this isnt okay i need help

okay guys i need you to repeat after me

yes killing stalking is an extremely good and interesting manga

but please please please do not romanticize the relationship Yoonbum and Sangwoo have
we know it’s abusive. that much is obvious. hell, it’s one of the most extreme cases of abusive and manipulation that ive ever seen in my life. which is why we should spread awareness that this isnt a relationship to desire, and that we should help those get out of similar situations. 
appreciate the manhwa art style. appreciate the story and the characters. do not praise the murderous tendencies of sangwoo or the abuse in the relationship between Yoonbum and Sangwoo

there’s a line between thinking a character is greatly written, and thinking they’re a good person. sangwoo is well written, but he couldn’t be farther from the definition of a good person.

anonymous asked:

so we're all curious - are you okay now?

i will be send to the hospital again in monday for another week and my right hand hurts so much i cant even hold a pen?? my doc says i need a help of a therapist and all that. well i dunno… kinda? at least my mood isnt so awful

oh my fuckin god okay i need a piece of beren and luthien art for a school project thing.

doesn’t someone like ted nasmith have something of the part where luthien is dancing and beren is seeing her for the first time ??? like that is the perfect art i need but i cant fucking find it anywhere. my brain isnt messing with me is it???

greetings

i kno this isnt h!p related but this is like my biggest jpop audience so, like dora the explorer once said..”i need ur help!”


does anyone know any good hsj or exile (generations/the rampage) accounts whether its tumblr or even twitter??

help a fellow human out 

Guys, for real! What should I do? I need to get a job. I need to. I NEED TO. I CAN’T. I’ve been trying, no one wants to hire me! I really need to find a way to make money, even a little. I’m doing career counseling or whtver and i need to go to the youth center to get classes on how to nt fuckign cry at interveiws. Ok isnt ehre like a thing u can do to get free gift cards????? like for real i need help im wanting to sell my clothes and stuff but no one will buy them and I REALLY NEED MONEY OKAY. I DONT WANT TO OGET KICKED OUT. I DONT WANT TO WAIT UNTIL I DO GET KICKED OUT! SO PLEASE CAN SOMEONE HELP ME?

helpful list of what you could say as your first phrase of 2015 on new year’s

• I gotta pee

•HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!

•shrek is love, shrek is life

•FOR NARNIA

•hot potatoes

•frick frack paddy wack

• …

•what

•hang on let me ask my mom if it’s okay

•*takes picture of clock* wow crazy

•I need to check tumblr

•AVENGERS ASSEMBLE

•*turns to cat* dance-off bro. You and me.

•MY WINGS… ARE A HURRICANNNNEEE

•*points accusingly* THIS ISNT OVER!

•what time is it

•*sings a Christmas song*

•#newyears

•well time to go to bed

•F*CK YEAH! AMERICA!

•*snorts*

•humans are fascinating

•you’re a wizard harry

•THOU HAVETH A GLORIOUS YEAR OF NEW

•i hope that bernard crumplecrack is having a good new years

•time is merely an invention to ease the human mind and allow better comprehension of cataloging events so technically years don’t even exist and it definitely isn’t a new one

•hot damn I want some jam

•what year is it? So many.

•better update my Facebook status

•does this mean we have to put the Christmas decorations away

•*throws confetti in the air* CONFETTI IT’S A PARADE!!

•I require sustenance

•BOW DOWN PEASANTS

•praise be to steeve

•I have loved this. This little gaaaame of ours

•aaaayyyyyyy

•2015 more like two thousand THRIFTeen if you know what I mean hahaha save money kids

•feel my legs I just shaved

•*makes a “I haven’t _____ since last year” joke*

•finally the year matches my IQ

•*old man voice* YOU CRAZY KIDS AND YOUR HOLIDAYS

•did I miss it

•pugs not drugs

•you’ll find last year in aisle four

•2015 is four numbers long, four minus one is three, triangles have three sides. Illuminati confirmed

i feel like people think positivity = being constantly happy & peppy and thats just not realistic. or healthy rly

now im not bashing positivity or anything cause yes we all need some positivity in our lives!! the world can feel so negative and sad sometimes so we need a little peppy boost & optimism daily

but we also need to be angry and sad and express our “bad” emotions sometimes

i feel like positivity is understanding that various human emotions are okay and its okay to be angry and sad and grumpy. just be pro-emotions??? like dont suppress your “bad” emotions and force yourself to be happy??

