this is what u would find

anonymous asked:

what is it like having bpd? I'm just curious and would like to know more. Just googling something doesn't always give you the full story. I have depression and find it easy to make friends with people who get it, so do you have friends with bpd as well?

all u have to do is scroll down my blog

I already answered this no more than a week ago

and yes I’m friends w one other person w bpd but I don’t get along w others w personality disorders easily most times. I prefer to not surround myself w others like me v much. tend to feed off each other’s anxieties and insecurities

Looking for RP: Tura Asteros

Overview: Born, like many, into the prolific U tribe of the Sagolii desert, Tura lived her early years according to tribe traditions. Striving to be a hunter, an injury cut her potential career short. As she grew into a young adult, she attempted to find a role in a branch-off tribe headed by an ambitious Tia. However, as often happens, the small tribe scattered in time. Without a home to return to after discarding her U tribe status, Tura turned to Eorzea as a whole.

Her steps took her first to Gridania, where she would learn the art of conjury. Many of her days following this would be spent living according to what others wanted or needed. Whether it be filling the role of a medic for a free company, or acting to suit the needs of a potential friend or lover, Tura didn’t know who she herself was supposed to be.

After repetitive heartbreak and disappointments and goodbyes, aimless wandering led her to discover a set of books sold by a Qiqirn junkmonger. Out of boredom, or perhaps guided by the hand of fate, she purchased the books only to discover that they were authored by a Sharlayan who had been branded a heretic in his own right. The books described a form of astromancy based around the sun, and somehow, Tura finally found something she was interested in without outside influence. Devoting herself wholly to mastery of the art, the young Seeker gradually found that she was actually able to make quite accurate predictions and readings. The practice has given her a means to finding herself, and slowly the woman is making the foray back into the world with a fresh perspective.

Potential Character Hooks (why your character might interact with her): If you’re a skeptic, a fellow astromancer, someone interested in astrology and fortune reading, a shy character, or just someone looking for a friend, you’d find it quite easy to pique Tura’s interest. RP from all types of characters is welcome, if you think she’s interesting enough. Currently, she works at the Garden of Words bookshop in the Lavendar Beds, having a small space devoted to doing readings. Her latest projects include book restoration and translation, which are both slow going, but going strong.

Looking for: Friends, clients, hell, even potential rivals or antagonists (such as stalwart skeptics or tribal Miqo’te who disagree with her views) are all welcome. I believe that character growth occurs through experiences rather than remaining shy and stagnant.

How to Contact: Here on tumblr through a message or through a tell in game are probably the easiest ways. I check tumblr periodically throughout the day, and I’m typically in game around 9-12pm Eastern Time (give or take). I know that sounds late but I’m in the Mountain time zone. Sorry! >.<

anonymous asked:

Robert and Liv cures me. I feel alive when they're onscreen. I feel like if Liv can find a way to forgiving him Aaron will be able to too. Also don't you just think Roblivion are like that kid at school with the painfully cool parents whose house you'd simultaneously desperately want to go over to and also at the same time be shit scared to venture in because you know your own (terribly uncool) parent would be there in their Volvo the next day to pick you up?

this is… the perfect metaphor… 

although i’m sorry but if my parents looked like robert and aaron i don’t think i’d ever get any of my friends to leave my house bc damn

(give me fic where any friends that liv makes develops some sort of crush on one or both of them and it’s the biggest earthly nuisance)

anonymous asked:

The same anon from last night about sending Simon a cheeky pic.. What if he sent you a pic back, taken from waist down, his sweats down to his ankles, and his hand on top of his boxers, palming his growing bulge. And the caption would be "Miss you too. Could you help me out a little?"

Ok I get where you’re going w this but ngl I find the whole smut or turning on thing kind of weird… I prefer fluff stuff 😂 still appreciate it tho, tell. Me. Who. U. Are!!

anonymous asked:

24, 27, 30?

24. what is the sexiest ryan pic you can find in a google search in under one minute?

 i wouldnt say i find ryan to be a particularly sexy person but here

27. what panic! merch do you own?

the rainbow ringer tee!! (and not panic! but a violent things scarf and i have a dallon leave me alone shirt being delivered)

30. what song do you really/really/really want a video for?

