this is what i do when i have work to put off

Well, this happened!

I had most definitely not expecting this blog to be this popular when I started out on it back in December, never mind in this quick of a time (and with a long downtime between).

I’m truly humbled that so many of you consider my work worth watching.

I want to give something back to you, as you have made my time here wonderful. Although, I cannot give away physical in nature at this point in time…

I can put what skills I do have to use.

Sometime tomorrow evening, Wednesday March 29th, I will be posting up details on an art-piece giveaway to commemorate reaching this milestone; I need some time to figure out what is feasible for me to achieve. Please, stay tuned for more information.

And, truly, thank you all. You make it so very much worth the effort.

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I usually don’t like to do this, giving attention to haters who absolutely don’t deserve it, but I have to get this off my chest. I see really rude people trying to bring down my friends who don’t deserve this kind of treatment at all. I see them hiding behind a computer, writing disgusting, mean comments on ANON
First of all, why would you spread hate and bad vibes when you could very well be spreading love and just good vibes? 
No one is perfect, NO ONE. We all make mistakes, we all have different things we have to deal with and I’m pretty sure we don’t come on Tumblr to see hateful comments about us, about our work, in which by the way we DO PUT IN A LOT OF EFFORT AND TIME.
What I learned is that no matter how good or kind you are, there will still be people who find it annoying. Even kindness can be annoying to some. If you are confident then some say that you’re full of yourself, if you are sociable they say you’re seeking for attention. This is society.

I think it’s really simple. If you don’t like something on my or my friends’ blogs then just block us, don’t visit our blogs, IGNORE US. I’m pretty sure most of these haters never ever talked to us to know what kind of people we truly are, what is OUR story, what kind of things we are dealing with, so they have no right to judge us in any way. You are frustrated? There are better ways to deal with it than coming on the internet and spreading hate. This just proves your immaturity and pure meanness.
Going on anon and sending a hateful comment is time consuming for you. Why don’t you just keep that nasty comment you’re going to send to someone to yourself? And just move on with your day. And not ruining others with your frustration. 
Do you think it’s cool to be mean to others? Nope it’s not. Does the hateful comments say something bad about us or you? I’m pretty sure the answer is you. It says all about you: You have no life so you’d rather bring other people down so you could be more content with your pitiful life. Am I right? YES I AM.

But how about you all come off of anon and write the same hateful messages? But this time we would know who wrote them. Would you dare doing that? Would you take responsibility for your choice of words? Because words can hurt just as much as actions do (or even more). 

I don’t want to see my friends or anyone else being targeted by these lifeless people who try to bring them down with hateful comments. 

Criticism is alright. But only if it’s constructive. Do you have suggestions on how to improve some stuff? Sure go ahead, let us know. BUT CAREFUL IN WHAT MANNER. What your choice of words is, what your “tone” is.

We are our own worst critics. We can be hard on ourselves most of the time. And we all know that we could get hundreds or thousands of compliments and still one or two hateful comments would make us feel bad. This is human nature. But please be considerate and think twice before writing something that you know would hurt that person.

Ask yourself these questions:

“Do I make that person feel bad if I comment this?”

“Do I feel happier if I make that mean comment?”

“Would I be okay with it if others would make that same comment on me?”

Here’s a golden rule for y’all struggling with spreading hate:

“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you”

p.s: did I make grammar mistakes? probably. Does it bother you? maybe yes, maybe not. If yes, was that the purpose of my post? NO. So if you still don’t see the point of what I’m saying then read it as many times as you need to understand what the problem with people like you is.
I told the broker

She called because owner’s broker had a question about my credit report. (No matter how much work I do on my credit score now, the years of not paying bills will still take a while to come off report.) I decided to just tell her about everything. She’s nice and I don’t want to put her in a situation where she’s talking to a colleague and doesn’t have all the information. I started out very awkwardly then I told her about the criminal record, which was caused by drugs, and that it was during those years that I ignored my student loans. She was very kind and very compassionate. She said she knows what it’s like for your child to change your life and change who you are. We will try for this house, but this owner is a little strict and if it doesn’t work out onto the next one. I’m glad I was honest with her. When I was strung out I told lies every minute of every day and now I just don’t have the stomach for it.


