this might be my new favorite photo idk no one knows who knows

you know you’re on my mind

This is part 1/? of a human AU I’ve been wanting to write for AGES in which Derek and Stiles are long-distance friends/pen pals. Derek lives in California and Stiles lives in Poland. Features brief past Stiles/Malia (Derek and Malia aren’t related in this AU). Idk how long this fic could eventually get; I’m hoping to just work on it as I get the time/inspiration. 

 Title from “Mind Over Matter” by Young the Giant because that song always makes me think of LDRs. 

EDIT: This WIP is now also up on AO3 here.

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If there’s one thing Derek’s learned in life, it’s that crushing on someone who lives on an entire other fucking continent is probably a bad idea.

He’s got dozens of photos of Stiles saved to his phone, and a whole box of letters from Stiles, and years’ worth of emails from Stiles, and a whole wall of postcards from Stiles pinned up on the wall over his bed, and none of it is enough.

He wants to do things to Stiles, okay, things besides just watch movies together in two different time zones or talk on skype.

…which… is kind of a new feeling.

Derek didn’t even know he liked guys until three years ago, freshman year of high school, when Stiles came home from a party raving about this girl he’d kissed, Malia something-or-other, and how Malia’s hair was so soft, and how Malia had the prettiest brown eyes and the best laugh, and—and suddenly Derek wanted to throw his computer against the wall.

“I have to go,” he’d snapped, and slammed his laptop shut and thrown on some jogging clothes.

He was five miles deep into the Preserve before it really sank in, not just the jealousy but the absurdity of the jealousy. He and Stiles had never even met, technically. They were probably never going to live in the same country. There was no logical reason for them not to date other people. Especially given that Stiles might not even like guys, or like him.

Still, he was secretly, guiltily, viciously satisfied when Stiles and Malia broke up barely two weeks later.

And since then the crush has gotten, if anything, worse.

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Bad Intentions

[ part oo1 ] aka the one where justin’s the newest student at school and everyone places bets on who he’ll date first, y/n’s too petty to let things go, khalil’s the ringleader, hailey has beef with chantel, za feels very strongly about parking spaces, and they’re all rich seniors with too much time on their hands.

if the summary sounds familiar to you then you’ve probably read the masterpiece that was me and you got it deadlocked. i’ve finally turned it into a fic since it’s still one of my favorite things i’ve ever written. it won’t play out the same way as the imagine but it may get a lil repetitive since some scenes will be reused in the fic. idk man, i’m nervous, just enjoy this.

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anonymous asked:

JESUS U HAVE NO CLUE WHAT YOU ARE DOING TO ME. ITS 2:38 am, I HAVE SPENT THE LAST FOUR HOURS READING YOUR BLURBS... Could you make me one? Um with Harry, really cute one. But kinda sexy at the same time? Idk work your magic!!!!

Hi! I’m sorry I kept you up late, hope you didn’t have anywhere to be the next day :) I’m combining this with another request, one about you wearing his clothes, emphasis on the flannel. 

Thank you very much for reading and requesting <3

Waking up alone when Harry isn’t a million miles away is a much different experience to when he’s touring.

It’s still a disappointment to open your eyes and see empty sheets on his side of the bed, having to pull the covers up tighter around you to block out the cold that Harry’s arms had warded off the night before, and yet you can press your face into his abandoned pillow and the smell of his soap and cologne and skin is right there, stronger than ever. Nothing could ever compare to waking up entangled with him, his warm breath puffing out over your collarbone as he buries his face further into your neck, but even his temporary absence is a thousand times better than the bleak realization that the only contact you might have with him that day would be a few texts and a brief FaceTime call.

