this movie made me feel so many things


30 days movie challenge ↠ [17/30] the best movie i saw during the last year
            ⤷ now you see me 2 (2016) dir. john m. chu

A magician’s greatest power lies forever shrouded in his empty fist. And the very idea that he can convince the world that he is, in fact, carrying with him a secret.

Beauty and the Beast (Remake) Review

This is going to be a spoiler free review, so I won’t be able to go into too much detail, but let me give you a short preview of what I feel about the movie: It was utterly and undeniably magical!

I just left the cinema and instantly made my way home and to my laptop to write all this down so I would not forget a single thing I wanted to share with you guys, because let me tell you there is so much to say about this movie and all of it is good. Over the past couple of weeks I have seen so much negativity surround this movie, so many people threatening to boycott yet another movie they haven’t seen on the sheer basis that a character was supposedly gay and once more mistreated for it.

I write this to share with everyone willing to read just what an amazing experience it was watching this movie. I want to preface the following review by saying that both my best friend and I are not overly emotional people. Neither of us cry at the drop of a pin, especially not in the cinema. Yet in the matter of ten minutes both me and my friend had our first tears in our eyes. I say first, because the movie takes you on quite the emotional ride and it is magnificent. Now, I’m no professional, but I’d consider my opinion rather objective and trustworthy. Of course, I’d suggest you go see the movie yourself nevertheless.

Let me begin with the basics such as scenery, music and cast. The scenery was quite literally breathtaking. The second Emma Watson stepped out of her little home in that little village of France you are there with Belle. I had the pleasure to watch the movie in 3D IMAX and it was absolutely worth it. I’d recommend for anyone to pay those extra bucks, because I feel it really added to the tone of the movie.

While the CGI was certainly visible at times and slightly over the top for my taste here and there the overall feel of the movie is not damaged by it at all. Wherever the movie takes you, it seems real despite of it. The camera work is to thank for it as well, as it really helps to set a specific tone. All in all the movie does great in making you feel a certain emotion at the appropriate time by using all the means they are given to do so; including the sets and the way the camera is handled.

The music and especially the musical numbers were quite mesmerizing. Amongst the familiar classics like Beauty and the Beast itself the movie offered some new pieces as well. Especially one towards the end – sung by Dan Stevens as the Beast – caught my attention and heart in particular. They use the songs not only to entertain, but also to convey emotions and a deep insight into the characters themselves. Some performances I liked better than others – I was disappointed by the audible autotune used on Emma Watson herself – but overall the numbers were all equally entertaining.

As for the cast I have to admit I had my doubts. I was especially worried about Josh Gad as Le Fou as I’ve gotten to know him as a pretty poor comedic actor. I say poor as most jokes are at the expense of him and his weight rather than made by him. After watching the movie I can say that I could not be more pleased with the casting, even Josh Gad. I was honestly surprised as to how well he handled the role and happy to see him take on a more serious side. Of course he was still funny, but this time the humour wasn’t at his expense, but rather due to his wit and clever sarcasm.

Now I want to tackle the characters, specifically taking the accusations into account, and talk about how the movie performs in comparison to the old classic we all know and love. While a lot of the original story has remained untouched and recognizable, there still have been quite a few tweaks and they were for the better. They made the story more understandable, the characters more memorable and real. I am happy to note that the characters are granted a new depth they were lacking in the original. Thanks to that the story is much better fitting for our time, age and new audience.

Gaston I was especially pleased with, for multiple reasons. Towards the beginning of the movie I found him to be rather charming which was a clever move to make. It only made him seem worse when finally his facade dropped later on the movie. It makes you truly detest his character and therefor the movie managed to create a good villain in him. Despite being the bad guy, however, his relationship towards Le Fou is in no way hateful. In fact, their friendship is one I considered to be one of the most interesting in the entire movie!

As for Le Fou, I dare say he was one of my favourite characters. Contrary to his original counterpart he is in no way a fool. In fact, he is the one keeping Gaston in check, knowing his best friends behaviour, trying to keep him in line while simultaneously taking his jabs and making fun of him as well. Compared to the original, their relationship is much more equal and lighthearted. Gaston is still the dreamy guy everyone is into, but he doesn’t treat Le Fou as a peace of shit for it. In fact, despite his obviously homoerotic undertones, even towards Gaston, the latter never once ridicules him for it. Not only that, but Le Fou undergoes great character growth over the course of the movie and it was a pleasure to watch.

As for the Beauty and the Beast themselves, there is not too much to say. The characters themselves weren’t changed too much and yet there was still a fresh air about them. It’s hard to explain without giving too much away. However, I can say that both of them are obviously flawed and both of them undergo a growth as well. Not only the Beast but Belle too. Instead of brushing their flaws off once the plots wants them to be in love they are openly addressed and worked on. Both parties realize their mistakes and even admit to them. It certainly was a nice, little change and I happily watched their relationship develop step by step.

As for a direct comparison of the original to the new one I can say without doubt and guilt that the new movie is better. A lot of the flaws of the original – whether due to ignorance or because of the time it was created it – were taken care off in this movie. The Stockholm Syndrome people accuse the original of is handled better and I say this with a particular conversation in mind that directly addresses the issue of freedom there is for Belle. The movie also works much better in establishing the character, their relationships and especially their pasts. You get to know more about Belle and the Beast that give you a better insight into them and explain, to a certain extend, why their relationship develops the way it does.

So, in conclusion, the movie does great in sweeping you away into a beautiful, magical world. It has a great tone, the music is catchy, the scenery is breathtaking and it hits home in just the right places. While the original was beautiful and unique to experience and is an irreplaceable part of many childhoods, it was extremely flawed. While it isn’t to say that this version is not flawed – it undeniably is – the new Beauty and the Beast managed to give you nostalgia without making the same mistakes as its predecessor. It adds a new depth and strength to our already beloved characters that make me happy in the sense of knowing that another generation will grow up with a better version of our childhood heroes.

Ok ok ok! I just…this fucking film, people! I was laughing and smiling throughout! So many bat references, so many shippy moments! Just. So. MUCH!!!! Anyone wanting to avoid spoilers just fucking scroll past cos I’m on mobile and I can’t do that keep reading linky shit! (Also apologies for language but I’m so hyped up right now on cake and gay and happiness and BATJOKES!)

List of what Mellie fucking adored about Batjokes: The Movie (aka Lego Batman Movie)

Man in the MirrorI died. Every single fucking time! Opening the movie with a quote from the lyrics and then having it playing at Gordon’s party and then using even more of the lyrics throughout? God! It was just bliss!

PEW PEW PEW!!!! Aaaaaah! This was so fucking CUUUUUUTTTEEE! The way J came out guns a-blazin’, shooting up the place making those noises! ASSGDAAAH! And then the rest of ‘em doing it later! It was just the best!

Blinkity blink blink blink! Ahahahaa! You ain’t foolin’ NO ONE J!