I’m tired of getting these stupid offers to work on people’s “passion projects” for free, usually with the promise of compensation when/if the project takes off. Guess what? I don’t care that you’re passionate about it, I care if you’re competent. When you knock on my door asking for free work, its a clear sign that you aren’t. You might have hopes that your project hits it big and that you’ll eventually get rich off of it, but if you REALLY believed in it, I feel like you’d be more willing to put your own livelihood on the line instead of asking an artist to do it for you. If I do a bunch of free work hoping it’ll pay off, I’m not doing other work that could actually feed me and pay my bills. And what happens when the project doesn’t get funded or some important factor blows up or everyone decides to quit out early? I get screwed. So, no. I don’t want to work on your passion project. Not unless I get paid up front.

ON/OFF - a yamatsukki fanmix
((art by me))

01. IDFC - Blackbear “Cause I have hella feelings for you, I act like I don’t fucking care,”
02. Daddy issues - The Neighbourhood  / “You ask me what I’m thinking about I’ll tell you that I’m thinking about”
03. Butterfly culture - Benjamin Francis Leftwich / “You put out to put up, Even while your widening smile”
04. Watch me Rise - MIkky Ekko /“I’m still standin’, I’m still climbin' Even when the best are fallin’, the best are fallin'” 
05. Shine - Years & Years  / “Don’t leave me behind; can you see me? I’m shining” 
06. I Cant love you - Adore Delano / ”A shooting star, lighting up the darkness” …“ I love the way you touch my lips You live to kiss The freckles on my shoulder So I can pull you closer, yeah”
07. I needed you - Blackbear“You know this was never really about us And everything was always ‘bout you” 
08. The way it was - The Killers / “If I go on With you by my side Can it beThe way it was When we met” 

ON/OFF relationship: They may wish to keep an ongoing formal relationship, but have difficulty doing so because of continuous conflicts between themselves. 

anonymous asked:

Any opinions on Dex/Nursey as parents?

OOF. So I’m actually halfway into the first chapter of a secretdad!Nursey fic so I have a lot of dad!Nursey thoughts, but I actually had to put some thought into dad!Dex opinions, and then a good amount of thought into the combination of Dex/Nursey as parents! That said, do I have opinions on Dex/Nursey as parents? 


  • So first off: the way these boys were brought up has a Big Impact on how they are as parents.
    • Nursey was raised by two moms who loved him to pieces and let him be soft and feminine when he wanted to be and were hugely affectionate when they were there, but who also traveled a lot for work. Dex was raised by parents who also worked a lot, but who were almost always stressed about money–and he felt that stress really young and learned to internalize it. They both love their parents, but they also both picked up a lot from their parents–both “what to do” and “what not to do”.
  • That said:

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Things about prayer that I should have learnt a long time ago: 

1. God doesn’t need your prayers. The prayers are for you. Why? Because praying five times a day isn’t merely a pointless ritual; it establishes a routine, a sort of rhythm to your life. It is the one part of your to-do list that you get to check off, even if the rest of your work is unfinished. 

2. Don’t expect some sort of enlightening experience when you pray after a long time. I think that’s what I found most disheartening about prayer, that I didn’t feel a ray of light enter my heart, that I didn’t feel cleansed when I prayed after a long time. Prayer does feel nice, but the “cleansing” the “enlightening” comes after a while and it comes from within. It comes with the stuff you do along with prayer. It comes from the effort you put in to becoming a good person and into becoming conscious of God. 

3. Beating yourself up about missing prayer disheartens you more. Beating yourself up in general is disheartening. Take it easy on yourself. 