ive never really thought of it before but i think far too young today would make a rly good video? or collar full just because i really love collar full </3

fantastic beasts asks
  • Newt Scamander : do you put product in ur hair ? do u like freckles ? would you be the type of person to pick up stray cats on the streets ?
  • Tina Goldstein : do you feel badass in general ? do u like hot dogs ? what are ur pyjamas like ?
  • Queenie Goldstein : do you blush often? if yes, in what kinds of situations? do u feel pretty ? oh so pretty? and witty? and smart?
  • Jacob Kowalski : do you like cooking? If so, what do you cook? would you be the type of person to drop everything and go on an adventure? are u a dreamer ? are u good at flirting?
  • Credence Barebone : how often do u get a haircut? what do dark alleyways and strangers mean to you ? on a scale of one to ten how well do u handle being betrayed ?
  • Percival Graves : how dramatic are u in your everyday life ? do u take care of your appearance? do you question your government? are you gay or european?
  • Theseus Scamander : how does it feel to be a war hero?
  • Gellert Grindelwald : what are ur goals in life like literally what are u doing here
  • Seraphina Picquery : are you ambitious ? on a scale of one to ten, how done are you with everyone's shit?
  • Pickett : bonus question ! anything you want to ask !
4

okay so u know when buck tweeted alfonso the video of oa in episode one?? his twitter is real and it’s active and there’s so much cool stuff on it that gives a more insight to buck’s personality/interests and it’s SO COOL, there’s also posts about angels and stuff and a lot of comic book stuff & studio ghibli so buck is basically a huge nerd. idk if the actor actually runs the account or what but anyways i thought ppl would find this interesting

politico.com
BREAKING: President Obama orders 'full review' of election-related hacking, due by January 20th
President Barack Obama has ordered a "full review" of hacking-relating activity aimed at disrupting last month's presidential election.

President Barack Obama has ordered a “full review” of hacking-relating activity aimed at disrupting last month’s presidential election and he expects that report before he leaves office on Jan. 20, a top White House official said Friday.


“We may have crossed into a new threshold and it is incumbent upon us to take stock of that, to review, to conduct some after-action, to understand what has happened and to impart some lessons learned,“ Obama counterterrorism and homeland security adviser Lisa Monaco told reporters at a breakfast arranged by the Christian Science Monitor.

U.S. intelligence officials have blamed the Russian government for pre-election hacking of Democratic officials and political committees. Several Democratic senators have asked Obama to declassify more details about the attacks and why the U.S. concluded the Russians were behind them.

Monaco would not commit to making the findings of the review public, but did say that it would be shared with "a range of stakeholders,” including members of Congress.

Jungkook Boyfriend Material

Originally posted by jeonsshi

Out of Bed

  • he first appeared silent, mysterious 
  • at least when you first meet him
  • he’ll tend to stare at you from afar quite a bit
  • u werent really sure whether he was oddly intrigued by u or hated you
  • … u were more inclined towards the latter
  • come to find out later he was just too afraid to approach you 
  • he was actually the exact opposite of what u initially thought
  • he was an open book 
  • ot mysterious in the slightest or silent for that matter
  • he would be rather awkward towards you at first bc he just thought u were so pretty anf also !!ah !!! female
  • especially when he was around tae or jimin 
  • lots of tickle fights with you either letting him win or him using his strength to pin you down
  • and then he would kiss you on the lips that lil happy bunny grin of his would form on his face
  • there would also be lots of fort building and staying inside the house for movies and cuddles
  • your relationship would be the perfect kind of cutesy it wouldnt be the unbearable kind like some relationships are but more the relationship goals kind
  • there would in general be a lot of teasing between the two of u
  • and memeing 
  • so much meMEING
  • you guys would make stupid faces at each other p much 24/7 
  • but also macho jungkook where he calls you his baby girl and insists upon taking care of you
  • also him showing off his muscles to u and lowkey wanting you to call him strong and manly and be a lil turned on
  • also he would be v possessive 
  • he would defs be the jealous type
  • “You’re mine and no one elses. Never forget that.”
  • cherishing you entirely and completely because your actually his everything even if he does tease you quite a bit

Originally posted by mvssmedia

In Bed

  • once again very possessive
  • calling you baby girl
  • rough sex
  • though not really the daddy type unless you were to specifically ask him for something like that
  • he would defs play the role well though if he knew you were into that ;)
  • a lot of grunting and groaning with each thrust
  • stuttering your name when you sucked him off
  • going completely silent when he cums only to shudder and moan after
  • lots of dirty talk
  • sucking on his fingers before and after he fingers you
  • “Baby, you’re cum taste so sweet”
  • he would be into roleplay
  • especially cop jungkook and professor jungkook
  • public teasing
  • nothing too over the top tho 
  • just grabbing your inner thigh maybe his hand accidentally slipping up your dress and into ur underwear every so often
  • lots and lots of hot makeout sessions that start innocent but lead to rough couch or floor sex
  • him fucking you from behind against a wall
  • fucking you on the kitchen island
  • him holding you up against the wall and fucking you from the front
  • him loving blowjobs
  • coercing you into giving him blowjobs by promising to make you feel just as good afterwards
  • him being sneaky and eating you out and the slyly suggesting a blowjob as payment
  • knotting his fingers in your hair and closing his eyes when your tongue glides down his shaft
  • getting hard-ons during casual movie and cuddle nights and trying to contain it but later takes out his built up frustrations on u instead of watching the movie


requested by anonymous hope u enjoyeddd :)

~Admin S

anonymous asked:

oh my gosh i love your writing so much? i always look forward to seeing more of it on my dash ;u; !! would you maybe think about doing a neighbor kihyun if you have time please? i'd love to see you write it asfdpih (also i hope school isn't stressing you out too much and that you are getting enough rest and you time)

find neighbor!wonho (here) ~!

