this kind of describes me

also I have had straight female friends, totally divorced from any kind of queer culture at all, literally describe dysphoria to me without having the language or framework to name it. a straight friend and I once agreed in high school- when I wasn’t even calling myself a lesbian let alone understanding dysphoric feelings!- that our lives would be so much better and our happiness so much more achievable if we were just sexless, no breasts, no hips, no genitals. illegible and unknowable. it’s not that all of us are Non Women, it’s that womanhood is by its nature traumatic and alienating. why would your gender feel coherent with your body when your body is literally not yours, by definition

oh-snizzity-snap  asked:

Can you try to make prompts about like a (wrongly banished) fallen angel and the poor (sarcastic) sap who's home said angel fell through- please-?

1) “I’m an Angel of the Lord-”
“I don’t care if you’re God himself, mate, who’s going to pay for the hole in my roof? Jesus? Somehow, I don’t think divine intervention is covered by my home insurance.”

2)  As it wasn’t enough to have their window broken by a hurtling, winged - they didn’t want to say angel, they didn’t even believe in angels - they were promptly slammed up against the door with a hugely disorientated not-angel’s hand at their chest. An impossibly warm hand that felt like it left a physical brand before it retreated and they ended up staring at each other. The not-angel stared really quite intently.
“Well,” they wet their dry lips. “You could have knocked.”

3) “I suppose you’ll just have to burn in hell like the rest of us,” the human said. Carelessly, really. Rather used to making the ‘I’m going to hell’ jokes without thought.
The fallen angel’s face crumpled and they seized the human’s hand. “You will not. I cannot even begin to describe your kindness in taking me in, offering me your home, the food off your table, I would not let you go to hell because of your association with me-”
“Hey, hey. Sorry - sorry. I didn’t - I’m not -  are you crying?” 
Oh god, what had they done?

anonymous asked:

So, I've wanted to write a book for a while now. I have an idea and a basic plot, but I don't quite know how to start it. Any advice?

Wow… you’re at the Exciting Part. :)  …No, seriously: this is the point from which everything flows, from the novelist’s point of view. It’s an exciting place to be, and at the same time SO intimidating, because GOD can anything happen from here onward.

(I’m assuming that we’re talking about fiction, BTW.)

Anyway. After 50+ books I know what I do at this point – pretty much – but that’s not going to do you a lot of good, since many of the opening moves in the game for me are now accordioned together into something that happens very fast and in which the individual movements and sequences can be kind of difficult to tease out for an observer. Let me instead describe to you how I would work this kind of situation out when I first got started selling books to editors.

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The Fire Within

GOT7 Jinyoung x Reader
Genre: ‘Soulmate AU’ / Smut / A little angst/ A little fluff 
Warning: Explicit sexual content, swear words, and a whole load of sexual tension. 
Word Count: 15k+ 

 His dark hair and rosy lips, a face you had only seen once yet you were so familiar with. How could you move from the arms of someone you were comfortable with to the arms of someone where you didn’t even know his name? You tried to ignore the feelings but you couldn’t. You cursed your genetic makeup. As much as your mind told you no, every other part of you, including your heart, wanted to be with that stranger.

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Close the blinds and kill the birds, I surrender
my desire for a logical culmination. I surrender my
desire to be healed. The blurriness of being alive.
Take it or leave it, and for the most part you take it.
Not just the idea of it but the ramifications of it.
People love to hate themselves, avoiding the
necessary recalibrations. Shame comes from vanity.
Shame means you’re guilty, like the rest of us,
but you think you’re better than we are. Maybe you
are. What would a better me paint? There is no
new me, there is no old me, there’s just me, the same
me, the whole time. Vanity, vanity, forcing your
will on the world. Don’t try to make a stronger wind,
you’ll wear yourself out. Build a better sail. You
want to solve something? Get out of your own way.
What’s the difference between me and the world?
Compartmentalization. The world doesn’t know
what to do with my love. Because it isn’t used to
being loved. It’s a framework problem. Disheartening?
Obviously. I hope it’s love. I’m trying really hard
to make it love. I said no more severity. I said it severely
and slept through all my appointments. I clawed
my way into the light but the light is just as scary.
I’d rather quit. I’d rather be sad. It’s too much work.
Admirable? Not really. I hate my friends. And when
I hate my friends I’ve failed myself, failed to share
my compassion. I shine a light on them of my own
making: septic, ugly, the wrong yellow. I mean, maybe
it’s better if my opponent wins.