4. You’ll never expect it, but one day you’ll be crying in sujood and it isn’t because you’re weak it’s because you’re taking a step towards being stronger. Don’t be afraid to cry in prayer. It’s nice to feel yourself humbled towards God. You don’t have to cry in front of anyone else, but you can sob your heart out in front of God and that’s perfectly okay. 

5. That discomfort you feel about having missed a prayer, is something that you should address. Don’t brush it off. If you brush it off once, you’ll do it again. Go pray. It really is good for you. 

anonymous asked:

I really want to come out as nonbinary, but I feel like I'll never have the courage. I've been putting it off for years. I'm sick of hiding my identity from everyone, but the idea of telling even close friends is terrifying. what if they don't understand? what if they're dismissive? i just really don't know how to do this. do you have any advice?

My advice is this: WAIT.
I know, I’m supposed to say Bust that closet door open, be bold, tell the world!
But that doesn’t work for everybody. If you’re terrified, just wait. It’s ok to wait.

What you’re waiting for, is the moment when being closeted and pretending feels LESS SAFE than anything that could happen when you tell people. 💛💛💛💛

I never could understand why there are people out there that just want to tear someone else down. I have always believed, even when doing art professionally that it should be fun or to learn. What many people don’t see behind the polish and finish of a piece of work is the many hours, years honing their skills to get to this point. Art is never about just the vanity of showing off, it’s sharing what we’ve learned and to express the story we want to tell without the words that are hard to find. All artists put in this time and effort for the love of the craft and wish to share it in hopes that others might find some joy in it.

No one should ever fault you for work that you love doing, fanart or not. creativity is not filled out by a checklist of what others find acceptable. You do cause you enjoy, you create cause it gives you a sense of accomplishment. And NEVER tell someone they shouldn’t create.


hello everyone! a question that I get a lot is how to build and keep up with good study habits. here are a few things i’ve learned over the years that may help you create your own positive habits!

what are good study habits?

when you look at people that you think have it all together, it’s probably because they have some combination of the following habits:

start early

starting your work early – and not putting it off until the day before – means that you have more time to do the project and can then do it better, are more relaxed, and have more time to do other (more fun!) things.

do a little everyday

instead of a lot all at once. studies show that you gain knowledge best over time, and not by cramming all the info the night before. plus, by doing work for a certain amount of time it becomes a habit, instead of an afterthought.

stay on schedule

if you don’t already have a planner that you keep up with, go get one. right now. i’ll wait. but forreal – having a plan and sticking to it is essential to having a successful study session, and making the grades you want. make a habit of updating your planner with assignments and deadline, as well as times you need to study, as they come up and check it every morning to see what’s on tap for the day.

don’t overwork yourself

the fastest way to get burnt out is doing too much too soon. give yourself breaks to relax. for me, this means meals, anytime after 7, and sundays are study free zones – find your balance between productivity and downtime.

these are just a few examples of good habits that can lead to good grades, but play around and find a way to make your habits work for you. 

how to form habits

make a plan

decide what habits you want to form, and figure out how to make it happen. 

get started!

the best time to start a new habit is right now. 

stick to it.

this means make it something you enjoy somehow. do you like to draw? then try bullet journaling to make keeping a planner fun. take your daily study sessions to your favorite coffee shop so you look forward to it everyday. set a timer if you need to, but whatever it takes make sure you don’t skip a day.

never underestimate the power of a simple habit! making your bed can make your day, so get to it and go build a life you love!

What to do if you have a binding injury

1. Take the binder off. I don’t care how dysphoric you are, I don’t care how bad you feel, I don’t care who is around. DO NOT PUT IT BACK ON. 

2. Go to the doctor. Or to a nurse. When I broke my ribs, I went to the nurse at my school because that was free and that worked fine.

3. Accept that there isn’t anything you can do to heal faster. The most likely thing that doc is going to tell you is that you have some bruised ribs, and you need to let them heal. Sometimes broken ribs can break lungs, which is potentially fatal, so no matter what, you still need to do step two, but that’s probably not going to be the case. 

