this is where i cried and just couldnt

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I CANNOT BELIEVE BTS WINGS ERA IS OVER.

THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPLAIN HOW FREAKING BEAUTIFUL THIS ERA HAS BEEN. I WAS CRYING WITH MY FRIEND, STARING AT THE SCREEN.
STARTED TEARING UP AS SOON AS BORN SINGER CAME UP.

THE SPEECH (WHICH I HALF UNDERSTOOND AND HALF MY FRIEND EXPLAINED, WAS SO ㅠㅠ)
JUNGKOOK CRIED SO DAMN HARD AND I JUST COULDNT STOP SOBBING. I WAS GETTING SO EMO.

YOONGI’S ONE MADE CRY THE MOST, TBH. HE WAS TRYING SO HARD NOT TO CRY, SO IT MADE MY HEART BREAK.

JIN’S SUDDEN HEART EVENT, I WAS CRYING WHILE LAUGHING.
HYUNG LINE CRYING ALWAYS GETS ME.

I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT WE WONT SEE THOSE SOLO PERFORMANCES ANYMORE.

BTS KEPT ON THANKING US, YET I WANT TO TELL THEM WE ARE MORE THANKFUL THEY EXIST, THAT THEY MAKE THOSE BEAUTIFUL SONGS FOR US.

THE END WHERE ARMY HUM SPRING DAY I GOT SO EMOTIONAL.

ABSOLUTELY NO WORDS WHATSOEVER FOR CYPHER MEDLY👏👏👏👏👏

JIMINIE BEING CUTE, TEASING MEMBERS ABOUT CRYING. HOBI’S VOICE CRACKING MADE ME CRY MORE.

AND OFCOURSE SO MANY SHIP MOMENTS, ISTG. I SQUEALED AT EVERY TOUCH.ㅠㅠ

i think the most defining moment for me in high school and the point where i realized that my entire school experience was horrible was when i had to take my AP bio test and afterwards i couldnt stop laughing abt it and my friend was like “that test was really hard, how are you laughing so much??” and then i just started crying really hard because i didnt know/remember ANYTHING on that test and guessed on every single question

Anastasia rundown Act II

Act II

Holy shit

If you want to know the state I was in seeing this show, during the intermission I could not remember what the first song of act II was. Believe me, that’s not common. I was like half dead.

Anyway, act II-

So their costumes all looked so good omg. And they’re so beautiful. Vlad was doing this weird flapper dance that kept getting applause from the ensemble it was really funny and Anya joined in and Dmitry… well, Dmitry tried.

I love him.

Anyway, again with a set mention, the set freaking made you feel like you were zooming up the Eiffel Tower which was incredible.

When Vlad said he was going to find Lily, Anya straightened his bow tie.

CROSSING A BRIDGE YET AGAIN CHRISTY MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME. AS I WAS CRYING. SO BEAUTIFUL. SHE SOUNDED SO GOOD. SOOO GOOD

Caroline is funny af and gorgeous as Lily. Also great comedic timing.

This whole cast was ridiculously fantastic I cannot believe the level of perfection.

CLOSE THE DOOR PERSONALLY MURDERED ME!! AGAIN, WHERE IS MBP’S TONY AWARD??! SHE BROKE MY HEART OH MY GOD. SHE ACTED THE SHIT OUT OF THAT. During this scene, it struck me that she looked very frail, but that didn’t happen in any of the others. Mary Beth Peil. A goddess.

Land of yesterday was so much fun oh my god. I was smiling until my cheeks hurt and it was just so entertaining and Caroline was so funny and the choreography and costumes were so stunning. The dancing was so much fun and energetic and I loved it. I noticed that Lyrica collapses against the wall at the end of the dance lol. Caroline killed it she was so good!! She sounded flawless and oh my god she was perfect SHHSJSJSJ

The Countess and the Common man

Caroline’s so funny. So funny. She and John have amazing chemistry as well and they are such a great pair of humor. They honestly have the audience in their palm the entire time. After “I loved you” John Bolton looked at her and just nodded a lot before “you loved me?” And lily looked so sad and exasperated. The dance was great omg they’re both so good?? John Bolton is a better dancer than I am. The kiss was so funny nejsjjsns and after the song and after the applause they kissed again even crazier and it got so many cheers. Poor Lily, though. Caroline played her perfectly heartbroken. Vlad can be kind of a jerk.

