this is what i do when i exceed my stress limit

Character study: Kageyama Ritsu

I´ve heard many of my friends say that they find it difficult to understand Ritsu’s actions in Mob Psycho 100 anime. I agree that he is a controversial character with complex feelings but as I think I can relate to him a lot, I figured I’d do a character study on him. Enjoy and feel free to come to talk to me about our boys!

“To me, my brother is the standard of the world.”

This is the basis of Ritsu´s worldview. He looks up to Mob in everything and tries his best to copy him. He’s quiet and modest like Mob and doesn’t want to stand out in any way. But one thing he lacks that Mob has: psychic powers.

Now, just to make it clear: Ritsu is not obsessed, edgy, emo or mean. He is caring, but he is also lonely and deeply hurt. This is my main view on him.

Ritsu has high standards for a normal person with no chances to attain physic powers. He’s also very hard on himself. He’s not proud of himself even when he’s so hard-working and great at school, just because he lacks one thing he thinks is fundamental. I think that actually, Ritsu has very low self-esteem. It shows when he can’t forgive himself for that one imperfection and he isn’t content with just being himself. So when everyone around him showers him with praise of how perfect and good he is, it just fuels his self-hatred because “no, you’ve got it all wrong; I’m far from being even decent.”

Then the student council’s vice president Tokugawa tells him in traffic lights “don’t try to act like your brother.” I could interpret the expression on Ritsu’s face only as one of dread. He probably felt like he had got caught: his demand of perfection for himself also includes that no one could know about his struggles.

The other thing besides his high demands towards himself that defines Ritsu is his loneliness. It’s shown that despite his popularity at school, he has no close friends. His relationship with Mob is also shaped by Ritsu’s fears and self-esteem issues and is far from being truthful. Sadly, Mob, who is unable to read people properly, have no idea what’s going on with his brother until episode 8.

Ritsu still loves his brother. Ritsu doesn’t care about himself but he does care about Mob and he uses a lot of his energy making sure Mob is happy. It’s easier to focus your love on somebody else when you don’t love yourself. Ritsu doesn’t give it at all to himself so his all is directed to Mob which makes it sometimes a little extreme. For example, Ritsu starts The Big Cleanup on accident when he wanted to make the school a better place for Mob.

Ritsu claims that he doesn’t love his brother in order to cover up his lack of self-esteem. He tells himself that he’s making sure that Mob is happy because "he fears what would happen if he would upset Mob in any way.” He goes so far as to tell Mob that “the buddy-buddy brothers act ends now.” But Mob is right when he answers “I can tell. That’s a lie”, because it truly is a lie, which is revealed at a moment later when Ritsu rushes to stop Koyama from hurting Mob. He´s in tears and that´s not a face of someone who doesn´t care at all.

Ritsu is not a bad person. Ritsu step up for the other Awakening Lab kids in order to save them and got himself beaten. Maybe it was his “duty” because he is the only one in that group with psychic powers suited for fighting, but I think otherwise. I’m actually very concerned of how little he values himself.

The controversy with Mob and the fight with Koyama after that changed Ritsu a lot. He snapped out of his own, corrupt mindset and become a person he truly is. In episode 9 he is way more friendly with the Awakening Lab kids, complimenting them and cooperating with them.

So what explains Ritsu´s actions towards Onigawara and his earlier violence? I could say that before attaining his powers, his struggling has come near a breaking point. During that time Ritsu’s pain exceeds his kindness. He feels alone and he’s hurt and to be honest I’m not surprised when he takes it out on others when giving the chance. He doesn’t try to stop Kamuro from blackmailing people because Ritsu is so tired of his own suffering but what he actually ends up doing by that is to hurt himself more. It’s like he punishes himself of not being perfect in his own standards by baring “the truth” to others, too. Which means rebelling against the “perfect boy” he’s been labelled with. He’s tired of hiding his true feelings so he takes it out finally. And what comes out is violence because that is what he feels inside: pain. It feels good in a way, to be finally free, so he continues. No one cares about him so he’s not going to care about his victims, either. “I’ve lost my limits. I have obtained a loss”, means just that.

But the good person Ritsu is always there, too. Ritsu feels good using violence but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t feel guilty, too. Ritsu’s powers awaken when he had passed the breaking point in his mental stress (just like Claw tried to forcefully awaken psychic powers in people using extreme mental and physical stress, i.e. pain). After that, his corruption and guilt only fuels them. One would have thought Ritsu’s issues would have been solved when he´d attain psychic powers, but that’s not true. In this point he is in so deep he’s unable to feel good even when his lifelong dream has come true. In his mind he is still far from being decent because of what he had done. Actually he doesn’t want to be this kind of person who hurts others. So he doesn’t continue when Kamuro breaks down.

By the way, I´m not a fan of “Ritsu hates Reigen” belief. He’s cold towards the man, yes, but that´s because he suspects that Reigen is only using Mob. He’s cold towards Mezato, too, when she wants to write an article about Mob. There is nothing hostile behind it, only suspiciousness.

Ritsu is a loving little brother and I think he would make a very loyal and good friend. A friend is what he needs the most, after all. (That’s why I’m very excited about Shou!) Plus I´m loving the fact that his hobby is writing diary byeee

Lastly, we need to remember that Ritsu is only 13. He’s just a kid and he’s bound to make mistakes while figuring out how the world works. He’s at the age where he’s starting to form a personality so of course it’s still fluid and incomplete. His journey to become himself is only at the beginning.

Autism Vs Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder: Is This ASD or PTSD ?

