this one is all season two so i'll just make a season one or something


possible triggers, read/reblog with caution.


❛ Nine years! Why have I not seen you? ❜
❛ Where the hell have you been? ❜
❛ Would you please shut up! ❜
❛ Take me to your crypt, I want to pay my respects. ❜
❛ Surely, the dead can wait. ❜
❛ Did I offend you? Sorry. ❜
❛ What the hell do you know about being a bastard? ❜
❛ I heard you the first time. ❜
❛ It’s no mercy, letting a child linger in such pain. ❜
❛ I just want to stand on top of the Wall and pissoff the edge of the world! ❜
❛ Give me a good, clean death any day. ❜
❛ What good will my sympathies do them? ❜
❛ Your absence has already been noted. ❜
❛ One word and I hit you again. ❜
❛ I’ve half a mind to leave them all behind and keep moving. ❜
❛ You’re too hard on yourself. You always have been. ❜
❛ I swear, if I weren’t your king/queen, you’d have hit me already. ❜
❛ Trust me, that’s not the worst thing. ❜
❛ Tell me we’re not speaking of this. ❜
❛ Oh, it’s unspeakable to you? ❜
❛ Look at me and tell me what you see. ❜
❛ You broke my nose, bastard! ❜
❛ I wonder how long it’d take you to hit! ❜
❛ They hate me because I'm better than they are! ❜
❛ Glad to see you’re protecting the Throne. ❜
❛ It must be strange for you, coming into this room. ❜
❛ But you just stood there and watched. ❜
❛ Is that what you tell yourself at night? ❜
❛ How could you let this happen?! ❜
❛ I received a slightly warmer welcome on my last visit. ❜
❛ Do you remember anything about what happened? ❜
❛ Why are you here? ❜
❛ I have a gift for you. ❜
❛ Will I really be able to ride? ❜
❛ Is this some kind of trick? ❜
❛ Piss on that! I wanna hit somebody! ❜
❛ You do move quietly. ❜
❛ You’re speaking of murdering a child. ❜
❛ You will dishonor yourself forever if you do this. ❜
❛ I felt something for you once, you know. ❜
❛ Does that make you feel better, or worse? ❜
❛ You wish to confess your crimes? ❜
❛ My crimes and sins are beyond counting. ❜
❛ I’m good at convincing others to do violence for me. ❜
❛ What do you think you’re doing?! ❜
❛ I have that right, same as you. ❜


❛ We looked for you on the battlefield, but you were nowhere to be found! ❜
❛ I…I’ve been here, ruling the kingdoms! ❜
❛ I’m glad you’re not dead. ❜
❛ Knowledge is power. ❜
❛ Excuse the interruption. Carry on. ❜
❛ It’s been a… remarkable journey! ❜
❛ You brought this on yourself. ❜
❛ I’ve done nothing. ❜
❛ Do you understand we’re losing the war?! ❜
❛ Disappeared? What, in a puff of smoke?! ❜
❛ Must be hard for you- to be the disappointing child. ❜
❛ Oh, I trust them with my life- just not with yours. ❜
❛ Three victories don’t make you a conqueror. ❜
❛ I won’t need a servant to do my beheading for me! ❜
❛ I heard you suffered a terrible head wound.  ❜
❛ I am very good at keepingsecrets for my good friends. ❜
❛ Who threatened you? ❜
❛ I understand the way this game is played. ❜
❛ I’ll have you thrown into the sea! ❜
❛ I am a pirate- I’m an excellent pirate! ❜
❛ That’s a promise that always comes true. ❜
❛ You don’t know how persuasive I am. ❜
❛ You’re the mosthonest smuggler I ever met. ❜
❛ You have no need to see this. ❜
❛ I believe we know how to pour our own wine. ❜
❛ Maybe I’ll hire this cook of yours. ❜
❛ I don’t listen to filth. ❜
❛ I appreciate your loyalty. ❜
❛ I’ll not have my honour questioned by an imp! ❜
❛ I just wouldn’t feel safe with you lurking about. ❜
❛ I command you to arrest this cutthroat! ❜
❛ Do you hear me?! ❜
❛ I think there’s more to ruling than that. ❜
❛ There’s no bigger joke in the world than that. ❜
❛ What about all the dreams you had that didn't come true? ❜
❛ Your time with the wolves has made you weak. ❜
❛ You gave me away if you remember. ❜
❛ You gave me away like I was some dog you didn’t want anymore. ❜
❛ You won’t get away with this. ❜
❛ I’ve decided I don’t like riddles. ❜
❛ You want to know what side my family fights on? ❜
❛ You gonna tell me where you’re from? ❜
❛ You can’t talk to me like that! ❜
❛ That’s twice I’ve warned you. ❜
❛ I don’t want you in my tent oneminute more than necessary. ❜
❛ It would be my pleasure. ❜


❛ You’re wearing the wrong color. ❜
❛ When I’m free, will I be free to go? ❜
❛ I'll be free to kill you. ❜
❛ From now on, you’d better kneel every time I fart. ❜
❛ You’re telling me you saw… one of them.  ❜
❛ Did I come to the right place? ❜
❛ We’ll need to find you a new cloak. ❜
❛ I need an army. ❜
❛ It’s too beautiful of a day, to argue. ❜
❛ I am wondering why you sent for me. ❜
❛ Have you grown boredprotecting me? ❜
❛ I’m sure you’ve filled your pockets. ❜
❛ I don’t loan it out to friends as a favor. ❜
❛ I don’t even know what I’m paying you now! ❜
❛ Am I enjoying it? ❜
❛ I heard how happy you were. ❜
❛ I gave you real power and authority. ❜
❛ You brought a whore into my bed. ❜
❛ Why does everyone assume I want something? ❜
❛ A little bloody gratitude would be a start. ❜
❛ So tell me what you want. ❜
❛ I want what is mine by right. ❜
❛ The next whore I catch in your bed, I’ll hang. ❜
❛ I’m not your enemy. ❜
❛ I’ve never seen anything like it. ❜
❛ Even the bravest men fear death. ❜
❛ Tell the good master there is no need. ❜
❛ Here, I’m done with you. ❜
❛ How many do you have to sell? ❜
❛ We don’t get to choose who we love. ❜
❛ I only want to know what that means. ❜
❛ Are you frightened, child? ❜
❛ Tell us the truth. No harm will come to you. ❜
❛ I have traitor’s blood. ❜
❛ Please don’t make me say anymore. ❜
❛ Please, don’t stop the wedding. ❜
❛ That doesn’t mean they’re not worth helping. ❜
❛ I have no doubtyou will prove equal to this challenge. ❜
❛ This is the safest place in the city. ❜
❛ Any advice for me, on my new position? ❜
❛ How long will you be gone? ❜
❛ You don’t have the strength. It would kill you. ❜
❛ There is another way, a better way. ❜
❛ The blood of my enemies, not the blood of innocents. ❜
❛ What’re you doing, leading a mob of peasants? ❜
❛ I should have killed you! ❜

averagetaynara  asked:

Hi! So @tinkdw said you also believe that s13 may be the last season of spn. Was just wondering, maybe you wrote some post about it somewhere? I'll be very interested in reading it ☺️

Hello, my lovely - and I am so very sorry for the late reply! I have actually not written a post about my brewing conviction that SPN is ready to move into Wrapping It Up territory. So here are my thoughts! :)

Tink is indeed right: I have believed for quite some time now that S13 will most likely be the final season. I’ve thought this because of how the narrative is beginning to tie back to the beginning, through callbacks and a very clear push towards - what I firmly believe - will be a positive endgame.

Narratively there are three acts - or parts - to a story. There can be five, or seven, or however many goddamn acts the writer deems fit for the story they want to tell, but the Alpha and the Omega - Aristotle - divided his story structure into three distinctive parts: the Beginning, the Middle, the End

Simple enough. 

So here are my personally cobbled together Acts Specifics:

  • Act One sets up all the story elements that will be integral to the narrative.
  • Act Two takes these story elements to further explore, deepen and evolve the narrative.
  • Act Three reveals the hidden truths of the chosen story elements and delivers on the promise of the premise by answering the thematic question posed in Act One and picked up on with every new Story Beat throughout the narrative.

So, Act Three gives us the juicy bits:

  • it’s where the bigger picture is finally beginning to reveal itself
  • it’s where the good storyteller will avoid bringing in any new elements that will sincerely jar with what has come before, and instead use all the foreshadowing set up in Act One and furthered in Act Two to provide a Twist that feels unexpected, and yet unavoidable 
  • The Twist is what sets off the narrative’s movement into Act Three and pushes the momentum of the Plot and Character Arcs towards Climax. (yes, that’s what it’s called) (don’t look at me like that) (or do) (I kinda like it) (*flirty*) (moving on)

To my mind, Act Three of the SPN narrative began with 11x01, because S11 focused so entirely on our Protagonist - that would be Dean - taking huge, huge steps towards his endgame by realising he’s in love with Cas.

This undeniable love is what has facilitated Dean’s character growth since S4, so for him to actually understand his own emotions and being forced to admit them to himself is monumentally important for him reaching his endgame.

Reaching his endgame - self-worth through self-acceptance - will reward him with a long and happy life with the man he loves. Just to be clear.

And, to my mind, admitting his emotions to himself has informed his attitude and actions throughout S12, so the growth spurt of S11 was not for nothing and they kept building on it, giving us tension and confusion and a mixtape.

The Twist that S11 offered us, then, was introducing Amara into the narrative. 

Originally posted by casclaire

  • Amara is not something new thrown in last minute
  • She is an Act Three Standard as she is in fact a Callback
  • She is a Callback to all the women who came before her
  • She is what Dean before Cas might actually have been seduced by
  • She is everything Dean has always convinced himself he should want, everything any average viewer would assume he does want
  • But Dean’s love for Cas is true love and it blocks every last attempt from Amara to control Dean’s heart

Amara’s first purpose in the narrative is to underline Dean’s love for Cas for the sake of us, the audience.

  • She is continually a Mirror Opposite for Cas throughout the season
  • This places her firmly in the Not What Dean Wants At All Ever Box 
  • As Cas occupies his Everything I Could Ever Want and Need Box
  • Amara is placed in her box in every single scene she shares with Dean 
  • Yes, even that kiss between them, because it is so very clearly not what Dean wants, which is put in dialogue twice: with Casifer and with Sam

Amara’s second purpose in the narrative is to highlight Dean’s love for Cas in order for Dean to admit to himself how he feels.

  • Amara tells Dean they are bonded, tying herself inexorably to Cas’ statement of how he and Dean share a profound bond 
  • Amara states that she and Dean were meant for each other, intruding on his Free Will as she tries to make him understand there’s nothing he can do and he should just give in
  • But Dean’s heart is completely filled up with Cas, and Amara’s Mirror Opposite is only working to make him more and more aware of this
  • Because Cas is all Dean cares about, worries about, truly wants
  • Amara’s statements are true, just not when applied to her: they can only be applied to Cas
  • With one significant difference: Dean would choose Cas in a heart beat, of his own Free Will, no coercion, no tricks, no power plays needed
  • And Dean slowly comes to realise this during the seasonal narrative

Originally posted by faramaiofnerdwoodforest

(Chuck’s face. Chuck’s face. Chuck’s goddamn face! *shipper*)

Dean realising he’s actually in love with Cas is a Big Push Forward for our Protagonist, and as our Protagonist’s Journey moves forward, so does the narrative itself, because without the Journey, the narrative flounders.

So then, that’s my reason for believing we’re in the final stretch here: the journey for every main character is coming to its head. It’s also my reason for not believing they’ll want to drag this narrative out for a whole lotta more seasons.

I find it hard to believe they’d even want to drag it out for two more whole seasons, especially after how S12 ended with every character leaping and bounding forward in their character growth:

  • Dean’s walls torn down (or blown to rubble via grenade launcher)
  • The brodependency crumbling
  • Sam stepping into his shiny Leader of MoL boots
  • Cas’ death, that simply must be setting him up for a much needed rebirth

All of the main character arcs aren’t moving at glacier pace anymore, they are fucking snowballing towards endgame.

Originally posted by princesscas

I can understand that they’d want to go for that 300th episode, however.

After JiB8 and the J2 panel, where both Jared and Jensen spoke positively about, possibly, doing a shorter season (though airily and not really in reference to a final season at all) I’m musing over whether this might be what they’re planning. That episode 300 will be their last. 

Jensen mentioned during an on-set interview that they don’t know how long they’ll go for, that they have the studio and network fully behind them, and that, as long as there is a good story to tell, they’re all willing to stay with it. This comment made me feel, more than ever, that they are all invested in this narrative and they know that it’s coming full circle.

They are closing the narrative, they are bringing it home, they are pushing it towards that climactic moment, when the characters have learned all their lessons, when the plot line is ready to reflect this, and the narrative can be tied up in a satisfactory and emotionally fulfilling way.

So even if S13 isn’t the absolute last, I do wonder if we’ll actually get a full S14.

