this made me love her all over again

Stay By My Side (Soprano's "Duet" Rendition)
Elisabeth feat. Rui, pianist
Stay By My Side (Soprano's "Duet" Rendition)

Thank you to everyone for your kind response and reception of my first cover of Stammi Vicino.
After just releasing my cover of this aria, the new duet had it’s early previewing… and its poignant and gentle way of making you want to cry just made me want to sing this rendition all over again.  I was very fortunate my lovely friend Rui - the beautiful pianist who has covered many pieces already from YOI -  had already recorded her piano cover of this duet, and allowed me to record with it. And thus our first “duet” collaboration was born.  
I wanted to capture the same peaceful tone of the duet rendition, with my own personal touch.  
I’m grateful to this anime and its music for really inspiring me to want to explore singing various pieces and recording again. This is my way of showing my love…  I hope you enjoy yet another dose and rendition of this romantic aria, as we enter the final chapter of our beautiful skaters’ story.  

“Let’s go together. I’m ready.” 

Many thanks to @ammeja for granting me permission to use her beautiful art for the track visual. 

‘I Love You’: a man’s perspective

I haven’t made the rounds yet this morning, but already last night I’ve seen multiple posts that seem to want to either downgrade or erase the meaning behind Sherlock’s words to Molly Hooper. I find it insanely amusing, because had those words been to John Watson, people would be wetting themselves, but because it was for Molly, people are climbing all over themselves to again deny this character her actual fair due.

My husband, who watches Sherlock with me, had some very interesting perspectives on The Final Problem. He tends to read the show textually, without shipping or all the other nonsense we as fandom people get into.  I tend to trust what he says only because he has no ulterior motives, like zero. Even my own ship doesn’t really mean a damn thing to him. He knows I love it, but he’s not swayed by my reading or my desires at all.  

His reading of The Final Problem was that this was Eurus effectively unlocking the original Sherlock Holmes.  This was Sherlock’s sister, bringing him home, just as he was bringing her home.  To do that, she had to undo what she did when she took Victor Trevor away from him at that young age.  She took a little boy who was filled with bright, wonderful, hot emotion, and she made him lock that away.  She made him like her, and to my husband, it seemed like that was never what Eurus wanted.  

The scenes inside Sherrinford were about systematically making Sherlock face each single, major emotion that he’s refused to feel all these years: anger, fear, sadness, and above all…love.  And no, I don’t mean love for your best friend, that’s already been addressed, and that was already the easiest thing for Sherlock to unlock in himself. He basically did that in S1.  Sherlock loves John, his best friend, just like he loved Victor.  The parallels are spelled out for you in the clearest of ways.  

Sherlock’s locking away of his ‘sexuality’ was already broken open in S2 with Belgravia.  Irene Adler represented a part of Sherlock that really, really wanted out.  It was confusing as hell for him, as we saw, but he still managed to deal with it.  Sex is sex is sex.  It’s meaningful, and at the same time, can also be meaningless.  I personally never saw Irene as meaningless, far from it.  But I do think her special place in Sherlock’s “unlocking” was more physical than emotional.  Hence, we were reminded of this by the moan of her text tone. I personally think Sherlock’s sexuality is firmly unlocked at this point, no need to revisit it again and again.  Something that remained hidden though, very deep down, was Sherlock’s ability, willingness and understanding of a deeper love, and what that means.  This is where Eurus comes in.

The scene with the coffin was very carefully done, both by the writers and on the part of Eurus’ planning.  In fact, if you listen carefully to Eurus’ words, she states exactly why she did it: you lost, look what you did to her, look what you did to yourself, all those complicated, complex emotions, emotional context.  All of those things are things people feel when they love someone (romantic love, since I’m sure I need to spell it out for some viewers).  You feel elated, but you also feel scared.  You may also hate yourself because you probably feel the person you love deserves BETTER than you.  Should you act on it or let them go find someone better.  Do you have the strength to give up parts of yourself for them?  Do they have the strength to give up parts of themselves for you?  It’s scary as hell, y’all!!

 My hub says, to him, the first time Sherlock says ‘I love you’ to Molly Hooper, he didn’t mean it…or at least Sherlock thinks he didn’t mean it. Then, the second time, he did mean it, and he knows it.  That is why he smashed the coffin…that was perhaps the biggest emotion he’d locked away, and he was consumed and confused by it.  For a man who has spent decades pushing love away, it came roaring in within 3 minutes, and he couldn’t push it away. Eurus wouldn’t let him push it away, and more importantly, Molly Hooper wouldn’t let him push it away. That’s why she turned the tables on him and made him say it first.  She inadvertently helped Eurus, which I’m sure was her plan all along (if you believe she’s as much of a supernatural badass as she’s shown to be).