@askaboutautism and @undiagnosedautismfeels have gotten quite a few questions regarding autism and PTSD, specifically ones asking about the differences and how to tell if you’re autistic if you’ve also got PTSD. I had troubling finding resources that clearly laid out how the two could look like each other, and also what the differences were when I was first researching autism. It make figuring things out rather difficult. I also got a positive response when asking if anyone would be interested in a post like this, so as an autistic with PTSD, I’ve written up this post.

This post is written with PTSD caused by chronic or long-term trauma (often called Complex or C-PTSD, but is not officially recognized as a dx in the DSM 5) in mind, and obviously influenced by my PTSD. My official dx is PTSD (chronic per the DSM IV and still included on my records as of 2017 for some reason) with dissociative symptoms.

So, here’s the Diagnostic criteria for Autism Spectrum Disorder pulled off the CDC website. With examples of both how PTSD could resemble the ASD criteria, and how being autistic would fulfill the criteria. These are by no means exhaustive or iron-clad, they are simply a starting point.

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honorableotp  asked:

forbidden

+ Jealousy.

Um, so remember how I said I was gonna cut myself off at 1500 words max? Yeah, I failed. This is +4k. It spiraled out of control and I’m like 95% sure there is a part two for this. If you guys are up for it of course. 

This is AU/AH role reversal of sorts, in which Klaus is Caroline’s assistant.


Klaus had always been good at keeping secrets. Ever since he was child, he managed to keep everything sealed inside of him. He kept his love for art a secret from his father. He kept the pain of his father’s slaps a secret from the world outside the confines of his home. As a teenager, he kept his sister’s boyfriends in check without her knowing. And he managed to keep his job at a bakery a secret from his family. At eighteen, he left his address a secret from his family until Elijah found him, relief on his face and hurt in his eyes and it occurred to him that this should not have been a secret. And through it all, what he learned to do best was to keep his feelings secret. With time, he learned to simply keep them in check. So it was no surprise that Klaus’ best hidden secret was his infatuation with his enchanting boss, Caroline Forbes. But it was a surprise to him that his feelings towards her continued to spiral out of control.

He met Caroline at 23 years old, freshly graduated from college, fascinated by the smashing success of her magazine at only 27. He went in for an interview for the position of her personal assistant, his tie slightly off-center and his palms sweating. His chances of actually snatching the job were slim to none. He had no experience beyond his time at the bakery which sustained him through university. He had no network to fall back on which could recommend him to her. But he was determined to go through with the interview. Caroline Forbes, he believed could teach him a lot. Fixing his glasses on his nose once more, he braced himself and walked in.

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anonymous asked:

About the Sylph of Void?

*points* that me

you’re in for a treat anon

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Class summary

Sylphs typically use their Aspect to heal, or heal that Aspect. They are classified canonically as “Witches, but more magical.” They also typically have some great hindrance they must overcome, which is both determined by their aspect and, to a more specific degree, personality, to be able to fully master their aspect. One of the most mysterious Classes in Homestuck.

Aspect summary

Void players generally deal with absence, nothingness. Secrets, discreetness, and things that are hidden, metaphorically and literally. Sometimes they can manipulate the amount of absence an object or being has, making something or someone disappear or reappear, regardless of whether it/they already existed or are currently existing somewhere else. Generally good with puzzles and keeping secrets, and often have a close relationship with the Horrorterrors, as their domain is purely void. Whether the relationship is good or bad is generally determined by the player’s class, but is not limited to those boundaries, and is oftentimes determined by the player’s specific personality and knowledge of these mysterious beings. One of the most mysterious Aspects in Homestuck.

Void Sylphs

The pair of these combined to create a Sylph of Void makes one of the most mysterious and controversial Classpects ever. This is why if you go into the “Sylph of Void” or “Void Sylph” tag, you’ll find more than a few theories about it.

Personality Traits; Mortal

There’s a difference between the personality of a fully realized Void Sylph and a mortal Void Sylph, as there is with any Classpect. 

Mortal Void Sylphs are generally introverted. If not that, they are extremely extroverted and can’t stand being alone at all. They are always the one person who is confided in, and a motto one might use to calm down a friend is “I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry about it. I’ll take the stress away.” Great at keeping secrets, although sometimes they can’t tell whether or not something should be kept secret at all, which leads to significant problems sometimes. They might feel it’s their responsibility to make sure everyone else is happy and sometimes forget about themselves, leaving them feeling kind of empty, although the source of this emptiness is not always known to them. Sometimes they are entirely aware of it and don’t wish to worry anyone else, keeping it a secret. In fact, they might have many secrets about themselves they keep hidden, usually purely for the good of others. When dealing with stress, ignorance is their friend. To fully master their Aspect they must learn to deal with the emptiness inside of them and find a way to heal it. Or, if they cannot, they simply ignore it or pretend it’s not there at all. Generally may feel inferior to others, like they are meant to be placed in a role of servitude, although as long as the morals behind it are sound they are perfectly happy with this. Generally not confident in places of power, but can still adapt if it’s necessary. In fact, they are some of the most adaptable players you can have, simply ignoring things that may get in the way of an objective, ableit sometimes to the fault of ignorance, which can hinder the team further. Do not anger a Void Sylph. They will defend what they truly believe in and those they love fiercely. While passive to things they believe are right, they become offensive towards those they believe are wrong. Great listeners however. They’ll take any time at all to listen to someone’s problems. If they purely believe that this isn’t a problem, they’ll be very upfront. Appearing honest but underneath, very secretive. Love puzzles and anything complicated, treasure hunts, and theories about books or TV shows, anything that connects hidden things or tries to uncover the unknown. Good at hiding themselves, so they’re great spies.