You stretch and roll over, rubbing the sleep out of your eyes as you unplug your phone from its charger and flick through your notifications. You can’t resist the smile that tugs on your lips when you see you have six messages from Harry, mostly just him being unbearably sweet and wishing you a good morning and telling you how much he misses you and can’t wait to come home to you. Your two year anniversary is creeping up quickly, and yet he still makes you giggle and kick your legs out with girlish excitement. As you slowly pull yourself out of bed and begin to head towards the bathroom, you text him back letting him know you’re awake and that you miss him too, and then you set your phone down on the dresser so you can hop into the shower and wash off the sticky reminders of your late night rendezvous with Harry.

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MODEST! Management

Modest!

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The first two comments was from a photo perrie (perrieeele) posted on her instagram. And the other comments are from a guy’s instagram posting where he said Eid Mubarak to his followers I guess and Zayn answered on the comments. I can honestly see the difference in the texts and we all know how Zayn always tweets, and how modest fails.

TCA Backstage footage

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This Gif is from TCA (teens choice awards) where Zayn and Perrie was “all loved up”. I don’t know if this GIF will move because it doesnt to me right now but anyways, if it doesn’t I’ll explain it now, There was some fans who recorded this when TCA was on commercial and they both looked kind of uncomfortable at first and they just looked awkward too look at, Zayn looked around like he was bored, perrie sat next to Jade (on of her bandmates from little mix) and they talked, she said something to zayn and i think they smiled about it but after that, everything went to ‘Awkward Mode’ then perrie looks around and spotted a fan filming their “moment” and then she leans on his shoulder, at first I thought she whispered something to him but I just looked closely to the video and she didn’t she just laid her head on hi shoulder keep gazing at the girl who recorded it.  Zayn thought she was going to say something so he leaned his ear towards her face but when she didn’t say anything he leaned back and she sat up straight. Anyways after that they started to talk and then TCA begun with an performance by someone, and then they started genuinelly talk about it and Zayn pointed and stuff, There was one time when Zayn said something to perrie, he got close to her ear but when she turned around they were in a kissing “position” so Zayn backed away quickly, and re-telled what he said earlier. Don’t believe me? Here is a GIF of that too

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Here is a picture too

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Anyways moving on from that, too one of my favorite parts of this post.

 

Zerrie Paris trip

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Ok let’s start. We got this footage was taken by some paparazzi(?) I don’t know and I don’t actually care (let’s hope this gifs move because it’s IMPORTANT for you guy’s too see what that girl in red jacket does) Ok so there is two “bodyguards” or 2 men from management(?) who  

were there with Zerrie on their loved up trip, one of them took a photo of them, with a camera, and when two photos were taken, Zayn kissed perrie then quickly after that he whipped his mouth and took the camera away from the man and checked on the photo. Then this is where my favorite part comes. This lady in red jacket (who is obviously from management) gives those men them a thumbs up (signaling that they can now move on to the next stop) Perrie and those men keep looking back at that woman waiting for her signal, at some point it looked like Perrie was going towards her but then quickly looked up at the Eiffel tower (as a quick save) and then went back to Zayn. When those men got the thumbs up signal they started to walk away keep looking back towards that women. Now you have to be really fast because she does this quite quick, she does it twice. She tried to play it off in front of the cameras but we caught her. There is a video on this if you want to see the whole video if you can’t catch the thumbs up thing. You can just search on Zerrie in paris on youtube and it’ll pop up.  

OMG! So I just got this theory that the girl in the video with the red jacket might be Katie David, she works for modest and it kind of look like her anyways, look

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They are more alike than I thought and (if you are a LArry shipper you know who this woman is) But i can explain a bit for you guy’s if you don’t know who that is. As many Larry shippers believe (so do I) that Larry is fake and El and Louis relationship is fake, there are many proofs to that I might add, and Katie here, follows El and loueh everywhere on their “dates” and on twitter she only follows one direction, louis and harry, she’s like a bacteria you can’t get rid off, she is everywhere when it comes to Larry and honestly it irritates me, and now she appears with Zerrie? that makes me believe that the relationship is more PR than ever. Well I don’t actually know if it’s her so don’t jump on be being like “ IT’S NOT HER” becuase Im myself not certain but it sure does look like her.

So that’s about it on this part. let’s move on.

