“Apology not accepted, add me to the broken hearts you’ve collected.” -Allure (All Cried Out)
“Damn homie has a daughter? That’s crazy, what kind of bitch doesn’t tell a nigga she has his child? Sneaky ass hoe,” I shook my head and told Taj as we walked around the shoe store. “So what are you going to do?”
“Trust that he handles the situation like he’s supposed to. I’m just mad I have to deal with this bitch in my fucking life now. I’m going to strangle that bitch one of these days just wait for it.”
“Well you know I got your bail money so call me when you get arrested.” I chuckled.
cam: oh haha Cameron is one of thoSe guys, i feel, who likes to spank and shit. i think i’d make him feel more dominant in bed and stuff though just imagine his hands on you though and after each spank he’d knead your ass cheek with his hand trying to soothe it but then he’d just spank you again in the same spot so it wouldn’t really do anythING at all but yeah, i’d still be hot beyond belief like just imagine you’re at the club and cliche i know you’re grinding on another guy just for fun or something and i’m guessing tbh that he’s more of a jealous type so he’d get all mad or whatever and take you home right away and make you do a strip tease for him until you were in just a thong and then he’d bend you over his knee and spank you multiple times before fucking your brains out byE yes i got a bit carried away with this one
Nash: my homeboy nash would be into playing music in the background if that makes any sense… he’d be all passionate and play modern rnb and go like all slow and stuff but still be all passionate as hell and shit like he’d rock his hips back and forth to the beat of the song and stare down at you with his crystal blue eyes and look into your eyes and make it so passionate and hot at the same time like oh and did i mention that his arms are all strong and stuff so he’d perfectly hold up his own weight with one of his arms while he holds your hand with his free arm and pins it down next to your head while he’s fucking you oH…
Jack G: Jack would be that type of nigga to be super idk i guess sneaky? is sneaky even a kink? now it ishes that kind of guy that would fuck hard and rough but around other people in public ja feel? like oH OHOHOHOH Ho he’s one of those guys that would fuck you hard in your bedroom and have to cover your mouth with his hand while he peppers kisses all over your neck bc your parent(s) are/is downstairs and yeah, or he’d fuck you backstage at magcon but keep the door unlocked bc he likes the fact that anyone could walk in and see him hammering you at any second and stuff and oooOOoh and he would like to pull hair a lOT especially if you two were doing doggy style this hurts tbh
Taylor: dis caniff kid would be into rough sex. just rough. nothing else to add like tbh yeah there would be passionate sex on like anniversaries or even da wedding night but man holy s h i t he’d always be rough like oh god he’d be into everything kink and fast i don’t think he’d be much into foreplay unless you’d be giving him blowjobs but idk i think he’d just want to be insiDE of you ya know idk man he’d be into all the spanking and the different creative positions and bondage and the toys and the fucking you everywhere at anytime of the day and shit like ooOOooH he’d really like to fuck you up against the wall with your legs wrapped around his waist and shit dAmn his head would fall onto your shoulder and he’d just be grUNTING nOOOO
Matt: as i said before matt would be into dirty talk like a mother fucker like oh man he’d say a lot of shit like flattering compliments about your features and stuff but at the same time he’d make them vulgar with the word choices he makes i also think that if you were to dirty talk back to him he’d be extremely turned on by that and stuff and you can totally disagree with me for this or nah but to be comPLETELY honest i think matTHEW LEE ESPINOSA HAs a daddy kink only in bed though i dont think he would want you to call him daddy all the time and like in public but i think he has one and sometimes he’d want you to call him “daddy" in bed.