Personality Traits; Fully Realized/Godteir

At this point they’ve overcome the “empty” feeling, learning to either banish it or accept it. This can be done any way necessary, although if not done properly it can come back to bite them later. They’re much better at telling whether or not something should be kept a secret, and if something does need to be hidden, the exceed at this. Go-to people for advice, they’ll be happy to help. Much more open about their own personality if the realization is done right. If not, they’re even more secretive before, and this can sometimes lead to the death of their teammates. While they’re good for confiding in if they’re needed, they often will isolate themselves from the group, making them hard to get to, even if they’ll oblige willingly if there’s a problem. Ask them to be completely honest about themselves, however, and they’ll close up, and try to leave the conversation, even if they have nothing to hide.

Grimdarkness

Void players are generally very close to the Horrorterrors, and whether positively or negatively is up to them. Well, not entirely, but as much as the game can really allow. Grimdarkness is a very flexible area for everyone, so keep in mind that you don’t have to follow this at all.

A Void Sylph would generally know at least a little about the Horrorterrors and Grimdarkness, at least if only by instinct. There are many ways to get them to go Grimdark. They might have to be forced to stop ignoring things to get past them, made to face the reality of their problems, and they’ll become stressed and angered. Their enemy here is being faced with utter truth, being forced to shed any secrecy or ignorance at all. Forcing them to tell their secrets can be used as well.

If any Void player were to go Grimdark, especially one who is fully realized, there is essentially no hope to the session. Void players, already having a powerful Aspect, will be unstoppable under the influence of the Horrorterrors. The only way to ensure any victory at all would be to kill them or Scratch the session.

Powers

In general, these are situation governed, so be aware that sometimes they may not work.

Memory Removal/Manipulation; If a player is particularly traumatized by certain memories and it causes problems in the group, a Void Sylph could “heal” the memory by replacing it with nothing, essentially erasing it. They could still be told the memory, but since they did not essentially experience it, this would no longer pose any problems. This is useful for curing phobias or settling arguments. If a Void Sylph were to use this for evil intentions however, they could theoretically torture someone to get something, then erase the memory and pretend nothing happened.

Human Flashlight; This one’s a bit more for shits and giggles. Basically, if it’s really dark somewhere, a Void Sylph would glow, like a vampire/rainbow drinker.

Void Removal; This one’s a bit tricky. While this cannot be used on themselves, a Void Sylph would be able to fill that “empty” feeling one might have. For example, if you have that feeling like something is missing, but you don’t know what it is, the Slyph would play the role in filling that.

Disappear; Perhaps something is troubling the teammates. At a high level of mastery, a Void Sylph could essentially just make it vanish. Poof. Gone. 

Dream Bubbles; A Sylph of Void may play a role in putting up Dream Bubbles so that their teammates can talk to dead people, or communicate while in dreams.

Invisibility; This is a given for any Void player. They may make themselves and/or their teammates completely invisible. 

Heal; Any healing that has to do with removal. This does not attribute to physical wounds. It only deals with the psychological. A personality trait, or, once again, memories.

Resurrect; Basically, removing the deadness factor from a player.

Calm; Now, this one is very interesting. A Sylph of Void could essentially calm someone from a fit of rage, removing the distracting feelings, or simply shrouding them. The reason this is so interesting is because this also applies to Grimdarkness. The Void Sylph is one of the only players that can remove Grimdarkness. This, however, does not mean they can’t become Grimdark themselves. (see above)

Land

Types of lands include, but are not limited to;

Land of Blankness and Gravity (LOBAG)

Land of Dew and Shadows (LODAS)

Land of Shackles and Torment (LOSAT)

Land of Peace and Patience (LOPAP)

Land of Nerves and Glare (LONAG)

Land of Tunnels and Orbs (LOTAO) 

I actually drew that last one-

Also, here’s a short bit about it;

On the surface, your land is bright but still softened, empty, with many softly sloping hills and tunnel entrances. As you enter into the many areas of organized consorts (dark brown cat-like bipedals), you’ll find that the world becomes much more lively and a bit more chaotic! The world itself is very complex, and the consort’s many organized cities/civilizations are even more so. There is so much to explore and learn. Your quest is to create something that the land needs or create something to improve the land overall, and the different-colored luminescent orbs will guide you where you need to go. You must collect hidden puzzle pieces and assemble an ancient puzzle at the center of the planet, which when completed will unlock your denizen’s chamber, where you will be given The Choice. Your Choice is either to let the denizen free to rule over the feuding consorts (or at least try to, which may not work. it depends on how much you trust your denizen), or seal the denizen away again and try to do it yourself. If the denizen/you succeed, your quest bed will be revealed and you can ascend to god tier.

Challenge

I addressed this earlier obviously, saying one would need to try and “fill their void.” But also, they would need to be more self-aware. As in, focus more on their own wants and needs. They are very selfless, but they often forget about themselves

Whew! You’re lucky I already had a lot of stuff to go on since it’s my own godtier. Enjoy!

Title: it’s my duty
Summary: Who knew something amazing could come out of being pulled over and running late for work?
Disclaimer: I don’t own Naruto.
Prompt: Silver Lining
Rating: K
Warning(s): idk, probably some OOC on Sasuke’s part. It’s an AU with no massacre of any kind, though, so idk. Maybe he’s IC by those standards. WHY DON’T YOU JUDGE.
Comments: Inspired by hallous’s fanart of cop!Sasuke and doctor!Sakura.