My husband’s purely textual reading of Sherlock’s smashing the coffin with ‘I love you’ on it is that he DID mean it, but he wasn’t sure what that meant to him, and it scares him, greatly.  He said that looked like a man who was pissed that he LOVES.  He spent his entire life working at not loving, and here he is, loving this woman, but now he isn’t sure what to do about it, because he’s not even sure what that really means.  He doesn’t understand it…yet.  Love like that is incredibly strong, true love I mean, not “Hey let’s bone” love.  He said that wasn’t the actions of a man who doesn’t really care.  He said, as a man, if I had to get a woman to say that and I didn’t really love her, I wouldn’t care as much.  I surely wouldn’t care enough to smash an entire coffin to bits with my bear hands.

Lastly, my husband said something I thought was incredibly interesting about how he reads Sherlock.  He said he thinks the reason Sherlock hasn’t really pursued any other relationships with women, not seriously that is, is that on some level he really knew he loved Molly, but that he felt HE wasn’t good enough for HER.  He thinks Sherlock, for all of his arrogance, actually doesn’t think he’s a good man.  He knows Molly Hooper deserves a good man, someone to love her exactly how he thinks she should be loved, and he’s terrified he ISNT that man, or he CANT be that man.  His rage at smashing that coffin was basically anger at himself, anger at himself for loving this woman who really deserves more.

So, from a man who views this show with as much pure text as possible, he thinks that “I Love You” was real, but he thinks Sherlock simply doesn’t know what to do with it, doesn’t know what it means.  He said love is the scariest thing, especially to someone who’s lived closed off.  He’s had an upbringing that, without going into details, was a bit devoid of emotional support from people he needed it from. That means that learning how to show love was incredibly, incredibly difficult for him.  Trust me, I’ve been here for the entire thing.  It took years for him to learn how to show it.  It took me years too…in fact I still have massive trouble with it. People who’ve lived not understanding how to love since young childhood…it takes us a very long time to learn how to do it.  

My husband and I are not the kind of people who go on romantic ballroom dancing dates and snuggle on the Tunnel of Love ride.  We’re just not those kind of people…but we do love each other very much.  We have our way of showing it that works for us. There’s no one else I’d rather trust my mind, body and soul to.  That was first built on friendship, then trust, then love.  For us, I think that’s kind of where Sherlock is starting to head.  We may not ever see that adventure, as that’s not what Sherlock’s story was about.  But, finding how to love, that was his story, and Molly Hooper is an irreplaceable part of that.  No one can deny that, not ever.

