this means they can see what i say

“You’re the first living adjective I’ve ever met. When people describe a certain look or vibe, they’ll say, “Oh, that’s very Stevie Nicks.” And you know, casting agents will say they’re looking for someone who’s “Stevie Nicks-esque.” Are you aware of your influence?” 

“I’m not around to hear all of the details. But I know what you mean. I, myself, can see it, too. I’ll see something that reminds me of this whole little look I put together 20 years ago. I’ll be watching something like House of Style on MTV and somebody will say, “Oh that’s so Stevie Nicks of you.”

Bam Magazine, 1997

im looking at you rpc

stop making graphic commissions if you don’t have permission to use those resources. With resources I mean fonts, textures, stocks etc. This is SPECIFICALLY meant for those who ask real money for their graphics.

No, I don’t care about the whole “BUT I NEED MONEY” because it’s not an excuse. You can still be a decent person and ask for a permission if that’s what you need. In most of the cases these people say it’s okay to use their resources free for PERSONAL use but NOT FOR SELLING. Usually, these makers ask for some type of payment if you’re using them to make money. You can’t just go to google, pick a picture you like and use it in a graphic someone is paying for.

DO YOUR RESEARCH. MAKE SURE THE MAKER ALLOWS THOSE RESOURCES BEING USED THAT WAY.

Why do I care so much you might wonder?? because the people who make these things shouldn’t be taken for granted. Making fonts, textures and stocks might be a way for someone to earn their money. And whenever you’re taking them without even reading their rules on how you can use them, YOU ARE HURTING THEM. ONCE THEY NOTICE YOU’RE TAKING SHIT FROM THEM FOR FREE TO SELL THEM THEN THEY MIGHT STOP MAKING THESE RESOURCES.

Not only that but it’s a legal thing too. You don’t just go to some store and instead of grabbing the free sample, you take the whole product that you’re supposed to pay for.

Be decent to fellow content makers. Please.

On trauma and healing

When I see those posts that say “Only you are responsible for your life,” or the like I get a little frustrated, because a lot of people see that as reasoning to blame a victim for their circumstances, and so people take that as what it means. I did as well for a good amount of time. I’m not sure when, but eventually I made the realization that it’s not saying that you can control everything that happens to you, just that you control what happens afterwords. You can’t control whether someone hurts you and what the consequences to your life that had, and it’s not fair, and it shouldn’t have ever happened. But it did. And now you have to live with it.

It means that you can change your circumstances, and you’re the only one who can steer it in the direction you want to go. A lot of times this sentiment is paired with statements like “You can’t blame anyone else,” and for me I think they fall a bit short. Or just aren’t entirely accurate. There’s a process of grief we all have to go through when things happen to us, and that’s not something you can rush through. It takes time to heal. You will be angry and bitter sometimes, and that is OK, and essential for processing whatever happened to you. Trying to skip past steps tends to lead to denial of the event, and that’s not healthy. Don’t ever feel wrong, or bad, for being angry. The problem, is that - and this is especially true in cases where the trauma was abuse - many people hold on to the idea that they will get some sort of justice, or retribution, or that the perpetrator will see the error of their ways and apologize for good. Unfortunately all of these things are very unlikely to happen. Should they? Absolutely. But holding onto that idea can prolong the anger and hurt indefinitely, and stop all processing of the trauma, leaving you stuck in a place where no one else can help you until you let go. At some point, it is very likely that you will have to accept the fact that you were dealt a shitty hand in some way, in order to do anything with it.

It’s important to remember that acceptance looks like many different things, and doesn’t mean being complacent either. Acceptance can be knowing what happened to you was wrong, and dedicating your life to helping those who went through something similar, or making sure than others never have to experience what you did again. It can be making sure that the people who did what they did don’t get away with it anymore. Not that it has to be a grand life changer either - but I wanted to make it clear I wasn’t saying that you have to accept it as a part of the world. There’s a difference.

