this isn't real

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#so much tongue #so little time

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I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I’m becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can’t you see that you’re smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
‘Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

[Chorus:]
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I’m becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

[Chorus:]
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I’m becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

[Chorus:]
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there.
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there.
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)

CHECK OUT MAH HAUS

HEY GUYS know how I’ve been talking about moving into a new place? Well it’s almost ready~

My bf and I will be occupying the downstairs of the house, which has a living area, bedroom, bathroom, and kitchenette. AND I HAVE PICTURES!!

Ok so the light is bad here and the carpet isn’t nailed down, but here is part of the living area! Accent wall is yellow, other walls are gray.

To the right! Bedroom door is on the left, bathroom door on the right. The carpet color is called “doberman.” All of the carpet colors were dog themed idk why.

To the left! It’s bigger than it seems. We’re gonna change a lot of the lights probably.

Farther to the left of the last shot! Kitchenette and wood stove (really works too!). The door there is the furnace, and my new recording space is farther to the left. Didn’t get a shot of that because the carpet was in the way of me opening the door. Might get a shot later when that’s done.

FUN FACT: My bf’s younger sister and I accidentally painted that yellow wall gray at some point because we didn’t realize it was going to be an accent wall too. So it had to be painted yellow…again.

Bedroom! Couldn’t get a good angle with my phone. Again bigger than it looks, there’s more to the right and a closet. The door against the wall is the bedroom door, they had to unhinge it to get the carpet in lol. It’s blue! Used to be a nasty eggplant purple. The people who lived there before made…questionable paint color choices.

Again we are definitely changing the light in here, that pure white bulb in there is WAY TOO BRIGHT. Need a warmer color in there. Right now it feels so…sterile. Especially with all the warm colors outside.

ALSO BONUS: I GOT MY EAR PIERCED! That part is called the daith, pronounced dOth, with a long O. I got it to help with my migraines. And you know…it seems to be working so far. It’s been like 3 weeks so far and even though I’ve been taking fewer allergy meds, my sinus pressure hasn’t been accompanied by the usual migraines.

I have an ear plug in because I took this picture at work to see if my ear plugs were going to bother my piercing, lol. One of the printers I work with is very loud.

So THAT is what I’ve been working on lately. Also I’ve been spending a lot of time with my bf’s family. Because I figure if I’m living under their roof eating their food, I should probably spend time with them, rather than being my usual mole person self and never going out or interacting with others. Once we move in here things will get a bit more normal though, living with 4 other people instead of 7 lol.

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When the Chitauri, as a final blow, gave Tony a glimpse into Peter’s dark DARK future.

okay, all together everybody:
  • Adrien and Chat Noir are not two different people
  • Adrien did not develop a split personality disorder upon receiving his miraculous
  • Chat Noir is not the better/real version of Adrien 
  • Adrien does not hate himself and prefer Chat Noir
  • Marinette liking Adrien is not her liking a repressed, depressed, fake version of Adrien
  • Adrien is a kid who loves his friends, loves school, does activities he enjoys, hangs out with his classmates, and is all around a pretty optimistic, kind, and upbeat kid who’s not afraid of standing up for himself and standing up for what’s right
  • Chat Noir awards Adrien the comfort of anonymity that allows him to do things that he wouldn’t normally do as Adrien Agreste. Ladybug awards Marinette these same opportunities. That’s what being an anonymous masked superhero allows you. 
  • Adrien and Chat Noir are the same person. Everything that Chat Noir is Adrien is. Everything that Adrien is Chat Noir is

If you heard anyone yell this morning it was me right after finding out dgm’s on this month’s SQ Crown holy f uck