(Richard Siken)

anonymous asked:

What do you think of the Direwolves on game of Thrones?

I guess I’m pretty neutral? I haven’t really read much about the real prehistoric direwolves but then again it’s a fantasy series so scientific accuracy isn’t a priority. It kind of amuses me how cuddly and doglike the wolves look in the first season (must be because they were portrayed by actual dogs and were meant to be pups but still). In the later seasons though, they look stunning. Colossal, mystical and played by actual wolves, just more convincingly formidable fantasy creatures in my opinion. It’s often hard for me to distinguish how much CGI is used in each shot, which I suppose is a good thing? I like how sparingly they are shown nowadays (likely because there’s only a few left alive), it makes each direwolf scene kind of special and more memorable. If they were thrown into every other episode I reckon it would get very tiresome after a while, but for now it’s such a nifty little bonus every time they show up.
All in all, really neat wolves, I can’t complain.

About me

🌹My name is Bo. It isn’t an abbreviation of anything but I was in fact named after David Bowie, which I think is very cool. 
🌹My birthday is the 27th of January.
🌹I am from the Netherlands.
🌹I’m in high school, in my 5th year.
🌹My native language is Dutch, but I speak English fluently. Besides that I can speak German and a little French. I am learning how Japanese and  Russian and I want to learn many more languages, so that I’ll be able to talk to many people and read books from all around the world.
🌹My hobbies include singing, playing ukelele, listening to music, drawing, painting, being on Tumblr, writing, reading, learning new things,making new friends, being with friends, being outside and in nature and actually way more.
🌹I am pansexual.
🌹I am vegan, for almost 2 years now.
🌹I like to believe I practice magic when in fact I hold crystals andtalk to plants.
🌹I am 6'2" or 189 cm tall.
🌹My natural hair color is blonde, but my hair is rarely ever blonde.
🌹I own way too many plants but it seems like it’s never enough and I’m sure I’ll never stop buying plants. Same goes for crystals.
🌹I am an ENFP.
🌹My sun sign is aquarius, moon sign is pisces and my rising is leo.
🌹Kindness is my religion.
🌹When you’d ask my friends to describe me in one word, you’d probably hear them say “kind”, “positive”, or “creative”. It’s honestly so sweet.
🌹I fall in love with something new every day. A person, a song, a flower, the sky, art… I fall in love with everything.
🌹I honestly listen to all sorts of music.
🌹This blog is a safe space for everyone needing it. If you ever need someone, know that I am here for you!
🌹I want to make a difference. I know I am only a small being in this giant universe but I know that I can still make someone happy if I try my best. I want to radiate kindness, warmth and positivity.

Problem 15

Do I actually want to get married to someone I love platonically because I want companionship or because I want to appear normal and conform to societal/religious norms?

Do I actually like the idea of a QPR because it would make me happy or because it would make me look “normal”?

Would I be happier being single forever or forcing myself into the heteronormative narrative of marriage? Am I doomed to feel unfulfilled no matter what I do?

Nobody seems to know.

a-taller-tale  asked:

I'm tipsy. Talk to me about Tucker's fear of failure.


Tucker’s whole deal of ‘whatever I’m not even gonna engage in or outwardly care about this thing that I’m not confident in!!’ thing at the start is really telling of someone who doesn’t like to do things they can’t ace (even if doing it is a necessary precursor for acing it). He says “I’m a lover not a figther” while being IN THE ARMY. Maybe he’s excellent in bed who knows but he sure makes an effort to have that rep, going as far as to video tape things in order to see ‘what works and what doesn’t (not a direct quote that’s why it’s ‘ and not “ I don’t remember what he said but sth like that I think?) 
You know people who say “okay but I’m REALLY BAD AT DRAWING” before they do their round in pictionary? and people who try really hard at this one thing and then brag about it to the point where they’re “that one person who does X thing”? Yeah thats what I mean.
NeverMIND that when he’s trhust into a role of needing to do things he’s not used to bc he has no choice, his failure has devastating effects for him, which is bad enough even when you aren’t a person who already feels like every mistake is devastating. 

Does anyone else really like the phrase “crackling lungs” like when a character is really sick or having a bad allergy day or something and you can just hear it when they breathe

Cute Interview (Shawn Mendes x Reader)

A/N: Was watching this and felt like recreating the interview with Shawn.