Beautiful Speak Now Album Things:
  • TAYLOR WROTE IT COMPLETELY BY HERSELF AT AGES 18-20!!!! AND IT WON 2 GRAMMYS!!!
  • Like every fuckin’ bridge on this album makes you want to cry
  • And all the lyrics are fucking awesome. It’s a lyric-driven album
  • “Every time I look at you, it’s like the first time”
  • “You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter”
  • Opening “Mine” with “uh-oh” and closing it with the background vocals echoing “I can see it now” to show the emotional journey of the character as she believes in love again over the course of the song
  • “BRACED MYSELF FOR THE GOODBYE / ‘CAUSE THAT’S ALL I’VE EVER KNOWN / AND YOU TOOK ME BY SURPRISE / YOU SAID, ‘I’LL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE’”
  • The entirety of “Mine,” the best love story ever told
  • The fact that Taylor resurrected Sparks Fly from the dead and put it on her 3rd album because we asked her to
  • The fact that Taylor also rewrote Sparks Fly and took out the lyrics that made it more sexual and about performing in a bar
  • The fact that the original lyric (now displayed in The Taylor Swift Experience) was “brown eyes” and she made it “green eyes”
  • How she describes the love interest as “a full-on rainstorm” and later says “meet me in the pouring rain”
  • The juxtapositions of rain and fire and then darkness and light in Sparks Fly
  • BACK TO DECEMBER
  • How the entire song is just an apology without any excuses. It just’s “I messed up and you suffered for it and you didn’t deserve that” 
  • “you gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye” 
  • How the orchestra makes everything so fucking beautiful??
  • The use of seasons in the second verse to describe the rise and fall of the relationship
  • How she references the 2009 VMA incident (”how you held me in your arms that September night / the first time you ever saw me cry”)
  • Speak Now being about the Paramore relationship drama and how Taylor was actually at the wedding it’s about lol
  • Taylor singing up an octave in Speak Now to sound like a gentle little girl about to crash the shit out of wedding
  • “a gown shaped like a pastry” “fond gestures are exchanged” “a song that sounds like a death march” “she floats down the isle like a pageant queen” = so descriptive?? conveys the feelings?? Queen of conveying emotions through descriptions
  • “you need to hear me out and they said Speak Now” “Your time is running out and they said Speak Now” “I hear the preacher say, ‘Speak Now or forever hold your peace” “So glad you were around when they said Speak Now” = queen of altering her main chorus line
  • “I’m not the kind of girl who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion” –> What’s the kind of girl tho?? I never knew
  • The giggle in the bridge
  • DEAR JOHN. THE ENTIRE SONG. ALL THE LYRICS.
  • How Dear John calls out emotional abuse by a much older man onto a 19 year old without any apologies or sympathizing with the man but also has pieces where the victim blames themselves and calls out a pattern of abuse of other women
  • But it ends with the victim retaining their self worth and escaping and it’s amazing
  • “the girl in the dress cried the whole way home” –> have you ever seen such a beautiful conveying of a young girl’s loss of emotional innocence 
  • YOU SHOULD’VE KNOWN”
  • How the secret message of Dear John is “loved you from the very first day” which is a line on a bonus track “Superman” which is about how the love interest seems like the best guy in the world and a real life Superman 
  • That fuckin’ banjo in Mean
  • How Mean began about a critic who said Taylor ruined her “entire career overnight” at the Grammys and then Taylor performing Mean at the Grammys and wining 2 Grammys for it
  • The use of a big city to display one’s level success (which is what actually happened when Taylor moved to NYC)
  • “A simple complication, miscommunications lead to fallout” 
  • “I’D TELL YOU I MISS YOU BUT I DON’T KNOW HOW / I’VE NEVER HEARD SILENCE QUITE THIS LOUD”
  • Isn’t it weird how she says “and people would say they’re the lucky ones” then on the Speak Now Tour she wrote “The Lucky One” ?? weird
  • “So many things that I wish you knew / so many walls up I can’t break through” –> “So many things that you wish I knew / but the Story of Us might be ending soon”
  • That fuckin’ ramp up back into the chorus after the bridge in The Story of Us
  • How perfectly Never Grow Up conveys how scary can it feel to grow up
  • The bridge of Never Grow Up
  • How every song except Never Grow Up and Last Kiss use heavy production and background vocals and it makes those two songs that much more powerful in their simplicity 
  • “I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone” and how this line gets more powerful the more years that go by
  • How Never Grow Up starts as a song to a baby, watches that baby grow up, and ends with Taylor  looking back at her life and the passage of time and swearing to protect that baby from harm….you ever cry
  • Just take 5 minutes and listen to Enchanted again pls
  • “Wonderstruck” “Enchanted” “Passing notes in secrecy” “this is me praying” “the very first page, not where the story line ends” “your eyes whispered” “this night is sparkling” “blushing all the way home” “I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew” “this night is flawless” “dancing ‘round all alone” –> So much mystical and whimsical imagery that you feel like you could call in love with the next person you see
  • The guitars in Enchanted
  • The production of Enchanted
  • “Sophistication isn’t what you wear or who you know / or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go” 
  • “I always get the last word” “There is nothing I do better than revenge” “show me how much better you are” –> Taylor is v self-aware 
  • Also how “show me how much better you are” is a reference to that JoBro song “Much Better” lmao so much 2008/2009 Disney drama
  • How Taylor wrote Innocent about the VMA incident when she could’ve just told you-know-who to fuck off
  • How Innocent looks at the subject from the perspective of their childhood and how they had “monsters” and “demons” that made them do bad things later in life and how this doesn’t make them a bad person
  • Knowing that you-know-who was one of Taylor’s favorite artists growing up so Innocent is also Taylor reconciling with herself how someone she artistically looked up to for years hurt her 
  • The use of light: “time turns flames to embers” “your string of lights is still bright to me” “in your firefly catching days” 
  • How Innocent is Never Grow Up but applied to someone else through the lens of forgiveness
  • “I hope you’ll remember: today is never too late to be brand new”
  • The orchestra in Haunted and how it makes the song sound urgent and the situation dangerous
  • “holding my breath” “your eyes go cold” “something’s gone terribly wrong” “can’t turn back now” “a fragile line” “it’s getting dark and it’s all too quiet and I can’t trust anything now” “come on, come on, don’t leave me like this” “can’t breath whenever you’re gone” “you’re not gone, you can’t be gone” –> everything sounds dangerous and urgent!! Like she’s actually gonna die!! And it’s called Haunted!! You get haunted by dead people!! But she’s saying she’s haunted!! The Haunting is killing her!! Holy shit!!
  • Last Kiss
  • The secret message of Last Kiss: “Forever and Always” 
  • The breath in the bridge of Last Kiss
  • The use of time and the passage of time: “at 1:58″ “that July 9th” “you can plan for a change in weather and time” “your name forever the name on my lips” “I’ll watch your life in pictures” “I’ll feel you forget me” “I’ll keep up with our old friends” “I still remember” “L
  • “I’m not much for dancing, but for you I did” –> “I don’t wanna dance if I’m not dancing with you” (Holy Ground)
  • THE BRIDGE: “So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep / and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe / and I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are / hope it’s nice where you are / I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day / and something reminds you / you wish you had stayed /  you can plan for a change in the weather and time / but I never planned on you changing your mind”
  • LONG LIVE
  • How the secret message of Long Live is “For you”
  • How Taylor ends Speak Now with a song for her fans and her band that she wrote during the Fearless Tour
  • How Long Live because even more powerful and beautiful and even sadder the more the years go by and the more successful Taylor becomes and as original member of The Agency leave/are left go
  • How Taylor wrote “we will be remembered” when she was like 19 and was still on her second album and before she won AOTY for the first time and wasn’t even close to the prime of her career but she was proud of how far she had come already and how Long Live sounds like a song someone writes at the end of their career to reflect on their accomplishments 
  • How Taylor wrote “promise me this: that you’ll stand by me forever” and every band member she has ever had still speaks highly of her and defends her
  • “When they point to the pictures, please tell them my name” but now no one will have to because everyone knows who she is and will know who she is for a long time because of her accomplishments and effect on popular culture
  • “It was the end of a decade but the start of an age” Taylor literally had no idea how true this line would become 
  • HOW SHE ENDS THE ENTIRE ALBUM WITH “ONE DAY, WE WILL BE REMEMBERED”
I never thought it was possible for me to love her more than I did yesterday or the day before or even today. But with every day that passes I find something new about her that makes me fall in love all over again even harder than the previous time. I never truly understood love but fuck once I saw her I swear everything finally made sense.
—  she is the most beautiful thing I will ever love (January 3rd 4:02pm)