But, hey, these writers are brilliant at what they do. I am in jaw-drop awe of how they have built the Destiel love story for going on 10 seasons now, so I am absolutely certain that if they wanted to go for longer than episode 300, they are all more than capable of delivering something fucking amazing. 

And let’s not despair if SPN is actually ending!! Not only will there be Wayward Daughters, I’ve no doubt! The SPN Family will continue and it will flourish! And we’ll have over a decade’s worth of glorious television to watch and watch again and then watch with friends and coerced family and slowly we can brainwash our work colleagues into our obsession until, finally - world domination. All the domination, peeps.

And rainbows. Always rainbows.

[TRANS] 170528 Lee Youjin V Live Broadcast (PD101S2)

Lee Youjin, one of the eliminated trainees from Produce 101, held a live broadcast on Namoo Actors V App channel last night! He answered fan questions and talked about his time in Produce 101 so here are some highlights about what he said about the other trainees.

Fan Questions:

  • The trainees he was closest to were his roommates at the start of the program! He roomed with Yoon Jisung, Kim Sihyun, Lee Hoorim, Kim Hyunwoo from YG K+. He couldn’t give Jisung a call bc he was probably busy (the only one left on the show).
  • He talked about how he was the leader twice during (for Be Mine team 2 and Rhythm Ta). He thought being leader would be easy bc he only needed to guide and lead the other members but it was a lot more difficult than he thought.
  • For Be Mine, he couldn’t really help the other members with learning the dance so he felt sorry towards them. Maybe if he had chosen an easier song they wouldn’t have had such a hard time. “Truthfully i couldn’t be of any help to the others, but through our struggles we got closer and did well.“
  • He really likes Park Jaebum’s (Jay Park) style so that’s the reason why he chose some of the concepts that he did on PD101! He wanted to be sexy like him (t/n: I think he’s talking about his performance evaluation)
  • The staff played Pick Me in the background but since he was caught off guard, he was able to dance only part of it. He said the trainees practiced it so much he could do the dance in his sleep.
  • He promised to try and call Taewoo later! He’s in a group chat with Taewoo and Taemin so they talk a lot. They’re really fun and interesting.
  • A fan commented “add me to the chat too~” so he said “send us your ID (t/n: kakaotalk ID)” lol
  • A fan asked “Who is the most handsome in PD101″ and he said “Everyone is handsome!”
  • He showed off the headphones he got for completing the first stage of maboy.

Youjin’s Pick Corner! 

  • The staff set up a bracket board to see who Youjin’s pick was among his fellow contestants on PD101. When he saw the board he said, “Wow, this is like picking for the World Cup.”
  • First Round:
    • Lee Woojin vs. Kim Yongguk vs. Jung Sewoon (he said Woojin is cute but Sewoon really helped him with the hardships of being a leader. Even though they weren’t close, they talked and texted so he was really touched. That’s why he picked Sewoon)
    • Lee Insoo vs. Hong Eunki vs. Kang Daniel (he chose Daniel bc he was the leader for 열어줘 and taught them a lot. Youjin said everyone in the group was already good so he had to match them well)
    • Kim Donghyun vs. Im Youngmin vs. Joo Jinwoo (he depended on Youngmin a lot during Be Mine and is very thankful towards him)
    • Kang Dongho vs. Takada Kenta vs. Kim Taewoo (he picked Taewoo bc he’s funny, sings well, and is bright. He got really close to him during the show)
    • Lee Kiwon vs. Yoon Heeseok vs. Kim Seonglee (he picked Seonglee and said he had enough skills to compete in any program. During practice he would lift the mood and make the trainees happy but it wasn’t broadcasted)
    • Lee Gwanghyun vs. Park Sungwoo (he picked Sungwoo and pet the sticker with his face on it lolol. Although Sungwoo endured a lot, he was always by Youjin’s side. They were together for Be Mine and also for 열어줘 before being eliminated. Even though Youjin was having a hard time too, he felt sorry for not being able to help him)
  • Second Round:
    • Jung Sewoon vs. Kang Daniel
    • Im Youngmin vs. Kim Taewoo (he chose Taewoo bc they both fell down the ranks together(?) lol)
    • Kim Seonglee vs. Park Sungwoo (he chose Sungwoo bc he went through a lot of hardships)
  • Third Round:
    • Kang Daniel vs. Kim Taewoo
    • Park Sungwoo (automatic win)
  • FInal Round:
    • Kim Taewoo vs. Park Sungwoo (when he chose Taewoo, he put his sticker on the #1 spot and pat it several times; “It’s a pity that it’s not broadcasted but he’s really funny. We practiced a lot together.”)
  • Note: I’ll be subbing this segment and posting it on YouTube soon! I’ll link it here when it’s done and uploaded.

Update: here is the subbed segment!

More unrelated PD101 things are under the cut!
Translation by @softsnuper (may not be 100% accurate)

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This is what we do, I push too hard and you do things without my consent. That’s our relationship. Now we can end it or we can just accept it as it is. That felt like ‘accept it.’

Yeah, it’s not perfect—no one’s saying it isn’t. How could their relationship be anything other than messy when Cosima is in constant, inescapable peril and the only way Delphine knows how to deal with it is to devote everything she has to protecting her from the people who destroyed both their lives?

But I think the really important detail here is that neither of these characters know what we know. We know that they are in the middle of the last season of this show and all this shit’s all about to end. They have no idea, and that’s why these lines are so important.

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Kevin x Joaquin Headcanon-

•Kevin x Joaquin shared one last kiss.

•Joaquin rode the bus to San Junipero.

•Joaquin wrote a letter and sent it to Jughead to give to Kevin. Jughead did as told.

•Joaquin wrote the letter so he could stay off the map just in case. No phone and a phony direction just in case.

•Jughead became the middle man for their letters because he understood he couldn’t sent letter to the sheriffs home.

•After 3 months of Back and forth letters between each other Kevin stopped.

•Joaquin thought maybe Kevin got caught with the letters, because he couldn’t have just stopped.

•In just the last letter he hoped Kevin had read Joaquin proclaimed his love.

•His worry grew stronger that now he directed his last letter to Jughead to see what happened.

•Jughead surprised the letter was for him he thought that must be a mistake. Every letter was directed to Kevin.

•Although he wasn’t too surprised because Kevin had stopped going for the letters, so he opened his letter.

•Joaquin was confused as to why Kevin stopped, did the sheriff know?

•Jughead knew why Kevin had stopped. No the sheriff didn’t know, but it would be heartbreaking to hear what happened through a letter.

•Jughead had his way with words as being one of Riverdale’s finest writers.

•He wrote his response, in the best way possible he could, but how could anyone tell them that the person they loved moved on.

•Joaquin couldn’t believe his eyes as he scanned the the writers delicate words.

•Tears streamed down his face. He didn’t get much sleep that night.

•Why had Kevin moved on? He was sure he loved him back so what happened?

•Joaquin HAD to do something.

•He got his stuff ready, his anxious impulsive attitude took over. He didn’t care if he got caught, he HAD to see Kevin.

•He arrived to Riverdale, his hands jittery. Feeling out of place without his Serpent jacket, but those days were behind him no matter how great of a family they were to him.

•His eyes designed by the lack of sleep and endless sobbing and yet he managed to make that look beautiful.

•He walked to the only place he thought maybe just maybe he would find him without going noticed. What he found on his walk was breathtaking and not in a good way.

•The air in his lungs no longer knowing how to accept the oxygen all around him.

•There was the man he loved, the rumors were true, his lips touching someone else’s.

•Kevin sat across Moose lips in sync in back of his pick up truck. Parked in Sweetwater River.

•It couldn’t be his eyes must be deceiving him.

•"K- K- Kevin?“ He called in a low croaked voice as the couple broke apart. The other two shocked.

•Kevin walked away with Joaquin leaving Moose in the truck waiting.

•"I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have come.” Joaquin broke the silence.

•"I didn’t know how to tell you. I- I just couldn’t, you left, I couldn’t do the long distance and Moose-“ Kevin smiled.

•Joaquin caught the smile and he swore his heart finally gave out.

•"He better be good to you Preppy” was all that escaped his lips as he walked away leaving once again.

•Sometimes you really have to let them go if you love them.

anonymous asked:

I had what many may consider a stupid thought, but I'm going to throw it out there anyway. Am I the only one kind of regretting the fact that we'll never have arrogant-but-softhearted Bellamy and headstrong-but-wounded Clarke from the dropship days in sarcastic, banter-filled love with heavy innuendo and physical attraction? They're in flat-out I'll-die-for-you-you're-my-life-partner kind of love now, which is beautiful...But I still think the show missed an opportunity to build up there 1/2

I mean, the romantic relationship potential could have gotten a few more scenes in Season 1. Just a little more flirting or something would’ve been nice. We probably won’t see them spar or argue ever again like they used to. Bellamy can forgive her in the span of a day for holding a gun on him. They’re in so deep, and it’s warm and real and so adult and thorough now, which is awesome. I’m all about it. Bring on the Bellarke! Yet I can’t help but feel a little sad/cheated that we missed the 2/2

3/3 lighter, teasing, flirtatious, sexier build-up? And I know there was the issue of Finn in S1 and the “story is long.” I’m well-informed that it’s a long and winding road with many arcs and at least 5 seasons. I get the concept of a slow burn. But it could have been cool to see a near-romantic miss in S1 - the 108 tree scene doesn’t count - they’d just killed someone. I’m not expecting a deep analysis or anything. Just fan-girling I suppose. But I can’t be the only one thinking this.

Well, I mean, that’s the thing about telling stories. You’ve got to make the choices. The things you choose to focus on are what gives you the story you are eventually going to tell, and if you focus on the wrong things, you weaken your story. You have to pick. If they did the light flirtation that you wanted in season 1, that would have made the story a different thing. It would have made their relationship a different thing. Having that possibility there from the beginning would have brought the physicality to bear much sooner. They would have been more sure about where they stood with each other. They would have pushed their relationship. It would have actually been MORE about romance and flirtation and knowing the possibility was there.

And the thing is, they didn’t want it to be. And they wanted their characters to separate and go on their personal journeys, whether that was about love and forgiveness or morality and authority. To have the beginning of a relationship with Bellamy and Clarke, even just flirting, would have made what happened in season 3 worse. Because it would have been something that was already on the edge of canon. It would have made the whole season more about dating, and less about the deeper connection that lay under their attraction. Putting aside the attraction completely, meant the focus was on the soul connection.

And when something is about physical attraction, there’s always the question… is it just lust? is it just about needing someone? is it just sex? is it just comfort? is there a power game? is it just what they’re supposed to be doing? is it a means to an end? is it real?  Which, to be honest, were questions with every relationship Bellamy and Clarke had since the beginning of the show. Think back. Every single one. From Satisfied Girl to Finn to Roma to Niylah to Raven to Lxa to Bree. All their sexual relationships have questions over them. Whether they were real love (which three of them were) or not.

Season 1 had them flirting with the possibility of making it a light and flirty thing, like you said. We saw Bellamy with the girls, one of whom looked very much like Clarke (not a coincidence, particularly since she came back twice, both times when he could have taken it physical with Clarke and he turned away from her.) It was an option. We saw Bellamy NOT pursue it, consciously, with Clarke. It says something. It says she was already more important than that to him. We saw Clarke reach out to Finn for comfort, and offer him the same. But it was a mess of conflicting intentions and needs and complicated connections. It lead to nothing good, except bringing them Raven. Would she have reached out to Bellamy if disaster hadn’t struck? Quite likely. And it would have been an entirely different story than the one they told.

I do think they played with a platonic love relationship in season 2, a kind of courtly knight/princess thing, what with the Gustus parallel and Bellamy being sent into the mountain on her order. But it turns out the princess was not feeling so platonic (my interpretation) and while from Bellamy’s side, it might have looked like that knightly ideal, and he even accepted that, I don’t think that was the way Clarke saw it, particularly with the comparison between Bellamy and Finn, and later, about not being ready to start something with anyone. The only two options, honestly, being Lxa or Bellamy. 

Season 3 had the love between Clarke and Bellamy grow while they were separated. The intensity of their feelings for each other deepened to the point that they independently sacrificed their lives for the other’s. The pain and hurt caused by Clarke’s abandonment and Bellamy’s rejection did not make their feelings go away though. The love between Bellamy and Clarke was tested and confirmed, before it ever became physical. It is real. It is true. It’s respectful. It’s mutual. It is serious. It is important. That period of testing was an important story to tell, I think. Many romantic relationships do NOT make it through that kind of test, or even smaller tests. Romance can be pretty flighty, to be honest. Not all romance can stand having a rival for affections, or being on opposite sides of a political divide, or distance, or hurting each other (which is part of the package when you become vulnerable to another person.)  Season 3 showed that the relationship between Clarke and Bellamy could not only withstand these challenges, but actually grow deeper despite/because of them.