4. Treat yo’self. Get some icecream, and settle down with your favorite tv show. This is gonna be rough on your mental health. 

5. Tell people that you are injured (make up a bull-riding/bungee-jumping story if you don’t wanna tell em why). This will garner you some sympathy points, and people will go easier on you. Maybe your boss will let you wear a hoodie to work.

6. Don’t reflect too hard on it. The first thing you are going to think is not “oh I have an injury so I better take care of myself” it’s going to be “this is the physical manifestation of my dysphoria and why does being trans always ruin my life”. Try to refrain from that particular thought. You have an injury. Treat it like any other injury or illness you could get. 


What not to do. 

1. Put that damn binder back on. Don’t. I see you tempted. Don’t. 


3. You could end up with a warped ribcage if you don’t allow yourself to heal. Don’t put it back on. 

4. Really. Don’t.  

Kyoutani having a hard time showing affection in the beginning of his relationship with Yahaba. 

  • Kyoutani walking close enough that he can pass off the occasional brushes of their shoulders as an accident. 
  • Kyoutani holding onto Yahaba’s shoulder as he balances on one foot to put on his sneakers. 
  • Learning to not reflexively pull away at Yahaba’s more forward touches. 
  • Interlocking pinky fingers while they sit together, because Kyoutani doesn’t have the heart to weave his fingers between Yahaba’s in public. 
  • Yahaba telling Kyoutani ‘its okay’ when Kyoutani pulls his hand away from Yahaba’s face suddenly. 
  • Kyoutani leaning his head against Yahaba’s back after a hard day of classes and practice. 
  • The millisecond of panic when Yahaba nuzzles into Kyoutani’s shoulder and oh my god, what do I do??
  • Kyoutani hating himself after accidentally bruising Yahaba’s waist when they were getting a little heated. 
  • Yahaba covering Kyoutani in kisses because he shouldn’t worry about such things. 
  • Kyoutani waking up from a nightmare and reaching out to touch Yahaba. To make sure he is still there, and twining their fingers together gently. 
  • Kyoutani learning little by little that touch isn’t always a bad thing. 

anonymous asked:

Hi. I more or less have a pretty proportionate interest in the game industry and was wondering. If I cannot draw, program, or really anything except have the ideas and write what would I be able to do? I've seen Hideo Kojima and it seems like he directs and writes so would I be able to do that? More or Less similar to Hideo? Minus all the fame of course.

No. You would not be able to do that. Hideo Kojima has been working on video games for over 30 years. He did not start off by directing and writing games, or giving orders, or doing what he wants. He started as a designer and planner working on games for the MSX system, an 8-bit home computer system, and has steadily worked, delivered, and learned over three decades. When you look at Kojima, you see this dude:

What you’re seeing when you look at Kojima is the final mega-evolution. He’s been put through the ringer, worked his ass off, learned a lot, and been in the right place at the right time. Most developers don’t get the opportunity to head their own studios and call the shots even after 30 years. Kojima started working on games like Penguin Adventure and its sequel Antarctic Adventure for the MSX, and has shipped more than 50 titles since. When Kojima writes stories and makes decisions, he’s basing them on many years of experience of actually making games. He understands what it is like to work with engineering, and what sort of constraints one must adhere to when designing systems or content.

This is how he started. Before all of the evolutions, skills, levels, and power, he started out of school with ambition and ideas and worked for decades to get to where he is today. This is you right now. You don’t know what it takes to engineer a game. You don’t know what it takes to produce art assets for a game. You don’t know how hard it can be to design a level, or engaging game systems, or to keep a team tasked out and working towards shipping a project. You don’t have the benefit of years of experience. There’s no reason that anyone would have to listen to you, especially when everyone else you’d be working with on the team would all have the very experience in making games that you lack.