We are playing in the Underdark and the entire team is not only untrustworthy but besieged with madness and wild magic surges. The cleric is now compelled to kill, but the rest of the party doesn’t know that.
We are fighting the last enemy and the warlock gets hit by a wild surge fireball centered on herself.

Warlock (ooc): That’s two failed death saves. One more and I’m out.

Paladin: Aw man, I’m out of spells.

Cleric: *quietly* I can heal her.

(Characters murmur in agreement)

Warlock (ooc): Oh my god, you’re character is crazy and is gonna kill me, isn’t he?

Cleric (ooc): No one knows that!

(Much arguing later)

Cleric (ooc): I walk over to [warlock], start chanting, and divine radiance beams down, and BOOM I set her in fire again.


Our very benevolent DM didn’t let anyone die and made us all drink a love potion so we’d stop fighting. The cleric is still tied up though.

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연애담 (Our Love Story) 2016

This indie film is a must watch! The film shows the journey of the relationship of two women. Yoon Ju, an art student and Ji Soo, a bartender. It’s a very realistic simple love story and i love it for it! It’s not overly dramatic, and just shows a lesbian relationship in modern day Seoul as real as it gets. 

What makes me watch this film over and over again is the dynamic of the two leads, their curious glances, subtle smiles, and as their relationship progresses, you can naturally feel it too. How their love starts with a burning desire for each other and then gradually fades away as they become distant in a literal sense as Ji Soo had to move away to live with her father again. It’s like watching a real love story not a film. It made me curious to the point that it made me ask questions like, could it have been all real? That’s how great they were. Plus I have a crush on the actress playing Ji Soo hahha she’s so beautiful.

Seriously, this film deserves all the attention! It’s currently my fave lesbian film released this year, beating The Handmaiden. I just really love how real and simple this film is. 

Day 16 and I’m still miserable and bitter without Glenn Rhee.

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♥♥♥#HappyRaviDay♥♥♥ 

This time zone difference has me so confused lol but I guess that’s the good thing because then he can celebrate it again “tomorrow” with us fans on the other side of the world right? ^^ Anyways Happy Birthday to the world’s cutest, fluffiest, and kindest rapper £2 Love you to the moon & back 😘 😘  Please stay healthy & always be happy!! Let’s celebrate again next year!! 

The sunset tonight was so beautiful that I had to pull over to take it in.  Earlier this year I lost someone very special to me and on that day it poured down rain before the biggest and most beautiful rainbow appeared right outside my door. I found it a huge source of comfort at the time and tonight’s sunset felt similar, almost as if the sky was honoring a special person that had passed on.  It reminded me of my own heartache and made my heart break for Louis’ family all over again.

As a mom, I found many things about Jay very inspiring.  But the most significant thing for me was witnessing the love, adoration and respect which was so evident between her children and herself.  She never shied away from expressing her love or support for them, even in the most public forums and when asked, Louis and his siblings never held back either.  That may seem like a strange thing to recognize, but as someone who never had a good relationship with my own mom, I have recognized moms like Jay my entire life. When I had my own children, I vowed to do things differently from my mom and I have stayed true to that promise.  Not a single day goes by that I don’t tell each of them (usually more than once) how much I love them and how proud of them I am.  

I could go on and on about so many things such as the work that she’s done for charity because that was another part of her that I admired immensely, but this would get far too long. Basically what I want to say is that if my children grow up and speak of me the way that her children speak of her, then I will consider myself among the lucky ones. 

My kids roll their eyes at me when I point out things like pretty sunsets.  So much so that I almost stopped pointing them out.  But that stops now. I will always pull over to show them the beautiful things that still exist in this world and hopefully, some day in the distant future, they will do the same for their own children.  Rest in peace, Jay.  You were a good mom and a lovely person. 💗

“Seeing him again after all these years just brought back a lot of old feelings and memories and it made me realize that I’m not as over him as I thought I was. I like you, a lot, and as much as I like us, together, I loved him, and I still do, and I think I always will… ”

My now ex-girlfriend told me we needed to talk and instantly I knew something was up. She told me that she ran into her ex boyfriend and they caught up over some coffee. Her and her ex-boyfriend were together for 4 years and then broke up because the guy had to move across the country for grad school. They fell out of touch for a while, but now he’s done and he’s moved back home. Apparently there were a lot of unresolved feelings when they broke up; to quote her, “he was always the right person at the wrong time.” Now that timing’s better, she wants to give their relationship a second chance. She also apologized for breaking up with me, and told me that it would be unfair to me if she stayed in the relationship, knowing she wasn’t 100% committed to me, and that I deserve someone who could devote their whole heart to me and only me. 

