this motivates me a lot and

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This is what happens. If I think about a hundred in my head, you know that you can’t make a hundred. Everything we think about can’t happen in real life. Not just me, but I believe many people are like this. You too. It’s like that. How can what you think always happen? 

But this is also one part of the process. I have a lot of things I want to say, but I’m going to hold myself back. But I still want you to do everything that you want to do. Because it can happen. If you think a hundred, the hundred can happen. That’s happened to me before. It can happen to you as well.”

If you ever needed motivation/encouragement, here it is from Bang Yongguk.

See You Tomorrow

Intro:  While you’re staying with your sister Karen and her family you meet a certain police chief when he arrives to drop off his daughter.

- [ Read it on Ao3 ] -

Pairing: Jim Hopper x Reader

Word Count: 3272

Warnings: Too much smiling? I only proofread once and I wrote it at 2am yesterday?

Author’s Notes: Listen, if y'all ain’t gonna write me Hopper x Reader fics I guess I just gotta do it my own dang self. This is a long one and it was only meant to be a one-shot…but dammit if I’m not going to have to write at least a part two now. I don’t know when that’ll happen though since I’ve still got my Lucifer fic going on, but I may be more motivated to write it faster with lots of comments…. ;) 

(Seriously though hit me up I need constant validation and encouragement I’m an actual pomeranian irl)

It had only been a few days since you started staying with your sister Karen and her family while you looked for a place in Hawkins, but you already found there were some things you liked more than others. For example, you liked spending time with your nieces and nephew. Nancy was so smart, and you loved hanging out with her and listening to all her teenage gossip and her hopes for the future. Holly was still little and sweet, and making her laugh was simple but felt so rewarding. Then there was Mike; truthfully you enjoyed spending time with him the most. You were a total nerd as a kid, and while Karen was the pretty, popular one–similar to Nancy, but with a bit less studying–you had always been the outcast, just like Mike and his friends. You loved hanging out and listening to him explain the details of his game or discussing Star Wars, and you loved seeing him have fun with all his friends; all of whom knew you as Mike’s “cool aunt y/n.”

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03 | love is not over ( kim taehyung )

estimated word count: 2.5k
summary: you’re pleased to know that you managed to force kim namjoon in becoming your fake boyfriend for the meanwhile, and he plays the part too well when taehyung pays an unexpected visit at your office with sunhee.
warnings/notes: i’m so happy that this series is having a fine amount of support so far! thank you so much for the likes and feedback i get from this story. it truly means a lot and it motivates me to write even more 🙈

chapters: one | two | three

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You didn’t really know what was the correct way in asking someone such a big favor and you have been stressing over it the entire time when you returned to work after being on leave due to your cold, finally having the opportunity to face Namjoon who had no idea that he was the person you claimed to be your boyfriend to Taehyung just to make yourself appear as the winner between the two of you.

Namjoon is typing down something on keyboard when he turns to you and you pretend as if you’re not looking, focusing your attention back on the monitor in front of you and going back to work. He rolls his eyes and chuckles, spinning his chair towards your way so that he can face you and talk to you properly.

“What is it?” he crosses his arms and you sigh, copying his actions.

“I’m sorry.” you begin.

“For what?” he raises an eyebrow.

You purse your lips together before rambling. “Namjoon, I’m so sorry for putting you in this kind of situation. It was stupid and I will completely understand if you won’t agree to it but you were the first person I thought of so naturally your name was the one which came out of my mouth —”

“Y/N.” Namjoon holds your shoulder all of the sudden to stop you from talking and you dare look at his eyes to see that he was trying to surpress a laugh. “Try explaining it to me slower and clearer.”

You nod and follow as he say.

You couldn’t read his expression very well. The whole time you told him the story, he stayed quiet and nodded while tapping a pen on his desk in a rhythmic pattern. His lack of reaction made you even more anxious as you already were since you did not know what to expect once you finish, but when you do, Namjoon flashes you a dimpled grin and you raise your eyebrows in surprise at how calm he was handling the whole situation. Surely, if you were in his place, a violent outburst would suffice.