If you want to work on games, you need to bring some kind of tangible contribution to the team. Ideas are not enough - literally everyone, from the studio executive all the way down to the freshly hired QA tester, has game ideas. In order to convince others that your ideas are worth the effort of implementation, you need to be able to do something to make those ideas actually come to life. Just because you can’t do any of those things now doesn’t mean that you can’t work on games. But the important thing to realize is that the operative word is working. Game development requires a lot of hard work, and simply making up ideas for other people to implement won’t cut it. If you want to work, then learn to code, learn to art, learn to schedule, or learn to use some editors and start creating content. Download a toolset or write some mods. Maybe you could try retexturing a model, or animating something new. There are always openings for skilled developers, but there’s no job openings in the industry for “idea men” unless you’ve got thirty years of development experience shipping world-renowned AAA titles. 

Okay, so I wonder if other people thought this too or if my brain just went off the rails a bit here.

It starts here, really, when Jason says to Bernie: “I also thought she loved you but obviously she doesn’t. I don’t understand relationships. Do you?”

And then this moment, when Jason says: “One thing I don’t understand, why did you get dressed up and put on lots and lots of make-up?”

And finally, when Jason locks them in the office and says: “Look what we found. I understand now, Auntie Serena. I TOTALLY understand.”

I just can’t help but wonder whether he saw the wrapped bottle and thought: “Aha! That’s what Auntie Serena did too! She didn’t buy a present, she wrapped herself as a present for Bernie. She didn’t forget about Bernie, she does love her.”

That’s probably not what was intended, right? I’m sorry if it’s just my weird brain but the thought tickled me.

Hello my loves! so I’ve been asked a few times how to stay productive when you don’t have deadlines or even when attending summer school, so I’ve thought of all the things that worked for me and could help you! ♥

Keep a Regular Schedule: 
This will help you have a fixed time when to study. Put aside time that works for you (morning or afternoon) to do your homework, read, etc. 

Get things done:
If you are already done with homework in the morning, you’ll be able to hang out with friends, go to the pool, mall or wherever!

Stay flexible:
This might not work for everybody, but I’ve noticed that being able to hold off or postpone going out (or maybe even your study time) can help you feel in control and avoid the sensation of being grounded because of schoolwork.

Keep goals:
I think it’s very good to have tangible goals like read 30 minutes, study for 1hr each day or finish the paper by weekend. This is because no matter what the outcome is, you focus on your effort and discipline.

Reward Yourself:
Give yourself the chance to relax and allow some time for fun activities. If you stick to your schedule for a week, treat yourself to an ice cream or spa day or whatever you want!

Talk to your classmates:  The students in your class have the same schedule as you do, so you can talk to them about any difficulties in class. It’s also a good idea to have study sessions or just hang out together because of your similar schedules.

Remember your reasons:
Why are you doing this? Why are you in summer classes? It may be because you want to graduate early, need to catch up on credits, or you need some extra knowledge. whatever it is, it’ll help you so much just thinking about that.

Don’t be too hard on yourself:
Be smart when planning your summer courses. Know yourself and your limits because what  you thought would be a great idea could make you ill or tired beyond what you can handle.

I hope this helps you, and remember to know your goals but also have time to relax. You’ll see it’ll be worth it in the end. If you have any questions, don’t hesitate on messaging me. 

Love, Yumi 🌷

anonymous asked:

What are your preferred pronouns, for those like me who for some reason assumed 'he'?

Take your pick! I am just a chick who likes to draw, write, and do all sorts of creative stuff. So call me whatever, just don’t call me late for lunch.

For me, the ultimate compliment is when people don’t actually know off the bat whether I’m a dude or a chick. I absolutely don’t mind disclosing my female status when asked, but seeing as it doesn’t really have any bearing on my creative works, I don’t see the need to bring it up that often.

I’d much rather be known as a “great writer” or “cool artist” than “great girl writer” or “cool lady artist”. Even better, I’d just like to be known as a rad human being. So when people don’t actually know, don’t really care, and are just assuming based off of whatever they want to assume about me from my works alone, I absolutely love it! 

