this scene brings me so much tears

A lot of people will write long posts justifying why it’s wrong the more popular actors/movies didn’t win, but here’s one for Ruth Negga.

Ruth was born to an Irishwoman and an Ethiopian man, Ruth has been working tirelessly for years in various shows and movies. 

Ruth portrayed Mildred Loving, a woman who was arrested for sleeping in bed with her husband. A woman who was arrested after the birth of her first child. A woman who was not allowed to happily be with her husband or family for over ten years because of the color of her skin. When they finally won their case, Mildred lost her husband seven years later to a drunk drive. Ruth wore her ACLU ribbon today partly to represent them. 

Ruth’s performance in Loving was heartstopping and everyone I’ve shown the movie to in real life watched with awe as she brought so much emotion and voice out of a woman who hardly spoke. Watch archive footage of Mildred and then watch Ruth’s performance. It’s completely astounding and you can TELL she worked so hard to bring her to life, to tell us the story of this woman who’s been only mentioned briefly in schoolbooks. Just a scene of her, standing in the sun in the countryside, had me in tears. 

I can’t quite wrap my head around a white, fictional character in a performance that was underwhelming in comparison to Ruth’s winning. I just can’t. Was she undermined because of race? Perhaps. Was it because she was a new face? I don’t know. 

What I do know is that Ruth Negga won that red carpet tonight and she truly kept her “always be posing” rule at maximum performance. Everytime the camera flipped to her (which was quite often) she looked so ethereal. “We may lose the small battles but win the big war.” I feel like we’ll see Ruth Negga on that red carpet again soon. She’s got so many Preacher fans at her back and she’s definitely taking the world by storm. I can’t wait to see what she does next and I hope she has a really nice night and a good night’s sleep. 

I just wanna take a second to say that Jon touching Drogon is such a huge Jonerys moment to me.

I think it’s obvious to all of us what this means to Dany, to see a man brave enough to touch Drogon, and to see Drogon accept and almost show affection for Jon. 

But idk it’s just hitting me what this means for Jon. It demonstrates a lot of trust in Dany for him to approach Drogon with her on his back. Like he knows that Dany has total control over this enormous beast with teeth the size of his head. And he knows that she won’t let anything happen to him. 

And just like he said on the beach in 7.04, he never thought he would see dragons in his life. So he’s completely moved by this chance to touch one and by the sheer power of Drogon and of Dany by extension for bringing him to life. And so those tears in his eyes in that scene still have me shook. 

Of course a big part of it is Jon being a badass but it’s more than that. It was a big moment for both of them in terms of their relationship and how much they trust and admire one another.

anonymous asked:

Is Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff more likely to cry at a movie? I don't imagine a Gryffindor or Slytherin crying at movies

hufflepuffs would be the ones bawling over movies with a happy ending and nobody else gets it because ‘dude moana just saved te fiti and the rest of the ocean it’s happy why are you crying?’ ‘BECAUSE IT’S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL!!!’

ravenclaws cry at people baring their souls. characters who struggle to fit in, the ones who get bullied and ridiculed at school. anything about the fear of growing up and losing yourself will bring on the waterworks. like that scene in the breakfast club where brian’s talking about wanting to kill himself? damn gets me every time

gryffindors will cry at anything based on a true story. they’ll shed angry tears over the injustice of it all and the fact that this really happened. they can’t believe these people went through so much shit and it hurts that they can’t do anything about it. anything about the holocaust will see them locked in their room for a few hours

slytherins are most upset by the death of the hopeful. the friends and beloved characters who were so full of dreams and aspirations that they never got to fulfil. the people who never got to do everything they wanted. they’ll never admit it, but the fact that ellie and carl never got to go to paradise falls together kills them every time they watch it


So for the people who watched The Titanic, in the end Rose marries Jack in her dream. That beautiful scene inspired me so much to make this. Also these two deserved so much better and that’s also a reason because we as Clexa fans deserved this.

I will also make a little video and put these drawings in it, not sure if it will look good though because I’m a terrible editor.

But anways

I hope this will heal you guys a little bit… Or bring you in tears, give you mixed feeling, maybe a little heart attack following you to scream like a fangirl idk. Be creative.

Love you guys <3
Thanks for the 800+ followers, it means a lot to me :)




This is an AU where Yuu basically lost a bet to Shinoa (and Kimizuki), so now they’re pressuring him to make a not-so-yuu-chan-move on this one hot waiter, Mika, who’s been ogling him for the past 2 weeks….So Shinoa gives him some really helpful tips!! :-)

Thank you so much for being so patient with my delayed art trade, @laffforever​!!! This was really fun to make, and your part of the trade still brings me to tears but I hope you like this!!

(shout out to @mika-yuu for giving me the gay/great scene idea…it made me laugh for days)

Timing and Magic and Ciphers, Oh My (9.30.17 meta: hope lives)

Guys. We haven’t figured it all out yet.

I’m practically SICK with this right now. There are so many things that want to come together in my head and so many things I want to say all at once that I just know I’m going to forget something in putting this all together and kick myself in the ass later. So as a precaution, I’m going to forewarn that if something more occurs to me I’ll be tagging it on my blog as “I’m an idiot.” So if you search that tag and something comes up, it’s an addition to this. :D


We were told the actors read the script backwards at some point, right? And how they were brought to tears? But we don’t know why. We certainly didn’t see very much about S4 that was moving. The only thing bringing us to tears was how bad it was.

But I believe, and have for some time, that the scenes in series 4 are all out of order. We just haven’t figured that order out yet. I bet I’m not the only one who has toyed with that thought.