  • is picky about everything, but in a good way. like he wants to keep everything pretty and organized
  • labels his containers
  • likes his pinks, yellows, and whites. that’s what his color scheme is from his white sheets to his pink toothbrush to his yellow curtains
  • “jooheon i know that this is a gift with the best intentions, but you know my thing is stripes. im not a polka dot person. im sorry, i just am not. but ill accept these slippers anyway because i love you”
  • likes to get sewing tips from the old lady down the hall
  • nags at kids who make too much noise in front of the building and he’s always going on about respect and being polite 
  • but once he saw a cockroach in his bathtub and yelled so loud he woke up the entire floor  
  • isn’t afraid to admit that he thinks stuffed animals are cute and therefore has a giant moomin on his bed. it’s cute and yes he hugs it at night 
  • takes care of his skin so well he gets compliments from everyone because he glows like the people down at the grocery are just like omg what products do you use and kihyun will gladly share his tips. he’s a sweetheart 
  • you know kihyun because like well who doesn’t????? the kids call him uncle kihyun because he’s always scolding them and the older people refer to him as the prince of your apartment complex because he’s always dressed so fancy and does his hair well
  • but on the off-chances that you’ve seen him you haven’t ever talked with him or caught his attention
  • mostly because you’re always in a rush to get to work/school. like you’re not a morning person, but kihyun seems just dandy in the morning and you’re like how
  • and it’s on one morning that you find yourself particularly messy because you stayed up all night to finish a long paper and you forgot that you had an interview later in the afternoon but you had no time to get ready
  • so you managed to put on a decent interview outfit, but your hair? your face? your overall moral? your outlook on life?
  • bad
  • and when you get into the elevator you’re thankful that it’s just you till someone comes running down the hall and slips in last second and it’s kihyun
  • looking absolutely perfect and energized and you’re still trying to brush your hair to where it looks acceptable and maybe get something on to cover your dark circles
  • and you don’t notice but kihyun is watching you a bit and he sees you stumbling, tiredly into the train station with your bag half open and when you get into the train
  • kihyun suddenly sits beside you and you’re like uh,,,,,because there’s a bunch of free seats the stop near your house is the first stop for that line
  • and kihyun is like “here let me help you.” and you’re like ?????/
  • and he takes your brush from your hands and moves your shoulders so you’re facing him and he puts his own bag on his lap and pulls out a bunch of stuff
  • and basically gives you a makeover right than and there. and im not talking like full on makeup, im talking just the basics to help you look like you know,,,,,,,,you’re not dYing
  • and he gets the knots out of your hair, the dark circles covered, some mist sprayed on. he fixes the collar of your shirt, and even hands you a granola bar because he’s like “i can tell you didn’t eat”
  • and when he’s done you don’t feel anywhere as bad as you did when you left your house and kihyun grins because he’s like “this is the first time ive seen you smile since we got into the elevator together”
  • and you tell him that you’re thankful, that you have an interview today too and he’s like “you’ll do amazing!!!” and you’re like,,,,thank you,,,,,,,for making me look presentable,,,,,rofl
  • and when it’s your stop kihyun gives you another thumbs up and you get off and can’t help but keep smiling because,,,,,,,wow he’s,,,,,,,,so sweet?????
  • and the day just feels so much easier because of your time in the morning with kihyun and your interview goes well
  • so well that when you’re heading home you get an sns that says you passed the interview and you’re so happy you do a little dance on the platform
  • and once when you finally get home you’re surprised to see kihyun on the bench outside your building and you go over and say hello and he grins and asks about the interview
  • and before you know it you’re telling him everything that happened and when you tell him you passed he pats the top of your head and you’re like ,,,,,,o,,,,oh
  • and he’s like “i knew you could do it, you’re so hardworking - ive noticed that about you” and you’re like,,,,,,,,,,,he????? noticed me??????
  • and kihyun is like “as a reward, let me go buy you some good snacks”
  • and you try to refuse, but kihyun is like no no you deserve it!! and as you shyly pick something out and head to the counter kihyun is taking out his money and the cashier is like “you two look cute together, has it already been past 100 days?”
  • and you’re speechless because omg what
  • and kihyun looks over at you with a smile and he’s like “nope! this is our first day, you could say.” and the cashier is like AW how cute
  • and you’re like alhdgjfsdds what,,,,,,,,,,,does he mean by that
  • and as you’re walking back home you want to ask but you just nibble on your snack until kihyun leans over to take a bite of your food and you’re like hEY 
  • and he’s like “so, what do you think about that?” and you’re like “what?” and he’s like “about this being our first day,,,,,,i think we can make it to 100 easily.”
  • and you’re like is he???? asking me out???? and kihyun before you guys get back inside is like “so? want to meet in the morning again and we’ll ride the train together?” and you hesitate but in a small voice you go “like,,,,,,a couple?”
  • and kihyun grins and gives you another thumbs up like “yes. like a couple.” 
  • and you’re red in the face as kihyun comes closer and you think he’s going to lean in and??????? kiss you 
  • but instead he goes “i like the messy you even more you know?” and you’re like wh,,what does that mean and he pets your head again messing it up just a bit and going over to open the door
  • and yes the next morning as you’re rushing again, you think yesterday must have been a dream
  • but when you open your door, kihyun is there by the elevator waiting for you
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“What if Warren loved to bury his face into Kurt’s warm chest, his lap, his neck, anywhere he could find, and just bathe in the scent and feeling of his boyfriend holding him so tenderly.