Bruce not being invited to the JL anniversary party. WTF Supes? Just…what. the. fuck?! Actually, sad lonely Bruce was so fucking heartbreaking in this movie I just wanted to hug the crap outta him! This film did that surprisingly well. He’s presented as an arrogant prick but he’s such a sad little sweetheart underneath! I cry. So much.

Unhappy J slouching in his seat Ohhhhhhhhhh! Poor sad little clown baby! J was just too fucking KEEEEEYYYOOOOOOTTTTEE throughout this movie! His facial expressions just made me wanna die and can we just all take a moment to appreciate Zach’s vocal work? His voice was just gorgeous, I think and he did such a great job of mixing the crazy with the vulnerable without ever going over the top! Same for Arnett. He’s a legend and I love both of them to death for what they’ve done.

CONDIMENT KING! I. Fucking. Lost. My. Shit!

Rick Astley Ok. Anyone who knows me well will know of my deep love for the genius of Rick Astley! And when that started playing, even if only for a couple of seconds, it made my heart leap with joy!

Robin!!!!!! He was so cute and sweet and so not annoying that it was a wonder to behold! And don’t even get me started on his excitement about having two dads! That strikes a deep personal chord with me and I just wanna fucking smush the little bundle of plastic’s face and squish him to shit!

“British robots! Google it nerds!” ok so I dunno if I got the quote exactly right but I fucking squealed at that bit! What can I say, it’s the Whovian in me?!

Jerry motherfucking Maguire!?!?!!!!

Bane! Just fuuuuuck! They used the Tom Hardy voice for him and I was just wetting my self!

BATJOKES! Ohmyfuckinglifesomeonekillmenow! The moments between J and B just ASSSHGAAAAAAAAAAA!!! J’s sad face, B saying he doesn’t do “ships” (fuck you bruce we all know you fuckin do!) and J screaming cos Bruce loved the film Serendipity! Aahahahhaaa! That moment when J first tells Bruce he hates him, holding his hands together and those fucking eyebrows all curved upwards *clutches heart* and Bruce being stubborn by only saying “me too”, I need twenty thousand fics about that moment RIGHT THERE stat! And when Bruce starts hitting those villains just to make J jealous! And don’t even get me started on J’s comment about Bruce being a briefs man! Also, ALSO, at the end, when Bruce chin bumps J’s face just made me hug myself with joy! Das so cuuuuute! And including that sad J face when Bruce is being shown what a bad personal he is? Oh, come on Lego! But the moment that got me (and probably everyone else) was Bruce saying how he needed Joker and everything he did was just for him and… YOU HAD ME AT SHUT UP!!!!

I HATE YOU FOREVER Don’t fucking touch me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, there were just so many other things too, like the fact they’ve made the Gordons POC and all the nods to the other bat movies made with the score and the fact that Ralph Fiennes is voicing Alfred and Voldemort is in the movie too? Ahahaha, it’s all too much! I need to see this film a billion more times and just bask in all the details I’m probably forgetting and just AAAAAAAHHHHH!

anonymous asked:

would you be able to do a thing where mc receives news of her parents dying but instead of he being upset she is happy and says good riddance because her parents were very terrible to her and just terrible people in general? how would the rfa+saeran react?

Sure thing Anon, I hope you enjoy!


·         After you got the letter in the mail, you let him read it.

·         When he was done, you attacked him in a hug and he thought you were crying

·         “It’ll be okay MC!”

·         But then you pulled back, and you were smiling and crying

·         Crying tears of joy

·         “MC… did you read the letter??”

·         “Is this one of those panic response things?”

·         You kissed his face a lot which made him go red and jumped around the apartment

·         This boy was a little scared

·         Eventually you calmed down and explained why you were so happy about it

·         “Yoosung, they were such terrible people to me. All they did was tell me I was worthless and hurt me”

·         “I’m gonna fight them”

·         “They’re dead now Yoosung”

·         “I’ll fight their corpse”

·         Yoosung”

·         After you’ve explained it, he understands why you took their deaths so lightly

·         He told you that if you changed your mind, he’d comfort you

·         But for now, he was fine with getting back to life

·         And he definitely noticed how you did things with less hesitation or fear


·         Jaehee was the one that got informed of your parent’s death

·         She sat you down and very calmly explained the situation

·         “MC I’m so sorry to tell you this, but your parents were in an accident… and they did not make it”

·         “Oh, thank god”

·         Jaehee.exe has stopped working

·         Thank… god??

·         “MC do you understand what I’m telling you?”

·         “Yep”

·         “…”

·         Thinks you’re in some form of shock at first, since she doesn’t know what to say you just kiss her head and continue with working in the café

·         She let it go for a few days, but finally decided to confront you and ask why you were so calm… and why you seemed happier after the news

·         “Jaehee, my parents were very terrible to me. They made my life a living hell, and made me want to give up on it a lot”

·         Ah.

·         She understands now, and tells you she’s happy you’re happy.

·         She’s still concerned that you might feel a little sorrow, but she doesn’t say anything.


·         It was actually a few weeks before Zen found out about your parent’s deaths.

·         He freaked out

·         “MC! You’ve been so strong, why did you hide it from me? You never have to pretend around me!”

·         Honestly, you didn’t tell him because you didn’t care, if anything you were glad they were gone.

·         You explained that they weren’t nice people, and you had felt no sadness whatsoever when you were told they had died

·         “MC… I understand you and your family didn’t see eye-to-eye, but aren’t you a little sad they’re gone?”

·         He is a firm believer in rekindling family ties if possible

·         You were a little annoyed that he suggested you should be sad to see such awful people go

·         So, you listed some terrible things they did. Kicked you out, locked you up, starved you, dehydrated you, hit you, made fun of you, screamed at you, never let you do anything, cared about nothing to do with you, never said ‘I Love You’, always said ‘I Hate You’

·         He gets it now

·         He apologises for suggesting you should be more upset

·         If you’re happy, he’s happy


·         Like Jaehee, he was the one that found out about your parent’s death

·         It took him a few hours to find the words to tell you

·         Finally, he sat you down and told you outright

·         “MC, I received a call today, and I’m sorry to say your parents passed away”

·         “Oh, okay”

·         He doesn’t hear that at first

·         “I’ve organised a session for you to meet up with the best therapi- did you just say ‘Okay’?”

·         “Yes”

·         He stares at you for a second, and you stare back, he’s waiting to see if you break into tears

·         “Jumin, are we having a staring contest?” You asked, laughing lightly

·         “I expected a different reaction”

·         Of course, he did

·         You explained that your parents weren’t supportive, or kind, or caring, or anything positive

·         “So… you won’t need the therapy sessions?”

·         “Nope, I’m fine”

·         He’s still a little sceptical, he’s heard of people being in so much shock they fool themselves into being okay.