And in addition to all that, we’ve been given a cipher.

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I don’t want to be the fatalist of the fandom but if nobody dies in this season (Brett is dead and I’m not gonna be over it soon but if you follow my reasoning it will all be clear) this isn’t gonna be realistic. Sure, I want Scolia, I want Peter to be forgiven by Malia and be the father she needs and probably wants and I want Scott to finally talk to his dad and I want Melissa and Chris, and goddamn before 6b I didn’t even knew I wanted Jethan and Thiam and even Golan (and for the last one there was no chance to ship them before ‘cause they’re new characters) this much and I want even Stydia, and Derek to be finally happy and not being accused of murder (mass or not, to me he’s not a killer) and I want even fucking Deucalion to live his life in his apartment, still studying martial arts and act like a pacifist, but it’s war, and it’s not gonna happen. Brett and his sister died before the war was officially started, before Scott tried to have his own army, so we can’t count his dead in the final fight dead count. The last Big Fight was the one where Allison and Aiden died, and it was soo different from the one we’re about to see, because it was supernatural against supernatural, it was, somehow, fair. This time isn’t. This time all the “normals” are going to fight the “freaks” in a really bloody way. So I was thinking about the possible deaths, the ones that surely can break our hearts and how this possible death is gonna happen. Let me explain my theories.

Peter dies.

He’s a father, and since he discovered it he only wanted to be a father, he only cared for Malia’s safety and he only worked with Scott for her. So I can see him die to save Malia, who’s risking her life for Scott, so, in the end, Peter dies because of his love for Malia, who’s in love with Scott and is worried for his life. He’s gonna bring some hunters with him, but clearly his character arc is ended and he can’t do better.

Theo dies.

It kills me but I think Theo is going to die for Liam. I can picture two scenery, one is Theo dying to save Liam and the other one is Theo dying to save someone else Liam deeply cares about (Mason or Scott). He’s going to bring hunters with him too, but not as much as Peter.

Gerard dies.

I can picture Chris as the one who kills him, but after that Chris is gonna leave BH forever, because the place brings him only painful memories, or I can see Tamora as the one who kills him (and there’s various reasons why) and that’s the only way she seems to manage problems (how she became a counselor is still a mystery to me).

Jackson/ Ethan dies.

Because I know Jeff can’t resist to the possibility of a scene where one of them tells to someone else “we’re never gonna celebrate our anniversary.” If this happens, you can find me drowned in my own tears, because Jackson is an asshole but he faced so much painful experieces in his life, first of all the adoption (I’m not saying adoptes child are all gonna be like Jackson but we clearly saw, in season ½ he hasn’t took it well) to the fact he left BH and all his friends behind to have a new life where he can life without the BH and Scott’s pack drama and he doesn’t deserve to lose the only thing it seems to make him happy. In the other hand, Ethan lost his twin brother and before he has killed all his pack members to join the alpha pack and he left BH too, leaving behind Danny and the people he started to be friend with, so he doesn’t deserve it too, but, unfortunately, I’m afraid we’re going to see this scene, probably followed by an angry “this city brings me only pain. You *pointing at Scott* bring me only pain.” If one of them dies before the big fight, the other probably will menace Scott to leave but someone’s gonna make him change his mind because “if you go, Jackson/Ethan died for nothing.” I can picture Lydia say this, because she was Jackson’s first love and Aiden’s last. Whoever dies, is gonna kill some hunters, a fair amount, and the other one is going to be in full beast mode and lose his control on the battlefield.

Gabe/ Nolan dies.

Tamora, or her flunky for her, is going to kill one of them because they helped Scott’s pack/ they refuse to do what they ordered him to do. I really hope for the first one, because I want this two child to redeem themselves in some kind of way.

That’s all, let me know if anybody has different theories and if you agree or not with mine and why, I clearly need help with my insomnia but first I need to talk about teen wolf.

anonymous asked:

When you first started out your SSLL story, did you expect.. well, all of this?? What I mean is, people recognizing you within the community, being (basically) popular, having people make stories based on yours all because of how inspiring it was for many writers, having a bunch of adoring fans, etc..? When you first starting gaining popularity, how did you feel about it as opposed to now?

Oh, no, not a chance.  I started SSLL because I was stressed out and wanted to write some skeletal fluff and shenanigans.  It was just my silly little side project, and completely self-indulgent (though let’s be real–it still is). The fact that people accept some of my headcanons and that the nicknames Mutt, Crooks (-fingerguns- at @with-a-whisper because that’s totally all her), and Axe have become pretty popular is really cool, too.  (I also kinda feel like I’ve helped boost Horrortale and introduce more people to those spooky skeletons, and that makes me happy.)  And the fact that I can inspire people to write, be it something based on my writing, a fanfic of my fanfic, or just something they feel like writing because they liked the way I portrayed a character/imagine and wanted to expand on it–well, that’s so crazy to me.  And so awesome.  Every time I read anything that someone’s sent my way or see my name get tagged in fanart, I just feel so genuinely giddy.  I mean, someone read a scene I wrote and then liked it enough to bring it to life? 

Not gonna lie, I’ve legitimately teared up or cried over it.   

This is my first time actually being part of a fandom community like this.  I usually just obsess on the sidelines (though I did have a semi-popular Bowser/Peach fanfic at one point, but what else did you expect from me?  I miiiiight re-write it at some point.), so being able to actually be apart of it like this is incredible.  