I heard that they dated for about another 3 months before he popped the question and she said yes. I’m happy that she’s found someone who makes her happy and I know I deserve better, but I can’t stop thinking about why that person couldn’t have been me. We weren’t even together for long, but I saw a future with this girl, and hearing her say that she loved someone else fucking hurt. 

“It Kills me to see you with her”-Nate Maloley

Sammy invited to his party for his new album. And I knew Nate would be there. Nate and I date for 3 years, 6 months, and 24 days. We loved each other, or so I thought he loved me. He made it very clear that he met someone new on tour. I was heartbroken and this is the first time in 3 months i’ll see him again. I arrived at the party and saw all “Our” old friends.

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I walked in and saw all the of guys, Stass, Nate, and Ingrid, his new girlfriend. I walked over to the group and they all were shocked it see me. “(y/n)!”,they all screamed. “Hey,guys”,I said shyly. Johnson pushes everyone out of the way and bear hugs you. “My goodness, I missed my bestfriend”, he said squeezing you tight. You hugged back and tried not to cry. You hugged all the other guys and Emily. “Hi, you must be Stass”,I said extending my hand out. “Yea, Hi. I’ve heard so many great things about you”, she said hugging me. Then there was Nate with Ingrid. They were kissing and falling all over each other. He was doing his signature neck kisses on her. I couldn’t help but look at him. I then made quick eye contact with him and darted my eyes down to my shoes. I looked at Sammy and he gave me apologetic smile. “So Sammy, Stass?”,I said raising my eyebrows up and down. He just smiled and shook his head. “It’s good to have you back. You’ll always be my favorite girl”, Sammy said kissing my forehead. He was like my brother, always there for me. He let me stay with him and Emily when Nate and I broke up. I’m glad he found some that loved him back.

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After catching up with Emily, I wandered around the party to find a drink. “Excuse me”, I said softly to the person in front of the cups. The person turned around and looked at me with guilty look. “Oh, um hey Nate”, you said giving a small smile. “Hey (Y/n), how you been”, he asked. “It’s okay Nate, we don’t need to do small talk”, you said giving a slight giggle.You grabbed a cup and filled it with whatever was in the punch bowl. “C’mon (y/n), lets just be friends like we used to be”, he said grabbing my hand. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel sparks still. “I can’t be friends with you Nate”,you said looking away from him. “Why not, c’mon (y/n) give me a good reason why you can’t “, he said looking into my eyes for the answer. You pulled my arm back and just look at him. He stood there waiting for my answer. “Because I’m still in love with you Nate. It kills me to see you with her. IT KILLS ME NATE”, you finally say. “Then stop loving me”, he said. “That’s the thing Nate, I’ve tried and I can’t. I can’t. I can’t”, you said letting a tear roll down my cheek. You didn’t want to cry in front of him, so you wipe the tear quickly. The look of guilt spread his face and then you saw Ingrid walking y’alls way. “Hi, (y/n), I’m Ingrid, she said. Why did she have to be so perfect? “Hi Ingrid, I’m (y/n). “Nate and the guys have told me so much about you”. “Really”,I questioned. “Yea, especially Johnson”,she said. That’s when I noticed the rock on her finger. “Wow, that’s such a beautiful ring. How long have yall been engaged”?,you questioned. “Oh i’d say about 6 months. But we’ve been dating for about 2 years”,she said. “Would you excuse me please. I’m- I’m sorry”, I said rushing toward the exit.

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I was livid. I heard my name being called but I needed to cry and be alone. That’s when I saw Sammy and Johnson. “Hey babygirl, where you headed to”,Johnson said. “Somewhere to find real friends that don’t lie”,you said storming by them. “Woah, woah slow your roll there, what’s wrong”, Sammy said catching up with you. “You knew. You both did. About them dating for 2 years, and the engagement!”,you screamed at them. “We didn’t know about them dating till he broke up with you. And that’s when he proposed”,Johnson explained. “Why, why do I deserve this heartbreak? I love him STILL through all the shit he’s put me through. I was faithful to him. I did everything for him. And I get this.”,you said breaking down in the front yard. Now sitting with your knees tucked into your chest, you let out all your pain.

You felt someone sit next you and put their arm around you. You lifted you head up to see Nate. “Please, Nate just leave me alone”,you said. “Look, I never meant to hurt you”,he said. “Bull-fucking-shit Nate”,you laughed “You knew what you were doing. You knew, and you think its great that i’m still in love with you”, you said looking at him. At this point you both are standing again. “I still love you too baby”, he said. “Don’t you DARE play with my emotions anymore than you already have Nate Maloley”,you said slapping him. “If you loved me, you would’ve tried Nate, you didn’t even try to fix this, you just left”, you said wiping your cheeks. Nate then cupped your face and kissed you. You felt everything you felt from the first time you kissed. “I have to go”,you said. “No, please baby, I now see I let the wrong one go!”, he exclaimed. “It’s too late Nate, I’m not your toy”, you said getting into your car and driving away.