So what was the purpose of season 4, which has offered the audience so much hope and frustration? Well. Season 4 to me has been about building tension, in both the Bellarke romance and the plight of humanity. They start full of possibility, but bit by bit, each option is knocked out until they are being forced into their only option. It has become downright claustrophobic, leading to the second culling and the locking of the doors of the bunker. But we still have Bellarke running around, working on their last chance. For survival. For admission of feelings. Because those feelings have also been pushed to the breaking point, and they too have been denied, again and again, pushed aside, given obstacles, from Clarke’s admission of love for L to Bellamy turning aside from Clarke’s cheek on his hand, to his steering away from love, to her staying on science island, from his refusing to agree to her bunker plan, to her holding a gun on him,  to Bree, to Niylah. These are the things they saw of the other. They each showed the other that they were not interested. And YET, the AUDIENCE saw Bellamy telling Jaha she centered him, saw her selling 50 of her people for his life, saw the way they looked at each other when the other couldn’t see, saw how much Bree looked like Clarke, saw how Clarke couldn’t leave Bellamy outside of the bunker. It wasn’t until Bellamy realized that Clarke just sacrificed humanity for his sake that I think one of them saw how much the other loved them. 

Season 4 was about upping the intensity of their feelings for each other, while putting obstacles in the way until it seems impossible and unreachable and now time is up and it still hasn’t happened. 


They’re not giving us a sweet love story. They’re giving us a love story so vital and important and desperate that it feels inevitable– and impossible. 

They’re giving us a passionate love story that is about true souls meeting and being held apart. They’re keeping us on the edge of love admission and consummation. We think, they couldn’t possibly hold it off any longer, and they do. 

They’ve absolutely been working us from the very beginning. The intention for romantic bellarke was hinted at from the pilot. But they held it off from becoming admitted outright, took OUT a scene that would have been canon intention from Day Trip. ON PURPOSE. Because it would have taken them over the edge that they intended to ride. If the show had ended with season 3, they could very well have finished the series with Clarke and Bellamy finally admitting their feelings. But they got  two more seasons, so they pushed those romantic 3B-4A feelings, until the very edge of making them canon, on both Clarke’s side and Bellamy’s, and then pulled it back again. None of this would have been possible if they had given us more in season 1. Or it wouldn’t have felt as apocalyptic. And guess, what? They want this story to be apocalyptic.

anonymous asked:

You realize Zutara is more stereotypical and forced than Kataang right? A good girl falling for the bad boy who destroyed her village. Lol have fun being in the minority shipping department.

I don’t know if I “realize” that at all.

I mean, sure, there are a lot of ‘good girl falls for the delinquent boy’ stories out there, but most of the shows/movies/series I watch always end with the hero getting the girl. ATLA being one of them. 

It’s funny, because you say that Zutara is forced and stereotypical when it isn’t even canon, so technically by your standards, there is no “minority ship” to even be forced or made into a cliche. Zutara is a non-canon ship that we, the fans, have created from the elements (lol shitty pun intended) of the show. 

However, Kataang, not Zutara, is the ship that ended up being (IMO) forcibly pushed on the show. In fact, Bryke made a point in NOT endorsing Zutara, whereas they tried pretty damn hard to make Kataang work out. Whether or not they succeeded is up to you. 

Let me reiterate something. I don’t hate the Kataang ship. I don’t hate the ‘hero gets the girl’ stereotype because hey, stereotypes are stereotypes for a reason. What I do hate is how Kataang was brought about. Rather than taking the time to develop the ship properly, it was all very rushed. The scene from Ember Island Players where Katara and Aang discuss their relationship should have happened waaaaay back in the beginning of Season Three, or even in Season Two, so that there was time for them to explore their feelings in depth. If Bryke had written them such that they both addressed their issues in a coherent way instead of skipping a huge chunk of development, than I honestly would probably have supported the Kataang ship wholeheartedly.

Also, regardless of shipping, you labeling Zuko as “the bad boy who destroyed her village” is literally throwing away every single component of his entire character evolution. That’s like saying Aang is “the boy who runs away from all his problems,” and Sokka is “only the comedic relief,” and Toph is just “the robust girl with attitude” and that their characters aren’t anything else. At least give Bryke some credit. They may not develop romance all that well, but they definitely know how to create some amazing characters.

Look, go ahead and disagree with my ship, that’s fine. But at least understand why I ship what I ship. Zutara isn’t about good girls and bad boys. It’s about two people who began in a black and white world, and who ultimately spurred maturation within one another until they were both in a place of forgiveness and hope. It’s not about the butterflies and rainbows, it’s about the real life parallels that inspired a genuine friendship. It’s about the ‘good girl’ sometimes being the ‘not so good girl,’ and the ‘bad boy’ turning into the ‘trying so hard to be better boy’ and how they accepted each of those sides to one another.

So instead of being offended by fans who are happily shipping to their hearts desires, just enjoy the fact that your ship is canon and let differences lie. The series already ended. Kataang already happened. Zutara did not. We’ve made peace with it, so maybe you should too.

And not that it’s a competition (because really, it isn’t), but you should seriously do your research if you think Zutara fans are in the minority. Like, would you really be salty enough to message a Zutarian account about how invalid it is if you hadn’t noticed just how much support it was getting? I wouldn’t have over 2,000 followers an entire decade after the series ended if Zutara didn’t have at least some legitimacy to it, just sayin.

Let’s keep in mind that these are fictional characters and acknowledge that it’s alright to agree to disagree. That being said, happy shipping to all!

Originally posted by heartcoma

Defense/Analysis of Cosima Niehaus in every season (including 4)

Heck yeah! Cosima! My favorite clone (perhaps rivaled only by Mika). She won my heart way back in season 1, though Delphine will always be my favorite character no matter what, because I absolutely loved her enthusiastic curiosity. That was one of my favorite things about her, the fact that she was so endlessly curious and knew a lot about various subjects, not just biology. She was driven by an insatiable need to know, and it was so wonderful seeing her get passionate and animated about everything in the world. She saw being a clone as cool, she saw the chance to study their own unique biology as the opportunity of a lifetime. She was so adorkably optimistic and curious.

But she’s also so so flawed.

And before I start, I want to say that I was really tempted to write and finish this essay before 4x07, but a friend of mine told me to hold off and wait for the next episode.

Even in season 1, Cosima’s treatment of Delphine was not so fantastic. It’s a lot easier to understand and empathize with her reasons since most of the audience didn’t trust Delphine either, and Cosima lashing out at her was warranted because she felt betrayed by the fact that Delphine had told Dr. Leekie about them all behind her back. Going on to Delphine though, I always felt it hard to distrust her, because she was always so honest in her bodily expressions. She always tried to make eye contact with Cosima, she looked at her face, and crouched down at eye level. But again, Cosima not trusting her was warranted because there was tension around Delphine, which a lot of the audience experienced as well. Delphine’s ‘betrayal’ (her calling Dr. Leekie about Cosima’s notes) was arguably the turning point of Cosima realizing that this whole clone thing wasn’t the cute and fun scientific endeavor she had first made it out to be. This was later solidified by Cosima realizing she was the first in the group to start displaying symptoms of the illness, and was suddenly faced with the fact that there was a giant clock on her life now. While I often make the argument that Delphine openly loved Cosima more than Cosima openly loved her, which I do think to be true, I also think Cosima inwardly loved (loves) Delphine just as much as Delphine loves her, even though she can be seriously terrible at showing it. Delphine was the first person Cosima ever told that she was sick, she didn’t even tell anyone else until later in season 2. She told Delphine, even though she spent most of episode 10 trying to be closed off and reserved from Delphine. But at the end, when they find out they’re property, Cosima finds herself in an emotionally comprised situation. Here, next to her, the woman she doesn’t fully trust (but can’t help but love), and faced with the reality of the fact that they’re intellectual property, as well as the fact that she’s dying, she lets her in and trusts her a little. Because she needs to trust someone. Even in the previous episode, episode 9, she says to Delphine “I wanted to trust you”. Cosima really really wanted to let her in, but that kernel of distrust in season one kind of grows inside of Cosima each time she feels betrayed, and remains manifested throughout the three complete seasons. But yet, Cosima still feels vulnerable enough to let her in. Because as much as Cosima may not admit it, she needs Delphine, because Delphine is not only her intellectual equal, but also the only one who can give Cosima that physically comforting aspect.

Which brings me to season two, where Delphine becomes even more of a softy for Cosima, going to great lengths to keep her safe and guiltily going behind her back to interact with Dr. Leekie in order to, again, keep her safe (and healthy). There are some weird parts in this season that send off some bizarre signals, though. In episode 8, after Cosima realizes how dire her situation is and gets high with Delphine, Delphine tells her she loves her. And Cosima responds with “you can’t just love me, you have to love all of us”, and threatens to ruin Delphine if she ever betrays them again. To which Delphine laughs, because Cosima actually thinks Delphine cares about her career still when all Delphine cares about is Cosima’s wellbeing. Now, what Cosima said seems harsh, and I often bring it up when I’m referring to Cosima as the less caring/affectionate/openly loving one in the relationship, but also, when you look at it from a different perspective, it’s heartbreaking for a reason other than 'oh it was mean to Delphine, who’s just trying her hardest’. When Cosima gets her high, its after she realizes how dire her situation is. She knows she’s dying, she knows she might not have much time. And she also knows Delphine is a brilliant scientist, and Cosima also loves her sisters very much. While it came out a little harsh, I really think that what Cosima was trying to say was “if I die please continue to help them”. When Cosima said that Delphine has to love them all, it means that she needs her to help them as much as she’s helping Cosima herself. They were both still high, everyone is different in how pot affects them (I just get mellow and feel my mood improve, but my buddy gets way outta whack and he starts seeing the world as through a fishbowl), so it probably came out a little awkwardly, and Cosima couldn’t fully articulate what she meant. But Delphine understood. She understood, and seriously followed through (especially apparent in season 3, which I’ll get to in a bit). At the end of season 2, Cosima actually even almost dies, making her request to Delphine two episodes prior even more haunting. Cosima was about to die, but she saw Delphine. And the vision she saw of Delphine, Delphine who was being banished to Frankfurt by the higher ups, was of Delphine saying “don’t be afraid, I’ll never leave you”. Symbolically, in season three, there came the quote by Shay, who said “I have a theory before we leave this life, we see what we love, I mean like pit of the soul can’t live without it love. And if it’s strong enough, sometimes we find our way back.” Cosima, while reserved and awkward and extremely bad at showing it or handling it sometimes, loves Delphine down to the pit of her soul. She saw Delphine before she almost died, and Delphine kept her anchored to life and she was able to hold on. And we end that, of course, with Kira’s innocent enough question of “Did the puppy follow the explorer the whole way?” Delphine, of course, being the puppy, and Cosima being the curious and insatiable explorer.

And then season 3.

Which was kind of a clusterfuck, but I can see the reason to Cosima’s decisions. I’m gonna go over a small Shay defense in this part (even though there’s not much to say) as well as Cosima’s.

Delphine came back from Frankfurt totally steely and intense. She started closing herself off and becoming infinitely more reserved, a total 180 from her yelling emotionally at Rachel “If she dies without me, it is personal!” - Delphine doesn’t act out in so passionate a manner anymore, she’s steeled herself to act as a solid support system for Cosima and her sisters.

And to act as a solid support system, and effectively help the main characters, she breaks up with Cosima. Breaking up with her meant she could dedicate her time to helping Cosima, as well as distance herself from her. Again, Delphine’s one motivation through the seasons has been helping Cosima. She loves and cares about Cosima more than her own damn life, to the point of extreme self-sacrificial tendencies. But this thought post isn’t about that.

When Delphine breaks up with her, Cosima trembles. Her lower lip is trembling, her eyes are filled with tears. Even earlier on in the episode when Felix gets a call from Sarah, Cosima immediately asks if there’s any word on Delphine. And when Delphine comes to meet her, Cosima is so elated. She breaks out into a megawatt grin and melts into her arms, whispering into Delphine that she’s so happy she’s back. And when Delphine says she only has a minute, Cosima steps back and disappointedly says “oh, okay. Just a minute?” But of course, Delphine is there with a heavy heart to break up with her. But Cosima, still holding out hope and still desperately in love with her, tearfully and with a tremble in her voice says she loves her. But Delphine brushes past that and says something about work, because this is hard enough for her without Cosima saying things like that.

No matter the motive, can you imagine how much that hurt Cosima? I’m not saying Delphine was wrong for breaking up with her, but sometimes the things we do to save the people we love can’t help but hurt them. And that must’ve placed a huge crack in Cosima’s heart. Especially since she had so recently almost died, and her vision of Delphine was what kept her alive. That scene was so heartbreaking, and the amount of damage it must’ve done on Cosima would have been excruciating, while she was probably already internally grappling with that sudden shock and fear of almost dying. The desperation and heartbreak apparent on Cosima’s face when she said “I love you”; that tilt of her eyebrows, the tremble of her lips. Cosima, out of so many of the other clones, has this incredibly honest display of sadness. While her actions, and her words, and everything else about her may get wonky sometimes, her expressions are blatantly honest.