When I started gaining popularity, I pretty much thought “hoo boy, they’re in for a disappointment” because I didn’t have all that much confidence that I could be consistent–and I used to feel such anxiety whenever I posted a chapter because I was worried that someone would end up tearing me apart or being let-down by my writing.  But now?  Since I’ve gained some awesome friends and incredible followers, I have confidence.  Instead of anxiety, I feel excited whenever I post anything, because people tell me what they loved–or hated– about the chapter.  They usually do it in all-caps, and some of it is incoherent, and I love it.  

I always wanted to be a writer.  I tried getting published at one point; I used to send query letters to literary agents every day.  I have a couple of original works that’ll never see the light of day, and for good reason– I had lost my confidence.  But through SSLL and my imagines… I get to experience what it’d be like if I had become published, only I feel like it’s even better because I get to interact with everyone.  I get to have a taste of that dream on here.  

So whenever I say thank you to those of you that actually take the time to read what I write–I really, truly mean it.  Thank you so much, for every kind word, for every bit of your excitement, and for sticking with me even when I don’t always provide the most prompt updates.  


I just need to let some things off my chest… I’ve seen so much negativity in these tags lately and it just feels awful.

People are complaining about every little thing lately. The episodes for 2A have already been filmed and edited. There is NOTHING anyone can do about it now. No one knew people would have the reactions they are. For me, I saw nothing wrong with 2x07 or 2x08.

I thought all the scenes were sweet. I saw that Magus was hesitant of losing Alec but not hesitant of having sex. There is a big difference there and I think a lot of people didn’t understand that or it was misinterpreted. There WAS consent. It may not have been verbal but it was a physical consent. If you think Magnus Bane would let someone take advantage of him, you clearly don’t know his character very well. Same goes with Alec; if you thought he would ‘push himself‘ onto Magnus and force sex… You clearly don’t know his character either. Alec was just trying to be confident and not overthink things and I thought they showed that pretty well. I think they didn’t show a ‘sex scene’ because it was Alec’s first time. It’s personal. I thought it was the smartest thing to do. Let the audience fill in the gaps to how things went. I’m sure in the future episodes that are CURRENTLY being filmed, you will see more. Just have faith in the actors and the writers. They work bloody hard to try and keep everyone happy. With the latest episode, I’ve seen people questioning whether or not it happened and that Magnus and Alec seem awkward about it because Alec told Izzy there was nothing to talk about. Back in season 1, Izzy told Alec that he never talks about his personal life with her. Jump to this episode; nothing has changed. Yes, he asked her for advice in 2x07 which was a huge step for him but I don’t think he’s going to start talking about his sex life with his sister anytime soon. That would be very out of character. 

It upsets me so much that everyone is finding such small things to complain about and tear into the actors/writers about. They aren’t being homophobic, that is just ridiculous. If they were you wouldn’t even have half the Malec scenes you get. Come on now. The writers are doing a fantastic job. They love this show, those characters just as much as everyone else. 

Let’s stop with all the negativity in these tags now. Bring on more positive posts about how sweet Alec and Magnus are together and how healthy their relationship is. 

Feel free the message me your opinions. I’m up for a healthy discussion about the show. I know a lot of people will disagree with me, so I’m happy to hear everyone out! :)

FANFIC Friday 10/13

mI never properly do recs but I decided to try my hand at making a lists of them on Fridays. Today’s entries will be Unforgettable Spock/Uhura FanFiction compiled by Kerry Lamb (PART ONE)

These stories aren’t necessarily multi-chapter epics or funny little sonnets. They’ve made the list because they’ve stuck with me over the years. It might have been from their overall feelings once I finished reading the last chapter or a brilliant paragraph in the middle of the story; either way I think everything here is worth a read:

1. Pronged by The calliope

This infamous little number has been around for years and was written by the wonderfully witty Calliope. In this tale she gives life ( and a ton of gasps and laughs) as Nyota becomes familiar with Spock’s unique Vulcan biology. It’s strange for sure and discomforting at points but as someone who loves to write about Spock’s ~ahem~ anatomy, I appreciate how tastefully it’s presented and humorously it’s written. 5/5 clutching of pearls and scandalized snickers

2. Reason Interrupted by wintermoonwitch

Oh man you guys, I reached a point in this where I just had to close my laptop and sit with how poignantly this author described longing. I felt it in my soul y’all, deep down in the pit of it where your being wishes to be recognized by another in epiphany of need. This was probably my first S/U slow burn if I think back but even if it’s not, it was definitely the first time I felt the pining of Spock so sharply. 5/5 single tear drops  

3. A Vulcan walks into a bar by Linstock

Ah, Lady Linstock is a talented miss. She not only uses her pen to write stories but draw them out at well. She has many fics to choice from but I went with this one because it was funny, sultry and to the point. This one shot perfectly illustrates the smokey dive of a bar Uhura finds herself in just as Steinbeck goes about describing his scenery. Sights, smells, sounds; everything is described in rich detail to transport the reader into the bar alongside her to witness her noticing him enter. Perfect for a lunch read or waiting in line. 5/5 Oh my’s

4. What we think we know by Notesfromaclassroom

This story was my first case of being like ‘ You Idiots! Just kiss already!’ and I loved every delicious word of it. Ripe with misunderstandings and miscommunication, the yearning to see these two together was SKRONG ( spelling intended) ya’ll! One of my favorite how did they meet/getting to know ya fics, the story is woven into a rich tapestry like every other fanfic Notes writes. I haven’t read all of her recent stories but this one will always hold a special place in my heart. 5/5 groans for people in love to get it together