For me, letting go of the idea that my mother would ever get better or see what she did helped me move on. I forgave her, because I know she is sick. Her mother hurt her just like her father before her, and she wasn’t able to get past it, and couldn’t see what she was doing to anyone else. That forgiveness doesn’t mean she will ever be in my life again, because she won’t, even if she starts to receive treatment. The door is permanently closed. But accepting that she was sick helped me accept that I was also sick without also thinking I was now worthless and broken because of it. The shame I didn’t realize I had faded away, and it was at that point that I had a breakthrough in my recovery.

The hurt is real, you felt it, and it effected you, and it wasn’t your fault. Your pain is valid and so is the anger towards the source of the pain. But valid doesn’t always mean healthy, or beneficial, and some things won’t get any better until you change them yourself.

anonymous asked:

@"i sure do love to sin" - I see where you're coming from, but I also see where THEY are coming from. For a lot of us who grew up in religious backgrounds it can be hard to completely get rid of the lingo and even the nagging feel at the back of our head that we're doing something "wrong" when we go against religious morals. The fact that they choose to still draw those things says more about their morality than the captions they use imo. They're on the right track, still growing.

Yes, I understand what you mean. But as someone who has grown up constantly attacked by people from religious backgrounds due to both my sexuality and my own religious inclinations, even seeing this phrasing used in a joking context or as some kind of… I dunno, personal disclaimer, it stings. It really hurts. Especially because this isn’t something in the past; it’s current. So when we come down to a personal level, I don’t particularly care about any individual’s reason for saying it.

I really hope that these people will become more comfortable with themselves as they grow up, and that they will stop saying it. Since deleting captions is discouraged, in the meantime, I won’t reblog anyone who says that kind of thing.

anonymous asked:

"It’s a dangerous thing, pretending to be someone you’re not." W/ Matt you're a goddess

“What is that supposed to mean?”

“You know exactly what it means,” you counter, stepping back, away from him. “You want to pretend that you can live a life without Daredevil, but we both know that you can’t. It’s in your blood, Matthew. It’s who you are.”

You can see that he wants to say something to you, but you don’t give him the opportunity, instead walking over and pressing one last lingering kiss to his jawline.

“I love you, Matty, and I know you love me,” you whisper, holding on to the lapels of his suit jacket. “But this life was never meant for us. You can’t be the man I need you to be, and I can’t accept you putting your life on the line every night. I’m sorry.”

He tries to hold on to you, for a moment, but his grip falters and he allows you to step away.

“Yeah,” he chokes, swallowing around the lump in his throat. “I’m sorry too.”

anonymous asked:

I see what you're saying about OT's strategy, but when they come out, even if Louis can't say anything about being closeted, I feel like he'll make it known how proud he is of his sexuality and relationship especially, so it'll contradict the internalized homophobia angle. Would people just think he's finally accepted being gay all of a sudden after all of this? I mean the things some people in the fandom choose to believe never ceases to amaze me so maybe they will think this unfortunately.

oh i agree 100%. i don’t think he’ll just take it lying down. he’ll fight back however he can. 

i’m just saying there are going to be a lot of people who are going to choose the convenient and ot approved houis narrative regardless of that.

petitedelight  asked:

Ok so I'm into ddlg and my bf like being called daddy but I don't think he understands what that means. I've shown him blogs but he has put the pieces together. How can I explain it to him without ruining the chance of him actually trying to be a daddy?

Ok so act casual , let’s say you guys are watching a movie , u know like be calm don’t scare him off 😅
After the movies finishes ,go on your phone and make sure he can see
Go on ddlg posts
Hopefully he’ll ask what’s that you’re looking at
Then tell him it’s ddlg
Then define what ddlg is and means to you
Say it’s something you want to try out with him and ask me if he’s willing to try something new out
😊hopefully this works!
Update me! I love hearing stories about these thing! They’re just sooooo cute!

hi everyone! just a quick check-in to say if you’re ever sending anon hate, especially to blog like this (I can’t think of a blog with better intentions than one like this, besides like the anti-puppy kicking brigade?), then I feel bad for who you have become. 