THE NIGHTMARE SCENE

IT GETS ME EVERY TIME

THE ILLUSION OF ALEXEI BEING ON A SWING THATS SO FUCKING COOL AND THE DIALOGUE IS HAUNTING AS HELL IS BUT AHHHH

CHRISTY IS AMAZING

DMITRY CAME IN AND COMFORTED ANYA AND I DIED SO CUTE

HE COMPLIMENTED HER AND THAT ADDED TEN YEARS TO MY LIFE

IN

A

CROWD

OF

THOUSANDS.

Died.

I died.

Okay, first of all, the biceps are real people. I HEAD GASPS. Also, Derek’s hair for the entire show was so good?? Derek, drop your skin care routine please. Christy too.

Anyway, back to the song. Their chemistry is RIDICULOUS. I was in tears a lot but they sounded so good!! When Christy had her solo she started off soft and kind of teasing and Dmitry laughed and went “hey!” when she said “not too clean”

When she’s remembering the parade, Christy kind of drifts forward. And when she said “and then… he bowed!” Derek sat there on the bed for a moment and then was like WAIT “uhhhh I didn’t tell you that??” And she looked at him and they ran towards each other and both of them looked down at their intertwined hands and each other like they couldn’t believe the other was real ahhshshj

DMITRY WHY DIDNT YOU KISS HER

IT WAS SO CLOSE AND I HEARD LITERAL SIGHS OF DISAPPOINTMENT

Anya looked like she was trying not to cry as he bowed. ME TOO, ANYA. Me too.

Meant to Be scene-

ALL THE COSTUMES PERSONALLY TARGETED ME

DEREK LOOKED SO GOOD IN THE SUIT

Dmitry comes out and Vlad gives him this look like, “hey, you look good!” and then motions to Dmitry’s shoe. Dmitry looks down, sees untied shoelace, bends down to tie it.

ANYA CAME OUT. THE BLUE DRESS IS SO GODDAMN GORGEOUS. SO SPARKLY. THERE WERE GASPS AS SHE WALKED OUT. THE CAPE, THE HEADPIECE, THE DRESS. EVERYTHING SPARKLED.

And Dmitry stops cold, slowly looks up at her in awe. Me too, Dima. Me too.

And then he looks at her face, jumps up, and offers her his arm. Shjsjsjshjsjsj they’re SO CUTE.

MEANT TO BE WAS SURPRISINGLY EMOTIONAL JOHN BOLTON YOU TALENTED MAN. HE SOUNDED SO BROKEN. I CRIED.

QUARTET AT THE BALLET

SHJSJSJSJS

LYRICA IS AMAZING AND SO GRACEFUL AND SO ARE KYLE AND JAMES AS WELL AS MOLLY SHINA AND SISSY WHO ARE THE DANCERS AT THE OPERA. THE JUMPS AND SPINS. I WAS IN AWE.

WHEN ANYA SINGS, EVERYONE ELSE CONTINUES TO WATCH THE DANCERS, SAME FOR ALL THE OTHER SOLOS. THE DOWAGER USES BINOCULARS TO LOOK AT ANYA

THE HARMONIES. MAX AND DEREK KILLED ME. I TRANSCENDED AND DIED. I DID NOT KNOW WHERE TO LOOK SO I TRIED TO LOOK AT THEM ALL AND DIED.