5. The Ek'Tevan Prerogative by SimplyMare

I don’t think it will come as a surprise that I like to sip all the tea that anyone is willing to spill. Simply put I love drama and Simplymare brought me a TON of it with this monster fic. Wrecked does not begin to describe how I felt about seeing everything unfold when Vulcan hands down the prerogative to have every remaining Vulcan mate to revive their diminished population. Ruined forever by this but I needed a fic like this. I can’t even look at a compass without thinking about this story. 5/5 sobs into a pillow

6. Sexy Beast by Pink Elegance

My God. This. Story. Is. HAWT. HOT. HAUTE. Just all the hots! Mirrorverse whether TOS or AOS is always a favorite and Pinkie’s Spock knows how to get a lady all the hots and bothered. I would have saved this for the smut fic rec but honestly this sessy mess is unforgettable in all the ways. I won’t say much but I will say this: MirrorVerse, Dominate Spock, Prissy Uhura. 5/5 Protest of being a lady

7. Higher Gravity by PoorQueequeg

It’s no secret that I have an undying love for PoorQueequeg and her writing. Witty, Raunchy and Feel provoking are just a few of her many charms and her works of fiction always satisfy. Your brain probably thought of always as sometimes but my brain is saying ALWAYS. Back when I was pregnant with my second safu, PoorQueenie treated me with this fic because I wanted S/U and all things Vulcan. The vividness that she brings to the world of Vulcan took me out of my stuffy house and onto the multi-colored sand dunes of the Giant Red planet. Every chapter was like a new day of travel on a vacation and while Nyota suffered the gravity, thin air and heat of this world I was able to explore in the comfort of Earth. Even unfinished, it remains breathtaking and amazing. 5/5 awestruck

8. T’Du by Valyria

Of course I’m going to include one of the many gift fics Val wrote me; they’re amazing as she is! I chose this one because I am addicted to Jerk!Spock. There are plenty of misunderstandings but what makes it heady is how much of an alpha asshole he is. So while slightly OOC, I love reading Spock this way and reading chapter after chapter of Nyota taming his shrew ass. 5/5 need help.

9. Flawed Logic by PoorQueequeg

Srsly just read. While Sufficiently Familiar gets a lot more love, Flawed logic is near and dear to me as a series of sensual vignettes of our pair being domestic and lovey dovey coo coo birds. I also favor this one because they have lots of boyfriend girlfriend fights like normal folks. An absolute fav and royal gem. 5/5 illogically love it

10. Lies in Silence by slwmtiondaylite1

This was the first fic that I read that I believed to be incredibly dark that was also well written. There are plenty of dark/angsty fics out there but not all of them are well written ( I stand guilty of that charge as well with a few of my older fics) but the style and skill of this work shines out from that darkness. Here we get to see a Nyota and Spock at odds even as their drawn together in a cruel and heartless mirrorverse. 5/5 approve of this angst fest

11. The punishment of Ms. Uhura by Dearland

What can I say? I like my smut. And Dearland has one hell of a cheek warmer here in the punishment of Ms.Uhura. What starts out looking like an incredibly inappropriate abuse of power turns into a hot and steamy desk romp complete with sweet nothings and scenes that make your mouth run dry and have the wetness going elsewhere. 5/5 porn stars

12. The Experiment by thehopefuladdict

That first chapter slayed me, watered my crops, reset my edges, cured my acne and paid my muthafuckin bills. Lawd ha’ mercy that quad scene. 5/5 chile

13. Winds against a star by Valyria

Not only my first beta job but the first fanfic to bring me to tears. The Spock and Nyota of this story are fleshed out so well that I had no problem imagining them or their settings. Drama, Heat, suspense, and so much more. 5/5 in feel goods

14. Control by recumbentgoat

I had trouble finding this but the scenario was clear in my mind of Nyota getting ready to join the girls on the beach and Spock being all ‘ Where the hell you going in that 5/5 bleets of glee

15. Pride and Logic by DawnCadance

After looking at the title need I say more? Uppity attitudes, cutting remarks, shade for days, Nyota and Spock go and try and deny the obvious that they were meant to be together and that they’re stupid hot for each other even if the other one is being a dolt. 5/5 classical romance

16. Fire and Light by Yalegirl03

Jebus Christo, I wasn’t ready ya’ll!!!! I know that Yalegirl03 could throw down when it came to writing but at the same time I really didn’t though. Like I peeped her one day one AO3 and had my whole ass turned out. At prose she’s phenomenal, at style she is stellar and for evoking emotions regardless of how the reader is feeling she is villainous in her execution. Even if this story doesn’t do it for you ( for me it was damn near a one handed read) she has so many more, so many delightful stories that you have GOT to read, seriously. 5/5 blackgirlmagic

17. All the way around by DrHolland

Again we lost another one to another newer, hipper fandom but she has left us with brilliant pieces in the wake of her S/U fangirl romance. I love this story for some many reasons, one of which is that Spock is the one chasing Ny and Ny is the one that’s trying to be logical. Girl she does not give up that ghost easy but you know that ol’ boy woos her in the end. Also I’m a nut for the way she has him going gaga over Ny in general. 5/5 Marvin Gaye songs

Okay I should seriously stop so I have something left for a few more fridays, even though this is just the tip of the S/U fanfic iceburg. So many of you have brilliant fics that are just waiting to be discovered and I hope that writing these lists help marginally in that effort. LLAP, bitches.