Moving on, Felix notices she’s pining. Rightfully so, Delphine was the love of her life and she can’t be with her anymore. So he gets her up, says some generic friend stuff like “blah, blah, she was a bitch, blah blah, dating app, blah blah”, which Delphine was not a bitch Delphine was trying her hardest, but even though the main cast had been giving her the cold shoulder for the past few seasons as well, I can see where he was coming from there. Cosima is arguably the saddest one out of the whole bunch, and that includes Helena. Helena is the loneliest, definitely, but Cosima is the saddest. (In season three, even, Kira implies this when she talks about what she can feel in each of the clones.) And so Felix hooks her up with this dating app, and thats when Cosima meets Shay.

Oh, Shay.

I will honestly defend Shay to my grave, as well. Cosima (even though I am sometimes critical of her), Delphine, and Shay I will ardently defend. Shay is just a well meaning, sweet-natured girl that was looking for a date. Shay does NOT deserve any of what goes on around her in season 3, that poor girl gets thrust smack dab in the middle of Cosima and Delphine’s drama and she didn’t deserve that. She seems sketchy, with the whole “who’s Sarah?” and hiding the fact that she was in the military, but it turned out to be a red herring anyway.

When they first meet, Cosima totally bumbles her way through their first meeting, almost instantly bringing up Delphine when she starts talking to Shay. At first, it seems kind of awkward and like they’d clash, since Shay is a very spiritual person and works in holistic healing/spritual counsel. But honestly, I think Cosima was drawn to that in this season. Cosima came off as awkward when she met Shay the first time, but it seemed like she was really relishing the chance to talk to someone away from all the dark science of the clone conspiracy going on. And remember, Cosima is DYING. She had just had her heart grievously broken, and up til now still hadn’t told anyone about her near death experience. While as a hard scientist, she may not have really believed in the spiritual aspect of Shay’s profession, she may have found comfort in it anyway whether it be from the fact that Shay believed in it, that the aesthetic and atmosphere of it was soothing, or even that Shay also worked in nutrition may have helped as well. (I mean, in season 4 we find out that Cosima likes spirulina in her smoothie, so…)

And Shay is sweet. Undeniably, she is sweet. She’s sweet, and she’s affectionate. She walks Cosima through the meet up, even comforting her with an awkward date story. When Cosima takes her back to Felix’s place, Shay is giving her a massage, and even asks Cosima if she wants to talk about the breakup. Just having someone offer to listen, be there as even a little support in this whole mess of a hidden thing Cosima has herself mixed up in, must be so comforting. It adds some sense of normalcy to the hectic disaster that is Cosima’s life. Shay already comes off as a very physical person. She’s into the whole healing aspect of her profession, and holistic healing involves a lot of the Mind Body Spirit style. Again, Cosima is dying. Sexual contact, sexual intercourse, being touched affectionately or intimately or intensely… any number of those things can make you feel alive again. So soon after almost dying, Cosima must be craving a sensation of feeling alive, and Shay is the only one around her that can provide that for her, since Delphine has denied herself to her.

But Cosima starts skipping work, starts doing shifty things like not giving her pee up when Delphine is genuinely just trying to help her. While a lot of the things she does and how she reacts to Delphine could be argued that they’re done out of spite, I feel like they’re also done out of a sense of shame and panic. Cosima, who is DYING, and almost DIED, still hasn’t told anyone about her almost dying. Maybe, she doesn’t want anyone to know just how weak she is, or maybe she herself doesn’t want to know how weak she is. Even before Delphine broke up with her, when Delphine was showing concern over her physical health, Cosima asked her to stop. Cosima doesn’t want to be reminded of her own mortality. Shay could very well almost be likened to an addiction in season 3. Cosima has a need to sate the feeling of being alive, and being with Shay gives her that. Logically, she knows she should stop, as seen when Cosima was going to take things slow, but chemically she needs that and rather than take it slow, falls back into Shay’s arms and bed. Shay, who doesn’t know Cosima is dying, treats her like a normal, healthy person. Imagine how painful it must be for Cosima, seeing the faces of her friends and former lover and seeing worry and pity. How painful it must be for her, hiding the fact that she almost died, still struggling to get over Delphine, and being reminded of her mortality not just by her body, but by the reactions of those closest to her. Cosima acting out in season three can arguably be attributed to her feeling trapped and frightened. She used to think it was cool, the whole clone thing, and then she started dying. That sense of wonder and enthusiam and excitement and hopefulness has been slowly sapped of her every single season and replaced with exhaustion and fear and despair and heartbreak. Cosima probably feels a sense of alienation in comparison to the rest of the characters. She’s the only one so far that’s actively dying, and none of the other characters can relate to that.

When Delphine comes personally to Shay’s house, done out of worry because Cosima is still a brilliant scientist and needs to show up because she’s dying and needs to find a cure, Cosima probably feels threatened. Shay’s home has become a sort of safe space for Cosima, a little sanctuary to escape to where none of the other characters come to. None of the weird science or weird drama bleeds through the walls of Shay’s home. And when Delphine comes into that safe space, it takes a little bit of the magic away for Cosima, and she needs a deeper level of comfort, so she tells Shay about her health issue and starts bleeding in the bath. Shay, of course, is immediately there at her side to remain a physical support as well as emotional.

Cosima, in season 3, is running away.

A body in motion, stays in motion.

On some subconscious level, Cosima must be hoping that if she keeps running away from these things then she’ll escape it somehow. So she acts out, and does some stupid shit. Like bringing Shay to the Dyad. At this point, Shay herself is some sort of a safe space for her as well, so she kind of cancels out some of the scariness of Cosima’s reality. Shay becomes this sort of idealized fantasy for Cosima, where Shay is a concept of sanctuary and is used as a blanket of protection for Cosima’s fear. I really think that her relationship with Shay showed some insight into how much of a sad and fearful person Cosima really is. Like when Sarah and Cosima have that Skype chat, and Cosima doesn’t give much information about her whereabouts or about Shay, but does tell Sarah “it’s what I need right now”.

Shay, ends up being the first person Cosima references her almost dying too, though she keeps it vague. Shay is a spiritual person, something so detached from the hard science of Cosima’s life. That’s probably one of the reasons why she mentions it, because of that spiritual aspect that could reach inside her and comfort a wounded spot on her heart. The hard science of that near death experience would not be as comforting. It would be logical, cold, it wouldn’t take into account a 'soul’ of a person or how they felt about it. Science is the cold hard truth. Spirituality, is a warm embrace of potential truth. Something more centered in human thought and something that could lend comfort far more than the science could. And that brings us to Shay’s quote, a piece of deeply metaphorical lyric in terms of Cosima and Delphine’s relationship.

“I have a theory before we leave this life, we see what we love, I mean like pit of the soul can’t live without it love. And if it’s strong enough, sometimes we find our way back.”

Cosima, lying on the ground in Shay’s home, has some of the happiness drain from her eyes. That moment, the only person she’s thinking about is Delphine. The only person she’s truly wanted this whole season is Delphine, but she can’t have her. So she settles for someone that can provide a different kind of comfort.

And Cosima, when confronted with Delphine in her office, tells her to let her go if she won’t be with her. There are some grievous errors in communication this seasons between these two. Delphine, who’s doing everything she can and sacrificing her mental health and her physical health and her literal entire life to help her, has tried to push Cosima into a zone where she responds to her with logical help rather than emotion. And Cosima, doesn’t understand this because she’s so blinded by pain, by sadness, by despair, and by this overwhelming feeling of alienation and trappedness. In that moment, when they’re actually arguing and talking just a bit about their feelings, Cosima tells her that she almost died, says that it would’ve been so easy for her to slip away and that she only came back for her. Cosima loves her, so desperately and she’s craved her affection for the whole season. Cosima, who’s logical brain has become influenced both by the poetic spirituality of Shay and her own near death, didn’t believe that Delphine would believe that kind of thing, because Cosima didn’t. They’re both in the hard sciences, but their love for each other crosses boundaries and spans across great lengths. Delphine, who sacrificed literally every piece of herself for Cosima, and Cosima who hung onto life only because of Delphine.

But Cosima still quits the Dyad, because of that feeling of trappedness. By this time there has been an increasing sense of worry in her that this will be the rest of her life. Anything she does there might not even help her. Nothing has worked so far, so why would it suddenly now? And she feels trapped.

And Delphine has put that kernel of doubt about Shay inside of her, the kernel caused by the fact that Shay never revealed she was in the military. Her sanctuary, her safe space in Shay has become tainted by doubt, and more subtly tainted in the fact that Shay is starting to worry over her too. Shay checks her forehead before Cosima leaves her home, and Cosima isn’t having that. The combination of Cosima’s knowledge of her being in the military and Shay’s knowledge of Cosima’s sickness have ruined this idealized paradise Cosima built for herself to run away to when the emotional noise of the dark world around her grew too loud.

So she panics, and she goes to Delphine. She tells her things she hasn’t been telling her for the entire season, things that Delphine could’ve helped with. She admits out loud to Delphine that she messed up, and its because she’s been trying to run away from all this. She voices her concerns out loud to Delphine, knowing full well Delphine will probably do something about this, realizing and hoping in that moment that Delphine who’d always provided her support and protection would be able to somehow fix everything. But even that was a mistake, and she calls Delphine in the middle of threatening Shay, and the look on Delphine’s face just looks so… dead. While Delphine may have gone through this season having steeled herself off, she still threatened an innocent girl. Delphine is a character with a lot of heart, who’d do anything for Cosima. But Shay was innocent, and that must’ve stunned and hurt Delphine, who suddenly allowed her emotional dam to break in the culminating episode of season 3. Delphine went to Shay, in the next episode, saying she knows what she did was unforgivable. Delphine who swallows her feelings and wants Shay to take care of Cosima while she’s gone, because Delphine isn’t blind. She knows how sad Cosima is, she knows how much she needs someone.

Delphine and Cosima, despite their mistakes and how much they miscommunicate with each other, both have so much heart. Their emotions are turned up to eleven. Delphine feels guilty, and so does Cosima. Cosima dragged Shay into their drama, and she apologizes, but also voices her doubt which is a mistake.

Shay calls her the fuck out. Everything Shay says to her in episode 10 is a reference to every way Cosima has acted out incorrectly in season 3. She calls her a liar, says she has no idea who she is. Shay wants to though, because Shay is sweet. Shay, even though she was threatened and brought into the drama betwen Cosima and Delphine, is still willing to learn and to understand. But Cosima can’t tell her. Shay was… a fantasy. Something for Cosima to run away to.

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” - Phillip K. Dick

The darkly scientific underground is Cosima’s reality. And she can’t be hovering between two words, because one doesn’t exist to her. However much she might want to run away, she can’t. Season 3 was all about Cosima trying to run away, but being unable to. A lot of people argue that Cosima’s character in season 3 would be construed as bad writing, but I just think its heartbreaking because season 3 is about the ill-fated romance between Cosima, who wants to run away from that dark world that makes her feel trapped and can’t talk to anyone about it, and Delphine who silently put her own self in the middle of it just to save Cosima.

And at the end of the season finale, Delphine goes to her. Cosima invites her to the dinner, but Delphine doesn’t go in because the clock is ticking on her life, and she knows she’s not invited. Cosima may love her, but the rest do not.

And there’s a mirrored repeat of the first episode of the season.

Episode 3x01 Cosima; “oh, okay. Just a minute?”

Episode 3x10 Cosima; “Not even for a minute?”

Its a mirror image of the first episode. And like a mirror, its flipped. Delphine comes for a moment, and leaves despite Cosima’s questions. Though in episode one, it’s a not a request. In the first episode it’s more of a question of why she’s leaving her, but in the tenth episode its more of a request for her to stay. And Cosima apologizes. She acknowledges the fact that she forced Delphine to make difficult choices, and that she blamed them for the outcome. While Delphine deserves more than an at-face apology, Cosima truly doesn’t know the lengths that Delphine has gone for her, and Cosima has no time to truly express her regret to her because Delphine, just like the first episode, leaves. And she doesn’t come back. And Cosima never knew, because Delphine was her protector. Delphine shielded her from the inky black heart of this dark world they found themselves in by placing herself right in the centre and absorbing all of that darkness. Because Delphine loves her. The look in Cosima’s eyes, when Delphine touches her cheeks and is brought to tears, is of such innocent confusion. There’s a heaviness to Delphine’s actions and eyes that Cosima doesn’t recognize. And Delphine leaves her, her final words to her being “give your sisters all my love”. That kiss, the final kiss and Cosima’s apology, gave Delphine the strength to walk to her own execution.

And she leaves Cosima, who’s confused and stunned into silence by the weight of the look in Delphine’s eyes.

Which brings us to our current season.