“So basically, you told your ex-husband that you’re dating me for the sake of bragging rights?” he asks and you nod, a laugh escaping his lips then. “I see, I see. Well, I’m confused whether I should feel honored or burdened that you chose me out of all the people here at work to be your fake boyfriend, to be honest.”

You laugh lightly at his comment. “I’m sorry. It just happened all of the sudden.”

“I know, and stop apologizing. It’s totally okay.” Namjoon turns back to his monitor. “Besides, you just told him my name. It’s not like I have to meet him, right?”

“Yeah, actually, about that …” you trail and you catch him already looking at you with a raised eyebrow that guilt washes over you again. “Namjoon, I really am sorry.” you reach out and grab his hand apologetically in which he just chuckles and pats it with his other hand before pulling away.

“I told you to stop apologizing.” he begins to return to what he has been busy doing a while ago. “I guess I should have seen it coming. When do I have to meet him?”

You shrug. “I don’t know. Anytime, I think. Knowing Taehyung, he won’t believe me until I give him concrete proof.”

“How long have the two of you divorced, anyway?” Namjoon abruptly asks.

You spin your chair back towards your monitor, involuntarily sighing at the thought since you never were comfortable with speaking this topic to anyone, but you figured telling him this was okay since he was now part of the mess you started and it was only fair if he were to know.

“A year and a half. It’s funny ‘cause you’d think it was such a long time ago but for me,” — you shake your head and laugh halfheartedly —"the memory is still fresh.“

“You still love him then?”

“No.” you answer too quickly that makes him look at you, which gone by unnoticed since you were already trying to concentrate on your work. “I mean, it’s not the same anymore. It’s more like I love him because he’s Sunhee’s father, but if he wasn’t and I didn’t have anything to do with him anymore, I won’t really feel anything for him like I used to.”

He remains gazing on your face in search for something he doesn’t exactly know. Namjoon heard everything you said but somehow it didn’t convince him no matter how much you really sounded sincere, because the fact that you were asking him to be your fake boyfriend only meant two things: one, you were doing it to make Taehyung jealous; two, it was your way of somehow getting back to your ex-husband after what happened back then.

And snorting, he focuses his attention back on the screen, knowing full well that it was somehow a mixture of both.


Taehyung goes out of the elevator with Sunhee walking beside him with her hand wrapped around his own. It was the third and the last day that she was going to stay with him prior to your sickness and hearing about how you’ve felt better since yesterday, he gives in on his daughter’s request to visit you at work since apparently two consecutive days of not being with you was too much to bear.

“Daddy, are we there yet?” Sunhee chimes as she settles for skipping instead of walking beside him and he laughs at how cute she looks.

“Just wait a little bit more, baby.” he assures her, turning to the left corridor that led to your office’s café.

When both of them reaches the place, he goes to the nearest vacant spot and lets Sunhee sit before bringing his phone out in attempt to call and alert you of their presence right now. But just as he was about to dial your number, he sees you sharing a table with a man not far from where they were at and he feels his heart drop at the sight of you laughing, sipping from your cup of coffee, and having one hundred percent of your attention to the person you were with. It is only when your eyes flicker accidentally to his way that you see him, causing you to almost choke on your drink which makes Namjoon follow your gaze in curiosity.

“Sunhee, mommy’s there, let’s go.” Taehyung immediately says once he knew you were aware of his presence and with a smile, encourages your daughter to go to where you were sitting quicker.

“I assume he’s Taehyung, right?” Namjoon questions while you grab a tissue and wipe it across your chin.

You don’t give him an answer but your frantic state was enough evidence itself. So smiling, he all of the sudden places his hand on top of yours and brings it down on the table.

You widen your eyes. “Namjoon, what are you —”

“I’m just doing what you asked me to do.” he cuts you off and it dawns you that he was just doing his part.