Tweets & Shit

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Here we go. How dumb does Management think we are? Honestly, I’m a bit disappointed that management still haven’t learned from their mistakes. They can’t photoshop, they can’t even make tweets seem reliable. When in the name of One Direction has Zayn ever wrote “z” or even “Big love”? That’s all managements work, and perrie happily answered the tweet that she couldn’t be happier as well and blablabla, Everyone knew that that tweet actually wasn’t from Zayn because Zayn never write z on his tweets because he is the ONLY one on his twitter not like little mix where they have to write who writes what. That’s how we know that it’s management they write on little mix accounts too and here are some examples (FAILS)

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That’s not even it, What annoyes me is that why is Zayn so passionate about his “beautiful fiancé” on magazines and tweets, when in all damn interviews when they bring her up he looks like this?  

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And his bandmates looks like they’ve heard some bad news. Especially Liam.

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That’s not a very happy face now is it? You might tell me now that he is tired of all the interviews asking him about that and stuff, well he knew that this would happen why would he even proposed if he wasn’t ready? I’m not going to get into this because my next post is going to be about Zerrie’s Engagement. Anyways all the boys get irritated about the subject and they don’t even support zayn seriously? And even perries band mates are tired of all the bullshit she says and the actual subject.

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Moving on because their faces got me to actually feel something towards the subject. (or not idk)

Let’s move on to their Photoshop skills shall we? (I don’t care if they are the ones who photoshop or not, but i like to blame things on modest)

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Well? have something to say? IF the relationship was real and they were the “cutest couple” in the world why do they have to photoshop pictures of them? IF they were a real couple they could just take cute selfies like these?

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They don’t have to photoshop picture of them to prove to us that they are real, wait, why do they even think that they should PROVE to us that they are real? relationships aren’t there for making people jealous it’s about a couple being in love and all management does is force it in our faces, making pictures of them, and posting old photos of them, so we BELIEVE that they are with each other, and of course one direction get’s new fans every single day and those whom haven’t heard of Little mix will of course do that because they throw them in our faces along with Zayn, just to clarify that HE is her BOYFRIEND. We already know stop throwing it in our faces. And perrie is getting caught up in her lies that she tells interviews, she always tells interviews some different shit (same old shit but a different day NANANANANANNANA I KNOOOW IKNOOW, just kidding let’s go back to where we were) She once told an interview she’s looking at wedding gowns and then at a different interview she says that she doesn’t have time, and it’s been a huge talk about the wedding theme and she tells different shit all the time about that too. anyways I couldn’t care less of the wedding that nevers going to happen.

 

Zerrie Animals

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They got Zerrie pets almost exactly one year apart, don’t you think that’s weird? this isn’t the first time this incident has happened. It also happened to harry, look at this

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Modest you fail AGAIN. See what I’m trying to put down here? Everything is always planned, they wait for the right time to do everything, it’s all organized. And the Zerrie pets? I honestly don’t know what to believe, sometimes I actually do have doubts about them being real but then modest always fails and we find a loophole where the truth is hiding out. The more they are trying the more we realize it’s fake.


Thanks for reading, reblogging, liking and following me. I’m not here to hate on Perrie, little mix or anyone I love Zayn and One direction to BITS and I like Little mix they are actually good and talented. I only created this blog to make people realize that this is (or at least seems) a fake relationship and we do have proof non-zerrie shippers don’t hate on perrie because she is with zayn or that we are JEALOUS, that’s not what this is about, I want people to see this from another perspective, don’t always believe everything that’s on the surface, you have to look deeper and that’s at least what Im trying to do. Thanks.

thoughts and feelings nobody asked about ^_^’

hi kids, i’m sure by now you might be figuring out that i love to overshare and talk about things that no one asked about in great detail, if you haven’t figured this out then surprise i do :} today is no different (beware endless rambles under read more)

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It’s INVISIBLE ILLNESS AWARENESS WEEK! So here are some facts about mine.