I don’t know what you’ve gone through to make you like this or to push you so far away from basic human empathy, but in any case, pointless hate against vulnerable people is unwelcome here, and I seriously recommend you reflect on why you do this and why you would target people who especially need love and support right now such as me and the audience of this blog.

// Quick note: I bust my ass trying to write with everyone – or as many people as I can, anyway

Aside from this Jack, I have two other OC blogs and two forum RPs, and believe me, this Jack gets the lion’s share of my attention. Timewise, that isn’t taking into consideration any health or irl obligations I might have

The point being: if I unfollow your blog because I can’t see stuff on my dash, or if I can’t keep up a consistent level of attention on our threads, it’s not personal and it doesn’t mean i don’t want to RP

I can’t remember my blood pressure medicine or even to wear deodorant, ffs. Trust me, forgetting a thread or getting confused by what’s on my dash is not a sign that you’re a terrible person. It says more about me than it does about you

devildears  asked:

“You can hear it in the silence“ is such a great fic. I love it. Bless you & your epic porn. 😉

thank youuuuuuuu I definitely try to be the porn I want to see in the world

w a i t

whatever u know what I mean. I’m not, like, personally acting it out. but. for real though I love that fic, who knew “I’m going to write a fic where they build a blanket fort, it’ll be sweet and nice” would turn so porny

Give me hope
I type into the search box
I don’t know precisely what I’m looking for
Maybe someone who was once as lost as me
I’m not scared about what I will find
I’m scared of what I won’t find
Of looking through every search result
And finding out it doesn’t get better
Give me hope
I say to the world
Looking for a future me
But I don’t know if I want to find one
If all it’s going to mean is a shattered lense
Of what was once fragile stability
Give me hope
I say to myself
I can’t
I can’t see the future
But that was yesterday
And today, I’m still breathing
Still searching
Still alive
Nothing is fixed
I am still lost
The world is still broken
But I am still alive
Still here
Still searching
For that thread of hope.

scorpiogustavomodreblog  asked:

What you think of Abra/Kadabra? :3

Natticus: Hmmm, those are pokemon mons, right? I remember Fandramon found one at home here while playing Pokemon Go! I don’t know too much about them though, let me see….

…Oh. Kinda reminds me of Phascomon, they sleep a lot too! It’s neat that they have the ability to warp away, but I guess that means they don’t fight much… wonder how they evolve then?

Oh wait. This is how! *taps*

Wow that was quick, just like digivolving~ Let’s see what the pokemon analyzer says about this one…

Sounds kinda scary D: Can alpha waves give headaches to humans and digimon? I don’t really know ^^; Now it has whiskers! I think Zudomon’s are fluffier :b It’s also got a big tail, sorta reminds me of Relemon… actually Relemon kind of has Abra’s face too X3 A spoon is a weird weapon to use, but I guess if you’ve got super strong psychic power anything can be a weapon if you mind-throw it hard enough oᆺo;

anonymous asked:

I don't know what your beliefs are, but I do want to say thank you. Thank you for being someone who is standing firm in your beliefs; questioning people; challenging people's beliefs (nicely :), might I add) - you are literally Katherine. I just want to say I appreciate you <3 I love seeing people like you on this site.

Oh wow!!! Thank you so much for this kind message! I can’t believe you actually think I’m like Katherine! I mean, I’m trying to be, but in real life I’m quiet and shy and don’t like debating because I can never think of what to say fast enough. I made this account so I could hide behind my hero, Katherine, and pretend to be as brave as she is. I suppose that it’s brave in itself to put your honest thoughts out there, no matter how, or maybe it’s just insane? Honestly, it feels really good, even though some of my beliefs are unpopular. I try to be kind to everyone because that’s how I’d like to be treated. Thank you again so much for the wonderfully kind message! It encourages me so much to keep striving toward being Katherine in real life!

anonymous asked:

🎊 🎊 🎊 🎊 🎊

this is a shoutout for the wolf pups tbh ??