@yalegirl03 @linstock-oz @myvulcanboyfriends-moms-necklace @valinde @poorqueequeg @slwmtiondaylite

SoRiKai: Through a Western Lense

The argument has been going on forever between the SoKai fans, the SoRiku fans, and the SoRiKai fans: what relationship is “canon” and who loves each other more. Personally, I feel the arguement is silly since the KH team has repeatedly made it known that they like the fans to ship whomever they want with, well, whomever they want. 
Normally I wouldn’t get involved, but there’s one aspect that’s been increasingly bothering me. The problem is that the argument revolves around a single instant: the reunion. I doubt I need a recap of the infamous tear-
jerker. The reason why this is a problem is that this scene is taken out of context for the series as a whole, and simplifies a very complex situation and set of emotions (which is what I love so much about the game in the first place). So, in the same style as my previous essay on Aqua, I’m going to bring some cultural context and remind me readers of some general story-telling devices, cliches, and etc to hopefully see this in a new light. 
For the necessary disclaimer: I am not advocating for any one ship. There will be some points where it will seem like I’m trying to push SoKai as the final verdict, but there’s a reason I’m doing this, and it is to prove a point for the later scene. If anything, I don’t think that scene proves anything as far as romantic intentions, but to explain why, I’m going to make a few quick points made in the game series leading up to this moment.
Let’s go back for a minute to the very first Kingdom Hearts game, before the idea of the “trio” was a standing trope through the series. It was a stand alone game with a simple plot-line and straight forward story, even as far as the relationships between the three main characters.
I’ll preface this with saying the plot line of having two same gender friends fighting over a potential love interest is a common storytelling device, no matter sex of the main characters. Two male leads fighting over a girl, or two girls fighting over a boy, ultimately leading to resolution of the two friends making up. And for a story featuring teens, this is hardly surprising. Kingdom Hearts actually subverts this, instead having Riku’s jealousy derive mostly from Sora’s company with Donald and Goofy and Riku’s antagonizing actions come from accusing Sora of not caring enough for Kairi.

While Kairi is indisposed, she can’t quell the arguments between Sora and Riku, and the boys instead turn on each other. When Kairi does finally awaken, Riku is already possessed so far that the only choice is to run, and they are unable to reconnect. The only chance Kairi has of interaction is with Sora, when she returns him to his true form.

Now a lot of people would like to point this out as their first embrace. However, I feel this is an inaccurate description. Kairi was not intending to ‘hug’ Sora, but to protect him- quite impressive when considering she’s just woken up from a coma and been faced with her other best friend’s possession. 

Because, in this video here (specifically at mark 4:35), please pay very, very close attention to this, because I cannot stress this enough:

Sora, until this moment has never hugged his friends. Not even the two best friends he grew up with. This is because in Japan, hugging (especially for males, and between males and females) is almost never done. Even among family members, this is a fairly rare form of affection with each other, even for emotional occasions. Nowadays its becoming a little more common and accepted, but in general, still not a common practice (except with girls). For us, this seems incredible and likely didn’t even cross many people’s minds when they saw this scene, but the important thing to note is that, for Destiny Islands at least, “hugging” isn’t something casually done among friends.
Now, let’s turn to Riku.
As much as people like to hate on Chain of Memories because of that confusing card system, there were very important plot points discussed in the game. Introducing the Organization of course, and the concept of the Nobodies, and Namine. On Sora’s side, he didn’t remember what transpired in the walls of Caslte Oblivion, not even when he had yet ANOTHER battle with Riku over a girl. (Please note he didn’t learn about the truth of the Replica until later.)

Riku, on the other hand, did remember everything.

It was his battle was with himself, and coming to terms with his actions and accepting Ansem’s darkness lurking inside of him. Yet he doesn’t “Accept the darkness” so much as “surrender his fate”. Leading up to the events of KH II, he needs to take in Roxas because he’s holding some of Sora’s memories hostage and preventing him from waking up. It’s the very same memories Sora decided to fall asleep to recover. Sora can’t wake up without memories of Kairi, because these are so important and precious to him. Riku knows this and is willing to succumb to the darkness to ensure his friend’s well- being and happiness, and as amends for his past crimes.
He spends the entirety of KH II running from Sora. He asks Mickey to look after him, hides in the shadows, and helps in tiny ways without ever revealing himself. He knows Sora is looking for him, but the thought of being seen with Ansem’s face is so abhorrent to him he stays out of sight, even as it worries Sora sick.
Now, while Sora’s been looking for Riku, Kairi’s been waiting for him on the islands. His biggest worry is when he’ll be able to return home to her. He doesn’t start worrying about her well-being until Axel attempts to take her from the islands, and then he blames himself for her danger, since its established that Kairi’s kidnapping is to rouse Sora’s anger and make him fight that much harder, since the Organization knows she’s precious to him.

While I’m sure some of you have already seen a post talking about this, I’m going to let you see it from another angle so you get the full impact:
When was the last time YOU got down on your hands and knees?
Have you ever asked your parents for something you wanted SO much you literally knelt down in front of them? What about with your friends? Did you do something so dreadful that only an apology on the very ground would suffice? Have you ever knelt down in front of your enemy, and BEGGED them not to hurt the people closest to you?
We can villainize Saix for rejecting Sora offering himself on a silver platter, but at least he acknowledged Sora’s sacrifice. He knew what the boy was offering and doing to ensure his friend was safe. But frankly, the people who completely forgot this scene, and blew it off thinking it wasn’t important are even worse. This is downright insulting to Sora and all his efforts, and his fears. But this point isn’t just about this scene, but to remind us of everything Sora has given up so far for Kairi’s sake before they meet up again. 
While initially shocked, Sora returned her embrace- an action he’s not used to, nor was he expecting. Now, its important to note that Riku is still present during this. Kairi’s initial instinct is to run and embrace Sora. Essentially, its their first talk and interaction once the heartless are gone. Now, up until this point Riku has witnessed:

Sora holding and protecting Kairi’s heart,
Sora sacrificing himself for Kairi,
Sora trusting his memories to Namine for Kairi,
Sora embracing Kairi in a romantic way after not seeing her for over a year.
So, tell me: who’s the most important person to Sora? The most natural answer, in that light, would be Kairi.
So, if that’s the case, why did the developers and the director decide to make Sora cry when he finally saw Riku again? The answer is actually pretty simple when you look at it from Riku’s perspective:

It was to make him stay.