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“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Sakura muttered to herself as she heard the sirens go off in warning, and glanced at her rear-view mirror to expectedly find a cop car flashing his blue-red lights at her. Tightening her jaw, she let out a small sound of frustration before moving smoothly to the side of the curb, shifting her car in park and turning off the ignition, while she drummed her fingers against the opened window side, glancing at her watch with a stressed look.

“I’m already running late for work, and it’s Spring Break, one of the busiest times of the year—AKA, my boss is going to murder me.”

Running a hand over her face, Sakura glanced in her mirror and drummed her fingers some more, biting her lip at the cop’s apparent inactivity. She knew he was probably just writing down all the information about her car as part of the usual process, but she couldn’t help wanting for him to hurry up a bit.

She had patients to treat, for god’s sake! Fearless, stupidly injured and probably very intoxicated patients, but still patients regardless!

And it’s not like I ever really speed, she thought to herself, pinching the bridge of her nose. My record is clean! I’m usually a very careful driver!

Hearing the sound of an opening door, she glanced at her mirror again and bit the inside of her cheek, thinking of what she should do. Crap, he’s coming, she thought, as she glanced back a little and saw the man approaching her window. Maybe if I make a cute face I can get away…?

Grinning secretively to herself, Sakura took a quick look at herself in the mirror, before turning to greet her to-be-victim-of-her-charms and putting on the sharpest, cutest smile she could muster—only for it to drop instantly once her eyes set on his out-of-this-world attractive face.

Mouth running dry, and stomach flipping wildly, she stared at him in distress and shattered hope of escape.

Shit, she thought, swallowing the nervous lump in her throat. He’s hot…

“License and registration,” the young cop—who was probably not more than a year or two older, at most—finally spoke, his voice rumbling deep in his chest. It drove shivers down her spine.

Ino would know how to handle this… she said to herself, unable to muster the courage to even open her mouth at all. Her eyes widened as the cop’s gaze finally moved to her, likely wondering why she wasn’t saying or doing anything.

When their eyes met, her cheeks flushed madly. Ino-pig would know how to handle this—but I sure can’t!

Raising a brow, the dark haired police officer called, “Ma’am.” He took his hand out of his pocket and gestured his hand out, as if waiting for something to be handed to him. “Your license and registration, if you would.”

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10 Study Tips

Hey everybody! The school year has definitely started (I am tired all the time, I feel weirdly stressed and for some reason there is always a cup of coffee in my hand…) so I decided to make a list of study tips!

1. Pay attention in class. This is so important because it introduces the topics and ideas you will be studying, and you won’t find yourself playing “catch up” later. Additionally, once you grasp the concept/lesson, you won’t waste time taking notes on everything; only the essentials. Studying starts in the classroom.

2. Keep a planner. A planner plays a vital role in maintaining study habits and getting good grades. I know a lot of people have had success with bullet journals, but a standard weekly/monthly calendar works great too! I personally have adapted the bullet journal format to best fit my needs (if you guys want, I can post pictures of how I organize it). I use my planner to record assignments, assign study blocks, and break larger projects down into daily tasks. I also use it to organize my everyday life too. Another perk is that it gives me the illusion of control!

3. Stay organized. While we are on the topic of organization, another key tip  is having a system to file all of your assignments/notes. Don’t just write the notes and throw them in the bottom of your backpack. If you take the time to write detailed notes use them, don’t lose them! I keep a notebook and a folder for each of my classes. I put all my completed notes in the designated class folder, and at the end of a unit, I pull all my notes out and make a cumulative study guide! Keep track of your notes for optimized unit test studying.

4. Keep a tidy study space. A cluttered desk means cluttered thoughts! But a clean and organized desk encourages productivity, and won’t distract you. When choosing a study spot, opt for a quiet place with enough space to lay out all your materials. Natural lighting is a bonus too ;) before you start a study session, make sure you have all the necessary materials: textbooks, notebooks, writing utensils, and anything else you find helpful. Also have a waterbottle and a snack at hand. This way, you won’t interrupt your concentration to get anything!

5. Find the right method for you. As much as highlighting, color-coding and bullet-journaling is aesthetically pleasing, it doesn’t necessarily mean it is the best method for YOU. Personally, coloring and highlighting helps me organize my thoughts, but if it overstimulates or even distracts you, don’t do it! You don’t get any awards for pretty notes. Find what works well with you. Make note taking fun!

6. Read the text. It is very attempting when given a reading assignment to just take notes or answer the questions as you read. But unless you are seriously crunched for time, it is ideal to read the text first (keeping in mind any questions you might have to answer, and jotting down some quick notes), take detailed notes and THEN answer the homework problems. Yes, this method is more time-intensive, but I guarantee that you will retain the information better. Plus, reading the text before you start note taking can actually save time! Once you understand what the major points are, you can record just the essentials.

7. Write conclusions. Something I have started doing when I’m done with notes is writing a summary or conclusion that reiterates key information. So far, I think it has been very beneficial! Writing a conclusion reminds me of the most important details, and helps me make connections too. Also, when briefing for a quiz, instead of reading all my notes, I can just skip to the summary! Bam. Easy review.

8. Take breaks. It is vital to take breaks when studying! It helps your brain absorb information, and avoid that awful “fried” feeling. Find a ratio that works for you. Personally, a 45:15 minute study to break time is best. Make sure whatever you come up with gives you enough time to get into your “study-groove,” but doesn’t exceed your concentration limits. During a break, I like to go for walks, do some stretching, drink water and eat food, or chat with my sister! Break time is great, but make sure it is distinct from study time. When you go back for another study block, don’t bring your phone! It interrupts your concentration if you are looking down every other minute to read a text, or check a notification. In order to optimize study time, unplug and leave any devices in another room so you aren’t tempted.

