this project is becoming my life right now. ; ;

Hello all This is an update and somewhat a break regarding the tumblrs future and yes I am breaking away from the character description I started adding to each post.

As some of you who have followed the tumblr will know late last year I tried experimenting with a potential friendship problem adventure story that I had fun drawing with some of the scenariosI put book horse and apple horse in XD . But honestly since the beginning have struggled to come up with a humorous idea on how to warp it up. Not only that but in the recent months I have found myself losing interest or getting slightly stressed on what else I can do with Twi and AJ weekly This tumblr was inspired by Rarijack daily and I though Twijack would be a breeze but its not ,thats partly because I want to keep the images close to the cannon as possible and leave really shippy images to other twijack fans.

This is going to sound silly but I sort have lost my drive to make anything MLP at the moment, though considering I have been with the pony train since early 2011 you have to cut me some slack to essentially take a break from the world of Equestria and focus on other fandoms and personal projects which I have a lot of passion for right now )You can blame Anime for this ^^;). My new direction in my Life is to go in to Picture book / comics as a professional and I can not let side projects like Twijacky weekly eat up all my spare time then I desperately want to have something  unique original to do with jowybean. Now I am in no way shape or form saying I am leaving the fandom or going to become an antibrony I still find ideas popping in to my head for future  pony art and twijack images. I just find everything about MLP G4 kind of Meh at the moment.

Now regarding this information the tumblr is not stopping either its just not going to continue the friendship problem storyline or be updated weekly.  From now on it will be updated with cute sketches or illustrations of the duo only if I think they would make a great addition to the roster of Twijacky imagery I have previously made. I imagine when the new pony season and movie rolls around the inspiration will come rushing back to me and the enjoyment for the tumblr will be refilled :).

I apologise if this annoys/ disappoints you in anyway as i did the exact thing when I attempted luna comic in 2013-2014 and stopped that because well big fan projects for me are hard too keep on top of. I have been drawing way before G4 ponies was a thing guys and I have so many wonderful opportunities as a professional artist that I need to take advantage of before I regret missing them because of being a crony artist.

I feel more assured that I am sharing this with you now rather then letting it die slightly or press on and make it a chore that drains me. If i kept forcing the lacklustre twijack work guys, you would tell I was running dry on ideas soon enough. MLP just dose not have the same magic I felt for it in the early days and eventually it will in some way fade away for me. not ever die out just become another thing I enjoyed being a part of like any other geek thing in our life’s, trends come and go and its a natural response as time moves forward and we grow up in this crazy world.

Whatever happens with me and my love for MLP I applause the diehard fans that can enjoy everything pony to the fullest. And I am am very grateful for so many people taking the time and interest to follow this silly tumblr for two characters I really like.  

until next post which hopefully will not be too long Laters and bro hoof Jowybean

Real life, I’m sad to see you go.

This was supposed to be a painting for Adam’s birthday but I finished it last night and couldn’t make myself wait to upload it. Actually, I started on this last year and it was gonna be for his 30th but oh well… better late than never haha 

If I could say something directly to Adam, I could just sum it all up with a “thank you.” He’s been such a wonderful, positive, and uplifting presence/influence in my life for like 7 or 8 years now…in so many ways. From inspiring the vast majority of my artwork and stories in the past few years, to helping me cope with the harsh world and reality, making me feel like I’m not alone, to helping me recognize what a Holiness man should be like(and a Christian in general), reminding me of what’s important and always making me laugh! 