AND THEN THEY ALL COMBINED AND THAT WAS THE SONG THAT GOT THE MOST APPLAUSE AND I JUST DIED IT WAS SO AMAZING I CRIED I CRIED

EVERYTHING TO WIN!!!

Derek SLAYED ME. DMITRY WAS SO CUTE AND NERVOUS AND LIKE COULDNT KEEP STILL

HE RAN OVER TO VLAD AND VLAD WAS DOING ALL THE NERVOUS MOTIONS LIKE PEOPLE DO WHEN THEYRE ANXIOUS WITH HIS HANDS LIKE SQUEEZING THEM AND THEN BENT OVER AND THEN HE WAS LIKE “IM OUT OF HERE PEACE OUT” (no that’s not what he really said, in reality his line was something like “I can’t handle these nerves. tell lily I needed a stiff glass of vodka”)

AND THEN DMITRY RUNS BACK OVER AND LISTENS WHEN HE SAYS “NOTHING BUT SILENCE”

HE KNOCKS ON THE CHAIR WHEN HE SAYS BETTER KNOCK ON WOOD

AND THEN HE SLOWS DOWN AND LOOKS SO DESPERATE AND HEARTBROKEN WHEN HE REALIZES HE CARES FOR ANYA

BY THE WAY, DEREK MAKES TONS OF HAND MOTIONS THROUGHOUT THE SHOW AND I LOVED THEM SO MUCH

HE ALSO KEEPS HIS EYES HIGHER IN THE AUDIENCE WHEN HE LOOKS OUT WHILE THE OTHER ACTORS KIND OF MOVE THEIR EYES FROM HIGHER TO DIFFERENT AREAS

ANYA COMES OUT SO COLD AND ANGRY AND BROKEN AND WHILE SHE WAS TALKING TO HIM ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED, SHE FIDGETED WITH HER DRESS LIKE SHE WAS SUPER ANGRY. SHE SHOVES DMITRY AND AFTER HER LINES SHE JUST FUCKING BOOKED IT OFFSTAGE

DMITRY AND THE DOWAGER HOLY SHIT

HOLY SHIT

I WAS DYING THE ENTIRE SCENE

okay so the Dowager comes out and Dmitry does a quick bow on “your royal majesty!”

And then the Dowager is like “no.”

Dmitry’s volume gets louder as he gets more desperate until he’s yelling “SHE ONLY WANTS WHAT’S RIGHTFULLY HERS! YOUR RECOGNITION… AND YOUR LOVING EMBRACE!”

HE STEPPED ON HER CAPE AND THE ENTIRE AUDIENCE WENT “OOOOOOH” and then it went silent and there was so much tension.

And then she slapped him and then audience reacted again. SO much tension.

And after Dmitry roasted her, the Dowager just sat there in disbelief before she left.

Anya is a savage, she roasted the hell out of Vlad and Dima. She threw the doll on the floor and Vlad reacted and then chased her while Dmitry picked it up. Her dress for this scene is gorgeous, like all the others. While she’s ranting to Dmitry and Vlad about using her, Lily and the Dowager sneak in. Lily taps Vlad on the shoulder and the Dowager walks in. Dmitry bows and she hands him her cane.

Anya and the dowager was awkward in a nice sort of way. Idk how else to describe it. The music box part made me cry. MARY BETH PEIL. WHERE IS YOUR TONY

WHEN THE GIRLS HUGGED, DMITRY WALKED IN TO SEE IT GOODBYE THE TEARS ARE NOW IN CONTROL

THE PRESS CONFERENCE THE SEXISM IS REAL THE GIRLS WERE PUSHED TO THE BACK WHICH IS WHY YOU HEAR “EXCUSE ME OVER HERE”

WES WHO PLAYED A JOURNALIST BRIBED VLAD OH MY GOD

MOLLY AND I THINK SISSY PICKED UP THE PROP PHONES

TO CALL AND REPORT WHAT HAPPENED

(The post is too long I will continue this)