Jack J: baby this guy has got a kink for eveRYTHING like legit but i think that he’d really enjoy foreplay. i think he’d like going down on you, his tongue pleasing your body, even adding a finger or two while he sucks or your clit or something shit tho man could you imagine going 69 with jack J THAT WOULD BE SO HOT IM CRYINg bc omfg you’d be going to town sucking on dat d and tbh i feel like he’d be weak with blowjobs and stuff so he’d be a moaning mess and he’d be like moaning into you while eating you out and he’d grip really tight on your hips and iM ASO DINW HES GOT ME FEELIN SOME TYPE A WAY
Aaron: oh god Aaron would definitley have a kink for foreplay, similar to Jack J but i think he’d more want to pleasure you rather than you pleasuring him bc i think he’d want to be in control so if you did end up blowing him he’d get all flustered and grip tight onto your hair to the point where it might hurt and he’d force you down more so you were taking more into your mouth and oh when he cums let me tell you his thighs would tremble slightly and he’d let out this loud throaty moan and throw his head back and his grip on your hair would grow even tighter and as he’s forcing you down on him he’s thrusting up into your mouth and oH
Carter: i feel like carter would have a hardcore bondage fetish… like i think when he’s alone and masturbating while he’s away at magcon he’d be masturbating at the though of you tied to the bed begging to be touched and it’d get him off almost instantly and in person he’d be extremely teasing about the whole situation oH hes one of those guys who would, if you don’t do as your told as you’re tied to the bed, leave you there for like an extra hour and like come back and spank you and like yell at you and you’d be horny af and then he’d let you go so you can ride him to make up for the ‘bad girl’ you were being.. hA
Shawn: shawn mendez is an ass guy so tbh i think he’d be similar to cam with the spanking but oh instead of being v v dominant like cam is he’d be a tiny bit more conservative and gentle, but still rough and i also think he’d really like the doggy style bc i mean then he can grab ur ass while he fucks you and i mean we know how he loves da booty so yAY oh and did i mention that he probably has a die hard eat-out kink and he just lovES to eatcha out ja feel? oh ja definitely feel. but i mean his tongue is sO heavenly tbh like pls i want it inside me dont you but yeah i crY
Whomp there it is& srry for any typos i dont feel like reading back through it all rn bc pile of hw to do still oh
“You got something you need to tell me?” Chris yelled sounding vexed and snatching of his hood.
“Excuse me?” I said to him as I stood there looking at him in complete confusion..
“You heard what the fuck I said, You got something you need to tell me Jhene?!” He repeated.
“I don’t know, you tell me since you wanna barge in my house and drag me about like you lost your damn mind Chris!”
"So you haven’t got anything you need to tell me Jhene? You ain’t been keeping any shit away from me huh?” He spoke rhetorically. Seriously what was this guy on about right now? What could I possibly need to tell him that he didn’t know?
“Yo I’m really confused right now Chris so you either say what you gotta say or leave!“
"So do you wanna tell me why Jennifer got a lot of shit to say about your ass keeping shit away from me?” He asked
I paused for a second.
What the fuck did that girl have to do with me? And furthermore why was she even mentioning my name in the first place, I didn’t fuck with her for her to know anything about me or what I was doing so if I was keeping something away from Chris how the hell would she know?
"Jennifer has a lot to tell you Chris? Seriously what the fuck are you even talking about right now!” I raised my voice, see now I was becoming frustrated.
"Aight, since you wanna play dumb, you remember that nigga Ricky from school right?”
I thought about it for a second. “..yeah? what about him?”
“Well she’s been fucking him and according to her your ass knew about it this whole time! She said you found out cause you seen him one day and my daughter knew who he was” he shouted at me.
“Wait…Hold on. What the hell does this even have to do with me Chris! I don’t know nor do I CARE about who that woman’s fucking!”
“So you didn’t know she’s been dealing with dude?!” His tone was patronising.
“How the fuck would I know that! I don’t fuck with that bitch to know who she’s spreading her legs for!”
“So you didn’t see ol’dude at the mall with Jeniece nah? He didn’t approach y’all and talk to my daughter on some familiar shit Jhene?!”
“No-” I stopped in mid sentence. I did remember seeing Ricky at the mall when I was with Jeneice, but that was literally months ago! Honestly that shit completely slipped my mind. I’d been going through so much bullshit these past couple months that Him and Jennifer was the last shit I was thinking of! “I do remember seeing him at the mall but I forgot about it!”
"You tryna protect that bitch or something?” Chris suddenly asked throwing me completely off.
“Protect her?! What the hell do I need to protect her for? I don’t give a fuck about her!”
“So why the FUCK you ain’t tell me then?!” he yelled hovering over me.
“I said I forgot and you better back the fuck up off me yo!” I shouted pushing him back. He was wylin if he thought he could just come in my house and act a fool like this, especially over Jennifer! Not in my house.
“And furthermore CHRISTOPHER I tried to tell you on the day that I saw him and you was the one who told me not to tell you anything if it was bad about her remember! So how the fuck am I to blame for this?!”
“You don’t think that you telling me my girl is fucking a nigga I don’t fuck with behind my back is important Jhene?! She’s fucking that nigga and bringing him around my child and you don’t think I should know about that, are you stupid?!” he shouted.