His wings would drop down from the branches, as would Kurt’s tail, occasionally brushing each other and making Kurt giggle at the sensation.”

@angel-is-alive-i-promise‘s HEADCANON MADE ME WEAK
so I had to doodle something for it ;u;

Also to welcome Autumn, my favorite season!!<3
I included a little animation test too. It was my first time animating anything like this, and I enjoyed it a LOT. I hope you do too :D

Do not edit/re-upload on other sites without source+credit

~Saber

aline: i hear

aline: our man magnus attempted a snow white sleeping beauty kiss huh

alec: whomever did u hear this from ion recall

aline: the bisexuals have a gc too apparently and they spill somw serious TEA in there let me tell u

aline: helen tells me everythimg

alec: well it w as nice chatting w u i gtg

raj: sharing is caring penhallow

alec: dont

aline: magnus bane attempted an actual True Love’s Kiss™ on our very own alec gideon lightwood

alec: sto p

raj: DID HE FR HIRHEHEEB

alec: K SHHHH

aline: WOULD I LIE ABT SUCH A SERIOUS MATTER RAJ??? WOULD I??

alec: SH UT

aline: I caNT BELUEVE YOU DIDNT TELL US I CANT BELIEVE I HAD TO FIND OUT FROM THE BIES?? gay solidarity has die d

raj: im

alec: fuckdndodofff what did u wnat me to say

raj: IMddjdjdndn

aline: HIW ABOUT “MAGNUS BANE TRIED TO SLEEPING BEAUTY ME AWAKE AND CONSIDERED ME BEING HIS TRUE LOVE A POSSIBILITY”????

alec: fuKCK OFD I hadnt even thiught abt it rlly

raj: horton he ars a bitch ass LIAR

aline: ALE XANDER????

alec: IM SERIOUS I HADNT THOUGHT ABT IT LIKE THAT W Tf…..

alec: oh my go d

aline: here we go

raj: here we go

aline: raj shdjdbsbs im

alec: i gtg talk to him wtf

aline: IM DEAD hES JUST NOW FIGURING IT OUT

aline: tHIS IS WHY U NEED TOT ELL US EVERYTHING ALWAYS ALEC

raj: JDDJSBSB I LITERALLYBJSUT SAW HIM RUN OUT OF THE INSTITUTE IM YELLING

aline: JSNJDJD GO GET UR MANS ALEC

So I just lost my job. Our entire company just went bankrupt. I found out the same day as the general public. In fact my manger told us even when she was supposed to let us find out from the news. Our store was the number one store in the U.S. and we had no idea what was happening. It was a devastating shock for everyone who works there. Were all really close, and I’m really close with our store manager who called me bawling. Not even 24 hours after the announcement that we’re going out everyone and their mother called the store asking about what our sales would be. And everyone who came in was glad to see our prices drop. No one gave a shit or though twice that every conversation our staff has had started with tears and hugs. I got a phone call from a woman asking me to connect her to another store that I don’t believe even exists. She got angry with me and said that she should have been notified that the store was closing because she had things to return. Like wtf I literally just found out myself. I’m sorry no one personally called you to tell that we’re shutting down. There isn’t even a customer service office left for me to call. There’s only one person for 140 stores for register support! So she starts talking over me and getting louder and louder, it had been a rough day and I was tired of being screamed at by customers for doing my job. So I just yelled, “lady do you even realize I lost my job!?!” She hung up immediately. I told my boss and she said,“well what are they going to do fire us?” Then I laughed and cried for a good 10 minutes.
-sorry it’s so long but it feels good to vent.

kagua321  asked:

How would the vets and cadets react if they were given a present they don't really like?