Taehyung coughs in front of you and seeing Sunhee with him, you pull away from Namjoon’s grasp that makes a sign escape his lips, though not before you were sure that Taehyung had a clear glimpse of it himself.

“What are you two doing here?” you try to act enthusiastic at least for the sake of your daughter as you get out of your seat to embrace her, even though your heart was hammering inside your ribcage as you speak.

You smile when she returns the hug tighter and decide to look up to see Taehyung giving Namjoon not so subtle glances of annoyance.

“Mommy, look what I got!” Sunhee regains your attention by quite literally shoving her arm to your face where three star shaped stamps were planted on her skin.

“Wow! That’s amazing, darling.” you grin at her, kissing her cheek.

Taehyung coughs and you peer at him. He gives you a crooked smile and you stand up from your position before forcing a similar smile to appear on your lips.

“Right,” you start innocently, shifting your gaze from him to the man who was still waiting patiently at the table. “I don’t think I’ve introduced the two of you before. Taehyung, this is Namjoon. Namjoon, this is Taehyung.” you kept the introduction short while gesturing to the two of them.

“Nice to meet you.” Namjoon smiles at Taehyung and holds out a hand to shake.

Seconds pass and Taehyung just looks at the hand held in front of him without any type of response. You’re anxious that he might not take it and in the process act immature but when he does and shakes it even, you sigh in relief.

“Nice to meet you too.” Taehyung says and lets go almost immediately.

Namjoon then turns to Sunhee and showcases his fist in which the young girl grins, bumping it with hers. “Long time no see, kiddo. How have you been?”

“I’m okay, Uncle Joonie.” she says.

Taehyung raises his eyebrows at this and you notice it when he does, knowing that he was surprised that Sunhee was calling Namjoon something that only meant that they were already close — when in reality, the two have only known each other for two months prior to you bringing Sunhee at work for bring-your-child-to-work day, and both of them hit it off pretty quickly all thanks to Namjoon’s undeniable charm when it comes to children.

“So,” you begin again, “what brings the two of you here? Not that I mind, of course.” you smoothen out Sunhee’s hair lovingly.

“Well, Sunhee kept on insisting that I bring her here because she misses you.” Taehyung replies. “And she was hoping that you’d eat with us for an early dinner, actually. Isn’t that right, sunshine?” he grins at Sunhee, your daughter nodding brightly in agreement.

“That’s great then.” Namjoon intervenes and you along with Taehyung snap you head towards him in surprise. “Y/N and I were just about to go out, anyways.”

“But you’re not even invi —”  you slap Taehyung’s stomach hardly before he can even finish what he was saying, making him groan and cough to cover up what he previously said. “Uh, I mean, of course. The more the merrier as they say.”

Namjoon smirks. “If you don’t want me tagging along, it’s alright. I’ll respect it if you only want it to be just you three.”

“Really?” Taehyung copies the smirk on his face and you’re tempted to hit him on the stomach again for answering that way. Though somehow you can understand why he was acting like this as it was obvious that Namjoon was doing this to rile him up. “Would it really be okay? Because I want this dinner to be just with my family.”

Family, you tell yourself again in your head, having the urge to roll your eyes and snort at the thought of Taehyung still thinking that what you had with him was defined as family. As far as you’re concerned, you haven’t lived up to the definition of what a family really is and to hear him mention it, you wanted to step in and correct him so bad. But you stopped yourself from doing so as usual, always keeping what you’re dying to say deep inside.

“Of course, no problem.” Namjoon stands up from his chair, acting calm and cool at everything happening at the moment. “Well, I assume you guys better get going then. It was nice meeting you, Taehyung. And see you next time, Sunhee.” he ruffles her hair before turning to you. “I’ll catch you later then?”

You nod and smile. “Yep.”