·         But, you really are okay, he accepts that, and soon your lives are back to normal


·         He gets it

·         He knew you and your parents didn’t get along, but he thought you’d be a little down after their deaths

·         But instead you read the letter that contained the details and???

·         Threw it in the bin??

·         “Good riddance”

·         MC this is now how you react to a family member’s death

·         He asks if you’re okay, and you nod and explain that your parents were foul people that had no place in your heart

·         He understands so well, that it hurts

·         He shrugs and the both of you get on with your lives pretty quickly

·         However, he decided to add a feature to the app that cause confetti to cross the screen any time people said “Congratulations!”

·         So, everyone in the chat began to say it

·         You knew that Seven made it to congratulate you on your freedom


·         Again, this kid gets it

·         You received the news via phone call

·         And Saeran was listening in on your conversation

·         He was a little scared when he heard your parents had passed, he wasn’t good at comforting people and he’d feel terrible if you started crying

·         You scared the ever-living hell out of this poor boy when you came into the room cheering

·         “Saeran! Saeran! The best thing just happened!”

·         Have you gone m a d?

·         “Uh, what?”

·         You explained that your parents had passed in some horrific accident

·         C o n f u s e d

·         “Saeran, these people tortured me for so many years of my life, they made me feel so trapped that I couldn’t breathe, and their abuse was nothing short of physical and emotional trauma”

·         Now he’s 100% on board with celebrating this occasion

·         Gets a tub of ice cream for you two to share, and the two of you watch your favourite movies

·         He offers to take you to a junkyard and the two of you can smash things in celebration but you settle for the ice cream

let’s just put it out there before i say anything, PAY NO HEED TO THIS SHITTY GRAPHIC OKAY. and i know i haven’t been very active this last week but that’s because life has been slapping me in the face.

so it’s been two years TO THE DAY and one blog move later, but holli is still here???? i can’t even fully comprehend that fact. that’s just…. WOW. it’s wow. i jump around from blog to blog rather regularly so i never really thought holli was going to stick like she has. but i’m rather glad she did. i’ve met so many cool people. i’ve put up with some weird ass drama on my ride here as well. but, in the great expanse of it all, i feel like i’ve grown a lot as a writer and as a person because of it. does that make sense? gosh, i hope so. anyway, prepare for the sap fest that’s coming up. because, shit. it’s super sappy.

also i may have forgotten some people, because it feels like i have. but PLEASE know. if you’re seeing this at all, know i appreciate you and love you. thank you for being here ! <3 <3

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guys okay so i watched ordinal scale and im literally dying. like i stepped out of the theatre and my hands were SHAKING!! that’s just how good the movie was!!! but i can’t express all my feelings towards the movie in such a small text post like this, so im gonna go full-on sao trash under the read more. feel free to click on it if you want my opinion on the movie!~ (will contain spoilers ofc lmao)

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…finally got to see “Moonlight” today. left the theater feeling Some Kinda Way that’s really hard for me to articulate, but i feel like i can count on one hand how many times any movie has ever made me feel the things that “Moonlight” has.


i really want to sit down and journal about it at the very least, but i don’t have the energy right now and i most certainly don’t have the time. tomorrow is a big day– school starts For Realz, so i’ll be meeting and teaching my students for the first time– meaning i need to get my exhausted ass into bed asap.

i will say, however, that Japan has really surprised me with its reception of “Moonlight” for numerous reasons that i also want to journal about. for one, even though “Moonlight” is now at the end of its run in Japan with only one screening a day for the rest of April before disappearing from theaters entirely, the screening in the smallish theater that i was at today was all but sold out. also, being the linguaphile that i am, it was intriguing for me to see a movie spoken in AAVE subtitled in Japanese for the first (and likely only) time on the big screen in Japan. amidst everything else that was going through my mind while watching the movie, i noted how the translator chose to translate certain things, feeling a mild sense of validation and approval over how the translator handled the f slur in particular #BecauseJapan.

it’s rare for me to be determined to own a hard copy of any movie, but that’s exactly how i feel about this movie and once i do, i’ll promptly rewatch it at least two more times.

OUAT I love you but there were so many things in this arc that made absolutely NO sense.

also, I will probably check out season 7, I am intrigued, but I totally understand anyone who doesn’t want to. That’s how I feel with the new Star Wars movies, which I’m still in denial about, so believe me, I get it. I get being upset at the possibility of seeing your favourite characters losing their character development and your favourite couples being torn apart because it happened to me with SW and it sucks. I still have hope they won’t do that to Emma and Snow and Hook, but I understand the worry, 100%. It sucks when it happens.

I’m glad they filmed and ended it in a way where you can completely ignore the last minute or so and just pretend it’s over and they all did live happily ever after, and the new stuff is an AU or just non-existent.

Peter smut drabble for tess

1.“I’m not wearing panties.”
19.“Shouldn’t we be watching the movie?”

“MAY ! ! ! ! !”

“TESS ! ! !” May shouted back as she let me inside her apartment. “Peter’s in his room, can you please tell him that I’m going to be back at 11:00pm I’m running late” may scattered around the living room trying to find her purse.

“Sure thing, have fun on your date” I smiled as she left the apartment.

“Peter your girlfriend has officially arrived ! ! !” I dramatically opened his bedroom door.

“I know I heard you talking to May” Peter laughed as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into a kiss.

“What are we watching tonight babe” I asked as I took off my shoes and laid down on his bed.

“Star Trek” he waved the dvd case. I mentally rolled my eyes, not because of his choice but because we’ve watched it hundreds of times.

I zoned out halfway through the movie because I’ve basically memorized all of the lines. So I started tracing patterns on his arm.

“Hey Peter”

“What” he answered not looking my way.

“Do you have 11 protons? ‘Cause you’re Sodium fine!” I attempted to get his attention but he was so focused on the movie. Throughout the rest of the movie I kept saying science pick up lines just so he could at least look at me. That’s when I thought of something.

“Peter” I called his name. “I’m not wearing panties.” I whispered into his ear as I started playing with his hair.

“Uhhhh Tess … Shouldn’t we be watching the movie?” Peter tensed up before looking over at me. See in the nine months we’ve been dating we’ve never actually had sex, sure we make out all the time but we’ve never actually done it.

“Babe we’ve seen this movie so many times” I pouted as I placed a kiss at the corner of his mouth. “I can think of a million different things we could be doing”

“Like what?” He asked nervously.

“Like this” I flipped him so his back was against the mattress before I got on top of him. I leaned down and kissed him, sweet at first but soon his hands landed on my butt. Feeling a little brave I rolled my hips against his, trying to get some friction.

“Wait” he made me pull away.


“I don’t want to pressure you into doing something” Peter sat up making me straddle his lap.

“You’re not pressuring me if anything I’m the one that’s instigating it Peter, do you not want to do it?” I asked looking him straight in the eye.

“Trust me Tess I do ! ! ! It’s just” Peter averted his eyes and mumbled “I’ve never done it before”

“Oh Peter” I cupped his cheeks. “It’s ok if you haven’t done it before” I pecked his lips.