It’s such a blessing to have Adam’s music (and Adam) in my life and I honestly, truly, madly, deeply have no idea where I would even be right now if it (and he) wasn’t. Adam Young and his projects have become such a large and important element woven into the fabric of my life that if I don’t shut up now I won’t stop talking about it. :P

iseangeity  asked:

So when will your continuation of sweet, salty, spicy, sweet going to happen? Cuz I read it more times than I care to admit and I want more! Seriously. I'm dying here. <-ha! Get it? Yes, please appease this dork that laughs at their own jokes 😜

why hello there, new friend! 

don’t hate me, but s4 (which is what i’ve been calling it because"sweet, salty, spicy, sweet” is a pain in the ass to write out all the time) is kind of on hold right now, because my life has literally been consumed by a kara/diana fic i foolishly thought i’d be able to write quickly. i know it’s obscure, but it’s become a really special project to me and i just can’t abandon it. :/

to be honest though, i know that fic is going to take a very long time to finish, and i don’t really have an audience for that like i do with s4… so i will probably continue working on part 4 whenever i get stuck on my other fic. but i really don’t know when that will be, unfortunately.

As more and more of what I’ve been working on recently becomes public more and more questions roll in asking if Boxer Hockey and Diesel are just dead now.  I keep meaning to do a write up or explanation but every time I do I just can’t get the words right.  The flat truth is that I’ve just been going through some real personal shit this year.  My whole life has been flipped on it’s head and it’s all I can do just to keep a roof over my head right now.  And sadly beloved personal projects have yet to do that for me in a stable way.  I’m very fortunate that finding work hasn’t been a problem but some stuff has just had to be put on pause for a little while as I try and find some stability.

So the short answer is no, they are not dead.  Everything I’m doing now is working towards a future where I can happily tell my own stories the way I want.  Hopefully you’ll still be around when that time comes.  In the meantime I hope you can find some enjoyment from whatever else I’m working on.  Bravest Warriors, Megaman, Sonic, and other books and TV shows that will be announced in due time.

Thank you for sticking around.

Why Disney shouldn’t NOT and make Elsa a Lesbian and shouldn’t give in to the demands

Ok so I didn’t exactly know how to title this and give the tone that I’m gonna write this with, but whatever. I wanted to give my opinion on this subject in the future, but given the recent events with GLAAD and the trend of the topic, I feel this is the time to speak. Now I know people is gonna be offended by this, personally I am not homophobic, I could care less what kind of genitals you are into but let’s be honest people find anything to be offended nowadays, I hope however that the point is understood as a matter that has nothing to do with denying a sexuality.

There’s a lot I want to say here so this is actually rather long. If it seems I’m pissed off it’s because hell yeah I’m pissed off about all this absurdity. So why do I think this is a horrible idea? and why do I say that this would effectively ruin Elsa?. Well let’s start with a clear fact, telling an artist to do something on their artwork because you want it is always a big no. Frozen is an artwork, as a movie, as a fiction story, no matter how commercial it is and that’s why we loved it on the first place. Fiction is one of the art forms that suffers the most  from letting the will of the author slip away, we can’t ask that for Frozen.

Frozen needs to keep it’s artistic integrity. No, I’m not saying that it would lose artistic integrity due “having gay people on it”, no, it would lose it’s artistic integrity by turning into a form of activism tool in order to pander a group that apparently doesn’t even care for it’s art root. The nature of the movie is in the storytelling, the craft of a world and characters that we love, not in the intention of portraying “a first something” to appease a group of people.

This way Frozen shouldn’t turn into a tool to serve an agenda, no matter how good the intentions of said agenda are. Frozen will be best by being “Frozen”, by being a medium to deliver a social project. And yes, right now Frozen, Elsa , LiG has become a symbol of liberation that has been used by the LGBT community as well as many others, and that’s great, it’s great Frozen helps people but that’s the nature of the story it doesn’t meant it was written and evolved specifically for that , it doesn’t mean the story was planned with the purpose of activism which is what is being asked now.

I do not believe on this whole representation deal. I respect that some do believe and want that but I consider it bullshit. My entire life I do not recall knowing any character physically, etc… “like me”  , for many reasons that I will not disclose, despite my love for fiction in all forms. That however did not stop me from relating to so many awesome characters that perhaps at first sight are nothing like me. I’ve related to blacks, whites, asians, latinos, a plethora of sexualities, females, robots even animals. That’s because we shouldn’t care about the fact that “they look like me” or “they like the same gender as I do”, no, a character is not great because of that stuff, and it’s silly to pretend that sharing such superficial trait should make it important to us. A character is great and we relate because of the characters motivations, actions, personality , values etc… I mean isn’t that why we’re fighting against discrimination on the first place? to see the entire world by those traits? then why is it that we’re fighting for more characters to be written superficially like us instead of demanding characters to be WELL written, period?.