When we first see Cosima again, she’s in a new location, hiding in her own little marijuana crop and staring dazedly up at the ceiling. There’s a marked lack of light and happiness in her eyes, a sort of hollow confusion that remained after Delphine left into the night and never returned.

And while a lot of people have mentioned that she doesn’t mention Delphine much until episode 4x06, I feel like that’s because Cosima’s trying to steel herself much in the same way Delphine was in season 3. Cosima has seen how much things mess up when she tries to run away, so she suppresses them and shoves them down, pouring her heart into science and work. The only one she opens up to slightly with her concerns is Mrs. S, who remains a comforting motherly figure to the main characters. She asks her to tell her that Delphine is alive, not needing proof but just need someone to say it out loud. I don’t think she’s looking for proof right then, but there’s this seed of worry and she needs to hear someone else acknowledge her. What she gets is a hug, and some words of comfort, but it’s not what Cosima wanted. It’s not what she needed to hear right then, and after that she’s… probably kind of scared that someone else might react the same way because what she needed was to hear someone else say she’s alive and she didn’t get that.

And we don’t even hear Delphine’s in junction with Cosima until episode 6, when Cosima gives Evie that data and sequenced genome.

The same episode that Cosima called Delphine her soul mate. Now, here’s where I think the Shay influence showed through. I cannot see season 1 Cosima call Delphine her soul mate. I can’t even see season 2 Cosima as her soul mate. But that… poetic humanity of Shay’s spirituality seems to have rubbed off on Cosima. Something about Shay’s dead, spot on words about Cosima’s near death experience stunned Cosima. With everything Cosima’s seen, Delphine really is and always will be the one for her. And Cosima finally knows it.

And that data… that data was data Delphine helped her with. They’ve been working together since season 1, and that data was the only thing Cosima had left of her. That was the only thing she had left of her, and Evie robs her of it. Evie breaks Cosima, out in the middle of nowhere, and crushes her by looking her in the eye and telling her Delphine is dead.

Cosima breaks.

And that break is obvious in last nights episode.

Oh my god, 4x07, what an emotional ride. We needed to see it though. Every season has been slowly culminating into a fine point of Cosima being ruined on the inside. Cosima has gone through such a dramatic set of changes since the first season. In season 1 she was an optimistic, enthusiastic, hopeful character. And as the seasons have gone by, she’s become sadder and sadder. Kira’s words being heavy implications of Cosima being the most sad out of them all.
And that episode starts out with Cosima bitingly saying that her lab partner is dead. She apologized to Scott, but I really don’t think her comment was meant to hurt Scott.

It was meant to hurt herself.

Cosima caused herself intentional pain by saying that. And jesus, the end of the episode… She just… The idea of Delphine being dead made Cosima lose her will to live entirely. We’ve seen Delphine be ready and willing to die for Cosima, Delphine who was a tragic hero, and now we’ve seen Cosima be ready and willing to die because of Delphine. Cosima legitimately thought she was better off dead than alive.

“She’s at the end of her rope, Felix. She blames herself for Kendall, and she blames herself for Delphine.”

All that built up sadness and fear and heartbreak suddenly manifested in a massive sunburst of self hatred within Cosima. That scene, with Cosima trembling and covered in blood, Cosima was trying to will her nerves down as she was preparing to die. People who want to live don’t lock their friends out to do something EXTREMELY dangerous.

Cosima’s voice when she answers her phone, she’s trembling so hard and trying to will her voice into normalcy. And when Felix says he has information about Delphine, the sound of Cosima’s voice when she respond back just… It sounds like there’s a wad stuck in her throat. It so low and trembly, it even takes her a few seconds to respond because she has to force the words out because of how emotional she is. And Cosima just… When Felix tells her that Delphine is alive she sits there stunned for a moment, her lip trembling and covered in blood, and she drops the maggot and suddenly cracks. She breaks and starts sobbing and gets covered in blood, and tears, and sweat, and snot and just… she curls the phone up to her face, holding onto it like a lifeline. Holding onto the little device in which she heard that Delphine is alive. Delphine, the person she loves most on the entire planet. Delphine, the person she loves so much she lost her entire will to live when she found out she was dead. We’ve seen so many grandiose displays of affection and love from Delphine, but jesus… While being heartbreaking and tragic the fact Cosima not only lost the will to live, but also gained the desperate desire to die because of the fact that Delphine was dead just… is provably a representation of how much Cosima loves Delphine. The only thing that stood between Cosima and death was a last minute phone call from Felix telling her that Delphine was alive.

And that brings up that quote from Shay, again.

“I have a theory before we leave this life, we see what we love, I mean like pit of the soul can’t live without it love. And if it’s strong enough, sometimes we find our way back.”

Cosima can’t live without Delphine, and you can believe that the one thing Cosima saw reflected in her eyes as she was about to put that bot in her mouth were images of Delphine. Shay’s words were so eerily spot on in their foreshadowing. Cosima Niehaus cannot live without Delphine Cormier, and the only thing that gave her enough strength to keep breathing was the knowledge of Delphine being alive.

Over the years I’ve just grown to love the relationship between these two even more, and I can say, without a doubt that the romantic relationship between Delphine Cormier and Cosima Niehaus is one of the most beautiful and profound and tragic and deeply moving relationships I have ever seen.

And I really and truly do believe the strength of their love has the ability to cross great lengths and distances.

Rock Never Dies/But There Are Things Much Worse Than Death

Yeah, so I’m starting with a Dumbledore quote this week, because Dumbledore’s always relevant and also whoa, wouldn’t that an interesting crossover?

[”Bad plot bunny! Down, plot bunny!”]

First things first: this episode wasn’t exactly terrible, but I’m only partially happy with it. Because, like, my problem with Supernatural at this point (and I say ‘at this point’ because I’m feeling generous and fully drenched in Christmas cheer) is really its lack of consistency. And, look, I’m not saying that a show must be an absolute masterpiece in order to be enjoyable - I understand that’s a hard thing to do, and okay - and also, there are shows I consider ‘beach viewing’ (that’s how you call a specific kind of books in Italian: stuff that can be read on a beach) - they’re not particularly exciting, and if they cancel them I’ll probably live, but they’re entertaining and comforting. I know what I can expect, week after week. And Supernatural - I simply don’t understand how a show that can give us stuff like Baby and Changing Channels and Swan Song and Hunteri Heroici and so many other episodes that were as close to perfection as they could get them can also give us stuff which is, frankly, awful to meh. Because Rock Never Dies? Sort of okay, and it sort of improves in rewatch, but only because our beloved Team Free Will + was working together, and that’s such a rare thing it was a delight to watch. Really, sometimes I get this feeling nobody really knows where the story is going or what to make of these characters and their motivations - the only ones to be completely consistent are Wanek and his minions - but, then again, they’re the same ones who wrote a you people read too much into this graffiti last year - and since that graffiti was visible in the background for half a second and we still saw it, I’m guessing we don’t have a leg to stand on. So, well - I don’t know if they drink schnapps instead of coffee during team meetings (if they do have team meetings, that is) or if they’re so focused on keeping everybody happy they’ve forgotten their primary goal is actually telling a story, but, man.

Well, whatever - back to the episode.

My first complaint would be that they’ve forgotten how to write supernatural creatures. Who Lucifer is and what he wants - to me, it didn’t work all that well. Lucifer was supposed to be the first angel to act on free will, and now suddenly he’s falling apart because dad isn’t there to tell him what to do? A few years ago he wanted to destroy the world, and now he wants people to love him? He spent months humiliating Crowley and then almost killed him but now he keeps Crowley alive because ‘you can’t hurt me, lolz’? And, again - enough with the daddy issues. Everybody on this show seems to function exclusively on daddy issues, and I’ll give Sam and Dean a pass, but these are not humans - they’re angels and demons and they shouldn’t be coded on the same parameters of human beings, otherwise what’s the point? Honestly, I’m so fed up I’m even starting to dislike the fact Crowley doesn’t kill anyone anymore, because that, in a way, was a perfect example of him being ‘other’ (being a good guy while also enjoying human flesh muffins, that is). But, well, the thing is - trying to write the unwritable - a thing that is way beyond anything we can imagine as humans - some writers, like Neil Gaiman and Susanna Clarke, can do it so perfectly you can’t sleep at night; and others - others should start considering turning their chracters human, because at least they would make sense.

(For instance, Lucifer beating Crowley with a guitar was suitably horrific, full of demented rage and all, but Cas attempting to attack Lucifer with a guitar was just weird. Is that how angels fight? Really?)

Turning to Destiel - I’m happy Dean changed Cas’ name from Castiel to Cass (even if, for God’s sake, what’s up with the extra s?), and the fact that Cas actually has opinions on what Dean wears was welcome news (not to Dean, since he acted all embarrassed and changed, like, five minutes later - although, I’m guessing he’ll be back in plaid next week), but, again - keeping whatever is going on between them in the subtext is starting to mess with these guys’ charactierization. For instance, infamous germaphobe Dean Winchester picking up a pair of discarded underwear? Yeah, I don’t think so. Literally the only purpose of him doing that was reminding us he’s partial to pink panties (on himself, that is), and having him glance at Cas as he held them, and showing us Cas picking them up next. But, subtext aside, it was a wtf thing for him to do.

(Much love for the fact they had two references to endverse this week - the panties and the ‘fearless leader’ jab at the end. Man, I’m still not over that episode.)

Under the cut: Sam acting weird, Crowley breaking my heart, the Winchesters vs the British MoL, Samson and Ladyheart and some random thoughts and feels.

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Science versus Feelings

Hello! So I promised I’d start posting Farklecentric essays. As an RPer I’ve always watched shows or canons paying to the very minute details of how a character holds themselves, speaks, or moves in certain situations.

And since the topic of the hour around here is often focused on ships, I figured this was a good place to start! Because it’s really important here and it’s not just a ship focus– Farkle’s whole character development has been this prominent display of ‘is feelings greater than science?’

And the answer for this boy is simply this: Yes.

The first episode we see this real confrontation in is in, of course, Girl Meets Smackle. Farkle and her discuss their rivalry and it’s very prominent there are feelings there. However, this seems to be mostly one-sided (Smackle). We actually don’t see Farkle recuperate any of her advances in this episode. He very distinctly does not get her asking him out on a date. Fast forward to Girl Meets I am Farkle, he still doesn’t quite get it.

For Farkle’s arc Smackle is the practical embodiment of science. He’s attracted to her! There is no denying that. He does feel strongly for that is or will never change just as his attraction to science won’t. Smackle is important to him in the same sense as science is– irreplaceable.

However, from as early as episode one we start to see the arc that prevails in season two for Farkle. In the first episode he is faced with the dilemma of school (knowledge) versus his girls (love/feelings/etc). At the time he is strained and unable to chose between the two. In Girl Meets Boy, however, he chooses to put the desires of Riley before his own (FOR EVERYONE WHO SAYS FARKLE PRIORITIZES RILEY: It’s been since the first episode, guys). He knowingly goes into what he feels is a dangerous situation because of his will to make her happy.

These instances are both important because they’re when we start to see Farkle having a tug-a-war between these two instances. What is the logical answer? Okay, so what is the answer my feelings want to make?

I’ve seen people say that Farkle had a sudden character change, but that’s untrue. His changes have been rooted as early as season one Girl Meets Boy. And let me explain further why:

Socially Farkle feels he is inapt– and for good reason. Everyone looks at Maya’s life as really bad, but honestly with the clues we have to Farkle’s home life she seems to be doing A LOT better in mental health. Why? Farkle is used to the constant in-home fighting. He is honestly perplexed at the idea of people and families being close and at home together. It’s outwardly said that Maya understands this more than he does. He seems to have literally been raised by technology (see the fact in Girl Meets Boy he states life can’t exist without technology as it is and Stuart’s primary focus is always enhancement).

There’s also the fact that the boy suffers from anxiety to the point of panic attacks. This is something I feel stems from the pressure Stuart puts on him. He’s flat out told his son that Topanga should have been his mother. Farkle feels like he has to impress him. When we see him talking to his father it’s always polite, refrained, polished– even when he berates him. You can tell in both instances that Stuart isn’t used to his son talking back. Furthermore, BOTH times Farkle tells Stuart he has different plans for his future Stuart looks visibly taken aback (watch the Legacy scene carefully, Stuart’s smile is very tight and he pulls Farkle away for a few moments).

And let’s not forget: Farkle honestly does not feel he understands or knows how to love.

Important stuff here, right?


Because Farkle’s arc regarding feelings starts in Crazy Hat. It’s when he’s given his first real reality check. He’s told to ‘not keep the dollar’ which at the time isn’t a concept he understands. He’s always been surrounded by money, his father has always succeeded and shown to keep the dollar. This is the first time that Farkle is told that maybe this superiority thing isn’t so good. Maybe everything he’s been taught wasn’t right. He considers passing it on, if briefly from fear, but he’s not ready to move on yet.

