[HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YONGGUK!/BBANGDAY!]
I made some random pictures of Yongguk + with some characters of Love Live! School Idol Project/Sunshine!!. Also, get ready because I made this really long letter for him as well and I hope it was enough. So here goes:
Dear Bang Yongguk,
I cannot say but…where do I begin? I want to share about me first because I feel like I was brave enough to write like this.
I’m a BABY who has special needs (also known as I have Autism). They said that I’m not perfect or not used to be part of it. When I was little, I’m clueless and of cheerful but then when I was in school age, I used to cry and scream making my feelings out of control. I felt like I was unloved or begin a “nobody”. I had friends…who were getting my nerves (i.e. teasing too much). Then until now, everything is changed. I have my family, my closest friends and everyone else who are cared about me and also they supported me all the time. Now, I finished my Junior High School life (Grade 7 to Grade 10) and I was happy now I will start going to Senior High School (Grade 11 to Grade 12) but I was feeling nervous. I will look forward my future and remembering my past until now.
Now, let’s talk about you, our leader of B.A.P. And also, my first ultimate bias.
First of all, you worked hard and I’m so proud of you. I really love your gummy smile and laugh (and your fail ageyo) because you made me full of sunshine and joy. Your tattoos made me realized that I’m a strong person. Your love of posting art, old stuff and monochrome images made me I’m feeling nostalgic and discovering something I can’t discover like before. Your support of awareness and change for good made me like I wanna be like you. Your songs you made are very inspirational especially “WAKE ME UP” (man, I know this MV is related in real life). Your love of Tigger (either your pet dog or a character from Winnie of Pooh) made my life fangirling with cuteness. You always care a lot to other members, which is made me tear up. Your deep voice made me melt my heart.
Oh, also your fatherly love of children + the support of all those in need…made me you are like a person full of generosity, charity and love.
Remember last November 27, 2014 aka the lawsuit? My world being you and the rest of the B.A.P members begin to torn apart and I was disappointed and now being left with a broken heart. Remember the song “AM 4:44”? At first it was kinda beautiful song but when I heard the music video…it broke my heart and I just want to send more love or even hold hands so you won’t fall. Remember your NOIR promotions? You are not here because you had an anxiety disorder and you need rest made all the BABYz worried and they missed you (especially the performance of SKYDIVE didn’t appeared including One Peace Concert in Manila). But still…you are a very strong person even you overcome pains and shortcomings.
Since you are the eldest and today’s your birthday, I’m so happy that I’m going to celebrate with you. But, I’m worried that next year…it will be B.A.P without you and Himchan because of their military service (not sure but they will update very soon) and I’m sad that you won’t be able to celebrate the other member’s birthday and also the debut anniversary for the next 2 years.
I want to tell you how much that I cannot stop loving you and support you so much. The BABYz are rooting for you until the end. Thank you for everything. Because of you…
You made my life complete and I’m not alone.
Thank you for all these years…
Lastly…I love you.