What Namjoon does next is quite unexpected and yet you kind of already saw it coming. Because just as he was about to officially leave the three of you, he abruptly leans down to place a soft kiss on your cheek, the spot where his lips touched your skin tingling when he pulls away. And when he walks away, you see Taehyung following his figure out of the café, his eyes sending daggers to Namjoon’s direction.

You blink rapidly, unable to know what the right thing to say and you look down at Sunhee to see that she was oblivious of the whole scene, still focused on the three stars she gained in school day that made a sigh of relief come out of your mouth.

It wouldn’t be such a good thing to let your daughter see that you were seeing someone else, even if it isn’t real, since you didn’t want her to think that this family you had with her was truly broken as it really was. You can still remember the day when you explained everything to Sunhee on the night Taehyung was moving out once the divorce was approved, and you had to sugar coat your words to let her small mind understand what was happening to both of her parents. She didn’t cry, as she wasn’t fully aware, but you could see how her face fell at the thought of Taehyung not being in the same household anymore. She has always been a daddy’s girl too and at first, you were afraid that she would prefer staying with her father despite you having her full custody but as weeks passed, she adjusted.

That was one of the perks of being a kid. No problem seemed permanent.

“Where do you want us to eat, baby?” you crouch down and ask Sunhee, holding her hands.

She pretends to think for a moment before giggling, leaning down against your ear to whisper the name of her favorite fast food chain. You laugh and pull back, nodding as you regain your position from earlier.

“Then let’s get going, shall we?” you give Taehyung a small smile.

He looks at you and your heart does that thing again whenever he does so because he was always good with communicating with his eyes, and you didn’t want to admit it to yourself, but your brain was telling you that the gaze he was giving you right now portrayed sadness and plead.

“Was he really your —” Taehyung speaks but stops himself last minute, shaking his head. “Nevermind. It shouldn’t even matter.”

You dare yourself to scoff. “You’re right. It shouldn’t.”

You tug Sunhee’s hand and the both of you march forward towards the exit of the café. Taehyung is momentarily left behind, just standing there with his stare still on the spot where you still were before he sighs, runs his fingers against his hair, and follows after you two with the same mixed emotions you have been feeling around him often running around his head.

Speech Source: A Long Emotional Night – Far From Noise


Today’s video had me thinking about a lot of things; flashing back and forth from the past to the present. It was an odd experience. But wow, do I really enjoy videos like these. Jack, if you are reading this, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for believing in us; for believing in me. Your words of encouragement really inspire your community to move on and create great things. We have built a strong support system because of you. Because of you, I have met some of the greatest people. Because of you, I have found my motivation to do many things. So, yeah, thank you. Thank you so much.

DEUCES.

@therealjacksepticeye

The end.

JOKING, please don’t kill me. I realized that some of you though part two is the last part of ‘one last night’…. it’s not, there are 4 parts to this story! 

I want to thank all of you lovely readers, your comments motivated me and I am 100% sure you’re all the reason why I uploaded so soon. I also want to thank my best friend @5evershinee, I had lots of trouble with some phrases as well as some panels and she being an awesome savior, helped me out!!! (Even tho she doesn’t ship drarry lol)

This story is based on flashbacks, if some of you find it confusing, I can help you out there. 

1. The first flash back is when they are in Hogwarts. 

2. Second one is in the club.

3. There’s a flash back, in a flash back, Harry giving Draco his wand back.

4. Pansy guiding Draco. 

Hopefully that helps?

Thank you for reading!

Feel free to re-blog but please don’t upload my work on a different site. Thank you for understanding :)

anonymous asked:

How does exercise help with PTSD for you if you don't mind explaining? I'm at my wit's end trying to manage it on my own but chronic pain makes exercise difficult. I don't know how you motivate yourself to do it

It doesn’t stop the nightmares or the flashbacks or the hypervigilance. It does help me with focus and a sense of control. Fighting is something I know like I know my body. It’s comfortable. It’s familiar. It’s something for me to hold on to when I’m having difficulty regulating my shit. And I think maybe the endorphins help me with the depression.