**** also this isnt a sneak diss at any “positivity” bloggers. i know their intentions are good and they want to help everyone so im not attacking them or acting like theyre doing stuff wrong

im mostly talking about how everyone in general— not just on tumblr view positivity ******

I see a lot of posts full of worry about yoongi, and people saying yoongi should not feel this way or that they wished he didnt put himself down for missing the kobe concert or for the things hes lacking according to himself in general, but I dont agree, and I dont feel that way. Im not saying they’re wrong, ‘cause they’re obviously right, but this is exactly why its not what I really want to express, personally. ‘cause its an evidence we’re all thinking that way about him and what he says. he knows it too, despite all he might say, on top of it all he knows how we view him and what he is to us.

but these are yoongi’s bare feelings. these are his thoughts and there are probably a lot more he didnt say or expressed ‘cause he didnt have time, didnt know how to put it into words or didnt want to. and I take them as it. I take them as these raw emotions a human being feels in regard of who he is, what he does, what he faced and what hes currently facing. its really important for me not to even question it back or say anything like he shouldnt just feel this way ‘cause it leaves the impression that I dont regard his feelings at all and dont really listen to him. there were plenty of moments when I said too that hes perfect and that hes an amazing being and that he gives us so much and that I wish he would see how valuable he is. but these were all during “light moments”.

not this time. I know when I feel I have to be very attentive, caring of someone’s words for what they are and listening to what they say by putting myself in their own shoes and respecting it without refuting it. this is what he feels. I dont want to say he shouldnt feel like that. this is the last thing I want. these are his feelings and I take them as it. I respect them as it. I dont want to question it ‘cause its not my place to do so at the moment. I feel I need to sit and listen and let these emotions be, leave them like that, raw and full of remorse, regret, pain, ‘cause this is very important. he needs to wander through these feelings ‘cause, I dont know if you really saw it and read between the lines, but its a part of what he expressed by going back to the concert’s place and immersing him in all the emotions he probably felt there. he needs it. he needs it in order to clear his thoughts, forgive himself and be at peace with himself. or just to grow. dont disregard this work on oneself. it just gives off the impression you’re not understanding any of what he said, and by understanding I mean really understanding, on a profond and genuine level. I feel its almost misplaced to say things like the posts I could read all around. but I know its just that you are all caring about him, of course. theres only one post that I found really accurate.

at a time like this. if I was next to him listening to what he said. I would probably just nod every once in a while without talking, and tell him one simple “I understand”. ‘cause sometimes you dont need to deny it in order for them to feel better or tell them they’re wrong and they’re so much more than that or whatever they said you think isnt right. even if you mean it. even if they know you mean it. sometimes you just need to tell them you understand. and thats all. it brings a lot more peace, a lot more gratefulness and helps them a lot more ‘cause they’ll feel you really did listen to them and really acknowledged their emotions, valid them as existing, and lowkey telling them its okay to feel this way. its more soothing than any encouragement or praise.

I appreciate game-exploit videos that are tailored towards people who are starting the game, cuz that makes up the majority of the people looking for exploits.

Usually those kinds of videos are like “okay, to start off, you need these 15 end game items, max level characters and party members, and 3 DLC packs. Also, having a degree in experimental physics helps to shave a few hours off, but it isnt required.”

Like wtf I’m bad at video games, thats why im looking this shit up to begin with, how do you expect me to have all of that garbage on hand?