It’s a bit long, but it would mean a lot to me if you read it. I think it’s really important to have an idea of what being sick/disabled can look like. There are so many misconceptions about what the life of a person like me is like, or even that we exist at all, so while this is just one perspective I hope it helps expand your idea of what is possible under those labels. I know I had a very narrow and totally wrong view myself before I got sick. So yeah please read, for me and others you know<3

PS: if this is too long, the 1 piece of advice I would give is just BELIEVE what people tell you, don’t think you can determine whether medical info they give makes sense or if they are faking/over exaggerating. Know you probably can’t tell someone’s medical status just by looking or watching them - people are complicated, symptoms vary, a disease is weird and can effect people in unexpected ways

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

1. The illness I live with is: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS—a genetic connective tissue disease), post concussion syndrome, and several secondary conditions to EDS, including dysautonomia/POTS, cervical instability, and (suspected) mast cell activation syndrome

2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: Misdiagnosed with fibro in 2011, the rest came in 2013-14

3. But I had symptoms since: I started having minor joint issues in 2005, but major problems started in 2010-11

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Oh wow. I had to come up with an entirely different identity and concept for what a good life could look like. I love my life now, and I’m really happy, but it took a while to get there. I used to be an incredibly ambitious person, who was used to performing at a really high level and being busy 24/7. I’ve needed to slow it down & reevaluate what’s really important in life. I think I would have been horrified if you’d told me 10 years ago I would have dropped out of college, but I’m actually totally I’m at peace with where I am. I’ve done a lot of cool things since I’ve been home

5. Most people assume: that my life is tragic …. that one is hard to respond to. They seem so sad when they find out the details, but honestly in a big picture way life is good

6. The hardest part about mornings is: I often feel really sick in the morning because of dysautonomia. So I’ll be faint, nauseous, dizzy … just not at my best!

7. My favorite medical TV show is: Mystery diagnosis! Which I mostly watched while I was still, indeed, a mystery

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My phone/laptop. Because I’m home a lot they are really my lifeline to the world

9. The hardest part about nights is: Probably needing to sleep in a neck brace, especially now that its giving my jaw issues. But it’s so much better than NOT sleeping in a neck brace is for me at this point, so I’ll take it:p

10. Each day I take: I take 14 prescription and over the counter medications, and about 10 more supplements. Almost all of them are considered minor, safe medications (like 5 are for allergies), but still that number adds up!

11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Wish I had time/money for more of them. Massage, acupuncture, and float therapy have all been helpful for pain management

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I think invisible is easier in many ways ….although I sometimes blur the edges with all the braces I use

13. Regarding working and career: I’m really lucky to have a fantastic part time job I can do from home. No idea what the future holds in this department … a lot of careers I might have chosen seem tricky bc they are too demanding, or the schooling is. So we’ll see

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: Sometimes I feel sad about the lost “potential,” and honestly I still don’t like thinking about the kind of things people expected from me when I was younger. I guess I have a small degree of sadness that I’ll never work at a particle accelerator or be a big name in my field or anything, but honestly I might be happier this way:)Definitely less stressed!

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Be happy! Or even find a life worth living. But I’m actually happier now than I was before I got sick

17. The commercials about my illness: I haven’t seen any yet. I get a couple Facebook ads suggesting I buy electrolyte drinks, but that’s about it

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I just miss being able to be busy all day. I have so many things I want to do and love doing, and I have so little time for all of them!

19. It was really hard to have to give up: Ballet and flexibility training. I miss stretching so much

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: running my blogs! I’ve found this really fulfilling and I never would have gotten into this if I hadn’t gotten sick. Its really great to be able to help people, and to realize that something that should exist doesn’t, and then make it happen.