Getting motivated is always the hard part. And maintaining it. Sometimes I can (I’ve been doing well for a couple of weeks now–i usually need a lot of accountability). Sometimes I can’t–i’ve spent most of the past 5 or six years laying around eating whole large pizzas alone.

Edit: to be fair I also don’t have the chronic pain issue. Or rather I can overlook it because I seem to have a relatively high pain tolerance.
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18.11.2017

Have been working on my december spread and january spread already, since a lot of stuff is already been planned in for me. I really do hate my november spread but I thought why not show one of my bujo pages?! Also a bit of stationary included what I used, for the spread. Hope you have a lovely day 🌸

anonymous asked:

hello! i really love the way you paint landscapes! they're such a huge inspiration to me, i love painting landscapes as well but i'm generally very slow with them so i have to practice a lot more!! your work always keeps me motivated to work at it and get better! i have a lot of trouble with leaves/bushes though, so i was wondering, do you have any tips when painting bushes/leaves on trees? and do you ever use brushes that are already shaped as leaves or just always paint them manually???

hi there! thank you so much for your kind words! landscapes are so great, but i agree they’re pretty difficult. 

i sometimes use leaf-shaped brushes when im drawing leaves in the background, but for the most part i paint them manually. If you are interested in trying out some of these brushes, I’ve previously used and liked the ones kristen plescow has gathered ( link to them from her FAQ here https://www.twitch.tv/kristenplescow )

In terms of tips - usually for landscapes I find it’s best to do minimal to no linework. This is especially true for when I draw foliage. Instead, I first block out the shapes in color using a blendable brush. This step always takes me a while to find the colors I want and to make sure the colors are in harmony with each other (a whole other essay in itself!). After that I start from the background and work my way forward, using the blending from the previous step to add more variety to my foliage colors. This process is always manual for me, as I feel like i have more control over the final shape of my leaves.

above is a process from a piece i’m currently working on to illustrate what i mean. hope this helps :-) !

anonymous asked:

finch, i have i problem :s im @ college for university rn, but i feel really passionate about art. i always have. like, it's the one thing i feel actually motivates me. the problem is i don't feel i'm GOOD enough to go pursuing a career in it- my improvement in HS was minimal. recently i've started going out of my comfort zone and have improved A LOT in the last year, but i still feel like i'm too far behind my peers to try for art school, but i can't see myself doing anything else. what do???

go for it yo otherwise you might regret it later s: university, or at least in my experience, will help you hone your skills and find your specialism. I’ve seen a variety of skills levels here so it’s chill but obv my experience will be different

I had a good dinner.

I told myself beforehand that I would eat the things I ate. Self, this wasn’t a lack of self control.

Was it a lot? Yeah kinda. Relative to what the ED wants. Was it what I needed? Yep.

Should I feel the need to validate/okay my food choices like this? No. Do I? Uh hell yeah, you better believe it!!!

Because will that amount of food make me gain weight? Ummm. Likely, but not certain. Could go either way depending on how my metabolism is doing at the moment. Frankly, that amount of food wasn’t enough. I don’t want to feel guilty about this. I don’t.

My motivation is very flip-floppy. I told myself I’d eat that before I ate it and now I’m regretting it because I’m afraid I’m going to gain weight and wish I would have kept myself in a deficit instead so I could actually lose weight. EVEN THOUGH I literally did this with the intent of getting myself OUT of a deficit. Even though I actually should have eaten that much at my other meals too. “Wow I’m such a gluttonous pig, why on earth did I do that” says my fuck ass brain.

This keeps happening. I set my intentions on weight loss, realize how shitty that is, change my mind, realize how shitty that is (one more time with feeling), and then change my mind. And ultimately I’m not really losing OR gaining which is frustrating in an entirely other way because now NOBODY is happy.

And anyway. I ate what I fucking ate and I’m just trying not to hate myself over it. I forgot how nice Fritos taste lol and I feel less dizzy than I did before and those are both good things and fucking fuck I’m just going to have AT LEAST ONCE where I don’t let the regret clog everything over.