I’d like to take the example of Chadwick Boseman. When asked how he felt playing a black superhero that black kids could look up to, he responded that it was great and all but he hoped that kids from all ethnicities could see themselves and learn from the character. That’s what we should aspire to.

Let’s be realistic here, the intention of Frozen creators was never to make Elsa “secretly gay” “under the nose of Disney”, do you really think the writers for this WDAS movie had that in mind at the hour of creating the character? before the premier Jen Lee even tweeted how good Elsa and Ralph would look together and an animator made a wedding for them. Frozen was also not meant to have a sequel at the beginning since WDAS doesn’t do sequels and Frozen was considered a Tangled-like success at best, leaving no room for a planned future development on that direction. So yes, Elsa appearing attracted to women on the sequel would indeed be “making her” or “turning her” into a lesbian. We all know, we all can guess and see that the intention behind of such action would not be purely artistic.

Elsa has an arc already that’s about self discovery and acceptance, it has touched all kinds of people beyond the LGBT side. Why would they limit her reach now?, why would they do basically repetition of such arc just to focus on the LGBT issues, Elsa’s arc already touches such problems so why is Frozen asked to be more specific?. Has everything that Elsa taught us and touched us with not enough?, was she never really this amazing character that represented self discovery and acceptance? were we lying and just seeing her singleness as a sign of being gay and as the best of her?. Yes the writers have said they want to touch today’s issues on Frozen 2, but they’ve already touched the issue of feeling and being different, are we really just asking them to be more specific because such lessons are only important when it’s about LGBT causes?.

Let’s also talk about the current story. The focus and the reason why so many fell in love with this movie is the familiar bond on it. The movie was meant to portray familiar love  rather than center around romance like oh so many stories before it, and Frozen nailed it. Now let’s not kid ourselves, as soon as Elsa tuns into a lesbian the focus changes, it’s no longer “the franchise that’s all about familiar love and what goes beyond just romance” to “the franchise that finally got gay people into disney/the disney franchise that talks about homosexuality”. And I ask why should this happen?, why something that is already beloved and that has touched so many people should turn into something else in favor of activism? how is that fair? both for the story and the fans of it.

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SAMANTHA MAURER

Samantha Maurer is a CalArts Character Animation student, a former Regular Show intern, and a roller derby league member who goes by Sailor Doom. What we’re trying to say is there is nothing this girl can’t do. 


Muse’s Milk: Tell us your story.

Samantha Maurer: I grew up in Northern California just inland of the Bay Area in a lil’ farm town. Since my town was super small and desolate I didn’t really have an opportunity to formally “do art” until high school. When I finally got into my first art class I had a super great art teacher who pushed me to try a lot of different things. I ended up driving to Oakland on the weekends to take figure drawing and oil painting classes at CCA. Eventually I changed high schools and attended an art program within a high school in Marin and did a semester away from that at a boarding school in Napa called Oxbow.

All of these opportunities let me explore different ways of thinking and creating and helped guide my art towards design and animation. Currently, I am a third year at CalArts in the Character Animation program.

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Mary McDonnell and James Duff REDDIT Chat

Hi Reddit! Mary McDonnell here!
I have been many women in many different times. I’m currently Captain Sharon Raydor on Major Crimes, was the president of the universe on Battlestar Galactica, and a hard headed Stands With a Fist out on the prairie (to name a few).
With Season 4 of Major Crimes now in its second half, I’m here with show creator James Duff to answer your questions! So…. ask us anything!

Here I report the Reddit Chat Questions which were answered!

SaraChristelle
Why does Rusty seem so hesitant when it comes to Sharon and Andy’s relationship ? He seemed quite supportive of them last winter, and it’s obvious that Andy isn’t like the other guys his biological mother dated.