“I just don’t want to mess it up, what if I’m bad. Would you break up with me?”

“NOOOO I’m not that kind of girl Peter” I gave him a sympathetic smile. “How about I guild you through it?” His eyebrows raised at my offer.


“Yeah, I love you Peter” I kissed his cheek before removing my shirt causing Peter’s jaw to drop because I wasn’t wearing a bra.

“Wow” was all he managed to say as he continued to stare at my breast.

“You can touch them Peter, it’s ok” I smiled as he cupped my breast.

“It tickles” I laughed as I felt him places kisses all over my breast before his lips connected with mine again and he pushed me gently so I way laying on my back. “Mmmm Peter” I closed my eyes as he was leaving a trail of kisses down my body until he reached the top of my jean shorts.

“Can I?”

“Yes” I replied as he unbuttoned my shorts and slid them off of me along with my underwear. “Wow” I felt Peter’s gaze on me. “Wait umm” he got nervous.

“Don’t worry Peter, I’m on the pill” I reassured his before I motioned for him to start removing his clothes. Once he was completely naked he got between my legs and he looked at me for reassurance. “Peter not there” I quickly realized he was guiding his cock towards my butt.

“Sorry” he looked at me wide eyed.

“It’s ok, just never put it in there. EVER” I took ahold of his cock and guided it towards my entrance. “Ok now” Peter slowly pushed himself inside but stopped halfway.

“Sorry, it’s just-” Peter began

“It’s ok just take your time” I let him know it was ok to take his time. Eventually he was fully inside me and began to move.

“Tess” Peter moaned as he had one of his hands around my lower back and the other on the mattress.

“Mmm you’re doing great Peter” I praised Peter before he got more confident. After a while I started to feel a knot in my stomach and knew I was close to cumming.

“Peter I’m so close, keep doing that” I was a moaning mess as I could see the confused look on his face.

“Keep doing what?”

“Rubbing my clit” I pointed to it and he started to rub it like no tomorrow. “PETER ! ! ! ” I shouted as I closed my eyes and came.

“TESS” Peter groaned into my neck neck as I felt him spill himself inside me. It took a while but eventually Peter pulled out and laid down beside me. “Wow” Peter said exhaustedly.

“I know” I smiled we cuddled for awhile until I realized that I was supposed to be home any minute.

“Peter what time is it” I asked

“10:45” I quickly put my clothes back on.

“Peter I need to be home by 11:00 ! ! !” Peter’s eyes widened before he rushed to put on his Spider-Man costume.

“Ok I’ll get you there in no time” once Peter had his costume on he opened his window and held onto my waist. “Ready?” He asked as I clung to him.

“Yeah, but you also have to be back before 11:00 that’s when May was supposed to be back”

“Don’t worry I will, now hold on tight” I closed my eyes as Peter used his web shooter to get me back home.


Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (2016) - David Yates

5 bullets on this film:

  • First of all, don’t watch this film thinking it will stop the crisis you’ve had since Harry Potter ended, because it’s set in the same universe and it has some similarities, but it has nothing to do with the movies we know and love. There are some little details that remind you of the Harry Potter films and that was so cute and it made me feel nostalgic. 
  • The characters are awesome and it was amazing to see the american magical community, but many things were left unexplained (maybe because there will be other films) and I felt like many concepts were kind of forced into the movie.
  • Eddie Redmayne is great, but Ezra Miller and Dan Fogler made the entire movie. Honestly Johnny Depp was a terrible choice to play Grindelwald, I’m sorry, that was a huge turn off. 
  • The special effects are not that good and some scenes were kind of awkward because you could really notice that everything is fake, even the scenery, so the magical vibe wasn’t really there.   
  • I really loved the beasts, though. This may sound kind of silly but they were really cute and now I want my own briefcase full of magical animals.  

Iris, shouldn’t you know better than that as a future Dragon master? (Maybe she already knew something about Mega Charizard X the others didn’t, though ;))

Also, I adored this episode. The Kanto festival with Oak, Tracey, the Magikarp guy and many other familiar things made me already feel warm and fuzzy, but I loved how accurately the episode showed Ash and Charizard’s journey (with redrawn scenes that looked really nice! And this episode didn’t deny the existence of Misty and Brock either *movie 20 I’m looking at u*) and also how Charizard and Dragonite immediately became rivals after meeting. And of course this scene. Definitely one of my fave BW episodes (so far)!

I know I can’t make anyone understand and so I keep quite because believe it or not
silence is so beautiful

Insomnia takes me in it’s arms every night and lulls away the sleep
as I allow my thoughts to run wild
because didn’t I always love destruction?

My phone keeps ringing but I never pick up any calls so i’ve set my favourite song as ringtone because it make me feel less terrible about it.

I cry a lot in movies nowadays because they make so much sense and make me feel so many things.
I wish life made sense too.

I read books after books, as my work piles up, because reading is a bliss and it takes me far away from that work and my mind.

I skip all social events cause, god! sleeping is so much comfortable and easy. Besides when was I not a social disaster?

My eyes burn all day long from staring at screen as I scroll through social media collecting poems because I can’t write them myself anymore.

I see my old pictures over and over again because I look so happy and so healthy so alive in them. I can’t believe I wanted to grow old.

The thought of leaving this earth is less terrifying then leaving my bed. I say I’m busy but I am busy sleeping because I don’t have energy to do anything else.

They tell me I need to go out.
I need to talk. I need to study. I need to exercise. I need to wake up. I need to stop being a jerk all the time. They tell me to do it but don’t tell me HOW.

—  Chahna | what anxiety does
brace yourselves, this post is my love letter to x-men: apocalypse
  • i don’t care what the critics have to say, this might be my favorite x-men movie so far. here we go:
  • my fave storm rocks as usual of course, but the fact raven is her idol and she freaking betrayed apocalypse BECAUSE OF HER was my favorite thing. idk i just have too many feels about that one
  • my baby raven is an icon and worshiped by all mutants AND humans. never thought i’d see that and it made me sooo happy
  • kurt is a precious cinnamon roll who must be protected at all costs
  • rip alex :( i loved the scene where he destroyed the cerebro
  • CHARLES. that’s it. i don’t have words to describe my love for him. probably my favorite male character in anything, ever
  • SCOTT AND JEAN ARE LITERALLY THE CUTEST. but i wanted a kiss so bad :(
  • i didn’t even ship charles and moira that much in first class, but now, OH MY. HIM FINALLY GIVING HER HER MEMORIES BACK AND CHOOSING HIS OWN HAPPINESS FOR ONCE. and the fact she has a son that he’s gonna meet now, i can’t even
  • eric having a family was f*cking weird man
  • jean, scott, kurt, and jubilee watching star wars was amazing
  • that slow motion scene with peter was everything
  • jean and kurt AND THEIR LEADER SCOTT saving everyone made me so happy. they’re all so new at this and already so good at everything 
  • the only thing i didn’t like was that creepy af scene between logan and jean though. like, STAY THE F*CK AWAY FROM HER SHE’S A CHILD
  • BEASTIQUE LIVES GUYS. sure, nothing really happened, but it’s so obvious they still have feelings for each other and i’m weak
  • erik actually listening to raven AND betraying apocalypse WHEN HE STARTED TO HURT CHARLES. i was convinced he would do it after hearing peter was his son, but this was SO much better. also, when he put a big X in front of charles to protect him, that was the best. charles/raven will always be my favorite brotp in the movies, but cherik wins this one
  • and of course, MY FAVORITE SCENE OF THE MOVIE: JEAN GREY BECOMING THE PHOENIX. i freaking loved how they made her/a woman the most powerful mutant. idk i just loved that scene so much 
  • AND MY FAVORITE PART: RAVEN BECOMING THEIR TRAINER AND STAYING WITH CHARLES, WHERE SHE ALWAYS BELONGED. i guess she did come home after all. i do wish we got more of them though :(
  • in conclusion, i love everyone, i ship everything, and i CANNOT wait to see this movie again. what an ending to a beautiful trilogy 