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: I’d do something spontaneous and enjoy how easy things can be. Go hiking and camping, go on some crazy road trip, do a marathon day of exploring a city, know i can sleep in a car or on a floor and not be too banged up, not need to worry about bringing all the meds and stuff I need, etc

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: There isn’t anything that really bothers me - for the most part everyone has been great. The unwanted pity thing is awkward, but doesn’t really get me mad. Honestly, my biggest problem has been getting people to say anything at all! I’ve gotten a lot of “sorry I disappeared, I didn’t know what to say” from people and I don’t want to make it worse!

24. But I love it when people: Notice when I can’t do something that the group is doing, and sit it out with me, or work to include me. Big family events and parties and stuff can be really sad when no one notices I can’t participate! Other than that, just stay in my life, & accept what I tell them as true. Also people who ask respectful questions:)

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: even bad days have 24 hours

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: 1. it is possible to have a good life with chronic illness 2. bad days don’t last forever 3. Your illness is valid, you belong in the chronic illness community, and you aren’t faking it even when you worry you are (almost everyone I know with chronic illness feels this way, I blame society) 4. be sympathetic to yourself - its ok to grieve and be sad about this 5. i believe in you

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: How boring and mundane it is! even big dramatic events are full of so much waiting and mundanity. Filling out paperwork in the ER and waiting for hours, making 7 phone calls to try and track down important test results, the monotony of managing medications, appointments, insurance, etc … idk I used to think that having a scary illness would make life more exciting or something, but it doesn’t feel that way from the inside

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Oh gosh my family has done SO much for me. My ex really went above and beyond, and I’m forever grateful to her for that. And a major shoutout to all my chronic illness friends who have answered all my medical questions and helped me understand and cope with scary new test results

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: there are SO many misconceptions about illness and disability, including the perception that you can tell if someone is sick/disabled by the way they look or act!

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: happy yay thanks for listening:)

PS - all photos were taken in the last 6 months, so during a time where I was already quite limited and dealing with a variety of chronic illnesses & symptoms. Even though I’ve seen some improvements in the last year, I’m still far to sick to manage school or a full time job and I have whole bunch of health issues I need to balance on a daily basis

Chapter 2 – Facing the Music | Zankie Fanfiction

Author’s Notes: this is the second part of a three part unprompted fic I’m writing that started as a dream originally. the first chapter/part can be found here. Word count for this part is 3,612. Total for parts 1 and 2 together is 6,690. i hope you enjoy reading this as much as i’m enjoying writing it.

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The Life of a Medical Student

It’s been a while since I haven’t replied hundreds of messages flooding in my tumblr inbox. So, here’s a response to a majority of my tumblr friends’ messages asking me what I learned in my first year of Medical School.

1. Change of lifestyle

I have been in a current situation where hanging out, chilling, and doing other fun stuff is no longer listed in my planner. Mostly, I am always hanging out with friends in shopping malls, movie houses, coffee shops, anywhere you name it. Unfortunately, those days are over. Haha. 

From Monday to Sunday, I study. From the moment I wake up, I take a shower and dress up to go to school, attend PBL classes, then go home and study ‘til dawn and then sleep again and wake up again. The same cycle everyday.. No, it’s not depriving myself from all the good things in life but it’s more like disciplining. Self-discipline can be considered a type of training, creating new habits of thoughts and actions toward improving yourself and reaching your goal.

2. As you build self-discipline, you build time management.

In Med School, you are given a bulk of chapters to read and if you don’t finish reading the set of chapters given to you, trust me, you’ll be in misery. Why? Another set of chapters are given to you the next day and you’ll be left behind. When you do not have control over your own self, how can you control time? So, time management is important though it can become an overwhelming task. 

3. Your coffee will become your best friend.

Back in College, coffee was the thing I never fully understood. The taste was just too awful to me. It has a bitter taste. I always have negative things to say when I hear the word “coffee.” Now that I survived drinking coffee for a year, and learned that you can add tons of sugar and creamer to a cup, I realized one thing: how the heck did I live without it? Hahaha.

Another reason why coffee will be your best friend is that when you are spending those long tedious hours of reading, it is there to keep you focused and on track. Since I got into med school, I am a “Procaffeinator.” If you haven’t encountered such word, it is when you have the tendency to not start anything (for me, studying) until you’ve had a cup of coffee. Drinking coffee concentrates my focus towards what I do.

