this movie :'(

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ZACK TAYLOR IS SO IMPORTANT FOR THE TEENAGERS OUT THERE WHO HAVE A FAMILY MEMBER SUFFERING THROUGH LONGTERM ILLNESSES.

I am so proud of this movie. It means so much to me. The way Zack just wanders around, aimlessly, in the middle of a mine for no reason other than the fact that as long as he doesn’t stop, nothing can catch up to him. More importantly, not his mom’s illness.

Junior year, my mom was diagnosed with cancer. My big plans to go out of state for college minimized to statewide. Days spent with my friends were cut short. Drives to town with my mom became more important because to me, it felt like my time with her had suddenly been split in half. I was angry. I struggled, quietly. I still struggle to open up, to share what I fear most, which is where cancer could possibly take my mom.

My OCD got bad. My relationships became strained. I didn’t wander around mines, I jogged. I ran through forest with my headphones on full blast. I drove the long way home. I made up reasons to go to town. I watched my mom break down. I broke down myself, in privacy, multiple times.

And to see a kid like Zach, the same age as me, going through something so similar? I don’t know. It just gives a validation I haven’t felt. It was realistic. It was true.

“My mom’s the BEST,” he screams, “but she’s sick.” And it clicked to me.

I saw a mirror of myself, a person I’ve been looking to speak with, to help understand, on this screen in front of me, staring at a bonfire, tears in his eyes, admitting something that’s hard to say. My mom is sick. My mom is sick and I love her. My mom is sick and I refuse to lose her. My mom is sick and I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m terrified.

Mr. Zach Taylor, I know you. Mr. Zach Taylor, I am you. Mr. Zach Taylor, thank you.

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You have become my laughter, you have become the wetness of my eyes, you have become my sky and my earth..  I began to change, began to fall and be steady.. Since I have known you, I have started to move toward you.. Every journey, every place, everywhere you became.. I thought of you as god and you have become god only..

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This is the hand he holds. He prefers holding his sword to my hand, but he holds your hand dearer than any sword.