Sometimes the world seems against you
The journey may leave a scar
But scars can heal and reveal just
Where you are

The people you love will change you
The things you have learned will guide you
And nothing on earth can silence
The quiet voice still inside you
And when that voice starts to whisper
Moana, you’ve come so far
Moana, listen
Do you know who you are?

- Tala [ Moana 2016 ]

Not gonna lie, the first four lines made me tear up and almost break down crying. I know how it feels, Tala, I know how it fucking feels. I probably have so many imaginary scars all over my body from the things I’ve endured and this brought it all to light… -exhales heavily- and it brought to light the fact that I don’t know yet who I am. -sighs- This movie meant the world to me.


If you’re reading this, then you already know.

There are so many things I want you to know. First of all, I’m sorry it took me this long to realize it. Secondly, I’m sorry I didn’t talk to you about my sexuality. I started having doubts this summer, right before you told me what you told me. I identify as bisexual, I’m pretty sure it fits me.

Those few weeks I spent without you made me realize that, maybe, the feelings I had for you were more than just… Friendly love.

And I was right.

My heart broke every day I spent without you.

I couldn’t keep my mind off you, I just spent every second of my life thinking about you. About your smile, about your eyes, about your hugs, about your voice, about… About you.

I cried myself to sleep for so long I can’t even remember when it stopped, I believe it was the night you held my hand.

I want this for us.

I want happiness. I want to love. I want laughter. I want smiles. I want hugs. I want kisses. I want us.

I had you in front of me for so long, but I was too blind to see how important you actually were. I believe we’re meant to be together. I believe we’re soulmates. I believe you and I belong together.

I don’t know if this is going to come a bit unexpected, but it’s the truth.

I love you with my whole heart.

I love you in a way I never thought possible.

I love you, I always have and I always will.

You deserve so much in this world, and I want to give you everything you desire.  

Whenever I’m with you, I feel like I could fly if I really wanted to. You’ve always been caring, loving, and kind to me. I know I can be myself whenever I’m with you. I don’t have to hide who I am. I don’t have to hide my weird obsessions. I don’t have to be someone I’m not just to please you because you love me for who I am.

And I love you exactly for who you are.

I love the way you drink tea in the morning, breathing the scent of it before taking a sip. I love the way you hit the printer when it doesn’t work, because “it hates me, I’m telling you this damn thing hates me”. I love the way you laugh whenever I try to cook something and how hard you try not to vomit when I offer you some food I made. I love the concentration in your eyes whenever you’re writing something. I love the way you get worked up when we go to a new sushi place and they don’t have your favorite tempura rolls. I love how you’re always ready to defend me. I love the face you do when you drink tequila shots. I love the way your hair smells after you’ve taken a shower. I love how dedicated you are to everything you do. I love how unfazed you are anytime I knock on your bedroom window at ungodly hours.

So tell me, now… Are you willing to be with me?


Reaction to being overwhelmed by school.

 J HOPE:  

J hope is like an emotional sponge, if you’re sad , then he is too. Seeing how stressed out you are would make him feel so terrible and he’d try everything to make you just relax JH: “Jagi you don’t need to finish all this work.” You: “you don’t understand, my teachers don’t care, I need to get this done.” At this he would turn you away from your work. JH: “I care, and you are taking a break.” He’d then take your hand and lead you away from your tiring amount of work


Suga is gone a lot because of work, he’s always producing music and learning choreography and sometimes you wish he was around more, especially because you are being hounded by your teachers and you felt terrible. Though suga is gone a lot he notices a change in you for the worse and is NOT having it. Every day before he leaves to work he always tries to leave you a flower and a special note on your desk. Each day its different and this really perks you up. One day you are working from your textbook and he comes up and shuts it “I’m here now, I’m not going anywhere.” You cry from the stress but he kisses your tears away.


You would be trying to do your work but you just can’t focus, why? Because of jeon jungkook. He just won’t leave you alone, every time he hears you groaning over your work he comes over and tries to give you a massage or leaves kisses on your neck. You: “jungkook I can’t get anything done if you don’t stop bugging me.” He’d look at you a little disappointed and say “ok, I’ll leave you be.” and leave. You felt bad, you understood he was just trying to help but you really couldn’t have any distractions. You continue along with your school work until you fall asleep at your desk. Waking up you feel yourself lifted in your chair and cradled in his arms. You: “w-what are you-” Jk: “shhhh y/n sleep now.” He’d say as he lays you on your bed and kisses your forehead.



Jin: Oh, y/n it’ll be over soon. All your teachers are just as stressed out as you I’m sure. You: Then why do they take it out on us?! It’s so rude! I can’t handle this much work! Jin: *pulls you into his loving embrace* I know y/n just a while longer my dear. And then you can spend as many days as you like with me and the guys. And we will not have to worry about exams or anything like this. Now come on I made your favorite dinner and there’s ice cream in the freezer for after. You need a break and then I’ll help you after. Okay?


Jimin would come home with all your favorite snacks and a bunch of fun movies and things for you to do when you get done studying. He worries so much about your happiness that it starts to affect his own. And you begin to feel even more terrible because you don’t want him to be sad. He comes home one day and can’t find you anywhere in the house. JM: Jagi, sweetheart where are you? He wanders into the bedroom and sees you sleeping on your textbook. All the work around you is done and he gets a brilliant idea. He disappears and lets you sleep for an hour and makes you a blanket fort. You wake up and look around the huge blanket fort. You: Oppa what are you doing? What is all this? You are surrounded my munchies and pillows and Jimin is sitting there grinning at you. JM: I made you a fort. And you are not allowed to leave until you relax! You: But I need to study. JM: The exam isn’t until next week. One day won’t hurt you. You two argue a bit more until you start a pillow fight and then a food fight. You laugh and wrestle with him and realize he knows exactly what you always need. You two watch your favorite movie and you nod off somewhere in the middle. You feel the couch somehow get softer and open your eyes to see Jimin any yourself lying in bed. You kiss his cheek and he pulls you to cuddle with him. He is an angel.