9. Dedicate time. This tip kind of goes along with taking breaks. Make yourself a study schedule! And when you plan a study session, really commit yourself to it. Don’t procrastinate or let yourself be distracted. Be as productive as possible in the time you have reserved for study!

10. Don’t get too stressed. It can be difficult to find a balance between being a dedicated student and normal human. But remember: you are a person first, then a student. If your workload is seriously interfering with your mental health, get help! Talk with your teachers, counselors or parents. They are there to assist you. And don’t get caught up in grading; you are going to school to learn, not to be judged. Make learning and studying fun so you get the most out of your education!

I hope these tips help you guys to have a totally productive and kick butt school year! Have fun :)

Sylph of Void

Recently I discovered that upon entering a SBURB or SGURB session, I would probably be classified as a Sylph of Void. I wanted release my inner Arania to make a little (read as “probably really long”) post about that.

Class summary

Sylphs typically use their Aspect to heal, or heal that Aspect. They are classified canonically as “Witches, but more magical.” They also typically have some great hindrance they must overcome, which is both determined by their aspect and, to a more specific degree, personality, to be able to fully master their aspect. One of the most mysterious Classes in Homestuck.

Aspect summary

Void players generally deal with absence, nothingness. Secrets, discreetness, and things that are hidden, metaphorically and literally. Sometimes they can manipulate the amount of absence an object or being has, making something or someone disappear or reappear, regardless of whether it/they already existed or are currently existing somewhere else. Generally good with puzzles and keeping secrets, and often have a close relationship with the Horrorterrors, as their domain is purely void. Whether the relationship is good or bad is generally determined by the player’s class, but is not limited to those boundaries, and is oftentimes determined by the player’s specific personality and knowledge of these mysterious beings. One of the most mysterious Aspects in Homestuck.

Void Sylphs

The pair of these combined to create a Sylph of Void makes one of the most mysterious and controversial Classpects ever. This is why if you go into the “Sylph of Void” or “Void Sylph” tag, you’ll find more than a few theories about it.

Personality Traits; Mortal

There’s a difference between the personality of a fully realized Void Sylph and a mortal Void Sylph, as there is with any Classpect. 

Mortal Void Sylphs are generally introverted. If not that, they are extremely extroverted and can’t stand being alone at all. They are always the one person who is confided in, and a motto one might use to calm down a friend is “I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry about it. I'll take the stress away.” Great at keeping secrets, although sometimes they can’t tell whether or not something should be kept secret at all, which leads to significant problems sometimes. They might feel it’s their responsibility to make sure everyone else is happy and sometimes forget about themselves, leaving them feeling kind of empty, although the source of this emptiness is not always known to them. Sometimes they are entirely aware of it and don’t wish to worry anyone else, keeping it a secret. In fact, they might have many secrets about themselves they keep hidden, usually purely for the good of others. When dealing with stress, ignorance is their friend. To fully master their Aspect they must learn to deal with the emptiness inside of them and find a way to heal it. Or, if they cannot, they simply ignore it or pretend it’s not there at all. Generally may feel inferior to others, like they are meant to be placed in a role of servitude, although as long as the morals behind it are sound they are perfectly happy with this. Generally not confident in places of power, but can still adapt if it’s necessary. In fact, they are some of the most adaptable players you can have, simply ignoring things that may get in the way of an objective, ableit sometimes to the fault of ignorance, which can hinder the team further. Do not anger a Void Sylph. They will defend what they truly believe in and those they love fiercely. While passive to things they believe are right, they become offensive towards those they believe are wrong. Great listeners however. They’ll take any time at all to listen to someone’s problems. If they purely believe that this isn’t a problem, they’ll be very upfront. Appearing honest but underneath, very secretive. Love puzzles and anything complicated, treasure hunts, and theories about books or TV shows, anything that connects hidden things or tries to uncover the unknown. Good at hiding themselves, so they’re great spies.

Personality Traits; Fully Realized/Godteir

At this point they’ve overcome the “empty” feeling, learning to either banish it or accept it. This can be done any way necessary, although if not done properly it can come back to bite them later. They’re much better at telling whether or not something should be kept a secret, and if something does need to be hidden, the exceed at this. Go-to people for advice, they’ll be happy to help. Much more open about their own personality if the realization is done right. If not, they’re even more secretive before, and this can sometimes lead to the death of their teammates. While they’re good for confiding in if they’re needed, they often will isolate themselves from the group, making them hard to get to, even if they’ll oblige willingly if there’s a problem. Ask them to be completely honest about themselves, however, and they’ll close up, and try to leave the conversation, even if they have nothing to hide.

Grimdarkness

Void players are generally very close to the Horrorterrors, and whether positively or negatively is up to them. Well, not entirely, but as much as the game can really allow. Grimdarkness is a very flexible area for everyone, so keep in mind that you don’t have to follow this at all.

A Void Sylph would generally know at least a little about the Horrorterrors and Grimdarkness, at least if only by instinct. There are many ways to get them to go Grimdark. They might have to be forced to stop ignoring things to get past them, made to face the reality of their problems, and they’ll become stressed and angered. Their enemy here is being faced with utter truth, being forced to shed any secrecy or ignorance at all. Forcing them to tell their secrets can be used as well.

If any Void player were to go Grimdark, especially one who is fully realized, there is essentially no hope to the session. Void players, already having a powerful Aspect, will be unstoppable under the influence of the Horrorterrors. The only way to ensure any victory at all would be to kill them or Scratch the session.