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Its Back in its cage

Him: After our first experiment things kinds died down. The sex stopped, i started jerking off again and things between us were just not as exiting. Until Saturday night.

We went out out and got pretty drunk, she looked super sexy in her LBD. We went home and had amazing sex, i came all over her pussy and she pushed me down and made me clean it up, she wasn’t finished and got the wand out and made herself cum again infront of me before forcefully pushing me back down and saying “dont you want to taste your wifes cum”. I obliged and she came again in my mouth. She loved it and chuckled to herself at the fact she had came all over my face.

Sunday morning i woke her up by gently squeezing her breasts and when she was awake enough i went down on her. I made her cum and she gently fondled my extremely aroused penis. This went on for an hour or so just teasing me and she had this devilish look in her eyes as she slowly wanked me off into her mouth. I was begging her “just please let me come” she laughed and said no not today” as she reached in the draw and pulled out my smallest cage. (the one from the photo below, that hurt) i went to the shower slid it on and handed her the keys.

I made the mistake of telling her its not that tight, its only when i get herd that it pinches a little. She laughed and said thats good then. Sunday night she tortured me in the cage, after making her cum she decided it would be fun making me as hard as she possibly could inside the steel bars. toyed with my sort of exposed helmet until it got sensitive and then sucked me to the point of orgasm, a tiny little spurt shot out but that was it. She laughed as she scooped it up and rubbed it over my lips.

Whats SO hot is that this time it was her that enforced it, it was her idea and i think after catching me wanking in the shower this has potential to be the longest i have ever been locked. She said she loved seeing me grabbing the headboard in desperation to cum and she loved the feeling of denying my knowing that each time she teases me it only makes me want her more.

They say for a female being a key holder can become addictive and this is my promise to her right here, “i will try anything once, and your in charge. You have COMPLETE control over your penis and i love you for it”  

Demons & Angels - BTS || masterlist || Fic: My heart wants you dead

Min Yoongi, Demon

“He never let go of her hand. She completed him, made him feel alive, made him feel good. Distracting him from temptations and protecting him without knowing it. Every second away from her felt like dying all over again, it got worse and worse for every time. 

He would lay alone on his bed, thinking about her, worrying about her. Did she eat? What did she eat? Did she like it? Is she thinking of me too?

He was addicting to her. Being apart tore her apart. She loved him with strongest of love, He loved her with even stronger love. But he knew that one day it would all die. Love was powerful, love was the only thing uncontrollable. It was scary, but tempting. His nature would drive her insane beyond his controll, her love for him making her walk straight to her own death and his love being the only thing stopping him from hindering her. 

He wanted her alive, but his heart wanted her dead.

As dead as him, to be able to be with him forever, for their love to be eternal, for their love to not be a trip to death and pain.”

Namjoon | Hoseok | Jimin | Taehyung | Yoongi | Seokjin | Jungkook

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Mary Watson feels

I’m more than a little distraught that Mary is dead. I loved her. I loved her personality and the goodness that she had in her that shone through in important ways, (Just like Sherlock) I wanted good things for her, so many good things. And that’s what made me get teary as I lay in bed late last night trying to fall asleep. I literally lay there and got emotional all over again…thinking of our fan fiction. 

When someone dies in real life, very often if they’re under a certain age you’re left grieving because of all the things they’ll miss out on seeing and doing. Because they should have had more. Our little version of this is our lovely fan fiction adventures of Mary Watson. I lay there thinking about her spending time with Molly, teasing and also advising Sherlock, figuring things out before anyone else, working cases with John and Sherlock or maybe even with Molly, having the loving and respectful marriage that she deserves, raising her daughter as she continues to grow and maybe even going on to have another child later. (And I’m getting emotional again) We all wanted that for her. All of that and more.

Mary Watson deserved to have that life that meant so much to her. :’((

I know my posts tend towards the negative but since we are coming up on 2 years of Life if Strange I thought it would be nice to mention the things I liked about it.

- Max and Chloe. I love them. I love the relationship, I love how them being together felt natural to them both, I love that Dontnod insisted that the two leads be women, I love that they got to fall in love with each other all over again.
- Kate and her journey. You felt super bad for her throughout the game and they didn’t shy away from the affect bullying can have and how even close friends can buy into the lie told by the bullies. Luv you Kate I’m happy you didn’t die.
- the time powers were actually pretty cool and it allowed me to obsessively check every option. I liked that.
- the dialogue. I hella don’t care what other people say it made me go wowsers. I am serial about this.
- The music was perfect. The tracks felt like they had serious meaning and I will forever associate Syd Matters with some high highs and low lows.
- Special shout out to Hannah Telle and Ashly Burch for really bringing Max and Chloe to life.
- “I was eating those beans!”