Originally posted by shavvnsmendes

« Hello Shawn, thanks so much again for being here. I’m Jess Cagle and today we’re playing the Cagle Exercise.”

“Hi and um what may the Cagle Exercise be?” Shawn chuckled.

“It’s just a series of questions to know you better, don’t worry. And you can skip one if you want.”

“Oh okay, cause for a moment the title sounded a little like some weird physiotherapy exercise.”

“Hahaha so you’re saying my last name sounds like a physiotherapy method?”

“Oh I’m so sorry did that offend you?”

“Of course not Shawn, ahha you’re so kind. Alright let’s begin shall we? Friends describe me as…”

“Uum goofy.”

“Strangers describe me as…”

“Tall.” Shawn joked.

“Only I know that I am…”

“Uum.” He pondered on that a little. “I’m gonna have to skip on that.” His cheeks pinkened. The word that came to mind was kinky.

The interviewer laughed. “My last meal would be what, and I would eat it with who?”

“Hmm. Wow so so many foods. But I have to say chocolate cake and with my girlfriend Y/N, because she truly makes the best.”

“Ah good choice, good choice. I start everyday by doing…”

“Scrolling through my phone. Not the best thing to do I have to admit, but I do it.”

“Something about me I have learned to love is…”

“Okay, let me think. Probably my indecisiveness.”

“Oh yeah? Interesting.”

“Yeah it’s funny, because I ponder a lot on choices you know and decisions to take. And indecisiveness was always annoying to deal with, but I’ve learned to embrace it because the decisions I make after putting in a lot of thought are most of the time good. Oh but it still annoys me during little daily decisions haha. Like when we go into an ice cream store, I cannot choose a flavour right away and it drives Y/N crazy because she’s an ice cream fiend right? So like she’s already paid and ready to eat, when I’m still sampling three flavours.” Shawn laughed.

“Hahaha so this is random, but whatever I’m curious; what flavour do you usually go for in the end?”

“Maple. Yes go on, let the Canadian jokes roll in.”
They both chuckled.

“The teacher that I’m most grateful for is…”

“Miss Parker, she was the one that pushed me into pursuing music.”

“I love the smell of…”

“A lot of things wow. Um let’s see… Rain, grass, apple, rose, this perfume thing Y/N always smells like, and wood.”

“I can talk about blank for hours on end.”

“Easy, music.”

“My recurring nightmare is…”

“Oh god. It’s not really a nightmare, but for some reason I do dream about it sometimes. Tripping on stage. Did it a couple times on tour already hahaha. But a real nightmare for me, would be losing Y/N. Like not her dying or anything, but us not being in contact anymore. The thought of her being alive but not being able to reach her is terrifying to me.”

“Wow. Well, thank you so much Shawn, I’m glad we got to know you better!”

“Thanks so much for having me!”

Shawn shook hands with the interviewer and they both parted ways, Shawn stepping into the green room where you sat waiting.

“Hey.” You looked up at him from her book. “Interview done?”

“Yep.” He grinned, taking his coat. “You hungry? Let’s go get some dinner.”

“Yay food. But wait.” You approached him and pulled him into a close hug, squeezing his hair. “You’re cute.” You said snuggling his nose.

“Thank you?” Shawn said, confused.

“I watched the clip. Don’t ever worry about me leaving and breaking contact with you.”

Shawn smiled.

“I love you.” He hugged you again and you both set off to find a restaurant.

“Oh and by the way, I don’t wear a specific perfume.”

“I just love your natural scent then.” He took your hand.

Originally posted by perfectfeelings

“H-hyung…Don’t look! dont look at me!”

YOONKOOK SAIKANO AU @caramoccii and I have been workin on!

Basically, Its about Jungkook and Yoongi falling in love just before war breaks out in their country. For some unknown reason, the government kidnaps Jungkook and turns him into a biological weapon which would be used to fight against the enemy soldiers via aircraft.

As Jungkook gets stronger, he becomes more and more unstable, losing some of his sanity, senses, and emotions. People become afraid of him, except for his loving boyfriend, Yoongi.