Powers

Memory Removal/Manipulation; If a player is particularly traumatized by certain memories and it causes problems in the group, a Void Sylph could “heal” the memory by replacing it with nothing, essentially erasing it. They could still be told the memory, but since they did not essentially experience it, this would no longer pose any problems. This is useful for curing phobias or settling arguments. If a Void Sylph were to use this for evil intentions however, they could theoretically torture someone to get something, then erase the memory and pretend nothing happened.

Human Flashlight; This one’s a bit more for shits and giggles. Basically, if it’s really dark somewhere, a Void Sylph would glow, like a vampire/rainbow drinker.

Void Removal; This one’s a bit tricky. While this cannot be used on themselves, a Void Sylph would be able to fill that “empty” feeling one might have. For example, if you have that feeling like something is missing, but you don’t know what it is, the Slyph would play the role in filling that.

Disappear; Perhaps something is troubling the teammates. At a high level of mastery, a Void Sylph could essentially just make it vanish. Poof. Gone. 

Dream Bubbles; A Sylph of Void may play a role in putting up Dream Bubbles so that their teammates can talk to dead people, or communicate while in dreams.

Invisibility; This is a given for any Void player. They may make themselves and/or their teammates completely invisible. 

Heal; Any healing that has to do with removal. This does not attribute to physical wounds. It only deals with the psychological. A personality trait, or, once again, memories.

Resurrect; Basically, removing the deadness factor from a player.

Calm; Now, this one is very interesting. A Sylph of Void could essentially calm someone from a fit of rage, removing the distracting feelings, or simply shrouding them. The reason this is so interesting is because this also applies to Grimdarkness. The Void Sylph is one of the only players that can remove Grimdarkness. This, however, does not mean they can’t become Grimdark themselves. (see above)

Land

Types of lands include, but are not limited to;

Land of Blankness and Gravity (LOBAG)

Land of Dew and Shadows (LODAS)

Land of Shackles and Torment (LOSAT)

Land of Peace and Patience (LOPAP)

Land of Nerves and Glare (LONAG)

Challenge

I addressed this earlier obviously, saying one would need to try and “fill their void.” But also, they would need to be more self-aware. As in, focus more on their own wants and needs. They are very selfless, but they often forget about themselves

That’s just my personal take on things. Feel free to use whatever information you like!

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anonymous asked:

Do u write Nalu smut? If so could you write where Natsu realizes his feelings for Lucy and they both kiss but with a little more "heat"?

Well, holy shit - I had to cut so much of this - and rush - cuz I was gonna exceed the word limit for my requests - 1k. (It ended up as 994 words m’gosh.)


It felt as though all the hours and minutes he had spent preparing himself were in vain. Natsu fidgeted in his spot, each gush of air constricted in his throat, only escaping with great effort; it was hard to breathe. He knew this moment would come, eventually. He thought he was ready; but truly, he wasn’t. It certainly didn’t seem so.

Natsu bit on his fist, nearly drawing blood. He lifted his knuckles to knock, but froze. If he entered through the door of Lucy’s apartment, she’d surely know something was different. He debated within himself the idea.

“Go casual,” Mira’s words echoed in his mind. She had helped when he asked for advice - after she let out a pterodactyl screech and gushing nonsense, that is. “If you act too tense or stiff, like there’s something wrong, you’ll probably worry her. Don’t. Act normally - as if you were intruding her home for a mission, as usual.”

Natsu nodded to himself, his gaze drifting to the window above him. He glanced back the road behind him, wondering if he could still return - desist. Regardless, he decided; he would have to it anyways. Better sooner than later. Who knew what could happen if he waited too long.

With that thought in mind, he leaped, reaching the window sill. He gripped the cold stone tightly, careful it might give out. With ease, he brought up the rest of his body and slid the glass open once he’d gained enough balance. It was empty. Worry pooled in his gut instantly, and Natsu shook his head, ridding it of plaguing thoughts. Many times had he come to an empty room, and many times had Lucy been in her bathroom. Now that he thought about it, this might just make it more casual. Perhaps casual enough for Lucy not to notice the absence of his partner.

“Natsu?” Lucy’s voice came the moment he settled upon her couch, the mattress dipping beneath his weight. Instinctively, he stiffened.

“Y-yeah?” He cursed himself for stuttering, and he swallowed. He tried again. “Yeah?”

Lucy arched an eyebrow for a second, curious. It only dured a moment, though, for she then sighed. “Telling you to go away won’t work, seeing as you’re already here.”

Natsu acted sheepishly, but his insides were dying, if anything. “Yeah,” He scratched the back of his neck, trying a lazy grin on his lips. “Seems like it.”

Lucy shook her head; then steadied her gaze on him. “Okay, what’s up?”

“W-what?”

Lucy placed her fists on her hips, rolling her eyes. “You’re not acting normal. Something’s up, evidently. So - what is it?”

Natsu cursed, impressed. He‘d only spoken - what - three words? And she already discovered. Truly, she knew him well. A tad too well.

Natsu took a deep breath. Whatever, He concluded; he wouldn’t be able to build atmosphere, anyways. He wasn’t romantic, and the lurching of his stomach was strong enough as it was; needing the perfect moment would only worsen the stutter of his heart. Simply telling her, bluntly, would be better.

“I wanna kiss you,” He blurted, and froze. Lucy’s eyes widened as she spluttered, and he scrambled for better wording.

“I-I mean,” He tried again. “For a while now. I sorta - well - started liking you. I wanted to do it differently, but I kinda panicked and… well, you know…”

“You’re an idiot,” Lucy said, and he lifted his eyes from the floor, expecting rejection. Instead of it, however, he saw Lucy’s soft eyes, her cheeks glowing a warm red. “And you really need to learn how to treat a girl.”