Mikasa: … thanks…
Reiner: Wow hey,,, thenk u 
Bertholdt: Is genuinely happy about getting a present in general 
Annie: thx *puts it away*
Eren: D: thanks
Jean: What the… thank you?
Marco: Doesn’t care if he likes it or not
Sasha: Wow I wasn’t expecting that! hahahaha…ha…ha…
Connie: Uhm… okay…
Historia: o__O
Armin: Thanks! I’ll make sure to find good use for it!
Ymir: Lol this sucks, dude!
Levi: Not my thing really, but thanks anyway…
Hanji: Hahahaha this is bad, I love it!
Erwin: Interesting choice of gift!
Nanaba: Hm.. Thanks…
Mike: *nods but looks confused*

A Higher Education PT.1

Summary: Shawn and yourself are best friends at University. 

Word Count: 4,228

A/U: No idea what I’m doing here, but I’ll be doing this into three parts and they will be coming soon. I’ve also included some things that everyone has been demanding asking for. 

Your name: submit What is this?

“Hey excuse me?” I looked to my left to find a girl with long red hair and many freckles looking at me. When she saw she had my attention she continued on.

“I won’t be here next class would you mind if I got my notes from you?”

I put on a smile and nodded. “Yeah, sure.” I lied.

She proceeded to ask me for my email and I purposely put one letter wrong. If this first year thought she was going to get notes in a curved class she was an idiot. I had every intention to dominate everyone in here with their naivety alone. 

When I was turning back to my notepad on my small desktop I saw Shawn running through the door just as the professor was standing before it ready to start his lecture. Shawn gave a beautiful smile running his fingers through his thick hair that was loose and a looking a little damp. His cheeks were a little rosy and he looked out of breath, he must have been running outside, rather than through the pedways. He had been late for this class I concluded.  

He took a few steps into the classroom and began to walk into the middle of the lecture hall. He looked so nice.

Over the summer he had filled out so well. He looked nothing like he had when I met him last year during Move-In week. The Shawn I met last fall was a tall slender kid who wore plaid way too much. When we had seen one another in person two weeks ago at the end of August there was a considerably noticeable different in him. He had spent a little time in the sun and a lot of gym at the gym. And for the first time in our friendship, I had noticed how much I was attracted to him. I had always thought he was good looking but only in a cute way. Now he was growing and parts of him were swelling large and I couldn’t help but notice.

I waved to him as he looked at me and he smiled. As Shawn began to make his way up into the middle of seating I noticed a few girls turning and following him. I wasn’t the only one noticing him now.

As he made his way up the few rows I removed my backpack sitting in his saved seat. As he made his way through the row he awkwardly bumped into people who were sitting in our row. I smiled watching people give him dirty looks before he put out his hand apologizing. When he bumped into a guys desk almost causing the laptop sitting on it to fall I began to giggle. When Shawn wasn’t concentrating he was so lanky and had no coordination.

“Sorry. Sorry.” Shawn said putting the laptop centre before moving down more.

Shawn smiled at me when he reached the spot for him and turned quickly sitting down.

“Couldn’t have picked a spot on the edge could you?” He said playfully as he began to reach down into his backpack for his stuff.

“Wouldn’t have been an issue if you showed up on time.” I spat back.

Shawn opened his mouth to say more but quickly closed his pretty lips into a warm smile before turning to his back again. As his hands moved around inside the bag at his feet I noticed the rain drops on his black sweater, I also noticed how tightly the fabric was against his body, his shoulders looked huge and round under the black sweater.

A moment later I saw Shawn was still rummaging through his bag and he shook his head in frustration when the prof began to speak at the front of the room. As I was listening to the prof and getting the first few lines of notes on naive realism Shawn sat back in his seat frustrated.

I smiled and without a word reached for my extra pen at the top of my notebook and held it out without even looking away from my writing.

“Thank you.” He whispered before taking it from my fingers.

I grinned. It was pleasing to know him so well. First few weeks of classes Shawn was a mess. He was always too caught up with all the fun activities on campus and running into people to get his shit together for classes. By next week though when the seriousness set in he would be prepared and on time.

As the prof was speaking I turned and caught a glimpse of Shawn who was leant into his notebook, back of his brown hair turned to me and writing furiously. I smiled because he was kind of adorable but a moment later I shook my head and turned wide-eyed to the prof down at the bottom of the room.

I wasn’t supposed to look at Shawn like this so I tried to force my attention to the prof but it took a minute.

When it reached 1:48 pm rustling in the theatre began in a few seats but then steadily increased as everyone began to back up their things. Both Shawn and I tried to listen to the prof as he attempted to speak over the sound but soon the prof just gave up.

“That is all, see you Thursday.”

Suddenly there was an increase of noise from people talking, putting their things way or putting the desk into their seats and quickly running out the room.

I turned to Shawn calmly and put the lid on my pen with a smile. He smiled back and then asked for the first few lines of my notes he missed when he was looking for a pen at the start of the class. I turned my book to him and he began to write as I put away my stuff.

When Shawn was done most of the room had cleared out, this was good because we always waited in our seats for everyone to leave as we had no reason to rush out into the panic of people leaving.

“Thanks,” Shawn said handing me back the pen.

