This topic to me is a very delicate topic, something which I really didn’t want to talk on at first, but I feel sharing my story would help others out there.
It started around March last year, after getting back some of my results in the 2nd year of my Law degree. I got a result which I really wasn’t too pleased with and I was so close to taking drastic actions like dropping out of the LLB because of the stress I was going through at the time.
I thought nothing of it at first but I would feel butterflies in my stomach and would wonder why this was happening to me. It became more frequent to the point where even seeing a notification on my phone would trigger it. I had no clue on who to go to, or who to talk to about it. So I did some research and realised the symptoms were in line with Anxiety.
At first I couldn’t believe it, I thought I could brush it off and the feelings would go, it just kept on getting worse, I stopped eating for a period of time and then secluded myself from everyone, Thinking it would help me. I finally decided that I would talk to my mother on this, being the person I am, I don’t like to put stress on my parents, I want to deal with it on my own. But it helped me significantly, being able to talk to her about it. Talking to someone you trust about what’s making you anxious can help. You may find that they have encountered a similar problem and can talk you through it. It may be that just having someone listen to you and showing they care, can help in itself.
The constant worry that went through my mind, the fears, not reaching my full potential would go run through my mind. It became apart of me to be expecting a “flight and drop” that’s how bad it felt.
Things that worked for me, were breathing exercises and listening to music or creating music. I had to try and conquer my negative thoughts and have a constant battle in my mind that I will succeed.
This experience changed my outlook on life and made me realise that our Mental health is just as important as our physical health. DO NOT take it for granted, look after your mental health, be selfish with it, it is extremely important.
I know that it doesn’t come just like that, but take it every step at a time, it’s a marathon not a sprint.
Every time you think of something good, congratulate yourself, every time you conquer your fear, congratulate yourself. This is your journey, you’re overcoming the battle day by day.