So we move onto Friendship where Farkle has the chance to become dictator. Farkle who’s science and logic about ruling the world. Who understands people as on the level uof sheep and can be controlled at this point, ultimately even PROVES IT…. Decides… against it? Why? Because Riley tells him she won’t talk to him again after he mistreats her. Reality check number two. He decides that being a dictator wouldn’t be so great if he had no friends.

We’ll fastforward a little more and push to Belief where Farkle is once more confronted with science versus belief. In an interesting move, Disney actually allows an openly atheist character. Because Farkle outright said he doesn’t believe in things he can’t see and by the end of the episode this doesn’t change. However, he does realize maybe he wasn’t completely right and that some things are just right and are. That science can’t dictate everything…

And so we move onto Yearbook. Honestly, this was not a scene that wasn’t meditated on his part. Farkle was honestly prepared for this change. It’s something he was planning on. I say this because he already had the clothes and character in mind: Donnie Barnes, regular guy. Why is this important? Because he describes Farkle as a goofy scientist. This was his first prominent, open move of trying to breakaway from science. It’s why by the end of the episode he explains to Lucas that he needs to be allowed not to be a scientist sometimes. That, in order to grow, he needs to be allowed to explore.

So brings on I am Farkle. Like Yearbook, this episode is pivotal. Yearbook brings us discovery and a yearning to be something else. However, he still doesn’t feel like he can quite be anything else yet. This is because when they test him for Asperger’s the concept isn’t beyond him. All the conditions he heard about seemed appropriate for the feelings he always felt he had– or lac-thereof in his case.

By the end of this episode Farkle is actively aware that the issues he thought he had weren’t real at all. He suddenly realized that everything he was feeling until then were real– It wasn’t a game. He always thought they were because he didn’t understand them, but now suddenly their concepts and the concepts of love were real.

Which is 100% of the reason why I feel his actual growth in this series starts right then and there: Because Farkle Minkus starts embracing feelings. We don’t see him get into a lot of highly emotional scenes until after this episode. But it’s Farkle who later pushes the girls to confront their feelings. He pushes Maya about her liking Farkle when she asks him to help her. He firmly goes ‘You care about him’ until she threatens to hurt him. Likewise, he later pushes Riley into admitting her feelings for Lucas.

And of course there is our lovely New Years scene.

There’s one more, though, too and it’s one I briefly went over before: His confrontation with Stuart in Money. And even Legacy. Farkle is focusing on honesty and feelings. Or, to better put it, it’s often about interpersonal connections. We’re seeing a kid who actively thought he should keep his money because people didn’t matter to a kid who goes ‘nah dad let’s give away all our money other people need it more’. THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT.

And it’s something I do not believe his relationship with Smackle will be able to grasp.

To better put this in a frame of mind: If Smackle is his metaphor for science than Riley is his metaphor for emotion. Smackle and him make sense, they’re logical. Riley and him, however, are always emotionally charged. Again we move all the way to Friendship where he physically recoils when she threatens not to talk to him.  Their scenes are always the ones where Farkle gives the most reaction to. Even in Money with Maya his features and words are reserved and meticulously chosen.

I think one of the best examples I’ve seen to explain this is a headcanon I saw floating around: Smackle comes over one day and sees PLuto on the ceiling. She scolds him and tries to delete it, but Farkle won’t let her. And when he tries to explain why it fails to be any scientific or logical reasoning: It’s something he believes in (Riley).

There’s a reason they constantly have Farkle associate Smackle with science and Riley with belief. At least from a shipping standpoint, but also in a character standpoint it shows where his character is growing to. Season one for him was science season two for him is emotion. We see this develop very carefully until it bursts out in I am Farkle.

Farkle will end up, however unfortunately, naturally leaving Smackle behind without ever realizing it. Not because his feelings for her change but because he’s questioning science and its importance in his life. It no longer outweighs everything else. Instead he’s finding that emotion and people do. So where does that lead him to?

Can we not be scientists for a moment, sir?

Is it possible that feelings are more powerful than science?

Keep discovering, Farkle.

The one thing I always insist when people try to classify Meyer as the brains of the outfit with Charlie as the brawn is that Charlie has got brains.  Charlie’s a thinker.  The problem is that while Meyer can emotionally detach himself to a frightening degree, Charlie’s always thinking first with his heart.  He can’t separate the business end of things from the personal.  When the D’Alessio Brother Number Whatever puts down Meyer, the hackles raise and he barks, “he’s a pal of mine, like I said.”  Like Gyp, it’s all personal to Charlie.

So he relies on Meyer to an immense degree.  When we see him trying to reconcile with Jimmy after the hostilities of the previous season, what does he give as his reason?  “Meyer thinks we should meet.”  Meyer can restrain him without leashing him, can give advice without condescending him.  Meyer can look beyond the personal, at least for the time being.  Meyer thinks with his head.  So he listens to Meyer, always.  “Discuss it with your partners,” Masseria taunts him.  But he can shoulder the taunts because he recognizes that Masseria’s cut from the same deck, that everything is personal, that he’ll make a bad business decision if it salvages his pride – hence his exasperated rejoinder (“you’re the expert on Joe now”) to Meyer’s cool-headedness (“he’ll go for the money”).  He knows that Masseria might tempt him with promises of blood and tradition but that he’s nothing more than a convenience.  He knows that Masseria will toss him to the wolves one day.

Just like everyone else. Season 1 Charlie is no doubt a dreamer and a schemer.  His efforts to worm his way into Jimmy Darmody’s life, his efforts to have Nucky capped… If only his efforts weren’t continually thwarted by the betrayals of others.  Mickey Doyle, who never really learned the meaning of loyalty and finally paid for it with his life.  Gillian, who averted her eyes but knew her son meant more.  (In Season 2, it’s Torrio turning against him – Torrio, who raised Charlie on the streets but has no trouble laying down a death sentence).  Regretful, maybe, but betrayals all the same.  No wonder Charlie’s a paranoid bastard. He can’t trust anyone farther than the end of the nose.

These betrayals all come to a head, of course, when Rothstein sells him out to teach him a lesson, to one-up his rivals, and to make a bit of dough. He’s apoplectic at Rothstein, who once more threw him to the wolves, but he’s apologetic to Meyer, who’s still at his side, who he should have trusted, who was only trying to guide him straight.  He’ll go to Masseria, sure, because that’s a move made in anger, but we know where his loyalties lie, and so does he.

So now we come upon the events of The North Star and Charlie knows that for all his smiles, Petrucelli’s just another Masseria, a man who will prey upon him through promises and back-slapping and “shared commonalities” before feeding him to the gators when he’s no longer of use.  So he keeps one eye over his shoulder and begs Meyer to run with him.  After all, if there’s one person who won’t throw him to the wolves, it’s Meyer.  If there’s one person who he can trust, if there’s one person who’s always guided him straight, if there’s one person who always has his best interests at heart, it’s Meyer.  But suddenly Meyer’s saying no.  “We’re partners, Meyer,” he protests.  Not you, too, he thinks.  But yes, him, too, because now Meyer’s not on his side.  Not on this one.  Not anymore.  Leaving him to face Masseria’s wrath alone.  So when he meets with Masseria and Tonino and Yale, it’s all, “we got business, him and me.”  Nothing more.  Not anymore.

Season 5 of Boardwalk Empire was wonderful, but if there’s one thing that was really hurt by the seven-year time skip (and by the lackadaisical handling of the Luciano-Lansky storyline in Season 4), it was Charlie’s rise to power.   It was seeing the reconciliation between him and Meyer, the realization that the two of them could take on the heads of the underworld and win, the scheming, the feigned sympathies and loyalties, the mask.  It was seeing the moment where Charlie thought, “I can be free of all this” and decided to do something about it.

The fact that we can still draw such conclusions when we see Charlie again in 1931 is a testament to Vincent Piazza, who has always been great, but whose Season 5 performance was simply mind-boggling.  The jittery hands quieted, the eyes deadened and calculating, the voice, always a growl, now just plain earthen.  He’s learned that you can’t trust everybody – in fact, you can hardly trust anybody, so you better be holding the right cards when the time comes.  Better yet, why not be holding all the cards?  So when he is, and Nucky kneels at his feet, you might fault him for kicking a dog when it’s down, but, really, how can you?  “Name one person you ain’t fucked over,” he says as a person who’s been on the receiving end of it one too many times.

See how he frets in Eldorado about being the man at the top.  But it isn’t lonely at the top.  Not anymore.  Not with Meyer on one side and Benny on the other.  Not with a new breed about to arise.

“The old way of doing things – it’s over.”  So says the man at the top.

anonymous asked:

The news about Hoechlin hit me really hard. First because Derek is my favourite character (and Stiles obviously) and because probably there is no more Sterek scenes. And I really want to cry. I know i'm overreacting but I can't take it so... If you know something to make me feel better I'll be really glad.

I feel you there, anon. 

And I don’t know if I can make you feel better, but I’m sure as hell going to try right now. 

You know how many Sterek fics there are on AO3 right now? 33,497 fics. 

You know the only pairings that have more? Johnlock and Destiel. The difference is only around 5,000 and 6,000 more than Sterek respectively. And that’s with Destiel having a three year head start on Sterek and Johnlock (encompassing all versions of it, not just the modern one) having like a 9 year head start (there is one actually published in 1993, but it’s just one and I didn’t know AO3 was even around then like woah I was a wee baby back then???) and a one year head start for Sherlock (and with that’s it’s around 4,000 more only).

So like, Sterek is up there with the big guns. It’s a big gun itself, and they never had 6, 7 seasons (and counting, maybe? Is Supernatural still on?) of scenes and a relationship to take things from and they didn’t have over a hundred years since their introduction.

They’re the ship that could - CAN.

All it took was one, into two seasons for them to blow up and become huge. And I still had my butt face of a sister in the corner going all “but they barely interact, I don’t get it, I don’t see it, maybe if they get more scenes, i dunno” 

From what I’ve seen, Destiel has had tons and tons of scenes over many many seasons, and of course Johnlock has. 

And then JD puts a stop to Sterek before it could even really start (Even just a friendship, a close friendship, which is what most Sterek shippers wanted, anyway, because we knew we were never going to get romantic Sterek and we were okay with that) and it didn’t work. MTV tried to put a lid on it and it’s shippers and it didn’t work.

For two seasons they kept Sterek apart and treated it like it was taboo and it still didn’t work.

They tried to silence Sterek shippers and it didn’t work. 

I know they would love for us to have done that, to just “let Sterek die” and it would have been easy, to just let Sterek go and not wish and hope for it and just let go of anything related to Teen Wolf completely. But we didn’t.

The one thing Jeff Davis and Co. would have loved for us to stop giving a shit about and it became one of the only things a lot of people care about in regards to Teen Wolf.

We’re not going anywhere.

Because Sterek is something special to me, to a lot of us. And fuck, call us delusional, call us bizzare and twisted, keep throwing it at us, because nothing has knocked us down, even if we’ve taken a few hits.


will not


no matter

how much

they want

it to

And I should explain while I’m ahead that thinking of this is what has been cheering me up and I’m hoping it can help you cheer up - just a side note, sorry if you’re reading this up to this point and are confused haha.

And I’ve seen people upset that there hasn’t been Sterek, not with Sterek itself. People are happy with Sterek, they just aren’t happy with how the JD and Co. have treated the relationship and its shippers. People aren’t happy with the show, but they are happy with Sterek. 

We all know if Jeff and MTV and the freaking PTB hadn’t been so scared to go forward with Sterek, that they would have had something even more special, even if it was just a friendship, even it was just platonic. Sterek shippers would and always have been taking that step to romance in fics, we’ve got it covered. 

If there wasn’t something there, even if it’s just a platonic bond to others or to the writers, then Sterek wouldn’t be as big it is. 

And, we got all but one Sterek scene - that was a dream sequence to boot - in 3B, we had two episodes and like 30 seconds of interaction in another in season 4 (and one can’t fully coun’t because it was young!Derek which was great but not quite the same) and people still hardcore shipped Sterek. We practically got nothing week after week after week and that didn’t stop people from shipping Sterek, so losing Derek, losing Hoechlin, won’t put a stop to Sterek shippers now. We barely had Derek in the show as it was. 

And now I’m thinking of fics where Derek leaves for however long he’s going to be gone, but Stiles still stays in touch with him and they kinda maybe get closer over texting and phone conversations and Stiles turns to Derek when the pack is falling apart because he’s fallen out with Scott and he and Malia are done so he doesn’t have anyone really to talk to except him. And then Derek comes back and then they become incredibly close and then maybeee over time, like while Stiles is college, they fall in love and it’s amazing and imperfect and they’re idiots that are in love with each other and YEAH. YEAH.

See, we got dis. We so got this. We probably were going to get next to nothing anyway even if Hoechlin had stayed, so we probably would have taken matters into our own hands, as you do, anyway. 

And Stiles and Derek separately.