James: I would say that the pattern in which Rusty grew up included violence and abuse whenever another adult male was entered into his domestic situation. And the pattern creates issues. The pattern supersedes our intelligent observations because it’s not connected to the thinking part of the brain and he’s reacting to the pattern. He’s unconsciously unable not to react to the pattern. This is true in terms of his psychology. It’s an instinctive response, not a thoughtful one.
The truth is he does like Andy and he does want Sharon and Andy to be happy, but he has an instinctual issue that he can’t quite control.

ilonarcari
Mary, You’ve been so kind and generous with fans lately and for that I want to thank you. What is your favorite part of interacting with us?

Mary: I think my favorite part of interacting with the fans is that I learn a lot about how our show is doing, but also I learn about what the fans are interested in and it’s kind of given me an insight that puts all the work into a different point of view.
Prior to these years, the last thing you ever did was communicate with fans. We were kept in a bubble.
I feel more interested in the relevance of the material that we are doing. You get instant feedback on it. I find it fun and stimulating.
Thank you, Ilona – we love you!

plaguerat87
A question for both of you – Do you think Jack still loves Sharon? Or did his love for her die down many years ago and he’s just manipulated her all these years out of need to feed his addictions?

James: I think he loved Sharon very much, but didn’t know how to handle the responsibilities of a spouse and eventually his faults overwhelmed his virtues in the eyes of his wife.
Mary: My impression of their past is that these people fell very deeply in love. When Jack’s addictions became bigger than Jack, the love doesn’t die when you’re in love with someone who’s addicted, you just have to steer yourself out of dealing with it because you’re risking your life. You’re risking your soul.
James: And there couldn’t be so much anger if there wasn’t a lot of love.

the-scully-effect
Dear Mary and James, It seems like a lot of the stories you’ve both told are those of growing up and coming into one’s self. What advice do you have for young people- college age or so- who are still trying to figure that out?

James: The two things I would say, as a writer, who worked very hard for a very long time before I got to where I wanted to be is that persistence and discipline are the bulwark of any project and there is no substitute for pursuing your work with industry.
Mary: Lean into things that people tell you are too challenging. If you don’t play it safe, you’ll find a lot of joy.

Kadi219
James – With Rusty’s transfer to UCLA coming up. Could this be an opportunity to look at a possible move into a dorm for him? I love this character – and I would love to see what being on his own, with all that Sharon (and the others) have taught him would look like. Will we get to see how he takes those lessons and applies them as he steps into adulthood?

James: Sharon and Rusty are not going to stop living together. It’s very expensive to live in a dorm. I know because I paid for someone to live in a dorm at UCLA just last year. So, the benefits of living at home and going to college are too enormous to overlook.
However, you are going to see Rusty growing into adult relationships. And Sharon is going to be an ongoing part of his maturation process.
Mary: I love the compatibility of young adults with parental figures and there’s a whole new energy that could emerge in those years. You end up experiencing each other side by side instead of in a meshed independent way. I am looking forward to understanding Rusty as an adult from more of a distance than Sharon has been able to view him. They’re very compatible, Sharon and Rusty.

Straight_outta_MCFG
to Mary: What’s the most important lesson that you learned from Sharon Raydor?

Mary: She’s taught me an awful lot. But, she’s required me to kind of bump up against the part of Mary that gets explored through Sharon – she has a hard time letting go and sort of letting change occur. She’s taught me a lot about trusting forward movement and letting go of things that seem unsafe.
James: I think that’s exactly right because in her old job, Sharon has responsibilities that required her to order people around in a ‘I don’t care what you think about it way.’ Her new job is more of a listening role. She’s there to assemble the information and create a strategy.
Fortunately she developed a very thick skin.