@wolfsouled : rinrin , what can i say , you are my son ??? like my bby boy who i swear to protect for all eternity !!!!! i can not express how glad i am that you have returned because i missed the perfection of your blog on my dash . you capture robb in a way that i NEEDED to see him written , because you balance him so well . you know that he is still but a child , but has to act like a man . & omg we feel the same way about basically everything ? i mean , if that doesn’t scream mother / son brotp i don’t know what does . but cat & i love you & robb bunches . i could go on & on about you but i feel like i wouldn’t be showing as much attention to my other babs .

@sansavis : OH MY LORD . i’m shook by your sansa , i LOVE her so much . i mean not just from catelyn , but joffrey too . your writing is exquisite & the asoiaf community is sooooo lucky to have you - i’m lucky to have you . you’re a cutie who rps the smol daughter cutie . i mean , how else could i describe it ? i hope you stay 5ever & let me love you FOREVER , because i adore your presence on my dash .

@needlcd : rain rain don’t go away . hehe did you like my song ?? omg im so lame , but anywho im major heart eyes @ u all the time because she’s my smol child ??? i mean i love the arya & catelyn dynamic thingamabob that we have going as well as all the au’s we have plotted ( WHICH I SWEAR IT TO THE OLD GODS & THE NEW THAT I WILL REPLY SOON ) . thank you for always being so patient with my lame ass self & always being so sweet . i really do appreciate you & i am soooooooooo glad i lowkey convinced you to bring arya back . c; yes i do take some claim in your reappearance .

@wiingedwolf : KAITLYN . my sweet boy . bran . my smol . omg , like could i adore you anymore than i already do ?? i don’t think so . bran is totally her favorite child if she had favorites haha . all our hc’s  H U R T ME EMOTIONALLY & PHYSICALLY . i feel #attacked by you 24/7 . jkjk , but you’re honestly bran & my favorite bran ? i will admit i do have favorites haha , i mean don’t we all ? but anywho , i am so glad you deal with my salty potato self haha .

@wintercrowned : OHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYY LAWD . wally , you roleplay the smallest of the wolf pack & let me just tell you . i need all the interactions . i need rickon in my life & catelyn needs to raise him because she is TRU MUM . she will fight osha for that spot to win his approval haha . 

EXTRA EXTRA READ ALLLLL ABOUT IT . 

so i couldn’t list all the bbys & forgot the snow son , so this is a special little addition to the wolf pack . @watcherandshield , colleeeeeeeeen , in the short amount of time we started talking again i have remembered how much i absolutely was infatuated with your jon . now friendly reminder he wasn’t my fave character ever because bias & also the show screwed him over a bit ?? but your portrayal . GO & TELL IT ON THE MOUNTAINS that you find that sweet balance between his hesitance & will to SURVIVE . you go girl . because a lot of the time i feel like it’s so hard for people to understand that while a lot is so new to him , HE DOES KNOW SOMETHING . so keep on rocking .

meme . // accepting .

anonymous asked:

So because I don't think I've ever heard your thoughs on him, what do you think on the Master of Masters? (or MoM, as the fandom has dubbed him)

aha, that’s a good question, because I’m not entirely sure what to think myself. XD

Objectively speaking, I like how just about every action he takes could be interpreted as good or bad, which I’m sure was Nomura’s intention in keeping the Master as vague as possible. I know most of the fandom immediately labeled him as a villain for this reason, but I did initially give him the benefit of the doubt (and still kind of do, or at least I want to), because I could see his motives stemming from an “ends justify the means” mindset in the extreme; he seems to think that time can’t be changed, the prophecy is inevitable, and he finds it more worthwhile to focus, as he says, on “what comes after.” This way of thinking could still very much make him a villain (MY FELLOW TALES OF THE ABYSS FANS, WHERE YOU AT) but at the same time he could still be doing what he personally believes is the best course of action for the world, even if it means sacrificing so many lives in the process. (And of course, even if that’s the case, it’s still up for debate whether that quality in itself is inherently “good” or “bad” or somewhere in-between.)

