Fratboy!Ashton who sits slumped in the back of the classroom, never participating in any of the lessons yet he somehow manages to get perfect scores meanwhile you’re struggling to keep up with some new material so on the way out of the class he stops you and says “nine; east dorm” before walking out of class towards his frat brothers who clap him on the back before they walk away
i just saw this sorry b….this is a dumb story but when i was in uni housing at manchester the campus was literally infested with squirrels and even though we lived on like the sixth floor there were massive trees so they could climb! and ppl would like take pics of the squirrels outside their windows or even like on their desks and shit it became kind of like the campus meme but i have this not exactly phobia of squirrels they just freak me out bcus in elementary school some kid told me that if u touch a squirrel u get rabies which i think (?) is false but im still 👀👀👀👀
ANYWAY so im like desperately trying to avoid make these squirrels and one night i come home at like 3am and feel like hummus n pita so i like toast myself some pita and our toaster is totally fucked up and i dont want to be the dickhead that sets off the fire alarm at 3am so i prop open all the windows right? so im like half asleep on my phone and then i look up and this fucking squirrel is like three inches from my plate of pita on the counter making its demon squirrel noises and i freaked the fuck out and like ran back to my room and when i came out the little shit had stolen my pita i had to throw away that whole tub of hummus bcus i had no idea what mightve been done to it #️⃣rip
This is my selfish year. This is the year I stop giving up on the things I want just to make others happy. This is the year I stop minimizing my feelings and keeping quiet to protect others. This is the year I do what makes me happy and I choose to live the life that will make me happy. I’ve done enough for the sake of others. This year I stop swimming across oceans for people who won’t even jump over a puddle for me. This is the year I stop setting myself on fire to keep everyone warm. This is the year I do exactly what I want and if anyone has a problem with that they are free to walk out of my life. If the past two years has taught me anything it’s that even if I lose people who mean the world to me I will survive and I will keep going no matter how hard it gets. 2015- the year of me- the selfish year.
So I’ve been thinking a lot about Kanda’s ‘proper chat’ that he wants to have with Allen.
I’m thinking it might end up going something like this: “You’re my friend. Don’t make me kill you.”
See, Kanda does indeed have friends, but he never talks about it. His brand of affection and encouragement pretty much amounts to bickering and sniping–he poked fun at Lenalee when he knew that she had been crying because she’ll forget to feel sad if she’s busy being pissed at him, he kicked/cursed Komui out to help him get it together during the Level 4 attack, he yells at people while simultaneously saving them, etc.
Anyways, I don’t think he’s ever outright called somebody his friend. I bet he didn’t even say that to Alma. Granted, it doesn’t mean he cares any less about his friends just because he doesn’t say it out loud. But. I bet when Alma died the first time, Kanda wished he would have said it at least once. Alma was always very open and friendly to Kanda, and maybe some part of Kanda worried that Alma never knew for certain that he felt the same way.
Allen’s a bit like Alma in the sense that he lets his friends know what they mean to him explicitly; he even called Kanda his friend out loud once back in the Ark (though technically it wasn’t to Kanda’s face). And for all their fighting, it goes both ways.
Now there’s a chance that Allen is going to get erased by the 14th. Allen promised it wouldn’t happen, but at this point, it’s not a sure thing. More than anyone, Kanda has accepted Allen’s wish to be destroyed if he can’t hold out–and it really is a great gesture of friendship, even if it’s hard to swallow, helping Allen preserve his agency by preventing someone else from using his body to do evil.
However you slice it, though, Kanda may well have to kill one of his friends. Again.
Maybe some part of him worries that Allen is gonna think, well, after all this time, looks like Kanda’s gonna get his wish of killing me after all. Good for him.
Maybe the thing that Kanda is so determined to tell Allen is that they’re friends, even if he’s never said so, even if they fight all the time. And Kanda, as his friend, will respect his wishes and kill him if he becomes the 14th–but he’s counting on Allen to win. Kanda doesn’t want to kill another person who’s important to him.
As for Allen, he might have a retort on the tip of his tongue–as if i’d let you kill me, or give me some credit, stupid–because that’s how their conversations are supposed to go. But I’m betting he’ll know that this time is different, so he’ll reply, “Thank-you, Kanda.”
(This is, of course, assuming that Allen isn’t gone already and that Kanda won’t be mistakenly telling all this to the 14th–who would probably laugh in his face. But let’s not think about that.)