4. You will be busy spending A LOT of time with the love of your life, your books.

Who said we have no love life? We do! We spend more than 8 hours with them, from the rising of the sun to its setting (exaggeration at its best). We still have the time to plan a romantic date from Monday to Sunday in our favorite study out place. They’ve been with us all throughout the week! Yes, a medical student will first fall in love with his/her books and notes. It’s a sort of love or hate relationship wherein we will realize that we can’t live without them.

We will live with them, learn to love them when we succeed, and hate them when we fail. We will also learn to cherish the little details, the little interesting nuggets of information, that makes studying a little more bearable.

5. Ouch to more canceled vacations

You guys mostly knew me because of my travel blogs, right? So to answer your questions if I am still traveling or exploring the world, No. I’m more like exploring the human body. Hahaha. Since the day I got into med school, I always miss most of the family vacations. *sigh* you know how crazy I am for traveling but I just have to learn to sacrifice because I chose this path. Not only do I have to sacrifice but to just get used to this life for the years to come.

I remember I canceled my dream vacation to Dubai just to attend classes in school. Wasn’t it painful? IT WAS SUPER DUPER PAINFUL. It was a vacation to die for but I decided to let go of it. I’m sure this won’t be the last painful thing that’ll happen to me. I’m sure there’s more to cancellation of dream vacations.

6. Learning new things isn’t actually boring at all. If you learn to make it INTERESTING that is.

One of the greatest things in school is getting to know how the human body works. From how you breathe in and out, how you manage to move your body, how you digest food, how your hormones do its job inside your body and more! It’s just so fun and challenging to learn a lot of new things though understanding some topics make you crazy. So in order for you to not get tired of memorizing unfamiliar things or to refrain from getting bored, you can at least save a picture of Ryan Gosling or your huge crush (Not applicable for girls. Haha) and start being creative. I tell you, it’s 100% effective. Two thumbs for our president for sharing this photo!

8. I sleep anywhere. 

….without getting embarrassed. Sometimes I feel happy for doing it because the 15-minute nap is so worth it especially when you are sleep deprived. Obviously, the battles with sleep are well known to medical students. One doctor told me that in the future I will be able to learn how to sleep-while-standing, which by the way I call “steeping” and I can say it’s actually happening. Don’t you think it’s scary? it’s actually happening right now, the steeping thing and all the more when I become a PGI, Resident, or even a Consultant Doctor. Oh well, there’s one thing that I can really say, sleep cannot be cheated; it always gets its just due, one way or another.

9. I sleep anywhere. So, as my friends. Haha!

The good thing about being a sleep deprived medical student is knowing that I am not alone in this endeavor. We sleep at a coffee shop, we sleep at the library, we sleep just about anywhere safe and secure. Not to mention, we have this favorite hang out place after we eat lunch and wait for the next class- our favorite sleeping place, Moonleaf. Haha! We visit Moonleaf almost every day. We order a drink, chat a little and start getting some ZZZZZZZs. I guess the quote that says, True friends don’t let you do things alone is so true.

10. When I’m sleepy, I take thousands of selfies.

Yes, you heard me. You might think I’m one narcissist but this is applicable for desperate measures! When my brain is receiving too much information, I just pick up my mobile phone and start taking selfies. *Ka chick! Ka chick!* That’s just life. Sometimes you are forced to do things you wouldn’t normally do just to survive. Haha.

11. Formalin, medical students’ perfume.

We all know perfume is powerful and that is why we love it. Perfume is able to conjure memories, to evoke feelings, to influence moods but not with this one, it makes you dizzy and lazy (Idk why I always have more than 2 hours of nap every after Anatomy Lab). Our Anatomy lab has a stuffy odor that sticks with you for a long time. Not only do you have to get used with the smell of the room, you also need to get accustomed with the bad smell of formalin, dissecting the body to just find the smallest of arteries to get a good grade in Anatomy, and to rise up in every gloomy day. 