Up until this point, Riku had either been fighting with Sora, or running from him. He had done terrible things, and was now a denizen of the Darkness forever. There was no hope to save him, no chance for true redemption. Sora and Kairi belonged together in the light. Back home, and out of danger. Riku didn't belong with them anymore. Besides, they’d be happy together. Sure, maybe Kairi forgave him, and Sora had been looking for him, but that was just how they were. Once Riku left for good and they returned, they’d grow to be happy together, without him making things even harder.

…in case that wasn’t clear, that was Riku’s perspective.

I’m not a screen writer involved with the team, but out of all my obsessing and analyzing of these characters and these games, I’m wholly convinced that even after Sora found the truth, and said how happy he was to see him, Riku would have found an excuse to break away and leave, especially considering all the time he’d done that already. Seeing Sora so emotionally upset and broken over seeing him again made him realize just how important he actually was to Sora, even after everything he’d done to him. Sora had already sacrificed so much for Kairi over and over again, Riku and the viewers needed to see something that was on par with that, and settle their old fight with a solid resolution.
And of course, even with Sora sobbing his eyes out, note how he touches him:

Hands only. No hugging. No romantic feelings intended.
Now, of course, there will be people who will likely blow off this essay and say that the scene is still proof of the romantic inclination. Frankly, I wonder why people can’t just be satisfied with a really sweet and touching scene between two best friends with a (somewhat) healthy expression of feelings between two males (riku could still learn a thing or two about that). But please note that I’m not anti SoRiku, and if you want to ship them, that’s fine. What I don’t like is the simplification and belittling of these character’s ordeals. Saying “oh he cried because he loves him romantically” just completely pushes away Sora’s very raw experiences of doubt, fear, worry, and shedding his mask to reveal the trauma he went through worrying about his friends. Not to mention blows off the very real sacrifices he made for Kairi’s sake. 
While no one means anything badly by it, you’re basically saying: “He cried because he’s gay. Straight guys shouldn’t cry, especially for each other.”
Now matter how you see that, its pretty discriminatory and sexist, not to mention rooted in a horribly unhealthy culture that stigmatizes men to express themselves in a naturally human way.

Now, on that note: why didn’t Sora have a similar reaction to Kairi if he was SO worried about her? Because then he’d be treated as a whiny little crybaby.

It’s not manly to cry in front of your girlfriend.
In any form of media anywhere, have you ever seen the male protagonist cry over his female love interest in ANY situation that didn’t result in death? Even if she dies, it’s usually an excuse for the male character to become angry and want to exact vengeance or something. This game was created for male wish fulfillment, and guys don’t want to cry over their girlfriends. (Plus there’s that whole “friendships between boys are so much more sacred” thing in Japan anyway, but I digress.)
And I will sum up with this because I KNOW people will reblog trying to retort this: yes, I know you’ll want to point out scenes in 3D to prove the romantic intentions. Especially including the very end when Sora jumped Riku to hug him completely.

That, my friends, is called queer-baiting, and its something developers and storytellers do when they know their fans will lap it up and further feed their sales and ensure loyalty. (Yes, even using Dearly Beloved, and ESPECIALLY with the paopu charm with the limit. They knew the fans would search for little details like that. Also, need I remind that Aqua’s use of the wayfinders in BBS was for purely platonic purposes, even though they were modeled after the paopu legends. Destinies don’t have to be romantic to be intertwined.)

Point is, you all fell for it hook, line, and sinker.

Ya’ll wanna argue that Sora and Kairi’s hug was ‘awkward’ but for Pete’s sake, Riku didn’t even hug Sora back. If ANY embrace was platonic, it was this one. Please note that even with Sora’s enthusiasm, Riku did not once 1) seem shocked or touched, 2) hug him back. Sora’s gotten used to giving affection with Donald and Goofy. Riku… just tolerates it.

I love SoRiKai, and really any variation of it. So no, I’m definitely not bashing the SoRiku ship since its one of my guilty pleasures. But I find different elements and clues to have them romantically involved. Also, I’m just trying to give another perspective on this perpetual war between the shippers.

The 100 4x09 DNR

I most definitely did not cry, nope. I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Okay, fine, I cried. Harper and monty, raven and Murphy man……made me cry so bad….and that goodbye with Harper jasper and Bellamy………fuck

First, let me start with the Harper and Monty scene. Him staying behind for Harper, I just. Ughhh, I may be a hopeless romantic, but when she saw monty standing there, I died. They’re so cute together, and for him to make that decision because of how much he loves her……..I’m just concerned that all my favorite characters are going to start dying. This show is fucking me up.