“Keep it,” I said with a smile. “you need it for the rest of your classes right?”

“But you hate when people take your pens. You pay a lot for them.”

Shawn was right, I had these particular pens I liked to write with that were slightly more expensive than the common pens so I was very particular about who I gave them to. But I hadn’t even Shawn one of my pens because I knew he was going to steal it like the thief he was.

“Ah, but I didn’t give you one of my pens.” I smiled.

He looked to the standard ball point pen and then mine.

“Did you give me a shitty pen?” He smiled almost offended.

“I did,” I giggled as I put the desktop back into the seat. “I knew you’d steal it.”

“Hey but that’s not true I just tried to give it back to you!” He said zipping up his bag.

I gave him a look as I stood up over him, however a moment later he stood up from the seat. My head slowly went from looking down to now looking up as he did.  He was so tall in comparison to me, and frankly everyone.

“Okay fine. You’re right. I would have stolen it.” He smiled as he put his back pack over his shoulders.

We both smiled a moment saying nothing before turning for the end of the aisle.

“I switched my class actually. So I have nothing for the rest of the day.” Shawn said as we began to walk down the steps.

“What? You did? The one with the funny little man?”

“Yeah. That one.” He smiled as he pulled as his backpack straps and swayed. “So now I only have one class today.”

I smiled and threw my head back. “Shawn, you’re never going to show up to this class now!”

He gave me a look almost pouting as we talked to the door. “That’s not true. You’re gonna be here so I’ll always be here!”

I raise my eyebrow because I didn’t believe him. “Or you’re just not going to come because you think you’re getting my notes.”

Shawn smiled and laughed offended. “I do not.”

“You’re not getting them by the way.” I smiled as we slipped out the door, but the truth was I probably would.

Shawn returned to my side as we entered the hall of the building.

“Doesn’t matter because I’ll have my own notes.”

I rolled my eyes at him before turning and smiling. When I looked at him as we walked he was already smiling, and I felt nice all over.

We turned away from one another and began to walk to the entrance of the pedway.

“It stopped raining,” Shawn said.

I looked to a window and saw that outside was nice and sunny.

“Aw,” I said disappointed because I loved the rain. All class I had been thinking about going to the library at my favourite spot by the window and getting a good start on my notes.

“Y/N you’re so fucking weird.”

Shawn was referring to my disappointment in no rain.

“Shut up,” I said as we began to walk through the glass pedway. Looking outside I could see how nice it was out.

“We should sit outside and study?”

“What?” Shawn said, looking up at me before looking through windows of the glass hall. I noticed how the sun was warming his brown eyes.

“No, I wanted to get food.” He countered

I rolled my eyes, with a smile. “We can get food and sit outside can’t we?”

Shawn grinned as we made our way into the next building and into the HUB so he could get food. We ran into people on our way, and I almost had to drag him along, he was Mr Popular.

When we got outside we entered onto the main quad. The air was fresh and moist from the rain but the sun was heating up the moisture making the air humid. Although I loved the rain itself, this was my second favourite thing about rain. Everything was green outside and felt healthy and with every breath of air through my nose I could smell the petrichor.

Making our way across the pavement I pointed to an open area in the grass that people were sitting in. Then we began to cut across the grass and I could feel the moisture of the grass dampening my Toms.

“Oh,” I said as the moisture from the grass dampened my bottom as I sat down in the spot we picked

Shawn smiled and put his bag with his food and his backpack on the ground. He then reached for the zipper of his sweater and removed it leaving him in a dark grey cotton shirt.  I watched and couldn’t help but see how much his chest protruded out of the simple shirt.

He laid out the sweater to protect himself from the dampness on the ground before sitting and opening his Subway.

“I want a bi-“ I began but Shawn with his mouth full of food was already handing me the sandwich. I grinned taking it and eyed it down for green peppers.

“Why do you always ask for a bite when you know I put green peppers on it?” He asked after swallowing.

“So I can annoy you,” I said with sass before taking a small bite and handing it back.

Shawn took it from my hand and I chewed as I sat better on the damp lawn.

We sat for a bit as I talked and Shawn ate. After we began to play light music as the sun came down on us and we chatted.

“Are you doing to the party on Saturday?” Shawn asked as he rolled up his garbage and placed it neatly inside the plastic bag.

“Which one?” I had not heard of any party.

“The one in Windsor House. In one of the quads?”

I gave a look and shook my head. There was no way I had been invited to this or heard of it.

“What time is it at?” I asked now interested.

“Not sure,” Shawn asked leaning back on his hand and letting the sun hit this long body. “We’re going to pre-drink at Ian’s and then go over.”

“Okay,” I said closing my eyes and letting the sun hit my eyelids making them go bright red. “I mean I’m sure I can manage to find an excuse not to come by Saturday.” I said playfully.

I felt Shawn shove at me lightly and I protested and swatted for him but missed.

“No, but really come,” Shawn said after a few seconds.