12. A Series of Firsts

You will always have your many memorable firsts in Medical School. To a bright-eyed first year medical student, marks a real turning point into the medical field the moment when textbook studies leave the stage, and actual flesh and bone take the spotlight. One of my first unforgettable moment is seeing our fresh cadaver for the first time.

As a medical student we often get questions like: “Do you really cut real bodies?” and “Isn’t it pretty disgusting?” Yes, we do dissect dead people and no, I don’t find it gross but it does smell sometimes. Not only do we study the body by reading books but human dissection has been the classic tool to teach us and to help us learn the anatomy of the human body. Dissecting and even skinning, as easy it may sound, was easier said than done. It takes a lot of time to cut through the skin and remove the subcutaneous fat. Thank God for cadavers because they have been our first patient and most of all, our first teacher.

Being able to hold a real heart was another first. I was literally holding in my hands a human heart. Not only a human heart, but a heart that belonged to a human. I could see reflected in my hands the life that I choose to have- Saving lives. Once you hold something undeniably and excitingly amazing, how can you not want to move forward? How can you not feel happy wherein what used to be a dream is now a reality?

Ahh, one of the most amazing experiences! Do you remember you first minor operation? Yeah, circumcising fearful patients. We first learned it in a small class, simulated in labs and then practiced it in a community setting. It surely did challenged our knowledge (especially in handling not only the operation but the patient), dexterity and composure. Yes, I had circumcised 3 patients and I’m proud to say that none of them shed a single tear nor screamed their lungs out. Hihi. Call it adrenaline, youthful operation excitement, or future doctor instincts kicking in!

12. Be proud with your eye bags!

People don’t even have to ask, and they can tell we are medical students by the bags under our eyes. But remember this, behind every huge eye bags (don’t forget the dark circles) are endless sleepless nights, lamentation and perseverance in order to make it through the week! But above those bags, is the light of our fire. Our drive to be the best doctor that we can be. So be proud of your eye bags! Show ‘em off! Hahaha.

13.  In Medical School, I met these awesome people :)

I just can’t help but admit that I fell in love with these people. In med school, you learn that you can’t go through it alone. You need the support of people around you. That this is also a give and take relationship. Your friends will help and teach you to balance. When to take things slow and when to burn the midnight oil.

14. Your Family will be your no. 1 Support System

My family is always there to support and pray for me and I can’t thank them enough for giving me so much love! I call my parents often times. Better yet, write them an e-mail and send pictures of how I have been doing. They have sacrificed a lot so that I could go to medical school. Without my family, I probably wouldn’t be where I am right now. 

15. At the end of the day, it is still God’s grace that sustains me

When I can’t handle all the pressures, the stresses, and confusions in life- I just stop. I leave my books and open my Bible instead. In this manner I am reminded that God is near me and when I’m confuse & anxious He offers me His peace, a peace that will protect my soul and body from the destructive effects of continual anxiety . :) 

HS!AU inspired by “The Amazing Spiderman”

“I’ll pretend that it’s no thing that’s skipping my heart when I think of you thinking of me, babe, I’m crazy over you” 
-brookefraser


When Castiel stepped out of the principle’s office after being scolded for punching Luke Milton, their school’s biggest bully, he saw his brother Gabriel already waiting for him.

“My, my, my, little brother, what am I gonna do with you?”

“Gabriel, please, it’s been a long day.” Cas sighed wistfully, knowing it will take some time for his brother to let that one down.

His brother ignored him, “I’m just surprised. I mean, I knew you had it in you, you’ve always had this rebellious side of you, only never let it show, but now you’re finally come to act on it - impressive! Now please tell me what made you snap?! Why help little Sam Winchester when you already saw so many others being harassed by that bully?!”