Next, the Goodbye between Harper, Jasper, and Bellamy. First of all, let me note that this is one of the first times we really saw them forgive Bellamy. Sure there was 4x08, but it was “forgiveness” as much as an “were all dying so I don’t give a shit”. I love how Bellamy still sticks up for the 100. How he understands what they want. He said it was their choice, and they they pretty much deserved to decide their fate, and I’m glad he got Jaha to see that. And that “whatever the hell you want”, man that messed me up. Bringing it back. Jasper might not be my favorite character, but I actually kind of enjoyed him today.

Now the Raven and Murphy scene. That was the one that made me cry the most. The others were my eyes tearing up, but this was full out crying. When he apologized for shooting her, and she immediately told him it wasn’t his fault, I got so emotional. And Raven saying she could deal with losing a leg but not her mind. WHY DO THEY DO THIS TO ME??? I can’t even describe it because this scene made me so sad, it really pulled at my feels. Murphy seemed like he was gonna cry when he talked to Raven, and Raven did cry and seeing two characters I love so vulnerable it just made me cry.


anyway, next week apparently(HOPEFULLY) Bellamy steps up in a big way for Octavia, according to Marie Avgeropoulos. What do you think that is, honestly?

1. Some think it’s that he’s going to get hurt trying to save Octavia, now that he realizes she’s back, and she wants to be there. I thought that too, but now I’m not so sure.

2. The more I think of it, “stepping up” doesn’t have to be him protecting Octavia. It could simply be him telling Octavia that she doesn’t need his protection anymore, and that he wants her to do what she wants, not what he wants for her.

3. It could also potentially mean if Octavia gets into trouble with Azgeda or anyone in Polis, since she had killed people, that he sticks up for her and gets her out of trouble. It completely contradicts what I just said above, but it’s another possibility.

(And that cute platonic bellarke moment there…….I was hoping for a more dramatic reunion but this’ll do)

I’m still waiting for a murphamy reunion btw

anonymous asked:

What did Jaime mean in his last line 'I don't believe you'? I'm a bit confused by it, I'm not sure if I've missed something. Thought you would have a good perspective on the scene!

I think it’s referring to her threat of letting him get killed by the mountain. You can clearly see in his eyes how confused, angry but especially sad he is that Cersei would even dare to think of killing him but still he refuses to believe she would ever give the ultimately command to kill him, and he’s right, she could never kill him, like she couldn’t even get tyrion killed, after all, their still the last ones of her family. But with Jaime it’s even more harder for her because he’s not only her brother, but her life long lover, the man she loves the most, the father of her children, you can even see how angry and sad she is, all she wanted was to make him stay by threatening him but he still leaves and that she run after him, about to shout something but couldn’t bring herself to do it, probably holding back tears, shows how hard it is to see Jaime, “the love of her life”, the man she loves in a very fucked up way but still loving him truly, walking from her, leaving her alone by his own choice for the first time in her life after all he did was giving his own life for her since their children. There’s so much emotion in this scene that’s why I loved it so much AND WHY AM I TALKING MORE THAN I SHOULD AGAIN I’m so sorry, people should stop asking me questions, it always ends up a mess.

you know how emotionless that break up scene was between lawrence and ronnie? well it just reminds me of how much chemistry and how much emotion and energy both danny and ryan bring to their scenes.

when aaron and robert ended my mum was legit nearly in tears because ‘gosh they do love each other though’

when ronnie and lawrence ended my mum was legit in tears because it was the funniest shit she’s ever seen was a hot mess.

Final Thoughts on FFXV

So, I finished the game a few days ago and needed an outlet for my thoughts and feelings because oh man did Chapter 14 bring the feels train fast and hard. To the point where I am giving PSA’s at work about it to my co workers who are playing the game.


Before I start, I just want to say that I had been following the game development for a few years now and was undecided after playing the Platinum demo how much I was going to like the game.  I am a traditionalist when it comes to Final Fantasy games and when they change things to much I don’t like it (looking at you X-2).  So when I saw the battle system I was a little skeptical that I would like it.  But none the less I gave it a chance especially after all the hype and how well done the Brotherhood anime was.


With that said, there a few things I need to get off my lady chest:


- The throw away dialog and puns in this game were just everything. (What are you my mother?  Mums the word ahahaha)  And the animation in battles and while driving were so fantastic (Ie when your driving Gladio and Prompto start plugging their nose and getting mad at Noctis like he farted in the car.  Like omg lol that is such a bro thing I can’t even.)


- I am fairly certain Regis somehow sabotaged the car to delay the journey long enough so they wouldn’t be anywhere near the Crown City when the NIff’s pulled their bull shit.  I mean Cid more or less implies it in the game and Regis doesn’t seem that stupid to not know it was a trap and wanted to save his son. (hence why the wedding was to be in Altissia)


- How did Gladio get his orginal scars?  Did he get into a fight about cup of noodles defending their honor?  Also what the fuck happened when he went off those few days on his own.  I mean I have theories (see my post below about Gladio and the Cup of Noodles cult) but damn it I will riot in the streets if his DLC doesn’t explain it.


- I really want to know more about the girl Galdio is seeing 10 years later.  I mean he is obviously smitten with her to bring her up to them the eve of their taking the city back.


- Iris is queen.


- Prompto’s heart belongs to Cindy.


- Prompto’s heart also belongs to Noctis (I didn’t get Promptis until I played the game and my god do I ship it.  I ship it so hard.)


- Is it ever explained why Cor is called Cor the Immortal?  Maybe his DLC will explain it but I imagine it’s because either he is really immortal or its a derogatory term used towards him because he always seems to miss the big battles?  I am thinking the later because he doesn’t seem to happy about being called that.


- I feel like Noctis and Luna had this Romeo and Juliet thing going on for awhile.