With the massive variety of stuff I love to do, life’s too short to worry about what people call me:

You’ll know you picked the right person to marry when you have this conversation:
  • you: Honey!
  • Husband/wife: What?
  • Y: Where's the folder with my work project?
  • H/W: What? You want to work now? Come on, it's late.
  • Y: Where? Is? My? folder?!
  • H/W: I dunno, I put it away!
  • Y: Where?
  • H/W: On your desk I think
  • Y: I need it!
  • H/W: [finally getting the reference] Oooohh...
  • H/W: Uh-uh! Don't you think about running off doing no daring-do. We've been planning this dinner for two months!
  • Y: The public is in danger!
  • H/W: My evening's in danger!
  • Y: You tell me where my folder is! We are talking about the greater good!
  • H/W: 'Greater good?' I am your husband/wife! I'm the greatest good you are ever gonna get!
Last Day Drama

Its my last day of work before moving out of state.

My manager had just brewed a pot of decaf (which we normally dont have at this point in the day), like JUST brewed, barely not boiling, when a car comes through the drive through and orders some food and a decaf.

I ring up the customer, give her her food, and go to hand her her cup. Instead of just handing it out, my hand clips the edge of the window, and the lid pops off, and (barely not boiling) decaf spills all over my left hand.

(There’s a time skip that I dont really remember, my manager told me about it later) Apparently I screamed and she ran over and saw me crying and holding my hand.

(Back to what I do remember) She runs to grab some mustard to put on my hand (???) and as shes going to get it, I turn and notice a guy standing at the counter. Im still sobbing, but I don’t know what else to do, so I take his order.

This guy, this guy right here, did not remotely acknowledge me, outside of me asking what he wanted. No are you okay. No nothing.

Manager finds the mustard, and tells me to smear it on the burns (again, ???) which I start doing and she sees the guy and finishes ringing him up.

One of the cooks sees me crying through the window, somehow understands my explanation even though I’m still crying, and tells me to go back into the kitchen while she gets the first aid kit. She treats the burn with burn spray, and im mostly calm at this point aside from the occasional sniffle. I go back to work and joke about it cause I hate when people worry about me.

My manager is filling out an incident report and I (one handed because duh) take out the same guy from earliers food. He STIILL doesn’t acknowledge me.

Anyways, that was my day.

Tldr: burn myself really bad on my last day, still have to take some jerkwads order

anonymous asked:

*curtsies* Dear Duke, So I just saw your response to a question and the anon mentioned that you wrote 7 books before one was published. I really want to write a book (always have) but I can't brainstorm any ideas that aren't knockoffs of anything I've already read. How do you come up with ideas for stories. From, Desperately Seeking Ideas

*Curtsies* Story ideas don’t come from any one place. My debut novel was the bizarre brainchild of my love of Shakespeare and working on my senior honors thesis in undergrad. Another was born out of my going “What if you took this old myth and put it in this modern genre?” The one I’m currently working on started with my anachronistic love of 1970s rock bands and eight months later has evolved into this weird music/road trip/Great Middle American Meltdown novel. Point is, there is no magical idea cabinet where writers go to take inspiration down off the shelf when they need it. However, I think there are two things you can do to keep the wheels greased, as it were: 