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anonymous asked:

(1 of 2) I do question is Sam is playing his fans like a fiddle. I shipped them and still might yet again. And I haven't acted "like he murdered someone". From a shippers perspective though, which I know you are not, SamCait have been acting in love for a while now. That paired with Sam not keeping the fap material private and continuing the conversation even after monkeys started jacking to it and fans expressed their disapproval (which I'm not saying was right for them to do in the first place

(2 of 2) ) and then going around appeasing shippers on Twitter makes him look less than genuine. And it’s very confusing. It makes me question if he’s the honest guy we thought or a people pleaser who at the age of 35 still cannot manage to control his horniness enough to keep it out of view for the whole world to see. Sam’s a master at SM so idk why he wantes us to see that. I’m sorry that you hate shippers who feel that confusion, it’s our faults for getting too emotionally invested in shipping

Hi Anon, I hesitated to respond, but since you messaged again, I know you really wanted my take on this. It might just come out as a bunch of rambling, but here goes…

I could definitely see how this whole thing would make you feel like Sam is disingenuous. I guess my take is (and has been all along) that social media activity isn’t necessarily indicative of a star’s true personality. Also, he’s an actor, and a damn fine one. He’s also definitely a people pleaser who acts like a cheeseball and an excited puppy most of the time. I could see how this is disappointing and confusing. I certainly felt that way after last fall and Sam’s time in LA. I thought he’d gotten a handle on it, but Autumn seems to be the season when his Social Media Herpes flares up. 

The only reason I’m disappointed is because it appears after two years of being in the life and getting a new publicist Sam hasn’t realized he should create private accounts for these sorts of side interests. Or that he spends his time encouraging this obvious thirst from women like this. And I’d just like to point out this wasn’t like jumping onto Sam’s usual Twitter convo or seeing one of his Twitter faves. Fans saw he started following this chick, went to her profile and actually had to find the specific photo Sam was commenting on (it wasn’t the first one). That’s like an extra three levels. People can certainly correct me if I’m wrong. But I don’t believe you can see someone is commenting on a photo you’re following the profile as well. Not excusing anything, just pointing it out.

Anyways, TBH, I think Sam’s a drive-by SM user. This is how I picture Sam on social media. 

I don’t think he logs on and says, “OK, time to fuck with fans!” I really don’t know that we can say with any certainty that Sam realizes or believes he did anything wrong, even with those cringeworthy fans calling him out. (People thinking he should apologize, I personally don’t think he does and more important, I doubt he will.) I’m not entirely sure he takes it as seriously while he’s doing it as we take the aftermath—because boy do people take it verra seriously. While we’re on here overanalyzing one of his favorites and its meaning, Sam’s already signed off, cracked open the Laphroaig, and moved on with his day. I wouldn’t necessarily call his two faves of my tweets about Caitriona today his way of appeasing or apologizing to shippers. Someone tweeted him about Cait not going to RingCon and I jumped in and I think his faves were affirming that he doesn’t have a say in whether she goes but that he does care.

I’m sorry that you hate shippers who feel that confusion, it’s our faults for getting too emotionally invested in shipping

I don’t hate shippers who feel that confusion, trust me. I get it. I sort of felt some slight confusion following his behavior last fall. I get that you’re invested in this. For me, things got increasingly more difficult to keep track of and weren’t adding up to me. And then I realized I didn’t really care, I guess. Not for, not against, just indifferent. I just wanted to enjoy the cuteness and I still can. I also realized social media and public appearances only tell about 1/10th of the story. So I take everything with a grain of salt. I’ve also been really busy trolling Starz. Really eats up my time. LOL.

Sam’s been nothing but pleasant with and giving of his time to fans. And yes, I know he gets paid well to play Jamie. No I’m not coddling him. No I’m not making excuses. I’m just saying everyone who has interviewed him, the cast, the crew members say he’s a sweetheart. I don’t think being a hornball detracts from that. It’s actually quite normal for a man his age and men in general. He just needs to keep that shit on lockdown. For real.

Sorry if this is disjointed or doesn’t answer your question! You asked, so I tried! ;-D