- I wish they went into their relationship more in the game…I mean obviously there was more to this engagement than just political reasons.  They obviously cared for each other.


- The Chocobo side quests were everything in this game.  I mean they might be my favorite Chocobos in a final fantasy game of all time.


- I may or may not have driven the Regalia in first person view so I could turn the camera directly on Ignis and just stare at that beautiful man’s face for hours.


- “That’s it!  I’ve discovered a new receipe” will now become a trigger of mine.


- Sorry Phichit from Yuri on Ice!! but Prompto Argentum is the new king of selfies.


- Also sooooooo many butt shots in this game.  I mean come on Prompto….we get it you have a thing for butts…expecially Glaido’s butt.


- Prompto really did take the best pictures.  I mean dude’s got a gift. (Also I was undecided if I was going to enjoy this feature in the game but my god if it was not my favorite thing to do out of all the guys special skills.  I loved to see what pictures Prompto took today)


- Speaking of Prompto…all this time I thought his insecurities stemmed from being a ackward fat kid (can so relate to that) but nope, not at all.  Dude had the darkest back story of the game.  I mean after Chapter 13 I just wanted to bundle him up and protect him at all costs.


- Also, apparently he was adopted as a baby but how did he know he was an MT?  Did he just make the connection while they were traveling or did he always know?  Or did Ardyn tell him?  So unclear.


- In the beginning I kind of hated Noctis.  I thought he was just this emo trash kid who was sheltered in life and didn’t want to grow up.  But by the end of it all I was literally on my knees bowing to the almighty true king.  I mean jesus did he redeem himself in the end.


- I’m not ok with the fact that Prompto never met Lunafreya or saw Pryna again.


- I was more upset about Ignis going blind than I was about Luna getting stabbed.


- Ignis being blind the rest of the game was worse than if they just killed him off.  It was so sad to play pretty much 4 chapters watching him struggle.


- I am fairly sure Cid lived with Ignis during the 10 years Noct was gone.  Like Ignis took him in and took care of him while they were in Lestallum.  Iggy is such a stand up guy.


- Ardyn just screamed stranger danger throughout the whole game.  I mean in Lestallum I was screaming at my tv for them to not go with him.  Like really that red convertible was literally a big white shady van.


- Also I feel no sympathy for Ardyn at all.  He was a sick twisted mother fucker.  I mean he had the images of all his ‘kills’ hanging above the thrown.  That is a sick and twisted man-demon.

- However I do feel sympathy for Ravus.  Poor bastard loved Luna so much and was really the casualty of this shitty war between Lucis and Niffilheim.


- The Final Fantasy call backs in this game we great (the soundtracks from old games, Wedge, Biggs, the Spira bank etc etc)

- Noctis sitting on the throne after defeating Ardyn killed me so much.  He was so strong and just accepted his fate.  Poor guy never had a chance for anything else.  God damn destiny.


- Nothing in life has ever made me cry sobbing ugly tears like the camp fire scene during the credits.  I mean I was crying the minuet they were all sitting there silent not wanting to bring up the big white elephant in the room and then Noct just telling them he made peace with his fate and fucking Prompto just sobbing and god damn it even Galdio had tears in his eyes I just couldn’t take it.  It was too much.  I am still not over it and never will be.  I re-watched the scene again on Youtube a few times and I still ugly cry.  No scene in a video game has ever made me that emotional before.


- The scene at the end with Luna and Noct I thought was nice but so sad.  Why couldn’t the six just grant them their lives back for being so pure and good?


- Also, I am certain the chocobros lived.  I think the scene in the afterlife was just Ardyn hallucinating and Noct drawing on their bond to finish them off.  Otherwise why all the emphasis on rebuilding and Gladio making note of the structures being save able and the whole walk tall speech?  Noct was leaving the rebuilding process to them.


- My ending head cannon would be Noct and Luna coming back and the chocobro’s meeting them on the steps of the Citadel and everyone reuniting and Noctis introducing her as his fiance and Luna healing Ignis’s eyes so that he can finally see dawn and everyone giving Gladio shit about the girl he’s been seeing and then teasing Prompto about pursuing Cindy for 10 years.



In the end I got an epic bro road trip that turned into a runaway feels train that came crashing down hard.


But I still loved the game anyways.

Musings on Engeki Haikyuu: Winners and Losers

Another random collection of thoughts during personal subtitles for Hyper Projection Engeki Haikyuu: Winners and Losers. Updated whenever.


  • The music for this stage play is beautiful.
  • Aoba Johsai’s (and Oikawa’s) theme is just so… graceful.
  • Suga’s look when Kageyama came back to play. He was so proud… but so heartbroken at the same time that he couldn’t keep playing with the team.
  • Iwa-chan cares so much for Oikawa. See how hard he worked to show Oikawa that the team with the better six was stronger.
  • The music during Iwaizumi’s “Oikawa is not a genius” speech moved me to tears. Why couldn’t he have had his chance at Nationals…
  • You can hear Suga’s lack of confidence when he replaces Kageyama during the match. Did they just bring him in because Kageyama was doing poorly? Would they have, if they had another setter?
  • They made me relive the “Kenma, is the losing team weak?” montage with Dateko and Ikejiri. WHY.
  • When I time, I rely on the audio spikes to determine when sentences stop and start. It’s cruel and unusual punishment to force me to listen through Karasuno sobbing because the lines are so quiet that they don’t have spikes.
  • Karasuno has me on the edge of tears… but it’s always Aoba Johsai’s loss that does it for me. Oikawa and Iwa-chan, they never go to Nationals. Think about that.