So.

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anonymous asked:

alright so who do i have to kill for someone to write a fic based on your senior max freshman david au

you don’t have to kill anyone! just send lots of nice words and motivation to @neriseyk who came up with the au (freshman david and senior max was her idea, not mine she also did those sUPER RAD DESIGNS)

she is an amazing artist and writer and also created wasted teen au with me!

all those amazing ideas i have for the stuff i draw wouldn’t have been possible without her! she’s my creative fuel and THE BEST (is2g all her headcanons are sooooooo good and coming up with that highschool au? i owe her my life man…..)

keladrym99thefangirl  asked:

I absolutely love your art and I was wondering: how did you learn to draw like that? Was it just a lot of trial and error?

thank you so much <3 well, before i started painting in digital art i had knowledge in traditional art, i used to draw since i was 3, im self taught  and of course at first it was all shitty but drawing is something i love so much i cant compare it to anything. when i started digital art it was shitty too lol but that’s natural, actually im still learning it but i see myself improve and that makes me happy and motivated.  learning to draw is hard and needs constant practice, so i’ve failed like 1000 times before i achieved my goal. 

REQUESTS PSA

OK So im going to go ahead and put this the best way that I can without it sounding too bad, so when I open requests I absolutely love them, all of them but im a human being //and starving artist// so im happy to do a few at a time, BUT i tend to get a whole lot of them, I also work full time. so if i dont get to yours im very sorry. My motivation also strains on this so please be patient .

ps. if you keep messaging me about not doing a request, sounding irritated with me, upset with me, ECT. i will not do said request. remember these are simply suggestions for me to practice on and have fun with! not a commission. 

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04.10.17 // hello!1!! first day back from spring break and it’s been pretty gud tbh. these are some pictures of a mind map i did for history and to help prep for a test :))

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Happy 22nd birthday, Jeon Wonwoo! Thank you for all the hard work that you do for Seventeen and us Carats. Thank you (along with your fellow members, whom you work so harmoniously with) for providing us with a constant source of joy and motivation. Watching you achieve your dream inspires us to work hard towards our own, seeing you smile (with that beautiful nose crinkle) brightens our own moods. For all that you’ve given us, we wish you happiness in return. We admire that you are able to pull through after times of sickness and adversity and are always open to learning new things. Although an “idol,” it is the everyday admirable human traits that you possess that are what make you awe-inspiring in our eyes. That your success was mostly due to blood, sweat, and tears, along with love and passion for what you do. Stay healthy and may your birthday wishes be fulfilled ^^.

Motivational Mango

Hello, I am Mango, birb of the internet, and I have heard that you have a sad. 

Did you know that I am professional sad fighter? It’s true! Mango will show you the way. When you has a sad, you may feel like doing this: 

As you can see, Mango has been there too. But I can offer you some solutions. 

Sometimes it can help to talk to a friend. It can be hard to reach out, but sometimes expressing how you feel and commiserating makes you feel less alone. Hiding in hair is optional. 

You can talk to friends online if that makes you more comfortable. Computer is also good for viewing birbs. Good for combating a sad.  

If you’re having a rough time, it’s ok to take a break and enjoy a favorite activity. Don’t feel guilty! We can’t be 100% work 100% of the time. You’re allowed to have fun! 

You could get some rest, take a walk, or fix yourself a favorite snack! Sometimes you need to treat yo self. You deserve it because you’re awesome. So remember to be good to you. 

You just take that sad and you give it this look to let it know you mean business: 

You examine this sad and tell it that it has no power here. Give it a real good look with your birb eye and remember that you are worth more than any momentary despair this sad could bring. Here, Mango show you how: 

If all else fails, Mango will get real puffy at the sad for you to ward it off. Sad has no room when Mango is poof. 

But of course the best cure for a sad is looking at pictures of birbs. 

Hang in there, birb! You’re gonna make it.