this is why i can't trust

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4x04/4x11: are you mad?
as suggested by @the-nerdy-stjarna

Pouring your heart and soul into someone and then they decide they don’t want you anymore is the worst possible feeling in the world. And when they seem to just move on to someone else like they never even cared about you its hurts more than anything. I am tired of being hurt. I am tired of being used. This is why I have trust issues. When I love I love with all my heart. I don’t have anymore feeling to give anymore. I’m just exhausted and empty. I’m sorry.

Hero

It used to be second instinct to save every life, regardless of the cost to himself. Now a moment of hesitation reminds him that whilst heroes might never die, they can fall…but also that maybe, just maybe they can rise again. Alternate ending to the short ‘Hero’. Written for Nanowrimo 2016.

Disclaimer: As always Overwatch and its amazing characters don’t belong to me, I’m just borrowing them.

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The reason why INFJs have such a hard time figuring out when their subjective logic is wrong is bc the only way for them to test out their tert-Ti theories to see if they’re valid is via inf-Se. Inf-Se is notorious for getting everything wrong bc it’s sensing abilities is literally shit. It sees things in vague detail and often even perceives things that aren’t even there. Thus u get an INFJ adamantly believing things they (unknowing) made up as ultimate truth.

The reason why INTJs are mostly immune to this? They have aux-Te which is already rooted in objective reality. The material they work with is already true.

I am honestly trying very hard to accept that S4 is real, trust me, but I just can’t. Each time I am like: okay, this is it, it was real after all. I remember all the inconsistences, plot holes and horribly bad writting, all the things they said before it aired and I can’t! I simply can’t! Where is the rug pull? where is everything? Why didn’t they care about their final episode, the most secret of secrets (remember they wouldn’t even give us the name) being leaked twice?
Do I have to believe that the same people who wrote TAB wrote this shit? Pleople don’t change their writing like that, don’t go from taking care of every little detail to this, the same way any other artist wouldn’t screw their creations when they know they can do better and claim it’s their best. It just makes no sense at all.
I wish I could just accept it.

But like…

Tony clearing a space in the workshop so Peter can have his own space to work in whenever he comes to the tower. The both of them bouncing ideas off of each other and Tony being so surprised but impressed when Peter thinks of something amazing. 

“That’s…so incredible, why haven’t I ever thought of that?”

“I don’t know, you’re the genius, not me.”

“That’s half true because you’re also a genius.”

“…Really?”

“Yeah, kid. Trust me, I know a genius when I see one.”

Peter doesn’t stop beaming for the entire day and even caves as DUM-e bothers him for a second round of fetch. 

Because Mr. Stark called HIM a GENIUS. 

No, you know, I couldn’t include a kiss in the script for Hannibal and Will. I didn’t include an embrace and didn’t give it too much of a romantic overtone and we all know how Mads and Hugh interpreted it! The script said ‘lunges’ not 'loving embrace’! Imagine what those two would have done if an actual kiss had been scripted?!
—  Bryan Fuller at some point, probably
Real Bts conversation: Bangtan Christmas 🎄present party🎁
  • Yoongi: I wanted Jiminnie or Hobi to get it
  • Jimin: Why?
  • Yoongi: Because it seems like you two would actually carry it around
  • Jimin: Ah seriously. I won't carry this around.
  • Namjoon: Jimin doesn't even like this stuff either.
  • Seokjin: I will carry it around. Trust me, seriously, Trust me!
  • Yoongi: Okay i'm going to check your bag next time
  • T/N: Yoongi's present was an acrylic standee of himself
  • Brain: Shallura kisses. You should draw Shallura kisses. Actual, on the lips, kissing. Or just kisses anywhere in general. Kissing. Shiro and Allura. You know you want to. Pretty sure others would like to see that too. Just. Shallura kisses.
  • Me: *draws them close with longing gazes/or in silly situations/nothing but fluff/clear loving attraction between them/literally. Inches. Apart*
  • Brain: *Looks at the camera like in The Office*
A (Serious) Note about Panic Attacks.

I don’t make a lot of posts. I also do not enjoy making serious posts. Period. I go onto tumblr to feel good. It lets me escape the big scary world for five seconds and absorb myself in superheros, MBTI, Doctor Who and video games all at the same time. However, I have never needed to make a post as much as I need to make this one. 

1.  ANXIETY AND PANIC ARE NOT THE SAME THING Trust me. I have both. Anxiety can be a constant, on-going issue that never seems to go away. While it is nerve-wrecking, I would deal with my anxiety for months on end than have a panic attack as often as I do. I am NOT discrediting anxiety. It is a very scary state of being. Your body is literally in a fight or flight state all the time and there is no stopping the worry that comes in even the slightest situation.

2. PANIC ATTACKS Words can not describe how truly terrifying a Panic Attack is. I’m not entirely sure I can describe it accurately. Someone I know once compared it to  being underwater and never coming up for air. A better representation may be being underwater, chained to the bottom of the pool while people who can help you swim by you and watch while you slowly suffocate to death. Trust me, this is NOT an exaggeration. I have never felt more horrified, more alone, more betrayed by the world in my entire life as I have felt during a large scale panic attack. I can literally not process anything. My brain shuts off besides these thoughts: I need help; I can’t tell if this is real or not; Oh god I am going to die; I don’t want to live anymore; Please someone help me or end everything now I can’t take this. I feel so alone in the world that I don’t think the feeling will ever go away and that I am worthless. And yes, my panic attacks can include A LOT of tears and even an asthma attack- but I can’t think to find my inhaler, so I usually end up on the floor unable to breathe.

3. PANIC ATTACKS LEAVE EMOTIONAL SCARS. TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY. One thing most people do not understand about panic attacks is the severity of it NEVER diminishes the more times you have panic attacks. They will ALWAYS be this severe and they NEED to be taken seriously. Nothing is more harmful to a person with a panic disorder than being asked if it was “Just a Panic Attack”. DO NOT ASK THIS QUESTION. PERIOD. Take your friend seriously when they message, call, or ask you for help-Or even to just talk to them. It can be EXTREMELY painful to them if they feel ignored or belittled. I do not know about other people in the following instance, but I loose touch of reality slightly during my panic attacks. I NEED someone there to talk to me and tell me I’m going to be okay. I need someone to help me bring myself back to the world around me. If I trust you enough to be that person, that is a HUGE thing. I trust very few people. It is so painful when those people ignore me or dismiss what is happening to me. It leaves you in a giant uncertain emotional state afterwords that is very VERY difficult to fix. Panic attacks are scary as hell. They’re even scarier when you feel like you’ve been abandoned. The emotional scars that can come from that may never go away

. TAKE A PERSONS PANIC ATTACK SERIOUSLY. The words”Panic Attack” have been so overused (as with any mental issue) that they have just become another “trend” the general public views as common and insignificant. I hope I have been able to describe in some sense what a panic attack truly is. Mostly, I just needed to create this post for me. Processing what happens to me during a panic attack is nearly impossible at the time. This post is shorter than I expected it to be, but if I sat down and wrote everything there is to say about my panic attacks and the repercussions they have, you would be reading a 30 page essay. 

i am not really sure if we have something, but i hope we have because ugh i am getting emotions about you