Derek deserved more, I think. I’m soooo freaking sad to see him leave and I never wanted him to and him (and Stiles) being there is what kept me watching (as well as a few other characters but those two were the big reason why I stayed watching the show in season 4 and why I was gonna try and watch season 5) and I wish Hoechlin leaving wasn’t true, but at the same time, I’m kinda of happy it is. Because Derek deserved more, and Hoechlin’s gotta do what makes him happy and I am so happy for him, and it will be nice if Derek does pop up as a recurring character (I might actually watch an episode or two then) now and then, and if this is what is best for Hoechlin, then that’s good.

Stiles will, I’m sure, continue to be awesome and adorable and blunt and intelligent and hot and trying to keep the pack together, and I’ll definitely be trying to watch his scenes, at the very least. I can’t really abandon Stiles. 

And I guess, in the end, what I’ve been trying to say with all this is that…I’m trying to look at the positives, and I’m holding onto what I love, which is Sterek, and I’m not giving up on Stiles or Derek and they’ll still be around, even if Derek…not so much, or just in fics. Because he gets all he deserves and more in fics anyway.

So…um, Sterek is the key to my happiness right now, and maybe it can be yours, hopefully?

You can never go wrong with Sterek in your life.


Stiles sees Derek shift for the first time when he returns to Beacon Hills to save him, and when Derek turns back, he’s nakeddd and Stiles is all wide eyed and staring at Derek and Stiles squeaks out “Um, so…long time, no….see…?” while staring at Derek’s dick and biting his lip. And Derek huffing out a laugh and smirking at Stiles. 


Why a (Beth Greene) Immunity Arc Makes Sense

This is just my two cents.  Nothing earth shattering; just an observation.

How long can The Walking Dead continue on the current course before turning into a snoozefest? Don’t get me wrong, there is still a lot of action and good character interaction on the show, but overall it has a very predictable pattern. Team Family finds a place to live and be (relatively) safe.  Everything goes fairly well for a short while, but then the bad guy comes, there is a fight,  and they have to run.

Season 1 –TF thought they found safe haven until told that the CDC is going to self-destruct—have to run for their lives.

Season 2 – TF finds Hershel’s farm and they feel relatively safe until the herd comes— and they have to run for their lives—again.

Season 3 – TF finds the prison, and they feel relatively safe until the governor comes— and they have to fight. They defeat the Governor for the time being.

Season 4 – TF is still in the prison, feeling relatively safe and some sense of normalcy, but then they get a double whammy.  First is the flu, and then the Governor, who this time decimates the prison, forcing everyone to flee, scattered.

Season 5 – TF is searching for loved ones as well as  “sanctuary for all” at Terminus;  many are feeling hopeful.  However, Terminus turns out to be cannibals, and from there they go up against Grady. In the aftermath, TF is once again on the road in despair, looking for a safe place.

Season 6—Rick starts off very confident; cocky really.  Things seem easy until TF realizes going up against Negan was not a smart move.  Mayhem is sure to come for TF.

So does the storyline just continue in this pattern?  Where is hope?  

I compare it to Prison Break. 

 I am rewatching the show on Netflix, and it is just so darn depressing.  Even when Michael and the others escape, you know it is not going to be easy for them and they are hounded every step of the way. Season 3 is even bleaker when they are in the Panamanian jail.  When will they catch a break?  The pattern seems to be them trying to catch a break but they never do. How long can a person watch that vicious cycle before they lose interest? There has to be something more; something to root for other than defeating the latest adversary.

I believe it was Abraham Ford in this scene from season 5:

who so succinctly summed up this very pattern when he stated: “Is that all you want to be? Wake up in the morning, fight the undead pricks, forage for food, go to sleep with two eyes open, rinse and repeat?”  And he thought, at the time, that Eugene had the cure. We all know now that Eugene never had a cure— but that doesn’t mean that there isn’t one out there—somewhere.  Or with someone.  If you don’t have hope, what’s the point of living?

TD reflection time

I’m just sitting here, thinking about all the times I tried to be diplomatic, all the conceding things I said about Beth Greene’s chances of survival.

I think there were a lot of phrases like “I know it’s a long-shot but”/”of course it’s unlikely that” or “I have to admit that the chances aren’t good.”

But you know what? I REALLY don’t. I don’t have to admit that at all. 

I said all that stuff to be nice, and to give a little ground to skeptics so they wouldn’t think I was calling them stupid. <–actual motivations. I’m not calling them stupid, btw, there’s nothing wrong with being a skeptic, in fact I recommend it.

But I don’t need to be extra nice. The facts are:

It’s a show about coming back to life, where death is a big deal and gets a lot of thematic and cinematic emphasis.


They didn’t properly kill her.


They don’t even have to rely on supernatural elements, just a little suspension of disbelief. Like a tiny bit.

And it won’t even be the first time I saw a character graphically shot in the head only to have them alive a season later and I’m NOT talking about another fantasy/sci-fi show.

I’m including a gif of the headshot under this cut, don’t look at it if (a) you don’t want to see another graphic headshot or (b) you don’t want to expose yourself to spoilers.

I’m not even going to say what show I’m referencing until under the cut, because obviously that would count as a spoiler.

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Daryl The Anti-Prophet

So, I read this post (forgive me, I don’t remember who posted the meta, if I find it I’ll put the link here) that mentioned Daryl being an anti-prophet during his episodes with Beth, and I just have to say I think there is something pretty big to this concept, especially if you consider that fact that Beth and Daryl are Yin and Yang, polar opposites really, making her the true prophet of this scenario.

First, I’m going to start with Daryl.

Everything he said while he was arguing with her, and also throughout the episodes, turned out to be wrong. ”Everyone we know’s dead!” is a crucial one, but even when he says “Keep singing”, it’s proven wrong. After that, we don’t hear one song out of her mouth until Tyreese’s hillutionation, which is just a figment of his imagination and therefore doesn’t count. 

Also, he continues to be an anti-prophet after losing her! By him saying “So was she. She didn’t know it… But she was” this actually is the statement that made me remember the whole anti-prophet concept involving his character, because every audience member knows that this statement is simply false. Beth fan or not, we know that she was strong, and that she knew she was.

But that’s not what gets to me about this aspect of his character. What bothers me is the holes left of this piece of his persona. In other words, the two lines he says to Beth that end up coming true:

1. “You ain’t never gonna’ see Maggie again!”


2. “Faith. Faith ain’t done shit for us.”

These two lines are very important, because, assuming that Daryl did take the sort of anti-prophet role, these have yet to be proven wrong. 

Beth never did see Maggie before she “died”, and Daryl’s faith in Beth surviving was shot down when she took a bullet to the head. 

The fact that he says these things, and that they come true is either just heartbreaking because for once, his negativity was right, or, because they will be proven wrong. 

I choose to believe the later.

As far as Beth goes, I remember watching her appearances become more frequent in the show and as she was brought to our screens as a stronger character, I saw her take the role opposite of Daryl’s. Which is fitting since they already were opposites.

She became a prophet type character. 

She was the one that had faith their family was alive, which turned out being correct, she was the one who knew that she wasn’t like any of the other women that she knew had survived. These were vital pieces to her character. Her faith, her hope, her strength, her understanding of herself and the world, and the importance of her words. Because her words were truth. 

She and Rick were probably the last true truth speakers on the show for a while. 

Now, for Beth, there are also two lines of hers that bug me because they go against that piece of her character that acts as a prophet:

1. “But- I made it!”


2. “I’ll get out. Just like Noah.”

These are her two lines that weren’t correct, or that didn’t come true, (if she died that is)

So what is the point of her having those lines, after taking a kind of prophetic role, if they aren’t going to come true? 

In the end, she didn’t make it, and she didn’t get out like Noah. It doesn’t follow the pattern, and I am not saying that they wouldn’t switch it up, put a double meaning to everything, but it is a large piece of her character. 

Gimple himself she was alive for a reason, but what reason is that? To kill Dawn? She wasn’t even trying to kill her. If Beth was really going after her, she would’ve stabbed her neck. I mean, Dawn had a bullet proof vest on, that was plain enough to see. There was no way those tiny scissors would’ve penetrated that, and Beth isn’t stupid. That’s something we know about her, Beth’s smart, resourceful, and that is something Lauren Cohan even expressed during one of her appearances on TTD. 

“Beth really has a good head on her shoulders.”

So where was her head at when she stabbed Dawn? 

Overconfidence, EK says, was the place that Beth’s character was at during that moment, but that’s so out of character for Beth. There’s overconfidence, and then there’s stupidity. Stabbing Dawn’s shoulder was not just over confident, but also stupid, and Beth isn’t stupid. 

They said they wanted her to have a tasteful death, but what’s tasteful about having a smart character be stupid right before her end?

Another thing i’d like to mention about Beth’s lines during her episodes with Daryl, is a particular one that’s always bothered me.

Her line, “I know you look at me and just see another dead girl!” has always been tucked away in the back of my mind, and not just because it was true during that moment, but because it may hold more than we knew at that time. 

There is a very large possibility that this was foreshadowing her demise, but maybe it wasn’t just foreshadowing that. 

As I, and many other Team Delusional members, have mentioned before, Gimple said that he had been planning her death since season 4, but there is nothing saying that he didn’t plan more for her after that. 

In fact, as Beth’s biggest fan and defender, I’m betting that he did. 

I mean really think about it… You know what she is to the group right now? Just another girl that they couldn’t save. One more member of their family to put in the ground. So, she was right.

Yes, she was right, except for the rest of her argument which contradicts this statement entirely. 

“I’m not Michonne, I’m not Carol, I’m not Maggie… I survived and you don’t get it ‘cause, I’m not like you or them! But- I made it!”

No, she’s not Michonne, she’s not like Carol, she’s not Maggie, and she’s certainly not like Daryl. Again, Beth is right.

No, she’s like Rick. More specifically, she’s like season 1 Rick, especially during the beginning of her arc. 

She believes in people, she believes in the world and the good people can do even after everything has fallen apart, which is very similar to Rick in the very beginning of TWD, like when he apologized to the Walker about her fate, and put her out of her misery. Beth knew killing Walkers wasn’t supposed to be fun, she even told Daryl so.

At the point that she told Daryl that she wasn’t like any of them, she was talking about who they were in that moment, which I think is very important in relation to her line “You gotta stay who you are, not who you were”. The moment this line comes out of her mouth, it’s almost like this is what really twists her mentality to be able to withstand the kind of torment that she went through at Grady. 

And I find it absolutely hilarious that this is the very line that Deanna contradicts, since we know that because of this mentality (much like Grady and Woodbury), something terrible is bound to happen to them. Although I’d bet more on the survival and prosperity of Grady since it’s a hospital no longer lead by a tyrant. 

The important lesson we learn from Beth is that you can’t hold onto the past because it’s in the past, you have to stay who you are, not who you were, and this relates directly to Alexandria.

Beth Greene is exactly everything she said she was and more. This is one of the biggest reasons why I believe she’s alive. 

She’s to everyone else, just another dead girl at first, but then, miraculously, she makes it. She, in all her prophet like qualities, said this herself. 

[Anyway, I hope my rambling made some sense :) I believe in Beth greene, and I hope you all remember to not lose faith, because…]

“If you don’t have faith, what’s the point of living?”


Jackie and I went to the OB Fan Screening!

Evelyne Brochu:
A glimpse of perfect blonde curls and everyone knew exactly who it was. I tried to get closer, and we made eye contact, but before I could get a picture, the OB crew asked everyone to reform the line assuring us that she would travel down to us. So Jackie and I went back to waiting. After about twenty minutes, she was passing out muffins and jello to the group ahead of us. Being taller than everyone else, we made eye contact, and she asked if I wanted a muffin, and I said, “Yes, please.” Cue Evelyne Brochu literally throwing a muffin at me. She made her way through the group graciously listening to each fan, signing everything (including muffin wrappers), and taking tons of photos - saying “Let’s do it!” after any request. In the mix of this, we made eye contact again, and as if to reassure me that she’s on her way, she gave me a wink. I was quite star struck when she finally got to Jackie and I. She signed our muffins, and we asked for pictures. As I was taking mine she asked if my hair colour was natural, and said it looked great and very natural. She was so incredibly charming and generous with her time and attention, and I had no idea what to say. Twitter friends saying we look alike. *blushes*

Maria Doyle Kennedy: A little history - Jackie and I met (and shot the shit nbd) MDK in NYC in February and it was magical. Such talent. Wow. For this trip we brought two gifts: a mix CD (we knew she likes Hozier and San Fermin, two of our favs, so we compiled some other tunes we thought she might enjoy) and gel pens (for writing new songs). After Evelyne came and went and the hours passed, we weren’t sure if we’d get to see MDK, so I sent her a tweet.  At around 6:20, two black escalades parked outside the theatre, and low and behold, she was the first to emerge with a fecking killer hair-do (Seriously, she was KILLING IT - shorter curled hair with turquoise streaks - KILLED IT. IT IS DEAD). Jordan and Evelyne exited after her, and the Clone Club went wild, but Jackie and I were already dead. Maria started signing a few things, then immediately went to take press photos. We were so nervous that we wouldn’t get to say hello, so we craned our necks in every which way to see if she had gone into the theatre. This is when Jackie noticed the shoes first - RUBY RED SEQUINS HEELS (We didn’t think it was possible, but she brought it back to life and KILLED IT AGAIN). As she made the way back into the crowd of fans, she glanced in our direction, made eye contact, waved, then turned the OB crewmember who was directing her somewhere, and pointed to us (Probably to say “Those are the MDK groupies”). She made her way down the line, signing and taking a few photos. When she was a group away from us, the OB crewmember accompanying her tried to get her to go take photos with the rest of the cast. Without turning back, Maria gestured with one finger, and said, “Hold on, I have to say hello to these girls.” *cue walking up to also and immediately embracing each of us in a hug and cheek kiss* “I have to go, but I wanted to come say hello!” We said it was lovely to see her again, and I immediately started fumbling with my purse trying to gather our gifts. “We have gifts for you!” As she backed away, she reassuringly said, “Oh, we can do that after and take pictures!” The people in front of us turned around and said, “That was super exclusive! What was that?” We briefly explained for previous encounter, while shaking from the cold and over excitement. 