JulesMangoFilm
Question for both of you: Can you tell us some more info about the five-parter without giving away too much? Totally excited about this 😀

James: A new crime involving heroin, other drugs, gangs, the lower response time to live fire incidents, and a missing Uzi link Major Crimes back to a series of murders from 12 years ago involving the death of a LAPD officer that was never solved. Rushing to make an arrest before a gang war can start, Sharon confronts the most complicated case of her career.
Finding out you have five more episodes before breaking, there was a mixture of cheers and tears in the writers room because we were all getting ready to take some time off!

plaguerat87
Will we get to see one of Shandy’s dates?

James: You will see Shandy out together if we see another season. And you will also see Rusty out with someone too.

jayzhelle
Hi Mary. Is there an adjustment on how you portray sharon raydor now that she is finally in a relationship with andy?

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Mary: The adjustment is simply that she has had to expand the way she thinks about her response to daily life. In other words, before she opened her heart to Andy the job was the job. She has to sort of check herself to stay clear-minded about it. It is an adjustment, indeed. I don’t know that she is always aware of it, but I have noticed it.

CaptBAMF
Happy Guy Fawkes from London! My question is for both of you; what are your favourite art galleries and / or museums in the USA or around the world?

James: I love the Louvre, the Metropolitan in NY and the Getty in LA.
Mary: I love the Louvre, I love the Getty and I love the Museum of Natural History in New York.
James: I also love the Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam. I love the Picasso museum in Paris.
Mary: The Rodin Museum in Paris.
James: AND the Cloisters in New York. AND Musée de Cluny in Paris.
Unfortunately neither Mary nor James have ever been to Florence :-(.

Straight_outta_MCFG
To James: Do you have some ritual to turn on your creative process of writting? How do you process all your ideas about the characters?

James: I can’t wait for my creative juices to start flowing. I write for a living. Inspiration is helpful, but I can’t afford to wait for it. For material I usually look for things I don’t like about myself, so I never run out of something to write about.

DistractibleYou
Hi both of you! Thanks for this. Will we see Emily and Ricky Raydor again this season?

James: Unfortunately, no because we don’t get all the way to Christmas this year on our Fall order. So we will look for them again next season.

lilacgirl35
Hi Mary! What is your favorite play that you have performed in?

Mary: I just absolutely adored an experience I had recently doing Chekhov’s The Cherry Orchard.
I think out of all the plays I have done… I was in a production of a Midsummer Night’s Dream, directed by David Chambers. There was a pool on stage and when the lovers were chasing each other through the forest, people were diving into the pool and disappearing. It was a highlight of my theatrical career!

DeQuana21
Is there a legend that either of you would love to work with, that you haven’t had the chance to yet?

James: I have three names. Matt Damon, who I think is one of the most amazing actors working today. Eddie Redmayne, who is so perfect for so many different things. And Judi Dench. I would like to work with Judi just to meet her. There are so many people though!
Mary: I really want to work with Robert De Niro! I would love to work with his energy before I’m too old to do any of it :-).

quintessential3
Hi James – I was wondering if the experience you’ve had with the fans has changed between The Closer and Major Crimes, and in what ways?

James: The fans of Major Crimes are much closer to the show and much closer to us and much more involved in an immersive way than they were with The Closer. People have embraced the entirety of the show and that has made a huge difference in my own personal relationship with viewers. And Mary has such a centered view of where she stands inside all this that I feel like she offers the audience the kind of stability they wish they had in life. And that center I think has become a gravitational force for our show.
Mary: It’s really great going from the villain to the hero! People now like to see me :-).

Ashley9552
Dear Mary and James, do you have any projects you would like to do when you aren’t filming Major Crimes?

James: Yes, I have a feature film adaptation of a play I would like to do. Not my own play, someone else’s play. We’re negotiating for the rights to do that right now!
Mary: I am in the process of developing a screenplay with two gentlemen I met through a wonderful film that I am beginning to help with at this point and hoping to produce.

ardentnight
Aside from Andy’s surgery, can you give us more insights on what will happen in the thanksgiving episode?