And sorta related Life is Strange helped me connect with people who I are some of my best friends.

My opinion on LiS will forever be mixed. There is a lot of good and a lot of bad that make the game really enjoyable and the worst slough ever. But all in all, a good experience to have.

Sweat a lot with this one! I know there’s a lot of shading and possibly colouring to do, but it’s 11:25pm and I’m a baby. Katya is still my winner, she won me over on season 7 and made me love her even more than I though possible again 💖 BTW please stop sending hate to Alaska, Roxxxy, Detox, Phi Phi and the other Rugirls. Let’s practice some kindness and positivity in a community that constantly experiences chaos and discrimination from those who are hateful and don’t understand.

anonymous asked:

1/2 The difference between season 6 Jon and Sansa, season 7 Jon and Dany is that one is clearly being pushed to be romantic... and other dysfunctional sibling relationship by all accounts. What I just struggle to see ... how Jon is space of two seasons will fall in love with two women ... when it took 3 seasons to get over Ygritte. If he loves, he loves with all his heart. The other point is what I see is that people think Jon will break up with Dany once he realize they're related.

2/2 Then how could he be with Sansa? This argument never really made any sense to me. While I still have my doubts, Dany being barren being mentioned over and over again is for a reason. This is why i think they’ll have sex next season. Your point about blue flower in one of her visions is interesting but let’s not forget it’s in the Bride of Fire part which involves previous two husbands. Another point Sansa heard wolf howling it was two books earlier before Jon’s death, Dany at that time.      

I’ll try to keep my answer short. :-) Regarding Jon and Sansa in season 6, you obviously do not read it as romantic, and that is your perception, which I am not going to argue against. Many people have seen it as romantic, but that does not mean that you have to see it that way. I haven’t read is as romantic until the moment Jon beat Ramsay to a pulp and it is only then that I’ve gotten hopes that my ship might become canon. I then rewatched the season and thought that you could see the scenes as romantic, but if you don’t want to or you just don’t see it like that, that’s your cup of tea. As for a dysfunctional sibling relationship, that is also your perception, but I would beg to differ. Even if you don’t see their relationship as romantic, their reunion was beautiful and I wouldn’t make too much of the fact that Jon and Sansa fight. If you know someone well, you will fight once in a while, and if additionally you are on a campaign to win back your home, don’t have enough men, are afraid, in trauma etc., - it is only natural, that Jon and Sansa fight. I don’t think it’s a dysfunctional sibling relationship.

As for Jon and Daenerys in season 7, we just don’t know yet! It depends on what the showmakers will do. They could do it as romantic, as full of sexual tension (which might not be the same) full of tensions, some of it sexual… anything is possible. I think that we will have Jon/Dany sex in season 7. Whether it will be romantic, we will have to see.

Jon falling in love with two women - Well, I don’t know if people are really a type of falling in love in a specific way. You may fall  head over heels on first sight and you may slowly develop feelings for another person and both might happen to one person. Much depends on the circumstances and if you are ready to fall in love. I can picture Jon having feelings for Sansa that he does not admit and being attracted to Dany’s beauty at the same time. I don’t think it would be out of character for him to have feelings for both women. It would, however, be out of character for him to just hook up with both. That would not happen, I think.

As for Jon “bolting” when he realises he and Dany are related, I would say, that again, it depends. Of course, realising he and Dany are related would not mean that Jon would suddenly fall out of love. You simply can’t do that! But it might mean that he would act differently on his love! You can’t control who you fall in love with, but you do not have to act on it. Someone who is married, may fall in love and yet decide to stay with his/her spouse because he or she still loves him (in a slightly different way). And if  I read Jon’s character right, I think it would be an issue for him that Dany is his aunt. He still might decide to stay with her, but it would be hugely out of character if he would brush that away.

If you look closely at the vision of the blue flower it does not exactly happen in the bride of fire part. It is a vision in the house of the undying that comes after the prophecy of the bride of fire and is in the context of other visions that show the history of the rebellion and other things important for the overall plot like Viserys’s death (a list is here.) So, I would argue that the vision may allude to a Jon and Dany relationsship, but it most certainly alludes to Jon’s importance for the fight against the Others (and that might be the only reason it is there).

As for the howling of the wolf, you have to take into account that AFFC and ADWD overlap in terms of timeline. Thus, Sansa’s last chapter in AFFC is actually happening at the end of ADWD and thus Sansa hears Jon’s death.

So, to sum up: I can see the following scenarios for Jon and Sansa:

- Sibling relationship where they trust each other.

- Jon develops feelings for Sansa, but only deep down without realising his feelings. He meets Dany, feels attracted, they have sex, he might fall in love and then the truth about R+L= J comes out. What will he do? If he realises he loved Sansa all along, he might have sincere difficulties to stay with Dany (assuming he was not after a one night bang for distraction from his doomed love for his half-sister, just kidding, that would be out of character.). Imagine realising you love someone you cannot have, looking for some happiness elsewhere with an attractive woman (who can even be nice from time to time), learning she is your aunt and the woman you wanted all along is just your !cousin and you could have her! Wouldn’t that be a nice drama! A bit over the top perhaps. I don’t believe this will happen.