You are studying your butt off at the kitchen table while you wait for Namjoon to get home from dance practice. You feel your eyes droop slightly and know that the end is in sight for tonight’s pile of work. God why can’t those teachers just give you a break? RM: *walking in and seeing you staring down at your textbook* Oh Jagi, why are you still doing work? You are working yourself way too much. You: I can’t help it, my teachers are pushing me over the edge and I have to cram for exams. Tears start to accumulate on your cheeks and before you can blink away the ones in your eyes Namjoon strides across the room in two large steps and engulfs you in his embrace. He rocks you gently and rubs your back knowing very well that he can’t do anything to your teachers. RM: Shhhhh Jagi, it’s going to be okay. Deep breaths. You have worked hard enough for one night. Time to go curl up on the couch. I brought pizza. Let’s help you relax a little and you can get back at it tomorrow my love. You: *nod* What did I do to deserve you? RM: *chuckles* Well I can tell you studying your life away was not it.


Tae always texts you during class, no wonder you are falling behind. But you would never tell him to stop because his texts always make you smile. - Are you SURE we can’t just beat the teacher into giving you an A? - No Tae we cannot. That is just inappropriate - Well… I still think we should. - Yea just burst into the study session right now and beat him to a pulp Tae. You press send and shortly after hear running down the otherwise empty corridor. OH NO! Tae bursts into the classroom and the teacher stares at his ‘bad boy’ face with a raised eyebrow. You: I am so sorry sir, I’ll take care of this please just give me a moment. He nods at you. And you escort Tae out of the classroom. You: Kim Taehyung what the hell were you thinking?! V: You told me to! You: I was being sarcastic!! Now I’ll see you back home after I’m done here okay? Goodness you violent human. *You kiss his cheek and walk back into class with a giggle* Later you come home to see Tae had made your favorite dinner as an apology for his earlier actions. He also makes sure to let you have as much space as you need to finish all your leftover schoolwork. After that he brings your favorite candy and helps you with the homework you don’t understand yet. You can’t stay mad at that sweet boy


Behind The Scenes 2 (6.6/16)

Author’s note: I am currently in the process of writing BTS 3. While doing so (and while I was writing BTS 2), I triggered myself a few times and brought up some really bad stuff for myself. I just want to remind you all that my story is dark and some parts may get really intense. My goal while I have been writing this is to make my series as real as possible. I absolutely love all the BTS members and the way I write them in this series does NOT reflect my feelings and opinions towards them. I know my series is going to have dark and intense parts and I am going to put warnings whenever necessary. I really hope you all still keep up with and enjoy my series.

*Different POVs are in italics.

Sorry about the long note and sorry for any errors in this post.

Genre: More so friendship fluff (Suga and Jhope)

Word count: 2476

Summary: you use your free time to talk to your only friends. 

Other parts: HERE

This is my GIF. I made it based off of this scenario series.

The first thing you did when you got to the dorm was go to Suga’s room. You just straight up busted in to his room. “Y/n?” Suga stopped pacing around and immediately went up to you. “Y/n! How did it go? What happened?”

You didn’t say anything, you just wrapped your arms around him. He did the same. “Why are you covered in food?” his arm touched a wet patch on your back and he noticed a pieces of popcorn in your hair. “Don’t tell me Jungkook did this!”

You shook your head and pressed your head into his chest. You felt like you wanted to cry, but you couldn’t get the tears to come out. You stayed nuzzled on to his hug for a while before he suggested that you two take a seat on the bed. Without letting go of you, he moved the two of you to the bed.

He tried to lighten the mood a bit. “So… Are you going to tell grandpa Suga what’s wrong?”

You wanted to laugh, you honestly did, but you stayed quiet. You only nodded again.

Suga kept his arm around your shoulder. “Just tell me when you’re ready.” He said softly.

“… The whole thing made me feel so… uuuuggggggg! I hate pretending with Jungkook. He’s such a fucking aaaahhhhh! You get me?”

“Yeah… I get you…”

“I don’t think I can keep this up, not after how this went.”


“Well, to state the obvious, Jungkook is disgusting. And secondly, they all hate me.”

“Who hates you?”

“ARMY. There were so many people going up to Jungkook and they kept staring at me like I was gross pile of shit. After the movie there was a whole fucking mob of them. One started telling me shit and then others started doing the same and they started throwing stuff at me and then at Jungkook too! Then some fans were yelling at Jungkook and some other ones were trying to come to his defense. Then the fans started fighting each other! I don’t want to do this anymore! I didn’t mean to start anything! Now they are all going to hate me even more! What if they start hating you guys too?”

“I’m sorry that happened y/n… But it’s not your fault.” He said softly.

You gripped onto his other arm. “Yes, it is! If I didn’t have to do it, they wouldn’t have fought like that!”

Suga held onto your hand. “No, it’s not your fault. Namjoon forced you two to go on that date. Those fans were just being mean and got themselves in to that situation. It’s not your fault.”

“Why is he making me do this Yoongi? Why?”

“I don’t know…”

You both stayed quiet for a bit.

“Just don’t think about it anymore okay? It’s all just nothing, Okay?” he said.


“No, you need to prove it.” He said playfully. He lifted your face so that you were looking up at him.

“Why?” you whined.

“I just wanna make sure you’re over it. Smile to prove it.”

You gave him a sad attempt at a smile.

“C’mon a real one!”

“I can’t.” you pouted. You took your face out of his hand and rested your head on his shoulder.

“Ok… wait… I know something that’ll cheer you up…”

You looked up at him questionably.

“I’ll be back in a second.” He stepped off the bed and walked out of the room.

“Where is he going?” you asked yourself.

About a minute later you heard a set of footsteps getting closer to the door. Suga popped his head into the room. “Okay! I brought your favorite!” he said pulling Jhope into the room.

“Awww y/n what’s wrong?” Jhope became concerned when he saw how upset you looked. He quickly ran over to you and scooped you into a big hug. Suga stayed standing in front of the two of you.

You hugged Jhope back and told him how the “date” went.

“Awww y/n don’t listen to them. They were just being mean. They were jealous that you were with Jungkook. They were probably jealous that you were so pretty too. That’s probably why they tried to destroy your outfit.” He said taking a closer look at your clothes.

“Bullshit! You should have seen the way they were staring at me Hobi. You should have heard what they were yelling at me!”

“No. Believe me. When have I ever lied to you, huh? They were just jealous. Jealous of you with Jungkook and jealous of your looks.”

“You already told me that. If you wanted to make me feel better, you can’t just repeat the same crap.”