Pups first out door adventure. They are 4.5 weeks old…the sun was not great for pics or vodeo from where i was and I was dressed for work so couldnt crawl around on the grass but I think I got some pics with the DSLR. This is the only video. Probably won’t get a chance to post til tomorrow afternoon. It’s suppose to rain tomorrow so they won’t get to go out. Galileo was very fearless and Freddie cried the whole time but was doing it while running around. The video is the indicator. Galileo and Freddie willingly followed me around. Supersonic wasn’t happy at all and just hovered by the garage wall and near momma Dream. Floozy and Breaker ventured around a little but tried to stay near momma Dream or Lightning. With each new adventure their confidence will increase.

Lurk- Happy Lowman

Requested by @homicidalteenagedream
Hope you like it!! Thanks for the request Doll.
Song-Lurk By Neighbourhood

[Distorted:]
Hey! [x8]
This is the beat that makes your mother cry…

[Verse 1:]
I want to be honest
I want to be bad
I want to destroy you
I want to move fast
I want the attention
I want all the cash
I want all the ass
Is it too much to ask?

I want to be faithful
I want to be raw
I want to be ignorant
I want to know it all
I want to die someday
I want to live long
I want what I ask for
I get what I want

Love hate relationship with Happy was.. well it had its moments. The best part was the sex. He was the king at giving orgasms. He hit every nock and crany that you didnt even know you had.
“Oh Happy, Happy baby”. You held on to his a he pounded in you against the wall.
“Fuck Girl, this pussy is the best”. He said as he bit your shoulder.
“Oh God help me”. You cried out as his pace fasten.
“I want you Little girl to come all over me”.

[Hook x2:]
I’m thinking we should ride
To a place that we don’t know
To a place where no one’s seen us before
I’m thinking, you and I
Better just go with the flow
Last thing that we should do is go slow

[Distorted:]
Hey! [x8]
This is the beat that makes your mother cry…

Before you knew it Happy asked you to get his crow. Days before you two couldnt stand to be together besides sex.
“Woman you need my crow right here”. He said pointing to your right hip.
“Hap we cant stand each other. We fuck then leave”. “Now your wanting me to get a permit mark of you on me, arent the hickies, bite marks and hand prints enough.
"I want you and only you”.
“You say that now but wait until we disagree”. You crossed your arms

[Verse 2:]
I think that I’m human
I think about God
I think of the chances
I think that I’m wrong

I think to be thoughtful
I know that I’m not
You think I’m a fake
And I know you’re a fraud

I fuck ‘cause I need to
I fuck when I want
I’ll fuck you in love
Even though it is not

I’ll fucking digest you
One kiss at a time
You wish I was yours
And I hope that you’re mine

Happy decided to wait on the crow and move in together. Big Mistake
“Fuck Y/N, if you cant do it then go away”. He yell as you tried to paint your bed room.
“Its paint and a wall how hard can it be”. You said as you took the paint brush out of the container and getting it on the carpet.
“Y/N, go the fuck away and I’ll do it”.
“Fine, I was just trying to help”. You stormed off.
Happy felt guilt right away.
He came in to the bathroom as you wiped a tear away.
“I’m sorry for yelling, you know how I am about messes”. He kneeled in front of you.
“You shouldnt yell at me, I’m sorry for getting the paint on the carpet”.
“I know, that why I came in here for”. He lifted you up carrying you to the bedroom.