(Its hard for me to describe this au but it got me all kinds of fucked up. Also I’m never drawing anything metal ever again)

anonymous asked:

Hey babe~ (do I sound like Zen lol) could you do a HC with a MC that is really sensitive. For example, get a way too excited when they get little gifts like a book or bubble tea. Yet, even the slightest thing wrong can make them get really depressed. You can see that I'm not a stable human being. I become gullible just by the smallest acts of kindness and literally started crying today because someone broke my eraser in half. I'm a high schooler so I obviously have issues...

(sorry for the screaming I got excited that I’m not the only person like this,,,,)

-You’re both just a couple of sensitive puppies.
-If one of you is upset, the other is upset.
-You guys are a mess.
-But in the nicest way possible.
-You both understand each other so well because you’re so similar with your emotions.
-You can also bet Yoosung will be right with you getting excited over bubble tea.
-You both get hyped over every little thing, it’s invigorating to have someone to scream and freak out with.
-You gets very protective when he sees you crying. Even if you try to pass it off as not a big deal, it’s a big deal to him.
-Someone made you cry and that’s not okay.
-He’ll make things right, sometimes meaning he gets whoever did it to apologize, sometimes they refuse.
-When you get depressed, so does he. He likes to hold you to make you feel better, but if you don’t like that, he talks about other things to distract you, and hopefully makes you laugh.
-It always works.
-He’s worried about how you can be so gullible to nice things people do for you and keeps an eye on everyone that is being too friendly. If they do anything he doesn’t trust, he intervenes. It’s not so controlling to the point of over protection and manipulation, he steps off when you tell him to. He’s just keeping an eye out for you.

-So. Cute.
-Cannot. PROCESS.
-Because you get so excited, you are like the biggest cheerleader for his acting.
-He gets a new role, you are buzzing with excitement. You ramble about how amazing and talented your boyfriend is as you jump and clap in excitement.
-Really feeding his ego, aren’t ya?
-But, he hates when you cry or you get depressed.
-He always panics, no matter what it is.
-He doesn’t care if it’s something small. He always takes it seriously.
-Your emotions are valid. He really stresses that if you ever feel like a wimp for crying over things.
-In his eyes, tears = upset, and it’s his job to fix whatever it is.
-You can’t be so gullible to kindness _____ the wolves are gonna get you~
-He is secretly extremely nervous about you trusting people so easily because the wolves. He’s scared of someone taking advantage of you and you not realizing it until it’s too late. It might even keep him awake at night occasionally. You can bet that anyone who takes advantage of you will be fought.
-When you’re depressed, he’ll take you out somewhere to get fresh air and clear your head, while also giving you reassuring words and joking around in hopes to cheer you up.

-She gets very flustered every time you cry.
-She can be such a mom about it.
-You have no idea how many tissues she keeps in her purse at all times.
-She sees you tearing up and frantically rustles through her purse for tissues.
-But she loves how excited you can get.
-You can imagine the amount of fangirling you do together.
-It makes giving you special little gifts “just because” even more rewarding because even if it’s just a new book you can’t stop smiling and thanking her.
-She loves making you happy like that.
-She’s learned a thing or two about relaxing since she stopped working for Jumin, so she is able to calm you down when you start crying.
-She gives you little presents when you get depressed since you get so happy over even the smallest thing.
-It never fails.
-She isn’t too worried about your trust in everyone that is kind to you. She finds it nice that you see everyone with such an open mind, like you see everyone as good.
-She’ll know when to keep you in check, though, if a bad person tries to take advantage of you. If anyone were to take advantage of you, they’d definitely hear from Jaehee.

-You’re very emotional and he’s very emotionless (well, on the outside)
-He’s very good at keeping you out of stressful or overwhelming situations somehow.
-It’s like he has a sixth sense that tells him when you’re getting upset.
-He can sense your distress from a mile away.
-So you have nothing to worry about.
-He can tell when you’re getting upset and he will immediately take you away from whatever is bothering you and calm you down.
-He wipes your tears gently off your cheeks and kisses where they used to be.
-You’re going to have to work even harder to keep him from spoiling you after he sees how excited you get over the smallest of gifts.
-He loves putting a smile on your face, so he will buy you little presents everyday if you don’t stop him.
-He eventually realizes the gifts are more special if they aren’t an everyday thing.
-Overall, he is very good at handling your emotions for you.
-Lots of supervision when he realizes how easily you trust others. You have such a pure innocent soul it kind of worries him. You could easily be taken advantage of, but he will never let that happen.