I looked to him squinting from the sun. “Okay.” I smiled. “I will.”

I looked away after a few seconds and reached into my bag pulling out sunglasses and putting them on.

“Oh shit, I wish I had thought to bring those,” Shawn said noticing my glasses.

I smiled and reached into my bad. “Shawn, you can’t even remember a pen yet alone sunglasses.”

As I finished my sentence I pulled out my extra pair and handed them to him. He smiled taking them into his fingers.

“You’ll just have to accept the style,” I said with a grin as he put on the lightly rimmed cat-eyed glasses with a pink reflection on the lens. He looked silly but good at the same time.

Shawn pulled up his phone resting on his large thigh and checked himself in the camera view.

“I look good.” He said before turning with a dazzling smile.

Yeah, he did. I thought without control.

I said nothing but only gave a smile and turned away. I didn’t like how I was reacting to Shawn anymore. It felt a little wrong and forbidden.

We sat a while longer in the sun as it dried up the grass, making the air hot and moist. 

“Y/n!” I heard some yell not too far away. I turned to the noise knowing the voice of my roommate.

“Brooke!” I called back as my head fell back in a smile. She along with a group made their way towards us. After a moment I realized it was our group of friends.

They waved and a few of the guys called Shawn’s name. Brooke came and almost fell into me with a smile.

“Well, Hello.” I smiled; she was adorable.

“Hi.” She grinned as she sat upright and next to me.

I watched Shawn greet the guys still sitting down, calling them dude and firmly gripping their hands in a shake. After a few more seconds everyone was sitting down and there was energy flowing rapidly from everyone as we chatted.

“Nice glasses Shawn,” Brooke said with a smirk.

Shawn gave a nice smile. “Thanks, borrowing them from a friend.”

Under the sunglasses, I could see he was giving me a wink and I only was able to smirk back.

Everyone sat a while longer talking and already complaining about classes. I told Shawn and Brooke about the red head from class. Shawn rolled his eyes and Brooke laughed.

“Brooke!” Ian asked over the group. “You coming to the party Saturday?”

She turned with her beautiful smile, her newly short hair make her look even cuter. “Are you asking us?” She asked in a flirtatious way as she leant into me.

Ian looked uncomfortable. Everyone knew that Ian had a thing for Brooke, even Brooke knew. We both had endless conversations about it but it just seemed she didn’t want to do anything about it.  

“I’m going.” I said into Brooke.

“You are?” She said slipping her arm away and looking at me hurt. “And you didn’t tell me?”

I smiled. “Shawn just told me.” I said looking to him still sitting next to me in the group and he nodded to confirm.

“Oh well, if you’re going so am I.” She said to me before smiling to Ian.

Ian grinned and Brooke did the same in return.

I couldn’t help but feel sorry for Ian. Although Brooke was my best friend I disliked how she refused to cut Ian loose. Often I wondered if he liked the attention which made me want to tell Ian myself, but I told myself over and over it wasn’t my place and to keep myself out of the drama.

We talked awhile longer before a girl with deep warm skin and jewel-like green eyes came and sat next to Brooke. They clearly knew one another and Brooke introduced her as Lindsey. As she was introduced to everyone I couldn’t help but notice how pretty she was.

As Brooke introduced Shawn I saw a little linger in Lindsey’s eyes and I suddenly felt upset. I didn’t like the way she looked at him, but I couldn’t show it as Brooke was saying my name next and I needed to force a smile.

We sat awhile longer and I disengaged from the conversation and watched this new girl. As I observed I noticed all the eyes on her, in particular, the boys. I didn’t blame them, but I also didn’t like it. As I watched them all consumed with her I kept watching for Shawn, wondering if he was watching her too. It was hard to tell but every time he did look to her I felt myself growing jealous.

“Hey, wanna kick around the ball,” Emir asked as he stood up with a few other guys.

“Sure,” Shawn said as he pulled up from the ground and stood up, his shadow blocking out the sun on me. He looked down at me in the pink sunglasses and I couldn’t help but smile.

I watched the four of them walk little ways away and began kicking around the ball. I watched Shawn knowing I was able to stare in their general direction under the protection of my sunglasses.

“Y/n.” I suddenly heard.

I turned to Brooke. “Yeah?”

She smiled and I noticed Ian and the new girl looking at me. It was clear they had been talking to me but I hadn’t been listening.

“Is Shawn single?” Brooke asked. Immediately I knew who they were asking for.

“Uh yeah. I think so?” I said slowly, flickering between all three of their faces as I did.

Brooke turned to Lindsey with a grin and Lindsey looked up with a smile to Shawn and the boys kicking the ball.

“Why?” I asked even though I knew the answer.

“Lindsey just wanted to know.” Brooke smiled casually.

My eyes narrowed under my glasses for a moment and I was thankful they were hidden. “Well yeah, from what I know he is still. He didn’t mention anything over the summer but who knows?”