Hook x2]

Go fast, go fast
Hey! [x8]
Go fast, go fast
This is the beat that makes your mother cry
Oh, no…

Black and it’s white
Everything’s white
But it’s blacker than I know
And blacker than the white of the snow, yeah
And I’m thinking I…
Oh, no…

Happy laid you on the floor. Ripping your pants off.
“No panties, I like”. He growled.
“All for you Happy”. As you spread your legs, running your fingers up and down your pussy lips. Rubbing you clit.
“Shit this is a beautiful site”. He pushed his pants down and moved you hand, lining his self up and pushed in.
“Fuck Hap”. You cried out, your back arching
“Holy Hell Girl, your so wet”.
Wet he said you took the paint brush and slapped his back with it. Stroking it up and down.
“What the fuck”. He tried you pull out but you trapped him with your legs.
'Its just paint Baby, thought we could decorate the only way we know". You laughed
Happys pounding didnt stop as he took his finger dipping it in paint and drawing his name over your hips and across your breast. Leaving bite marks on your neck.
“Happy I’m so close”. The pleasure was to much to control.
“Me too”. He grunted
Like magic the two of you came together. It was like flying on a cloud. So peaceful.
Happy pulled out, laying on his side. “Your right”.
“What you say, did The Killer just say I was right”?
“Dont be a smart ass”. “We should just fuck and date, no moving or crows”.
“I can deal with that”. “What happens if we decide we want all of that”?
“Then I promise not to yell, I’ll just fuck the shit out of you”. He pulle dyou closer to him, smashing his lips to yours.
“I’ll do the same, when you do something I hate”. You smiled looking round the carpet.
“We did terrible”. You laughed getting Happy to look at your sex artwork.
“Nah I like it”. He kissed you again
Our relationship was not just black and white, we had lots of color.


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anonymous asked:

Hey I'm like literally crushing on you so bad lmao but I've come to deliver a simple prompt. Nicky making vines of the foxes. So many brotp moments with him and matt. So many sassy comments at Allison. So many sickeningly cute vines with Erik. He has a collection called "me just videoing Neil because he's beautiful." And "Andrew before he tries to kill me." And "Inside the life of Kevin Day" end me Nicky I'll forever love you

HI I LOVE U IM. BYE CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE IS CRUSHIN ON ME BAD 

au where tfc takes place during 2016? yes pls

  • nicky hemmick vines
  • in fact, nicky is a POPULAR viner
  • he has so many vines
  • nicky vines almost everything the foxes do because he wants to document it ALL
  • neil josten showing up? He takes a vine and saves it to his drafts for when neil is announced and he can actually post it
    • the vine is just nicky whispering “oh no he’s hot” and zooming in on neil’s face
    • there’s also the infamous neil zoom again where nicky’s whispering “i’m gonna fu
    • ck him” and aaron says “ur not gonna fuck him.” and nicky whispers “gonna do it”

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She Keeps Me Warm

Claire Novak x Female!Reader

Tagging: @why-pace-why


A/N: Wrote this while listening to “She Keeps Me Warm” by Mary Lambert. :)




You jumped as you heard thrashing from Claire’s room. You flew out of your bed and opened her door to see her throwing all of her stuff around. You stepped in and wrapped your arms around her where she couldnt anymore.

“Shh…. Claire… Settle down… it’s okay…. Just breathe…”

She cried and tried to catch her breath. You held her down till she was calm and when you let go she spun around and hugged you, crying into your chest. You kissed her head and placed your hand gently on it, your other arm around her.

Jody came rushing in and you looked at her.

“She’s alright I got her.”

She smiled and walked out, closing the door behind her.

“What is it?” you asked softly,

She pulled away and sat on her bed, sniffling and wiping her eyes. You followed her and sat beside her, watching her.

She shook her head, “Just everything I guess. I want to hunt. But… Jody….”

“She doesn’t want you getting hurt. Or worse. That’s all.”

“I won’t,” she said simply.

“You don’t know that….”

She sighed, “I feel like Im not allowed to have anything I want. That… I will always be told what I can and can’t do. Im not a child anymore. Im a woman.”

You reached your hand over and sat it on hers, tightening around it softly, “Well… I’ll be here as long as you need me.”

She sniffled and looked away, pulling back, “I don’t need anyone.”

“You know that’s not true.”

She huffed and glared at you, “Why do you think you know everything?”

“Am I wrong?”

