moment he had "reached climax"????????????? and that's why he kept saying touka's name bec. he was close? o_o
That scene is very similar to the first time Haise went to :re and cried when he saw Touka, and he didn’t even realize he was crying, she even gives him that “sad smile” again, and instead of giving him a handkerchief she holds him and kisses him. It’s the exact same thing. Kaneki was unconsciously crying because this is literally one of the happiest moments he’s ever had in a long, long, long time. After being depressed for so many years, especially since Arima’s death, this is the only moment in where he gets to experiment a feeling that isn’t emptiness, sorrow or pain, and it’s even more emotional because it’s not just sex, he’s having his first time (one of the most important moments in a person’s life) with a girl he loves, someone he has known for a long time and it’s not a stranger to his eyes, and he’s feeling loved by her in that moment, after feeling that no one loves him, which is completely wrong, this moment means a lot to him, and I’m sure he wasn’t planning to cry at all, it just happened because he couldn’t control his emotions anymore.
The fact that Kaneki cried while losing his virginity to Touka made the whole scene a lot more emotional, and it gave a deeper meaning to their relationship, because it wasn’t just the fact that he was having sex and everything was great, but it was the fact that he was doing it with her. In chapter 72 you can also see a tear coming down his cheek after she told him “I’ll see you later”, so it’s kinda like their thing now, lolol, Touka always provokes strong emotions in him. To me, it was extremely important that Ishida made Kaneki cry in that scene, and I’m deeply grateful for that, he doesn’t cry in front of anyone and has no one to hold him and just comfort him, he deals with his emotions by himself, and seeing him cry for something that it’s good, because he wasn’t necessarily crying from sorrow… it’s just so so so important, and now excuse me i’m gonna go and cry a bit because i’m feeling so emotional about this right now (???) *sobs in the dark*