That said, there’s also the possibility that he’s a lying sack of crap who has some very bad intentions, and everything actually was avoidable but he screwed the world anyway for his own interests. There’s no question that he’s extremely manipulative when you look at the state he left his apprentices in. I personally think this is most obvious in how he handled Aced’s case; he literally assigned a leader to the group, and then took the shafted runner-up who wanted the position (and who also happens to be the short-tempered, proud, and bull-headed member of the group) and told him “yah, it’s gonna be your duty to basically pull a coup whenever you think Ira screws up enough.”

THAT IS THE BIGGEST RECIPE FOR DISASTER I HAVE EVER SEEN and you can’t tell me the Master didn’t know it.

And I don’t doubt that the other Foretellers’ roles were assigned with equally underhanded intentions meant to push them into conflict (assigning Invi as the “mediator” was clever, considering she ultimately reports everything even when called out on it, so that’s another source of conflict; I wouldn’t be surprised if Gula was given the traitor-hunter role because the MoM knew he was too independent to ask for help, thus another source of conflict). Not to mention the Master just up and left when at least three of them (Invi, Ava, and to an extent, Gula) are extremely dependent on his presence and teachings – which he probably conditioned them to be, as opposed to teaching them to think for themselves. It gives the impression that the Master wanted to tear them apart from the inside, and considering he forbade alliances between them, it really points to the possibility of his wanting to jumpstart the Keyblade War by starting at the top and letting the drama trickle down to the rest of the population.

So in that regard – going so far as to sacrifice his own apprentices for this cause, and doing so in such a glib manner – he really would have “terrible person” written all over him, imo, no matter how justified he might think he is in the end. He potentially has the makings of a plot hijacker, but considering Nomura outright said the MoM won’t be in KH3, that’s where it gets confusing, lol.

And if the Master “is” anyone that we already know (as opposed to just being an entirely unique character with no parallels/direct connections to pre-existing ones), I can only imagine he would be Xehanort in some way, shape, or form, even if he’s not necessarily the Xehanort we know. Personally, I don’t buy the speculation that he’s Braig/Xigbar; true, they both move and gesture a lot, but someone pointed out that the MoM lacks a face that we can see, so (meta-wise) making up for it with a lot of movement gives him more emotion and expression than he would have if he just stood still and talked. And I also have my own thoughts on Xigbar that clash with that theory, as well. BUT who knows what Nomura’s planning, honestly?

To sum it up, though, I think the Master’s definitely an antagonistic character, although whether he’s a straight-up “villain” is still debatable in my mind until I see more of KHUX and/or what his full intentions were and/or how immovable the prophecy really was, etc. I want to like him since he’s interesting and genuinely funny, but I’m keeping him at arm’s length just in case he ends up being the biggest trash can in this series and I regret it. :|

THIS IS ONE OF THE FUNNIEST LINES IN THE WHOLE SHOW BC

1) it’s painfully obvious that Chris is suggesting that Viktor and Yuuri are sleeping together

2) the fact that Chris implies this means that he has good knowledge on how Viktor feels about Yuuri

WHICH JUST LEAVES US WITH THE AMAZING CONCLUSION THAT VIKTOR MIGHT HAVE SHARED HIS GAY WOES WITH CHRIS AT SOME POINT

I live for Viktor and Chris being best friend’s and sharing this between the two of them it’s both hilarious and sweet I’m glad Viktor seems to have one person he can trust and see as a true friend

JUST LOOK AT THIS FACE HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE’S SAYING AND HE’S ENJOYING EVERY SECOND OF IT 

I love Chris and how the show so easily implies the possibility of sexual intimacy between Viktor and Yuuri without making it into a big deal or over sexualizing it as lots of other media tends to do 

Antisepticeye

So I said it in the vlog earlier but seriously, thank you all so much for being the coolest, most dedicated community around. You’re all so engaged and got so incredibly involved and invested in this whole antisepticeye thing that it went way beyond my expectations. I mean I had hoped people would get involved the way they did but not to the level it has become. It’s completely blown me away and I’m so incredibly proud and honoured to be part of this community. 