“…No…”

You smiled, “You’re not all that hard to read. I can see you’re hurting…. and I want to help in any way I can.”
She smiled and cuddled up to you and you eased back, lying down. You kissed her head and covered the both of you up.

“You’ve not exactly had it easy… and I cant imagine what it must be like…. but….. if you’ll have me….”

She furrowed her brow and made soft sounds of annoyance as she squeezed you which just made you smile.
“Shut up. Got it.”

She smiled and you began playing with her blonde hair, pulling it away from her face. You couldnt help but smile at how beautiful she was.


From then for then on you slept in her room, cuddled up together every night. But you acted like best friends, just a little more. No kissing however there was lots of hand holding. You were always there for her and followed her everywhere so she didn’t have to go in alone no matter if she wanted you to or not. Most of the time during hunts you either sat in the car or hotel cause lets face it… You weren’t exactly a fighter. You and Alex were alike in that department. However, you made up for it with your knowledge of lore.



Finally one day she came practically crawling from a hunt and from then on you vowed to go with her. She didn’t like it at first, afraid something would happen to you and she’d be responsible. So after tons of arguing she drove you both went to a remote area to practice your shooting and combat skills. At first you couldn’t even hit the target and it killed you inside. You’d never be able to watch her back at this rate. She moved behind you and kissed your shoulder as she moved your body to the right position and helped you hold the gun.

“Relax,” she said softly, “and breathe.”

You took in a deep breath.

“Now squeeze.”

You squeezed the trigger and hit it perfectly. You gasped and smiled in disbelief. She just hugged you with a smile and kissed your cheek.

“Did you see that?” you asked as you turned your head, “Did you see~”

She looked at your lips and you looked at hers before you both slowly leaned in for a soft kiss.



After a while you got better and you two were invincible. “Almost as good as Sam and Dean” you both always joked.
But no matter how good of a hunter you were, when you were back in society it was hard to bare the glares from people. You’d both be smiling and laughing as you held hands till someone looked at you in which the smile would fall off both your faces as you let go and each put your hands in your pockets.
Finally one day she wouldn’t let you pull away, holding your hand tightly. At first you were shocked and you panicked till she gave you that look and you settled down, blushing. From then on the looks didnt bother you. You simply ignored them.

@ycurworstnxghtmare

Somewhere beneath the waves of deep tides lies a murky and arcane place full of the unknown. At the upper part of the Maw were the leader,The Lady and her protege,Payton

Her student had just turned 16 a few moons ago and was starting to become more rebellious. The head mistress would cut back on the nutrition that she needed to survive;her body becoming bones.

Desperate as her hunger caved in more everyday

“Why,Why can’t you just do as your told?! If that were the case,you wouldn’t have wounds all over you!” The Lady spat out at her,slapping her hard in the process . Pay let out a cry as she wounded her again.

“…I hate you!! Im sick of this hell you created as a life for me!!” The student screamed in her face,quickly running out of her quarters,tears spewing down her scratched up cheeks; Finally outside of the Maw. The Ferryman appeared to have left his boat near the shore,not spotting him everywhere

Now’s my chance! She thought to herself,quickly running over to the boat,accelerating her paddling. When she was far enough,she glanced back.

“…You didn’t need me anyways,you old hag.” The winds carried her whisper through the rough tides she faced. A couple of hours later,she finally made it to shore of some sort as she sighed in relief.

“Yes,land! I made it!” She cried out loud,crawling onto the shore,trembling with adrenaline. Pay couldnt believe she actually made it! Hopefully she wasn’t dreaming. She prayed she wasnt.

Soon,an aroma was in the air

The adolescent girl stood up,as she knew the smell all too well-food! Oh,the craving soon drove her mad,following where it was from. It seemed to be coming from a market stall from the town she soon stepped territory in.

She soon decided to use her skills to use,crouching,quietly sneaking over to the food that was just put out for sale. Looking quickly,she started to steal some loaf of bread and cooked meat with her trembling hands