I heard what he said, but I was just stuck on the ‘my girl’ part. Now all of a sudden he wanted to be claiming her as his girl when all this time before he did anything but admit she was still his girlfriend. He was so full of shit! I looked at him in disgust because I couldn’t believe this was the nigga who had me tripping so hard over him!
“So can’t you speak now Jhene?!” He kept yelling at me and I was beginning to lose patients with it. I closed my eyes and calmly breathed in and the out to control myself. He was yelling at me over something I had no control, nor did I have anything go do with. I couldn’t control who Jen opened her legs for or why she did what she did. That had NOTHING to do with me so I really didn’t understand why I was on the receiving end of his wrath.
“Yo on some real ass shit Chris, your gonna stop fucking yelling at me” I humbly warned him. "It is not my fault, that your 'Girl’s’ a hoe, who fucks other nigga’s, whilst she’s in a relationship with you.”
"I know you ain’t talking like your ass is any different from her” he said
“Excuse me?”my brow raised.
“I mean didn’t you just have a man Jhene? Wasn’t I fucking you whilst you were in a relationship with that nigga?” He spoke rhetorically
“Your the same bitch I fucked whilst your nigga was downstairs in the same crib as us! If that nigga didn’t beat your ass you would’ve still been doing that sneaky ass shit behind his back so if she’s a hoe, you damn sure just as bad as her!” He yelled at me
Wow. So That’s how he really felt?
“Wow. So that’s how you feel?”my voice wavered. He stared at me with cold eyes and shrugged not caring.
“So your gonna just stand here and diss me like that because of her Chris? After everything? You’re acting like you ain’t the main reason any of this shit between us even happened. If you’re gonna talk about how much of a hoe I am for messing with you, then talk about how desperate and pathetic you were for not leaving me alone until I gave into you. Talk about how that same day I fucked you when my man was there YOUR girlfriend was downstairs also, also mention how you followed ME upstairs into that bathroom and locked ME in there with you. Talk about How you been sweating ME all this time and begging for me to take you back WHILST YOU HAD A GIRL CHRIS!, talk about all that! Talk about how you blow up my phone 24/7 and show up at my door in the middle of the night pleading for me to just talk to you!Your desperate and pathetic and maybe if you hadn’t been so caught up in your EX and what she’s doing, your bitch wouldn’t have gone out and fucked another nigga instead of you! So if I’m wrong then your dead ass wrong too! I can’t even believe you can fix your lips to even try and blame me for whatever Jen has done to you, I ain’t got shit to do with whatever the fuck you and her got going on, that’s on y’all! Your corny and whack as fuck for this Chris!” I yelled at him with tears filling the brim of my eyes I said as my voice started to crack from the tears that had fallen.
“Whatever I don’t give a fuck about what you gotta say about it, I might be desperate and pathetic for thinking I wanted your ass back but throughout it all you stuck around just waiting on the side for a nigga to choose you so whose the real desperate one here Jhene? You knew I had a girl and you still stuck around!”
“Seriously why are you treating me like this?” I asked crying.
“Because we just fucking that’s all! so imma treat you like a hoe that I’m ‘just fucking. Since according to you, I’m only good for dicking you down, that’s exactly how I’m gonna treat your ass!”
“What are you even talking about?” I yelled at him
“Isn’t that what you said to me Jhene? That its just sex that we having? So what the fuck I look like caring about your feelings anymore? I don’t give a fuck. If all I am to you is some dick, well fuck you then”
“That’s not even what I said!” I sniffed
“Yeah well that’s what you implied so that’s how I’m taking it” he retorted, then somebody knocked on the door interrupting us.
“Nae… you good in there?” I heard Tiki ask from the other side.
"She’s fine!” Chris took it upon his self to answer for me. I cut my eyes in disgust at him and then barged past him as I went over to unlock the door
“Yeah girl I’m fine don’t worry about it” I told her with the door cracked open. Tiki looked at me suspiciously and then looked over at Chris who was now pacing back and fourth the room vexed.
“Your crying Jhene…” she said as she eyed me.
“Didn’t she just say she’s fine? Man get yo nosey ass the fuck on!” Chris suddenly snapped rudely at her. Tiki glanced briefly at me and then with quickness she pushed open the door pushing me aside with it
“Nigga who the fuck was talking to you? Do you look like your names Jhene?” she yelled walking in.
“Tikira!” I tried to stop her but she snatched away from me.