There is so much fanart relating to Antisepticeye, so many theories and discussions, people taking on their own “Dark forms” and just overall discussion that I can’t possibly get to all of it and I’m sorry for that. I really wish I could because and I will try my best, I adore reading all the stuff people had to say about it. I really mean it when I say I sat here refreshing constantly to see what people were saying and the references they caught. It’s been amazing. 

The biggest part of all this that I love though is how everyone came together. The community banded together and enjoyed something and had fun. You were all so encouraging and interactive with each other trying to figure it all out and it made me so incredibly happy to see. I’m very proud of you all.

So I’ll say it again, THANK YOU! For being part of this, helping create it in the first place, letting me take a character you all made and incorporate it into the channel and allowing me to do stuff like this and just have fun. It was one of the coolest things I’ve ever done on youtube and I had an absolute blast all month with it :)

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Yuri!!! on Ice Episode 12 left me with so much happiness EXCEPT for this one.

It has been mentioned as much in the previous episode: Yuuri wasn’t the only character thinking of retiring after the final. There’s also this guy, Christophe Giacometti.

His reasoning is easier to understand; he’s 25 years old and will be 26 soon. In the world of figure skating, it can’t really be considered young and Christophe knows this.

However, unlike Yuuri, Viktor, Yurio and other characters who are more “expressive”, Christophe doesn’t really show his feelings blatantly, if you know what I mean.

He looked happy and all smiles after his free skate, receiving a flower crown from Minako and winking at her, blowing kiss as usual to the audience as you can see in the above pictures.

But his closest people knew how he was actually feeling inside. His coach and - I guess it’s safe to say - his boyfriend knew that Chris must be disappointed. Just look at the change of his expression there. However, his coach and boyfriend also knew that Chris is strong, that Chris will be alright, which was why they smiled at him.

I think Chris is the kind of person who would prefer to silently cry alone, only known to his closest people, and maybe he would really do that after this. Imagine when you thought this would be your last season and you wanted to win for once since your arch-rival wasn’t there, but then you were absolutely outrun by all the younger guys. Heck, he didn’t even get to the podium this time, not even a Bronze Medal for him. There was no way he wasn’t disappointed.

But he faced it calmly with a smile.

I think among all the skaters, Chris is by far the most mature and the “strongest”. He is absolutely one of my favorite characters and whether he retires or not, I really wish that he would be happy.

Okay, I fully understand everyone’s excitement over the ring-exchange and engagement, but please don’t mock or dismiss Yuuri calling it a “lucky charm”. 

Not only were those his honest and sincere feelings, but omamori are more than mere “lucky charms”, they’re a huge part of Japanese culture, and Japanese religion, with very profound meaning, so mocking that is actually incredibly rude, and highly culturally insensitive.

Traditionally, Japanese omamori look like this

and can be bought at most shrines and temples in Japan. I’d actually say they’re closer to “prayers” than “lucky charms”, really, in their intent, though that doesn’t quite fit, either. But when you know that the most common omamori are for things like safety in traffic, doing well in school, having romantic encounters, and fertility/safely born children (used both by couples who want kids, and expecting mothers hoping for no complications with their pregnancy), you probably see what I mean.

The word omamori translates roughly to protector/protection/protective charm, and are based on the animistic Shinto world view. The ones you get at shrines are part supplication that the enshrined deity will bless and protect you, and part a… hmm, almost a signal beacon? so said deity can find you, to know that you’re someone under their protection. And also part comfort for the carrier, that they’re not alone, that they’ve got someone on their side. 