Natsu felt a tad ashamed at that. “Yeah, sorry.”

“But I gotta say - being direct about your feelings, like you were, spares a lot of confusion, misunderstanding, and stress.” softly, Lucy came to place her own hands upon his shoulder. For once, Natsu felt Lucy’s warmth stronger than his.

“So I guess I can say,” She leaned forward, her face coming dangerously close to his. “I wouldn’t have it any other way. And, guess what, I wanna kiss you too.”

Natsu lost it.

He didn’t even remember how, but at some point, Lucy had ended up against the wall - and his arms on each side of her head. And their lips - their lips together, moving sloppily against one another. Natsu had heard, of course, that kissing brought pleasure on one. However, he felt no pleasure of kissing. He felt the pleasure of kissing Lucy.

Lucy moaned loudly into his mouth, and bucked her hips forward, grinding her core against Natsu’s groin. Natsu groaned, and Lucy continued, until Natsu, too, found himself grinding. They both let out erotic noises against one another.

Natsu lips detached from Lucy’s, suddenly, an explicit trail of saliva dripping from his chin. For a moment, he inspected the blonde’s state, and only found himself getting more and more aroused; her eyes were glassy, gleaming; her golden strands stuck to her forehead, sweat glistening on her skin; her hands splayed against Natsu’s chest.

Natsu’s lips flew back to her neck, biting and nibbling at it. Lucy threw her head back and exposed more of her porcelain skin. Natsu took it all greedily and hungrily, enjoying every second of it. His teeth left countless purple, pulsing bruises on her skin, but neither cared.

The atmosphere seemed to grow hot and steamy, the reason obvious. They continued at it for what seemed hours, time a forgotten aspect to both. However, it all came to an end when Lucy’s hands found their way into Natsu’s briefs, and his found Lucy’s garments. They both stopped - and flushed from head to toe.

“We better stop,” Lucy said, breathless. Natsu nodded, his own face aflame.

“Yeah,” He grinned at Lucy, this time truly sheepish. “We better.”

Lucy let herself be enveloped in his arms, and a smirk tugged at her lips as she brought her lips to Natsu’s ear.

“Doesn’t mean we can’t do it again another time, though.”


Requests are open!

baltictides  asked:

Hey babe I was wondering if you could give a list of mermaid traits that I could share with a crowd in Hawaii. I’m doing a workshop with about 300 people (small compared to yours I know but it’s a start!) and when some of them heard I was friends with you they all wanted your input too. You are well respected in the merfolk world! ;) I would really appreciate the help and a lot of people might learn from a good mermaid post! Love you!!

                                 Traits of Mermaid Women

~ Mermaids are water. They are receptive, nurturing, and pure.

~ Mermaids are love. They are here to love and are fully Present in the Moment.

~ Mermaids are fearless. They are not anxious about the past or future… they are purely Here and Now. If you ask an incarnated mermaid if she feels stressed, you will be met with a blank look. Mermaids do not comprehend such ideas. Stress arises from resistance and the mermaid has none.

~ Mermaids have no desire to take and cannot truly be “taken from”. Human relationships with submission, domination, or “give and take” dynamics simply do not occur within a mermaid interaction.

~ Mermaids are not an endangered species. They are timeless and infinite. However due to the way humanity has abused the environment, our oceans and water-inhabitants are in need of a complete change in human behavior.

~ The mermaid presence: Her form is nature and the mermaid does not cling to identity. She is like the sea. No attachment to present form… simply shifting and being all that it is.

~ She is sensual, yes, but from a place of pure receptivity rather than common ideas of “sexiness.”

~ Mermaids are in the flow, whether they are astral or walk in human form. Put an incarnated mermaid into the water and there is no semblance of human personality. There is only water and her playful reflection of the tides.

~ Mermaids always feel complete. They have no human needs and do not understand what neglect feels like. This can be quite frustrating for human partners who enter into a relationship with an incarnated mermaid- roles and male concepts of needing to feel useful in a relationship just fly out the window. She will never need you and if offered the opportunity to go back to her realm, she will do so without a thought for you- since she does not know what it is to “leave something behind.” There is only Now.

~ Mermaids do not bond. They are one with whoever they think upon, but in the absence of the “thought” or “person” there is no attachment whatsoever. Mermaids will be the last people to genuinely say, “I miss you.” They do not know what it is to have something good be absent from them. They already feel whole.

~ Ask any of the incarnated mermaids how they view humans… well once they get past expressing their love for everyone… and you might hear her say something like, “Humans feel half dead.” The mermaid represents a spirit that is completely alive with zero attachments. Humans are still shifting to a state of being where they embody being complete… meaning that the mermaid can feel the difference between the pure water and the one who stands in front of her with insecurities. It is an energetic observation on her part- not a judgment.

~ Mermaids know that most men and women do not love as they love… yet. A few souls have created relationships with the mermaid realm and have done quite well for themselves. Humanity is reawakening and slowly embracing new aspects of love they have forgotten about for centuries.  

~ Mermaids have no sense of time. Timelessness is their way… you might say they are like some starseeds in this manner.

~ Mermaids do not form communities. The only reason a few mermaids (from all over the world might I add… mermaids seem to be born far apart) talk online nowadays is due to the research of Bill Mistele. He studied mermaids for decades and began to slowly seek them out, interview them, and observe their auras. Mermaids already feel complete and they are joined at the core of their beings to nature- they do not need others in order to feel whole or “validated.” However, if you do put two mermaids together it is a real treat because you can observe the unique ways in which they interact and flow endlessly between each other.