“Hey. Cut me some slack. It’s very possible that I am a bit high to cut down the anxiety I was feeling over you and Jungkook. Good thing Yoongi dragged me over here. I didn’t know you guys were back.”

You rolled your eyes at him. “Ok, I’ll accept the Jungkook stuff, but you didn’t have to go as far as to compliment me.”

“I’m just stating a fact!” Jhope smiled

“Yeah y/n. He’s right. I’ve told you before how great you are. I don’t know why their comments bothered you. You get worse from Jimin on a daily basis.”

“No shit.” You pouted and rested your head in your hand. “Maybe Jimin is right… they were yelling the same stuff he always tells me.”

Jhope kicked Suga’s leg.

“The fuck?” Suga whispered to Jhope.

Jhope didn’t say anything. He just motioned his head toward you. You were too busy worrying about what Jimin was going to yell at you to pay attention to the two of them.

Suga sat down next to you. “I didn’t mean it like that way y/n. Just don’t worry about anything okay? Don’t worry about ARMY. Don’t worry about Jimin. Don’t worry about what Jungkook does. Just worry about yourself. Just focus on trying to keep up the illusion that you and Jungkook are dating.”

“And focus on me!” Jhope cut in. He began doing excessive amounts of aegyo to try and cheer you up. You smiled at him. “Yay! She smiled! She’s all better!” he exclaimed

Your smile quickly disappeared though. “I do worry about Jimin though. I don’t want to go to my room. He’s probably gonna give me a ton of shit too.”

“Don’t worry, he’s harmless. He’s just being a bully.” Jhope said.

“Yeah.” Suga agreed.

You wanted to tell them about what Jimin yelled at you the other day, about how he wished that you were dead. “Do I tell them? How would they react? Would they be mad or would they just tell me to blow it off?… I shouldn’t tell them. It can make all things worse.” You thought.

“Well, he’s probably not going to be a problem tonight.” Jhope mumbled.

Without your knowledge, Suga slapped the back of Jhope’s head.

“Why do you say that Hobi?” you turned to face him.

“Uh, well, um…” He looked to Suga for a spilt second. “Practice didn’t go so well after you guys left. Namjoon was pretty hard on us afterwards and Jimin got the most of it.”

“Yeah!… He’s been in a mood since then. He won’t talk to anyone.” Suga added.

“Well, this can go one of two ways,” you began. “He can be quiet… or he will take his anger out on me…”

“Listen to your hope.” Jhope made you look at him. He cupped your face. “You are beautiful. Jimin won’t bother you today. Just worry about yourself and focus on me, your angel.” He smiled.

“Ok” you said giving him a small smile.

He pulled you into another hug.

“What time is it?” you asked still in Jhope’s arms.

Jhope kicked Suga’s leg again. “Check Bitch!”

Suga mumbled under his breath as he pulled out his phone. “11:03”

“Shit! I need to shower, like now! I only have till 11:30!” you tried to pull yourself off of Jhope, but he refused to let you go. “Hobi! Let go!”

“No! first promise me that you won’t let ARMY get to you!”



“Fine! I promise.”

“Pinky promise?”

“How can if you don’t let me go?”

“Ah you got me there” He released you from his embrace and made you pinky promise him.

“Night guys. See you guys tomorrow.” You said walking to the door.

“Hey! Wait! You have to promise me too!” Suga said.

“Ahh!” you huffed in frustration. You shuffled over to him and sloppily intertwined your pinky with his.

“Nah, for real y/n.”

“Yoongi, I need to shower!” you grumpily pinky promised him more properly.

“Better! Goodnight!” he smiled

“Night y/n.” Jhope said.

“Night.” You walked out of the room and to the hallway bathroom.


Jhope stayed behind in the room with Suga. He looked over at Suga with a smirk on his face. “So, when are you gonna tell her?” He asked.

“Tell her what? About Jimin? I’m not gonna tell her anything. You were the one that almost gave it all away!”

“I wasn’t actually gonna say anything about it though!” he said defensively.

“You better not! She doesn’t need to be in any deeper shit. Something like that needs to come from Jimin himself and with the way he is with her, it’s never gonna happen. We gotta keep it like that for his sake.”

“Yeah yeah, whatever. Something like that can be a secret for only so long. I’m actually surprised she hasn’t found out yet. She found out about my shit in less than 2 months of being here. She’s sharing a room with him now. She’ll find out one way or another… But that wasn’t what I was asking about.”

Suga raised an eyebrow at him. “So what did you mean?”

Jhope slid next to Suga and placed an arm around his shoulders. “When are you going to tell y/n that you like her?” he whispered with a smirk on his face again.

Suga shrugged his arm off of him and stood up from the bed. “What the fuck are you talking about?”

Jhope stood up and took a step towards Suga. “Don’t play stupid with me.” He said teasingly

“I don’t like her like that.”

“Yeah and I’m sober!” There an excess of sarcasm in Jhope’s voice. “I see the way you look at her! You are always using the mirror to stare at her during practice. Not to mention how you were right now. You should have seen your face when I kept hugging her. You looked so jealous!” he laughed.

“Shut up! It’s not what you think. I just check on her. She’s going through a lot right now.”

“More like checking her out.” Jhope snorted.

Suga kicked Jhope in the shin.

“Ouch! What was that for?”

“For being stupid!… Anyway, you should be keeping an eye on her too!”

“Don’t worry I am. Just don’t be jealous about it okay?”

“I don’t like her like that! Just drop it!”

“Suuure. “You don’t like her.” I got ya.” He winked ask he walked out of the room.


You walked out of the shower and changed back into the same dirty clothes. You were in such a rush to shower, that you once again forgot to get yourself a clean change of clothes. You stepped out and tiptoed to the kitchen to check the time.

“11:24… I should go to the room now.”

From the hall you could hear voices coming from your door. You walked in to find V sitting on the computer chair placed next to Jimin’s bed. Jungkook was also next to the bed, except he was kneeling on the floor. He too had just showered. They both stared at you as you walked to your trash bag to find a change of clothes.

Jimin was laying on his bed. His back was to the boys as he faced the wall.

“Hey y/n.” V said. “Sorry to hear about how the date went. Jungkook updated me about the whole thing.” he had taken notice of your dirty clothes. “Don’t worry, I’m sure the next ones you two go on will go smoother,” he said reassuringly.

“Next ones?” you asked.

“Uh-huh.” He nodded. “Namjoon told me that he wants you two to go out more. You know, to keep with the whole “almost two years of dating” thing.” He said as he looked between you and Jungkook.

You and Jungkook turned to each other, exchanging looks of annoyance/disgust.

You went back to look for clothes, then you ran back to the bathroom to change. You pulled out the sweater Suga gave you months ago and put on a pair of sweatpants. When you returned, the boys were still with Jimin.

“C’mon Jimin! It’s not like you to be like this for this long.” V whined.