James: I think there’s a road rage incident that tests Sharon’s ability to see past the surface and understand the darker motives of the human heart. And consider all the things that could be said that are not said. And how that impacts her final scene with Andy in that episode.
Mary: Well you know it’s the tricky part for me is that I can never remember the episode until someone stimulates it like you’ve just done! I do remember that final scene and I do remember Sharon having that very human dilemma of not being able to complete something in the way she would like it to have been completed. It’s an imperfect world is what I remember feeling at the end of that episode.
James: The accident Flynn has thrusts Sharon and Andy into a closer proximity faster than they were prepared to be put there. And Sharon is trying to manage that by doing right by Andy and keeping the relationship on a steady pace and it’s a lot. To keep your heart and keep your distance at the same time is very complicated.
Mary: You read something that James wrote and I’ll often have the questions, “What is Sharon thinking? Should I call James and have him tell me?” James always knows if you ask him, but the more you trust the writing, the dramatization, it’s set up beautifully.
Often when the scene is over I go, “OH, that’s what this is about!”

ardentnight
Hi Mary! I just wanna say you are awesome! Thank you for doing this Q&A! My question is what is your everyday lippie/lipstick/lipbalm that you use?

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Mary: Right now I’m using a very pale M.A.C. lipstick, and I’m rather fond of it.

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Dorothy Irene Height was a brilliant civil rights activist and feminist. She fought tirelessly for equality of the races, and genders. If you don’t know who she is google her right now because she is not only one of the most inspirational women of all time, she is one of the most inspirational people to have ever lived. Happy Birthday to a beautiful, intelligent, well educated, and overall incredible woman. To the woman who inspired me and countless other girls to become feminists.

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Lea Michele on Scream Queens: 'I think the killer is a girl': Interview | EW.com

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: This is the opposite of Rachel. Is that the appeal?
LEA MICHELE: Honestly, having been offered this role, I knew nothing. But I did trust Ryan implicitly that he would create something for me that would be the most incredible opportunity to show people a different side and a different color. And the first and only thing he said to me about the project was, “Neck brace.” And I was like, “Well, I guess no better way to show people something completely different from Rachel Berry than a neck brace.”

The thing that I’m most grateful for with this character is the opportunity to show people a completely different side. I think that there is a definite issue with being a part of a show for seven years, being such an iconic character, then switching to something else. I can’t think of a better way to really show people a different side of me than to be playing Hester.

Hester gets a makeover in episode 3. Did you want a makeover? Were you like, “I can only do this neck brace for so long”?
I knew nothing about a makeover, but I will say that I knew Ryan Murphy very well and there’s nothing he loves more than a good makeover. But I will say the neck brace does come back.

I heard the neck brace returns!
It comes back. When I opened that script, I was like, “What? Excuse me?” But it plays an important role in its return, and you will see.

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Today, 01/04/2015, it was announced that Iikubo Haruna is going to graduate from Morning Musume.

Official statement from Iikubo Haruna:

Thank you for always supporting me and Morning Musume'15!

I, Iikubo Haruna, will be graduating Morning Musume'15 in the final day of our tour this summer. I apologize for the sudden announcement, in the past year I’ve been thinking a lot for what I am going to do after I stop being an idol to the point I decided I’ve accomplished all I wanted as an idol and I am ready to step further and open a new page in my life. My biggest passion, the fashion, is what I am going to go for after I graduate and hopefully I will become a well recognized model like Kusumi Koharu-san.

As for my activities in Morning Musume'15 and Hello! Project, I still have five months left, so please support me and the group with all of your heart!

01/04/2015

Iikubo Haruna

Official announcement.

02/16/2015, 11:17 am // AP biology and Duolingo have basically become daily fixtures in my life now! I love waking up in the morning, fixing up some coffee, and sipping it while practicing German.

In other news, I’m on a one-week-long break right now, courtesy of my school district’s weird schedule. I’m planning on getting in lots of AP prep, getting a long-term project done, and hopefully updating this blog more. And if I get done early, I might just reward myself with some animal crossing.

I'm taking a break from all of this.

I’m getting off this website for a bit. There are far too many things on this website that make me feel bitter about myself, and during a time where I’m trying my best to rebuild myself again and fall out of some bad habits, I think it’d do me well to not wrap myself up in other peoples success or problems. 