-He doesn’t tease you nearly as much when he finds out how sensitive you are because he would hate himself if he made you cry.
-When you do cry, he tears up too. He’s really sensitive to your emotions.
-Anything that makes you cry is valid to him. He won’t judge you for crying over spilt milk because if it’s making you cry, it means it’s stressing and upsetting you, which is not okay.
-You got along with Seven at first because when either of you were excited, it rubbed off on the other, and he always entered the chatroom energetically.
-Even now, as Saeyoung, he is still affected by how excitable you are.
-He feels like his old self again because of you and your positivity.
-Because of that, when you get depressed, it’s like his world is dark.
-He does everything he can to make you feel better.
-Expect lots of bubble tea.
-It’s no wonder you fell for Unknown, you’re so gullible, which is worrying. He is very protective of you because of that. If he gets suspicious of someone, he voices his concerns. Thankfully, because of him, nobody takes advantage of you.

-You don’t have to worry because V never does anything that could make you cry. He’s so gentle and considerate, you have nothing to worry about.
-Also, anytime you do cry, he manages to cheer you up and calm you down perfectly.
-When you get depressed, he’ll ask you to read him a story. That way, you can take your mind off of whatever is bothering you.
-It usually works. If it doesn’t, he’ll give you reassuring words. They never feel like empty words either because you know V in sincere.
-Whenever you get excited over little things like books and bubble tea, he just stares at you with the most peaceful, lovestruck smile.
-A “that’s my beautiful wonderful other half wow i love them and they’re all mine” smile
-The excitement makes his life so much brighter than it used to be.
-So I guess you can say you’re his light.
-He’s very trusting of people also, but he’s cautious after what happened to Rika. He doesn’t trust new people like he used to, especially people around you. He acts like nothing is wrong, but he observes everyone that gets close to you. He calms down soon enough, he just doesn’t want to lose his light. He’s paranoid.

-If anyone ever makes you cry, they are immediately on his bad side.
-“I want them to die.”
-“Saeran, it’s okay. They just broke my eraser.”
-“Your point?”
-He hates seeing you in tears, but he loves when you get all excited over something he sees as minuscule.
-Like he’ll offer you the last of his food when he’s done eating and you get so happy. Or sometimes when he asks if you want to go out on a date you become ecstatic.
-It’s refreshing having such unconfined positivity buzzing next to him all day.
-It makes it even more sad when you’re upset because he’d rather see you smiling over bubble tea than crying.
-Even if it’s something small, he is very concerned. You being sad makes him sad, so when you get depressed, he hates it.
-He’s not good at finding the right words, but he never leaves your side when you’re sad, no matter how long it is.
-It shows how much he truly loves you and how concerned he is for you.
-He doesn’t trust people at all, and you’re overly trusting. You balance each other out. Nobody will dare take advantage of you when they know Saeran is with you because if anyone were to do something to you, it would be the last thing they did.


Realized I had none of these up here so I wanted to share them. The first 3 are from 2013, the first image being my very first Journey fanart. The last one is from 2015, and I can honestly say it’s quite a difference.

Journey was really important for me when it first came out, I played through the game several days a week for a few weeks straight, sometimes twice in a day. It was kind of like… therapy for me? It’s hard to describe but it helped me through some problems during that time. It’s kind of lost that for me now, but I still play through it from time to time since it came out on PS4. 

I love all Dorianmancers. I absolutely love Adaar x Dorian, Cadash x Dorian, Lavellan x Dorian, Trevelyan x Dorian, Bull x Dorian, Cullen x Dorian, literally anyone who identifies as male x Dorian. But seeing how horribly some Dorianmancers act towards other Dorian ships is super down putting and frustrating. If you don’t feel comfortable with certain ships, or prefer other ships, then that’s fine! Just don’t try to shit on literally everyone who likes a certain Dorian ship just because it goes against your ~headcanon~. Dorian loves men. That’s it. He loves manly men and he loves softer, less masculine men. He loves tall Qunari men, and he loves short, hairy Dwarves. He loves broadly muscled men, and he loves men who aren’t ripped. He loves thin men and chubby men. He loves human, elven, dwarf, and Qunari men, and no matter how hard some people whine and stamp their feet yelling “Dorian only loves x kind of men in my headcanon and anything that’s opposite of that kind of man is wrong and grosses me out”, Dorian is still going to continue loving all kinds of male Inquisitors and characters. Dorian loves men.