“Yeah!” Jungkook added. You could tell that he didn’t know what to say.

“Practice must have been pretty bad.” You thought.

Jimin continued to stay quiet. He didn’t say anything when Jungkook and V called out to him. He even went as far as to slap their hands away or kick them away when they tried to move him around. No matter what, he stayed facing the wall.

You sat on your mattress and continued to watch V and Jungkook’s attempts to cheer Jimin up. Although Jimin was one of you least favorite people, you couldn’t get any cheer out of seeing him so upset. Deep, deep, deep down you actually kind of felt a tiny bit bad for him.

“Y/n!” Rap monster call out your name in to the hallway.

“She’s in here!” V shouted. “C’mon Jimin. You shouldn’t go to bed angry.” He said in a much softer voice.

The door swung open. Rap monster scanned the room, his eyes landing on you. “Well isn’t a little someone going above and beyond today.” Then he directed his eyes over to Jimin. “What’s up his ass?’ He smirked.

You noticed Jungkook clench his jaw. He turned to Rap monster, “He’s still upset” he growled.

Rap monster’s smirked remained, but his eyes turned to lasers aimed at Jungkook. “He should be happy if you ask me.”

You could see Jimin tense up and curl into a ball.

“I think it’s time we all go to sleep.” Rap monster “suggested”. He was still glaring at Jungkook, Jungkook glaring back at him.

“Um, Jungkook let’s go. We have a long day tomorrow.” V said softly, trying to avoid another confrontation. He grabbed Jungkook off of the floor and pushed Jungkook out of the room.

Rap monster turned his gaze over to you. Without a word he flicked off the lights and locked the door behind him.

I’ve put alot of time and work into this series, and whenever I get a like,a reblog or a comment/ask, it really motivates me to finish writing it. I am not really a writer and this series is really my first time I’m actually writing, especially something that is so long and rather complex at times. Thank you to those who have keep up and caught up with the series. Once again, I hope you all still around till the end and enjoy it.

anonymous asked:

Hey can you please explain why you are against James Franco/the interview? I'm not a big fan of him but I feel a bit uninformed about the whole fiasco and why it's having such a big impact.

no problem my dude!

the thing that bothers me the most about sony actually releasing the interview is that seth rogen and james franco had a HUGE opportunity at their disposal. that movie had a big name cast, and they could have done so many things with the concept of north korea. they could have made a drama or a comedy based in north korea or SOMETHING to use that platform to raise awareness about the horrors that go on in that country.

do you know that kim jong-un has brainwashed north koreans to make them think that he can read their minds (about 11 minutes into this video)? think about how terrifying that is: living under a dictator who you think can read every thought of yours, so thus any negative thoughts you may have about his regime need to be avoided immediately.

then there’s the fact that there is a massive food crisis in north korea. it’s so bad that people eat pieces of corn found in the shit of animals because they’re so hungry. one of the most visceral things i heard was that in severe cases of malnutrition, the anus actually doesn’t close and anything you eat or drink comes directly out of you. these accounts come from prison guards who witnessed it.

at any point for any reason, police in north korea can charge you with any crime they want, and take you AND your family - regardless of whether your family was even with you at the time - to political prison camps. these camps are obviously fucking terrible places to be, as demonstrated by the images drawn here by former prisoners.

there’s also the fact that people can’t leave north korea. their borders are tightly monitored with frequently rotating guards who are told to shoot anyone who tries to cross. china, who shares a border with north korea, sends back people who have fled to china from north korea. women who return to north korea pregnant are forced to carry heavy loads up and down hills until they miscarry.

so i was relieved that sony wasn’t going to release the interview because i knew it would be full of racist, frat-boy level humor (spoiler alert: it got terrible reviews and yes, it full of racist, frat-boy level humor) that makes fun of 25 million peoples’ suffering. they had an amazing opportunity to raise awareness about the devastation that exists in that country, and instead they used that platform to be racist, mimic accents and literally make butt jokes.

when north koreans are finally freed of their chains, they’re going to learn that the rest of the world thought it was hilarious how much they were tortured.

that’s why i am against the interview, james franco, seth rogen and sony.

My experience with the law of attraction

I just want to share how much changing my mindset and attitude about life through the law of attraction has tremendously changed my life. I used to be very sad and had an outlook on life that was overall negative. I blamed everything on my surroundings and never took responsibility for my feelings and actions. I got into learning about spirituality and opening my mind about five years ago. I never truly understood until I watched the movie the secret. It blew my mind and from there on I was on a mission to learn and change my way of thinking. I dove into books and blogs and videos and teachings about it. The more I would learn, the better my life became. I still have so many things to improve on and learn, but looking back now, I’ve made it so far. It gets easier and easier to let things flow naturally and focus on the things I do want. I always have my days that are hard and make me feel like I’m stuck. But I keep going and I watch before my eyes things manifest that I’ve desired for so long. Some examples

-A beautiful home with a huge room and private balcony. I always wanted a big room and just a balcony in general. Now I have my own, and my rent is dirt cheap.
-A career I am becoming passionate about and feel fulfilled from most days. I used to go from job to job, unhappy and dreading going in. Now I love going to work.
-An awesome relationship with my mother that has blossomed into something I cherish rather than resent, like I did in the past. I can’t imagine going a day without talking to her now.
-The most caring, supportive, and handsome boyfriend who treats me like I deserve to be treated. I used to struggle so much with being single and had an awful boyfriend who treated me like garbage. I now have someone I always dreamed of and he makes me very happy.
-My depression is completely gone.
-I have the dopest group of friends, and we’ve shared the most memorable experiences of a life time. Music festivals and camping and the best parties, and even just chillin on a Tuesday. I love them all so much.
-A new vehicle
-I used to be a heavy drinker, I now drink 1-3 times a month, and it’s always very tame.
-little things every day

Please just know it is very possible to have the life you always dreamt of. It’s so easy! Like I said, I still have my hard days, my anxiety still spikes, and I have so much more to work on. I am on the journey of weight loss currently and it’s another great learning experience for me. Please look more into the law of attraction if you want to better yourself and everything around you. You truly get what you give.

Some of my favorite blogs that have helped me SO MUCH

joypassiondesire on Wordpress. Truly an amazing role model and teacher.

Search tags of law of attraction and Abraham Hicks. Join groups on Facebook. Change your life. Go with the flow, stay focused on your desires, let them go, live your life moment by moment. Expect the best. Learn from the worst. Be patient with yourself. And Love so much.

I’ve missed a lot of things,

Waking up early,
Getting breakfast,
Going out with friends,
Taking pictures,

Reading in cafés,
Wandering around town,
Feeding stray animals,
Going to the movies,

Family dinners,
Shopping sprees,
Late night car rides,
Being adventurous,

Feeling loved,
Feeling as if I’m enough,
Being happy,
Being okay,

You made me miss so many things,

—  whatifgodisacat