Recently, I’ve fallen back into doing some things that have been holding me back. I’ve only recently started to get myself back together and I can feel the results, even if it’s just an early stage. It feels like my old self, and I need to do what I can to give myself better peace of mind. 

For far too long I just scroll through this website, letting simple little things like notes get to my head. Even if they aren’t on a post I made, and you know what?

Fuck that. 

I’m sick of feeling troubled by other peoples lives. I’m sick of drawing assumptions that are never true, and then falling back onto substitutes to heal whatever pain or anxiety I’m feeling. Whenever I think about the bad feelings I get, or the trains of social and emotional anxiety I get, I can trace at least 60% of it to this place, or some other form of social media. 

You ever go out and hang out with people in person sometimes? Maybe even the friends you met on the internet, and you realize just how pointless most of the bullshit you hear on the internet is? Even among your friends or people you know? 

Trying to work on my own projects has just become a chore in light of others progress, making me feel like I’m not going fast enough, or making me feel completely irrelevant. But you know, life is a just a bit more important than that. I owe it to myself to just clear my mind of all of this, and gain some perspective that’ll help me deal with it better in the future. 

I’m not there right now, and I’m starting to work on getting there. 

I know this just sounds like another one of my bullshit personal weh I’m emotionally sick posts and that I’m going to be building up some whole new image or something, but you know, the only way to start something is to actually start.

There’s no point in saying, “Yea I’ll do this when I can." 

Just do it.

And I’m choosing to dissociate myself with this site right now. 

So I’m not gonna check this website or be on any real social media for a while. I’ve got myself to take care of, real life issues that need addressing, and an EP to work on. 

So this is the necessary next step to helping myself.

I’ll always be on skype if those of you who have it ever wants to reach out to me or have a talk, though I might not be entirely responsive. I’m trying to get a lot done now and it’s important that I do. 

Thanks for your understanding. 

For now, I’m out.

Take care. 

When I was really young, I told my Mom that I was going to go live in the Amazon in a treehouse, be a nudist and eat only rice and potatoes. I’m currently a *littttle* south of the Amazon, and I live above a laundry, not in a tree, but I did spend all day in a sarong, and I ate a lot of rice.

Later in my young life I thought that maybe I would be like Jane Goodall and work with primates or be a herpetologist. It’s not my job, but the shirt I wear the most has a gorilla on it, I watch a lot of animal videos, and I live with a lot of free roaming geckos. Plus, people are primates too, right? I study those. And some are even a little cold blooded.

In seventh grade my advanced placement classes required me to write and perform poetry, and I thought maybe I would grow up to be the poet laureate. Though I took a 7 year hiatus, I’ve now run a slam poetry organization, when I post on tumblr sometimes my poems get a few notes, and when I perform people snap a lot.

Eighth grade for my career project/life plan, while everyone else in advanced class laid out their plans to become engineers, doctors and lawyers, I laid out a plan to own a cafe that also was an art studio and tattoo parlor/barbershop/boutique. I still think that’s a good idea. I haven’t tattooed anyone yet, but I have a few, and I’m getting more, and I’ve been cutting and dying hair in kitchens for 10 years! One time, I had a restaurant with three ish walls for a couple of months. Though it was just a fancy shack, it was licensed! (Unlike my haircuts)

Later, I wanted to design and direct for the theatre. I’ve been involved in over 20 productions! I don’t work as much as my friends do, but I’m always down to volunteer my time for the arts. I still believe in the transformational power of performance arts, and feel as close to feeling as close to God as I ever have in a dimly lit theatre.

In early high school I wanted to be a polyglot. Tonight, I conducted a conversation (really broken, but productive) in three languages, with people from 6 ish countries of origin and discussed the finer points of grammar and idiomatic expression.

Sometimes your goals aren’t being achieved the way you think they will be, so you can’t see how much you’ve done. Sometimes you forget what is important to you, or what you want, or what is integral. But when you think about it, we’ve all come a really long way.