Brooke and Lindsey looked to one another and I hated it. First, because I didn’t like Lindsey and how she was already after Shawn, and second because Brooke was encouraging it. Of course, Brooke had no idea what I was feeling, I hadn’t told her so I shouldn’t be upset with her but I still was.

“He’s definitely…changed over the summer.“ Brooke said and I watched the both of them look to who I could only assume was Shawn. I followed their gaze to find Shawn kicking the soccer ball right before laughing and shaking his head because his aim was off.

Quickly I looked back to the new girl and watched her. Both her and Brooke were talking about Shawn’s dramatic change over the summer and I felt incredibly uneasy listening to them go. So when there was a pause in their conversation I sat up and said I was joining the boys.

I left quickly and made my way across the now dry grass.

“Ohhhh.” One of the guys said as I got closer. “y/n, is joining us.”

I rolled my eyes playfully as they hollered at me and I entered into the loose circle they had created before they began to kick the ball around. We fooled around a while before Shawn slowly inched his way closer to me.

“Hi.” He said when he was only a foot away.

“Hi.” I smiled back as the ball was kicked to me and I caught it with my foot effortlessly.

I kicked the ball away and it returned a few more times between myself and Shawn as we chatted.

“What do we think of the new girl?” He asked after while of silence.

I looked up only for a moment before I saw the ball being kicked towards me.

“Ugh- I don’t know,” I said reaching for the ball with my foot. “Why?”

“Just wondering what our stance is on her.”

I gave him a relaxed look. “Well, you can have a different stance on her than me, Shawn.”

He smiled. “I know.”

There was a pause in our conversation and someone kicked the ball to Shawn. He controlled it before kicking it hard and missing his target again, he called sorry before turning back to me. I knew he wanted to talk about his new girl, but I was hesitant because I had a feeling I wasn’t going to like what he had to say.

“Do you have a stance on her?” I reluctantly asked.

He paused a moment. “Not sure yet.”

“Well, she is pretty?”

Immediately I regretted my words. If I was trying to discourage sparking something between the two I was doing a terrible job.

Shawn turned over his shoulder and looked to them. “Yeah, she is.”

My heart hurt with jealousy. I was about to ask more questions but I forced myself not too. Last year I would have encouraged him, tell him to talk to her, ask for her number. I’d do anything to be a good friend, and I still had the urge to do so but I also couldn’t bear it now. I didn’t want to encourage it anymore because it actually hurt.

As I stood next to Shawn waiting for the ball I went into my own small world. How were my feelings developing so fast? Why after a whole year was I getting territorial over Shawn within a matter of weeks? He was my friend and suddenly I wanted him for myself. I wondered if it was because of his physical change over the summer, and began to think I was incredibility shallow. Maybe I was? Maybe all I deserved was Shawn’s friendship because I had never been able to see more when he was just the tall ass boy from last year?

We played out on the lawn a while longer as the nice mid-September air came down on my back and shoulders. Although my internal turmoil had nagged at me for a while the longer we stood around kicking the ball with everyone I slowly began to forget my worries and just enjoy the moment. Soon the ground would be covered in snow and the sun would be constantly hidden. I needed to enjoy this before it was gone.

We spend the next while running around laughing and poking fun at one another. Hanging with the guys was always a wild ride that I was down for.

“It’s three. Do you want to go study?” Shawn said looking at his watch.

I pulled the phone from my back pocket and checked the time as well. Looking up I smiled. “I guess we never did actually get to studying did we?”

Shawn smiled. “Did you really think we would?”

My smile only grew larger and I shook my head in a playful ‘No’.

We returned to our bags and picked them up.

“Where you both off too?” Ian asked.

“Library,” Shawn answered for the both of us.

Brooke grinned. “Already? It’s only the second week of school.”

We both didn’t say anything but simply shrugged. I saw Lindsey was looking up at us, and she wasn’t hiding how she was looking at Shawn more than myself.

“See you at home?” I said to Brooke.

She smiled and nodded before we began to walk away.

“See you later dude,” Shawn said as his large hand wrapped around Ian’s head and messed up his smooth hair.

“Fuck you.” Ian said reaching up to fix it.

Both Shawn and I chuckled before turning to one another and looking forward.

“Want to see if we can get our spot?” Shawn asked as our feet hit the pavement.

Shawn was referring to a small nook on the fourth floor of the library that not too many people knew of. It had a nice large place for three people to study and a large window with a great view and a lot of good lighting. And the best part was it overlooked the Otonabee River. It was more my spot for studying but Shawn regularly joined me there.

I turned and Shawn was looking at me with the pink sunglasses still on. Overly pleased at how he was now calling it ‘our spot’ I let a smile grow on my face before answering.

“Fuck yeah I do.”

When bae finds out u have a tumblr and asks to see it ……but it’s full of kpop smut

Originally posted by no-ones-fantasy