~ Yes, mermaids often spend ridiculous amounts of time in water. I spend a minimum of 4 hours per day in water. On a good day that time limit can exceed 10+ hours. =) . I have always lived close to water, which works great for me! My current house is a 3 minute walk from the river. Many humans feel recharged by water as well. The spiritual experience with water seems to make the difference between mermaids and humans- but everyone can experience the infinite nurturing capacity of the magnetic fluid.

~ All mermaids are detached. All mermaids also have psychic empathy. Empathy is one of the biggest traits of the mermaids. It is not like human empathy- it never gets drained and does not need to recharge. It is a part of who the mermaid is and is not seen as a “blessing and a curse” like human forms of empathy often are. it is natural and easy.  My friend Bill Mistele has spent years studying mermaid women- astral and incarnated ones- and he can take any one of us, have us focus on any person in the world, and we can tell him what they are feeling, thinking, and intending in that moment. It makes psychic work much easier for him since we can connect so quickly.

~ The uninhibited presence of the mermaid can be hard for people to comprehend. She does not have insecurities and her love has no favoritism (although the spiritual/empathetic state of a person can determine how deep the relationship goes).

~ All mermaids use water in their healings even if they employ forms of healing such as reiki. All mermaids have psychic abilities that extend beyond healing. One mermaid can “zap” people around her and make them fall over. Another mermaid cannot be allowed near electronics. She has had over 40 phones in one year. All of them had “water damage” upon inspection even though she had not taken the devices anywhere near water. One mermaid and I can locate fishing boats anywhere in the world, make contact with them in waking or dream states, and usually persuade them to stop fishing/finning for the time being.  A whaling ship in the arctic turned around after a fellow mer and I made contact with it. A woman was on board and her higher empathy levels enabled her to hear our message. We later were able to speak with her in person due to a long chain of events. Everything ended wonderfully.

~ Mermaids never stop loving anyone. Even if a romantic relationship or friendship ends, they cannot fathom ending the “love.” It continues infinitely.  

~ Mermaids often have no sense of purpose in life other than “to love.” They usually don’t have normal careers. All of the mermaids heal the oceans in some way or another but I don’t think any of us would refer to it as a “career” since it is hard for us to think in those terms. Mermaids do not feel better about themselves due to their accomplishments, earthly possessions, or popularity. As stated before they already feel whole and do not need external validation. Any action a mermaid takes in our world is heart-based and comes from a place of pure love.

~ There are many people in this world who love the ocean. There are activists for coral reefs, dolphins, and the watery essence itself. They are amazing and are in no way inferior to mermaids- but as you can see being a mermaid is an experience that can be distinguished from just loving the ocean and being a voice for it (though those are parts of it!). It is the embodiment of the water element itself in the aura, the “personality” if it exists, and in the healing and psychic realms.

Notes for those who have chosen a relationship with a mermaid/merman:

*** The mermaid may have a far deeper connection with her fish than you will ever have with her. She and the other mermaids also share the water element in their auras and all water is “One.” This means that they share a relationship you may not understand in this life (it’s up to you). This is why some men in relationships with mermaids get frustrated. They want to be a part of what she has with her fish (mostly bettas in my case and in Kate’s case!) and with other mermaids. You might say they get a little jealous. This comes from the human need to bond. My suggestion: Begin the process of developing water in your own aura. There are a few people on this planet who are human but who do have the auras of mermaids and mermen because they have taken the time to develop those qualities in themselves. Start with this. Learn to release resistance and to be completely present in the moment without demands. ***

(Example of above note: After many decades of discovering about 20 incarnated mermaids from all over the world, Bill flew a few of them to Hawaii and took the mermaids to a restaurant along with a couple of humans (who were working on film projects with him). During the evening several people outside of the group observed that there was a ring of water flowing through all of the mermaids all around the table. When the “water ring” reached a human who sat between two mermaids, the ring skipped around them and continued to the next mer-woman.)

*** You may experience certain side effects from her mermaid aura. Chris could not drive in a car with me for well over a year without getting seasick, “high” off of the energy, or without experiencing withdrawal symptoms when I was away. Some meditations helped him a lot and he began to acclimate to my energy field. Now he can drive for 10 hours or more with me in the car. =) It still takes him a minute to get his sea legs but it is a far cry from being too “high” off of my energy to drive a car for a full 24 hours after spending only a few minutes with me. In other words a mermaid might make you feel so good that your responsibilities become nigh impossible. Her magnetism can be very intense. Take steps to be aware of this and to adjust accordingly. ***

*** What a mermaid IS is something everyone on this planet can eventually become. Mermaid love may seem like something exotic and unattainable, but it is just love that is functioning at healthy levels (that much of humanity has forgotten about). All humans can learn to love from the core of their beings and join effortlessly with others as mermaid women do naturally. This planet can transcend greed, domination, desire for control over others, jealousy, insecurity, and more. Right now incarnated mermaid women on planet earth are “one in one hundred million”: aka not that many. Being a mermaid has become trendy in our society and it is humanity seeking that part of Itself as a collective. Purchasing a mermaid tail and wearing sparkly blue makeup can be fun, but who can sit in a state of silence without thoughts invading for 20 minutes? 60 minutes? Who can love without inhibition and transform the world through their empathy and ability to nurture the dream of another? Who among us can let go of demands and simply Be? Who can release the ego and be united with nature at the core of their being? Who can see into each heart and heal what is missing? These are traits we can all learn to embody. These are messages from the mermaids. ***