Season Finale In-Episode Notes

-opening scene seems pretty sketch. I wonder if Les hires someone to hurt/kill Fisher (flashbacks to promo)

-dawww omg squad night!!! Kirsten/Camille/Fisher is life

-oops there’s Cameron

-nononono just Cam and Fish this is how it looked in the promo SOMETHINGS GONNA HAPPEN

-yeah Kirsten there better be nothing going on between u and fish

-SHIT SHIT SHIT GUNSHOTS

-HOLYFUCKINGSHIT CAMERON (and fisher)

-KIRSTEN RAN TO HIM FIRST AND SHE HAD EMOTIONS

-SHE SOUNDS SO WORRIED

-Empty wheelchair??? Sounds like wheelchair guy was present

-oh no Fisher!!! Poor baby I hope he’s okay

-Kirsten by cams bedside reminds me of Cameron at Marta’s

-SHES ALMOST CRYING OMG KIRSTEN

-YAY HES OKAY. Kirsten looks so relieved and Cameron doesn’t even seem to notice noooooo

-Camille and Cameron are #BroTP

-HOLYSHITWHEELCHAIRGUY

-FISHER SAVED CAMERON

-who shoved a stick up linus’ ass

-HE KNOWS KIRSTENS PARENTS?!?!?! (Particularly close to mom??? Think there’s a little manly jealousy there??? WHAT IF HES HER DAD)

-wow it fits perfectly to Kirsten hmmmmm what could that possibly mean??? wow what a coincidence!!!

-LINUS THEYRE JUST BROS CALM YOURSELF

-Cameron you probably could have handled that better bud

-HER LAST NAME WAS STINGER

-WHY HE MAKING A 8 YEAR OLD SIGN SOMETHING DO THEY EXPECT HER TO HAVE THE SAME SIGNATURE

-SHE WENT TO CAMERON FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-IS HE STITCHING HER INTO HER MOM WHAT THE FUCK

-HES HURTING HER

-IS HE TRYING TO BRING HER BACK????

-DID SHE DIE????? HOLY SHIT

-IT GAVE HER TEMPORAL DYSPLASIA

-IM ACTUALLY CRYING THIS IS SO FUCKED UP OH MY GOD

-SWAT????? What’s going on

-Linus calm urself

-YOURE BEING AN OBSESSIVE DEFENSIVE DOUCHEWAD THIS ISNT HER FAULT

-IS THAT MAGGIES VOICE ON THE PHONE????

-HE WAS PROTECTING KIRSTEN?????

-THEY WERE SENDING A MESSAGE TO KIRSTEN HOLYFUCKINGSHIT

-nononono my ship just hit rough waters

-HE IS NOT PUTTING HIMSELF IN THAT FUCKING STITCH MACHINE HOLY SHIT CAMERON I WILL KILL YOU MYSELF IF YOU DO THAT

-HE HAS TO KILL HIMSELF???? HOW IS THIS A GOOD IDEA

-Les get the fuck out I hate you

-CAMERON WHYD YIU DIVTHAT

-THE SHIPPPPPPPPPP

-SHITSHITSHIT WHY DID HE DO THAT HES DEAD HE WONT WAKE UP I KNOW HE WONT OHMYGOD

-CAMILLE IS SO GOOD AT THIS YAY

-SHE DOESNT REMEMBER THE KISS BUT SHE DOES NOW

-ALL OF THESE ARE IF HER AWWW

-KIRSTEN GET OUT OF THERE OR CAMERON WILL DIE

-HOLY SHIT THATS HER

-WHATTHEFUCKWHATTHEFUCKWHATTHEFUCK THE FANDOM PREDICTED THIS

-WAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUP

-THATS NOT THE END THAT CANT BE THE END HOLY SHIT NO IF THATS THE END I WILL ACTUALLY PUNCH SOMEBODY I CANT TAKE THIS THAT IS UNACCEPTABLE I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT SEASON FOR THIS I AM GOING TO DIE I AM SCREAMING I AM CRYING I AM 100% NOT OKAY I NEED TO HAVE CLOSURE PLEASSE THIS ISNT OKAY HELPJELP HELP SOMEONE PLEASE SHOOT ME OR SOMETHING IM SO UPSET I CANR DONTHIS HOLY FICKI NG SHIT HELPJEELP OH MY GOD I NEED AIR

5

as i type this i still cannot believe powder roseate just died. i cant believe it and i really wish none of this were true 

but i realize that there are many other people out there who have been thinking of suicide, and i want you to know that suicide is not the only way out. ok? you have US to talk to. we will listen. and if you ever see someone who needs the help, reach out to them. you are so brave so strong 

dont let them take your breath away dont let them make you feel like shit dont let them make you want to kill yourself. because if someone needs to belittle you to go on in their daily lives, they are weak

YOU CAN okay? you CAN do this. You  can. You Can. YOU CAN. If it needs to be said a thousand times i will say it a thousand times. god you guys are all so amazing and strong. this community isnt whole without you. 