- Jon falls in love with Dany, but all becomes very difficult, when they realise they are related. Nevertheless, they fight against the Others together. Dany dies and Jon’s bannermen want him to marry Sansa, who is heir to Winterfell, because he has no claim as the son of Rhaegar to be King in the North. I just assume that Bran does not come into the picture, because he is either dead as well or busy as Three-eyed-Raven or simply has abdicated. Jon and Sansa enter a political marriage that turns out to be as good as the Ned/Cat marriage. This is also the scenario I think is the most likely. I don’t think Jon and Dany will survive the end battle with the Others. Even if Jon and Sansa are endgame we might never see them interact in an explicit way.

I’ve made a much longer argument on Jonsa and Jonerys here which involved arguing from literal tropes etc., but if I interpreted your question right, you might know that already.

If you are into shipping Jonerys, probably nothing I said will convince you, but perhaps I managed to explain why I think it is possible to ship Jonsa, as in shipping them as possible canon. In any AU I can ship Jonsa all I want, but your question was why I thought they might be canon. None of these arguments is conclusive, but if we could read GRRM easily, it would  only be half the fun.

Justin's Michelangelo

*Justin’s POV*

I’ve always loved making new music for my fans. Being able to give a part of me to them, being able to share part of my life with them. But one of the greatest things about making new music is showing it to Y/N. And right now, playing this new album for her, made me feel so overwhelmed. She was dancing all over the room. Blasting the album louder than I knew my speakers went. “Play this one again.” She’d say as she tried to memorize the lyrics. “Oh my god Jay if you don’t make this one a single I don’t think this friendship will last” she’d say, as she freaked out after the bass dropped.

We’ve been best friends for so long, so showing her the album before I released it was routine. She was so good and picking out singles and ordering them. It’s like watching Michelangelo panting the Sistine Chapel, watching her go through the music. Somehow the seemingly mess of songs I’d made would become a harmonious and artful album under her instruction.

Watching her dance to the album, telling me where the songs should go, explaining the story she could hear throughout the songs made my heart races. I’ve never met someone so amazingly talented. “It’s like, you’re madly in love with this girl, but you can never have her. Like a Romeo and Juliet type love. That’s why you have to start with this song representing like you two first meeting and falling instantly in love. Then end with this one showing the tragedy of your great love.”

I looked at her in admiration, knowing she thought it was all about Selena, when really this album was all about her. “It’s perfect babe” I said as she rolled her eyes while smiling at me, pretending she hated the term. Just then I hear a ding from my phone. “Justin, just tell her how you feel. I’ll leave if it helps.” the text from Kendall says. You’d completely forgotten she was in the room, I was just so consumed by Y/N. “I don’t know what your talking about Ken” I respond. Before I even have the chance to put my phone down she responds “I’ve been here Jay. I see the way you look at her. Tell her!” With that text she leaves, telling Y/N that Gigi needs her. “Boy trouble.” She explains.

As she leaves I realize she’s right. I do have feelings for. But I could never tell her. She’d never feel the same about me.

•If you have requests for imagines or fake texts message me. I’m just starting and I need ideas.•

anonymous asked:

OK, we get it. Almost everything Jackon does to April will be okay because of his daddy issues, and no matter how much of an ass he is to her it's cool, because he's her soulmate or whatever. But some of us don't want a character we care about to be romantically involved with someone who can be so cruel over and over again, fully aware how it makes her feel. So you can stan him, but there's a reason many don't want him w April anymore. She deserves better even if she clearly still loves him

I’m the last person to stan Jackson anon - trust me. The amount of posts I’ve made about how awful he’s been this past week had people asking me if I stan April. Haha.

Look, all I’m saying is this : I agree he’s been treating her so awful and bad and I was about ready to quit the fandom and just support April.

BUT

This last scene in 13x15 - I saw something about their relationship. See, I was so hurt because I thought April would think he was hurting her intentionally, angry at her. But I see now that she understands that this has nothing to do with her. This is all him.

Her forcing him to meet his dad and address his issues shows she’s not letting him dwell in his misery and take it out on her. She’s saying, change yourself or else.

I think that’s what a relationship is. Understanding that people aren’t perfect and helping them overcome their crap.

Maybe I get this because as someone who has anxiety (as opposed to Jackson’s anger and abandonment issues) I would love to meet someone like April - who doesn’t give up on me no matter what.

NOT TO SAY : you should stay around letting people treat you like crap IF you’ve come to realise they are bad people out to destroy your self worth. I don’t think he’s like that. I am so mad at him right now, but I don’t think he’s a bad person. I think she feels the same. :)

I don’t think she realized what I meant when I told her I loved her
With every glimpse I got of her, it was like a breath of fresh air
Seeing her curled up in bed for those Sunday afternoon naps made me fall in love with her all over again
All I wanted was to hold her one last time
To see that childish grin come over her face
To see her bright blue eyes light up like the stars
But I guess I learned the hard way that you don’t realize what you have until it’s gone