“Man get the fuck outta here. Always tryna be involved with her shit just take your ass on somewhere!” Chris mumbled
“Yeah so what she’s my best friend and you the same bum ass nigga who always got her up in here crying over you! So imma be involved and what! fuck you gonna do about it?” she challenged him.
“Tikira please just leave it okay I’m fine!” I tried to calm her down, I knew Tiki’s temper and I knew Chris temper also, so both of them going at each other wouldn’t end pretty at all. They both had no filter and both could get crazy in a second and once again I would be the one in the middle because
“No Jhene fuck that nigga yo, who the fuck does he think he’s talking to like that?!”
“Bitch I’m talking to you” he replied “Why the fuck you don’t mind your damn business, it’s always you putting your fucking input in shit that ain’t got nothing to do with you, always the one talking in her ears! You got your own man worry about the bitches he might be fucking and take your ass outta mine and her relationship!!” Chris spoke to her with so much with so much disrespect I honestly couldn’t understand what had gotten into him or why he was behaving this way! This was not the Chris I knew, this nigga was on something because he was trippin’ like hell right now!
“Oh hell no you’re too disrespectful, you got to go!” I turned and said to him. It was one thing him disrespecting me but Tikira? Nah we weren’t playing that.
“Who gotta go?” Chris asked me sounding shocked.
"You got to go! Get the fuck out of my house Chris!”
“Ahh yeah, here you go now! Follow the fucking leader!” Chris said just as he noticed Alana, Tae and Kyra coming to see what was going on “You gotta drop these hoes as your friends! That’s your problem, you always listening to what these basic ass bitches telling you what the fuck to do in your own relationships, you can’t ever think for yourself your a grown ass woman still running behind your best friend like some little ass kid! When the fuck you finna grow up Jhene?!”
“GET THE FUCK OUT, GO! YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANT NOW SO JUST LEAVE!” I screamed pushing him towards the door.
“Guys what the fucks going on?” Kyra yelled at us
“Kyra get him out of here before I hurt him!” I cried
“Don’t worry imma leave, I’ll be glad to!” Chris said as he snatched away from me “it’s about time I got you the fuck up out my life anyway. I ain’t been nothing but caught up since I met you!”
“Chris!” Kyra yelled at him
“What? You think I give a fuck anymore half the shit I’m going through I would’ve never gone through if I hadn’t of met her ass anyway! I don’t know why she even came back here she should’ve stayed her ass in New York!” He replied as if I wasn’t standing right there listening. Now I was to blame for everything he was going through? I hadn’t done anything but ride for him since I met him,, despite the bullshit he put me through I was still always there for him, even when it meant putting myself in the crossfire to get hurt and now all of a sudden I was the reason his life was a fucked up mess and I should’ve never came back?
“I hate you so much right now” I quietly whispered as my voice cracked.
“Yeah, you hate me? Well I hate your ass too. I’m glad we’ve finally come to mutual feelings” He spoke coldly, with no care or consideration at all.
In that moment I never knew it was possible to physically feel my heart break the way that it did when I heard him say that to me. After everything we’d been through right now was the first time I actually felt shattered. Completely shattered.
"From now on Make sure you keep your fucking lying hoe ass away from me” he warned before he barged past me and walked out slamming the front door behind him. For a moment I just stood there in a trance not believing what just really happened, my heart was plummeting into my chest and I could feel tears in my eyes and that lump in the back of my throat just burning to be released. Reality took a second to set in before everyone rushed over to me asking me if I was okay and what not but at this moment there was nothing I could say. I was hurting
and embarrassed and I really just wanted to be left alone so I walked away not saying anything to anyone and went into the bathroom where I just let it all go and broke down in nothing but tears.
Just like that another chapter closed. . And as I sat crying on that bathroom floor I vowed to myself that from this day forward I would never ever, ever allow that man back into my life, not ever!
My eyes popped open when the car came to a harsh halt. I
looked over at Ashton who was rubbing his eyes, looking as tired as ever.
“My bad, I’m way too tired to be driving.” He
I shook my head and looked around noticing we were parked
outside my house. I sighed and reached in the back for my overnight bag.
After we made up earlier, we went down to the beach and
didn’t come till the sun started to set. So naturally when we got back inside
instead of getting ready to leave, we fell asleep and didn’t make out exit
until almost midnight.
I tried to convince him that it was too late but you know
boss man was not having that. He had a meeting that he couldn’t miss at noon.
I sighed “Thanks for taking me to Malibu this weekend,
Ashton. I’ll see you later.” I said as I opened the car door and went to
do step out