You can, kiddo.

You can.

anonymous asked:

Could you possibly write some tips for how you handle dysphoria?

  • Wear clothes that make you feel good!! It doens’t matter if they’re “masculine” or “feminine”; comfortable clothes make your day a lot better

  • Focus on what you have, not what you don’t. This one can be kinda hard at times, and I get that. But try to think positively: “Look at how good I look! Imagine how much better I’m going to look!”

  • Keep clean. Take showers regularly, wash your face, clean out your ears; you don’t need things like acne triggering dysphoria (this is a big one for me)

  • Talk to people! Vent about how you feel. Don’t be destructive, but just let it out sometimes. It’s toxic as hell to keep your dysphoria bottled up. (If you don’t want to talk, try drawing, writing, etc to express it)

Okay so! Ive got a LOTTA bit to tell you guys.. (and maybe to Jack and Mark too if they see this at all.. highly doubt it..)

Ive added the keep reading so i dont think you guys can take a peek of it on mobile. Its fairly long, so i wanna spare you guys the agony of scrolling through my opinion once more..

My heart is going to be poured out.. so this will be sad.. read with caution.

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Keep reading

anonymous asked:

Seriously? You're begging for money on tumblr for cosplaying. I would get it if you were desperately trying to get a job and on the verge of losing your hone but this is just ridiculous and pathetic.

did you even read anything i wrote?

LITERALLY NOTHING IS BEING SPENT ON COSPLAY

IM NOT WORKING ON COSPLAY

I NEED MONEY FOR GAS

TO DRIVE MY CAR TO SCHOOL

IM FINDING A JOB

IVE BEEN FILLING OUT APPLICATIONS NON STOP

I CANT EVEN DRIVE BECAUSE IM BROKE

if people want receipts on what im spending, thats fine because it would literally all go to gas for my car, i dont know if people know this but im not rich, im not even middle class, im lower class, my in debt broke mother (who isnt even working because she just recently broke her leg) cannot support me when she has my sister to support, we have no money, i have no money. i live in a shitty neighborhood and i drive a shitty beat down two door car thats close to breaking down, so okay ill say it, im struggling, i always have been. but right now i need just a little money, im not asking for hundreds of dollars, i need like $20 just to get through this week, FIVE DOLLARS WOULD EVEN HELP 

thats literally all im asking

when i get back on my feet and start making money THEN WITH MY OWN HARD WORKING MONEY WILL I BE WORKING ON COSPLAY

if you want to donate you can donate here 

(please note that it says cosplay donations but i made this donate button way before i actually needed money and i dont know how to change it)

As I was preparing to audition for drum corps again, and to audition for top college music programs, I knew I needed some extra guidance and help. So I turned to @thatdrumcorpsguy . He has brought me from being okay to being at a much higher level than even i expected to reach. I went from being a very insecure person and player, to being much more confident, and much better at trumpet. He helps me get past audition anxiety, which is a huge problem of mine, expand my range, and open up my sound tons. He isnt afraid to get picky, which i think is a good thing. He really makes sure you understand everything as well. He teaches any level , and all brass instruments. Which is a big plus, especially for those who are just starting out on brass. Not only is he a wonderful teacher, but he is also a mentor and a friend. He is one of the strongest people I know, and I’m very thankful that he’s helped me get to drum corps, and a top music school. Thank you, DJ. I don’t know what I would do without you.

the “i cant control it it’s instinct” argument is the fucking worst because if you think that you truly cannot keep your grimy hands off of other people then you need to stay away from people in general and go get help this isnt a hard thing to grasp lmao you just think that testosterone makes it okay for you to sexually harass other people