Episode: OH MY EFFING GOD. (dat’s it)

Q&A: Jackie and I had front row seats (which weren’t that great for the episode, but it meant that the q&a happened just a few feet in front of us). Graeme, John, Evelyne, Maria and Jordan are all incredibly open, intelligent, eloquent people, and it was an honour and a blast to listen to their answers, and I could say the same for the Clone Club, too - such wonderful, thought-provoking questions. Here are some non-spoilery highlights: - When all the actors sat down, they glanced over the audience and seemed a bit overwhelmed by the love and support. MDK’s eyes made it to the front row, and she instantly smiled and waved at us. 
- Jordan was talking about his process for season two when MDK piped up, “ Nice ass!” His response: “Ms. Kennedy, you saucy minx!” - Everyone was quoting French. Evelyne: “Enchanté” MDK: “Ooh la la!” - MDK was asked about the development of Mrs. S and Sarah’s relationship in season two and she said that we’d get to see more of it. She and Tatiana realised that Mrs. S and Sarah are very similar (stubborn, strong moral compasses) and we’ll see them butt heads. - One fan asked about the three main clones: “Street, Science, and Suburbia. Evelyne: And you’ve got the fourth ’S’ is right here!” *gestures to MDK* - MDK: “Alison made me want to have a crafts room in my house.” - At one point, MDK leaned over to Jordan was she was adjusting the buttons on her jacket and mentioned something about her corset (Reviving and killing it again).  - Someone thanked the co creators and actors for representing complex queer characters (amen!), and everyone was beaming with pride.  -The moderator said there was only enough time for two more questions, when MDK intervened, and said, “Oh, come on, we’ve got to fit in everyone who’s sitting on the stairs.” So two became eight. 

Post Q&A: As soon as the moderator announced that the event was over, MDK walked straight to Jackie and I, and quickly said, “They said we have to go, but you said you have something for me?” “Yes..” I fumbled in my purse. “Is it from the show?” she asked. Jackie piped in, “No, actually, we know you like Hozier and San Fermin, so we made you a mix CD.” She looked surprised and grateful, and heartfeltly said, “That is one of the sweetest things - to take the time to make a mixtape.” And then I handed her the pens, saying, “And we know you’re writing for your next album, so we thought these pens might help!” She thanked us again for being so sweet, gave us each another hug and kiss on the cheek, told us she’d see us again soon, and slipped away. Before she left, the girl sitting next to us, stopped her and said, “I just have to say this, you’re so beautiful.” Agreed. Inside and out.  It was such an incredible evening over all - seeing how supportive and loving Clone Club is of the show and of each other (Shout out to (the other) Jackie, who is starting an After OB Show). MDK’s sweet gestures of acknowledgement were so special. It’s an honour to be her fan and a fan of Orphan Black. Edit:
MDK thanked us on twitter. A clover was involved. 
Liar Liar Pants On Fire

So recently I’ve been watching/reading TWD cast interviews, post Coda. Idk, just for the hell of it I guess. And I know for a fact this was brought up before, but it got me thinking: could there be something more to this? Even if it’s just a subtle thing, which it probably is. But still. We’ll take what we can get, right? I’ve pulled up interviews from mostly Emily Kinney, Scott Gimple, Andrew Lincoln, and Norman Reedus. And then I went to this site:

Keeping in mind all the indicators that someone is lying to you, this is what I found:

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anonymous asked:

Because i saw your tag on the rolling stone review post: how do you see the tommy thing?

I think the one really important thing about the Tommy reveal at the end is that it wasn’t Tommy. It was Gillian who killed Nucky. I understand that people will nitpick about how much of a hold she had over exactly how it went, but thematically it’s not Tommy’s victory, it’s Gillian’s. People are floating around the theory that NY Gang hired Tommy to kill Nucky, or that he just somehow came up with the plot on his own, but they are missing some very important signifiers. 

The first thing Tommy says as part of the BIG REVEAL is “Mima talked about you all the time. Couldn’t tell if it was love or hate.” Nucky asks, “Who?” “Grandma. She went on and on about you.”

Her last conversation with Tommy in Farewell Daddy Blues foreshadows her emotional manipulation. I’m gonna post the whole thing here because it is important.

Gillian: “You know who I am, don’t you?”

Tommy: “You’re Mima.”

Gillian: “But who am I? Am I your mother?”

Tommy: “No.”

Gillian: “Where is she?”

Tommy: “She’s gone.”

Gillian: “And your father. Where is he?”

Tommy: “I don’t know.”

Gillian: “I don’t either. Isn’t it terrible?”

Gillian is sure she is leaving and never seeing Tommy again in person, but already she is planting the seeds of control. 

siegelbenny made a really important point about the forgiveness theme this season has been pushing, and I want to add to that Gillian’s letter to Nucky, where she also says “There’s forgiveness for everyone.” But she knows there isn’t. She is playing him like a queen. I think Gillian had a faint hope that maybe Nucky would spring her out, but it was not reason number one why she reached out to him. She already has faith in what he has coming, either very consciously because Tommy, or somewhat more abstractedly, also because Tommy. That’s why she’s so unresponsive  when he finally visits, because she knows what his fate will be, and all she wants to hear is him stumbling over his words trying to justify what he did because she knows how he really feels and she knows what’s coming.

There’s also the part in Friendless Child that goatsandgangsters pointed out, where Maranzano makes his chess reference, and then gets unexpectedly touchy with Tommy, signifying Tommy as a pawn, but not in New York’s game. Gillian’s. She is playing the game.

And this manipulation of Tommy hearkens back to her manipulation of Jimmy in Season Two. And even vaguely to her Season Three attempt to kill Nucky through Gyp with information she got from Charlie. Don’t even get me started on Charlie as Jimmy foil/parallel and Gillian’s relationship with him being creepily/thematically important, because that’s a whole other meta. Basically Gillian has been manipulating Jimmy and other young men (Jimmy stand-ins) to kill Nucky for a long fucking time. 

And then there’s the fucking ending, with Nucky’s death intercut with his betrayal of Gillian, and she lifts her hand to him like she’s welcoming him to the afterlife, as gangstergish points out wonderfully here. She is taking him to his doom, because it’s her victory.

So yeah, Gillian killed Nucky. It was her revenge.

anonymous asked:

Hii so on your master rec list (pile of gold, lemme tell you) there's summer lovin tag. I was wondering if you could rec some monsoon-rainy sterek fics?

aw, i’m glad you’re enjoying the lists! here are some sterek fics that have storms, kisses in the rain, stories you could enjoy with the sound of rain

  • In From The Cold by frek, sova (T, 1k)  He’s soaked to the bone and there are things he wants to say.
  • que tu m’aimais encore by magneticwave (T, 20k) Wolves mate for life, don’t they?
  • Der Yingl fun Erd un Blitz (The Boy of Earth and Lightning) by sofonisba_found (T, 19k) Miriam and John Stilinski had always wanted to have children. But when her illness prevented her from giving birth, and every conventional alternative option to raise a child was denied to them, they had to look for an…unconventional method. One that would give them a child that was himself far from ordinary in so many ways. And soon after, in the town of Beacon Hills, a young werewolf named Derek begins to notice the scent of something different from anything he had ever known before in the air…
  • Our Memories are Numbered by rufflefeathered (E, 23k) Stiles’ Jeep grinds to a halt, he sees someone running through the rain, he’s not expecting it to be Derek. He’s not expecting a Derek without any memories either, or an Alpha pack that’s coming for all of them. He probably should’ve, because lately nothing goes the way he expects.
  • No Oceans Left by zoemathamata (T, 14k) Stiles has always been a merman. He just never knew how to tell anyone. He hasn’t shifted since his mom died.

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Dear Faking It writers,

In season 1, you created some of the most lovable, unique characters on television. In just eight episodes, you managed to create an entire army of fans who will defend these characters that we all love so much. From this point on, you are given an amazing opportunity to explore these unique, diverse characters.

You could explore Karma, whose deep-rooted insecurity that mirrors so many teenage girls causes her to launch ridiculous schemes to get the attention of a popular boy. You could explore why she feels so inadequate when she seemingly has such supportive parents. Is society telling her she’s not good enough? Does she feel like her parents love her brother more than her? Is it a combination of both and maybe other things too? These answers would humanize Karma in a way that season 1 did not, and maybe along the way of figuring herself out she could learn that she doesn’t need to be popular or have the hottest boy in school to be good enough. 

You could explore Lauren, who now has to deal with the fact that some people know her secret. You could explore how living intersex has affected her daily life. You could explain not only the struggles, but the positives that so many queer-represented shows fail to do. You could show her coming out process in a detailed, tasteful way. Will she keep it from people much longer? How will she handle her new relationship with Theo? This will help tear down Lauren’s well-constructed walls and show what she lacked the majority of season 1 - vulnerability.

You could explore Shane, the boy who is now discovering the fact that he might not be as good of a person as he originally thought. Yes, he might be gay, but his self-identity crisis lies in the type of person he is. It’s so refreshing to see a gay person have issues that have nothing to do with their sexuality, because believe it or not from what you see on media, that does happen. It would be a wonderful opportunity to explore a queer character whose plot line does not revolve around his sexuality. How will Shane deal with slowly losing his best friend? Will he apologize to Liam, accepting his black and white ways of morality, or will he find what makes himself feel like he’s doing the right thing? Will Shane and Amy bond more because they’re both losing their best friends?

And then, of course, you could explore arguably the most lovable and complicated character on the show - Amy. There is a very long and detailed post that explains Amy’s messed up home life (found here), and it explains why she is the way that she is, and why Karma means the world to her. To summarize, Amy’s home life has never been stable, but Karma has always loved and cared for her in the way Amy’s mother and her multiple husbands did not. You could explore the fact that this is why losing Karma is so terrifying. You could dive into Amy’s past, giving flashbacks to all the times Karma was there for her when her family was not. There are a thousand different ways to develop and build on Amy, and to an extent, I believe you will, but there is one major vacuum sucking up a large portion of the short screen time you are allotted.

Liam Booker. Now, hear me out, because I know you get this a lot. We do not hate Liam. Okay, some of us do, but the majority just wants him off of our screen. You have four amazing, unique, diverse, lovable main characters to work and develop on, and yet you are spending an overwhelming amount of time to this uninteresting, two dimensional character. “But that’s why we have to spend so much time developing him!" No. Please, no. You’re trying so hard to make something work that will never work, something that the fans don’t even want to work. Instead of focusing on Amy’s probably much more interesting (and heartbreaking) family dynamic, you are focusing on the age old "money isn’t everything! it really tears apart a family! see?? Liam’s a good guy after all!” trope.

He’s boring. He’s the same tortured, brooding artist character that is used time and time again to justify the douchey behaviors of straight white males. I will not get into the reasons why the fandom actively hates him, including lesbian fetishizing and a messed up sense of morality, but I will say that nobody would be sad to see him go. In fact, we would probably throw a party. I have a hard time believing that he needs to stay on for season 3 for any reason, besides pleasing the eyes of the 13 year old straight girls that squeal every time he takes his shirt off.

I’m going to tell you something that you’re already finding out as the ratings are dropping, though - 13 year old straight girls may be a main demographic for MTV, but they are not a main demographic for you. Stop trying to make it work. The queer community is one of the most loyal communities you will ever have. If you hook us, we will not leave easily. That being said, there’s only so much we can take of this trying-to-pander-to-both-sides nonsense. You cannot give this boring character this much screen time to pander to 13 year old girls and keep us at the same time.

This show is extremely important and it means the world to so many LGBTQ+ people watching it. Please listen to your fans who organized twitter trends almost daily to get you a season 2 in the first place. I know you have already finished season 2, but please do not repeat the same mistakes if we are lucky enough to get season 3.

Thank you for reading. I truly hope you consider this.