  1. Engage with other types of art and activity. You’ll notice that everything I mentioned above was kind of spawned by my interest in other forms of art: theatre, music, what have you. Now, that’s not always the case (I have a book that started as a stress dream I had about scorpions, that’s literally all it takes sometimes), but I find that when I’m struggling with what to write next, whether I’m stuck in the middle of a story or at a loss for ideas at all, artistic stimulation really helps. You never know what’s going to get the creative gears turning, so instead of just tapping a pencil on a blank page, go out and do stuff. Go to a ballet, a museum, a concert, a movie, a football game, whatever. Something might get the juices flowing. 
  2. Write anyway. Even if you don’t have a fully-formed novel idea waiting in the wings, that doesn’t mean you can’t play with prose. Find writing prompts online. Write character sketches and short stories and poems if that’s what you like. No minute spent writing is wasted, because every minute spent writing makes you a better writer, even if what you’re writing will never see the light of day. That’s fine. In fact, that’s necessary. Writers have to practice out of sight the way every other artist does, so don’t take that away from yourself. Keep working, even if you’re just writing descriptions of people or places that you’re never going to actually use. It’s good artistic exercise and guess what? Odds that you’ll actually fall in love with one of those sketch characters or skeleton outlines are pretty good. Make your brain work. Sooner or later it’ll cough up something good. 

So those are my two big helpful hints for when you’re suffering an idea block. But before I finish this up I have two more important things to say:

  1. You can’t rush inspiration. Art is not like building an IKEA bookcase, where you take it out of the box and follow the instructions and a little while later, bam, there it is. It’s much more complicated than that, and there are no universal instructions. If you don’t have what you feel like is the right idea for a novel, wait. Because:
  2. You shouldn’t write a novel just to write a novel. Writing a novel is an absolutely huge undertaking, if you’re going to do it right. It will take literally (literally) years of your life, and chances are the first three to five novels you write will end up being drawer novels nobody ever sees because you’re still learning and they’re not that good. That’s fine. That’s necessary. That’s how you finally write a six or seventh novel that is worth a reader’s time. But it’s an enormous commitment, and it’s not something you should do unless the idea is so compelling that you feel like you have to write this novel. Because if you start writing a novel just because you like the idea of writing a novel and the story is really just something you threw together and don’t care very much about, it’s kind of doomed from the start and you’re just going to end up wasting your own time. So wait. Keep playing with words and engaging with other forms of art and wait for that inspiration you can’t rush. You will thank yourself down the line. 

Let me know if this doesn’t help. (And do browse through the writing advice and writer’s block tags, because there’s a lot of this kind of stuff there already.)

anonymous asked:

Well im not like every pianist who start when they were 5 because i started to play when i was 14 and now im 15, i went to learning how to read to playing beethoven pathetique sonata (in four months tho)

tbh the tone of this ask rubs me the wrong way a bit?? like it comes off a bit as the ubiquitous “oh i’m not like other girls, i’m better” thing (you know what i’m talking about). i also feel like this is a bit of a combination of showing off, and putting down those of us who have worked hard over long periods of time to get to where we are now.

i’m not saying that your achievements aren’t commendable. i certainly wasn’t ready to play beethoven’s sonata op.13 when i’d been playing for four months - not quite even when i’d been playing for four years - and i’m not even sure that i could learn the entire thing now within four months. i do, however, ask that you consider that playing high level rep might not be an accurate sign of good, solid technique. i’ve met many people who, for various reasons, were rushed through the basics in order to be made ~prodigies~ and to play hella advanced stuff. in reality, though, they were rushed through almost everything and their technique is flimsy at best, but they’re hailed as prodigies. that may be good at the time, but solid basics and good technique will carry you further than talent and early knowledge of advanced repertoire ever will.

most adjudicators/judges that i’ve come across will appreciate playing easier stuff well than struggling with difficult stuff. one of the first things you lose when you play repertoire that’s too much of a challenge is musicality, and what does music like beethoven’s sonatas depend on, if it doesn’t depend on expression and musicality?

that being said, if you indeed can play that sonata well, and have started from scratch and done that well in four months, then you deserve to be applauded. just try not to rub it in other people’s faces like that, okay? forgive me for the doubt, though, as i’ve encountered lots of people who just say that they can play stuff just to show off but really can barely play it.

i’m sorry if i’m interpreting this ask wrong and coming off as an asshole but i have a lot of emotions on this matter bc of stuff that i’ve encountered in the past regarding my (and other people’s) piano abilities.