But it’s not just “official” deities that are considered to have protective powers. Your ancestors are also seen sort of as guardian spirits protecting their family line (common theme in East Asian religions - Mulan, anyone? - at least, and I think also in all animistic religions, though that’s not my area of expertise), and even such ambiguous things as strong emotions are seen to have protective and blessing properties, especially love and affection.

For this reason, a lot of people will use mementos or objects of sentimental value as omamori. Either because it reminds them of a particular person or situation or emotion, or because they see some kind of link between that particular object and whatever they seek blessings for/protection against.

The important part for Yuuri, and why he bought that ring, is less that it’s a wedding ring, and more that it’s a gold ring. Yes, emphasis on both gold and ring.

The gold part is obvious, because the blessing he wants is help in getting a gold medal. It’s a resonance/like-brings-like thing.

The ring part is more obscure, but I’ll try to explain it.

One of the most basic and important parts of Japanese culture and society is the idea of 縁 (en). If you look it up in a Japanese-English dictionary, you get words like fate, destiny, chance, a relationship, a connection, a bond, an affinity, and while those are all ways to translate the word, depending on context, they don’t really explain the concept. En is the meeting of two or more things/beings that leaves a lasting connection or bond.

You might say you don’t have en with money to indicate that you can never seem to amass any wealth. It’s less you’ve got no luck with money, but more that you and money were never meant to be. You might earn it, but it still doesn’t stick around, somehow. An omamori for romance is called an enmusubi, or a “tier of en/bonds”, in this case referring to interpersonal relationships.

If you’re saying goodbye to someone you don’t know whether you’ll ever see again, you might express a wish that you’ll have en, and be able to meet again.

Now, I’ve mentioned in previous posts that the Japanese love homonyms and word associations. This is even more true for en, because it’s so important to them. Like in the example of a farewell, you might give someone a five yen coin, because five yen is go-en (五円), and when speaking of en with an honorific, that’s also go-en (ご縁). It’s a physical manifestation of your wish to have en with them. This is also why five yen coins are generally considered the best coins to give as offerings when you pray for something, despite their low value, because it indicates a hope for en with your wish.

Okay, getting to the point now: Another homonym (well, technically the same one, but different usage) for en is the word for circle or round. And because that’s basically what a ring is, rings are often used as a metaphor for, or an expression of a wish for en. So rings generally have a more profound level of meaning in Japanese.

It’s a gold ring because Yuuri wishes to have en with gold medals. He gives it to Victor because he wishes to have en with him.

He spent the whole day looking for something. He said he’d desperately wanted an omamori for a long time. He’s embarrassed, because yes, it’s a goddamn wedding ring, and he’s very aware of that, and giving rings to someone, period, is not something a Japanese person does lightly. It’s a very meaningful act, and this omamori is very important to Yuuri, so going “lol, lucky charm, yeah right” is incredibly disrespectful.

Okay okay okay I know I’m making a lot of posts today but this will be the last one for now.

Can we just talk about the fact that Yuuri does the quad flip at the end of his performance, and by the way it’s noted that

and he performs that jump just because he wants to impress Victor.

He (in Japanese) literally says that he’s curious what sort of face Victor would make:

He’s casually pulling off shit that not even Victor could do just because he wants to impress him. I mean he doesn’t land the jump, but he tries he has the confidence to try just because he wants to see what Victor does when he manages like that’s so beautiful?

Yuuri also mentions in this performance that he wants to become stronger and will become stronger, but not because he wants to win a gold medal or be a champion or simply beat his competition. No. So, why does he want to do it?

Surprising Victor - That’s all he wants.

He wants to show Victor that he’s worthy of him, he wants Victor to be proud, he wants to go above and beyond just to show Victor something he didn’t expect. He’s not even expecting anything back. He wants to be better just because he wants to see how Victor will react.

That is so pure, Jesus Christ.