this photoshoot will be the dead of me

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Why does this look like their wedding photoshoot…someone hold me

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weekly spread x almost dead flowers

the flowers were almost dead and they weren’t gonna survive for next week’s bujo photoshoot so I used last week’s spread 🙈Remember how I mentioned me reaching 600 followers on my studygram? Well to day I just reached 700 and I’m beyond shookt right now

is it bad that I posted too much photos of this spread?

from my studygram

anonymous asked:

Hello! Can i ask you to explain the whole dispacth situation with kaisoo? I want to know your perspective on things and how it affected you and them. Thank you very much :)

Hi anon! 

I think the pics was taken at the middle of february, and I heard some rumors at the end of february, and was like severely crushed (now I laugh about it cuz why did I even..) Then the dispatch pics came out on 4/1 and I was like meh.. *shrugs* I was expecting it. 

But then the discussions started flooding everywhere, I talked with other ppl, I started putting 2 and 2 together, how convenient the timing of everything was, gay rumors, 2012 insider post that said that sm would pair kxk together, their photoshoots etc etc.. (talked more about that here)

And I didn’t buy it anymore. I called bullshit. 

I looked more at the dispatch pics.. There’s been so many analysis of those already, so I won’t talk much about them. But smth that struck me was how they didn’t make any sense? The whole jacket thing is weird, one minute he’s got it, the next she’s got it, then back to him? It’s like there’s been different takes and someone’s been yelling “cut” throughout. And then, there’s the question of “who the fuck is going to drive this car” *drops dead in confusion* and it’s basically one big mess of incoherent pics/gifs from dispatch xDDDD 

And then we also got mr. kim who’s looking SO happy 

liek “fuck yes im out with my boo im so happy the lobster was fantastic lets do this again some time”

(meme cr) (she said she’d sue me if I didn’t credit i’m jk)

*coughs* 

They had a performance on 4/1 too… which was hard for them.. especially so for nini and soo. (no one can deny soo’s involvement here..)

Soo had tears in his eyes, and was visibly affected.. (when does soo ever publicly cry? think about that..) 

Nini kept on throwing glances at soo, obviously he was in a very bad position as well. With guilt..fans and everything.. :(

Look at these vids too (x) & (x

…. Soo’s brave smile

Nini was staring at soo, and when soo met nini’s eyes, nini quickly looked away, and then stared again.. 

So I guess that answers “how the dispatch pics affected them that day” atleast.. 

Kd seemed hesitant after that, it didn’t stop soo from helping nini who was injured, at any chance he got tho. Sm eventually started pushing other ships for soo, kd was put on the backburner, it didn’t seem like they were “allowed” to interact even. They were on a show during the late summer, where the host asked nini if he even knew soo at all, cuz he was asked to describe soo and he was hesitant when replying, and it was all a mess and a clear indication that sm wanted ppl to think that kd wasn’t close at all.. not even friends, even when everyone knew that they’ve always been known to be the closest. There were lots of angst and everything that hurt :(

^ this was basically me during that whole “after 4/1 period”, cuz sm was playing.. Idk why I was even surprised?

All the dots was eventually connected at the end :———-) 

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ADAW 25/52 - Memories

Today is the first anniversary of my Grandma’s death. I have choosen to dedicate this photoshoot to her, with her in memory and was heavy inspired by The Book of Life which helped me a lot during the mourning process.

I created Enrico within this process, using Elijah and his death brother as a metaphor and Enrico is the person helping Elijah with mourning. The mexican way of dealing with loss and having their annual Days of Death (in November) with such loving memories, a celebration of the lost people …. it helped me a lot to feel inspired by them to think of the happy times I had with my Grandma and how many things she did for us. It is still a hard topic for me, it only has been a year after all.

A big thanks again to @mismantisbjd for giving Enrico the face up he needed.