this moment is so intense

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Let’s face it: I’m scared, scared and frozen. First, I guess I’m afraid for myself… the old primitive urge for survival. It’s getting so I live every moment with terrible intensity. It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain… remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted. When you feel that this may be good-bye, the last time, it hits you harder.
—  The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Make it a habit to say الحمدلله. Especially during difficult moments. Especially during confusing moments. Especially during overwhelming and stressful and intense moments. Especially when you so much want to say something else. You are a Muslim - discipline yourself to do and say only that which pleases Allaah; no matter how you feel within. & this isn’t to disregard how you feel, rather this is to help you manage how you feel.

scorpios feel moments with intensity, so they can love things very much, and this can make them tremendous company. you can learn deep and interesting insights, be taken on conspiracy rides or spiritual searches. the melancholic and moody side of scorpio is historically emphasised. and the scorpio moods are triggered by a combination of elements - watery sensitivity, mars aggression, unconscious longings, consuming relationships, and uncontrollable psychic activity

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He just couldn’t resist talking about his boyfriend who’s next to him:’)

Let’s face it: I’m scared, scared and frozen. First, I guess I’m afraid for myself… the old primitive urge for survival. It’s getting so I live every moment with terrible intensity. It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain… remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted. When you feel that this may be good-bye, the last time, it hits you harder.
—  Sylvia Plath
Let’s face it: I’m scared, scared and frozen. First, I guess I’m afraid for myself… the old primitive urge for survival. It’s getting so I live every moment with terrible intensity. It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain… remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted. When you feel that this may be good-bye, the last time, it hits you harder.
—  Sylvia Plath
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Miss Marple’s balls as a snooping sleuthing tactic

Those moments where you feel God’s presence so intensely, like a wave crashing on the cliff face, strong as the wind that fells resplendent oak trees, fierce as the sun burns bright, His goodness and sovereignty, His righteousness and mercy… remember those memories, hold on tight. When the night falls, swathing you in the ink of a moonless pitch, remember God is the same in this moment as He was in those.

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today i was unable to attend my classes due to the intense hay fever symptoms at the moment, so i spent the day resting and reflecting on my exam results.

i have currently received my results for english and history and picked out where i did well and areas where improvement is required. despite not doing mainstream english and history in year 11, reflecting on the exam papers brings a sense of satisfaction and fulfillment on the achievements of the year.

i’m quite nervous to see the results for the rest of my subjects tomorrow, but at least i know i did the best i could

Random thought from last nights episode but I actually loved Clary’s reaction to her mom?

I was getting chocked up and it took me a minute to realize why but it was because instead of having her completely break down or scream at Alec she just.. sits.

She kills the demon, it hits her and she can’t. She goes into this utter shock. She doesn’t even recognize Simon right away.

It just felt like such a real reaction. Her grief in that moment was so intense she couldn’t even MOVE.

Just. My kids are suffering so I’m suffering

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(Thank you i’m glad you enjoy it!)

- You and Tyler are watching a scary movie theres a really intense moment so you cling on to him and hide your face in his chest
- Once the credits start rolling you go to shift away from him, blushing slightly because you realize you were holding on to him and basically sitting in his lap
- “Why’d you let go of me?” he asks
- “I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
- He rolls his eyes, “Get back here.” and then pulls you onto his lap again.

I just need to talk about this for a minute.

So several things have stuck to me about Rogue One.

1. When Jyn is speaking to the volunteers on the ship, Cassian’s gaze on her is so intense. He looks away for just a moment to the others and I like to think it’s to see if anyone else feels that draw to her. Then he turns his attention back to her like nope, just me. Cool.

2. When Chirrut is shot and Baze picks up Chirrut’s prayer- it is backwards. Chirrut says, “I am one with the force the force is with me.” Baze says “The force is with me and I am one with the force.” The fact that Chirrut’s dying words were look to the force and you will find me, I feel like that’s why Baze changed it because he wants Chirrut with him. (Excuse me while I go fix my mascara.)

3. I know that everything happened as it needed to to keep up with the story - Rogue one not appearing at all in the first trilogy and all- but I can’t help but wonder how different the mission could have ended if General Raditz hadn’t shown up with the fleet. I’ve actually gone back and forth with that saying just how they could have gotten out or that it would have sealed their fate sooner. But, I’m currently sitting on- the shield gate would have never closed, they could have gotten the disk and ran back to the ship. (No they couldn’t but let me have this.)

That’s all I have right now. I’m sure more stuff with come to me as I watch it again. Oh and I really want to see a gif of Cassian holding Jyn back from attacking Krennic because yeah… I’m rebelcaptain trash.